i always wanted to make something like this

In my ideal world, IF Bechloe get together in PP3...

I want Aubrey to be the instigator.

Like, she notices Beca’s toner for Chloe or something.

Calls her out on it.

Eventually she tells Beca that Chloe likes her. Always has.

And she gives Beca some odd Aubrey-esque ‘best friend permission’ to tell Chloe how she feels because she wants Chloe to be happy and knows Beca can make Chloe happy.

Bonus: Aubrey secretly (or openly) hates Chicago..

anonymous asked:

Who is the first one to just grab the spoon the other has just finished using and just dips into their plate or whatever and brings it to their mouth because they were too lazy to get up and grab a clean one, like that isn't something very intimate? I think it would be oblivious Kara because that's something she does all the time when it's just her and Alex, but I want to know your thoughts on this.

okay, but Kara just casually reaching over and stealing food from Lena’s plate; intercepting Lena’s spoonful of ice cream when it’s halfway to her mouth; drinking from Lena’s coffee mug because she always makes hers with soy milk and TASTES better - sure, but Kara isn’t about to admit that and add it to hers!

All these little things always throw Lena for a loop - because the Luthors most certainly never shared like that, and she certainly never had friends that close. But Kara is just so used to doing it with Alex that she doesn’t even think about it; and honestly after the first time it just makes Lean’s heart so warm knowing that Kara is that comfortable with her that she does those things that when it happens she just cant help but smile (all though she does start adding soy milk to Kara’s coffee because she needs all the caffeine she can get and honestly that half cup Kara was stealing was really starting to impact her work performance.)

CSBB Artist Spotlight: acaptainswaneternity

Today’s Captain Swan Big Bang Spotlight features @acaptainswaneternity!

What kinds of artwork do you make?

Drawing in general. I like to make chibis and I’d like to believe that I’m getting better and better at them. Also I love to make image sets. Another thing that I can do are edits if I have the right material to work with.

What’s your favorite thing about creating artwork?

The whole searching process, searching for my inspiration, searching for images to use.

What’s something you’ve always wanted to try your hand at, but haven’t had a chance yet?

Gifsets. I always wanted to try with them but something always stopped me.

If you participated in the first Captain Swan Big Bang, what was the experience like for you? What are you looking forward to this time around?

Well, I joined to the first CSBB pretty fast because there was a thing with one of the artists and they needed help so I jumped in at the last minute. I liked it, even if I had just a few days to make art for the story. But it was a good story and my imagination worked perfect with what I had so I loved everything. Now I am looking forward to have more time to work at the art and talk with the author of the story, hear what she had in mind while she was reading it.

First Artwork: https://www.instagram.com/p/BJsPcBBhWHy/?taken-by=captainswanandclintasha (INSTAGRAM)

It was my first! I am looking at it and realize that I got so much better at it, but I still love it because it has an emotional package for me.

Second Artwork: https://www.instagram.com/p/BJsStvuhgIp/?taken-by=captainswanandclintasha (INSTAGRAM)

Because it’s Emma! It’s the character that speaks the most to me, my role model.

Third Artwork: https://www.instagram.com/p/BJsPmolB589/?taken-by=captainswanandclintasha (INSTAGRAM)

Because I always liked Ruby.

Check out acaptainswaneternity on Instagram - AO3 - FFNet - Tumblr (fic)

May I have your attention please ^<^ (just a smol bit)

Thanks for the Hope and Inspiration! <3

I want to thank you all, but…

I want to give a special thanks to:

@apocalypse-prevention-agency & @omgaflyingpig

Thanks for being awesome friends, for encouraging me, and caring about me as a person. Maybe life isn’t always great, but I am glad to go through it, with God, and with friends like you.

I was… actually almost planning on giving up art for good, but, thanks to you two, reminding me, that God has great plans for even my simple doodles, and making me feel like my art was… worth something ^w^. I am inspired to make great things again.

Show them some love please, we need more people that care for you, not just when it’s convenient for them, but people who really care.

anonymous asked:

Hi, I want to make a blog for FFXV, do you have any tips?? ;;;


Most important rule: be active in the community! Make friends! Have fun!
This whole thing is a family affair 😂

Write about anything and everything. Be as random as you want. You can elaborate on how the bros brush their teeth or something elaborate like their morning routines.

This fandom loves everything!

Don’t feel obligated to write NSFW if you’re not comfortable with it. If you are comfortable with it; go for it!!! But don’t feel forced.

The world always needs more SFW Blogs lol ❤️

anonymous asked:

Hi hi! I saw the ask box was open and had to ask this. Could I get an Akash x reader where reader-chan just breaks down one day because of all these expectations her family has for her? They expect so much from and even though she's trying her best there's always something wrong or it's not good enough. Currently feeling like this rn so it's been on my mind.

hi! I hope you’re feeling better!! I tried to write it as best as I can, but I’m not sure if I got it right. I didn’t want to make it angsty as much, but I hope you got the comfort you were looking for, 

You count the seconds ticking by as you relax on your desk chair. The mellow ticking of your clock echoes in your mind, creating a sort of peace for your loud and chaotic house. “Why can’t you be more like _____?” “Why can’t you go to this college?” “Choose this school, it’s what’s best for you.” Every single day your parents pester you consistently on your grades, your school, your social life, and your image. 

