hurt inside

i feel so hurt inside every time my classmates bring up prom, i feel like i’m missing out on everything due to having no friends

I’m caught up in your expectations.
You’re trying to make me live your dream.
But I’m causing you so much frustration.
And you only want the best for me.

You wanted me to show more interests.
To always keep a big bright smile.

So I cry and cry but just won’t get it out.

But I’m not that type of child.

And this storm is rising inside of me.
Don’t you feel that our whole worlds collide?
It’s getting harder to breathe.
It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be.
Who I am.
It’s what you really need to understand.
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it’s torturing me.
But I can’t break free.
So I cry and cry but just won’t get it out.
The Silent Scream.

Tell me why you’re putting pressure on me.
And everyday you cause me harm.
That’s the reason why I feel so lonely.
Even though you hold me in your arms.

Wanna put me in a box of glitter.
But I’m just trying to get right out.
And now you’re feeling so so bitter.
Because I let you down.

And this storm is rising inside of me.
Don’t you feel that our whole worlds collide?
It’s getting harder to breathe.
It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be.
Who I am.
It’s what you really need to understand.
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it’s torturing me.
But I can’t break free.
So I cry and cry but just won’t get it out.
The Silent Scream.

Can’t you see how I cry for help.
Cause you should love me just for being myself.
I’ll drown in an ocean.
Of pain and emotion.
If you don’t save me right away.
Just let me be.
Who I am.
It’s what you really need to understand.
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.
And it’s torturing me.
But I can’t break free.
So I cry and cry but just won’t get it out.
The Silent Scream.
My Silent Scream.

anonymous asked:

Bagginshield call me and mourn me, any setting?

Thorin had wept for hours. Inside, he knew that he must stop, if only to save his eyes from further pain, but the hurt inside him spilled over and wouldn’t leave him be. “Bilbo,” he rasped into his hands, “Bilbo, come back to me.”

Gandalf’s hand, resting on his back, began to rub it in slow circles. The wizard had sat with him as long as he had cried, without a word of reproach - the kindest thing Tharkun had done for him this whole quest. “Thorin,” he said, “Bilbo passed willingly.”

“It was meant to be me,” Thorin said. He pressed his hands harder against his forehead and eyes. “I should have died. Erebor was meant to be my nephews’.”

“Your nephews are waiting for you,” Gandalf replied. “Would you let them come to you now? Fili and Kili might provide you some comfort.”

They would wait for him no longer, then. Gandalf couldn’t say it any more gently than that; Thorin had known the wizard long enough to know. “Send them,” he said, and then once more, “Bilbo.”

“He loved you,” said Gandalf. He patted Thorin’s back one last time, and stood. “He was glad that you lived, Thorin, you heard him say so.”

Thorin sighed and felt it rattle up from the depths of his lungs. Even breathing came with too much effort now. “I know,” he said. “Send Balin and Dwalin to me as well.” They would know what to do with his Bilbo, and with himself, too.

Bilbo’s weapon would lie in stone in the crypts with all due ceremony, but if the wizards’ spells all held, his body would go back to the Shire to lie in the land he loved. Thorin loved his consort in death, and would ever honor his wishes.

Until he could join him at last, he knew Bilbo would live in his heart.


@tartelperien - for you, because hey, why not?

There are certain places that remind you of hurt , certain names that taste bitter , certain faces that are still hard to look at , certain memories that are too heavy to visit , even 5 years later , 10 years , 15 years .
They all remind you of hurt because something inside you “still hurts”.
—  Kriti, All these years I thought it was them when it was my own heart (hurting) 
tsa feelings you get when you're in love
  • Aries:Your cheeks blushing so hard that they burn
  • Taurus:Your stomach twisting when you feel them kissing your neck
  • Gemini:Stero typical butterflies ad heart racing when you see them
  • Cancer:How calm and at peace you feel when you're in their arms
  • Leo:The feeling of warm soft lips pressed against yours
  • Virgo:Enjoying peace and quiet with one another so the world feels like it's stopping around you
  • Libra:Waking up the morning after and experiencing pure bliss
  • Scorpio:Deep intense sexual frustration slowly building between you two
  • Sagittarius:Laughing until your stomach hurts when an inside joke is brought up
  • Capricorn:Coming together as one when you lace your hands into each others
  • Aquarius:Feeling that hint of annoyance when they're being a little shit but you know you still love them anyways
  • Pisces:The heartbreak after its all over
The Best Zodiac Confessions

Over confident and bubbly Leo will only admit to those they love, but insecurity runs deep in their veins. Please remind them more often why you love them and reinforce their positive qualities, our predictive astrology tells us that it will be extremely worthy. While Scorpio and Sagittarius are secretly concern about their calm exterior. What do you think is your most intimate confession? Would you share it with anyone? Do you feel like nobody knows you?

Aquarius: “I feel like no one really knows how I am fully. They just see glimpses of me.”

Pisces: I am so in love with the idea of love that I am scared I will not find anyone to fall in love with.”

Aries: “When I get scolded or told to ‘calm down’ I get really hurt inside although I try not to show it.”

Taurus: “I don’t get angry easily. I can manage to postpone an outburst for months. But accuse me of something I haven’t done and I’m instantly livid.”

Gemini: “I feel like I’m surrounded but idiots 99% of the time.”

Cancer: “I am so scared of expressing these emotions. It’s overwhelming!”

Leo: “I am very self-conscious and need constant reassurance.”

Virgo: “I can express myself better in writing than I can verbally.”

Libra: “I never stop thinking about my physical appearance, whether it’s positive or negative.” 

Scorpio: “I sometimes scare myself about how calm and casual I am about death.”

Sagittarius: “My automatic reaction to feelings is ‘no, stop’ even though I am an emotional person.”

Capricorn: ”I freeze with winter and shut down all my emotions. I am cold and unrelenting. So realistic that I feel as though I can see the future, good or bad.”

Astrology Pictures/Astrology Illustrations: Let it grow by Cyril ROLANDO

I shouldn’t be, but I’m so mad and hurt inside reading that text post. I want you to be happy and I’m glad someone is finally making you happy and giving you those butterflies back, those butterflies I once gave you. But God damnit I wish I was still giving them to you. I wish I was the reason behind that stunningly perfect smile. I wish I was the reason you cant contain your excitement. I wish I was still the one sending you good morning texts and kissing you every five mutes so you knew you were always on my mind. But I did this to myself. I pushed you away. It was the worst mistake of my life. I can’t stop thinking about you and reading that this morning when I woke, destroyed every little thing in me. I’m happy that you’re happy once again bc you deserve nothing less. This doesn’t change my feelings towards you, no matter how hurt I am. I love you, always.
Everything’s not okay. Everything’s falling apart. Everything’s not the same anymore. Everything inside me hurts. And to be honest i don’t know what to feel anymore. I want to be numb. I want to feel nothing. I want to be okay.