i am doing too many 'things'

anonymous asked:

I am loving all of your fix-it fics you are amazing!!! Could you do one where Alex runs after Maggie when she tries to leave after talking about how her parents found out she was gay and then brings her back in the apartment and comforts her on the couch? I totally get if you are too busy you do so many amazing and supportive things for this fandom

Her voice cracks and Alex knows why she’s running.

“I gotta go, just…” she interrupts herself, and she leaves, and Alex knows why.

Because she’s about to cry. Because she’s about to cry, and she can’t cry, because if she cries now, she’ll never stop. If she cries now, it won’t be whatever. It’ll be something that can still shred her to the core.

But she doesn’t close the door behind her. She lets it linger open, and that’s how Alex knows something else: that Maggie needs to run, because Maggie is about to cry.

But Maggie left the door open, and Maggie is nothing if not deliberate: Maggie left the door open for Alex.

And so she goes, she goes, silk robe and slip be damned, she goes because Maggie, Maggie, Maggie, she was fourteen and she wanted better for Alex and she was fourteen and she deserved a full, happy life and she was fourteen and Alex would be damned if she didn’t give it to her.

“Maggie, stop,” she calls, padding out into the hall in her bare feet, but Maggie isn’t waiting by the elevator. The door to the stairwell is still heaving closed, but  the elevator button is lit up: Maggie must have pressed it, pressed it, determined it wasn’t coming fast enough, that her own feet were better, more reliable.

Perhaps the only reliable thing.

But Alex needs to prove that’s not true.

And sure enough, Alex finds her on the stairwell, finds her wracking with silent sobs as she practically flies down the stairs, and Alex tries again.

“Maggie, please.”

Maggie stops immediately, but she doesn’t turn around. Alex gulps, and she’s surprised; surprised it was that easy to get her to stop.

“You’re barefoot, Danvers, you shouldn’t be on the staircase. It’s cold and anyway, you could get hurt.”

Alex walks down to her anyway.

“I don’t care about… Maggie, I… I’m sorry.”

Maggie turns suddenly, and her face is streaked with tears and mascara and old scars.

“I don’t need your pity, Danvers.”

Alex blinks and stiffens and Maggie immediately retracts. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to snap at you, I – “

“No. No, you’re right. You don’t need pity. You need something better. You need to be heard. And I want to hear you, Maggie, I want… I want to… I’m not going to abandon you like that, Maggie, I’m not going to betray you like that. I… I do like you, too.”

Maggie smiles softly and wipes at her eyes at Alex’s self-deprecation, and Alex tentatively reaches up to wipe her tears instead.

Maggie stiffens for a tense moment, but she forces herself to look up into Alex’s eyes and relents. Alex wipes her tears attentively, carefully, diligently. Lovingly.

“I know I can’t make it better, Maggie, but I want to… I want to be able to be here for you. And I am so, so sorry that I didn’t listen better, I… I’m gonna get better at that, I promise.”

Maggie nods slowly, and she takes a deep, deep, long sigh.

“You’re gonna catch a cold, Danvers,” she rasps after a long moment, and Alex shrugs.

“You’re worth it. Hell, Maggie, you’re worth the Bravakian flu.”

A small smile tugs at Maggie’s lips, now. “Or the black lung?” she asks, and Alex returns it.

“You are worth everything, Maggie. Everything. Come back inside? If you want?”

“Alex, I – “

But her phone chirps, and they both grimace, because they know that sound.

Alex helps Maggie finish wiping her tears, finish composing her face so it doesn’t look like she’s been crying.

“Duty calls,” Maggie says bravely, and Alex nods.

“I’ll see you later?” Alex asks in a small voice, and Maggie nods.

Alex kisses her hand and turns sadly to head back upstairs.

“Alex?”

She spins back so eagerly she almost overbalances, and Maggie reaches up with steady hands to catch her.

“You look beautiful.”

Alex flushes and sighs silently. “So do you, Maggie. So do you.”

Aaron taking charge and just being like come on, let’s do this. I loved that, that he was the one pulling Robert along, and wanting to go and do it in the garage. 

Aaron stepping in and changing the subject when Diane mentioned Jack

Robert drinking from the welly. 