Stay healthy, go exercise, be involved in school activities as well as extra curricular; it was all a very heavy weight on your shoulder. You took up piano, you were the class representative, you joined all sorts of club, volunteered on Saturdays, and went to the gym three times a week. Slowly, your life was being sucked right from you. 

“May I come in?” A knock reverberated your room, shaking you out of your thoughts and anxiety. Straightening your poise, as you identified the voice, you let out a hum to greet your boyfriend. 

“Good afternoon,” you greet. The red head cast a smile your way, and dropped his belongings on the corner of your room while striding towards you. He was still clad in his uniform jacket and trousers and still absolutely gorgeous. You still couldn’t fathom why someone like Akashi chose you: a nervous wreck. He seemed so calm and collected all the time that it made you nervous just to be around him. 

“What’s wrong?” He’s caressing your cheeks, rubbing the pad of his thumb under your eye, wiping away a tear. Another tear rolled down your cheeks and onto your lap. Soon, you were sobbing and clutching at his shirt, and he gently pulled you closer to him, whispering soothing words and patting your back. You were blubbering nonsense and even you couldn’t comprehend what you were saying but Akashi seemed to understand the gist and nodded at what you said. Once you’ve calmed down, he wiped away the remaining tears and kissed you, harder than usual but it was still soft and soothing. 

“I’m so tired, Seijuro,” He nodded, still holding you close to him. It was upsetting him to see you worked up and recently, even he was a little worried at the lack of sleep you had been getting because of your workload. Although he was busy as well, he had a little more training in time management since he was a child due to his stern father. Being overwhelmed was something he could relate to. 

“Rest, _______. You haven’t been getting enough sleep lately and you need to take care of your body. Please,” he added for effect when he saw how reluctant you looked about his advice. Slowly, you made your way over to the bed, still clinging to Akashi’s arm and laid down. He was about to leave the room to go get you some tea when he felt a tug at his sleeves. Looking down, he saw your crimson face and smiled. 

“Can you stay for a while?” He nodded and tucked into bed with you, pulling the covers over your body. He placed another kiss on your lips and on your temple before slinging his right arm across your waist, tugging you closer. You snuggled into his warmth and let out a breathy sigh. You finally felt at ease and slowly let your worries disappear. 

“Please don’t leave me,” you mumble out before falling into slumber. You didn’t get to hear his reply, but you knew he heard you and that’s what mattered. 

“Rest, love. I promise I’ll be here when you wake up.”

anonymous asked:

I myself am not trans, but I have a friend who is and he tells me he sometimes doesn't feel as masculine as he wants, I really want to help him out, his mom has started to get him boxers and call him by his preferred name, I want to do more for him but I don't know what I could do, any recommendations? Or what would you like to see from your friends who are trying o be supportive? Also what would be a good thing to be cautious of? Thank you for helping me ( ; ; )

One thing that makes me feel good is that my friend (and the only person I’m out to at work" ALWAYS calls me Dude because she does want to use my birth name but any use my actual name at work. Every time she says “hey dude” or something my heart does a little !!! AAAH!!! And it just makes me feel good. Also calling him handsome might help! Like when you see him say “you look really handsome”

I always just say dude/bro (or in special occasions boi) when I’m talking to any of my friends, but ESPECIALLY when I’m talking to my trans friends.


ryupioupiou  asked:

Inuyasha and kagome :p

1. Who likes to kiss the other before going to work?
- kagome because she loves making her favorite pupper feel so special and loved and it always leaves inuyasha very very blush ❤️

2. Who would accidentally fall asleep on the couch and the other one would carry then to bed?
- kagome loves her tv shows and enjoys laying on the couch when inuyasha is busy doing something. Then inuyasha is all taken away by his beautiful lil queen and carried her off to bed bc he just can’t sleep without her beside him

3. Who likes to lay ontop of the other?
- kagome is always on top of inuyasha because she thinks he’s wayyyy more comfortable than the bed itself

4. Who snuggles up to the other in bed?
- inuyasha because he loves snuggles and being held by his fav gal 💕💕💗

5. Who always compliments the other in the morning?
- inuyasha always speaks his mind and tells kagome how beautiful or how lucky he is to have, without even knowing he’s complimenting her

6. Who leaves sweet notes everywhere?
- kagome loves doing the little sweet things for her love; leaving notes on the refrigerator or by the nightstand if she goes out somewhere. Inuyasha tries to do the same but he usually doesn’t know how to or what to say so he’ll leave notes by the toilet and write something like, “I changed the toilet paper :)”

