i actually suffer from this

Things that only SPN fandom can understand:
  • “Oh my Chuck!”
  • “Carry on my wayward soOOOOOon” means “somebody’s gonna die”
  • “Adam? Who the fuck is Ad- Ooooh, right!”
  • “It’s just a car!”: fandom screaming
  • “Why does everyone have to die!?”
  • Lucifer and Death are good guys
  • Metatron is not.
  • Don’t get stuck on tuesday
  • “How can Sam get wifi everywhere?”
  • “It’s funnier in enochian”
  • Dean is the pizzaman
  • There are a lot of ways to say “I love you”
  • Twist and Shout
  • “How can this cast be so fucking attractive!?”
  • God is bisexual
  • Thinking “I kinda miss the apocalypse”
  • “I can dig Elvis”: fandom heartbreak
  • “Bitch”, “Jerk”, “Idiot”, “Assbutt”.
  • Your social life ended with “Dad’s on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a few days”
  • “I usually suffer from insomnia” actually means “I usually spend the night reading Destiel fanfictions”
  • “Why do I still watch this show?”

Berserker Wednesday

“Thanks for the memories even though they weren’t so great”

((OOC: …Ahem. Right. Yes. So, to address all the questions and queries about some… certain… Posts that have been made tonight.

It is a little known fact that I actually suffer from rare reoccurring name-localized amnesia. Incurable. And as a result, I often forget my own name. So it is very… kind of my dear friends to have stocked me up, as it were, with reminders. Of my name. Said in a normal way. For normal reasons.

So kind.

Don’t feel the need to look into this any further, as that is the beginning, middle, and end of the situation.

And thanks especially to TT ( @asktheboywholived ), for being such a good friend and arranging this lovely servic- Uh, lovely help. Lovely big friend help.

Thank.))

“Another great issue of RHATO that builds on the previous issues but also Jason’s overall history in the DC universe. Jason’s time in Arkham and the skills he learned there to cope with his trauma come into play in a major way while his relationships with everyone are tainted by his experiences with Bruce. One of my favorite things about the issue is how it shows that Jason is very much the heart of RHATO, and not just because his name comes first. He cares for his team, even if they don’t realize that they are a team yet. It’s astounding when you think about Jason’s background and all the truly awful things that have happened to him and it’s what makes this book stand out. Yes, almost every hero in the DC universe has had some epically bad trauma but few have been through the brutality that Jason has endured on both a physical and emotional level and still find it in themselves to give a damn about the world around them. That he does is pretty phenomenal and makes the character, and the book, one of the more complex and truly heroic ones out there.”

-Reviewer, Belleburr

anonymous asked:

personally i don't like willhell because he's abusive and violent. but go ahead and invalidate my reasons. as someone who has actually suffered from abuse i find his behavior disgusting and manipulative and violent. grow up and see that your perfect guy is a disgusting fuckboy loser.

Oh wow, this should be fun. Thanks for your kind message. 

So let me start first by saying, Willliam is in no way perfect. Skam is not about perfect people. No one is perfect. Not Noora, not Isak, not Eva, not Sana (gasp she said it). No one. Every single character on this show has done something they aren’t proud of, something they are ashamed of…wait isn’t that the name of this show in fact? So don’t come off trying to make it seem like I idolize William, because I don’t. 

But also, as a human being with a soul and a pair of eyes, I can see the difference between a unrepentant, abusive, asshole and someone who is struggling in life. 

I’m going to try and be clear about this because no one else wants to see it, but it’s fun and I want to so let’s get rolling.

1. Abuse: William, a teenage boy with crush on a girl, goes about getting her attention in a game as old as time. Does he manipulate Vilde in order to get to Noora? Ya a little but in fairly harmless ways. He calls Vilde to talk to Noora. He snaps Vilde to ask if their bus is coming to his party. 

Ya but he is a dick to Vilde. He treated her like trash. So yes, well done on using your eyes in this one and only scene. He does talk down to Vilde and later explains to Noora that he did so to try and get Vilde to dislike him. He doesn’t want Vilde or her obsessive affections and was pretty clear that they were just a hook-up. Vilde even says that when she has sex with William, that he was very sweet and kind to her. (doesn’t quite sound like abuse).

