i am far too distracted right now i should be doing uni work

Stressed Out

Shawn Mendes
Words ~ 1,200
Warnings ~ Probs swearing
Request ~
Hi! I love your blog! Could you write something about Shawn trying to calm you down after you become super stressed and upset about school exams? It can be fluff or smut I don’t mind either way. Thank you! xxx @zoestraub 

The mess of papers landed on the coffee table with a loud thump. Shawn let out a frustrated sigh as he trailed into the room behind me. I sat on the floor and started sorting through the pages and pages of revision notes.

“Baby, when I was complaining about it being three in the morning, I meant that you should come to bed, not move into a different room.” Shawn whispered, keeping his voice low so not to wake my roommates. I didn’t respond which just annoyed him even more, “Baby, you’re exhausted. Just come to bed.”

His plea almost made me cave in, almost.

Shawn sighed again and sat next to me, grabbing me hands so I would stop fidgeting with the papers, “Look at me.”

“I need to finish revising.” I mumbled, not really sure if it was to Shawn or more to myself. Despite what I just said, my eyes slowly began drifting shut while the throbbing pain behind them became more evident. He was right, I am exhausted. But I needed to revise for this test.

“You need to stop.” Shawn placed a hand on my cheek, physically drawing me away from my work.

“No, you need to stop.” I snapped and slapped his hand away, my voice a bit too loud for this time of night but I didn’t care. So what if I wake up the others? The worst they can do was shout at me and distract me more.

Shawn reached out for my cheek again in one last attempt to get me to stop, but all that did was anger me more. The sad look on his face when I stood up made my heart break a little, but I was already too far gone.

“Seriously! I need to study!” I lowered my voice before carrying on, “This test is like half of my grade and I need to get full marks. I’m already falling behind on the course. If I don’t do well on this, then there’s a high chance that I’ll be kicked out of Uni That’s two years of my life and over eighteen fucking thousand pounds down the drain. You saw how my Dad reacted when John dropped out. If he finds out that I got kicked out he’ll disown me. The I’ll be stuck here in bloody England with no money and no job because I don’t have the right VISA. And I’ll end up living on the streets as a God damn prostitute or drug dealer or doing some other illegal shit.”

I was crying so much by the end of my rant that it became hard to breath. Shawn rushed to my side and gathered me in his arms. At first I fought him, hitting at his chest and failing at pushing him away. He didn’t even flinch once. I eventually became too tired and gave up.

We stayed like this for a long while until I finally calmed down. At some point we ended up on the sofa with me sitting on Shawn’s lap. I could feel his chest vibrating against my side as he hummed the tune to some song that sounded familiar. Normally this would have soothed me to sleep, but I couldn’t stop my mind from replaying thoughts of the exam and how I still needed to study.

Shawn was the first one to break the silence, “A prostitute? Really?”

I laughed and hid my face further into his neck. Not what I was expecting to hear him say, but at the same time I was kind of happy to hear it. I really didn’t want to sit through another one of his giant speeches on how I should talk to him about things that were worrying me. I already had enough of that last time he visited.

“We’re not sleeping any time soon, are we?” Shawn asked after a few more minutes of silence. By ‘we’, I’m guessing Shawn meant 'me’ seeing as he was already half asleep.

“You can go back to bed. I’ll just stay in here. Plus, it’s already three thirty, there’s no point in me trying anymore.” I tried to reason but he wasn’t having any of it.

“Nope. If you’re not sleeping, then I’m not sleeping.” Shawn said matter of factly as he dumped me on the sofa and stood up, “Now get your shoes. We’re going on an adventure.”

***

We ended up walking around the city for an hour before coming across an 'open all hours’ café. Apart from us, the only other people in the café was the little elderly women behind the till and a homeless man whom I happily brought a meal.

“He looks so happy.” Shawn commented on the look of joy on the man’s face when the elderly women brought out his food. I just smiled and took another sip of my tea.

“Well one of us should be happy tonight.” I joked, remembering what we were talking about on the way here. I don’t know how exactly, but Shawn somehow managed to get me on another long ass rant about how much I hated the course I was taking.

“If you’re this unhappy with the course, why don’t you just drop it?” He asked like it was the easiest thing in the world.

“Because my Dad will get mad. He’s paid too much money towards the course-”

“I already told you I can pay him back.” He cut me off.

“Shawn, I’m not letting you pay off my thousands of pounds worth of debts.” We’ve been through this many times before. Even before I before I started Uni two years ago, Shawn was already offering to pay for my tuition. And while it was a very sweet offer, I just couldn’t let him do that.

“Baby, I make more money than I know what to do with. At least if I do this it’s going towards something worthwhile.” Shawn smiled weakly and grabbed my hand across the table. I looked anywhere but his eyes, knowing if I did I was going to do something stupid like agree to his madness.

“I mean, the course isn’t that bad-”

“-Since when have you ever liked science?”

“Biology is fun. The human body is a cool thing!”

“And how many times have you passed out in class because you’ve seen blood?”

“Only like three times.”

“Baby.” His voice came out weaker this time, “I know you hate Biology. I know you want to be doing something like English or Media. Please, let me do this for you. All I want is for you to be happy.”

The sound of birds cheeping outside became louder as the sun slowly started to rise. When I finally looked up at Shawn, the early morning rays where casting a golden glow onto his face making him look a thousand times more handsome than he already was, even with his messy bed hair sticking up all over the place. And when I looked into his eyes, I could see how much he really wanted to do this for me. And like suspected, I caved into his wish.

I nodded my head, “Okay.”

The biggest smile I’ve ever seen lit up Shawn’s face as he kissed my enclosed hand, “I love you.”

He kept kissing my hand until I repeated the words back to him. And when I did, he suddenly jumped up from his seat and dragged me up with him.

“Come on, I want you to show me that really beautiful park you keep telling me about.”

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