Why do I like writing fanfiction where I make the characters trans? Because there are no blockbuster movies with a trans hero. People don’t like telling stories where we’re the heroes, where we go off to fight aliens and have kickass one liners. Why? I don’t know. We’re too confusing, I guess? At least that’s what people say. What I believe is people don’t want to understand us. Even when we talk, they refuse to listen.
People use art as an escape. People will draw pictures or write stories that amuse them but also stories that make them feel like they belong. Fanfiction is my escape. Like I said, we don’t get stories where we get to be epic action heroes so I make my own. I take existing characters from other franchises, awesome ones, and write AUs where they’re trans.
Why? Because it makes me happy. I’ll take Spiderman or Ironman and write them as trans guys because at least for a little while I can pretend that people like me can be the hero. That we’re not just props on dumb crime shows, only there to get murdered when the criminal of the week finds out that “Oh no! The totally hot hooker chick he was about to sleep with has a penis!”
I grew up not knowing what trans people are. No one ever talked to me about it and I never saw trans characters in any of the shows or books I read. I grew up so confused, not knowing there were other people like me who also didn’t know why they didn’t really fit in with the other kids. And I know there are still trans boys, girls and nonbinary kids who know they’re different but can’t quite figure out why. And when they do finally figure out why…well, speaking from my own experiences, they’ll probably wind up thinking they’re freaks no one wants to be around because in popular media we so rarely are ever around.
I’m learning how to write and draw properly, and using fanfiction and fanart to do it, so that one day I can make original content featuring trans people. I want characters you are really trans, not ones who are only trans in an AU I made up for a fandom so few people are even in.
It took me years to realise that I CAN be the hero. That I’m not just here to get murdered or mocked. Call me a SJW or whatever. I don’t care. Representation matters.