“Hey.” You breathed out as you opened the door, coming face to face with a guy who stared at you in awe as he let in the image of you sink into his mind. You had opened the door and you stood there looking effortlessly beautiful, taking his breath away with this red velvet dress you had on that hugged your body nicely. It had sleeves all the way up to your elbows and behind, it exposed part of your beautiful back (that was yet to be seen) along with the hem of the dress floating up to your knees. Indeed, it looked so amazing on you that it made him exhale deeply just to realize he had been holding in as he blinked at you.
You stepped out and closed the door behind you, lifting a hand up where you waved at him, “Kyungsoo?” You couldn’t help but let out a breathy chuckle, making Kyungsoo part his lips as he gained conscious when he blinked a few times after gulping deeply. “Y-Yes?”
“Are you alright?” You asked calmly even though deep inside, you were partly going insane on how amazing he looked. You could tell that he had put in effort in looking good based on his cologne that smelled delightful, his black jacket complimenting his white round neck shirt he was wearing along with a pair of black slacks. He had his hair styled in a way where it was pushed back, revealing his gorgeous forehead and it made you hold back a dreamy sigh as you fiddled with the fingers behind your back. “Y-Yeah,” He managed to stammer, only cursing himself on the inside.
Damn it, Kyungsoo! Get yourself together! He scolded himself. He easily sighed, calming himself down when you had reached out to hold onto his shoulder, “Hey, are you really sure you’re alright?”
Instead of responding to your question, he had made you blush when he thoughtlessly said, “You look so beautiful…”
It was your turn to blush, turning your head where you let out a small grin where you mumbled quietly, “T-Thank you…”
He grew confident when he saw that his words affected you, deeply. He reached out, extending his arm with his palm facing up in front of you where he gave you a gummy smile, “Shall we?”
Your hand reached over to place on his palm delicately. He gripped onto your hand, lacing your fingers together where he tugged you closer towards him when you muttered, “We shall.“
“Celebrating Valentine’s day with me isn’t so bad, is it?” Kyungsoo asked, earning himself a grin from you when you looked over to glance at him, “Ah, I don’t know about that until the day ends, Kyungie.”
He scrunched his nose and squeezed your hand, “You said you wouldn’t go with anyone else but me!”
“What if I was lying?” You snickered, facing front as the two of you were walking to the theme park on this day where all the couples would be going but in this day, you and Kyungsoo would be ‘considered’ as a couple.
Screw that, you’d want that to be a reality if that was possible. You told him that you were going to be alone during this Valentine’s day and he suggested that the two of you went out, which of course, you agreed. Was it a lie that you were alone? Yes, to be truthful. A few guys had actually asked you to be their Valentine but you told them you couldn’t – not when you had another guy in your mind to be your Valentine but he didn’t have the guts to ask.
Even if he did like you too, the strength he had in him wasn’t strong enough to drive him to ask you personally because he was shy. Although you found that so endearing, still… he could’ve asked, no?
And now the two of you were holding hands, making your way towards the theme park you two coincidentally met – how it would bring back memories…
“Hey, are you listening?” He nudged you by your arm as he brushed against you gently. You mumbled a soft ‘huh?’, head darting towards him where you blinked at him. “S-Sorry, did you say something?”
Based on how you stammered like that, he could tell that you were thinking deeply. About what? He thought as he grinned at you, shaking his head as he didn’t want to seem too obvious or bring up an awkward topic that he said, “Of course I did, silly.”
You smiled sheepishly, “What did you say, then?”
“I said…” He motioned you to come closer with your hands still intertwined – and that was exactly what you did. You leaned closer, ear by his lips where you got goose bumps just feeling his breath hit your skin, “I called you a dork.”
You gasped, breaking away from him where you gaped at him, “Hey! I’m your date for the day! A little appreciation would be nice!”
He snickered, “Oh really? Are you really my date?”
You gasped again, a bit too exaggerated as you broke contact of your hands. “Shall I find another date?”
He grew wide eyed as he knew, you were the type to go around and just make friends just like that. Heck, you even won a bet where you managed to get a few people’s hand phone numbers in just ten minutes – and they were all guys!
“Anybody wants to date-?!” Kyungsoo slapped a hand over your mouth, dragging you towards the side part of the side walk where he frowned at you, “You’re mine!”
You managed to snicker under his hand while he laughed along with you, releasing his grip on you so you could stand properly. Before the two of you could continue to walk towards the theme park, a lady came up with a basket of roses, grinning at the two of you from ear to ear.
“Hi, sir! How about buying your girlfriend a rose on this Valentine’s?” She beamed at him, causing you to swallow hard when Kyungsoo glanced at you nervously. You didn’t know why, but you muttered out quick, “I-I’m not his girlfriend.”
