Motherhood met me young. Some may see that as a failure. I don’t. I have fully surrendered and succumbed to motherhood, letting it wash over me and smooth out all my jagged edges and shape my unruly parts. It’s healed me in ways I never knew I needed healing, and it all started with those two pink lines.
Being a Young Mom Does Not Make Me a Failure, Lexi Behrndt
Seven years ago today I was 18 years old, past my due date and scared out of my mind. The next morning, March 18th 2010 she came into this world screaming and motherhood engulfed me in the most beautiful way possible. She is kind, sensitive, silly, and smart, she is full of empathy and gratitude, she lights up every single room she walks into, people automatically flock to her, the energy she emits is so pure and full of joy
Birthday’s are always so bittersweet, part of me wants to stop time for a good long while and preserve her being young for another year but the other part of me is so excited for another year of growth, and changes because she just gets better as the days go on.
She truly is my best friend and I am so extremely grateful for her, for her mind, for her heart, and for her love.
She is one of the best pieces of me. Tomorrow you are seven, and although it doesn’t seem possible I love you more every single day. Thank you for being you and thank you for choosing me.
You won’t remember the way I stood in the bathroom late that night in labor with you, fearfully and excitedly gazing up at the moon, knowing I was going to bring you into the world soon and whispering to you, “We can do this.”
You won’t remember the way you looked at me right after you were born, or the way I pulled you up next to my heart and marveled “Hi, baby” in your ear.
You won’t remember the way you healed my broken spirit. The way you completed my heart. I was weak before I had you, and you made me whole again.
You won’t remember the way I proudly watched you everywhere we went, you were always the most beautiful boy in the room to me.
You won’t remember the way you made me laugh with all of the silly things you did. I saw how kind your heart was.
You won’t remember the way I would brush the hair off of your forehead and the way you’d look up at me. Without any words, our souls could touch and say everything to each other that words couldn’t.
You won’t remember the tickle fests we had, and how I always cheated so I could hold you close and cover your salty little face in kisses.
You won’t remember all the times I went to bed at night and felt such fear being your mother: Am I doing okay? Have I messed up too many times already? Can I be the kind of mother he needs?
You won’t remember the way my heart broke and grew a little bigger each time you passed a milestone, watching the sand fall through the hourglass while feeling overjoyed witnessing you expand and grow.
You won’t remember the way I would hold your little feet in my hands, imagining how much bigger than my own feet they will one day grow, and how I will have to let you go.
You won’t remember, but I will… and I’ll hold these memories in my heart for the both of us.
1. Curiosity. Loves pointing out all the birds he can see. As soon as he hears rushing water, he immediately screams in my ear “water!” and tries to find it. 2. Exploration. I showed him that the baby crabs like to hide under rocks so he spent about 30 minutes straight picking up rocks and saying “baby??” hoping to see a baby crab. When he did find one, he looks at me and asks “I touch?”. No, baby. Please don’t touch the animal with little pinchers. 3. Exhaustion. One of my favorite parts because he’s so comfortable nestled right into my chest. I play with his hair and hold my hand on his back because wearing him just doesn’t bring him close enough to me.
alright, so this is my first ever masterpost and i hope it’ll somewhat help you :)
what study methods are there and how do i use them?
how i use them: i mostly only use them to ask myself questions, especially ones that don’t have long answers. so what i do is write the question on one side and the answer on the other.
what i use them for: some things in history, literature, biology and subjects i only learn about briefly about but also for some topics in nutrition.
how i do it: that really depends on what i feel like doing. sometimes i prefer writing on my laptop but thinking about it it may be more helpful to write it down by hand as it takes more time and hence sticks in your mind longer.
also, when i study what i wrote down i do it by reading the headlines and then trying to explain paragraph to paragraph to myself.
what i do it for: when i summarize by computer i mostly think into the future, not only to one quiz but for example to my a-levels (which will be in 2018). in general, i mostly do it for subjects that i know i will a-level in or that i want to ace.
how i do them: honestly, i am not going to go into detail here as there is so many posts on how to do it out there and my mind-maps aren’t the best. but what i do is write the headline into the middle of the sheet and then i write brief descriptions and notes to this topic down.
what i do them for: my mind-maps are usually just quick overviews of certain topics as i find they become very confusing as soon as there is too much info on them. as soon as you have to write some more detailed things down i would recommend just summarizing it.
how i do it: i only use them for homework or tasks that are too long to write into the textbook and too short to start a whole page in my notebook. i also find it easier to find them later on.
what i use them for: mostly my english homework, to be honest.
how i do it: just like sticky notes, i barely do color coding. if i use it though, it’s almost always in combination with sticky notes in the colors i use for the coding for extra information.
what i use them for: mostly if i have to work with text sources to write a text or even an essay.
how i keep myself motivated
remember what you want to achieve
even if it’s simply getting an a in that one test only, keep that in mind. remember what you want to be, what uni you want to study at, what grade you want to have in that subject,…
nevertheless, don’t be to hard on yourself if you fail. there is always a next time and your personal health is way more important than some stupid quiz.
remember why you have failed at achieving sth in the past
sometimes, you get more motivated when looking at your mistakes. it’s as simple as that.
quotes, quotes and even more quotes
i am just the biggest fan of quotes ever, especially if they’re motivational. write them onto sticky notes and stick them to the wall in front of you! sometimes leslie knope or michelle obama or whatever person saying something inspiring will get you going way better than you can do so yourself.
// i hope those tips will help you in some way and good luck studying //