i am a child and proud of it

Thoughts about The Last Jedi

Obviously, SPOILERS!

I don’t have troubles accepting something new apart from six original films – I welcomed Rogue One with open arms, and not only because of the Darth Vader ending scene.

I didn’t like The Last Jedi. I think I liked it even less than The Force Awakens. Maybe my opinion will improve a bit after I watch the movie on DVD.

Random thoughts about The Last Jedi:

-       Leia and Kylo Ren are my favourites in this movie

-       Leia continues to make both her adoptive and bio parents proud. She will fight until her last breath

-       Speaking of last breaths… Luke gave his last breath while watching the binary sunset with The Force theme playing in the background. I love it

-       While Leia is in every sense Anakin and Padme’s child, Luke continues the heritage of Yoda and Obi-Wan Kenobi: “My apprentice wrecked the Galaxy. I am going to retire to a deserted planet and mess with everyone’s mind from here”

-       Anakin’s Betrayal Theme playing struck me

-       Darth Vader died like 30 years ago. And yet I get the feeling that he is still around. The Imperial March is playing every time someone pronounces his name

-       Not only Kylo Ren stands in awe of Darth Vader. Snoke also thinks Vader was cool

-       Anakin’s lightsaber continues to be an obsession until Kylo and Rey literally break it in two. I can almost hear Anakin’s Force ghost yelling in the background: “Live my lightsaber alone!”

-       Seriously, this lightsaber became such a cult thing. For some reason everybody thinks that if they wield this weapon, they will immediately become as cool as Anakin. When Anakin constructed his lightsaber in a hurry shortly after beginning of the Clone Wars, I doubt he counted on such fame

-       Another Skywalker is offering a girl to rule the Galaxy together. When do you understand that this pick-up line is not working on girls?!

-       Force is like deus ex machina in this movie. I can hear Han yelling in the background: “That’s not how the Force works!”

-       Kylo Ren fighting skills are terrible. Either Luke sucks at being a teacher, or Kylo Ren is even slower learner than Anakin

-       Kylo Ren takes trademarked “Skywalker whining and having a child tantrum at the age of 20+” to a whole new level. I like this guy

-       Luke straight out tells that Yoda and the Jedi Order created Darth Vader

-       When Rey went to the cave, I was hoping she would meet the ghost of Darth Vader. Instead we got a scene with the mirrors from Divergent series

-       Finally, the part I didn’t like the most: Luke Skywalker

“I saw that raw strength only once before. It didn’t scare me then.” This is a lie. Before Kylo Ren he saw that raw strength in Darth Vader. Then he found out that Anakin Skywalker and Darth Vader is the same person. He accepted the fact that he has the darkness in him as well. He won over the Emperor because of the calm acceptance of  both the Light and Dark Sides of the Force, of who he is and who his father is. He won because, unlike the Old Jedi Order, he was not afraid of the Dark. This is the Luke of the Original trilogy. A naïve fool who came the wisest of all Jedi Masters.

Who is Luke Skywalker in the sequel trilogy? The guy who made the same mistake as the Old Jedi Order: he got afraid of the Dark. He got scared of the boy and then tried to destroy him. Sounds familiar? Luke flatly admits that he created Kylo Ren, and this is all true.

BTS as Dads Series 

I decided to do these list thingies bc they’re fun and easy to do?? Anyways, enjoy and requests are open :) xx


  • He’d be his child’s number one support system
  • All the time, everytime
  • “Appa, am I as handsome/beautiful as you? Eomma always says you’re the most handsome person she’s ever seen.”
  • “Well, she’s lying, because you are the most handsome/beautiful face in the entire universe. Flaunt it, baby! Flaunt it!”
  • Is always ready to step in for you in the kitchen and probably insists on making dinner every night even if you have time on your hands.
  • Makes sure his baby looks good af 24/7 bc “he/she has a reputation to uphold”
  • The type of Dad to be proud of his kids no matter what they do (he is extra after all)
  • “Yah! Did you just see that?! Look at my child!”
  • “Jin… He/She breathed.”
  • He’d probably try and teach his kid to cook, sitting them on the bench as he chopped away at some veggies.
  • And as he was making food, he’d pretend not to notice his child attempting to sneak some of the veggies into his/her mouth 
  • he’d turn around and be like “Oh! Who’s been eating the carrots? Do you know who did it?” just to make his kid laugh 
  • speaking of laughter:  d a d   j o k e s 
  • if bangtan or you weren’t sick of jin’s dad jokes, your kid would be a whole other story 
  • “mama, tell dadda to stop please” 
  • “hey! i’m trying to pass on my talent!” 
  • imagine you’re getting ready for work in the morning and you pass your’s and jin’s room to see your husband and your child both standing in front of the full-length mirror, striking poses and hyping each other up 
  • “wah! who is this handsome/beautiful child? she/he’s even more beautiful/handsome than i am!”
  • honestly you’d all be such an adorable and good-looking family, it’d be ridiculous  