When Noora goes on her date with William in order to fulfill their bargain, she says (after the date has come to an end) “I don’t owe you anything now” and William says “no you don’t owe me anything”. William obviously likes this girl and tried to do something sweet by taking her out and talking about his past and trying to explain a little about why he says the things that he says. At this point, Noora gives off the impression that she has done her duty and gone on this date, but then she does show signs of being interested in William after.

I’m still not sure where the abuse is coming from, but I’ll continue.

William teases her, tries to get her to come to his parties, tries to get her attention and despite Noora’s outward protests to the idea of hanging out with William, there is definitely interest and she is trying to fight that because of Vile (who, mind you, isn’t dating William so he has no obligation to this girl he slept with among several others). Obviously, Noora doesn’t want Vilde finding out so she becomes paranoid that William is going to tell Vilde about what happened (or didn’t happen) between them.

Despite all of this, and all of William’s teasing, he doesn’t ever tell Vilde anything. He goes along with Noora’s wishes for privacy and to keep what happened between them a secret.

When they start dating/seeing each other, William is completely interested in Noora. She is again paranoid because of his past behavior with sleeping around, that he is going to cheat on her or sleep around during Russ time. William seems insulted by this because it’s clear to him that he is only interested in Noora. He expresses this several times and even has several kind things to say about her when she opens up about her family.

“BUT HE LIED ABOUT HIS BROTHER”

As someone who has had some dark things in my past and in my family, I don’t necessarily open up about those right away or ever. It’s hard to talk about having a fucked up family. It’s hard to admit that your - in William’s case - brother is a psychopath, or that your sister is dead, or that your family is broken. Not exactly easy conversation for a girl who may or may not be invested in getting to know you and keeps pushing you away.

William has a dark past and while yes he acts like a prick a lot, it is a natural coping mechanism. He has a fucked up family life - none at all really - and so let’s shame him for trying to push himself as far away from that as he can. 

2. Violence - saying William is an awful person because of his anger issues is pretty demeaning. Not everyone can cope with anger in a sweet and calm demeanor. William gets into fights, just like Isak,Jonas, PChris, Boy Squad v Balloon Squad s4. It’s part of the way he defends himself and his friends. Is smashing a bottle over your enemies head a good way to solve an issue? Hell no. But this is someone who was anxiously trying to help his friends and defend his friends (as he explains to Noora) about what the Yakuza guys were doing to all of them. Again, was it right? No. But did he go around smashing bottles on everyone’s heads? Also no. People say he didn’t have remorse about this but it was very clear to me that he was ashamed of this anger and this side of him because he asked Noora to stay on the bus. He was concerned about what she might see and how it might affect her opinion of him.

Now, when it comes to the talk about ‘killing’ his brother: William was so angry with his brother for what he did to Noora, for taking advantage of her, that he probably wanted to kill the guy. That is not a ‘strange’ reaction. It’s a coping mechanism for people who would do anything to protect the people they love. Note, he didn’t kill his brother. I don’t think he even beat the shit out of him even though Niko would have deserved it for what he did. I think that’s called…….character development?

3. He victim blamed Noora when she thought she’d been raped: bullshit. This goes back to the anger issues and coping mechanisms. Not everyone knows how to respond when it comes to news that your brother may have raped your girlfriend, or in the initial situation, your girlfriend who you finally let your walls down for and love deeply, may have slept with your brother. Naturally, instead of beating the shit out of his brother (which old William might have done) or putting himself in a situation where he might have said cruel things to Noora when blinded by anger, he pushed himself away. It’s called self-preservation. He wasn’t shaming her for what happened. But it looked as though he felt that he failed her and himself and that he wasn’t going to let his walls down again.

Obviously that wasn’t the case.

I could list a thousand other moments where William was actually kind and tender to Noora when she was having an anxiety attack, when she was lonely. William’s reaction to Noora admitting she lied and didn’t testify against Niko is once again another reaction that shows he was sad and confused about a situation that caused so much tension between them. He hates his brother and hates what he has done to William’s relationship with Noora, and to Noora directly. Obviously, that news would mean he needed time to process.

Noora is a runner, as I’ve said before, and when she feels unloved (like she feels about her parents, or how she felt likely when Sana was being cold to her about Yousef) she runs, she steps away.


If you don’t believe me, just listen to Sana talk to Noora about half of the same shit above in S2. 

