i am actually crying and idk why

The moon signs when they’re emotional

Aries: I’M GOING TO PUNCH A WALL!!!!!! WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO BE OUT TO GET ME???? CAN’T I LIVE??? I’M SO UPSET AND WHY DOES NO ONE CARE??? MY EMOTIONS ARE THE #1 PRIORITY RN!!!! *blames someone else for their problems* (5 minutes later is over it)

Taurus: why life wHY?????? I didn’t want to mOVE today let alone CRY *crawls into a hole full of blankets and sobs into a bag of chips*

Gemini: oh lol whatever idk why my eyes are wet but I’m just gonna ignore this and hope it’ll go away tomorrow

Cancer: I just love to fEeEeEeL things :(((((( I’m going to cry and think about the reasons why I’m crying and maybe look at old pictures and write a poem and cry more *eats an entire carton of ice cream*

Leo: I can’t cRy in fRonT of PEOPLE!!! I have too much pRiDe!!!!! *throws head back and struts their stuff* (10 minutes later they have a dramatic emotional show just for the benefit of everyone else)

Virgo: am I actually feeling this or am I just projecting my feelings into this moment so that I can get them out? what do these feelings mean? what does the fact that I’m questioning my feelings mean? is that another feeling? is life even real? I hate myself I’m so INCOMPETENT *hysterical crying*

Libra: nOOOOO this means cONFLICT!!!!!! I can’t have this in my life!!!!!! maybe if I hold this in nothing will happen. I definitely won’t bother anyone else about it because that would be tOO MUCH FOR ME I can’t put burden on others

Scorpio: *has straight face* this is just another case of the darkness inside my soul

Sagittarius: haha WHATEVER!!!!!! gonna go run away from this bc who needs this kind of drama in life?!?!?! not me!!!!!!!! I’m fiiiiiine those aren’t tears it’s just a piece of dust in my eye

Capricorn: I need…to pull…myself…together….must…look…like…everything…is…normal… *has mental breakdown alone*

Aquarius: emotions???? I don’t have emotions lol what are those??? I’m aBOVE that so I’m just going to focus on the fact that society is so corrupted or something!!! there are way more important issues that MY feelings

Pisces: I…just CAN’T deal with life anymore…I need to eScApE I’m drowning in my own tEARS *sobs*

the signs as random snapchats my friends have sent me
  • aries: i'm barely awake and my sister said "clean the damn house" bitch clean ya damn vagina im tired fuck outta my face
  • taurus: *picture of herself with the headband on & a blank face* i realized too late that i was playing headbandz and now i know what i am wow
  • gemini: you ever notice that the inside of your mouth looks like the inside of your vagina wait actually idk what the inside of my vagina looks like
  • cancer: *picture of her teary eyed* i nearly started crying because i realized plankton and karen don't have kids because she's a computer so they can't have sex
  • leo: *picture of her with her hair tied around her chin like a beard* who needs men? i'm my own man
  • virgo: *picture of her looking down at the camera at an awkward angle* me trying to figure out how to record without using my hands
  • libra: *at 2 am* in other countries when they eat hot dogs or something do they call it "american food" like how we call china's food "chinese food" #latenightthoughts
  • scorpio: *picture of herself on the toilet with her legs scribbled out* woah why tf am i constipated (my dick not showin, just my legs)
  • sagittarius: while i was chewing i bit down on something chewy IT WAS A BUG I THINK PLEASE HELP
  • capricorn: *blurry picture of her looking terrified* tell me why i dropped my phone in the fucking brownie mix i hate everything
  • aquarius: *blurry picture of herself* i kicked an ant bed and i think some of the ants went in my pants and are biting me
  • pisces: *picture of her crying* me realizing maddie isn't even real. or maybe liv isn't real. idk they just aren't actually twins. they're the same girl. and she doesn't have some unique connection to her twin sister who'd she do anything for because she doesn't have one.
Living with anger issues I can’t work on
  • I get angry at technology A LOT
  • When people tell me how to feel the only thing i feel is ANGER
  • I’m not gonna calm down because your voice is whispered and kind
  • i’m still angry
  • there are some days where i don’t want to here a single person’s voice.
  • if you try to tell me something you found on the internet i will get extremely impatient
  • i fucking hate when i’m being so unfair but i don’t know how to not be unfair
  • I GET REALLY CONTROLLING 
  • TELLING ME TO STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAGNIFIES MY ANGER
  • there are sometimes i really want to cry but i can’t because I’M ANGRY. 
  • I am a total ass to everyone and everything 
  • i’m a pacifist but even i wanna throw a bag of bricks at your face when you tell me how i’m supposed to react
Folie a Deux in a nutshell
  • Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes: wtf is this song even about idk man but I am going to chant until my lungs give out sO boycOTT LOOOOOOOVE -
  • I Don't Care: yeah, fuck you too
  • She's My Winona: apparently this baby boy with long eyelashes is Zeus
  • America's Suitehearts: what am I idk but I'm catchy af
  • Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown on a Bad Bet: actually about a wife who was cheating on her husband but you'd never know because enunciATING IS OVERATED ANYWAY.
  • The (Shipped) Gold Standard: mY dAD CauGHT Me a HORseSHOE CRab why idk but fuck it, it didn't make much sense to begin with.
  • (Coffee's for Closers): hey this actually makes sense and has a deep meaning to be yourself butwhenyousearchforitingooglesomefuckingmovieshowsupwhat
  • What a Catch, Donnie: I'M noT cRYInG I'm jUST sweaTINg frOm MY EYeSohheybrendonurie
  • 27: we wanna be cool like other bands, but unfortunately we are too adorable af and emo, sooooo alsoPat'svoiceishellasmoothinthissongtbh
  • Tiffany Blews: icertainlydidnothavethissongstuckinmyheadliterallyalldaywhat also I'm not a crybaby, I'm THE crybaby, get it right, god
  • w.a.m.s.: wat alsotheinterludeattheendishotasfuckohmygod
  • 20 Dollar Nosebleed: drugs, why, because Brendon Urie is here feat. angsty poetry by Pete
  • West Coast Smoker: what the hell are you even speaking English Pat also knoCK onCE fOr THe faTHEr, TWicE fOr THE SoN, ThreE TImeS fOr THE HoLy ghOST feat. Pete screams