7. Who always forgets thr keys?
- inuyasha but kagome is always right there behind the door with it when he rushes back home

8. Who always makes the other a certain type of sweet?
- kagome /LOVES/ baking, especially for her hubby, and inuyasha loves to eat basically everything and anything as long as it won’t burn his mouth. Kagome always makes little cupcakes or brownies and Inuyasha literally devours all of them

9. Who would run a bath for the other?
- though inuyasha may not be aware of some things, he’s certainly aware of everything that kagome does for him, so every now and then he draws a bath for her and puts flower petals and everything ((miroku & sango helps him out with this bc the first time he did it he kinda flooded the bathroom))

10. Who gives the other a piggy back?
- kagome LIVES for her man’s piggy backs and inuyasha does too. They both love how close they are to one another and kagome thinks it’s so sweet, innocent, but also intimate in a way.

thank you for the ask it was so fun!! 💗💖


I said I was taking a break, haha I didn’t lie it’s just that I just heard about a contest, and I want to enter Siklo in; I’m all pumped up!

The GUI is finally taking shape as I settled on a style for how I want things to look. If I’ve learned something about making GUIs is that clean and functional is always the top priority.

See the captions for some snippets about each screencap ;)

Once I am done with all the GUI element including battle GUI, busts, faces etc, I can start with maps and sprites!

anonymous asked:

I just want to say thank you all so much. I've been going through a really rough patch recently and carpe dm has helped me so much? It's smth I don't get tired of listening to, and tbh I often just start at episode one and binge it if I had a bad day. I always get really excited when I realize it's Friday, you all make my week! Idk where this was going but I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate you. (I'm sorry I didn't send this to your personal blogs, I just wanted you all to see it)

Hi, Nate here. So like, today I’m working with my boyfriend, Alphonse, selling at a convention. And during a lull I was talking to him about Carpe DM and I mentioned a message I’d gotten awhile back, an anon from someone who said something along the lines of “thank you for making sheriff Emeka nonbinary and black like me! I love them!” It was a simple message but it was a profoundly powerful moment for me because in that moment I realized that, in some small way, I’d helped someone. Like, this is a small thing I do, a podcast that a few hundred people listen to. But like- This small thing I do, this thing I make, it made someone smile, and I gave them a character they enjoyed that made them happy. And that small thing mattered… so much.

Everyone deserves to feel like they have a place in stories, that they have lives worth telling stories about. And not just very special episode stories- dumb, casual, geeky stuff too. It’s not just about representation, even though that’s really important and a massive focus of mine with my narratives.

It’s that people listen to this podcast we make and they’re happy. They like it. It’s a small thing, that joy, but I believe in the butterfly effect- i make you happy for one moment and that’s the moment they open the door for someone struggling, or choose to be kind in some small way to another and that person takes that moment and chooses to be kind- this small thing I can, in some small but significant way, make the world I live in ever so slightly better.

And every time we get a message like this it reminds me how much… that matters. And I want to continue bringing people happiness! I want to do good for the world i live in and make it better than i came into it! The things i do may be small but small things can big to people! Thank you for letting me do this one small good thing. Thank you for letting me make you happy. Thank you for spreading that happiness with kindness. Thank you for listening.

This is a long one, so strap in.

I’ve tried really hard to not get involved in the whole 13rw debate. But it’s got to the point now where I feel I have to say something. This is all entirely my opinion, and I respect everyone’s, but i want to share it.

1. Just because you don’t like something, don’t shit on it and make someone who does like it feel attacked. Everything is personal.

Everyone has likes and dislikes. Everyone. For example, I’ve never been able to get myself into Breaking Bad despite always being told how good it is- trust me, I’ve tried multiple times. I don’t know what it is but I just don’t like it! And that’s completely fine, everyone’s opinion is valid. I definitely get that if someone will be triggered by it, they won’t want to watch it. But there’s no point being horrible to someone for liking something.

2. There’s no denying that the show has some serious problems.

But, especially being part of the tumblr community, I’ve never come across something that at least one person doesn’t find problematic. Seriously, search ‘anti’ any fandom and there will be something. The biggest issue with 13rw is because it is so controversial, there’s never NOT going to be divided opinions. The toxic tumblr community can vilify anything. I won’t go into detail about my issues with the show, but it doesn’t mean the show isn’t a step in the right direction.

3. One step forward, two steps back?

Being a part of the mental illness community also (I’d rather not go into huge detail), i know that for as long as I’ve been there, people have wanted better mental health representation in mainstream media. Here we have a show, that displays serious hardships that can happen in everyday teenage life (again, as a teenager this can definitely be confirmed.) and that is greatly overlooked. Also, bringing in ‘To The Bone’ here, which in short looks to me like a fantastic portrayal of ED’s, but people are already writing it off in fear it will be another 13rw. Anyway, the point is that any kind of movement in a positive direction should be encouraged, right? I know it’s not perfect, I know. It won’t be unless we do highlight these problems. However highlighting the show as a whole as problematic is the problem here, as that’s making two steps back for our community which needs to be united.