Aaron: ‘I’m gonna go find my husband’

Robert: ‘Have you seen my husband’

But you know. I know

Robert drinking from the welly

I don’t want to leave you. I don’t want you to go. 

This episode was just full of perfection and I am sure there are things that I have missed because there was just so much. I have too many emotions to process what I just watched right now.

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I’m sorry I really just love sharing faceup wips, I feel like I’ve been making a lot of progress and doing some cool things lately.
I mostly finished @psiiconicbjd’s Deesse (sculpted and modded by the wonderful @sicktress), modeled after one of their Dragon age OCs. Just have finishing touches like liplines, tooth touchups, final sealant, and gloss left for her. Might also add some shimmer highlights as a final touch, because what sort of elf doesn’t have an impeccable glow?
So many intricate tattoos though… If I never have to do another DA elf it will be too soon (but I love it and am a glutton for punishment so probably will be down for more in the future). I’ve gone completely cross eyed…
I’m also lucky enough to be working on two Boypink re:Sen heads, mine and @valyriandolls’s. Mine actually marks the first time of my almost a year in the hobby that I’m actually customizing one of my own dolls. I think I’m doing this in the wrong order lol. This sculpt is hands down my favorite out of everything I’ve handled, so I’m really hoping I can do them justice (thank you @b-yp-nk!!).

anonymous asked:

Seems to me it is all out on the table now and that nothing is being hidden anymore. Things are just as S and C have told us they are for more than a year. They are friends who live very different private lives. And boyfriends/girlfriends never make the formal family wedding photos. I am so tired of the Sam bashing.

No one here is Sam bashing. 

I am a photographer and would say that to ANY Bride and Groom 

Do a pic with the BF’s if you want, but do one without them too cause they come and go and I have had to photoshop out BF’s and GF’s many a time because 2 weeks after a wedding they’ve broken up… and Mother of the Bride wants to send a Christmas card without the ex. 

anonymous asked:

I'm a small tumblr user and my aim is to spread positivity around the community. I want to keep anonymous because I'm not doing this to gain followers from any big accounts. I just want to let as many people know that they're awesome, worthy and they have a great future ahead of themselves so they should never give up on their dreams. I love you and I hope you have nice day/evening. :)

that’s such a nice thing to say! and I completely agree with you and I am with you, let’s spread this message. and I love you too sweetie, you’re a really good person for this world. have nice day/evening too xxx 

anonymous asked:

Look, I don't doubt that Gillian and PM are a thing. Am I a little sad that David and Gillian aren't? Sure. Am I pissed? Nope. Do I hate Gillian for it? No. (I fucking adore Gillian no matter what, okay?) Am I overjoyed at the whole PM thing? Nah, not really. (But if she's happy, she's happy, and in the end that's all that matters.) But this is where I think many people have their issues with how you're sometimes handling things and with the specific way you voice your opinions at times. (1of2)

You were rooting for David and Gillian yourself not too long ago, and now you’re basically treating Gillian and PM as the best thing since sliced bread. If you’re doing it simply to stand up for Gillian against all the haters, then I totally get it. Absolutely. But otherwise it just feels like you’re all of a sudden onboard and loving it because you wanna see yourself as a ‘better’ fan, if that makes sense, and pretend like you never wanted ‘Gillovny’ at all. Which, imo, just feels fake. (2of2)


I have come clean with my feelings. Yes, I was backing Gillovny for a really long time. And yes, I admitted I had changed my mind. I have had to face so much hatred against my own name for standing by what I believed, which is that Gillian and David are not together. I ship Gillian being in love.

And yes, it’s the best thing since sliced bread. I can’t help anyone who feels angry they have wasted their time believing in Gillovny for this or that reason. I live in the moment. And right now, Gillian is with Peter.

Am I too lenient with 02???

I mean I fully acknowledge may of its flaws I can think of so many things it could do better, like I have a list

But I still think it did a lot of things really good??? I’m not as angry about some things as a lot of other fans are??? I’m not salty about 99.9% of things in 02 which is interesting because I’m really salty about everything??? I don’t know???

