i am having all the feelings right now

Ok guys*takes a deep breath* heres the thing

I am probably the most heartbroken person in the world right now
We have all the right to be mad.
But mad at who?
Yixing… Who is overworked to death at this point? And whose chinese activities are whats keeping most chinese exoLs stick around despite exo not being there for years?
Rest of exo…? That are again constantly living in airports and touring constantly to earn money to sustain like 50% of SM at this point and spomsoring everyones comebacks?
SM entertainment? Who knows.. Its a company that works on profit and has way many artists to manage apart from exo.. They have their constraints as well…?
Yixing studio? Who knows… They know how important it is for yixing to be doing everything he is rn to maintain his still developing star status in the hugely competetive chinese industry.
Do we blame THAAD? China? S. Korea? Missiles? Wars?
We don’t need anyone to be mad at.
So like.. Be angry… Possibly cry (like me) in the shower if you like. Be disappointed. But then.. Remember how much effort everyone has been putting for this comeback. Right now exo is probably shooting in the studio working hard for the MV. They (all 9 of them) are probably disappointed too. And oh my god the amount of effort my dear fandom has been putting over these genius comeback concepts and the melon streaming passes and international group orders! Come on guys… We cant let our pretty little projects and all those hair dyes go to waste!! Sorry for being cheesy.. But the comeback being “GRAND” or not depends on us.
Yixing will come back next time soon. I know. For now.. Lets celebrate what we have. Lets not make them feel guilty for given the circumstances i am sure this is the best they can offer us. Please be angry… Scream all you want.. But if we are not going to be with exo at this time..who will? Who other than exo Ls will support exo? Cheer up girls (and guys). Its not the end of the world. We have survived a lot more than this.

Harry...

I…Potter?

Is that…is that really you?

I can’t believe it. After such a long time that felt like hell, I finally get to see a light.

Yes, you do light up my world right now.

And your words…

Most people think I am all rude and dead inside, but I have feelings, you know, and the most intense feelings I have are for you, Harry.

I’m sorry if I sound weird, or cringe worthy, or…maybe stupid. But I am so happy right now.

I don’t care if this response is just a dream (which I’m getting ready to wake up from), because right now I just want to feel that sparkly thing going on in my heart.

And that smile you’re painting on my face.

I think we should meet up, talk, hell, talk about everything!!

I want to apologize and to tell you my reasons for my behavior towards you.

Please tell me when you’re free, so we can meet, wherever and whenever you’d like.

Thank you, Harry. Thank you.

Yours, Draco

—-

[Part 3 of the letter. Part 1 is on my blog, part 2 is on @kawaiispiritsfangirling (also follow that precious adorable bean).]

anonymous asked:

Oh no. Oh no no no no no (sorry I've just woken up and seen the rumors are confirmed). And I cannot do anything except say "no no no no no" over and over. I am curious but it feels too invasive to look it up right now. That family has the strength of lions and warriors, and I wish so much that the universe would cut them a break so they wouldn't have to be so strong. Robin was so quiet but radiated love for his family. I have nothing helpful to say, so I'm sending them my love. All of it.

that crushing sensation is something i hoped i wouldn’t feel again for a very long time. i couldn’t agree more: strength is one of their natural qualities, but they shouldn’t have to put it to use so much. they should just be able to breathe and live without people and things being torn away from them at every corner.

Update - Kaity is going crazy

Originally posted by ch3wbacca-stol3-my-addiction

Hey so once again I am still alive, but just going absolutely insane.  

This is day 6 out of 8 before I get a day off and I have been working 3 jobs this week and literally I just feel the need to curl into bed and never get out.  

But I am doing alright.  I am making it through with what little sanity I have left.  

But I have been neglecting this blog, and I don’t think that’s something I need to apologize for because real life comes first, but I do miss posting and communicating with you guys and such.  

What I don’t have time for: responding to all the reblogs or mentions or messages - I just can’t keep up with it right now.

What I have had time for: A little bit of writing here and there.  I have something for @outside-the-government‘s birthday which I am going to try to get out tonight.  I have something half-done for Uhura week as well as I am going to try to get a character study done to post soon - just gotta find the time. 

I want to apologize to @gryffindor9whovian because it’s her birthday today and I don’t have anything for her.  So if you have a second to send her a message she loves Jim Kirk and I think deserves a few birthday messages from him. 