4. Validation

I’ve come across many people who finally feel validated by this show. They see themselves represented and have something they can really connect with, and then, maybe, they can also see the harmful effects of actually committing suicide and be deterred. Although there is no stopping suicide, this bringing awareness of it to both young people surrounding it, and also parents who have no idea what’s going in in their kids life- is so important. It can help bring down cases and inform people not directly effected who can help. A lot of people who are bullied (like Hannah) or who are depressed (like Alex), a HUGE part of that is feeling unheard. So loved ones around can try and lend an ear. Personally, one of my favourite things to come from watching 13rw, was being able to completely empathise with the sexism Hannah faced and thinking, yes that happens all the time!

5. ‘But Hannah wasn’t clinically depressed and she still committed suicide, suicidal people have to be depressed.’

This is utterly false. First of all, there’s no saying that Hannah wasn’t clinically depressed. True, it was never touched on, but it’s definitely something that could’ve developed while everything was happening to her. Even if that isn’t the case, suicide and depression, though linked, are not necessary with the other. She went through some awful awful things, and that can really make a person feel hopeless. There are so many cases of someone who’s been rap3d, and they have such terrible repercussions that they’ve attempted, or successfully committed suicide, and these people were not clinically depressed. Also, again unclear, but it’s heavily implied that Alex is depressed, and the subtle hints of that throughout the series are just invisible enough as they would be in real life.

6. Graphic Scenes

I don’t think there would’ve been a single viewer who wasn’t horrified by those scenes. They were raw. They were absolutely heart-wrenching and draining. I struggled with watching them, honestly, but I understand why they were the way they were. This is exactly why I don’t think 13 reasons has romanticised these parts of the show. That is the reality- that’s what happens in those situations! There was no garish music to make it pretty, it was just Hannah, she didn’t smile, she struggled to breathe, and she was cold, and the hurt in that scene could never 100% accurately display what goes through someone’s mind when attempting suicide, but I think it was a pretty good job at showing people how terrible it all is.

I just wanted to give some of my insight as I see how divided the opinion if it is. I feel like I’ve barely even scraped the surface, to be honest, but I really hoped viewers learnt that kindness is so, so important.

We can all agree, whether we like the show or not, we really need to spread love.


I remember all the promises we’ve made together—all the good things you’ve said that I thought would last forever. We were like kids writing our futures without knowing how time could change us—how the world will try to always make us reminisce the past. How the people around us will try to mold us into something we didn’t want.


It was the different type of love. I don’t know if fate is real or if destiny confuses us about what we feel. But I always imagine you with me, and my heart beating with yours in symphony. It was the most beautiful song I’ve ever heard. The most wonderful feeling I couldn’t get tired of.


There’s always something that goes in between. Pedestrians passing by— every time the traffic lights signal us to stop. When you were walking fast yet caught up behind someone who is walking slowly enough. When you already want to do the things you love, but you saw something that puts a doubt in your heart. When you thought you already found someone who you can’t enjoy living without.


I choose you over anything else, hoping that you’ll also end up picking me over everybody else. Yet I put a finger on your lips telling you to stop spreading all the sugar coated lies. I point to your chest, hoping for you to be honest. Darling I think I couldn’t take it anymore, if you continue to pretend that you still love me more.


Believe when I say that everything will be okay, even if it will take a lot of time for me to heal. In the end I will surely learn from all of this things. I will still carry the love I have somewhere inside me. Not for you, but for—each and every—broken part of me. This is how I should let go of you. One by one, I’ll remove my fingertips away from holding your hands. One by one I’ll let go of you so you can rest and breathe. Day by day, letting go will ease the pain.

And until my hands stop bleeding, my soul will suddenly appreciate the wonderful life I’m living. In the end my heart will learn how to love myself more—and will finally consider it as my home.

—  ma.c.a // I should stop holding on you

anonymous asked:

I'm 14 going on 15 and I hate how so many people who take a character that was just my age, and make creepy art and fic about him. I'm about to turn his current age and have been propositioned since I was 11 and was always told that adults who try things like that are perverts. So why is it when a bunch of 20 somethings pushing a teen who is around my age into a sexual relationship with an adult and do explicit crap, it's not perverted and gross? What about the teens who are feeling sexualized?

First off, thanks for writing me and being polite in your message. 

The first thing I want to address is this: you should never be made to feel sexualized. Unless it’s with someone you want to be sexual with, like a crush of yours. Even with someone you consider a crush, if you don’t want to feel that way and don’t want to do anything that can be considered sexual (be it even a kiss), you should never feel forced. This is not just now because you’re a teen, this is something that all of us go through and need to keep in mind even in our 20s, 30s and so on.

