i am a lioness i will not cringe for them

When I still had long hair, my mom and grandma would sometimes smile at me and say “you have a mane like a lion”, and they always seemed so proud. So why then, when I learned that lionesses don’t grow manes, and I became a lion, and learned to roar like one too, did they want to silence me, to shut me down and out? Why do they no longer look at me with pride, when I am finding my power, my control, embracing that in myself, instead of some fucking genetic predisposition to growing thick hair? What is it about my hair that makes them proud, but my voice that makes them cringe? 

When we were out in public, I used to sometimes feel so close to my mom. When we saw people she knew, she would sometimes put an arm around me, and kind of shake me, and say, yep, this is {birth name}, she’s the youngest, our baby. And she would be smiling, and she would look so proud of me, just for existing in that space that we were in, but then I cut my hair short, and I think that must have been when she realized that I was no longer “her baby”. I was no longer the kid she had raised, I was a stranger she was expected to love, a stranger living under her roof, and that was the beginning of the end of our relationship. It’s all over now, though, and I don’t know if she knows how sad I am, all the time. I don’t know if she understands that when I ask her which version of her child is welcome at family events, the daughter she thought she had or the son she never wanted, I am asking her to tell me that she loves me, and anyone who feels most like who I am is welcome, and of course she wanted me and still does, of course I’m her son.. 

People say that it gets better, sometimes parents come around, but I don’t think that’ll ever happen for me. She’s wrapped up in her warped religion, she’s in a bubble, and I’m just another person sitting on the other side. 

SPOILERS

New Sansa quotes from Game of Thrones season 7!!!!
1. “A dragon is no slave.”
2. “I am a lioness, I will not cringe for them.”
3. “Ser Gregor. Dunsen, Raff the Sweetling, Ser Ilyn, Ser Meryn, Queen Cersei. Valar morghulis, valar morghulis, valar morghulis.”

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MODERN THRONES: Cersei Lannister
↳ “I am a lioness, I will not cringe for them.”

@golden-jaime-lannister

         Her hair is growing back.

         Not enough to wear in the elaborate styles once preferred, but simple
braids  held  in place with jeweled pins keep it back from her face  even  as
the ocean breeze attempts to tousle it out of place.  The shoreline has long
since vanished from her view, but she keeps gaze locked on the horizon all
the  same in hopes that something, anything might break the monotony  of
water all around them.

         She adores the shore. Does not so much adore the sea.

         Turns  to find Jaime at her side, watching the scenery the same  way
she is. “Do you still believe this the right choice?”

THE SIGNS AS ICONIC ASOIAF QUOTES
  • Aries: If I look back I am lost. (Daenerys Targaryen, ADWD)
  • Taurus: Vengeance. Justice. Fire and blood. (Doran Martell, AFFC)
  • Gemini: There is no creature on earth half so terrifying as a truly just man. (Varys, AGOT)
  • Cancer: My skin has gone from porcelain, to ivory, to steel. (Sansa Stark, ASOS)
  • Leo: All dwarfs are bastards in their father's eyes. (Tyrion Lannister, AGOT)
  • Virgo: Fear cuts deeper than swords. (Arya Stark, AGOT)
  • Libra: Promise me, Ned. (Lyanna Stark, AGOT)
  • Scorpio: I am a lioness. I will not cringe for them. (Cersei Lannister, ADWD)
  • Sagittarius: Edd, fetch me a block. (Jon Snow, ADWD)
  • Capricorn: By what right does the wolf judge the lion? By what right? (Jaime Lannister, ASOS)
  • Aquarius: Wherever whores go. (Tywin Lannister, ASOS)
  • Pisces: I have to try to save her... or die in the attempt. (Brienne of Tarth, AFFC)
107 asoiaf/got inspired starter sentences ;

requested by anon.

  1. “Winter is Coming.”
  2. “A ______ always pays their debts.”
  3. “Family, Duty, Honor.”
  4. “Is he a ham?”
  5. “Is she a ham?”
  6. “The night is dark and full of terrors.”
  7. “I would let his whole tribe fuck you - all forty thousand men - and their horses too if that’s what it took.”
  8. “I know where to put it!”
  9. “Do you know where to put it?”
  10. “Every flight begins with a fall.”
  11. “The wolf dreams are better. I smell things, and sometimes I can taste the blood.”
  12. “Old stories are like old friends. You have to visit them from time to time.”
  13. “He is a sweet boy, quick to laugh, easy to love.”
  14. “She is a sweet girl, quick to laugh, easy to love.”
  15. “The man died well, I’ll give him that.”
  16. “I am always proud of _____.”
  17. “I prayed for it.”
  18. “He was my special boy.”
  19. “She was my special girl.”
  20. “Darkness will make you strong.”
  21. “I want to weep. I want to be comforted. I’m so tired of being strong. I want to be foolish and frightened for once. Just for a small while, that’s all….a day…..an hour.”
  22. “I am a creature of grief and dust and bitter longings.”
  23. “There is an empty place within me where my heart was once.”
  24. “I want them all dead. ______ first, then ______ and ______ and ______, every one, every one.”
  25. “You have courage. Not battle courage perhaps but…I don’t know…a kind of woman’s courage.”

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anonymous asked:

do you think Jaime and Cersei loves Tywin ? I've always thought they loved, or at least admired the politician but not the father (and it's undersantable, he was an awful father!) Especially for Cersei.

That sums it pretty well. Tywin became for them, very early on, the only role model available. And boy what a role model he was. The man everyone in the seven kingdoms feared. The former Hand, who was rumored to be the actual ruler of the realm behind a mad and inept king. Tywin was powerful, respected, feared. He made sure his children respected and feared him, as well. All the three Lannister siblings (Tyrion included, of course – but I will leave him aside for now or it gets too long) have this fear/admiration for him; they hate him, but they also want to be like him; they crave for his respect and his approval. 

The twins in particular, I think, loved him in a twisted way, but this love was closer to a cult of personality and family pride (so typically Lannister), than to real affection. Tywin was a very distant and cold parent, and had this habit of disposing of his children as he liked – not just Tyrion whom he despised, but the twins too, who looked just every bit as pure Lannister perfection. Granted, he didn’t abuse and humiliate them as he did with Tyrion, but he still used them as political tools. Cersei was his bargaining chip to raise house Lannister even higher in the social ladder, and for this he sold her to a brute like a brood mare, as Cersei herself poignantly puts it (she’s never forgiven him, not just for marrying her off, but for marrying her off to the wrong king). Jaime was his golden heir and he fucked it up when he joined the Kingsguard and for this Tywin always resented him, because he messed with his plans. Not once Tywin gave a rat’s ass about what his children wanted, what would make them happy. All that mattered to him was the family legacy, not the happiness of the individual members.

I think it’s interesting to consider how the twins react to Tywin’s death. They both feel disoriented and nostalgically reflect on his greatness, but their mourning is also punctuated by a distinct lack of genuine grief. They also both feel like it’s time to take Tywin’s place in society, but in different ways and with different attitudes.

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