i also want to get rid of this too

Things I want to say to each of the signs

Aries: you’re a much better friend than you let yourself think.

Taurus: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I want to be you but I also just love that I get to be your friend.

Gemini: I don’t even know what you’re doing with your life.

Cancer: I miss you so much!! You’re awesome. I hope you know that.

Leo: You’re cool but also kind of annoying. I love you anyway though :)

Virgo: you’re too good for this world. How do you not see your potential?

Libra: you have to forgive yourself. Besides, I love you and that’s all that matters.

Scorpio: let go. Whatever it is, take a breath, and get rid of whatever is holding you back.

Sagittarius: get over yourself. Not everything is about you, even if it feels like it is.

Capricorn: be careful of what you say. It sticks with people, so make sure it’s something nice.

Aquarius: you have to figure yourself out before roping anyone else in to your fantasy world.

Pisces: What happened to the person I use to know? People change… but not this much.

Theory: Mystery Man IS Eren

 I know I’m not really the type to post Attack on Titan theories but I just can’t help myself with this one because I am 99.9999999% sure the “mystery man” we see in chapter 93 and 94 has to be EREN. The only reason why I’m not 100% sure is because I’m keeping in mind that there’s a chance Isayama might just pull a “here’s a new important character!” move, which honestly doesn’t make sense in this case for so many reasons… but you never know, right?

So with the latest chapter out, I knew that Isayama was going to bring this guy up again. Of course, I was hoping that the identity of this man would’ve been revealed already but it looks like he’s purposely keeping the identity secret to keep us readers on edge.

Now for those of you who wonder why I am so confident that this is Eren, I can first state the obvious point:

1. Appearance: Considering that there has been a three year time skip, it would be realistic to assume that Eren has grown out his hair even more by now. Aside from that, chapter 90 heavily implied that there was going to be a great change to Eren’s character. His tired eyes and lengthy hair was not only meant to be symbolic of his mental state, but also a new direction to his character.

I know quite a few people have already made these panel comparisons, but it’s important to keep in mind that in this panel above, the mysterious person is spying on Reiner (I will get into more detail about the importance of this later).

Now I know this one seems a bit of a stretch, because I’m going into the nitty gritty details but bear with me for a minute. We know that Isayama gives distinct facial features despite his inconsistencies (although that’s because he has improved on his art), and since we aren’t given much of the mystery man’s face to look at, I figured we can pay attention to his nose. So we know that Eren has grown out his hair since chapter 90, but we can also see here that the man’s nose shape looks very similar to Eren’s (scroll up to compare with the first panel of Eren). It’s not crooked, curved, or super round. It has just that shape that would fit within Eren’s facial profile. Had there been any other character with this hairstyle or someone who could possibly have grown this hairstyle as well, I wouldn’t have pointed this detail out because there are of course other characters with this similar nose shape. The mere fact that Isayama is only giving so little for us to look at makes me think he had to leave out some sort of hint, right? In fact, he could have completely cut out the mystery man’s face so that we only see his hair and then Falco’s face.

Aside from the nose, it’s hard to tell the eye shape but I can say that it appears to be a bigger eye (which Eren has) if you look at the distance from the eyebrow.

Furthermore, if you look closely at the man’s hair scalp area, it is in the same position as Eren’s is. The hair separates in the middle. The fact that this detail is added in this panel above further points out a clue as to who this person could be.

Also, side note but if this does end up being Eren then it seems that the guy has grown a bit of a stub (which honestly makes me so excited for some reason??? lol)

I also need to stress that if this were a “new” or “unknown” character, why would Isayama go through the effort of hiding the man’s face and showing as little as possible? Clearly this is someone we know and considering that he reappears in this chapter means this guy isn’t just some random dude we should feel sorry for, or??

Lastly, I just want to briefly point out that the armband being misplaced implies that this person clearly isn’t familiar with this environment, which is why most of us can at least agree that this is a spy.

2. Eren likes to “act” before he goes in for the kill:

I would like to remind you guys the times Eren has tried to “trick” his enemies by playing innocent before attacking them. Here are some examples:

I think these parallels are important to point out because they show an aspect of Eren’s character, that being that he likes to deceive his enemies (although in a bit of a childish way). For Eren to play as an injured soldier seems very fitting to his character. Of course, I get that he’s a spy and has to “fit in” with the crowd, but he could’ve skipped the effort of cutting his own leg off, right?? Well, I would say that Eren wants to portray himself as weak and vulnerable because that brings less suspicion. I doubt that the Marley soldiers are going to pick on a guy missing a leg, and through this Eren can easily win their sympathy as he did when he tried to rescue Mikasa from the kidnappers. 

3. The mystery man was spying on Reiner:

If you were to ask yourself who Eren would look for if he were to spy on the Marley, wouldn’t the best candidate be Reiner? I mean, if this spy really isn’t Eren, why pay particular attention to Reiner out of all people?? It could have been someone on a much higher position if we’re talking about getting secret information. The fact that this man was watching Reiner heavily implies that he knows who Reiner is, and is using him to find the others. Sure, he could also have gone for Zeke since he has seen the guy before, but I’m sure Eren holds a bigger grudge against Reiner for the moment (he also only saw Zeke for a brief moment so there’s that too). That being said, I have a feeling that this foreshadows a reunion between Reiner and Eren. I wouldn’t be surprised if Eren still wanted to get rid of Reiner first before making any other move. This would make more sense as to why he would choose to spy on Reiner more.

EDIT 4. Eren being the spy fits with the narrative:

@featherpoet made a pretty good point about this so I’m just going to simply quote what they said:

“Since we’ve passed over to the Marley PoV, we’ve seen sooooo many parallels between the characters that grew up there and the ones we knew from Paradis. Gabi -> Eren, Reiner -> Armin, etc. So, it makes narrative sense that the infiltrator would also fit into some sort of mirrored position, since that’s the kind of story that Isayama is telling.

Eren Jaeger is named after Eren Kruger. You know. The spy who informed on the Marley and had a premonition about Mikasa and Armin. It makes soooo much sense that the second Eren would also sneak into the Marley camp. Like, the narrative framing is just too good to pass up. No other character could fit that well.”

EDIT 5. There are parallels seen between Reiner and Eren in the chapter:

@lady-bluebird-luv makes a case pointing out the similarities the two characters have, and I think this only strengthens my prediction that we’re going to see Eren take the role that Reiner had when he was infiltrating Paradis Island. To quote: 

“Both of them have come face-to-face with what they consider to be monsters. We also learn in this chapter that Reiner’s father is Marleyian, and his mother is Eldian. Eren’s parents are both Eldians, but his mother is a Walldian while his father is from outside of the walls. In fact, both Eren and Reiner have fathers from the other side of the walls. for Reiner, it’s the wall between the true Marleyians and the Eldians. For Eren, it’s the wall between Paradise and the rest of the world. In a sense, they’re both hybrids.”

With the previous chapter where we had the mystery guy watching Reiner, I think this parallel we’re seeing only further strengthens my theory that that person is definitely Eren. It’s almost symbolic when you think about it because if this person is Eren, then there might be an implication that Eren might want to take away everything Reiner cherishes (hence making that panel feel more eerie because the danger is literally behind his back). Think about it, we see Reiner in that moment trying to guide the kids away from a place that he considers to be too dangerous, and coincidentally but not coincidentally we see that mystery guy in that direction. Now do I think Eren would do something that cruel? Well, considering the parallels we’re seeing now, I wouldn’t be surprised to see Eren doing it for sake of making Reiner feel the same pain as he did when he lost his mother. 

Now I’ve noticed there are certain claims that have made people skeptical about this person being Eren, and there are a few I would like to argue against:

1. It’s too obvious!!

Okay, first of all, this isn’t the first time Isayama has been “obvious” in regards to the mysteries of AoT. Remember the Female Titan? It was pretty obvious that while all the characters were trying to figure out the identity, most of us knew it was Annie with all the screaming hints we were given. It’s true that sometimes Isayama likes to give as few hints as possible so that the reader doesn’t figure out too much but I think in this case Isayama wants to warn the reader that this person is someone we should watch closely rather than wonder who the hell this person could possibly be.

2. Why would the Survey Corps take such a risk with Eren??

My guess is that either this is actually part of the Survey Corps plan OR Eren decided to run off on his own due to disagreements. Besides, the Survey Corps HAS made risky decisions before. They always have, and it’s not sure whether Eren is the only spy right now. However, I’m gonna go with the latter because it really does make sense that Eren would go on an independent mission. Let’s refer to chapter 45, shall we?

Remember these pages? It’s pretty telling that this is a foreshadowing of what’s to come for Eren. So to say that Eren would be rash enough to charge against an entire country on his own isn’t too crazy to believe. This is exactly what the reader should expect Eren to do. It was him after all who brought up the idea of killing the enemies on the other side. When Eren has a new goal, he’ll charge after it even if everyone else disagrees with him. 

3. Eren wouldn’t be stupid enough to wear the armband on the wrong side!

Ummmm… yes he would actually?? A hot-headed, emotional, acts-first-thinks-later-type-of-guy would do just that??? Sounds like the Eren I know, at least. This isn’t Armin we’re talking about here, you know?? I highly doubt Eren would pay attention to such a small detail. This is the guy who denied all the evidence that Annie was the Female Titan, despite how obvious it was (although be it that his emotions clouded his judgement). He’s never been the guy to come up with a brilliant plan, and I think we can all agree on that. Consider the fact that this guy likes to “look at the bigger picture”, I don’t think you should be surprised that he made such a simple mistake. 

4. The mystery man has limbs cut off! Shouldn’t they have regenerated??

I know others have already explained this one, but I’d like to point out anyway that Reiner managed to control his bitten arm from healing. In this case, it’s very possible that Eren is doing the same and must’ve trained himself to hold back from healing. No need for further explanation.

