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God Don’t Leave Me (Sana Bakkoush)

“You’re a good person.”

by Briony / red-jamie

anonymous asked:

Hi, I'm diagnosed with OSDD. I am wondering how you can overcome PTSD while also having OSDD. Is EMDR a method? And how will it work? Also, do parts have to intergrate first? And how will that work? I really hope you can inform me. :) I've been stabilising for more than 2 years now and I really want to go further than where I am now.

Hi,

Individuals with OSDD-1 or DID do not need to be integrated before they can begin trauma work. In fact, the ISST-D and current research on OSDD-1/DID support a three phase treatment model for the disorders. The first phase simply involves ensuring that the system is in a safe environment, working towards stabilization, addressing comorbid disorders, teaching the system coping mechanisms, trying medication if necessary, or similar. The second phase is trauma work, and this alternates with the first phase as is needed. It’s only in the third phase, when closure is being sought, that deliberate integration is really supposed to be on the table (though spontaneous integration or integrating as seems appropriate is of course “allowed” or encouraged before that point). Even then, choosing to remain multiple but with increased communication and cooperation and with lowered dissociative barriers is valid.

Integration to some extent often follows healing, but it’s not necessary for all systems. Full integration especially is a personal choice. It certainly does not need to precede the healing process and especially not trauma work. Once a system is ready, trauma work can begin in a variety of different ways and take a variety of different paths. The only shared features that I would stress are that, again, the system must be safe and stable enough for trauma work not to pose a risk to their well being and that the trauma work really does need to be done with a trained professional. The professional doesn’t necessarily have to be a dissociation specialist, though that certainly helps, but they do have to be able and willing to address potentially severe trauma and dissociation and / or to be open to learning what they might not already have a strong grasp of.

As for what the trauma work might entail, EMDR is one possible treatment for individuals with OSDD-1 or DID, but it’s not the only treatment, and it may not be the best thing to try first. EMDR is a type of exposure therapy, and it can get intense. Prolonged exposure therapy is the same, though it can also be incredibly helpful if an individual or system is stabilized enough to be able to handle it. In brief, both methods require having in mind specific trauma memories or trauma related cognitions that you can stand working on in therapy, possibly for multiple sessions at a time. EMDR involves thinking of (or talking about) the memory or cognition while making bilateral movements, watching bilateral blinking lights, or similar. PE therapy involves talking about the memory extensively with increasing detail until you’re talking about it as if it’s happening to you in real time.

EMDR may be slightly easier to tolerate due to not requiring trauma to be vocalized or processed as if it’s still happening. As well, the bilateral stimulation at worst serves as a distraction, potentially making the trauma work a little less overwhelming; at best, it may provide additional benefit of its own, though if this is true or why it might be true is hotly debated. Again, however, it’s still intense and risks flooding of traumatic memories and cognitions for individuals who aren’t already sufficiently stable. It and PE therapy may also be difficult for systems to manage if trauma is still strictly contained by certain alters who are unable or unwilling to participate in therapy themselves.

Other types of therapy are possible, however, and may be better places to begin. For example, a much more gradual and patient directed talk therapy style might suit some individuals well. Others might find that cognitive-behavioral type therapies are what they need in order to think of and react to their trauma in more nuanced and present-oriented ways. Treatments aimed specifically at comorbid conditions may also help. For example, DBT for individuals with comorbid BPD or exposure and response prevention for individuals with comorbid OCD may also directly or indirectly touch on traumatic reactions or cognitions and directly or indirectly reduce PTSD symptoms. These therapies may occur individually or in a group setting.

As well, less structured forms of therapy may be used. For example, different types of art therapy or even play therapy (for child parts especially) can help survivors to communicate and begin processing their trauma. Hypnotherapy is also an option, though personally, I recommend extreme caution with it due to the risk of memory contamination, the creation of wholly false memories, or memory flooding if the practitioner isn’t sufficiently experienced or knowledgeable about treating dissociative clients. Similarly, one may wish to avoid any sort of therapy aimed at internal family systems (which may not be well prepared to distinguish between normal parts of the self and more strongly dissociated alters) or attachment therapy (which unfortunately has a reputation of crossing boundaries that abuse survivors may not feel capable of enforcing). That said, with the right therapist, these treatments may prove helpful for certain systems. It’s all very individual, as different people have very different traumatic histories, current life experiences, personalities, preferences, and general therapeutic needs.