I’m so sorry that you feel that way in real life because some adults are absolutely disgusting. They are. Adults that prey on children are absolutely disgusting and horrifying and you should call them out, tell your parents or your teachers or the police. I’m not kidding here. I know it’s hard and you might feel like you’re going to be made fun of, or that they won’t believe you, or that they will side with the adult, or that will belittle you and tell you it’s not a big deal. If you tell someone you trust, they won’t do all those things. Go with your guts. Tell, even if someone only threw nasty words at you or catcalled you (and I really hope you never went through anything heavier than that). In those cases there won’t be much that you can do, but telling someone will help.

What I can tell from your message, is that you (subconsciously or not) equate sex with generally being nasty and perverted. This will probably be unnecessary, but I’ll say it anyway: sex is not inherently gross or disgusting or creepy. If you feel that it is, then it means you’re not ready to enter a sexual relationship, and that’s perfectly fine and normal. I won’t tell you that that’s only because of your age, because some people never (or very rarely) show any interest in sex (it’s called asexuality and it falls under the LGBT+ spectrum). Whether you do end up growing to want sex or not doesn’t matter here. 

What matters is that now you clearly don’t want to see sex and anything to do with it in your fandom experience and that’s fine. Tumblr offers you ways to make your experience better and show you only the content you want to see. Block any nsfw tag. Don’t follow blogs whose description clearly states that they post nsfw (like mine). Tumblr is a big and scary place if you just take everything it throws at you (be it ship hate, nsfw stuff, etc). The thing with it is that it can’t cater to everyone’s tastes, so you have to be active about blocking the stuff that YOU don’t want to see. Other 14-going-on-15 year olds might be okay seeing nsfw fanart and posts and that will be their Tumblr experience, but you should definitely take measures to protect yourself from what you don’t want to see. 

Now, the thing about Otayuri is that no matter how you twist it, it’s not illegal to ship it, even in a sexual way. You should definitely read this post about it, because the thing is, as much as we can project our feelings and real-world stuff into anime characters, they’re not real. 

I assure you that if Yuri on Ice was a flesh and bone show things would be different. I don’t really watch any current TV shows with teens in them so I can’t speak for what other fandoms do with their ship, whether they’re sexualized or not. I can only speak for this silly and amazing anime that’s been consuming my life for the past seven months or so.

Anime and cartoon characters are a safe way to explore things about real life. Whether it be sex or depression or anxiety or simply falling in love, we can all identify with an anime character and see our flaws, our fears and our history in them.

The thing you have to remember is that we (I’m speaking for the slightly older part of the fandom since I’m in my twenties) have been Yuri’s age. We’ve very likely had crushes on boys or girls that were a bit younger, our age or slightly older (like Otabek is). So I think for most of us, shipping Otayuri is a way to remember what it feels like to be a teen and be in love/have a huge crush. We will never be that age again, and maybe there’s things we regret not doing, crushes we wish we had confessed. By shipping Otayuri in an active way (meaning: drawing fanart or writing fanfiction) we can explore things we experienced as teens (or wish we had) and pour a little bit of ourselves in Yuri’s (or Otabek’s) character. 

Those things might involve anything from simple fluff or rough sex, because, accept it or not, some people at 15 or 16 were (are) having sex of all kinds. Sweet, loving, rough, vanilla, kinky, you-name-it sex. So not to explore that aspect in a healthy way (through fics or fanart) would be lying about what reality is, it would be denying that we ever thought about or had sex at that age.

Much like with blocking tumblr content, you can choose what kinds of fanfiction you read. Only read General and Teen and Up tagged things, read about fluff and about falling in love in a sweet innocent way. Read anything tagged “Ace!Yuri” (it means asexual, the thing I was telling you about before). 

But please understand this: when we sexualize Yuri, we’re mostly sexualizing our (often past) selves. Not other teens, not other real-life people. Yuri doesn’t exist in real life, and many of us see bits and pieces of ourselves in him. When we write about him we really write about ourselves, be it because we want to see how we (maybe a little sassier and bitchier version of us) would have confessed a crush to our best friend, or would have handled the aftermath of having just shoved our gloved fingers in said best friend’s mouth in front of thousands of people. Fanfiction is a study about versions of ourselves that never existed, but might as well have.

Another thing I need to make clear: Otabek is not an adult. I assure you that the morning of your 18th birthday you won’t feel like an adult. You’ll feel like the you from yesterday and it will be anticlimactic af, you’ll be like “That’s it?” and yeah, it will be it. Just because the law in some country or state says that 18 is the age of consent (which is set to 16 or 14 years old in many other countries) it doesn’t mean that you’re automatically an adult at that age. You can be 18 and have had sex since you were 14. You can be 18 and completely uninterested in sex. You can be 18 and have a 15 year old mental age, or you can be 16 and be mentally more mature than some 20 year olds.