Please be patient with me on here, things will hopefully chill out around July 1st as I start my new job but no promises.  Love you guys<3

Free Day: Killervibe Mixtape

Killervibe Mixtape: I Got You

Most of you don’t know this about me, but I am a massive music nerd. I do musical theater and I play piano and guitar and I sing. Music is a huge part of my life and often how I make sense of emotions, which often translates to my favorite characters and ships.

 I have a lot of songs that remind me of certain characters or ships, and all of these come from that collection that I listen to while I’m writing to get inspired. I agonized over the song order, to give it kind of a progressive intro-climax-coda feel. A lot of these are sad and angsty because that’s just where I am with these two right now, but I tried to give it a mix of tempos to keep things interesting. These two are just so special to me and these beautiful songs all remind me of them. I hope these inspire you while you’re writing!

please reblog/like i worked hard on this

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Face and body updates. I’ll be 33 weeks tomorrow (and will do my usual baby bump updates on Saturday). I weighed in at 188.3 pounds at my 32 week appointment on Monday so my weight gain is still in the healthy range (I believe I started at 162.4 pounds so I’m up 25.9 pounds so far). I don’t feel like I look that weight at all so I jokingly told my Hubby that Baby Gunner must have the density of lead.

My workouts will probably resume in about 2 weeks after all my major decluttering and organization projects are finished (I am realistic about the fact that I can’t handle training/walking Ritter, decluttering, and working out right now). It will be interesting once I’m back to my Prenatal workouts since I’m not sure if my carpal tunnel hand issues will have an impact on my abilities (I can foresee anything requiring my hands palms-down on the ground being challenging with the swelling, tingling, and numbness).

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I love tao so much and i feel so bad not making any posts about him or not being able to support him fully right now or watch his latest activities because my laptop is having problems ugh i swore i would post more about him as soon as my exams end but its so sad i am living reblogging stuff over my cellphone… Not that I am a very creative content maker or anything but i want to do what I can i am right now unable to do so I am so sorry to you all.. .

anonymous asked:

Hi, can I request a star for my friends? They have been going through a tough time, just coming out to their families and friends and just drama all together. I just want them to be happy and I just want them to know that it will get better even though it doesn't seem like it... I just want them to feel accepted :)

Things will definitely get better, even if it may not seem like it right now. I am so proud of them for coming out to their loved ones, that is a HUGE step and they are amazing for taking it.

With time and effort they will be able to build a network of family and friends that support and accept them for who they are. They are valid and enough just as they are, and those that should be in their lives will recognize that.

Things will get better, friends, hang in there <3

Keep on shining!
♥ Courtney

happy pride month especially to those who can’t be open offline and to their friends and family due to choice, personal safety, etc. i love all of you and i hope you have a wonderful pride month 🌈🌈🌈

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No Pain, No Gain” 

Based on a Miraculous musing that I shared last year (that I can’t seem to find on my main blog) about Master Fu taking Nino under his wing to become the next holder of the Turtle Miraculous and awesomely enough, I’m not the only miraculer who shares this thought. The very first time I saw Master Fu, I immediately thought of Mr. Miyagi cause you have to admit, the resemblance is definitely there and since then I’ve been itching and hoping that the series would do a Karate Kid inspired episode where Nino comes to Master Fu for help.

Like maybe there’s this new schoolyard bully with the hots for Alya who starts targeting Nino specifically due to his relationship with and somewhat own romantic interest in our foxy gal; constantly challenging him to foolish fights for Alya’s love. Being the nonchalant character he is, Nino dismisses the bully’s initial advances at harrying as he wasn’t the type of guy to want to fight anyone.  

And in similar Karate Kid type of fashion, Master Fu firstly meets Nino after he saves him from being pummelled by said bully and his comrades when they suddenly cornered him after school. Following that event, Nino is forced to fight back against said bully; seeking out Fu for help, practically begging him to teach him how to fight; a request which Fu surprisingly accepts.

This is how I imagined Fu’s first encounter with Nino to be like. And after helping him the first time, Master Fu starts to acknowledge potential in Nino—a potential which inspires him to start training him to be his successor. I imagine that at first Wayzz wouldn’t be too keen with the idea of Nino one day replacing Master Fu as his new master cause I figured that, unlike Plagg, Tikki and possibly the other kwamis, Wayzz is the one who’s been with his original holder the longest; considering that Fu is over 100 years old. While the others had had to change holders over the years, Wayzz has been with Fu since the day one and is very much loyal to him.