5. It could be Jean since he has disguised himself as Eren before!

Okay, this one really doesn’t make any sense, considering that if this is true then the Survery Corps are allowing a man with a missing leg to for some reason disguise as Eren with longer hair which NO ONE from the Marley side (Reiner and Zeke) remember him having??? I mean, I highly doubt Jean became a Titan shifter unless he ate Annie which just makes my brain hurt because this theory just doesn’t add up whatsoever lol. Sorry, but I just don’t see a severely injured Jean to follow a plan like this. 

6. Reiner and Zeke would recognise Eren if they saw him!

Actually, no I don’t think they would. Not at first glance, at least. With longer hair, a stub, and a missing leg, one could easily overlook Eren as just another injured soldier. Keep in mind that having longer hair makes it easier to hide his face from others. Eren’s change in his appearance makes all the more sense for him to go undercover. 

7. How are the Survey Corps going to defend themselves if Eren is gone?

I think after the multiple ships sent to Paradis Island that ended up disappearing, I don’t think the Marley are stupid enough to continue sending more. After all, Zeke did mention that they needed a “proper” plan to retrieve the Titan powers. Also, they still have Armin, and maybe even Annie I mean ffs she better not still be in that crystal after all this time lol. I’m sure they are not completely helpless without Eren’s power. 

8. How would Eren not be spotted when coming over to the Marley side?

Well, considering that we know this mysterious guy is all injured, it’s very possible that Eren used this injury to disguise himself as a soldier who was part of the 4 year war. Did he use a small boat to come over? Or did he hijack one of the ships that tried to invade Paradis Island? If he did the latter, then it would have been reported being seen arrive back. My guess is he used one of the Marley soldiers to help him navigate through Marley territory without being spotted. It’s very possible that he still used one of the ships that invaded Paradis Island but found a way to sink it before being seen (he is a Titan shifter so I’ll leave the rest to your imagination). Hell, maybe he even managed to find himself in the middle of a battle before the war ended and that’s how he came up with the idea of injuring himself so it could look like he was on the battlefield. 

So those are my opinions on the Mystery Man as of now. I’m sure I’ve probably forgotten to add some other important points so I’ll be sure to do so if I feel the need to. Feel free to agree or disagree. I’d love to hear what other thoughts people have but for now I am definitely leaning towards this guy being Eren. All the clues seem to point to him.

Room Organization Masterpost!

Hi everyone! I’ve been obsessing over masterposts recently, and decided to make one of my own. This is going to be all about organizing and cleaning your room, with some of my tips. I haven’t seen many posts about full room cleans, which kinda surprised me because I find that when I have a really organized and clean room, it is much easier for me to stay motivated and excited about being productive. Anyways, let’s get started!

1. Put yourself in the mood for cleaning: Alright, this sounds a little weird, but get yourself set up to clean with some background noise and whatever else you need. I like to bring in a pet to have some company in my room (I have a dog, any other animal that you have I’m sure would work too though hehe). I also like to put on some youtube videos in the background - the video in the picture is by @studyquill :)

2. Time to Start Cleaning!: First, I like to start with making my room LOOK clean. There is a difference between looking clean and actually being clean (the difference being if your room is organized as well). So move any clothes off the floor and bed, do laundry, make your bed, take out the trash etc. 

3. Throwing Things Away: If you’re anything like me, you probably have quite a few piles of notecards, papers, dried up pens and more that you should’ve thrown away/recycled a long time ago. Go ahead and get rid of that. During this phase, I also like to look through my closet and dresser to find any accessories and clothes that I no longer wear to donate and/or sell. 

4. Makeup and Hair Products: If you don’t have much of this that needs to be organized, you can skip this part, but I know that my makeup area gets super messy (even tho I only use like 2 products?? idk.). Organize that into a free space you have in your room, or in your bathroom if that’s what you prefer. Also make sure your brushes are clean! 

5. Organizing Stationary: This part is always the hardest for me, but definitely the most satisfying. First, I go through all my pens and test them to check for dried out ones. Then, I find any containers/jars that I can organize the pens in, and then separate my pens by brand, most frequently used, and/or types. Next I get all my stickers and washi together and organize it into a basket of its own. Refer to the picture below to see how I like to organize everything.

6. Desk time!: Finally, you’re going to need to organize your desk/study space. My desk is always a mess, so it’s always nice to get it cleaned out lol. First I like to organize my favorite books and notebooks into an aesthetically pleasing array just cause that’s fun. I keep two notebooks on my desk, a travel book, a beauty book, a writing ideas journal, Winnie the Pooh in Latin (lol if you didn’t know I take Latin haha), a ‘Pick Me Up’ journal, and a meditation guide book. Then, I clean everything out and organize cubbies/drawers into sections. The sections I usually have are pens, tech, random things I don’t want to get rid of (literally random little trinkets that I just have too much emotional attachment to), and other supplies. In this step I also make sure my calendar is updated because I know one time I had a September calendar up and it was literally April… oops. 

I hope you guys enjoyed my first ever masterpost! I really enjoyed writing it, so if you guys have any requests feel free to let me know what they are and I’ll do my best to write a post about them. (also I use @emmastudies printable calendar just for reference)

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[ monday | 09.18.2017 ]

어제 교회에 갔다 왔다. 아파서 2주동안 볼수 없는 교회 친구들을 어제 다시 봐서 너무 너무 기뻤다. 교회 친구들이랑 좀 더 놀고 싶고 수다 떨고 싶었는데 할게 있어서 예배 끝나자마자 바로 나갔다. A4 용지를 사려고 1층으로 내려갔다. 근데 내가 원하는 A4용지가 없어서 다른 물건을 샀다. 에휴. 서점에 갈때마다 펜이나 공책 같은 필요 없는 거 항상 산다. 어제도 마찬가지다. 아직 쓰지 않은 공책이 많은데 어제 2권이나 더 샀다. 이런 나쁜 습관을 더 늦기 전에 고쳐야 하는데 어떻게 해야 할지 모르겠다.

I went to church yesterday. I was so happy to see my church friends after not being able to see them for 2 weeks because I was sick. I wanted to stay and have a chat with my church friends but I had something to do so I left church right after the service. I needed to buy some A4 paper so I went down to the 1st floor. But they don’t have the A4 paper that I wanted so I ended up buying something else. Oh dear. Every time I go to the bookstore, I always end up buying things that I don’t really need like pens and notebooks. It was the same yesterday. I have so many notebooks and I haven’t even used them yet but I still bought two more yesterday. I really need to get rid of this bad habit before it gets too late but I don’t know how.

Do you guys also end up buying a notebook or pen or something you don’t really need when you go to bookstores or school supplies stores?

I studied with Talk to Me in Korean’s Everyday Korean Idiomatic Expressions book and these are the notes I wrote yesterday which kinda reminds me of Wanna One’s pink and blue albums. Lol. I studied and stayed up until 1AM.

Supplies used: Limelight notebook, Zebra Mildliners in Mild Pink and Mild Blue, Pilot G-2 0.5mm Gel Pen

지금 듣고 있는 노래: BAP의 Honeymoon 🎶

studygram: @meloncremekr

“so if the blue ones are my fault and the purple ones are my families” 

So uh…. red vials have something to do with rick.. and uh. I’m just going to bring this back up cause im too lazy to edit it. 

also

fear of… what? *waits*

edit: i also just wanna add, that the red ones seem to be the ones RICK wants Morty to forget. Not that Morty wanted to get rid of. So..


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Doomed — Min Yoongi (05)

Words: 2834

Warnings: demon!Yoongi + angst (a lot of it; prepare your hearts)

Description: Dating a demon is not at all what you thought it would be like…

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“She’s pregnant.”

You stood there, shocked. You couldn’t believe it. Was he lying? Why would he lie about this?

Out of the people that stood around you, Yoongi was the first one to speak up.

“What the hell do you mean ‘she’s pregnant?’”

“I mean, she’s pregnant, Yoongi.” Lehun tells his nephew.

How could you be pregnant? If you were pregnant, wouldn’t you have known?

You didn’t know what to say. What could you say?

“Oh my gosh.” You hear Taehyung say.

“No. She can’t be pregnant. She can’t.” Yoongi speaks, running his fingers through his hair.

Lehun look at you, shocked. The expression on his face was probably the same expression on yours.

Lehun looked to Yoongi, who looked stressed. “Min Yoongi. You messed up. Badly.”

Sure, this was an unplanned pregnancy, but why were they acting like someone just died or something?

“This is why demons shouldn’t have relationships with humans. How could you get her pregnant?” Lehun asked.

“It seems like I’m the most responsible one in the family.” Wonho rolled his eyes.

“We need to do something about this. The baby has to go.” Lehun says.

Your eyes widened at his words.

“No!” You tell him, crossing your arms over your stomach. “Why are you guys making such a big deal about this? I’m carrying a baby, not a dragon or something.”

“It might as well be a dragon.” Wonho sighed.

“Y/n…” Yoongi trailed off. You looked up at him. He looked genuinely worried. “You can not have this baby.”

“I’m not getting rid of it.” You say. “Y/n, you have to. You have to get rid of it. You can’t have it.” Yoongi tells you.

“No. I know this was unplanned but I am not having an abortion. I won’t give up this baby, Yoongi.” You said.

“Y/n, you don’t get it.” Namjoon says. “I don’t. Please enlighten me.” You turned to face your friend.

“You’re a human. Yoongi is a demon. What do you think the baby is?” Lehun asks, not letting Namjoon speak.

“I don’t know.” You answered, honestly. “I don’t care. It’s a baby. A child. I’m not letting anything happen to it.” You looked at the elder man.

“Y/n,” Yoongi spoke up, taking one of your hands in his. “You can’t have this baby. I won’t let you do it.”

You raised your eyebrow before pulling your hand away from him. “I’m not letting you or anyone else take this baby from me, Yoongi.”

Yoongi looked into your eyes, trying to plead with you. “I’m serious, y/n. You can’t have the baby.”

“I can't—” You started, but stopped once someone grabbed your arm and spun you to face him. Lehun. “Let go of me!” You tell him. He didn’t let go. His grip was painful on your arm.

“That baby is worse than any demon. It’s worse than Yoongi. Worse than Wonho. And worse than me. We’re not letting that thing live!” He tells you.