What canon has shown us, is that Yuri and Otabek are much closer to each other’s mental age than the 2 years + a few months difference they share. I encourage you to find posts about why there’s no power imbalance between Yuri and Otabek, because they compete in the same sport and they have had similar experiences in life.

In conclusion, if you feel irked about nsfw fanart and fanfics and discussions when it comes to this particular ship, please don’t read it/watch it. But what I can assure you is that none of us are trying to sexualize you or your peers. When we sexualize pixels on a screen we don’t see those pixels as a flesh and bone version of a human, we only see an idealized character whose age we are or have been and whose personality and experiences we want to safely explore.

Also really important: when we write/draw NSFW, we don’t write/draw it for teens to read. I repeat: WE DON’T CREATE NSFW CONTENT FOR TEENS. We’re not your parents or guardians, we write NSFW for whoever feels like they can handle seeing nsfw content. If you’re a teen that goes on the nsfw tag and then complains about it (I’m not saying that’s what you did here, I’m speaking generally), it’s only your fault for going in a tag that you weren’t comfortable to begin with.


  • Speak up if you feel sexualized IRL in a way you don’t like;
  • Learn how to use tumblr safely, block tags, understand that tumblr doesn’t do those things for you. Make your fandom experience exactly the one you want to see;
  • Don’t trust adults who tell you this ship is somehow illegal: it’s not;
  • Understand what’s behind fiction and fanfiction as a way we have to explore real life things (often too personal to write about as ourselves, so we project those things in characters we like);
  • Understand that adulthood is not something that happens from one day to another;
  • Learn to discern what content is meant to be consumed by a teen and what content isn’t;
  • Be safe.

Hello my beautiful sugar babes!

I have the best boyfriend in the world. He surprised me with a eight week old golden doodle. I love this dog so much I don’t know what to do. He also ordered me a business platinum American Express credit card. And of course I still have his credit card on my Postmates, Uber, and UberEATS. He also ordered me HGH which is human growth hormone that is $700 a month. It’s supposed to make you skinny, your hair bomb, your nails amazing. Kim Kardashian and Madonna takes it. He’s in Las Vegas for a bachelor party for his brother and he’s calling me every few hours and face timing me. It’s so sweet. He’s so loving and kind. I’m so happy I have him.

I went to the Beverly Wilshire Hotel and I met this grandpa and he took a liking to me and he wants to help me in my professional career. He wants to publish articles about me so I can become famous in my career when people google me. I’m really happy I met him and I look forward to growing my professional career and maybe leaving the sugar bowl forever one day. I’m really happy with my boyfriend and I don’t really see a need to hustle guys if I can make a substantial amount of money in my professional career.

I went to Roku sushi restaurant in Los Angeles last night at midnight because I was hungry and these guys kept circling our table and when the bill came the waitress told us that one of the gentleman had paid for our bill. It was a $200 sushi tab so it was nice to get free dinner. This just goes to show that once again my proximity thing is true. You need to be around rich people to meet rich people. I highly suggest going to this restaurant there were so many rich guys there I went in my yoga clothes and Adidas slides. I literally ran out for a midnight snack now I know to dress a little bit better. He owns 40 brands of wines and lives all over the world. He invited us to attend the BET party and Yacht parties for 4th of July.

A guy asked me to go to a music festival with him in Chicago and he offered me $8000 for three days but I’m not sure if I want to go because it’s rock music and I prefer hip-hop and EDM. So I don’t know if I want to go and listen to music for three days that I don’t even like I don’t know if it’s worth it. I’m still thinking about it.

I work out at Equinox and this guy invited me to this Lamborghini and McLaren event. I guess these guys that own these $400,000 cars pay money to race their cars on the race track. There were so many rich as guys. I wish I could’ve invited you all.

Girls have been messaging me asking me where I met my guys and I met them at all different places here are some examples. These are the guys that take care of me monthly of course I have my guys that I see here and there but these are the guys I count on every month
• 30 year old Amex, takes care of my car insurance, work expenses, cell phone bill, unlimited credit card - Match.com
• boyfriend, Uber, UberEATS, Postmates, credit card, HGH, Equinox - Tinder
• $5,000 a month and all my Christian Louboutins - MillionaireMatch.com
• $5,000/ $20,000 a month Persian - Poker Game
• billionaire - Charity Event
Rich guys are everywhere so you got to keep looking.