But ultimately I imagine once he sees Nino’s good qualities, Wayzz will begin to warm up to the young lad and actually starts to care for his well being; seeing a lot of the qualities in Nino that he did in Master Fu that made him love him as his master. Plus I think this kind of scenario could be great for Nino’s own character development as a teacher-mentor relationship with Master Fu can certainly help mould him into a stronger individual and hero. Not to mention that it’ll be really touching to see Master Fu have a sort of father-son/grandfather-grandchild/close family oriented relationship with at least one of our young heroes and I think Nino would be the perfect candidate to bring out that side of him. We don’t know if Fu used to have any kids of his own. I doubt he ever did given his duty as Miraculous holder and Ancient Guardian (and even if hid have some, he probably outgrew them since he’s practically immortal). So yeah, I’d love to see that kind of bond with Fu, Nino and Wayzz in the series, if possible.  

Do I think Master Fu will choose Nino as his successor for the Turtle Miraculous? Indeed I do.

However, do I think he’ll just hand it to him on a silver platter like he did with Adrien and Marinette? HA! Hell no! I think Master Fu will go full Mr. Miyagi on Nino and make him work for his miraculous, putting him through a rigorous training regimen to build his strength and test his worth. Plus it’ll be good for comical moments when Fu unintentionally pushes poor Nino too far and has to be scolded by Wayzz for getting too excited and overdoing things with his student. Poor Turtle Sensei just wants to see his Turtle Kouhai succeed XD

Would love to see this become canon but…for now these are all just headcanons of mine. In the meantime, a squiggle meister can dream…and draw, am I right? Alrighty I’ve rambled enough on this. As always, I hope everyone enjoys this week’s newest ML squiggle art and I hope you also enjoyed my Miraculous musing (granted you actually read all of that). Feel free to share yours over on my main blog if you have any.

Until the next squiggle piece, y’know my motto, staaaay tune for more precious star kids!  (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

♥ More Miraculous Art by Squiggles

~LittleMissSquiggles (2017)  

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folkin’ around // panic! at the disco

Long story short.

Me: *goes up to Jensen and Misha feeling her heart beating all the way up in her throat*

Jensen & Misha: *smiling* “Hiiiii!”

Me: *smiles and stumbles over her own words*

Me: “I’m sorry, I know its not pie, but it’s the closest I could find. so I was wondering what would Dean’s and Castiel’s reaction be to seeing this monster donut.”

Lol, I have no idea what Misha as Cas is doing. Feeling for a heartbeat? Looking for molecules? Giving the donut a blessing? :’) One will never know… Some friends and I were reminded of something else as well, but that I won’t mention right now… :‘P

Owl post

So you know how owls don’t need an address to find the person the letter is addressed to? What if these owls were even cleverer than that?

Imagine Draco, sometime after the war, sitting alone in his flat and not knowing what to do with himself. He feels so empty, but on the other hand, there’s so much he wants to say. But who should he talk to? There’s nobody there. So he just begins writing his thoughts down. Sometimes it’s little poems. Sometimes it’s like he’s writing a journal. And sometimes he writes letters, addressed to no one. He keeps writing every day and whenever he’s finished, he puts the piece of parchment onto the little pile on his desk, where he keeps all his personal writing.

If Draco had been paying more attention, he would have noticed that this pile wasn’t getting any bigger. It stays exactly the same, because his sneaky little owl delivers one per day to the person she thought could help Draco the most.

When she lands on her usual windowsill on Number 12 Grimmauld Place, the window is already open and Harry is smiling at her with a treat in his hand.

“You’re very punctual,” he murmurs as he strokes her feathers. He carefully takes the piece of parchment out of her beak and smiles as she starts nibbling at her treat. Harry suspects Malfoy still doesn’t know that his owl is bringing him these letters.

Harry had been puzzled himself at first, but it hadn’t taken him long to figure out who had written these. After that, he had tried to talk to the owl, tried to explain to her that she must have gotten the wrong address, because surely this wasn’t meant for him.

But the owl had come back every day, bringing Harry another piece of parchment and Harry had found himself mesmerized by them. The poems were heart-wrenching, Malfoy talking about his day made Harry want to go over there and talk to him. But he doesn’t dare. He would have to admit, he read Malfoy’s most inner thoughts without his consent. And Harry doubts, the Malfoy he would be facing would be the same as the Malfoy in these letters.