You tried to pull away from his grip, but it was too tight. “You’re not having this baby. You’re not.” Lehun says.

“Let me go!” You yelled, but he still didn’t listen. His nails were digging into your flesh, surely creating wounds.

You felt hot tears starting to pour from your eyes. You looked over at Yoongi, who just stood there. He still looked worried, but did nothing to help you.

“Are you just gonna stand there?” You asked him, tears pouring down your eyes.

“Y/n…” He trailed off. “You can’t have this baby.”

Is that what he cares about? He didn’t care that you were crying, or in pain. All he cared about was getting rid of the baby.

“I’m not—” You started, but Lehun tightened his grip on your arm, causing you to yell out in pain. You look down to see blood streaming down your arm.

Tears streamed down your face and Yoongi didn’t look like he was going to help you anytime soon. You looked at Hoseok, the first boy who stood beside you.

He saw the tears in your eyes and immediately jumped into action, prying Lehun’s hand away from you.

Once his hand was off, you took a step back, crashing into Taehyung who wrapped his arms around you. Comforting you as you cried.

“Look!” Lehun says, grabbing your arm once again. He took your arm in his hand, inspecting it. His grip wasn’t as tight as before.

You look at your arm to see—nothing. Nothing was there, except the now dry blood that had cascaded down your arm before.

There were no cuts, or marks from not long ago when Lehun had dug his nails into your skin. It healed. It healed so fast.

“Look, she’s healing. The baby is giving her abilities. It has to go.” Lehun tells everyone.

You pulled your arm away from him, returning to your spot in Taehyung’s arms.

“Y/n…” Yoongi starts. You didn’t want to hear it. You know that he would just try to convince you to give up the baby.

You turned around, facing Taehyung as his arms were still wrapped around you.

“Take me home. Please.” You asked him, tears running down your cheeks.

Taehyung looked at Yoongi before looking back at you.

“Come on, lets go.”


“I have to go to the doctor, don’t I?” You asked as you, Taehyung and Hoseok sat on the couch in your apartment.

“Not unless you want the doctors to see that you have a demon baby inside of you.” Tae tells you.

“So how am I supposed to make sure that the baby is okay?” You ask. “You don’t.” Hoseok answers.

You sighed, looking at the two boys.

“How come you two don’t want me to get rid of the baby? Everyone else seems to.” You say.

“Because I love kids.” Taehyung smiles. “And I love Tae.” Hoseok also smiled.

Taehyung looked at Hoseok, smile still on his face. “I love you too, man.”

“Why is everyone so angry about it? It’s just a baby. What damage can it really do?” You questioned.

Both boys looked at you, raising their eyebrows.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Yoongi didn’t tell you, did he?” Taehyung asked. “Tell me what?” You asked.

Hoseok scoffed. “Of course he didn’t tell you.” He sighed. “Why does he insist on keeping things from her?” He asked Tae, who just shrugged.

“I’m confused.” You announced.

“Y/n,” Hoseok starts, looking up at you with soft eyes. “The reason that demons and humans aren’t supposed to be in relationships is because if the human gets pregnant, the baby can kill her.”

“What do you mean by kill?” You asked, trying not to assume the worse—even though you know what he meant.

“I mean kill. As in, you could die, y/n.”

“That explains why Yoongi doesn’t want me to keep the baby, but what about Lehun? He doesn’t care about me at all, so why would he want me to get rid of it?”

“Because it’s a cross breed between a human and a demon. There haven’t been many cases of these type of babies, but the ones that we’ve heard about were terrible. They went on killing sprees. Killing humans and demons. That’s why they established the rule that humans and demons can’t have relationships.” Hoseok explains.

“And because that baby gives you abilities. You saw how you healed earlier.” Taehyung explains. “While that baby is inside of you, you’ll be able to do things that you’ve never done before.” He says.

“Like what?”

“You can heal, obviously. And you have super-demon strength! And you can teleport. You just have to learn first.” He says. “Oh!” He says, getting up excitedly. “You can control people. You know, like Yoongi and Lehun do. And maybe you’ll even be able to read minds like me!” He smiles.

“That is, if she doesn’t die.” Someone says. You all turned your heads to see Yoongi, who had literally appeared out of nowhere.

You sighed, not saying anything.

You were mad at him. How could you not be? Even if he didn’t want you to have the baby, he just stood there watching while Lehun grabbed you. He didn’t do anything about it. Isn’t Yoongi supposed to protect you?

No one wanted to speak up after Yoongi spoke, but Taehyung did it anyways. “Why are always so negative? You have to look on the positive side sometimes.”

Yoongi rolled his eyes at Taehyung. “Positive my ass. Nothing is positive about this situation.” He says.

“You’re so grumpy all the time. You’re gonna be a dad. Let loose, man.” Taehyung smiles, lightly nudging Yoongi with his elbow.

“I’m not going to be a dad. Y/n is getting rid of that baby.” Yoongi says.

You stood up, crossing your arms over your chest. “I’m not.” You huffed.

“You are.” Yoongi takes a step closer to you, causing you to take a step back. “I’m not.” You repeated.

“Hyung,” Hoseok starts. “It’s just a baby.”

“It’s not ‘just a baby.’ It’s a demon baby. It can kill her. And it can kill all of us.” Yoongi says, looking at his friend.

“I don’t care. I’m not getting rid of it.” You say.

Yoongi looked back at you. Instead of worry in his eyes, like you had seen earlier, his eyes were now full of anger. He stared at you, eyes piercing your skin. You felt like if he looked at you any longer, you would crack.

You showed no signs of giving up the baby. You weren’t going to do it. You couldn’t do it. Even if it kills you, it’s just a baby. It’s your baby.

Yoongi groaned before turning to face his two friends.

“Namjoon is waiting for you, Hoseok. He says he has to follow his human to a party and your human will be there too.” He says.

Hoseok also groaned, sighing. “Why are Jungkook and Jimin such party animals?” He asked himself.

“I’m glad my human isn’t like that. He’s a chill guy. He’s really corny though. You should meet him, y/n. He’s good company.” Taehyung explains.

“You talk about Jin so much. Why don’t you go marry him?” Yoongi rolled his eyes.

“I wouldn’t mind being married to a handsome guy.” Taehyung smiles.

“Come on, Tae. You can come with Namjoon and I.” Hoseok says, grabbing Taehyung’s arm and pulling him away.

“Wait.” Taehyung says, pulling away from Hoseok. He walked over to you, embracing you in a tight hug.

He pulled away, looking at you.

“I won’t let him take this baby away. It’s not happening.” You thought, not saying it out loud. You knew that Taehyung heard you anyways.

He smiled and nodded before walking back to Hoseok. They left your apartment, leaving you and Yoongi alone.

For the first time, you actually didn’t want to be alone with Yoongi.

It was silent for a few minutes.

“So, we’re just gonna stand here in silence?” You asked, sighing.

“You don’t want to listen to anything I have to say. What’s the point of talking?” Yoongi asks.

“You’re right.” You say, turning around to walk to your room.

As soon as you took your first step, Yoongi grabbed your arm, turning you back around.

“Don’t touch me.” You tell him, pulling your arm away from him.

Yoongi laughed and shook his head. “You’re mad at me now? For what?” He asks.

“Because you’re an asshole.” You stated.

“H—” Yoongi don’t get to to finish his sentence before you spoke. “Lehun was hurting me. You did nothing about it. I was in pain, Yoongi. Aren’t you supposed to protect me?”

“I co—” “And on top of that, you’re trying to make me get rid of the baby.” You say.

“The baby could kill you.” Yoongi tells you. “So what? I’d rather die than knowing my baby died because of me.” You said.

“You’re so stubborn, y/n. You asked if I’m supposed to protect you—well yes. Yes, I am supposed to protect you. And I’m trying to do that, but you won’t let me.” He explains.

“It’s a child, Yoongi. It’s a person. I’m not letting it die.” You tell him.  

“Well I’m not letting you die, y/n.”

You rolled your eyes.

Yoongi took a step closer to you, hands tucked into fists. “Y/n, if you don’t get an abortion, I swear I'll—”

“You’ll what? Hit me? I’d like to see you try.” You scoffed, not believing that he would do such a thing.

“Why don’t you listen, y/n? You could die! This baby could kill you! I’m not letting that happen.”

“I’m not letting you take the baby away.” You tell him. “What’s your problem, Yoongi? Don’t you feel anything? The baby is yours. You’re going to be a dad. Shouldn’t you be happy?” You ask.

“I would be happy if you being pregnant didn’t mean that you’d have to die.” He says.

“Taehyung is right. You need to stop being so negative. Yes, there’s a chance that I could die, but there’s also a chance that I won’t.” You point out.

“I’m not taking that risk. I’m not letting you die.” Yoongi says. “If you died, everything would fall apart, y/n.”

“But you’d have a beautiful child.”

“I’m not sure how much I’d like the child if it was the reason that you died.” He says, honestly.

“Don’t say that!” You said, lightly hitting Yoongi’s chest. “Yoongi, no matter what, this is your baby. You can’t tell me that you’re not even a little bit excited. Isn’t it exciting to be a parent?”

Yoongi shook his head. “I don’t want a child if it means that you would die.”

“Why are you like this? Can’t you think about something other than me?” You ask.

“No. I can’t. I love you, y/n. You’re my whole world, my whole life. I’m not letting you get taken away from me so easily. That’s why you can not have this baby.” He says.

You crossed your arms over your chest. “Well, I’m keeping it and there’s nothing you can do about it.”

Once again, you turned around to your room, but Yoongi grabbed your arm, pulling you back. When he turned you around, your faces were only inches apart. You could feel his breath against your face. His eyes gazing into yours, searching for any sign that would make you agree with him.

“No! Y/n, no! You’re going to get rid of that baby. Now.” He says, tightening his grasp on your arm. “No!” You yelled, pulling your arm away from him. You felt tears form at the brim of your eyes.