As for the role that alters will play it treatment, it also varies between systems. For many systems, therapy is a place for alters to be recognized as themselves and work through whatever it is that they need to work through. This often means alters directly working with the professional about their trauma even if they refuse to identify themselves, present in groups, or work alongside host parts. The therapist may help to encourage alters to work together, consider each others’ points of view, and share trauma memories with other alters who are ready to know or who need to know for their own safety or in order to heal. For other systems, it’s more likely for one or a few alters to interact directly with the system’s therapist while other alters contribute from the background, bring up their issues to the representative alters outside of therapy, or otherwise avoid interacting as themselves. It all depends on the system’s needs. 

In any case, having alters’ cooperation is very important. Often, it’s what alters hold that most needs to be addressed. Every single alter and every traumatic memory that they hold doesn’t need to be individually worked with in order for overall progress and healing to occur, but working only with what the host knows upon entering therapy likely won’t get the system very far. Likewise, if alters are opposed to therapy for whatever reason, they may try to block the host from attending or participating in therapy, punish any alters who engage in therapy, mislead or frighten the therapist, or any number of other counter productive activities. Healing works best when all or most alters are on board even if they may not all agree on exactly what needs to be or should be healed and how. 

This is getting very long, but if you have any other questions or would like to know more about anything written here, you’re welcome to ask!

Take care,

-Katherine of Those Interrupted

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not everyone
not y o u

Chihokogate is overwhelmingly romantic; fight me

I’ve seen people describe the “Overcome Chihoko” story in a number of ways–Victor being Extra, crackfic, something written purely for laughs, and so forth. And yes, I think all of those things are true, to a certain extent, but I’m not sure we appreciate exactly how lovely of an instance of crackfic this is.

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In the end Damon and Elena lived out their lives together and at the end when they died they were together. Beyond that Elena finally reunited with her parents, Jenna, and John. Damon reunited with Stefan. This show started with a girl grieving her parents and a broken relationship between two brothers. This show ended in family reunions. I am just overcome with emotions. 

These scars are my documentation of the mistakes I’ve made in trying to overcome them. I am both the things I’ve done to myself and the things done to me. Along these nerve endings, you will find a history of me.
—  Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You
Just going to drop these extremely important duas to learn now

رَبَّنَا لاَ تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لاَ طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا أَنتَ مَوْلاَنَا فَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ

“Our Lord! Put not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Pardon us and grant us Forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Maula (Patron, Supporter and Protector, etc.) and give us victory over the disbelieving people.”

 - Quran [2:286]

رَبَّنَا أَفْرِغْ عَلَيْنَا صَبْرًا وَثَبِّتْ أَقْدَامَنَا وَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ

“Our Lord! Pour forth on us patience and make us victorious over the disbelieving people.”

-Quran [2:250]

رَبَّنَا لاَ تُزِغْ قُلُوبَنَا بَعْدَ إِذْ هَدَيْتَنَا وَهَبْ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحْمَةً إِنَّكَ أَنتَ الْوَهَّابُ

“Our Lord! make not our hearts to deviate after Thou hast guided us aright, and grant us from Thee mercy; surely Thou art the most liberal Giver” 

- Quran [3:8]

وَمَا كَانَ قَوْلَهُمْ إِلاَّ أَن قَالُواْ ربَّنَا اغْفِرْ لَنَا ذُنُوبَنَا وَإِسْرَافَنَا فِي أَمْرِنَا وَثَبِّتْ أَقْدَامَنَا وانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ

“O our Lord, forgive us our sins and our excesses in our affairs, and set our foothold firm, and help us against the disbelieving people”

- Quran [3:147]

لَّئِنْ أَنجَانَا مِنْ هَـذِهِ لَنَكُونَنَّ مِنَ الشَّاكِرِينَ

“If He (our Lord) delivers from this, certainly we shall be of the thankful” 

- Quran [6: 63]

رَبَّنَا لاَ تَجْعَلْنَا مَعَ الْقَوْمِ الظَّالِمِينَ

“O our Lord, put us not together with the unjust people”

- Quran [7: 47]

رَبَّنَا أَفْرِغْ عَلَيْنَا صَبْرًا وَتَوَفَّنَا مُسْلِمِينَ

“O our Lord, pour out on us patience, and make us die as those who have submitted (to You).”

- Quran [7:126]

وَاكْتُبْ لَنَا فِي هَـذِهِ الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي الآخِرَةِ إِنَّا هُدْنَـا إِلَيْكَ

“(O Lord) ordain for us good in this world and in the hereafter. Verily we turn to You alone.”