I suppose I was one of the very few not extremely disappointed by 5x14 being so topical (covering so many topics…?)…because the majority of Elementary cases this season (and I think most of season 4) have been needlessly convoluted…it just seemed like nothing new to me. I’ve said several times I’m here for the crumbs…and I really am…and I think I was looking at the case in 5x14 in terms of it’s morality. No, the villains were nothing new (evil corporation greed again), but compared to episodes like 5x05 and 5x10, where victims of abuse are the criminals of the week, this episode was decent case-wise to me. Also, in 5x14 the intended victim wasn’t killed, and he was a person trying to do good not just for his community but for his girlfriend? (Please correct me if I perceived things wrong, I know these cases have way too many details and I definitely miss things with only a single viewing.) 

Was it just the nature of those issues, prostitution and global warming, paired together that made the episode so cringe-worthy for people? I guess I’m looking at it the wrong way compared to how most are looking at it? 

Get to know me tag!

Tagged by @satansonyeondan thank youuuu~ ♥

Rules: Answer the 20 questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Nickname: there are so many omg (I have so creative friends haha) zey, zeyneo, zeynope, jeynope, j, namu, true hip hap soul

Gender: female

Star Sign: aquarius

Height: 163 cm 

Time right now: 9:32pm

Last thing I googled: “youtube monkey error” yeah… ahaha

Favourite Bands: bangtan and exo (and many more also lot of non kpop bands I am too lazy to list rn)

Favourite Solo Artists: ehhhh excluding those who are in bands …. ed sheeran, and eehhhhhh I can’t think of anyone rn dafuq

Song stuck in your head: lane boy by twenty one pilots 

Last movie I watched: the great wall 

Last TV Show I watched: hwarang I guess 

When did you create your blog: I have no clue 2013??

What kind of stuff do you post: lots of exo and baek and other random bands I listen to, also random pretty stuff I find on my dash and occasionally some other fandom stuff I’m into like animes and also cute animal yea idk it’s a mess hahaha

When did your blog reach its peak: it never really had a peak idek lmao

Do you have any other blogs: I just recently made a bangtan side blog @hob-and-kookies ^^

Do you get asks regularly: nope not at all ahahah

Why you chose your URL: I really like baeks squishy tummy soooooo asdfgj

Following: 595

Posts: near to 18k

Hogwarts House: slytherin hehe

Pokémon Team: mystic

Favorite colors: blue and bordeaux 

Average hours of sleep: 5/ 6 hours 

Lucky Numbers: 2 and 7 and any combination of those two

Favorite Characters: itachi, oikawa, izaya .. just to name a few damn I could list every anime crush here

What are you wearing right now: pyjamas

How many blankets do you sleep with: I have like a two in one blanket in winter and I take one of them away in summer

Dream job: hopefully be an successful architect ;;;

Dream trip: there are so manyy places I want to visit but for now I would say korea, japan and italy

I tag: @artificial-lxvr , @besternatexo , @daegucci , @parksiana , @kim-kaaa , @mochikissme , @gayrapline , @rninyoonqi , @unbwilievable , @nnochu , @petityeols , @chaichanyeol , idk who else to tag

Five Things Ask Memes

@plenty-of-paper tagged me

Five things you’ll find in my bag

1. Makeup bag
2. Wallet
3. Phone
4. Book or two
5. The compass my parents gave me when I was a six-year-old girl scout. It is no longer reliable, but it’s something of a token.

Five things you’ll find in my bedroom

1. Books. Lots and lots of books
2. Embroidery thread
3. Beads
4. Tarot cards
5. Jewelry

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in life (I am only including things I have wanted since childhood)

1. Adopt a nomadic lifestyle
2. Be good at some sort of art thing
3. Get a PhD
4. Attend a salon
5. Witchcraft

Five things that make me happy (excluding people both because the question is about things and their are far too many people to list)

1. The moon
2. Strong, cold, winds
3. Animals
4. Beautiful art things
5. Beautifully written books

Five things I’m currently into (admittedly I’m pretty much always into the latter three)

1. Mystic Messenger
2. Elsewhere University
3. Witchcraft
4. Tattoos
5. Heartbreaking regret

Five things on my to do list (it’s cute you think I have a to do list)

1. Embroider all the things
2. Work on some EU fic
3. Have a panic attack about the passage of time
4. Clean my room
5. Catch up on some podcasts

Five things people may not know about me

1. I’m a citizen of both the Netherlands and the US
2. I really really really love Call Me Maybe
3. I’m rather religious (Pagan though I maintain my cultural heritage as a Jew)
4. I suffer from OCD
5. I’m in love with @otahkoapisiakii

Tagging: @otahkoapisiakii, @tsulatsula, @detaildevils, @amarguerite, @princehal9000 and hell @queeringfeministreality. Can’t believe I neglected you @blackbird-brewster, you should do this too. And anyone else who wants to play.