He looked at you like you were crazy. How were you able to pull away from his grasp if he was holding on so tightly? Maybe it was the strength ability that Taehyung was telling you about.

Without saying anything else to him, you ran into your room. You were about to close the door, but Yoongi pushed it open, his force sending you tumbling backwards.

“Y/n, I’m serious. We’re going to get rid of this baby now.” He says in a stern voice.

“We’re not.” You said.

He took steps towards you, but with every step he took forward, you took a step backwards.

He reached his hand out to touch you, but you hit his hand, pushing it down. “Don’t touch me!” You yelled.

“Y/n, stop it! We have to get rid of it.” He tells you.

You shook your head, repeating the word “no” over and over. “Get out, Yoongi. I don’t want you here.” You say to him.

“What? No. I’m not leaving, y/n.”

“I don’t want you to stay. Just leave. Go stay at Namjoon and Hobi’s house or something. I don’t want you here.” You repeated.

“No.” He says.

“Yoongi, just get out!” You yelled, pointing towards the door. As you pointed to the door, the door slammed shut, causing your eyes to widen.

Yoongi looked at the door before looking at you with wide eye. “Y/n…you—” He didn’t get to finish his sentence before you spoke, tears rolling down your face.

“Leave. Please, just leave.” You pleaded, looking down at the ground.

A couple of seconds passed, as if Yoongi was going to say something, but he didn’t. He sighed before turning around and walking to the door.

You looked at his back as he walked. When he got to the door, he turned around, looking at you. Neither of you said anything. After that, he left. He walked out the door, not bothering to close it.

A few moments later, you heard the front door open and close, meaning that he left through there.

You sat down on your bed, tears falling down.

You wanted Yoongi to leave, so when he was finally gone, why did you feel so empty?

🔮 PREPARING A LITHOMANCY SET 🔮

Lithomancy – the practise of divination through casting stones and reading how they fall – is one of the most ancient and (in my opinion) effective divining methods out there, as well as costing nothing to set up and being something you can completely teach yourself and make your own. I recently went on a trip to an incredible and magical beach where I collected an array of exceptional rocks, pebbles, shells and fossils for this purpose, so I thought I’d make a long post on creating and preparing a kit.

GATHERING

🔮 First of all – they need not be stones, or all be stones, although the name “lithomancy” refers specifically to stones. Some cast with bones, or sticks, or shells. Some cast with whatever the hell they can find at the time. Use whatever speaks to you.

🔮 It will feel more organic to find your stones out in their natural habitat, preferably in a place that you feel a connection with, but it’s okay to purchase. The most important thing is that the set is personalised to you and that each piece of it has been chosen by you, connected to you, for a reason. Even if that reason isn’t immediately clear – it doesn’t have to be yet. Assignation will happen later.

🔮 You should use a level of instinctive guidance to find your casting stones. Perhaps you’ve even been gathering them already, drawn to them and bringing them home with you – don’t rule out stones and bits and bobs already in your possession.

🔮 Take a moment for every potential casting stone you pick up. Hold it in your hand, roll it around, look at it, think on it, get a feel for it. Start to form a picture of what it may contribute to a divination. Keep what you can’t bear the thought of throwing away. Discard everything else.

CLEANSING

🔮 First of all, a physical cleaning. Nothing too harsh – you don’t want to damage the stones or scrub them raw. (For bones and the like though, research and follow good hygiene practises accordingly. Also recommended: the law.) Generally I find a shortish soak in some warm saltwater effective enough. A light sponging to get rid of any mud, sand, etc, if there is any. Apply common sense.

🔮 Then comes the more metaphysical cleansing. Depending on your practise, you could also consecrate or bless them. Some ideas: passing through incense or smoke, cleansing with blessed/spiritually purified or charged water (you could combine this with the physical cleaning), put into a grid with cleansing crystals, using bells/sound, and personally I’ve been using sunlight to cleanse as well as charge mine.

ASSIGNATION

🔮 Set aside some time, fire up the incense, get some mood music on, ground and centre and get yourself in a good headspace. Ideally you’ll also have a nice cleansed and moody space to carry out the assignation process. This will be when you give each of your stones/objects a ‘meaning’, similar to each Tarot card having its own set of meanings and associations, or the runes that some cast. But stones are more free-form and intuitive, and the meanings are discerned and given only by you.

🔮 What you’ll be doing is almost like meditating with each of your stones. Pick up the ones that speak strongly to you first, maybe the ones that you already have some idea of their meaning – these will be the easiest to assign meanings to.

🔮 The physical appearance of the stone is a good starting point. Make sure to have a good inspection of each one. Then, enclose it in your hand and close your eyes. Feel the life inside of the stone and what it says to you. Tell it what its name and meaning is – whisper it aloud into the stone if you must. Make contact. Make sure it’s working in accord with you.

🔮 The easiest way to note down these meanings for you to memorise is to set out a piece of paper or two, and once you know what a stone means, lay it down on the piece of paper and write underneath it the name, meanings and associations. This gives you a sort of physical ‘key.’ Taking a photo of the paper spread/s once it’s done will act as a handy cheat sheet.

🔮 You’ll want a nice, rounded-out set of associations in order to give your divination depth and reach. Some traditions suggest using the different planets (and their associations) for the stones, and other simple suggestions might be elements, deities, past/present/future, etc. There are some out there that suggest a lithomancy set must contain a certain number of stones and they must have certain fixed meanings, but my opinion is that using your own intuition will make it more powerful for you. Plus, most of these traditions I could find were western European in origin, which obviously isn’t where all of our practises are from anyway. Research your traditions or make your own meanings – it’s all down to you.

CHARGING

🔮 There are a ton of resources on charging out there, and you’ll likely learn or already know best what works for you. This is a good, simple post on it for beginners. My favourite method is charging by sunlight, not only because it’s simple but because of how it falls into my belief system too.

🔮 Some suggestions: sunlight, moonlight, starlight, charged crystals and crystal grids, water of various properties (rain, storm, sea), laying out on grass or soil or tree roots or in herb planters, bones (bone grid?) and feathers and such…

PRACTISE

🔮 After taking some time to familiarise yourself with your set and its meanings, it’s time to begin practising. Just chuck ‘em! Start off by doing readings for and about yourself. Get a feel for your set and how it speaks. This is also the time to make adjustments to the meanings of some of the stones, or add new associations.

🔮 You’ll also want to start putting together your pre-divination rituals. A cleanse and a charge, a bit of grounding with incense, a hearty meal, a word with your ancestors? What works for you will become clear with practise.

🔮 In terms of the reading itself: make note of the shape that they have fallen in. The stones that are close together, and the ones that are far apart. Any that line up or form a shape. Some like to use a “self” stone or object that they can use to orient the reading around.

🔮 Some don’t cast all of their stones in one reading – I don’t. You can pick relevant stones for readings that are more specific, or just grab a random handful of stones from a bag and use those. That way, which stones are ‘drawn’ will tell you something all by itself. Change up how you cast and read during your practise period, try every method you can think of. Get creative!

🔮 I don’t think casting stones is good for yes/no answers personally, but did find this quick tip: pick a stone to mean yes/positive, and one to mean no/negative. Pick a ‘self’ stone or object. Cast them. Whichever one lands closest to the ‘self,’ there’s your answer.

🔮 I don’t know if I will, but you may also want to look into creating and incorporating a casting grid. These are shape and charts (usually on cloth) that you can cast upon, and act as a ‘map’ so that stones landing in certain quadrants will let you know what that particular stone is relevant to.

UPKEEP

🔮 Over time you can add to, take away from and generally change up your lithomancy set – what you pick to start off with isn’t the end all, be all. The best divination sets will change and become more attuned to you over time.

🔮 I tie my stones up in a square of batik fabric when not using them, and also use the fabric to cast upon. Simple, neat, effective.

🔮 Remember to keep on cleansing and charging your set as required.

Yuzuru’s Interview after SP AT WTT (20 April 2017)

“All my bad habits came out. I think I had too much feelings or put in too much thought.  It’s a team competition and so there were also feelings of nervousness. And tomorrow is the death anniversary of Prince and I had also intended to put in those feelings and be focused but…… I am really very sorry about that.”

“I was not able to skate the SP well, even to the end like this. I want to get rid of this feeling of being bad at the SP and I will work on this over some time.”

–After the performance, you looked up and moved your mouth.
 “I said ‘sorry’ (gomennasai). I apologised. I had too much strange pressure inside me. But even then, I thought I could do it. So in that sense, I have not grown at all, I was thinking that.”

–About the mistakes:
“Regarding the failure of the (quad) loop, there is nothing that needs to be fixed for that. In terms of feeling, it is a jump that I have been landing steadily, so if I jump properly, it would be fine. I have also corrected the salchow and it has been stable. I think something like the awareness that (my SP) has not been good in competition came out too strongly.”

–Your thoughts on the song?
“I feel I have no right to talk about it right now. If people saw the programme, heard it and enjoyed it, I am happy, and I am very grateful to the choreographer, Jeffrey Buttle.”

–Thoughts towards the FP?
“It’s not a competition that’s based on the total score for SP and FP.  We compete for placing, and tomorrow is tomorrow and I will give my best for that without being affected by today.”

–After mistakes/failure, how do you switch, how do you protect the mental aspect?
“Feelings of frustration/regret will lead to growth. I think it’s ok not to switch. It’s precisely because of the feelings of regret that I can be excited/fired up about tomorrow.”

(translated by me) (original article: Yahoo News)

My heart aches to read his words but he is always so honest and he is not afraid to talk about his own vulnerabilities.  Although it’s painful, the last 2 things he said here are very encouraging.  And to say all these thoughts right after the performance, without much time to think or prepare, he is really strong and amazing.  I just want to tell him: 

It’s alright; it’s okay!  We still love you anyway!  GO, YUZU, GANBARE!!

First Day of School Preparation

As for many of us students, back to school is coming soon, and for some of you at a rushing speed. I know some students (in the US at least) go back on either August or September (depending on your school). As for me I go back on September 6th, so I thought that it was about time I make this post :)

School Supplies

First thing is first without having the right materials, academic life will be a challenge. This is like 99.5% self explanatory, but here it is anyway.

