Felt like drawing a hatless boy after seeing someone else draw him hatless heh I’m actually really proud of how he came out, I really am getting better and better at drawing him yay! Also, a big thanks to one of my best friends, she helped me out with shading and stuff. There’s still room for improvement of course, but this is the best I’ve done in a long time (tho I had no idea what I was doing with those hands lol). I hope the background looks fine to, it was a bit difficult on deciding what I wanted to do with it, but I like it yee
Please don’t repost, trace, claim you painted it, use for avatars or otherwise steal. Thank you. I finished a big project and opted to celebrate by doing even more painting (yeah, I know it makes no sense), since I’ve been wanting to try a bit of DragonQueen because all that shiny pretty makes me happy. Seriously, I’ve been wanting to try painting Kristin Bauer for forever (okay, so there may already be a couple of total fails on this front). She has such elegant bone structure, really bold features and yet really subtle expressions. A lot of challenges there. Anyway, I kinda like how it came out. Went for somewhat broader and less detail than I often do, and I think it works. I actually just made the pose up as I went using the smudge tool (yay, fingerpainting for the digital artist).
So, my life became alot easier, I had places where I could actually be more like myself and my own stuff for when I was alone at home. I also got my first girlfriend around this time who approved of it.
It continued on like that and I opened up more and more until I for the first time actually told someone the whole truth while I was being drunk and having a breakdown since my girlfriend had just left me all of a sudden (yay me). She took it really good, but I could tell how bad she was feeling for me and she made me come out to everyone about it and actually get help.
So one week after I came out to her about it I had told all who were close to me that I was transsexual. Or well all except my family. One week after that I came out on social media and all that shit and I was no longer ashamed of who I was. So now everyone exept my parents knew about it. I could stand up for myself and I was proud, but I was still to insecure to actually start living as a woman.
So, after quite a while I decided to actually tell my mother about all this, she pretended to take it good and that there was nothing wrong about it. So the next day I decided to make myself look pretty, or atleast how I felt more comfortable, to show her what it actually looked like. She totally fliped and threatened to throw me out and told me to get all that shit of before my father got home. So I realised that I would never be able to be myself at home and my mother made sure to tell me how wrong and disgusting I was every chance she got and the threat to throw me out came daily.
I lived like that for about a year, I was still open about it all, but to actually start living as myself had to wait. I did however start the evaluation during this time.
Then I meet my second partner, who also were MtF and after she told her mother about my situation with the daily harassment etc. she offered me to live with them instead. I didn’t know if I were to go for it or not, on one hand I could finally get away from my parents and live as myself, but I would have to move halfway across the country and leave all my friends who had supported me all this time. I couldn’t decide, but my mother gave me the choice to either breakup with my girlfriend or leave, so I left without a word and started to live as myself. This did however mean that I would have to quit the evaluation process and start from scratch over there instead.
I finally finished him! A plush version of Agni from Digital Devil Saga. I actually really like how he came out. He has floppy heads, which I will fix later. The little markings on his arms could be better though, since they’re more purple than blue. (thank goodness Kazuma Kaneko has reference sheets of this guy. :U bless his demon painting heart.) I wanted to have this done by DDS’ 10th anniversary, but I didn’t really have time for that…Well.. at least he got done on time for Quantum Devil Saga’s English release this Thursday. :’D yay.
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