i am emotional over this wow

you: wow yoi didn’t end on a gay enough note :////

me, an intellectual: Yuuri and Viktor’s entire relationship was based off of trust and emotional support which makes it one of the most romantic and loving relationships we’ve seen in a long time especially in a sports anime where they are known for queerbaiting fans and the last time i checked Viktor and Yuuri were engaged so if that ain’t gay-

I watched the final scene from TVD even though I don’t watch it anymore and don’t have a clue what’s going on but wow that made me emotional I am crYING my eyes out, what will I be like when pll is over

got7 theory

okay so i feel bad for giving an nonsensical answer to anon yesterday during my shit posting so here is my theory about the mv. please note that this is my personal interpretation. also, i am emotional and running on 4 hours of sleep so this is very messy and might not be accurate.

TURN BACK WHILE YOU CAN!!!!

alright, let us start now. hold on, fam. It is a wild flight. (wow i’m so funny hahaha)

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An open letter to the fucktart that wrote the article “5 Reasons to Date a Girl with an Eating Disorder”

Hello.

It is I, your lusted after girl with not one! But two!! How lucky are you to get someone who is anorexic AND bulimic!

But seriously go fuck yourself

Let’s go through this step by step, shall we?

Your first reason: “Her obsession over her body will improve her looks”

If by “improve” you mean brittle nails, constant bruising, hair falling out, literally ALWAYS cold, then wow am I the girl for you

Second reason: “They cost less money”

Won’t be so cheap when you’re buying the suit for my funeral cause I starved to death, hm?

Third reason: “She’s fragile and vulnerable”

This is fine, except for the fact that I AM A PERSON NOT YOUR EMOTIONAL AND SEXUAL TOY

Fourth reason: she has lots of money

Bitch please, all my money gets spent on laxatives and dieting pills

Fifth, and final reason: She’s great in bed.

I do not have the strength to walk a block, asshole. You think I have the energy to screw your sorry ass? My illness does not mean I am all yours. Do not sexualize my disorder and DO NOT tell me my slow death is your fetish

 You date a person (not necessarily a girl)  with an eating disorder for the same fucking reason you’d date anyone else. Not because we are “weak” or “low-maintenance.” Do not use us for your stupid fantasies because we are too weak to say no. We are people, dying people who get enough shit from our illnesses, without your unwanted contribution.

WHO IS THIS DORK AND WHY AM I OBSESSES WITH HIM AND HIS BEST FRIEND LIKE WHAT HAPPENED I USED TO BE JUST A SIMPLE BOOK FANGIRL AND THEN WENT ON TUMBLR FOR LIKE FIVE SECONDS AND WOW MY LIFE IS A MESS AND ITS TWO IN THE MORNING AND I HAVEN’T TOUCHED A BOOK IN LIKE TWO DAYS (AND YES THATS A LONG FUCKING TIME0 AND IM CRYING OVER PEOPLE I HAVE NEVER MET BUT LOVE AND THEY DONT KNOW I EXIST OR WORSE THEY DON’T EXIST AND HEY LOOK NETFLIX TIME TO BINGE WATCH SHERLOCK FOR THE TENTH TIME AND WHY AM I DEAD AT THE SOUND OF A G ON THE PIANO AND SO FUCKING EMOTIONAL OVER OTHER PEOPLE’S FICTIONAL RELATIONSHIPS LIKE I DONT UNDERSTAND AND I JUST WANT TO KNOW wHY *violent sobbing*

when men express emotions vs. when women express emotions
  • a man: I am sad because my gf hurt my feels.
  • his community: OMG what a bitch!! your feelings are valid man! let's listen to drake and go fuck some sluts to help you get over that whore!
  • a man: I am angry at this thing that I feel is unjust.
  • his community: woah dude! we totally take your anger seriously. you're right, there's a problem and it should be fixed, just vent man.
  • a man: this woman made me feel guilty for laughing at sexist jokes. she made me feel guilty for expressing my happiness.
  • his community: wow what a cunt! you shouldn't feel guilty about anything ever! you're allowed to feel joy at women's expense!
  • a man: so I raped this chick because she made me feel overwhelmed with lust
  • his community: this should be taken seriously and empathized with, he's a victim of manipulation.
  • a woman: I am sad, angry, and frustrated about the injustice that I have been suffering for the way I was born
  • her community: WOAH THERE. CALM DOWN. this is NOT how you SHOULD be feeling. let me tell you that you are over reacting, your feelings are completely invalid and wrong, and you have just taken things the total wrong way. wow women's emotions make no sense at all and women can't understand logic and reason. everything she expressed should NOT be taken seriously under any circumstances.
  • [The Teen Titans have just stopped Blackfire from taking over the Earth.]
  • Blackfire: You can’t do this! You can’t do - IT’S NOT FAIR!
  • Starfire: And you know what happens now.
  • Blackfire: No! [backing away] No!
  • Starfire: You would not listen, because you know what I am going to say.
  • Blackfire: No! [backs away until her back hits a wall]
  • Starfire: [wraps her arms around Blackfire] I forgive you.
Smallville

Just watched the finale of Smallville.
WOW. Just WOW.
This was one of the BEST shows I’ve EVER watched! I cried during almost the whole finale. I don’t really know what else to say and I’m still very very emotional because I can’t believe it’s really over like what am I supposed do with my life now? (I watched 3 seasons (8,9 and 10) in 6 days!
Really i don’t know what to say now. I thought that the last 3 seasons were the best. And I just loved everyone in this show (ok without Lana Lang).
I’m gonna go now and be sad and probably cry alone and maybe sometime when I can actually think straight I’ll write more about my thoughts about Smallville.