  • If your school provides a recommended school supplies list, USE IT! Don’t buy stuff last minute when you could be prepared without having to go to the store because you waited for the start of school.
  • This is quite contrary to what I stated before, but you should buy the majority of your school supplies (if you know what you need) beforehand, however, there are some things that your teacher/professor will require you to have that you had no idea were needed. This rarely happens to me, but depending on your teachers/professors it might happen.
  • Aesthetics vs. Productivity/Usage. I find that most people (in the Studyblr community mostly) tend to buy products that are visually or aesthetically pleasing, not focusing on the productivity or usage of the product. Clearly not looking at how long the product is going to last, and not even thinking about whether the product is right for them or helps them instead of being a nuisance. Some people even end up not using the product in the down-run! Remember to see if the product is something you really need or really need to buy.


Originally posted by omoizakkashop


Mental/Emotional Health and Preparation

Your mental and emotional health is going to be one of the major factors to your school year. These are a few tips I have to prepare for back to school.

  • Don’t worry too much about the first day! Sure it’s been a few months since you haven’t been in a academically connected place, much less a school, but sometimes not caring is the way to go.
  • Don’t think you need to be perfect during the whole school-year. This is the one thing that stresses me out the most. I keep thinking that I need to be perfect (this happens weeks before school actually starts) and I start getting anxious, wondering if I’ll do great this school year. Relax, and remember that nothing in life has to perfect nor is it ever going to be.
  • Set goals for the school year, but don’t overdue them to really high expectations. Make a list of goals (mentally or physically) about what you want to accomplish this year (it doesn’t have to be about school or academics). Don’t, however, give yourself a long list of goals, and don’t make your goals too high standard. It’s good to give yourself a challenge, but sometimes overdoing it can cause unwanted anxiety or stress (especially if you can’t accomplish it or you’re having trouble with them)
  • Talk to a close friend or your parents about your worries. Cliche, I know, but it sometimes helps. Having someone listening to your problems can make a difference (especially if they’re someone you know that are trustworthy). 
  • Remember that you come before your academics, social life, or whatever else you may think is important. If you put other things before you physical and mental health, things are not going to turn out well. Who cares about school and social activities, when you, yourself are feeling unwell. Take a rest, take a day-off, do something different for a change, talk to someone about how your feeling/about health, anything except stressing yourself even more, and causing yourself to feel even more unwell!


Originally posted by a-thousand-shining-stars


Academics

One of the most important thing that is going to determine how your school year goes, is academics. Try to do your best, and try to get the best grades you can possibly get, but don’t overwork yourself.

  • Try to read the course syllabus the school/district/professor/department provides for you. It will help you have a better idea on what to expect academically. It also helps you get rid of the anxiety you might have on whether a unit in the course will be too hard for you. If you find that a unit is too hard, don’t worry, because your teacher/professor will help you to achieve good grades.
  • Aesthetic Notes vs. Practical Notes. Yes, I know everyone in the Studyblr community wants to make aesthetic notes, but sometimes that isn’t the way to go. Sometimes simpler and more effective notes are the way to go. Instead of spending 2 hours on how aesthetic the notes are going to be, spend more time trying to grasp the information, and trying to lay out it in way that is more effective and practical. It saves not only your time, but it saves your energy to study more. 
  • Try to drink a lot of water, and try to eat healthier than usual. Studies show that drinking water and eating healthier not only help you do better academically, but it can also help you mental as well as physical health. It’ll also help you feel more refreshed in general. 


Originally posted by slothilda

That is all I have for this post, and bye! :)

what's gonna happen to papa iii?

well, kids, era iii is coming to a close after a long run and we’re all getting ready for the introduction of papa iv. i have two different theories for how the replacement of papa iii is gonna go down and both have some solid evidence behind them. ultimately though i don’t have a damn clue what Thigh Fat has in mind, though, so this is all just speculation that myself and @silverthurible have been thinking up for the past several months.

theory #1: papa iii is gonna fucking die dude

this one is my personal favorite because i love papa iii so much the only way i can live with him being replaced is if he fuckin DIES

thurible and i base this theory mostly off of the fact that papa iii’s character is apparently very largely influenced by king gustav iii of sweden.

his costume is the giveaway, with papa’s suit being almost a direct copy of a suit famously worn by ol’ gustav:

 gustav was also known for being extravagant and very fond of the performing arts, which fits papa iii’s very Extra, theatrical personality. 

he was also a freemason, and that aligns with how square hammer is loaded with masonic imagery

SO THE REASON I MENTION ALL THIS IS BECAUSE…….gustav iii was assassinated. by a bunch of men in masks!!!

i don’t know why you’d want to kill this sweet angel devil pope. maybe sister imperator wanted to get rid of him for being too goofy and had him killed. maybe he suddenly went mad with power and the ghouls brought him down. or maybe…..i will touch on the sub-theory here:

theory #1.5: papa ii is going to kill him

hey remember zenith?

so like what if this song, zenith, that’s about the fall of the advanced civilization that we see in era 3, is hinting at something? 

like what if it’s hinting that papa ii is going to come back and do a Bad Thing, bring about the downfall of that empire, and become papa iv?

papa ii is on the cover art. papa ii is also in all the booklet art for meliora. this could just be a result of papa iii’s design not being available to the artist at the time that the pieces were done, but hear me out here: 

cain and abel, dude

THEY’RE BROTHERS DUDE

papa ii, the firstborn brother, the Cain, is jealous of his younger brother, papa iii, the Abel. so he fucking kills him and becomes papa again. 

THIS THEORY IS SO TINHATTY AND REALISTICALLY I DON’T THINK TABASCO IS GONNA BRING PAPA II BACK BUT MAN IF THIS ACTUALLY DOES HAPPEN I WILL RIOT!!

theory #2: papa goes to jail

THIS ONE IS STUPID AS HELL HONESTLY BUT IT WOULD BE HILARIOUS IF IT HAPPENED–

i don’t have the image on hand right now but remember that photo from the He Is video shoot, with the papa double in that white suit? i’m pretty sure that costume is intended to look like the suits worn by benny hinn, a televangelist pastor who’s been involved in some legal investigations for being corrupt and pocketing the money generated by his religious organization.

combining that with the lyrics to cirice, which can easily be interpreted as a corrupt religious figure attempting to brainwash his followers (can’t you see that you’re lost without me) era 3 could potentially end in papa iii being investigated and sent to jail for being a corrupt religious figure.

which would be fucking hilarious with the current lawsuit drama and also it would be the exact kind of goofy shit that turtle fudge would pull, i think.

IN CONCLUSION: i think iii dying is more likely than him going to jail but honestly all of this is just tinhatty overthinking and i have no idea whats gonna happen to papa iii but this shit is fun to think about

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Hey guys! I had some of my friends ask me to make them a little guide on how I’ve been making bells in ACNL since I’m paying off so many of my characters houses. 

I make all of my bells from beetle hunting and fin fishing on the tropical island! I prefer to hunt alone, that way I can hog all the goods to myself, hehe.

  • First step? Clean up your island!

If you’re going to be using the island as a bell gathering spot like me you’ll need to take away all of the flowers, shrubs, and extra trees. Yes, even the ones on the grass - I know there a couple of high ticket beetles that rez there but I don’t think it’s worth it for quick bell hunting since so many other 2k ones show up. Better to keep the minimum of 6k with Goliath beetles.

I leave 6 palm trees in total along the sides of the island. This way I can actually start from the bottom and look ahead to see what beetles have rezed on the next trees without scaring them away! So handy, especially if you have trouble with the skittish Golden Stags.

  • Second step, scare away those pests!

Now that your island is cleaned up you’ll have a lot less random encounters of bugs to deal with. But that doesn’t get rid of all of them. You’ll still deal with Tiger Beetles, Wharf Roaches, and Hermit Crabs. If these are showing up it’s taking away changes for tree beetles to rez! So do your best to scare them away, I like to slap my net on the ground. Usually sends them running. Also remember to scare away extra fish shadows too so you have a chance to see a fin fish!

I always wait to start bell hunting until 7pm. This way no grasshoppers or locusts are spawning any more. If you want to wait even later with your night owl ordinance that’s great too! Tiger Beetles stop spawning at 11pm so more chances to get palm tree beetles. :D

  • Third step, go in circles until the goal is met.

I like to start going straight down the map. This way I can automatically scare away any roaches or tiger beetles chilling there. ALWAYS START FROM THE BOTTOM! This way you can see your beetles before you scare them! I like taking my island in a figure 8 motion so I can see the whole island and check the water for any finned fish.

And after all that just fill up your drop box inventory with as much as you can get and get those sweet, sweet bells!

***Please take note! This is just how I personally practice to get bells, there all are all sorts of methods to try out - so feel free to reference it and change whatever you like to make it a better bell gathering experience for you!

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“It’s not too late to set things right.”

I’mmm still real messed up over little Caligosto here…I do wonder what his younger self would think about his grown up self’s actions….and I wanted him to interact more with Raz, since Cali’s sanity seems to be the most intact in his childhood; you do find his moral compass there, after all. Also I just wanted to get that poor kid a hug in some way aaaa

I think it’s interesting (in the most bitter, horrible way possible) that with Mr. and Mrs. Loboto trying to get rid of a “monster”, they really just ended up creating one. :T World’s worst parents everyone!

How to talk to and share offerings with your deities in the astral

Disclaimer: this is how I do it. Ymmv. Feel free to alter this method until you find what works for you.

Part one: Create an altar space for the deity.

The method I learned for this step was called creating a “compressed temple.” Basically what I did was create a sigil specifically for that deity’s space, outlined the basic astral structure, linked the two, and then charged the sigil. As energy was caught by the sigil, it made the astral space more solid and filled in details.