- Quran [7:156]

حَسْبِيَ اللّهُ لا إِلَـهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ عَلَيْهِ تَوَكَّلْتُ وَهُوَ رَبُّ الْعَرْشِ الْعَظِيمِ

“Suffices me Allah. There is no god save Him. On Him do I rely, and He is the Lord of the great ‘Arsh’ (the glorious throne of the mighty power).”

- Quran [9:129]

رَبَّنَا لاَ تَجْعَلْنَا فِتْنَةً لِّلْقَوْمِ الظَّالِمِينَ
وَنَجِّنَا بِرَحْمَتِكَ مِنَ الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ

“O our Lord, make us not a trial for the unjust people. And deliver us by Your mercy from the disbelieving people.”

- Quran [10:85-10:86]

تَوَفَّنِي مُسْلِمًا وَأَلْحِقْنِي بِالصَّالِحِينَ

“(O Lord) Let me die submitting to You (as a Muslim), and join me with the righteous.”

 - Quran [12: 101]

رَبَّنَا آتِنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحْمَةً وَهَيِّئْ لَنَا مِنْ أَمْرِنَا رَشَدًا

“O our Lord, grant us mercy from You, and provide a right course for us in our affair.”

- Quran [18:10]

رَبِّ نَجِّنِي مِنَ الْقَوْمِ الظَّالِمِينَ

“O Lord, deliver me from the unjust people.”

- Quran [28: 21]

رَبِّ انصُرْنِي عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْمُفْسِدِينَ

“O Lord, help me against these mischievous people.”

- Quran [29:30]

رَبِّ إِنِّي لِمَا أَنزَلْتَ إِلَيَّ مِنْ خَيْرٍ فَقِيرٌ

“My Lord, indeed I am, for whatever good You would send down to me, in need.”

- Quran [28:24]

رَبَّهُ أَنِّي مَغْلُوبٌ فَانتَصِرْ

“(O Lord), verily I am overcome (by those people), so give help.“

- Quran [54:10]

These scars are my documentation of the mistakes I’ve made in trying to overcome them. I am both the things I’ve done to myself and the things done to me. Along these nerve endings, you will find a history of me.
—  Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You
Last Chapter Update

Whoo. My week has been packed and I am very tired and ouchy. I also just spent the last hour and a half doing some major Home organizing and crunched  some numbers according to my plot outline:

There are 57 drawings remaining; 27 of those are absolutely essential and must be included in the last chapter. I just counted my drawings and I have 30 (almost 31!) finished.

Which brings us back to my original claim back in August that the last chapter would have 60 drawings (31+27 = close enough). The drawings that aren’t essential would be adorable and funny, but I think I will have to omit them since… Since I don’t want to post the last chapter in 2021.

Soooooo according to my calculations, since it takes me about 4 days (14-24 solid hours) to complete one drawing, it will take me 108 days to finish the last essential 27…. AKA, 3.5 months. Factoring in family dinners and other distractions, I’ll round up to four months. So…

New estimate: Chapter 18 will be posted in late June.

A few have already started proclaiming their disapproval/lost interest due to the time I’ve spent already. I really want you, my beautiful and kind readers, to know that it pains me dearly to delay the last chapter as long as I am, but I’m adamant about ending Home right. These drawings are very warm, colorful and detailed, and it will wrap up everything in the best, fuzziest, happiest way.

Thank you for your endless patience ♥

people always talk about how quickly time passes during happy moments, but no one tells you how robbed of time you feel when you’re shrouded in darkness. how time tricks you into feeling transfixed at a single point while it sneakily keeps moving forward without you. how quickly the seconds turn to hours, hours into years. always moving so quickly that you cannot even fathom catching up.

for those who understand, I pray that you are able to get done the tasks you need to do so that you can sleep peacefully, rather than feeling regretful and promising yourself to do those things first thing the next morning. I pray that it gets easier to do things and that someday you feel like you have something to show for all the time passed.

but most importantly I pray that you remember that your life has worth even if you are unable to do the things you need to do, and if you don’t have anything tangible to show for the lost time, know that you still are growing no matter how stagnant you may feel. and in case you haven’t heard this I need you to know this: you matter

My reactions to Alien: Covenant

*some people should not be left alone
*this is why we can’t have nice things, David
*why you so extra, David
*love is a terrible thing, David
*but Walter and Daniels are just too pure, too good for this world
*just two cinnamon buns that need to be protected at all cost
*David, you love your Elizabeth
*David, staaaahp
*I need me my fanfiction
*someone give David a hug
*cries forever and ever and ever