i dont know why it is but like being intimate in any capacity (like even as little as like holding hands or having someone lean against me or something) with other girls just sends me into complete fucking meltdown mode like i feel like im doing something wrong like to the degree where i feel like i am doing them some sort of active harm and i think it comes from my brain just fuckin imploding into that thought process of like “youre just a man youre lying about your gender youre lying to them and youre a predator and you deserve to die bcuz u made a girl want to touch you and youre not a real girl”

wow ok time to go cry in bed now i guess

it's me (abc)

i was tagged by @the-oa-rp

a - age: 15
b - biggest fear: suicide
c - current time: 8:18pm
d - drink you last had: water
e - every day starts with: a song
f - favorite song: Clair de Lune
g - ghosts, are they real: probably
h - hometown: Crestwood, MI
i - in love with: -_-
j - jealous of: not really
k - killed someone: never
l - last time you cried: i’m crying rn
m - middle name: um…idk actually
n - number of siblings: 0
o - one wish: that oa finds homer, rachel & renata
p - person you last called/texted: french
q - questions you’re always asked: why i am the way i am
r - reasons to smile: even when you don’t feel like it, life keeps on
s - song last sang: Say Yes (Elliott Smith)
t - time you woke up: 7ish
u - underwear color: black
v - vacation destination: road trip to nowhere
w - worst habit(s): french
x - x-rays you’ve had: nope
y - your favorite food: ice cream
z - zodiac sign: pisces

(◠‿◠✿)  i tag my first 20 followers to play, too

@cheesywine @anakiink @johnlockin-in-tardis @grave—danger @koko-the-bear @gauguinn @lordganondorfdragmire @a-logical-phallus @yallneedrevan @spaceismyhappyplace @lfayan @brthmarks @coolmotivesstillmurder @analienfrompluto @meetmeattheuniverse @amphigoryandpizza @lifewithwaqar @tinysaurus-rex @unknown-person-b612 @constellations-of-freckles

Clumsy

Anon: “What the fuck?” Sorry, this was the first sentence that popped into my head idk why, it’s not great.

“What the Fuck!?” Dan exclaims more than questions.

“Oh my god. Dan, I am so sorry!”

“Why would you do this to me?” Dan questions, and you can see the heart ache in his eyes.

“I am so sorry… I didn’t mean for this to happen” You say as tears form in your eyes.

“Oh god, baby, I was only joking. It’s okay, don’t cry! I can just buy a new wii u” Dan says as he finally notices that you are actually getting upset.

You were cleaning the house, dusting at the time, when you accidentally knocked the wii u from the table. You had tried to catch it but you simply weren’t fast enough. Of course, the moment the console hit the floor, Dan walked into the room.

“You aren’t mad?” you question with wide eyes.

“Of course not. Accidents happen, we’re both a bit clumsy” Dan says while he wraps his arms around you in a comforting hug. You smile and lean into his embrace.