I made some mistakes in the beginning in the sugar bowl so I wanted to share with you what I’ve learned and I hope I can save you some trouble
• always get the money and or gifts first. One of my first arrangements on SA The guy promised me $1000 for a meet and he gave me $500 after. And I didn’t know what to do so I just took the $500 I left and he promised me that he would give me the money later but he never ever did. I never made that mistake again. When I see my daddies I always say “hi babe did you bring my gift.” Don’t trust them and if they say something like “this feels to transactional” I suggest you should leave he’s probably going to gyp you. All my real daddy’s give me the money without making me feel guilty.
• only talk on the phone with them for 10 minutes at a time. Try not to call them let them call you. When I see that the 10 minutes it’s getting close I just hang up abruptly and say “hey I have to go” and I just hang up. If they want to talk to you they have to come see you. They know how to find you. Don’t worry. They didn’t die. They’re just busy. He’ll make time for you if you’re important but don’t force anything. My boyfriend told me I never called him once in 2 months. If I need to say something I save it for when I see him. Are used to make up excuses to text him. Like if I bought him his favorite Mountain Dew soda I will take a picture and send it to him. But I stop doing that and he has been chasing me ever since.
• only give him 75% of your love. My nail lady is like my therapist and she told me she’s been married for eight years and her husband still asked her to this day if she loves him. She gives me the best advice. She also asked me do I know which noodle house is the best noodle house in Korea? She told me it was a noodle house that serve the least amount of noodles. So be the noodle house that serves the least amount of noodles. That will make him coming back for more.
• always make sure your nails are perfect. I once was dating this really rich guy who owns all these medical marijuana dispensaries and he told me that he will not date a girl if one nail is broken. Now I know you may think that this is absurd but I’m talking about being a sugarbaby on a high level. In order to be a sugarbaby on a high level you need to look like it.
• you need to shower daily. I can’t believe that I have to even say this but one time I hug my girlfriend and I could smell her hair and my eyes almost white cross eyed. You don’t know how many times guys have told me that they love the way I smell I shower and wash my hair every day and I understand some of you guys because if your ethnicity that you cannot wash her hair every day but you need to figure out something to make sure you smell good and clean. And even after sex I will take a shower and guys always told me that they love me that I’m so clean.
• we are here to comfort our men if they’re having a bad day make sure you uplift them and make sure that you make them happy. One of the things I always tell my guys is I’m here to celebrate your success your happiness and your life make it about them. You can go home and complain to your girlfriends but your boyfriend is not the guy you are complaining to. We are here to celebrate their life and their success.
• I have never ever referred to any of my guys as my “sugar daddy” or asked for an “allowance” to their face. Behind their back I referred to them as my sugar daddy and stuff but to their face they think that I am just their regular girlfriend. This will build more trust and they won’t feel as used and they will probably be looser with their wallet if they feel like you’re not using them. You know they’re going to be very cautious of everything if they suspect anything. You’re going to make the most money if their guards are down so you need to build trust.
• this is also a tip from my nail lady but do not ever make them feel jealous. Even if you are dating multiple men do not let them now. Do not post fancy photos of food on your social media if they’re following you. They know that you were on a date.
• Now as I mentioned above to only give 75% of your love to them and only spend 10 minutes on the phone with them when you were with them in person you are the number one girlfriend. When I am with my boyfriend or any of my dudes and even a Rolls-Royce I don’t even look. My phone is in my bag the whole time I do not check my phone for social media or my text messages or anything. My dude has my full undivided attention. They are the king in my eyes (at the moment)
• I personally won’t introduce my girlfriends to my daddies or my boyfriend until things are really established between the two of us. You don’t even know how many girls will sideswipe you and try to fuck your boyfriend for a Chanel bag. So to save your relationship with your boyfriend and your girlfriends just make sure you and your boyfriend or totally establish before introducing them. You can’t really control what they are going to do but you can definitely control if they meet or not.
• as you guys know a lot of my dudes give me credit card. A lot of girls have been messaging me about this. To get a credit card they are going to need your real name, your birthdate, and your Social Security number. So it has to be definitely someone that you completely trust. My 30-year-old daddy and my boyfriend I know they would never do anything to hurt me. They’re the most nicest people on the planet and their goal is to just help me. So don’t give some crazy motherfucker your Social Security number just so you can get a credit card it might not be worth the trouble. But this is really nice in case they go out of town or something you don’t have to depend on them to deposit money into your bank account it’s just a credit card so you can just spend and they pay the bill. The other great thing is if someone gets you a credit card I can only benefit you never hurt you so let’s just say that they default and don’t pay the credit card it goes on to their credit but let’s say that they pay your $10,000 a month credit card like every month your credit will improve.
• always have your own separate income or business or school or like profession or something that you’re working towards. There is a very high chance that you are probably going to marry a really rich guy being in the sugar bowl you’re going to end up falling in love with one of them. But the thing is is you should still have your own thing. You could even be a part-time plastic surgeon. All my aunts married very wealthy men but they have never worked a day in their lives and their husbands cheat on them all the time and they’re just stuck in there miserable relationship. They are decked out in Ferragamo, Mercedes Benz, and have Chanel bags but they hate their lives. You want to be adored and loved. And you have to let them know that you know you could leave if you wanted to and I think they’ll treasure you more. The also respect you more.
• if you are having a slow season in your sugar game do not worry it happens to all of us that’s why you need to be dating multiple guys to make sure that you’re going to be OK. That’s also why I highly encourage you to save your money. If you need to buy stuff have your daddies buy it for you save all the cash that you get. And honestly if you can’t get a guy to buy it for you you probably don’t even deserve it. If you really wanted you will figure out a way to get a guy to buy it for you. While we are having lunch I’ll make them take me to Sephora go buy $300 worth of make up or say “babe can we swing by target? I’m out of TP” and but $200 worth of stuff. Or get my nails done with them.
• K girls you know my favorite save save save! Just because things are going really well with your daddy don’t get too excited. Guys have offered me all kinds of stuff and they fell short.
• which also brings me to another topic is don’t count your chickens before they hatch. Meaning guys are gonna promise you all kinds of stuff don’t really count on it until you have the money in your hand or in your bank account. And honestly I made the mistake of telling my friends and looking really stupid when the guy never even called me back. So keep this information to yourself and maybe later if they actually give you the money or the gift then you can tell your friends but even with that you were going to end up with a bunch of hater friends. They’re probably going to call you a hooker or something like that because they are so jealous. They probably can’t even get their boyfriend to buy them a $200 dinner. So they are really going to hate you if your boyfriend is giving you a $10,000 allowance plus the Mercedes-Benz, you get what I mean? In the real world not that many people will be happy for you. So be careful who you share your information with.
• and really girls if you want to be a sugar baby on a high level you need to look like it. Your hair, make up, skin, nails, clothes, style, everything needs to be on point. One time I saw my girlfriend who really wanted to be a sugarbaby on my level and she had open her purse and her purse was a freaking mess and her make up had busted and the make up was all over like her wallet and and her stuff. It just looks so freaking disgusting. I buy make up bags from the dollar store and if my make up bursts or breaks I just empty it out throw the make up bag away and I put it in the new make up bag. You need to be really clean for these guys. And this was also the girl that her hair smelled. I mean I’m just her friend observing and I already knew we both played in different sandboxes. She asked me if she could have my old daddies but none of my dudes would even fuck her for free.

