how terrifying, to be aging and girl. at 18 i was told by men that i was “the perfect age,” and i still thought it was a compliment. is it because at 20 i figured out how sharp those words were. i felt old at 21, felt like if grey hairs came and my spine cracked i was done for. how scary. i am reminded constantly by “realistic” ideas in fantasy novels that i should have five kids.
my life feels short. like it is squeezed into my twenties. like at 30 i become ghost, just another mother or hard worker or both, just another background character. like if i am not settled and making a difference by 27 i should just give up already. is this something men feel? like a clock is painted on their back, one hand warning: your beauty is something you are valued for and it is something you cannot get back.
and why was i only beautiful, i wonder, at 18 on a riverbank. i’m told often my childish face is a blessing. that i shouldn’t want to look older. one told me i was a trap falling: “you look young but you’re not” he said to me, “it kind of led me on”. am i not young?
maybe i am wrong. maybe it’s just how we all feel, getting old, like time is slipping from us. maybe men do worry that they will be alone forever if they don’t settle by thirty, maybe it’s even because they think they’ll turn ugly. maybe we all squish our lives into that incredibly young decade. what do i know. i’m still learning.
I mean, generally speaking, holding hands is barely something to get this excited over right? (or as my friend so eloquently put it, “It’s freaking Game of Thrones and you’re excited about people holding hands???”). To which, my answer is:
I’m not just excited about them holding hands (although I’m crazily obsessed with it, and have watched that scene a couple million times already). It’s the fact that Jon ‘You-know-nothing’ Snow, clueless Jon, naive Jon who despite being told this:
Still didn’t make the first move. Who’s always had that ‘I’m adorable but I don’t know it’ aura around him. Who’s always been so reserved and so..just so unsure about himself nearly always.
The thing which made me go crazy about the Jonerys hand holding was Jon making the move y’all!!
Jon!!!, our Jon!!, reaching out!!, grabbing her hand!!!, not letting go!!!
I can watch this forever and still not get tired, because this shows Jon Snow reaching out for something that matters to him, Jon Snow holding on and not letting go because he wanted this. He wanted someone for the first time in forever and he went for it and he didn’t want to let go!
And this, this, is why the Jonerys handhold will always be the most romantic thing I’ve ever seen on GoT, because we have a vulnerable hesitant Dany, and a ‘dammit all, I’m going for this’ Jon, and that was the most beautiful scene I had seen in a really long time!
you know, I just realized what bothers me so much about even just the thought of jon kneeling, of giving the north to dany
it’s not the bad writing or the forced romance; it’s not even that sansa would be hated and ridiculed for such a decision, even though she would be
it’s that sansa went through everything for the dream of home - of the north. She was abused and tormented and tortured, physically and emotionally, and all she wanted was to go home
she was told over and over and over that her sole purpose, from the moment her father died, was to be the way another gained entry into the north
that she was just a tool to be used, for someone else to control her home
and here’s jon, giving it to someone. Giving away her home, her freedom, her safety
everything she’s worked for, every soldier she’s welcomed into her home for him; every northern lord she’s convinced to follow jon in his absence; every fire she’s put out, literally and figuratively; every time she’s refused to crown, because it belongs to jon
and he just gives it away
more than that, Robb died trying to free the north from the south; catelyn died trying to free the north from the south. Their blood runs through the country; their sacrifice made it possible for the north to be it’s own, independent kingdom
A little thought I had about a Klance scene in season 4
Okay so you all remember this scene, from episode 8 season 2, where Keith is fighting during the Trial of Marmora. The member of the Blade of Marmora he is facing first defeats him, and tells him he should surrender. Then Keith replies “I won’t quit”
Then you are probably thinking “Yes, we all know that, Keith is badass and hotheaded and won’t surrender”
Because yes, he wants answers so bad he is ready to fight till death, he finally has the opportunity to learn more about his mother, about himself, he will never give up until he finally has the answers he has been seeking for his whole life.
So now imagine a situation where the paladins are on a mission, and one way or another Lance gets kidnapped by Lotor’s generals. At the same time, Keith comes nose-to-nose to Lotor. Lotor begins to tell him he knows about Keith’s mother, he knows about Keith’s story and he has the answers to every single question Keith has. But Lance manages to tell the others he is being kidnapped, Keith hears it over the com and then he has two choices : -He stays with Lotor who will answer every single question he has, and let Lance being kidnapped even if he knows there is still a chance that the other paladins save him -He leaves immediately Lotor to rescue Lance even if he is not sure he will manage to, but if he does so, Lotor tells him he will never reveal him what he knows
And you know what ? I have this strong feeling that Keith would definitely choose the second option. He would choose Lance over the questions he has been dying to have answers to. He would choose Lance, his rival, over the only thing he was ready to die for. He would choose Lance over himself.
This is exactly the kind of scene I want to see (and hopefully Keith manages to save Lance who would make a stupid comment like “I had the situation in hand !” even though no, he hasn’t, and Keith would roll his eyes while dragging him out of there, thinking to himself why the fuck did he choose to save this asshole, but knowing that even if he had the same dilemma again, he would still choose Lance)
“ come here and give me a hug. ”
“ can i have a hug? ”
“ hug me. ”
“ does someone need a hug? ”
“ give me one of your big bear hugs. ”
“ i really need you to hug me right now. ”
“ we can still hug. ”
“ i love hugging you so much. ”
“ i need another hug. ”
“ i love being in your arms. ”
“ your hugs are the best. ”
“ hug me and don’t let me go. ”
“ i could just hug you forever. ”
“ so where’s my hug? ”
“ just one more hug before i go? ”
“ you look like you need a hug. ”
“ come wrap your arms around me. ”
“ i don’t want you hugging anyone else. ”
“ please just hold me forever. ”
“ sending you lots of hugs and kisses. ”
“ shut up and kiss me already. ”
“ i want give you a kiss so bad. ”
“ i love it when we kiss. ”
“ you are the best kisser i’ve ever known. ”
“ just give me a kiss. ”
“ come here and kiss me. ”
“ kiss me. ”
“ you’re a damn good kisser. ”
“ you want to give me a kiss? ”
“ are we going to kiss now? ”
“ this is the part where i kiss you. ”
“ so if i kissed you, would you kiss back? ”
“ i just wanted to give you a kiss. ”
“ i’ll kiss it and make it better. ”
“ give me a kiss goodnight first? ”
“ i can kiss you anytime i want. ”
“ do you want to kiss? ”
“ shut me up with a kiss. ”
“ i love it when we kiss. ”
“ i don’t want to miss this kiss. ”
“ have you ever kissed someone before? ”
“ i’m going to give you a kiss now, okay? ”
I wish that no one cared and moved on easily with their lives if I died but I know my death would affect people so I can’t be so selfish and take my own life so I wish that something would make me die already …
okay so unpopular opinion but like.. i dont get it when people dont like macdennis solely bc its toxic like.. yall realize that EVERY member of the gang is toxic? and a bad person? like yes, macdennis is toxic but even if mac got into a relationship w another man it would still likely be toxic and bad bc guess what.. hes not that good of a man himself
if anyone is wondering what was the big deal in the jacksepticeye fandom on August 3rd, 2017, this pretty much explains it.
i waited too long to post this unfortunately, i was thinking that jack would make a second video yesterday but by the time i decided to give up and finish this, it was already waaaay too late so i decided to post it in the morning (and apparently after the morning video oops)
warning: flashing strobe and loud audio. please i advise you to be cautious.
fire gif w/ anti was used with permission and rightfully belongs to: @aesthseptic