So please don’t try and come at me that you’re a victim of abuse so you’re the expert on William Magnusson. I’ve been verbally abused most of my life in a not so great family situation. My father is a manic-depressive and I have been scared for my mother on countless occasions. I have been verbally manipulated into making me feel as though I am to blame for things that I have not done. It has scarred me so much to this day that I still get anxiety during family get togethers.

I am in no way invalidating your abuse or your past. But looking at William, I don’t see a terrible person, a nasty person, an abuser, a toxic white man. I see him as a man who very much cares for Noora Amalie and would do anything to protect her, anything that she asked of him. A man who is kind, silly, goofy, loving, and understanding, but with a past who he also has to overcome, and has been for the last several years.

So please don’t leave nasty comments on my page.

Thanks.

repressed crushes 

Meet Princess Garrett! As the pride of Nerdestia the punk-ass princess Garrett is very loved by its citizens. Especially since Garrett has the habit of visiting and interacting with them without having any prejudice against them, always treating them equal to him. And the children just love him. They just love how he plays with them, teaching them both, defense and manners with playful games he invented just for them. Many of these kids look up to him, boys like girls, genderfluids like non-binaries. Some even making childish marriage proposals. But no one does know that Garrett’s fragile yet strong heart belongs only to that one lonely plumber who rescued and saved him for many many times, both, wittingly and unwittingly.  

Important Side-Note: Do not underestimate Garrett because he is a seemingly shy princess. The flirty boy is very capable of defending himself and he gives his kidnappers mostly a very hard time.


Garrett belongs to @hinsuxjakun

i have a love/hate relationship with how louis’ team is actually keeping things under wraps and not telling us anything?? like it’s refreshing that it’s not leaking but also i am suffering™️ from the suspense and the wait might actually kill me

my relationships are not an act of violence against the system

epistemic warning: I am complaining about something that is (and has deliberately been made) inaccessible to me. I am certain that I’ve ‘misunderstood’ it and that you can recommend a dozen academic papers that will fix this deficiency. If you tell me that, you are completely missing the point.

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hate queer theory. It feels like something crawling underneath my skin. Reading queer theory is the only thing I have ever experienced that has made me wish I was straight.

'your relationship is inherently transgressive and erodes the structures of monogamous heteronormativity' 

is

just

people used those concepts, if not those words, to decide I am a danger to their children. to decide my private experiences are a threat to their faith. those are the concepts used to justify killing people like me. 

and what I learned in response was 'my private experiences are mine. my existence doesn’t destroy or negate or transform other peoples’ relationships. loving someone is not a violent act and doing it does not hurt my friends or family.’

I am a conservative - small c - at heart, and I do not like destroying institutions that are important to millions of people. I like fixing them, I like making them flexible enough to adapt to a new world, I like protecting the people who they hurt and using them to make sure fewer people hurt. if I am very sure about what purpose they serve, and that they do more harm than good, sometimes I will decide they need to be destroyed or altered beyond recognition. I try to treat this decision as seriously as I’d want from another person planning to destroy the traditions important to me.

telling me 'your relationship is inherently radical and transgressive’ is not liberating to me. it rips away all of the empowerment I built myself. it undermines my understanding of how I can work to reduce hurt and it tells me I cannot respect the traditions which I don’t yet understand enough to toy with casually.

I am against violence and when you redefine my relationships as an act of violence you are doing so without my consent.

I do not want you to define me as  'necessarily - definitionally - in opposition to the normative’. I would like the space to look at what counts as normative, and why, and who it hurts, and then to figure out if I oppose it and from which angle. I do not want to look to you for the background to do that work and instead read about how my place in the story has already been scripted. 

the social categories you are 'denaturalizing and reducing’ are actually communities that exist in the real world and have helped support me. the project of 'recuperating social contingency’ does not bear any relationship to the project of 'not hurting people and respecting their experiences and values’. guess which one you told me I am (involuntarily) a part of?

do not draft my life experiences into your radical subversive crusade.

i am queer and i hate queer theory. 

photo op! (saeran x mc/reader)

summary: all you wanted was a cute couple selfie for your lock screen.

rating: 10+ (super mild sexual situations?)

notes: once upon a time, there was a niku who was working on another fic, but she got a small case of writer’s block and decided to write something else for a bit in hopes it would help. what i actually wrote was this as well as a little bit for the continuation for the halloween fic. but then one thing led to another and here we are. i hope it’s not too incoherent and you guys enjoy. 

