i feel like i spend 75% of my life just laying in bed doing homework/reading/drawing, & it feels really unproductive and lazy and indulgent for me to lay in bed so much. but im so relaxed and happy just doing peaceful quiet things !!! ive spent my whole life running all over the place and being Aggressively Social, & dont get me wrong, im still a social butterfly & the loudest of all the extroverts, but i just wanna get good at hanging out by myself sometimes. also, every time i feel guilty about being unproductive & lazy: what the heck am i even supposed to be producing? money? academic papers? why cant i just produce some peace of mind instead.