“So… how about a trip to the shops?” Dan suggests, and you let out a small giggle.

“You can wait till tomorrow?” you question

“Ah, so this was all a plan, break my game so I can’t play. You could have just asked me to stop for a while” Dan teases with a smirk of his handsome features. You give his chest a light smack.

“oh shut up and get ready. Lets go get you a new one”

“We can go tomorrow, for now I want you to stop cleaning and come cuddle in bed and watch some movies with me, my clumsy little princess"

wanna chat? pt. 13

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so it’s been rough. for…everyone. i’m here to provide some laughs or at least….a half smile? maybe? anyway i’m here if anyone would like to talk 

also @sunlitshowers​ and i have a fun time talking. it’s always a lot of fun 

(asshole = alya
niNO = nino
coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino = adrien
dancing queen = marinette)

enjoy~


19:04

asshole: please try this religion

niNO: no

asshole: try ittttt

niNO: no quieter this time

coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino: Hi China

asshole: hey dipshit

coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino: :(

coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino has changed their name to dipshit

dancing queen: Ok what the actual fuck did I come back to

niNO: japan

asshole: ayyyyy shes back and shes ♪BEAUTIFUL♪!

dancing queen: ?????

dipshit: We watched the history of Japan

dancing queen: When did this happen

Keep reading

More than This-Stiles Stilinski/Theo Raeken {part 14}

*gif not mine - found through google image search*


[click here for part 1-13/masterlist]

A/N: First of all, happy new year! :) I hope you guys had a nice new year’s eve ( or depending on your time zone you will have a nice one). I’m actually really proud of myself, like, i’m updating again? who am i? is this real life? idk I’m just really motivated at the moment and also have a lot of free time because of winter break :) I think this chapter is one of my favorites, idk why, i put a lot of effort into it and it is really emotional. I hope you enjoy reading, have a box of tissues ready if you cry easily. (like me) Love you guys endlessly. xx


warnings: sexual content, swearing, kinda angsty


,,God, I missed you.”

,,I missed you too.” I mumbled while nuzzling my face in the crook of his neck.

I held onto him as long as I could, because I was sure the moment I looked him straight in the eyes, I would faint. Never in my life have I ever felt this bad.

Eventually he let go of me and motioned for me to sit down on my bed next to him.

,,So, how was the trip?” he asked and the way he said it made me feel even worse. Because it was obvious that he had no clue. He doesn’t even know Stiles went with us.

,,It was fine…I guess.” I shrugged, being really bad at hiding my uneasiness.

Theo looked concerned, he gently caressed my cheek before asking me if everything was okay.

,,Yeah I’m just tired, the car drive was kind of exhausting and I had….an emotional talk with Kira today.” I tried my best to avoid his gaze, fearing he would see right through my lie.

,,Oh well, if you want you could talk to me about it. You know you can always come to me right?”

,,Maybe another time yeah?” i took his hand in mine, squeezing it lightly.

He opened his mouth and then closed it again, deciding to let the subject untouched for now, which I was grateful for.

Right know all I wanted was to be close to him. As close as possible. Seeing him now, sitting on my bed with his puppy eyes, being so worried about me, I realized that I did in fact miss him. And maybe if I would let myself get lost in him, it would ease the pain I felt inside, the growing pit in my stomach because of what had happened.

There was a little voice inside my head that kept reminding me that I need to tell him the truth, because that’s what he deserves. But I shut that voice up with all I had, because the thought of losing him was too much to bare.

So instead, I pulled Theo to me, lacing my hands behind his neck and press a gentle kiss on his lips, which soon got deeper and more passionate. Sliding my tongue in his mouth, I was met with his familiar minty taste again. His hand glided down my body, resting on my hips while I straddled him. His lips moved passed my jawline up to my ear, where he gently bit my earlobe, making me moan.

A low chuckle came from him ,,Shh (y/n), your parents are home.” He warned, looking at my bedroom door.

,,I don’t care.”  I responded, rubbing against him with more pressure to get his full attention again, whereupon he groaned.  

I was already starting to undress myself, when he grabbed my wrist to stop me.

,,(y/n), as much as I like to do this right now, we can’t. Not with your parents downstairs. You haven’t even introduced me to them yet, I don’t want their first impression of me being fucking her daughter senseless while they’re in the living room watching national geographic.”

Pushing myself off of him and flopping down on my mattress, I let out an exaggerated  groan of frustration.