The signs as Albus Dumbledore quotes

Aries: “Age is foolish and forgetful when it underestimates youth.”

Taurus: “It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.“

Gemini: “I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind.”

Cancer: “It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that.”

Leo: “Remember, if the time should come when you have to make a choice between what is right, and what is easy, remember what happened to a boy who was good and kind and brave because he strayed across the path of Lord Voldemort.”

Virgo: “It is a curious thing, Harry, but perhaps those who are best suited to power are those who have never sought it.”

Libra: “Do not pity the dead, Harry, pity the living, and above all those who live without love.”

Scorpio: “This pain is part of being human … the fact that you can feel pain like this is your greatest strength.”

Sagittarius: “Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”

Capricorn: “It is important to fight, and fight again, and keep fighting, for only then could evil be kept at bay, though never quite eradicated.“

Aquarius: “After all, to the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.”

Pisces: “He [Voldemort] never paused to understand the incomparable power of a soul that is untarnished and whole.”

The series of interviews conducted by Dr. George Henry with lesbians in the ‘30s illustrates a contentment in the lives of many of these women that would have frazzled the censors had that picture been reflected in the media. Many of his interviewees were self-actualized individuals, living to their full potential in mutually productive relationships. They say things such as:

I’m doing the work [as an editor] I always wanted to do and I’m very, very happy. I’m very much in love with the girl too. We click… She has had the most influence for good in my life.”  — 20-year old white woman

If I were born again I would like to be just as I am. I’m perfectly satisfied being a girl and being as I am. I’ve never had any regrets.”  —  26-year-old black woman

Our relationship is just as sweet now [after eleven years] as in the beginning.”  — 29-year-old white woman

Since we have been living together our lives are fuller and happier. We create things together and we are devoted to our [adopted] baby.”  —  30-year-old white woman

I have a great confidence in the future. I think I’m going to be a very well-known artist… Homosexuality hasn’t interfered with my work. It has made it what it is.”  —  30-year-old white woman

Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America, pg. 112 by Lillian Faderman

You know what, Booth and Brennan will always be my #1 otp because they gave me so much as a couple. I mean, I’m not talking about sex or smut because that’s fanfiction material (like you go girl, want to see your fave ship bang on a piano? go and read that !!!! that’s what that website is for) but everything else. The ‘platonic’ aspect of their relationship has always been the best part of their dynamic to me, but they were still able to overcome that phase and be a family. This being said, that original dynamic has never been compromized, not to me at least, because when it comes to the important stuff, Booth and Brennan are still partners first, they are still the people they would give up their life for, they would fight for each other. While the majority of other ships kinda change once they get together. Booth and Brennan never completely changed, so much that people complain because they’d rather have them being romantic the 100% of the time. I don’t. Also, it’s the little things that matter to me, like it might sound stupid, but I find it extremely adorable and precious that Brennan knows Booth by knowing his injuries. Every time something happens, she’s able to compare factures and other stuff to Booth’s. And that’s so IC, that’s something I really want to see because it’s them. And it’s been this way since she first found out about his past in 1x15 and it never changed. She imagined him on that autopsy table in 11x01 by looking at the bones, just like it happened on 12x04 with Aldo and in other many occasions. Brennan saying like I know that because of your brain tumor. She knows his brain scans. YAAAS. Give me this stuff. Give me Booth and Brennan that can’t sleep without each other at night when one of them is struggling with something, give me them talking about taking someone’s life and carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders. Give me them hurting each other to save each other. They would never cheat on each other or hurt each other because they want to. They only do it because it’s the only way. Yaas. Screw sex, just give me this stuff.