ps. i s2g i’ll write pure fluff for saeran one day but that day is not today.also i still blame @fabicchi


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@friskthatbreaksreality (i dont know what method to use to respond to this so i just took a screenshot lol)

after your barrage of likes of course im gonna check ur cute blog out! Thank you for your kind words my dude! I really try to be friendly and encourage people bc we need more of that in the world, u know? Kindness does tend to go a long way :3c

also ur fine at talking dont sweat it, u cool dude B) 


(btw ur art is cute i like it)

~ Make A Wish ~

Originally posted by mahmah-tee

Originally posted by heartsnmagic

Request: Insomnia fluff with Bones -  @bkwrm523

Words: 2347

Warnings: //

Beta’d: No and I’m terribly sorry for that, but it took me so long to write this fic (I had way to many ideas and like three different stories I had to put into one) and I just finally wanted to upload it for you. I hope that there aren’t too many (or at least not really bad) mistakes.

A/N: I hope you enjoy! I never actually suffered from insomnia, so I don’t not if the methods I mention here would work for someone who does suffer from it, but it works for me when I’m not tired enough to go to bed.

Tags: //


Annoyed you huffed out as you turned onto your back again and stared at the ceiling. You’ve been laying there for a long time, trying to fall asleep but weren’t able to do so. You weren’t even able to close your eyes. You thought that they would’ve grown accustomed to the darkness by now, but you still couldn’t see your hands in front of your eyes. Even if they were, the table and the vase you thought you saw weren’t actually there. They couldn’t be.

The table and the vase belonged to the interior decor of your quarters on the Enterprise, but you were at home right now, on Earth, which was probably the reason for your insomnia. You missed the constant humming of the machinery on the Enterprise, the hushed voices that sometimes passed your quarters and you missed being able to open up your eyes and look out of the windows to see the stars so close and beautiful.

Something you didn’t miss, because you weren’t lacking it at that moment, was his warmth. On the Enterprise he had to sleep near the med bay in case of an emergency and you, as a bridge crew member, were stationed a few floors above him, so you rarely got to sleep together. Right then though, you were almost ready to kill him. You weren’t really sure as to why you never noticed it, but boy, that man snored! Pinching his nose or shaking him a little only caused him to scrunch up his face or move a little bit, but he stayed asleep and snored on.

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Requested By: @mjnisanairdot

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With one last desperate arc of your blade, the vampire’s head rolled off and fell to the ground along with its collapsing body. Sam clapped you on the back with a broad smile and his congratulation on the tip of his tongue, but all excitement dropped from his face when he met your eyes.

The air had been sucked from your lungs. You clutched onto his arm for support, an iron grip, but that did nothing to help your struggling lungs. An invisible force seemed to have wrapped itself around your chest and all you could only manage to gasp in little spurts of air.

“Where’s your inhaler?” Sam asked, worry laced in his voice.

“Impala,” you wheezed after another short gasp. Sam turned to give directions to Dean, but he had already taken off running. 

You slid into Sam, your legs feeling weak and you head spinning. He had a grip on both your arms and helped you sink to the ground. His form crouched in front of you, an urgency in his voice, “Focus on me, alright? Breathe with me.”

He took long, deep breaths, and you tried to match them but your lungs seemed to spasm, struggling to stop gasping for air. You were drowning. The dozens of monsters you’ve hunted couldn’t kill you but your own damn asthma could cripple you at any moment.

“Hold in there, just a little longer,” Sam reassured you. You kept your eyes on his lips, struggling to mimic the pace of his exhale.

Dean burst into the room, tossing your inhaler to Sam, who then pressed it into your palm and against your lips.

ADHD and Demigods

As @dontcallmestraightorcis pointed out, demigods don’t seem to be very… ADHD.

To most people, they might seem ADHD. But when you look at it, they really… Aren’t. They’re just Hyperactive, I don’t see much of the ADD piece.

Why?

Because everything you see is very stereotypical-ADHD, which is basically the same as yelling Squirrel and watching a dog perk up.