Kyungsoo forced out a smile, nodding his head where he smiled at the lady, “Y-Yeah, she’s not my girlfriend…” His voice trailed off, heart feeling dejected when he heard you say that but to be honest, you only said it because you thought he was too afraid to say it. Sure, today the two of you went out on this Valentine’s day and you proclaimed this was a date but the deal was that the two of you would go as best friends, nothing more. It seems like you went all over your head to say you were his date and it was alright considering he was dying to agree that this could be a date.
Still, he chose to respect your space as well, not being able to turn things his way when he wanted to.
“C-C’mon, we should go now.” You muttered under your breath, hurrying yourself to take a few steps away from the lady and Kyungsoo while fanning yourself – it was getting hot all of a sudden.
As you walked down the pavement, you cooled yourself down and decided to wait for Kyungsoo. You stepped towards the side, looking over your shoulder bravely only to pale when he wasn’t in your view anymore – you had walked too fast and made a few turns that you didn’t realize that you were in your little world of debating on why you said those words that you couldn’t realize he wasn’t following you. “K-Kyungsoo?” You called out loudly, attempting to walk back but your phone vibrated, making you take it out where you read a text message from him.
‘Meet me at the theme park. I’ll be there.’ From: Kyungsoo
You gulped and replied with a simple ‘okay’ before exiting the texting screen. You looked at your wallpaper, only to notice it was a photo of you and Kyungsoo – a selfie you took with him during your birthday and he gave you a ‘friendly’ kiss on the cheek but ever since then, you knew you were hooked on him just like that. You stared at the picture with a smile, shaking your head as you put your phone away, continuing to walk with a heavy heart, “I hope we’re doing the right thing…”
Because indeed, you would never want to lose a guy like Kyungsoo. Maybe he was just being too friendly. Maybe he was just being too nice, too polite to tell you that he didn’t have feelings for you because this boy could sense things quicker than anyone can. If he didn’t sense this, he must’ve been numb the whole time he was with you. Indeed, Kyungsoo was one of a kind and if the only way you can have him in your life as a best friend, you’d like that very much than to treat him as a random stranger just because of the awkward situation that happened. With you quickening your pace, you headed towards the theme park where you would wait for him, and think of what you had to say.
You stood by the entrance where you could easily see him strolling up casually as if nothing had happened – as if he wasn’t affected by the situation earlier but in all actuality, his heart was pounding so loud, he thought everyone passing by could hear. You waved a hand in the air to catch his attention, “Kyungie! Here!”
He met with your eyes, grinning appreciatively as he paced towards you, making your heart beat fast based on what you were about to say. Your heart palpated just as he stood in front of you with his hands behind his back.
“I have something to say.” The two of you stole each other’s line, causing the two of you to heat up as you stared at one another, wide eyed. You gulped and rephrased your sentence in hopes you wouldn’t be the same like his but, “Why don’t you go first?”
Again, the two of you had said the same thing.
Not wanting to prolong this, you blurted out, “I’ll start first.”
He gave a nervous nod, allowing you to speak. You breathed out heavily, looking away from him, “I… I understand that it’s awkward to be around me, Kyungie.”
His eyes shot open, lips parting in shock – he is not expecting this.
“I can see it based on the way you act, Kyungie. I’m sorry that I’m being like this but it’s not every time I get to go out with a guy I like, you know?”
His heart was beating a lot faster now. “What?” His voice was so soft, but it echoed into your ears, making you feel even more nervous. “S-So what I’m trying to say is that I’ll try to make this day a little less awkward, if I can.”
“Don’t.” Kyungsoo cut you off just like that, making you lift your chin where you blinked at him. “What?”
“Don’t make this day any less awkward.” He clarified, making you knit your eyebrows as you looked at him weirdly, “K-Kyungie, what are-?”
“Because I’m about to make it a whole lot more awkward.” He chuckled, shaking his head where he revealed what was hidden behind his back, it was the rose that the lady earlier had asked him to buy and he lingered the rose in front of you with a sheepish smile, “I sort of went back to buy it from her but when I got the rose, you were gone. Which leads to why I told you to head back on your own so I had time to think of what I had to say.”
“Or what I could finally have the guts to…” He added in quietly, hoping you wouldn’t catch that but you did – and it felt… nice.
“Happy Valentine’s day, beautiful. And I’d like to ask you to be my Valentine for not only today, but also for many Valentine’s to come. I… You…” He licked his lips nervously, phrasing his words in his mind quickly as you were left blushing, staring at him where you didn’t know what to say.
But you knew this was all like a dream come true.
“And if you feel the same, accept this rose from me to yo-“ He gasped when your fingers slipped the rose off his fingers as you held onto it tight. You brought it closer towards you where you grinned down on it, lifting it to your nose to inhale the sweet rosy scent that made your heart flutter before you looked up to smile at Kyungsoo who could’ve swear upon his life that his soul just shot up to seventh heaven right now.