when i’m in little space …

🌸 engage with me and give me your attention.

🌸 ask me what im doing & be genuinely curious with a blatant desire to be involved.

🌸 have me count things around me like how many pictures i’ve colored so far or tell you the colors of the crayons i have sprawled out.

🌸 talk in a caring & warm voice that holds amusement, interest, and love.

🌸 treat me like you’d treat any child. be sweet with me, be gentle with me.

🌸 tell me you love me. remind me you’re my cg & that you’re here to care for me.

🌸 call me endearing names. ones you always call me when im little, or ones you don’t use as often. little one/girl/boy, princess/prince babygirl/boy, angel, honey, sweetness, love.

🌸 be close to me. be near me. ask if you can join me in whatever im doing, be it coloring, singing, dancing, having a tea party with stuffies, playing with toys, watching tv, playing a game, doing a puzzle. show me you want to interact with me and support me while i am in this headspace.

🌸 hold my hand because you want me to stay where you can see me, buckle me into the car to keep me safe because im precious, order for me because im too little to do it, offer to take me out places where you know i love to go or take me as a surprise.

🌸 pet my hair. give me kisses on the cheek, nose, forehead. smile at me. tell me im good, that you’re proud of me, that im allowed to be soft and vulnerable, that it’s okay to be little.

🌸 tell me how cute i am when im little. compliment my outfit or my hair or my makeup or literally anything.

🌸 baby talk, talk in third person, use the same tone you’d use with a small child.

🌸 ask me to go fetch my favorite paci, or my sippy cup so you can fill it with juice, or a stuffed animal you know im fond of. know all their names for good measure.

🌸 praise me, love me, just show me you care.


can you believe this was the boy who only a few months ago googled “how to sleep with girls when you’re gay” 

can you believe this is the boy who isolated himself from his friends and everyone he loved because he hated who he was and who he might be

can you believe this is the boy who told his friend that he is not ‘gay-gay’ and will never go all ‘gay pride just because I like Even’

can you believe this is the boy who told himself this every night 

can you believe this is the boy who told his friends that he was just ‘maybe a little gay’ when he first came out

can you believe this was the boy taking a gay quiz all those months ago

and can you believe that This is the boy who fell in love with another boy 6 months ago

and is now sharing his love with the world

That’s Our Boy

Is Nalu canon?

As crunchyroll finally released the last chapter I decided writing my opinion on it. I will make side comments but the main subject will be Nalu since many of you asked me if I think it is canon or not.

First of all we will be starting with the cover page, in which Mashima left some hidden clues.

where have we seen this before? That`s right. 

Natsu`s shirt, which is more manly is more in his style with one long sleeve and a shor one is matching to Lucy`s old outfit from x792. Mashima always made them matchy clothes, didnt matter it was a bracelet, the colors, or a whole outfit.

Moving on… we didn`t have much interaction between NaLu at Lucy`s party

Even so, Mashima brought us a little nostalgia on the good times when Lucy was always screaming at Natsu and he wasn’t bothered by it, morover acting like a child. They are supposed to be 28-29 here right? (excepting the time skip) They remained the same kids they were once.

I have to say that i am really proud of Lucy. She`s such a kind girl, she didn’t care if her novel made her rich or not, but she fullfilled one of her dreams. Isn’t that amazing? I am really proud of my baby ♥

Also I have to say I am happy Anna remained in her timeline. She already lost her parents and she finally has a relative.

There we have a little teasing from Gajeel and also from Mashima himself. 