I am endlessly troubled by “It’s not your place” rhetoric - you’re too young to be political, shut up. Singers actors artists should stick to what they’re good at and keep their opinions to themselves. How many times do we see “You need to keep to what you’re doing and stay out of politics.”

It is a very strange and yet effective silencing technique. Know your place. You’re not here to have a voice, you’re here to entertain us. You’re too young to understand. You’re a millennial, what do you know?

It’s an odd thing to witness. The assumption that a voting member of society can’t have an opinion because you’d rather ignore it. You’d rather like to picture your actresses as anti-feminist. Your musicians as nonplussed by racism. You believe this media was made for you, specifically, and that they can ruin it when they say unequivocally: no it’s not. You believe that the opinion of the youth is irrelevant even when they inherit the planet. You believe that anyone who speaks up against you is out of line.

Which begs the question. Who is allowed to have a voice? Who is allowed to speak up? You silence those with large platforms and dismiss the small ones. Do we all just turn a our head and stay out of politics? Leave it for the lawyers and politicians?

What’s wild is that the answer isn’t even yes to that. There are people evidently more deserving of office even if they’re unqualified, and we all know what that looks like now. And there are women who should have just stayed out of politics. Know your place.

I am sick and tired of these stupid videos going viral on facebook about how technology has made us antisocial and that social media is evil.

Let me tell you a story. I’m half English, but live in Spain. I get to see my English family, at best, once a year. Sometimes not even that.

I love my English grandparents, but we don’t have many things in common. We can get a nice 20 minute talk going about what we’ve been doing lately, and then I usually fall silent whilst my mum talks about cooking with my grandma and my dad goes on to talk about science with my granddad. It’s so disappointing, because I barely see them, and I can only rely on their interest in what I’m doing with my life to start a conversation.

A few months ago we flew to England and stayed with them a few days. Whilst having supper, naturally (as always) the conversation started with how I was doing, and what I was planning to do with my future now that I had graduated. I told them I was thinking about moving back to Japan to start working there. Somehow, one way or another, we started talking about life in Japan, and my parents chipped in by commenting on their experience in Tokyo as tourists. “There’s so many people!” And then someone asked, “what’s the population of Japan?”

And I said, “Let me google that.”

So I pulled out my smartphone. 127.3 million. Can you believe it? That’s a lot! That’s twice as much as the UK, isn’t it? What is the population of the UK? Granddad says 60 million, but grandma says 62.

Google says 64.1 million.

What about Spain? 50 million, perhaps? 55? Mum says 48, dad says 40. Nope, it’s 46.77 million as of 2014, says google.

We all guessed at the population of the US, of Canda, of France, of Germany; we cheered when one of us had almost hit the mark, and gasped at unexpected numbers. We looked up the dates of historical events, we read random wikipedia facts, we searched Stonehenge on google maps and read about the theories behind it, we googled ‘disc symbols ancient’ to try and figure out what this paperweight my granddad had in his office was supposed to be because he couldn’t remember its name and immediately found out it was a replica of the Phaistos Disc. “‘Disc symbols ancient’! How did google know what we were looking for just from that? That’s amazing!”

We went on for hours, and it was so. much. fun. For three whole hours, three. whole. fucking. hours, every topic we talked about was somehow linked to googling facts or images on my smartphone, and do you know what my granddad said to me as we started cleaning everything up?

He said this thing I had was amazing, and he wanted one too.

Technology is not a conversation stopper. It’s a conversation starter, and if you don’t know how to be responsible, if you don’t know how to make use of this amazing thing we have to keep a conversations going, then the problem isn’t smartphones, or facebook, or twitter. It’s you.

Ok, I lied, I have more Overwatch things I need to draw now. After a run of playing Zenyatta and getting hung out to dry a lil too much, I started doodling sassy Zenyatta. And now I have too many fun ideas to stop, I want to do a lot of these, I am only partially sorry. Also Ascendant is my favorite skin of his so that’s what I’m running with.

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Reincarnation AU Part Two: AKA, whenever people encourage me to Write A Thing by telling me they liked it, you are exponentially more likely to see more of it.

The first bit’s here.

Have more now, under the cut. 

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