“I… I accept, Kyungie. And I’d love to spend all my Valentine’s with you.”
He grinned widely, but he couldn’t help but make sure, “Just me?”
You glanced down on the flower before lifting your chin to lock gazes with him again, “Only you.”
“What does it mean to love somebody? It is always to seize that person in a mass, extract him or her from a group, however small, in which he or she participates, whether it be through the family or through something else; then to find that person’s own packs, the multiplicities he or she enclosed within himself or herself which may be of an entirely different nature. To join them to mine, to make them penetrate mine, and for me to penetrate the other person’s. Heavenly nuptials, multiplicities of multiplicities. Every love is an exercise in depersonalisation on a body without organs yet to be formed, and it is at the highest point of this depersonalisation that someone can be named, receives his or her family name or first name, acquires the most intense discernibility in the instantaneous apprehension of the multiplicities belonging to him or her, and to which he or she belongs.”
— Gilles Deleuze & Felix Guattari, A Thousand Plateaus
“Do you think he prepared anything?” Kai asked as he walked you up while you shook your head, “I don’t think so.” You replied tiredly and he frowned, “Why not?”
You chuckled lightly, “Kai, he’s working too. He’s just as tired as I am. If I didn’t prepare anything, I don’t think he will either.”
Kai frowned but nodded, you did have a point. You were always this fair person that wouldn’t expect much and because of that, Luhan felt as if there was more pressure, to be honest. He felt like even though you said it was alright, he wouldn’t know if it was really alright or if he needed to get a hint but even with that, even in those times where he was unsure, you’d always come around to prove him otherwise, like now, for instance.
From the moment you woke up, you gave him a kiss on the forehead, wishing him Happy Valentine’s day and that he’d have a great day at work. Considering you usually leave earlier than he did, you were afraid that by the time you got ready and everything, you’d leave without remembering to bid and wish him goodbye because you don’t want to wake him up but today you decided to make him wake up just to hear you say those few words in which, he appreciated, deeply. He replied something groggily that he loved you, and that he wished you had a great day at work too before falling back into his slumber. Also, you left a note to him that he shouldn’t wait up considering you’d return home a bit late tonight – it was a starting of a new project. All the more reasons to why you can’t spend much time with Luhan but at least you’ll go home to him every night.
It was a small reason that was actually a big one to make you happy every night you went home.
Including tonight, regardless whether it was Valentine’s or not.
Kai smiled, “You may be surprised, you know. Maybe he did something.” He shrugged innocently afterwards, making you snicker with you shaking your head at him before you gave him a light hug when you two reached in front of the apartment you shared with Luhan. “Thanks, Kai. Go home, I’m sure your girlfriend has something in store as well.”
Kai snickered, “My angel always does – she never gives up.”
You smiled, “I think I know that, now go. Before she flies away.”
He smiled back in return, “She’ll never!”
“Wanna bet?” You challenged, causing him to poke your nose, “You know what? I’ll let you win this time – it’s Valentine’s after all. Happy Valentine’s day.” He bid you goodbye with the waving of his hand. You wished him the same, and waved back as you watched him enter the lift. He smirked, waving exaggeratedly once more before entering, leaving you to chuckle before you faced front to open the door tiredly – you were exhausted.
It felt like all energy was drained out and that you could finally sleep – thank God.
The door opened and you stepped in, closing the door behind you where you wanted to take your bag off your shoulders but he swiftly took your bag away, making you freeze when the bag was gone. Next, his hands curved front where he unzipped your jacket, making you gasp when he unzipped it all the way – he smirked. When your arms moved back so he could pull the jacket off, he made you spun around whilst pulling the jacket – leaving you in just your dress shirt and skirt as he looked down on you – he was tired, too…
“L-Luhan…” You muttered his name in the dark, and he didn’t give you a chance to say anything when he cradled you in his arms, walking towards the bathroom where he made you enter with you standing by the sink. “Take a shower, alright? I’ll be waiting.”
“But-“ You wanted to tell him to sleep, to rest because you could see how his dark circles are visible but he ignored you, “I’ll be waiting.” He cut you off, closing the door after that and it made you pout. You sighed and shook your head, but you did as you were bid when there were already clothes for you to wear on the sink along with your towel in the bathroom.
“Taking a shower it is…”
When you were clean and wearing a simple long sleeved shirt along with a pair of track bottom, you stepped out of the bathroom where it was suddenly there was this pathway leading from the bathroom all the way to somewhere. Your eyes widened at the candle lit pathway that you gasped, putting the towel down on the counter before you switched off the bathroom lights only to meekly follow the pathway and you noticed how there were petals on the floor as well.