Anna was the one who sent Natsu n this timeline, Anna made his scarf. He knew her since he was a little boy, he gave him the chill and he is admitting THIS is why he is always so relaxed being around Lucy. She has always been there for him, taking care of him and covering things for him. She was a good friend to him, his best friend and she grew in more.

Gajeel is teasing Natsu in here saying “ you liked her”

What could have Natsu say? “No? I disliked her?” No. Also Gajeel is shocked about his answer. He answered so relaxed and can you see that blushing Lucy? That`s right, she is blushing because Natsu somehow said he likes her. If he likes Anna, Lucy is alike to Anna, he likes Lucy too. so regarding the fact both Lucy and Anna have a similar smell, he is always so relaxed around Lucy, isn’t it the fact that your home has a certain smell, gives you a certain comfort? This is what Lucy is for him. His home. 

In this panel, Lucy is admitting herself she is jealous over Gajevy. Why is she jealous? Because Gajevy managed growing into a mature relationship, Gajeel became a man, while Natsu is still an immature little brat, but he is her brat. We will never see Natsu saying things like Gajeel “ The woman i fell for” “ I wished walking side by side with you” or something like this. No, Natsu has his own way to express his feelings. Let`s remember some of his lines “ I am going to save Lucy” “ Lay one finger on Lucy and I turn you to ashes”  “ Even if it’s just her head, Lucy is still Lucy “ “ From today on, you are mine” “Long time no see, Lucy” and so many others. There are different ways of saying “I love you” Its in your gestures and let’s remember how Natsu was affected by Future Lucy’s death and when they fought with August how he climbed over her to protect her. He is never going to let her die again.

Also Lucy is blushing so hard and is emarassed by the things Gajeel and Levy had done. She is not mature herself to do things a couple should be doing. She is still embarassed about this even if she is 19(or 28)

See? She had the same reaction as Wendy. A reaction a child would have when hearing things.

This doesnt have any link to Nalu but im posting it for gruvians and my gruvia heart

Finally you`ve got a hang of it Gray-sama. @giushia

Going back.

Mashima is giving a tease again. “ the pair im most” the pair. So there are pairings.

Even if they fought Zeref and he put them trough hell, look at her face. She knows that Zeref and Mavis had found their peace they are back being someone else. Her look is saying “ sadness but still happiness” Could this be the love she`s also dreaming of? Even if they had a tragic destiny, they found their way back to each other. 

she, herself is happy for everyone. Every single mage is happy including herself.

Now, let`s start with the Nalu Pages 

there you go, Mashima putting another old scene. “ This is my room” But remember the first time Natsu was in her room? She kicked him out. 

While now she made this cute face, she didnt kick them out and isn’t bothered by it anymore. Yet she still has to say something about it. A girl has to keep her dignity.

The love is in the gestures you do. How I said up. Natsu carried her home, took care of her. Its a little gesture, but what could had happen if he wasn’t there to carry her home while she passed out?

He took her home, he took care of her. He watched over her.

Now, that`s Lucy` way of complaining she will never walk down the aisle, she will never be a bride.

Yet, Natsu finds a way, an open door

“ You can walk out” You can walk out with HIM and join him in his job, like she has always done. Look at her face.He just gave her hope. 

THIS IS NATSU`S WAY OF SAYING “ I wanted to  walk side by side with you”. “ You can walk and take a job with us

Furthermore, she is remembering all the memories the two of them had together. She bursts in tears. 

And hugs him

She hugs him. He is the person who gave her everything. Without Natsu, Lucy would have still been the Heartfilia Princess. she should have married someone she didnt like, she wouldnt have achieved one of her dreams and she wouldnt have been in Fairy Tail. 

She is greatful for having him, for giving her everything she wished for and even if she was rich, he gave her what her parents and their money couldnt afford. Friends and family. Fairy Tail was her family, they had always protected her, they had always been there for her.

Yet, Natsu doesn’t know what to do. He doesnt  want to see her crying even if they are tears of joy. He just want to see her happy.

In these panels, I dont know if i can agree with the others or not, that a panel is missing. Seems it is missing something but at the same time not. Did he kiss her? Why is she so shocked? Or..he didnt kiss her, yet she said “ wait” if hereally didnt kiss her, then her “wait” was “ wait, I am not ready”.