,,First of all, talking about ‘fucking me senseless’ does not help the whole not having sex right now thing at all. And second of all I’m not going to introduce you to them. In fact, I’m not going to talk to them at all.”

Laying down beside me, obviously confused he asked me to explain.

,,Why don’t you want to talk to them?”

Fiddling with my hands – a habit I must have picked up from Stiles…god don’t think about Stiles right now you idiot – I told him that I had a fight with them and that they ‘were not worthy of knowing him’.

Theo grinned widely, a sight that made my stomach flutter but also made me sad.

,,You are such a child.” He nudged my shoulder and I pouted.

,,No I’m not! They don’t deserve getting to know you okay?”

For a while he just smiled at me, before he placed his lips on my forehead, then kissing me sweetly.

,,What was that for?” I asked, grinning back at him.

There was a moment of silence, followed by him gently pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.

Looking me in the eyes he mumbled.

,,Because I love you.”

It was like a million emotions at once. My room started spinning and I felt like throwing up. Did he really just confessed that he was in love with me? I wasn’t sure what I felt. There was a side of me that wanted to reciprocate those three words so badly. Because when I’m with him I’m happy. And he makes me laugh and feel beautiful and appreciated. And he is caring, funny, gorgeous, selfless and just perfect in any way.

There was really no reason for me to not love him.

Expect, there was. Stiles. That stupid pale, mole-covered sarcastic piece of shit that I know my whole life and that has crept his way inside my heart. Claiming it. Making it impossible for me to let him go.

So instead of telling him I loved him back, I blurted out the worst thing that someone in this situation could possibly say.

,,I slept with Stiles.”

His face fell and in an instant I regretted my words, but I couldn’t take them back. He jumped off the bed and turned away from me, hectically running his hands through his hair.

I sat up, my head hung low.

,,Theo I-“

,,Just be honest with me was what I asked you to do. All I ever wanted you to be was honest (y/n)! Goddammit.” His voice cracked and when I looked up for a second, I saw him tearing up.

,,I know and i..i…” I stuttered, trying to find the right words.

,,No you don’t. I told you over and over again, that if you don’t want to be with me, you could tell me and I would leave you alone. And then you fucking have sex with Stilinski?!” his jaw clenched and he was getting louder. I knew his anger was growing but I didn’t know how to stop it.

I quickly stood up and started walking towards him, but he backed off immediately.

,,I know I fucked up badly! I didn’t want this to happen Theo I swear!” my throat tightened and I could feel myself beginning to cry. This time I didn’t try to prevent it. I wanted to let all my emotions out, for him to see. So he would see that I do care.

,,Yes you did (y/n). And that’s the point. I should have known all along..god I’m such a fucking idiot! I knew that you had feelings for Stilinski and I still chose to ignore it because I thought if I prove to you that I can treat you better than he can, you would realize you don’t need him. He doesn’t fucking deserve you (y/n)!”

,,What am I supposed to do Theo?” I asked in almost a whisper. My face damp, covered in tears.

,,Tell me how to fix this.”

He shook his head, looking away from me before saying ,,I don’t think you can.”

Theo grabbed his jacket he had hung over the back of my chair and excited my room without another word, leaving me crying into my pillow for the rest of the night.

[Click here for part 15]


Tagged: There was this really sweet girl who messaged me and asked me if i coud tag her in my story. @ladylizzieofdarbyshire thank you for your kind words and explaining tumblr to me lol :D

Someone else i’d like to tag is @sassysweetstories bevause they’ve been here to read MTT since day one, and i’m so thankful for that. You’re messages always make my day, so thank you :)

And last but not least, @sweetvengeancee so adorable, made me tear up. we chatted for a while about MTT and i loved reading your opinions on it :)

anonymous asked:

okay i dont know why i am craving The Angst™ so bad but.. i kinda want to see victor cry? like i want to see his insecurities and sorta show yuuri that everyone has times where they are weak idk. and i was thinking how tragic it would be if when yuuri said 'lets end this' that victors initial reaction is he means he wants to break up and he just gets so overwhelmed and starts crying and oh god why am i doing this to myself

i want this too…but idk if i can actually handle it omg

This part of the most recent CS kiss tends to make me extra giddy for some reason:

 
(x)

idk why, maybe it’s because it’s the first time (that I can think of anyway) where Killian initiates any physical contact between them and Emma actually let’s him. 

anonymous asked:

lee idk why i did this but i went into the white out tag just because i didn't believe ppl would actually do it but there are actually like hundreds of white ppl (most of them with dreads) ranting about 'reverse racism' like do i laugh??? do i cry?? i am shaking my damn head and also shuddering

drink with me my friend