I really want all of you guys to be really successful. I’m here to answer any questions and to help you with any of the stuff but you guys need to do your part and look your best and be healthy go work out and be the best you. Make sure you’re all there mentally, emotionally, and physically. I pray and I mediate a lot to get my spirituality and head space in the right place. I work out and eat organic food so I’m in a good mood.

Another thing is is my nail lady told me that you don’t have to be the prettiest girl in the world but you do need to have the best skin. Stay out of the sun it ages you it’s not good for you it will give you freckles and wrinkles. Use SPF every single day, reapply it all day, where a hat if you’re going to be in the sun.

If I actually become successful in my professional career I will probably quit the sugar bowl and just take my boyfriend exclusively. I am really happy with him and I’m happy with my new puppy. I love you all and I wish you all the best success in the world and I totally believe in you.

That’s another thing to make it in this field and anything else you need to believe in yourself. I open my arms and face my palms to the sky, face my heart to the sky and I say “I open my heart to receive love, money, and happiness”. I need you guys to start doing this so the universe knows that’s you’re ready for your whale :)

To all my daddies,

I want to thank you for all the luxuries in my life. I want to thank you for making sure my bills are paid, designer silk clothes, most expensive shoes and handbags, most exclusive gym membership, caring about my health, buying me healthy organic groceries, alkaline water, green juices delivered every morning, taking care of my eyelashes extensions, nail salon, eyebrows, skincare, spas, facials, hair salon, make up, plastic surgeries, laser hair removal, my new puppy, taking care of my puppy supplies and vet bills and thank you for taking care of me even when you’re away on a business trip. I will in return be the best girlfriend to you make sure you feel like a king. I’m so grateful I met you. I love you so much.

Happy Father’s Day Zaddy ❤️

Your Asian Sugar Baby


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We Are Young: Chapter 5

Throne of Glass High School AU

Summary: Senior Rowan Whitethorn is new to town. It doesn’t take him long to get use to a new school, make new friends, even join the local hockey team. But it also doesn’t take him long to meet sophomore and figure skater Aelin Galathynius. And it doesn’t take him long to realize one thing; he can’t stand her.

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Where’s my bra?

That was the only thought running through Aelin’s head as she stood there, in the middle of Rowan’s bedroom. With Rowan sitting in his bed, shirtless.

Obviously there were more important matters at hand.

An eerie silence draped over the room. Neither one of them spoke, neither one of them even knew what to say. And, if she was being honest, Aelin was half afraid that if she opened her mouth, she may actually be sick.

She tried to work around the fog that laced her memoires. She tried to think of what the hell happened last night. More importantly, how she came to be standing before Rowan in just her underwear. But she was coming up empty. Everything was a big drunken blur. The last thing she remembered was her and Fenrys kicking Dorian and Manon’s asses at beer pong - and even that was fuzzy.

Where’s my bra? And pants.

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