But what are the things you did, Natsu? I dont think in this panel, Lucy is talking about her memories, but something he did.now.  He answers “ what does it matter?” I saw lots of movies and series where the boy, after he kissed the girl and she said something similar to what Lucy said he answered “ why does it matter”. So he really might have kissed her and let`s remember Mashima doesnt know how to draw proper kisses. So a panel could be missing up there because Mashima didnt want to ruin that haha 

They will always be togehter. They are going to a 100 years quest which is a lifetime. Natsu and Lucy will be together forever. Always and forever

My conclusion is that, in a subtle way than Gajevy`s or Gruvia, Nalu is canon and we can finally celebrate.

What she says: I’m fine.

What she means: Hyun Ryu, aka Zen, deserves so much better? A lot of people talk about how good looking he is or that he’s a narcissist, but they forget that it’s a crucial point in his route is how self conscious he really is? And don’t even get me started on how people ignore that his mother emotionally abused him during his childhood. Who the hell calls their child ugly? To protect them? Instead of just teaching them that people might take advantage of them because of how they look so they should keep their guard up? Suuure. I, for one, am proud that he still manages to be so confident after all that. And he’s still going after his dreams despite the fact that he was told he wasn’t going to make it anywhere. He joined a gang and got out of it to make his life better. And he’s doing it on his own, too, wow. People also give him crap for hating on Jumin, which is understandable, but making up with Jumin is also a crucial part of his route. He lets go of projecting his the image of his brother on Jumin and they actually become friends who just have banter? There is no reason to hate this boy? He’s such a sweetheart that gives really useful advice when it comes to handling life and tough situations. He’s very comforting and willing to go above and beyond for the people close to him. He’s willing to drop everything to run over to MC or take in Yoosung. He cares about Jaehee’s health and really just wants her to take a break? He a Mom Friend and a big brother but he’s also such a cute dork? Especially when it comes to things like technology and romantic gestures? The boy even wants to let MC meet his parents before they get married and they won’t let him in the door? And the fandom portrays him as this salty, kind of violent, self-absorbed, character? And don’t even get me started on The Beast™ because? He doesn’t even bring it up that often? And when he does bring it up, it’s after he meets MC in person and even then, it’s only briefly before he changes the subject. Cause this boy would literally wait as long as MC wants him to. I could literally go on, but the main point is that Zen deserves so much better and I will love him enough for the whole fandom if I have to.


Brb I’m calculating how smol Yuuri is against Victor on skates. If Yuuri is 5'8, daddy nikiforov is 5'11, and blades are about 3,14 inches; then he’s now ~6'2 or around 185cm WOW almost the height of NBA players

Also sweetener:

Victor : Our baby will be a great skating star and we’ll be so proud! Oh and imagine that he’s blessed by being born with skates!

Yuuri : Victor. Victor, that’ll haunt me to my nightmares.

Victor : The world will be surprised! First child in history to be born with knife shoes!

Yuuri : …

Victor : Yuuri, why are you silent?

Yuuri : .. I was just thinking

            History sounds like a good name, right?

There’s such a weird fixation in media about “firsts”. Beauty and the Beast boasting disney’s “first gay scene” is the one I’m thinking about in particular, and Power Rangers with the “first gay superhero”, and in both cases it’s a blink and you’ll miss it thing, something that maintains plausible deniability of queerness within the film itself, but establishing explicit queerness in everything outside the film. We know Lefou is gay because the interview told us he was in disney’s first gay scene.

And most of these discussions of firsts devolve into which first is first. Bill gets announced as the first gay companion on doctor who, and then follows the argument of whether Jack counts as companion, whether he was the first pansexual companion while Bill is the first gay companion, whether Amy or Clara was ever canonically bisexual and should that be a factoring in calculating firsts as well. (I remember a similar argument going on when Martha was announced as the first black companion, and people were like “but Mickey?” And there’s definitely commentary waiting about contentious Firsts and characters of color, but my white ass has nothing incisive to offer on that front except the hope we are kinder and better towards Bill than we were towards Martha.) And meanwhile, here is Bill, a black gay female companion, and while that fact has definitely not gotten lost, it is still very very cool and good that she is the companion even if she is not the Absolute First.