Oh and Clois is my new otp😝

astrology is not a religion… but honestly the thrill it gives me to learn new things and to understand new things is what i imagine it feels like to love whatever god or gods one might worship… it brought me infinitely closer to myself, i read over my birth chart and had this emotional revelation: “i am not broken, i am not a strange mess, i just have some challenging placements and aspects that could turn good,” and that was so important for my health honestly. it made me feel closer to the universe, like i could close my eyes and hear this heartbeat at the center of the solar system, like it was a living substance with clues and hints written in the planets…

when i show someone their birth chart and tell them about it, the moment they say “this is so me!” or “wow this is incredibly accurate” i just am hit in the face with joy because it’s a great experience to connect with someone more through astrology. it really is a beautiful area of study to me because it has the potential to bring so much understanding and help on an individual and collective level alike.

anonymous asked:

Since you're mostly positive I feel like writing this to you maybe you have a different pov. But I'm really disappointed in Dean and Dean/Castiel. I feel like Dean barely cared about Cas being possessed, the end scene had him be way more distraught over the people that were on the ship than Cas. And next week he goes to "pay his respects" for a stranger and needs a "break" and is in totally good spirit watching a wrestling game even though he knows Cas is possessed.

Hello dear!

I actually have to say that I am quite surprised anyone could think after this ending that Dean does not care about Cas, but just to explain more in depth, let me untangle this a bit and bear in mind that I only watched the episode once this morning and didn’t have time to re-watch yet. So this all is what I remember and my memory may be a bit spotty.

That being said, there is one thing that imo absolutely needs to be taken into consideration to put things into perspective. This entire episode focused deeply on Dean’s growing depression and feelings of inadequacy and feeling like being unable to make a difference. Dean’s never been in a situation as desperate and hopeless as he is now with his free will and agency severly compromised. Dean has always been the one to shoulder Sam’s burdens, be strong. And even if Dean has always been a lot more fragile than he let on, the thing was that he could make himself believe he was strong. Of course it was playing a role more often than not but in a twisted way and as unhealthy as a method as it was, it helped Dean to focus. This is completely gone now. And Dean is seriously struggling with allowing himself to be weak and be “carried” by Sam. His line about feeling bad that he would do that to Sam at the end of last week’s episode spoke volumes in that regard. And it is so important for Dean to learn that he has value and is important and loved unrelated to his usefulness by which he often defines himself - and Cas too for that matter. It is vital for Dean to realize there is nothing wrong with being “weak” or to be in need of help or support.

Dean’s entire life has been a series of suppression and distraction, a series of different ways to numb the pain and trying to forget about his self doubts.

When the brothers and Lucifer were talking about the time travel (him volunteering could also be read as  a sign of him being way to okay to die, because he thinks he is slowing the others down) Dean said that he needed to do this. And as the episode revealed he needed it to prove to himself that he can still kick ass, be a good hunter, matter. It was a way of Dean trying to buld up some self esteem again, unfortunately the opposite turned out being the case, any little bit of hope and self esteem has been crushed. We have seen Dean hopeless and sad and tired a few times before, but I don’t think we have EVER seen Dean be this utterly broken as in this moment on the pier that is a perfect visual for how it looks within Dean: close to crumbling. This mission in which he wanted to prove to himself more than to anybody else - because in the end Dean is his own worst enemy, his worst critic and of course the one who knows best how often he fakes a smile or makes a joke to gloss over the pain and the real issue - he happens to be as he himself said “just a witness”. And that’s exactly how he feels right now and man, Jensen did one hell of a job to portray it.

He made a suggestion and wanted to help Delphine and the ship to be saved, but she was the one to put her foot down. In a very twisted way this may have confirmed to Dean just once more that he is not just weak and vulnerable when it comes to Amara, but in general so that people think they need to take care of him. Which is good and wonderful that people do that, but it’s exactly that Dean has such big issues with.

Anyway. So Dean has all this happening fresh in mind (and the bystander argument does loomingly feel like when Amara may use Dean against his will, he may be unable to resist, but may well inside be distraught over it, because like Abaddon once threatened Dean, she would make Dean watch what she will make him do) as well as all of the trauma and stress that has been repeatedly raining down on him for a better part of 3 seasons, so he is truly at the end of his rope here.