Sighing, Harry settles down on the couch and begins to read today’s owl post.

I had a dream last night. It wasn’t one of my usual nightmares, but I guess you could still call it that, because this will very likely haunt me for the rest of my days. It was about him. We were younger, much younger. We were on the Quidditch pitch, but not as enemies. We were just flying together, laughing together. It was so strange to see him like this. His eyes didn’t hold the resentment I am used to. He was looking at me like I was his whole world. It still hurts to think about it now. The worst part, however, was the way he cupped my cheeks and smiled at me, right before he kissed me. I could still feel his lips on mine when I woke up. I wasn’t even sure if I had been dreaming or not for a second. Then, reality crashed down on me again. Sometimes, I wonder what would happen if he knew. If he had known back then. I’m not sure if it would have made a difference. All he ever did was hate me, just as much as I pretended to hate him. I regret he never saw the truth. All I ever wanted was him. And for one night, my mind granted me that wish. However, I hope it doesn’t happen again. Only if my mind decides to let me dream forever.

Harry feels dizzy when he puts the letter down. It’s true, he never saw the truth, never even knew there was a truth to be seen. He had never thought to look beyond their fighting and mutual obsession. Never thought it could mean something else entirely.

But over the past few weeks, he discovered a whole different side of Malfoy and thereby discovered something about himself. He wants to take Malfoy’s pain away. Maybe he’s been wanting to do that for a while. And now, Harry knows he can.

He jumps up from the couch and locks eyes with the owl, still sitting on the windowsill.

“You clever little thing,” he whispers to her, as he strokes her feathers one more time. She hoots happily, as if encouraging Harry to hurry up. So he does. He hurries out the door, to apparate to Malfoy’s flat. He has no idea how he will do it and how long it will take Malfoy to believe Harry’s intentions are genuine, but it doesn’t matter.

He will do everything he can to make Draco Malfoy’s dreams come true.

anonymous asked:

hi, what bughead fics are you currently reading and why. thx -anon

This is a very big question, GrayFace. Firstly. I read a lot of fic. A LOT of fic. I love all the tumblr one-shots from our immensely talented Bughead writers. I wish all of them posted them on Ao3 so I could comment and squee all over again along with all the other one-shots I’ve read and reviewed. There are only officially a total of 595 Bughead fics on Ao3 right now - and I would guess I’ve read at least 500 of them… 

However, I get the feeling the question is talking about the WIPs I’m following at the moment. I’ve subscribed to 19 pages worth of fics for all different fandoms - so I can’t really give a concise answer.

How about I just share a bunch of Bughead fics (because let’s be honest - like 90% of those of you who actually actively interact with me are fellow Buggies) - that I am EAGERLY awaiting updates on. As of right now - none of these are complete - and only SOME of the fics I have alerts for. 

Long Live Rock by @ficmuse- because seriously, unless you’re new here - you already know that FM is my girl. The BLT series should be required reading for a Bughead shipper. 

Chiaroscuro by @formergirlwonder- LITERALLY filmed in black and white. It’s Film Noir at it’s VERY finest. I can’t get enough of this fic.

The Stacks by @malmo722- Juggie and V are the best of friends and V is a big Bughead shipper. I love them.

fall in light by sylwrites  - DUDE. It’s just about over and I’m not prepared. One of my most favourite Bughead fics ever. Roomates->Friends->Lovers  **just finished this afternoon** 

I’ll Wait for You by @a-girl-named-whiskey - Underground Racing Bughead. Need I say more?

tell them we sold out by thedeadsea33  - DUDE. Fight!Club Bughead. We need more. So much more of this. What does a fangirl have to do to get more of this?

In the Still of the Night by BlueLonghand  - Amazing. I don’t know how else to describe it. 

Behind the Rear Window by @jugandbettsdetectiveagency- Rear Window AU

1971. by @katiedegennaro- set in the 70s. Super good. Mystery and Journalism. 

Do You Believe in Fate? by @jennimisk - Because it’s a Bughead in Italy AU and it’s wonderful.

Skin to Skin by @burgerheadjones - Soulmate AUs are my BAG. I wish there were a million more of them. I love them.

the winged beast by @onceuponamirror - I’m a sucker for Juggie from the Southside.

Make It Work by @raptorlily - because Fake Dating is awesome. Also because all of raptorlilly’s fics are awesome. Also  And Other Collisions  - because.

red sunrise by @lusterrdust - Zombies and Bughead! Nearly complete - but seriously, I’m subscribed to Luster - so I get notified every time she posts anything and I stop what I’m doing and read it. Because it’s Luster.

