you all have been sharing your stories with me about being insecure with your hyperpigmentation, so here’s mine:
i used to sow higher collars onto my shirts. i avoided short sleeves at all costs. from 2009 to 2015, i have never worn a vest/tank top outdoors. i’d constantly pull up my shirts, paranoid that one of my marks might be showing. i would hate going to the beach because i’d be the only one fully clothed while everyone was sporting their new bathing suits. i was always wearing sweaters/long sleeved shirts (even in the summer). i wasn’t able to wear most dresses. i was never able to be completely naked in every sense with my partner. i even cried once because a friend of mine took a picture of me and posted it without my knowledge. i didn’t want anyone to see me like this. but then i realized, i can’t change who i am. i can’t hide forever and i really didn’t want to. so now, i’ve allowed myself to be free. to not hide a freckle. to love myself completely and encourage others to do the same. i decided that my hyperpigmentation was no longer “unattractive” but beautiful. i changed my thinking from “i want perfect skin” to “my skin is perfect”. i went from telling myself “no man will want me” to “the right one will love me regardless”. when i look in the mirror, i’m no longer sad. instead i smile and blow a kiss and flirt with myself for as long as i please lol. beauty is really in the eye of the beholder. once you open your eye and realize that you are the only beholder that can determine your beauty, your whole world will change. it took a long time for me to get to this point but i made it. and so can you.