The language of Firsts is everywhere when you start looking for it, the idea that this show/movie/video game is doing something New Never Before Done Whoa Look At The Unprecedented Gay. And when this trend worries me, it’s because:

1) it gives off a strong whiff of performative representation, where the representation isn’t as important as people knowing you’re doing it

1a) the corollary being that the emphasis on First First First makes me worried that creators are not interested in Second Third Fourth. That having had the First *spins wheel, throws dart* Lesbian Asian Marvel character (a guest star in three episodes of the Defenders, maybe fifteen minutes, every gif set celebrating her has the same three quotes because that’s all there is), they are now exempted from every having to write a Second Lesbian Asian Marvel character. Because they already did that. Didn’t you see the article in Entertainment Weekly? It was a very big deal.

2) the trend of press on the First Gay Thing tends to vastly outscale the actually gayness, which traps us in an endless loop of hype and disappointment (versus Dumbledoring where the gayness is revealed retroactively for a previously ambiguous character or relationship, and it’s a weird combination of vindication because you thought they might be gay, surprise because you didn’t expect them to be gay, and disappointment because why didn’t the work just say they were gay)

And this, even more than the rest of this post, is a personal grievance but 3) queer fandom has spent decades finding representation in subtext, in coding, in wishful thinking and disciplined literary analysis of the text. This whole First thing seems come with a subtext that every other character who had significant ambiguous relationships, was flamboyant or butch, was in anyway queercoded? Not queer. This here is the first gay thing, and we’re very brave for being the first to have done it. Gay characters must formally come out to count.

Putting aside explicitly queer characters (which exist! Which have a history that creators and fans are welcome to build upon instead of thinking they have to invent gay representation every time they launch a franchise), queer history and queer art has always entailed writing and reading in between the lines. Which requires there be lines. If the new trend is unwritten in text, out and proud in press, what does that offer? I’m happy that Explicitly Confirmed Queer is a thing that’s happening, I very much am, but if a gay child who has never read a think-piece cannot recognize themself in your Brave Unprecedented Gay Character because they didn’t read your interview with the av club, then what use is that character? What was the point? What have you actually contributed to us?


Dear parents is a project that I wanted to make because sexuality and gender has always been an important topic for me, growing up in a heteronormative society thinking that anything ‘other’ is wrong, growing up being placed into a category by others and being bullied for that, later coming to terms with being asexual, and then realising that I was using that as an umbrella term when in fact I was bisexual but scared of embracing that because of the torment that I got as a child for being different. I made this comic because I will always feel the judgement that I grew up with, judgement that now won’t let me be myself around people who I am supposed to be able to be myself around, no matter what, such as family and friends, no matter how much they tell me they will accept me now or how it doesn’t matter to them, there will always be that feeling that I am an embarrassment, that I am a disappointment and that I am supposed to be someone that I’m most certainly not. Although I want everyone to love themselves to feel great in their skin and not have judgement for something you can’t control such as your sexuality, such as your gender and such as your race, you can’t take away scars from someone’s past, so I decided to cut out the middleman and start at the beginning, educating parents, because after all children don’t judge until they are taught to judge, until their parents raise them that way because that is what they were taught, until people on the radio, on television, until friends or teachers or anyone influential tell them that something that isn’t, is wrong. This comic is to explain to parents on how to support their child, how to raise them to not feel the way that I do, the way that millions of other minorities feel, this comic is to help people love themselves before they even hate themselves.

This topic is important to me because although I am bisexual and proud, I am proud of the work that I am creating and I am proud of everyone who stands beside me, I have never felt proud to be Alex Copeman, until now.

Ho ho ho December is here ☃
Does it snow where you live? It never snows here :( i’m a sad child
BUT! I am really proud of how this monthly spread turned out 😊 my classmates liked it as well!
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-Me, a 15 year old, referring to a bunch of 20-30 year olds on the Internet


Fangirl Challenge: [3/15] Parent/Child Relationships » Jane and Xiomara

“First, of course, I’m so proud of you. But that’s nothing new because I’m always proud of you, Jane. I am. Of the person you are and the choices you make and the way you live your life. It’s inspiring, I swear I don’t know how you do it. And now you’re having a baby and I really hope that you get to have a moment like this with your kid one day. So that you get to feel the way I’m feeling about you right now. I love you.”