i love cats. cats and taylor swift. cats, taylor swift, the color pink, and candles. also very wide mini dresses that are fun to twirl in. i also love mimosas and seeing my friends achieve their goals. animals are amazing. i want a pet. macaroons are my favorite pastry. my presence in general is a bit overwhelming and annoying but i am always covered in glitter. a quarter of the time, im holding flowers of some type. my dark jokes are always met with an uncomfortable silence and usually followed by me giggling. did i mention i love cats? taylor swift is a very big part of my life. people think my love for her is weird and most of the people i know absolutely despise her but no one gets the fact that she gave me a home when they didnt. her music and her presence took me in and made me feel okay when they didnt give two shits about what i was going through. she helped me find parts of myself and that’s something no one can take away from me, no matter how much they insult her or how much i enjoy her. i hope she knows that much at least. that when the world is against her, there are people who don’t really know her but know her well enough to understand that though she can/will screw up, she was there for us and that makes it so much harder to leave her. i dont know what i’m saying. she’s a fucking dweeb and she’s boring as hell right now but i owe her a part of me because she doesnt know it but she gave me so much of who i am today. people who cant respect how much she means to me cant respect me and…..it’s a waste of time to stick around if you cant accept all of my angles. truthfully i have like 3 friends…..maybe 2.76 friends to be exact. but taylor makes me forget that. i have a memory, good or bad, to go with so many of her songs and her music never leaves me. she can stay away as long as she wants but her music has been there for me longer than most people in my life. i forgot what the point of this post was but just fyi i love taylor swift.
Just thinkin about loud here. These pics of H in Paris are just making me....uneasy. I know we love him and he knows that, and I know he's a grown man who can take care of himself I just. In those videos I just get uneasy for him. Am I being silly? I just can't even watch them I get anxious, I get a little scared for him. I'm meaning no disrespect to the fans there. It's just... I don't know. It looks overwhelming and he can barely walk and it looks unsafe. It's just a very uneasy feeling.