You can do this in several ways; I’ll tell you how I did mine. ((note, I did these individually and had a week dedicated to each deity. I definitely don’t recommendtrying to create more than one compressed temple at a time.)) First, I created bindrunes for each deity. Then, once you have the symbol you like, draw it on your skin somewhere. Use an activity to charge it. For Thor, I drew the symbol on my hip and charged it by going to the gym. Freyja’s was charged with energy from the job fair I was required to attend and the symbol was drawn over my heart. Hel’s was charged during meditation on a cemetary visit with the symbol over my sternum.

Anyway, however you wanna do it, that’s cool. Once you feel like you’ve successfully filled that space with lotsa energy and all that good shit, go ahead and visit it. Make sure it’s all stable and has what you need.

Now leave and let it settle. Give it at least 24 hours before you disturb it again.

Part two: Figure out what you actually want to do.

Do you want to chat? Give them a cool thing? Share a meal? Just leave offerings? Decide now. It determines what I do next.

Part three A: Just leaving offerings

If all you want to do is leave offerings, find a place in this space you’ve created that you feel would be suitable for making offerings. Then all you need to do is leave your offerings! You can use this space for ritual, casting, whatever. Anything that you’d do to worship in the physical realm (and then some) can be done here and it’s really all up to you what that entails!

Part three B: Actually speaking with the deity

To speak with the deity (or other spirits), make sure you have a place to sit and chat. In this space, prepare something to eat or drink–my go to is fresh baked bread and tea or mead–and make sure the place isn’t a mess. It doesn’t have to be perfect, just….don’t let it look like my room after a particularly low spoons week, if possible.

Whenever you’re ready, just request the presence of the deity/spirit. It may take a few minutes for them to appear, but in my experience, it’s rare that they don’t show up at all. Once they’ve arrived, take a seat, offer your food/drink, and get to chatting. For the star’s sakes, please use your manners when addressing deities and other spirits. You don’t need to fawn over them (unless that’s how your dynamic is? idk ymmv) but make sure you aren’t rude.

Then all you have to do when you’re done is bid them goodbye, have them leave, and clean up.

Part four: Advice

  1. Don’t be rude
  2. Seriously don’t be fucking rude
  3. It is possible to get impostor spirits, especially if you’re not all that familiar with them. Take the appropriate precautions.
  4. I have one space dedicated specifically for speaking with my gods and meeting other spirits and it is separate from my main space (which now contains one big forest and a whoooooole lot of spirits. it’s a little too public for my liking when it comes to meeting beings). I definitely advise keeping yours separate from other spaces you may have.
  5. Keeping it separate also means that if you accidentally have something you don’t want sort of…infect the space, you can just cut that one off from yourself and get rid of it instead of having to deal with it in your other spaces and maybe never quite getting rid of it.
  6. As a final reminder
  7. MANNERS

This is for everyone who is asking me how I do my uncluttering sessions.

1. Start with your journal. Write down everything first. Find a place where you can think and have some quality time with yourself.

2. Think of specific areas you want to include in your uncluttering. Some areas on my list are: food, music, gadgets, books, plans, journals and blogs, finance, exercise, etc.

Food - what to eat and what not to eat. go healthy! ( I do juice fasting/cleansing sometimes)

Music - songs I want to learn, pieces I need to play

Gadgets - I organize files on my gadgets every month and I also customize themes

Books - reading list and study goals

Plans - plans for the month, monthly goals, weekly goals

Journals and Blogs -  organizing my journaling stuffs, updating my blogs

Finance - budget, savings, organizing my wallet

Exercise - regular exercise schedule

3. Unclutter your thoughts too. Write down all your million-dollar ideas before you forget about them. Remove all non-sense and dwell on happy thoughts and positive things. Stop worrying!

4. Get rid of all stuffs you’re not using anymore. Send them out for donations or throw them in the trash.

5. Tidy up your room and your desk. I do this on a daily basis. Nothing feels better than a clean and fresh room atmosphere.

6. Unclutter by prioritizing. First things first. Leave the internet alone and do your school work.

7.Practice minimalism.


I hope this has been helpful. Remember that uncluttering is personal. You can always do it in your own way.  

You, little human Part. I – Derek Hale x Reader

Summary: Focused on season 3A of Teen Wolf. I’ll play with the way the pack discovers who Darach is. In this imagine, the Reader is twin sister of Stiles Stilinski, belongs to the same social circle that he, except for the detail that she knows nothing of the supernatural creatures, mainly to protect her. The Reader has a crush on Derek Hale.

Words: 2721

Enjoy it!

Reader’s point of view

Your name: submit What is this?

The dream scheme had not changed after two and a half weeks of living it. Luckily, every night was more aware that it was that, just a dream. It consisted of the same, a pair of red eyes gleamed among the trees; I was surrounded in the dark, always in my pajamas, my hair matted and barefoot. Lovely! I remember looking everywhere, looking for a way out, but everything was black, the full moon barely could light the path. And as always, I started running blind, if I hit trees, if I cut or something, I just didn’t feel it, because it was illogical to run without seeing and not hit anything, but, what was logical in a dream? This was finished when i finally stumbled over something and the two red balls became bigger. In the distance, the howling of an agonizing wolf was heard.

I woke up to the creak of the door opening. It still took me a few seconds to recover from the bad dream, always causing insomnia and a good headache at school. But, the door? Why would Dad leave at two in the morning? That was happening countless times, only if there was a real emergency in the police station, beyond the murders that were happening lately, nothing else happened, although that seemed enough to make the men with whom i lived unbearable. They seemed to be punished, from high school to home, Stiles took care of bringing me and then he left, so this time, I knew immediately who was entering.

“How long does it take you to get there? Are you dating someone? … Oh, wait, you finally stopped being a virgin.” I exclaimed in a mocking tone.

Stiles closed the door and snorted.

“As if you were not, sister.” He hit back, I just shrugged.

“It’s different.” I finished down the stairs and joined him in the kitchen. “So, are you going to tell me that mysterious mystery that you bring?” I was excited to know something more; the town was beginning to bore me.

“There is no mysterious mystery”

“Then why come so late? Does Dad know? Come on, Stiles, I’m practically locked up at home because of you, I haven’t even gone shopping with Lydia, or seeing …”

I shut up, but I blushed. Stiles stopped paying attention to the contents of the refrigerator and gave me an accusing look. Of course my love interest was a secret to my friends, no one could know, not even Dad. My brother and his best friend barely got away with it.

"See who, Y/N? So you also have a mysterious mystery. "He pointed a finger at me.

"AHA! So you admit that there is a mystery ” Stiles came back to ignore me “Fine! Don’t tell me, I’ll find out”

I turned around and went back to my room. Something was going to happen to me.

The disadvantage of having a twin brother right when I needed to find answers, is that we were in the same group, always sitting next to Scott, whom I planned to corner somehow to tell me that it was cooking, but is that Stiles, as If I knew my intentions, it would not go away. After I finished pointing out what was on the blackboard, I glanced at Lydia, and of course she had already finished and kept drawing something, too distracted to notice the heaviness in my eyes. I gave up on her and went for Allison, she wasn’t over yet, and she was too far away to capture her attention. I snorted and leaned back against the chair. Professor Blake kept checking previous papers. Carefully I took my phone and decided to take the risk by sending a message to Scott. Do you know what my brother is bringing? Of course I didn’t trust much, the loyalty between them was unbreakable. Scott McCall looked over his shoulder and shook his head. Liar.

At the end of the class, everyone left the classroom, I was the last, simply because I wanted to follow the others, see who I can catch, maybe Isaac, I could take double from him, although, now that he lives with Scott, Hesitated This locked cat would drive me crazy. When I left the room I lost sight of so many people, I sighed and leaned against the wall waiting for the answers to be projected in the lockers opposite. Maybe I should try with Lydia.

Ready to look for her, I looked up, finding that, in the opposite direction of the walk of my companions, Derek Hale was approaching. My stomach responded by squeezing and I found myself adjusting and putting my hair in vain. When he saw me, he smiled. Almost never did, but we had a good relationship, of friendship, of course. I couldn’t see it as a target for the unknowns that hovered in the air, since it was not so close to my friends.

"Derek” Why am I smiling like a fool?

“Y/N” He nodded in front of me, though I noticed that his gaze was over my shoulder than in my eyes, I tried not to get discouraged.

“What are you doing here?”

I wasn’t going to lie, in my fantasies, I always imagined Derek appearing in high school offering me a hope of escape for a few hours. However, he seemed too absorbed to make it come true. I tried not to feel bad about the fact that he felt he wanted to get rid of me easily.

“I came to … visit a friend”

I struggled because my smile didn’t go away. He fixed his eyes above me again. I turned to the point of his gaze to meet Miss Blake, who also looked at my opponent.

“Derek” Her tone and joy sounded very adolescent. I began to feel nauseated. “Oh, do you know her?” She kept her smile. I had never felt aversion to Jennifer Blake until now.

“Yes” I tried not to sound so rude “I think I … I don’t feel well”

I looked at Derek, his eyes on mine, and for a moment concern crossed his face. Well, at least I lived with the comfort that he cared about me.

“You want me to take you with the nurse, Y/N?” Blake took me by the shoulders.

“Do you need anything?” I wasn’t delighted with Derek’s words.

“No, I’ll be fine … I just … I think I’ll look for Stiles”

I slipped away quickly, didn’t want to look back, the nausea would increase. My eyes began to itch. Derek Hale was dating someone, I wasn’t stupid, it was immediately noticeable, especially the teenage attitude of Jennifer Blake as she looked at him. For God’s sake, I think I’m really going to vomit.

“Feeling good, Y/N?”

I didn’t realize that I ended up against the lockers hugging my book against my chest. Lydia came up to me.

“You’re very pale.” She touched my forehead but I pulled away.

“I’m fine.” I trusted Lydia, maybe she was the only one who suspected my feelings, the others were busier in their mysteries to pay attention to me, not that I needed it. “You know … if Derek is dating … Miss Blake?” My friend’s gesture was strange.

“Ew.” She chuckled. No, she didn’t know.

“I’d better go home,” I announced as I sat up. The last thing I wanted was to meet again with that couple.