Your heart palpated as you anticipated, you were excited for what was to come even though you were tired – and you knew that it was only him could make you feel this way.
Luhan was the only one who had the authority to do so.
As you came to the end of the pathway, the doors opened, welcoming you to the balcony with Luhan standing outside on it. Your eyes looked around him where there were pillows on the ground, a few blankets on the side along with some bottles of water where you could’ve sworn that he had this all planned out. You gulped and let your eyes flicker up to lock gazes with Luhan who smiled down heavenly on you with the moonlight shining down, making him appear more of an angel along with that sparkle he had in his eyes as his hands reached out to hold onto you, reeling you out with him where he closed the door behind you before he made you come to sit down with him.
He made you settle in between his legs on the ground, the pillows making you comfortable especially in his embrace as well. He noticed how you were trembling – a sign you were cold and he leaned forward to hold onto your hands.
“God,” He breathed out in disbelief, “You’re freezing.”
You gave out a meek laugh, “I… I showered without switching on the heater…”
He hissed at you, “You should’ve switched it on!”
“I forgot…” You mumbled, allowing him to notice that you were tired too – another reason why you forgot. His heart softened, he didn’t know how to stay mad at you especially whenever he tried to be stern with you, he always ended up pampering you, showering you with more love than before.
Like now, for instance.
He reached over for a blanket, wrapping it around you and himself as you snuggled against him, purring in delight with your arms around his waist with your cheek resting on his chest where you could take in his scent – he smelled divine, as always…
“You smell good, Luhan…” You mumbled cutely, causing him to snicker as he held you tight, “I do?” He tried sniffing himself but he ended up dipping down to bury his face on your neck, sniffing you as he made you giggle on how ticklish it felt, “L-Luhan!” You chuckled when he sat up properly, making you lean against him where he kissed your head, “You smell good, in my opinion.”
You smiled sheepishly, looking up to him, “Thank you.”
“Your welcome.” He replied you shortly, nuzzling his nose with yours. “Not only for the compliment, Luhan…”
He blinked at you innocently, “What else for?”
You looked around you before looking back at him to give him a silent message. “And I didn’t even do anything…”
He sighed, needing to explain to you but you stopped him, “Hear me out first,” You granted permission to speak first when he nodded once, giving you a chance to speak when you leaned against him with a small sigh. “You’re also tired, Luhan and, for you to still prepare all of this for me means a lot. It sucks that I can’t prepare much because, I know you know how tired I’ll be and how busy I am but I still feel guilty not being able to do anything. Women around me at work are all taking leave just to prepare things for their loved ones and some even lied on not coming to work just to prepare something but here I am, not even doing anything…”
“And here you are, being so thoughtful to prepare all of this…” You mumbled sadly, poaching Luhan’s heart when all he wanted to do was see you smile. He never meant for you to feel bad for not preparing anything.
“Pathetic, isn’t it?” You questioned, eyes staring dead ahead at the buildings but he made you face up to him when he replied, “Definitely not.”
Your eyes widened as you stared at Luhan’s side profile, “It’s amazing, actually.”
You furrowed your eyebrows, “W-What?”
He looked down on you, smiling at you where he dipped down to kiss your lips once with a hand on your cheek. He made you kiss him back like an automatic switch after melting his lips against yours, making you mewl when he pulled you up to sit up with him, face to face leveled as he tilted his head to the side to get a better angle at kissing your lips. Your hands placed on his waist for support as he leaned back against the wall with you following his cue to continue kissing his lips – it felt like there was nothing to feel bad about. It was like he was assuring you that as long as you liked this, as long as you appreciated this, that was all that mattered.
And he only made it clearer when he broke the kiss to speak to you.
“Easily any women in this world could say how this isn’t romantic, they could complain for me not bringing them to expensive places and such but you, you understand that I’m working too. You understand and do not expect much from me, which makes me want to blow your mind even more. It makes me crave to do something that will make you fall off guard when your guard is down. I want to make you fall in love with me a little bit more each day. And because of you being you, even on Valentine’s day, I managed to do that.”
He framed your cheeks that were cold, bringing you closer as well as warming up your cold, tired heart.
“And you make me fall in love with you a little bit more each day. You leave me missing you when you’re gone, when I’m gone, when we’re both not together – I dread to be with you. On this Valentine’s, we’re together. This is the excuse we can use to be together even though tomorrow we know it won’t be good for our mind and health but for this one day, can we sleep out here?”
You gave him a small smile, nodding your head in his hands that made him give a peck on your lips.
“So don’t worry about anything else, alright? Enjoy this with me – stay here with me…” He tugged you over, making you rest on his chest once again with him enveloping you in. You felt his lips on your head as he whispered, “And I wouldn’t spend my Valentine with you any other way, just so you know.”