Needing/Getting by slantedsunlight -  SKI TRIP Bughead! It’s AU but it’s fabulous and I’m dying for more.

That Primeval Cosmic Night by LoneWulffe  - this one just started but there are dreams involved and I’m parking myself right here waiting for more.

Bughead by @wordgirl80 - Goes along with the episodes - but is SO much more. And I’ve managed to convince her to continue through the summer instead of waiting until the new season picks up. You’re welcome.

Finding a home by @bughead4days- Serpent!Betty. Honesty I would read anything Erika writes - even if it was just Bughead watching paint dry - so I’m biased here. And there are quite a few of her fics that are WIPs and I’m waiting on all of them:  A Dangerous GameTurf Wars - seriously all of them. 

Shuffle Off This Mortal Coil by @it-happened-one-starry-night - A sweet take on Bughead getting married young and the traumas that surround that.

Softening the Edges by Ruby_JW - through their whole friendship - vignettes from their past. This is really good.

Ash and Smoke by saltyhowell - SOUTHSIDE REPRESENT!

We are all Riverdale by NyGi  - Post S1 - and super good. the update today had me emotional.

Jughead’s Circular File by AvenuePotter  - I feel a lot of feels when I read a new chapter of this. It’s full of pain and angst but I love Juggie’s voice in it.

The Boy on the Bike by SereneCalamity - AU - Betty and Juggie meet in LA. So good. There are motorcycles. lol.

Gun Song by Shippershape - it’s been so long since this was updated but it’s also so amazing and awesome. Maybe if other people go forth and fangirl that will help the author know we’re dying for more?

Edited after because I suck!
Self Conclusion by @betsforsythetrash
 - warning mentions of suicide attempts but also so super good.

I’m still working on my giant spreadsheet of fics (but I recently got distracted trying to write my own Bughead fic). The list is still gonna happen though - Complete and WIPs too - but the fic needs to happen too. 

So yeah. I hope this answers your question, Grayface. And remember - this isn’t an exhaustive list. There are lots of fics I’m still reading and probably didn’t add to the list. If you wrote one and I missed it - I’m sincerely sorry. Love to all of you!

how does one not get stressed

#DateMeBuckyBarnes (Part 11)

Summary: When Hollywood’s heartthrob Bucky Barnes breaks up with his girlfriend, you jokingly tag him in a selfie on Instagram to express your desire to date him. What you don’t expect is a response from the man himself [Modern AU].

Word Count: 714

‘#DateMeBuckyBarnes’ Masterlist

A/N: I don’t know what to say…

Originally posted by sebastiansource

“So…did I sweep you off your feet?” Bucky asked eagerly as the both of you walked through the city streets, his hand resting on your back. “Did I impress you enough for a second date with you?”

You shot him a funny look. “You mean friend date, right?” you corrected with a giggle while he shook his head at you, frowning. “This isn’t really a date.”

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#Helsinkihandhold <3

I don’t know, I just wrote what I felt. Like I’m always trying to do. In my most vulnerable moments nobody is really there for me. Of course that’s also part of my depression telling me that. But I just feel horrible. Especially right now. I try not to expect anything from anybody anymore. But I always have in mind what I would do if somebody send me the messages I sent to you. And I would write differently. I would write: “I understand. I want to cuddle, touch and kiss you too. I am sending you all the affection my broken heart and soul can.” But I am not you. And this is wishful thinking. And also this is having expectations. Which I try not to have. But as you told me many times: humans have needs. And I don’t want to be angry with you or sad or push you to do something just because I need it; because that is wrong. But in these moments I sometimes think: “Why didn’t you just simply answered me: I’m sending affection, my love. I love you and I know it’s hard. I know it.” But I know you have hard times too. And I understand you, I think. But you see how much I think about everything. You see how long this message is? I know I need help and I will get it soon. But right now I have to finish university. And it’s F*CKING nearly impossible sometimes to just write one f*cking sentence of my thesis. But you know all that. And I know that you know. And I understand that it’s f*cking hard for you, too. What you’re going through right now. And we’re just humans and we’re stubborn and we need our needs to be fulfilled or else we go crazy somehow. And we hurt others. Okay that’s enough from me and my f*cking sick brain. I love you. I truly do.
—  dewdropheart