“I’ll take you, I just finished my classes”

I wasn’t surprised by Lydia’s intellect. I accepted, especially since I didn‘t feel good for walking back.

“You got to be kidding!”

I walked through my room while reading my brother’s text message, used to talk to myself when he did this kind of things to me. That is, to go to school? Right now? However, it was too tempting what I would receive in exchange for going there, would tell me the secret that is in hand, I would finally add some excitement to my life in Beacon Hills, even if it was something silly, if it is something Slightly different, I’m in! I slipped on my shoes and practically ran out, taking my jacket in step. No one was at home, so I would save the explanations. I was practically violating the rules, but in the first place Stiles incited me to do so, and secondly, I wasn’t a hostage, if they wanted to keep me, dad had to keep me behind bars.

Running was a challenge, but I didn’t give up my step, the sooner I arrived, the faster I would know that mystery. Too curious. I remembered that I had to talk very seriously to the sheriff about having a car of my own; that Stiles kept my mom’s Jeep was doing me something unfair. It was that or I could always bribe them with getting a motorcycle, I’d seen Aiden and Ethan’s, too beautiful to get my attention. I wondered what it would feel like to ride in one of them. Yes, it would be the perfect excuse to worry my father and have a car insured. Soon.

The school was deserted, I was surprised not to see the Jeep anywhere, but knowing my twin, He had possibly hidden it so as not to be discovered. I was committing another offense, in addition to having left home unannounced, being in school outside of reasonable hours was strictly prohibited, but not so much, considering that they left the doors uninsured. I went in through the main; the corridors were dark and cold.

“Stiles?” I called aloud. I swore that if this was a joke to scare me off, tonight would suffocate him against the pillow while he sleeps.

I took shelter and started walking, it wasn’t normal this type of cold, unless someone left the ventilation open. Nothing was heard, not a breath, not even the movement of an object.

“Stiles?” I tried again, but no answer. “Okay, if this is a cruel joke, I swear you’re going to wake up breathing under your pillow!”

My inside began to fear, but another part of me ignited the adrenaline and I kept walking, the school was terrifying but it managed to be more when there was not a soul wandering the halls, only mine, apparently. I looked out at one of the classrooms that had the door open; the low lighting allowed me to see that there was nobody. I decided that it was better to leave and torture my brother as soon as he appeared in the house, in my mind I imagined him tied to a chair, torture, i had to think about it. Then my phone rang, the screen lit the name of my twin.

“Finally!”

“Where are you, Y/N?” I concentrated on hearing his voice echo, but nothing. I shuddered.

“What do you mean, where am I? At school, right where you asked me to come.” I looked around.

“I didn’t ask you for anything”

“Stop, you sent me a message that I came here and you would reveal your mystery to me”

In his line, i heard the Jeep door slam shut.

“I just got my phone back; I haven’t had it for two hours.” I felt a chill on my back. “Okay, okay, calm down.”  I heard him get on the jeep and start, “Stay there, I’ll pick you up … no … Better run … no, don’t move …”

"Stiles!” His anxiety began to spread.

“Run!”

And as a sign I obeyed, however, a force pulled me from behind and threw me into the classroom I had previously reviewed. My phone fell a few feet away, I heard Stiles call me but when I wanted to reach him, a shoe crushed it. I stepped back from inertia and when I looked up, I discovered Miss Blake staring at me from above.

“Miss Blake?” She didn’t keep the day-to-day look she gave us, and the smile was different, evil, mocking. I began to fear her.

“Curiosity killed the cat, isn’t it, Y/N?” She walked up to lock the door and turned slowly to me. I stood up.

“Why I‘m here?”

“Little innocent” She laughed “You were too predictable with your feelings for Derek. Even he realized”

I swallowed and blushed, he notice?

"Am I here for Derek?” I never imagined getting stuck in a fight for a boy. It was kind of nasty and vulgar. I didn’t plan to start this, or to follow her game.

Miss Blake shrugged.

“In part.” She pursed her lips before displaying her teeth. “You’re their sweet, vulnerable human, you’ll lure the whole pack, especially Scott McCall.”

“Pack?” What the hell was this woman talking about?

“Oh, you don’t have the role of the ignorant, beautiful.” In seconds she held me tightly and threw me against the desks. I let out a gasp as i hugged my ribs with my arm, she seemed to know exactly where to throw me, “Your brother is a simple human, like you, but he belongs to Scott’s pack”

“What … are you … talking?” I said between groans.

“Don’t you know?” It seemed that she really believed me “Your dear brother is surrounded by werewolves and a lunatic banshee”

I leaned against a desk to slowly stand up. What was she trying to play with? Did she do this out of jealousy?

“I don’t know…”

I stopped when I saw her approaching, my hands flew to a chair, as soon as I got close, I used all the strength I allowed myself to hit her. Jennifer stepped back, i  didn’t waste time and ran out of the room. I felt a bit dazed by the blow and the corridors were moving in circles, it was the worst time for me to start getting dizzy. The brute force of that woman threw me against the lockers, I stood again, I was only a human as she said but I wasn’t going to fall into fragility. I didn’t go very far when she pushed me again. I sat on the floor, I couldn’t continue to think that the dizziness was more pronounced and I began to see blur.

Then a roar, no, several echoed in the hallway, I put my hands to my ears and blinked several times, I needed to recover my vision to see what the hell was going on. At last I succeeded, a few meters from me, two men turned their backs on me and faced Jennifer, crouched, roared again, this time not so strong and they went on top of her. I tried to get to my feet but a piercing pain pierced my body, which I sank back to the floor with a groan.

“I’m here.” I recognized Stiles’s voice at my side.

Looking back at the area of ​​attack, I saw one of them fly away landing at my feet, Isaac? With a transformed face. I complained again, he ignored us and returned to where the fight was unfolding. Scott? Was he the other boy? Was it Scott? I didn’t want to ask. Stiles made sure I could get up, but another sharp pang hit me.

“It hurts a lot.” I closed my eyes tightly.

“Let me help her.” I heard his voice. I wanted to see it, and the first thing I caught was his transformed face, just like Isaac’s, and glittering blue eyes stuck in mine.

Derek.

I recoiled against my pain, sticking my back against the lockers.

“It’s okay; Y/N” I was encouraged by my brother “Takehis hand”

I obeyed, concentrating on Derek’s arm, where black veins began to set, slowly the pain began to fade, the reminder was still in my body, but it was bearable. I sighed in relief.

“She escaped,” Scott announced. He and Isaac approached. Before my eyes, their faces returned to normal. And Derek’s too.

I held a cry. What was happening? Was this all real or was i already hallucinating?

“Scott, you and Isaac looking for her trail. Stiles and I took care of Y / N”

I was able to take the opportunity to speak, to demand explanations, but my head didn’t give more and my conscience much less.

THEORY TIME

OKAY SO
the idea of venomous being a corrupted lazerblast is cool n all, but consider THIS! lazer blast and venomous, are brothers. one becoming a hero, one being an enemy. despite being on different spectrum’s their still brothers, so they have some care for each other.

so like, maybe in this scenario, if lazer was killed like theorized, and father’d KO. and venomous being shadowy figure n all.

  • venomous might want to destroy ko, to get revenge on those who took his brother out of the world
  • he wants rid of ko, being a cruel reminder of the people that he was associated with.
  • OR he wants ko to join him, to keep the last of his brother safe from succumbing to the same fate as his father.

either that or im dumb and kinda overthinking it. i just find these interesting to ponder and i also kinda want to join the theory train cause i got some too.

anonymous asked:

do u think keith is ruthless enough to kill?

seE,, this is interesting to me because, i think we already have that answer. but i dont think the answer makes him ruthless

as soon as keith gets an opportunity to take out zarkon, he takes it. hes like ?? i can end the empire right here right now? i can just axe this guy and that’ll save the universe? great, done

even when coran tells him like five times No,,,no do nOt do that, that is a Bad plan, he just cuts the comms. like he is ready to kill zarkon right here right now 

if he was able to at the time, i seriously think he would’ve killed zarkon without a second thought. he went all out trying to kill him, no questions asked. because the thing about keith is, he’s very much an act now type of person. he thinks on his feet and reacts in the moment. i feel like that leaves very little room at the time for regret, particularly when you 1) dont know the guy personally and 2) you do know that they’re responsible for the torture, enslavement, and murder of countless races across the universe.

also, he uh?? may have killed someone already? remember the druid he threw his sword at, and on contact with the blade they just like??? obliterated?? and all thats left is the sword?

ya, that. keith doesnt seem at all broken up about that. you can argue of course that he wasn’t intending to kill them cause he didnt know blades magically disintegrate druids, but like. pidge also kinda causes haxus to fall (to his death??) and it doesnt phase her. i think with both of those instances the idea is let’s brush past this real quickly and not really stop to think about it cause we cant dwell too much on murder in a kids show,, (hi florona). 

but in the case with keith and zarkon, i think his immediate willingness to kill someone for the greater good is very much intentional. zarkon conquered like most of the known universe. he destroyed allura’s home planet. his empire captured and tortured keith’s only friend. keith has plenty of reason to want to even the score. also, its a numbers game–get rid of this one Evil guy, and you save the whole universe. to keith, that’s not even a question. 

theres also lubos, who i guarentee keith wouldve had no qualms about killing. i mean, he doesn’t go through with it, but you can clearly see that once keith realizes lubos sold out his people to save his own skin, well–keith definitely wanted to get back at him for it 

of course, we do know that keith doesnt try to harm people needlessly though. the garrison covered up the disappearance of his best friend, then captured and sedated him when he got back to earth. keith had a knife at the time, but he still only fights the garrison barehanded and just quickly knocks them out. when he’s on the balmera, he stops attacking head-on when lance reminds him the “planet” is an actual creature that can be harmed. keith doesn’t want to hurt people if he can avoid it, and as much as he likes getting back at the galra, i still think he’d only kill someone out of necessity, not personal gain. 

i also think keith is much less fired up to take on the galra now because he’s one of them. this means he’s not only more compassionate and empathetic towards some of them–see thace and ulaz–this also means he’s very much conscious about his own feelings of aggression. like, i think he’s trying extra hard not to lash out or anything because he worries he’s just like them. and keith really, really wants to be a good person. like, the boy is really trying. he honestly genuinely cares about other people and wants to do “the right thing”

for keith, killing zarkon was “the right thing.” it meant sparing the universe from his intergalactic conquest. it meant justice for shiro and freeing pidge’s family and putting an end to the monster that eradicated allura’s home. from keith’s perspective, allowing zarkon to live, allowing zarkon to continue imprisoning and torturing and murdering people when he had the power to act and stop it, now that is ruthless. he was just trying to do the right thing 

i dont think anyone thinks pidge is a bad person for pushing haxus. i dont think anyone would say shiro lost his humanity just because he was thrown in a gladiator arena and he’d rather fight back than lay down and die. so i wouldnt say keith is heartless just because he’s willing to make big sacrifices for what he thinks is right. 

on a more meta level, i also think its kinda hard to judge cause he’s not really human, so human standards dont really apply. for instance, lance and hunk both tell him its cold to leave allura. but by galra standards, i think thats just being pragmatic. so like, what the galra consider ruthless might be something different. anyway, sorry this got so long but,,, ya i do think keith could kill. i dont think that makes him ruthless though, especially since its a given people are going to die in war and he knows what he signed up for

R/S Games 2017: Week One Roundup

We’re doing lighter posting on the weekends, so now is your chance to catch up on the first week of Games works!