But… That’s not ADHD. What the disorder is, it’s more than one layer of problems. We hyperfocus on things and loose track of the time around us. You only see this twice - Annabeth in the Lotus Casino and Percy while he’s fighting in the Battle of Manhattan. It’s forgetting what you were going to say because your mind is traveling five times faster than your mouth. It’s changing tenses mid sentence because a new thought tugged your mind one way. It’s the inability to multitask because your mind can’t separate two things properly so they just mash together. It’s reading a book but then suddenly not remembering what happened on that page (or the past 5 pages either).

I couldn’t read Pride and Prejudice because my ADHD made it difficult to keep track of what was happening. I can’t talk and type at the same time. Some days I just end up staring at a screen with the full intention of writing content for a story or completing my homework, but end up remembering this one joke/thing that happened 3+ years ago and suddenly I’m hyperfocusing on that memory.

What these demigods show is the ADHD you see in children who are medicated.

I’m not medicated, not anymore. But at the very beginning of 2014, I was still medicated. And let me tell you, I connected with the demigods ADHD better than I do now.

While I was medicated, the only thing I had what hyperactivity. I couldn’t sit still. But I could focus, I could multitask, I could do school work and focus without fear that the music playing wasn’t going to drag my attention away.

Which sounds good, right?

The medication I was on wasn’t the “right one”. Vvyance, basically a milder more child-friendly version of Adderall, was the medication I was on for YEARS. But at about the middle-end of 6th grade, the doctor started raising the dose because I couldn’t sit still. Every 30 days, they raised it higher and higher. Side affects include anxiety and medication-induced depression. So yeah, I was a ‘shy’ girl who was actually suffering from bad anxiety and depression.

But that’s besides the point. The point is: Trick Triordan’s demigods are nothing more than Hyperactive. The ADHD aspect is just the watered down, medication version of it’s true self.

Beautiful Nightmares

Pairing: Y/N/Soulmate!Ashton

Rating: All

Request: No

Words: 5.100+

Summary: Since they turned 18, Ashton and Y/N met each other in their dreams every single night. But when Ashton moves and their sweet dreams turn into beautiful nightmares, Y/N’s best friend decides to drag her into a sleeping clinic to make her realize that Ashton isn’t more than simply an imaginary friend.

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[Line Characters Descriptions]

Jin:

the shivering, munching RJ

descending from the innocent Machu Pichu, possessing the highest quality of fleece, an alpaca who yearns to escape the cool city life. 

he likes to wear a lot of oversized fur clothes since he always shivers in the cold in all 4 seasons. when he eats, he shows his charm with a happy expression.

Suga:

the delicious bad boy Shooky

because hes small, he’s easily trampled on and deliciously eaten, if Shooky knew the happiness being BT21’s bad boy, especially being Cooky’s playful bickering mate.

his mischievousness in his facial expressions makes his attractiveness 3000x more. 

Jhope: 

the mysterious dancing machine Mang

with a mask covering his real face, inside his sincere heart, though it’s all a mystery, he’s a pony who is overflowing with excitement when he dances.

though he pretends to be cool by wearing the mask when shrouded in dancing, his real image that he writes in his diary every sad night before sleeping, it’s the time when his cowardice piles up.

Rapmonster:

the detailed sensitive boss Koya

with droopy eyes, though together with a gentle appearance, he’s a koala with an unexpected talent in making sharp and sophisticated decisions in music. 

though when you look at me, actually i suffer from insomnia. every imagination of the confident big ears that fall and the many moments that he’s startled from imagination.

Jimin:

extravagant effort Chimmy

though he knows he’s cute when he pouts and sticks out his tongue with his cheek fat, again he’s cute and makes an effort to joke around and is a self lover.

though he confidently loves everything, he shakes his ever short tail and plays excellently on the harmonica. 

V: 

48 dimension rebel 

no matter where you look, his heart face and the warm-hearted way of speech makes that makes him stand out, and though he is unable to be alone, he’s a lump of harmful space that you can never hate. 

though he came to earth in the hopes of possessing the love of the universe, using all his superpowers as one, it puts Tata to be in a more fairly good state. 

Jungkook:

the shining pink, tough man Cooky

a bunny with reversed charms with cute appearance, thick eyebrows with a surprising body and rough nature that he cherishes.

though he is rough to everyone, inside this friend, his nature when he gets angry turns into muscularity. when you disregard the rabbit, you could get a big nose injury. 

( trans: line characters were made by bts themselves and is available on the line store )

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trans by: maxine ☕️
do give credit if you’re using my translations 🌊