Dean has trust issues left, right and center. And the only people he unconditionally trusts are his brother and Cas. The entire preparation talk showcased how very much he trusts, values and confides in Cas. There is not a doubt in his mind that Cas would not stand by his side, not one. And it’s because of that, that the revelation of Cas being possessed by Lucifer really does the number on Dean that we see in the ending scene.

This is Dean Winchester we are talking about, of course he fees responsible and guilty that he could let that happen to Cas, on the other hand he’s conflicted because he opened up to Lucifer of all people, laid out everything and he was used and played once more.

So all this I am sure is raging behind Dean’s eyelids when he sits at that destroyed pier, everything he has been through weighing on him and then there’s the cherry on top with Cas. That was what broke the camel’s back, what made the levee break. The one constant aside from his brother gone, the only person, who he could confide in in a way he could not or did not want to with Sam seems lost, this is the moment of Dean truly feeling utterly alone, paralyzed. It’s exactly how in 11x07 “Plush” the mother described how she felt when her brother was accused of doing inappropriate things to kids.

Dean sits there mourning so much more than just Cas, but also everything that connects with that, safety, understanding, an ally. And I’m sure thousands have noted this before, but of course the pier has a special connection for Dean and Cas. And while this is all subtext and a place Dean may have chosen subconsciously, it doesn’t change anything about the fact that these tears that he is fighting against there are partially also tears he sheds for Cas. He fight against the tears, because he does not live up to any of the parts of the Winchesters motto anymore:

He can’t “hunt things”, because Amara makes him numb and a shell of himself unable to fight her off and that has been strengthened by so many MotW episode this season that saw Dean unable to help himself. And neither can he “save people” (btw this is not my opinion this is how I think Dean thinks). Quite the opposite. An entire submarine died for him, the Hand of God was used to save him and his best friend is lost to Lucifer. And Dean knows that he is not strong enough to truly be able to help Cas get back, because he is so vulnerable at the moment. Let that sink in for a moment, think about the dread and self loathing Dean feels over this. Dean crying at that pier, barely saying a word is not a sign of him not caring, it is a sign of him caring so much that it paralyzes him, tortures him to the point he seems almost blank.

So no, I don’t think Dean just for a second did not care enough about Castiel or him being possessed (btw I am not sure I remember right, but Sam did not tell Dean yet that Cas said yes willingly, Dean thinks he was tricked, if he finds out that Cas said yes possibly for the same reasons and the same feelings he harbours at the moment, be sure there to be more tears and heartache), I think he cared too much to be able to even filter it anymore - and just once again HATS OFF JENSEN, AMAZINGLY DONE.

And Dean “enjoying” the wrestling in the next episode? Tbh, I don’t think this is a sign for Dean not caring, this is a Dean who tries to suppress, to distract, because if he wouldn’t, I am pretty certain Dean would jump off the next cliff within a heartbeat. This is “an act” just as much as him picking up someone on Valentine’s day was “an act” and technic to relieve the pain. Look back at 11 seasons of Supernatural and tell me how Dean deals when he is scared out of his mind, grieving and depressed (aside from drinking more heavily than usual), yes his usual m.o. is to throw himself into something to not think about how much it hurts. Him doing that doesn’t show he doesn’t care, it shows that Dean doesn’t know how much more blows he can take.

I literally love every little thing yoongi does
• talking
• smiling
• rapping
• dancing
• singing
• sleeping/resting in the background
• being the sweetest
• always working hard
• when he writes sweet messages
• seeing how proud/excited he is with the stuff he produces

I’m emotional over everything he does, wow.

I'm Petrified To Do It All Again

Summary: Dan recounts his life with Phil, trying to get over him. But sometimes things don’t work as planned. Songfic based off of Andria by La Dispute

A/N: This was originally going to be a fic about Phil committing suicide and then Dan writing his suicide letter and dying at the end but I couldn’t do it. I had to have a happy ending. I am a failure. Oh no.

Genre: Angst (wow angst), some smut, songfic, fluff

You still cross my mind from time to time. And I mostly smile. 

Dan watches the London streets blankly, a morning fog in the air, coffee in his hands. He sips, the familiar taste keeping him hinged on reality, as his eyes skim the city horizon he catches a glimpse of their old apartment building. He had moved here strategically, wanting something to watch and reminisce over on the nights he is feeling up to some emotional torture. His current apartment is so hollow most of the time, too large for him to be comfortable. He lives alone. He can’t bring himself to consider a new roommate. 

An involuntary smile twitches onto his face as he remembers how happy they were, in their home. Whatever they were, they loved each other. So much, it hurt, sometimes. 

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Wow, What? Really?!

Why in the hell 4k of you want to follow me I will never get but I am also so so grateful. I love all of you guys. Every single one. No matter if you talk to me, comment, reply, like or just hang. You guys are freaking amazing and I am beyond words! 

I am a bit busy atm so I won’t post my plans for a celebration right this moment just know that one is coming! 

Emotional tumblr story time and shout outs under the cut!

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