Day 1:

Team: Sirius
Title: Neighborly Conduct
Rating: E
Word Count: 7800
Summary: Sirius starts fooling around with his neighbor, and is unpleasantly surprised when he refuses to take things further. Sirius must find out the secret to why this man would refuse to go out with him.
Prompt: #5 - “I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun." - Jane Austen, excerpt from the novel Pride and Prejudice

Team: Remus
Title: Starlight
Rating: G
Word Count: 13,000
Summary: Post-Azkaban fixit where everyone saves Sirius, and Remus’ affair with Tonks doesn’t end in disaster. 
Prompt: #1 - "Ad astra per aspera” (to the stars, through hardship) - Unknown (Latin saying)

Day 2:

Team: Remus
Title: All The Happy Endings
Rating: PG
Word Count: 4400
Summary: There were at least seven ways Remus’s story had an ending. Almost all of them were happy.
Prompt: #40 - “If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story” - Orson Welles

Team: Sirius
Title: the time when you were mine
Rating: T
Word Count: 9400
Summary: The walk from Grimmauld Place to Parliament Hill is just under an hour, but it’s easier going at four in the morning.
Prompt: #14 - “It’s the friends you can call up at four a.m. that matter.” - Marlene Dietrich

Day 3:

Team: Sirius
Title: In the Bed
Rating: E
Word Count: 12,000
Summary: Left to his own devices the summer after the prank, Sirius crafts an unusual gift to mend his relationship with Remus.
Prompt: #81 - painting: “Dans Le Lit” by Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec, 1893

Team: Remus
Title: The writing of a love letter in five parts
Rating: G
Word Count: 4800
Summary: Dear Sirius,
I want to tell you a story. Not a war story. There are too many of those. I want to tell you a love story, because of those there are never enough of those. And despite everything, it is the best story I’ve got. You have always been my best story.
Feelings are hard. But sometimes, all you need to do is give in.
Prompt: #42 - “The only way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it.” - Oscar Wilde

Day 4:

Team: Remus
Title: A Duet
Rating: M
Word Count: 24,000
Summary: AU where Sirius was Sorted into Slytherin and also happens to be a gifted pianist and composer. Remus answers an ad for a music accompanist in a Muggle paper, is shocked to find out Sirius placed the ad, has a moral dilemma about working for a potential Death Eater, ignores said moral dilemma, then falls swiftly in love with the moral dilemma in question. But this is wartime, and even if love survives often people don’t. Expect tragedy, tenderness, complications, but above all, expect music.
Prompt: #17 - “You are the music while the music lasts.” - T. S. Eliot

Team: Sirius
Title: Where you stop the story - ART
Rating: PG
Summary: There are countless points to end the story at. Countless opportunities to leave it at the worst, but also at the best of times.
Prompt: #40 - “If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story.” - Orson Welles

Day 5:

Team: Sirius
Title: Among Mortal Men
Rating: M
Word Count: 9300
Summary: Now, then, and always.
Prompt: E - “We are not the same persons this year as last; not as those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.” - W. Somerset Maugham

Team: Remus
Title: Alone in Space
Rating: M
Word Count: 7500
Summary: Sirius smiled but it was a sad smile. “You know I’m always late.”
Prompt: #44 - “For time is the longest distance between two places.” - Tennessee Williams

Day 6:

Team: Sirius
Title: Retrial
Rating: T
Word Count: 23,000
Summary: Remus Lupin, host of the popular podcast Retrial, decides to focus on the case of Sirius Black, a man convicted of murdering his high school best friend, for his upcoming season. Remus has gotten too close to his subjects in the past, so he promises himself that won’t happen this time.
Prompt: #24 - “When I was fifteen, all I wanted was to go off to some other world, a place beyond anybody’s reach. A place beyond the flow of time.”
- But there’s no place like that in this world.
- Exactly. Which is why I’m living here, in this world where things are continually damaged, where the heart is fickle, where time flows past without a break.”
- Haruki Murakami, excerpt from the novel Kafka on the Shore

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Colors of Dissonance (pt. 12)

Part 11

Mark pulls Amy onto the board with him and kicks off. They hover over to the back door, and Amy reaches out to open it, when she does, Mark launches them out and up, covering Amy as best as he can to keep her from getting hit by the flying bullets.

Sean is left in the living room when the Corporate enforcers swarm inside. “Sam,” Sean hisses quietly, “K̢͙͔̘͓̫̯͈i͔̟l̹̱l̬͠ ̡̮̜͔̺͍t̝̥h̢̹̭e̼̪̼ ̭̗̲͇̗̘ͅl̜͈i̡͔̘̖̭͔͍͈g͈̖̫̀h̳̖̳͘t̡̠̲͖s̺͚͇ͅ.̳͉̦͚̣”

Sam shuts off the power in the house just as the enforcers enter the room, and everything falls into darkness. Anti appears to Sean’s right, neck bleeding profusely and eyes glittering with a question. He wants to take over, wants Sean to give him control, and as much as he hates it, Sean knows he has to relent if he wants to make it out of this alive.

Anti sparks through Sean’s veins, snatching the reins from him and pulling the knife from Sean’s pocket. “L̬͓e̦͇̯ͅt̡͕̝͍̫̯'͖̦͟s̗ ̡̰̥̬ͅh̖͖͝a̰̬̩̝̻̠͉v͍è͍͕̻͉͕͈̯ ̵̝̳a̬ ̠̻͚̣̝͕l̸̘̦̖̮ḭ̢̝̜̦ͅt̠t͙͔̯̘̩͎̀l̫̗͈̱͓̪̳e̥͓̥̪̳ ̹̳͎̘͢f̯͚̮͚u̱̬̱͡n͢.̡͇̝͖ͅ”

Mark pushes the board higher, higher until they’re in the clouds and hidden from view. It’s cold and wet among the vapor, and Amy clings to him, shivering. Deep in his mind, however, as panic floods his chest, Mark feels something else, another presence other than himself.

“Did you miss me?” The voice echoes at him through the mist, and Mark is suddenly alone in a black void. No hoverboard, no clouds, and no Amy. Mark twists around to find the source of the voice, but he seems to be entirely alone. “I missed you… very much.”

A pair of hands tug at Mark’s jacket, brush through his hair, trying to disorient him further. The voice presses closer, in his ear now. “You pushed me aside, Mark. You played their little games and found ways to keep me away.” He chuckles, the same dark laughter that Mark heard just before the gunfire started. “You promised you would let me in.”

Mark turns and sees him now, a version of himself mirrored before his very eyes. He tilts his head to the side, the picture of sophistication and grace. Mark remembers him from his nightmares, but could this demon really be a part of him? “I never promised you anything,” Mark spits, wanting to get back to Amy.

“Oh? Don’t you remember?” The demon claps his hands together once, and Mark hears his own voice, desperate saying:

“Please, please Dark, I need you to help me. I’ll do anything, just make the headaches stop.” Mark feels it like a shot in the chest, and he’s left reeling at how he could’ve forgotten that, how he could’ve forgotten Dark.

“They stole away your memories, simple really, when you’ve got it all download right here,” Dark touches the right side of Mark’s head where his neural cam and other implants are located. “That’s what created me, after all. All that pain and fear and anger, cut off and left to drift through the ether. Now here I am,” Dark spreads his arms to either side. “I’ve been waiting patiently, but it’s my turn now.”

 

Eight times?” Nathan stares down at the log. Eight times he’s been brought to Corporate headquarters, and eight times they’ve erased all memories of him ever having been there at all.

“It explains your subconscious fears of the place, though,” Mathew says with a smirk. “They’ve been tampering with your head for a long time now. Resetting the neural implants slows the brain’s corruption, but they’ve yet to find a way to stop it altogether. So, they sweep it under the rug.”

Nate pushes his hands through his hair in frustration and stares down at the file. Eight times. “How long before…?”

“Before it’s too late?” Mathew looks up at the ceiling, lost in thought. “It’s different from person to person, but I hear tell that Corporate’s cap is ten. That’s why they got rid of Jack, and that’s why they want to get rid of me.”

Nate looks up suddenly from his file. “You’re already over your limit?”

“I am indeed,” Mathew says slowly. “But I’m also the closest one to finding a cure.” His eyes sparkle with something dangerous. “You’re not too far from the limit yourself, Nathan. How about you agree to help me out, and maybe I can keep them from making you disappear for good?”

Nate looks down at his file again. He has two more strikes before he’s out, but if Mathew can’t find a cure soon, it won’t matter. Out of the corner of his eye, he can see the other version of himself watching him closely.

Will he help Mathew? or walk away and find someone else?