i am daisy j

I know you don’t understand, but there are some stories that are mine to hold.
Even when the bookends are sharp and the pages give me paper cuts.
I hold tight; let them pierce my palms and splinter my fingers.

Perhaps if you see my strength, you’ll stop trying to save me.
I don’t want to be saved, I want to heal.
But my wounds need to bleed in order to scar.

You see, this pain is mine to carry, my burden to bear.
There has been so much I couldn’t do, so much taken from me.
But this? I can do this.
Let me.

Let me hold my own pain.
I am re-building myself.
Don’t take away part of my story.

- because guilt is heavy, but I am strong.

{Quote in edit by Sarah J. Maas}