human beings forever



“[On how he overcame racial dogma] I was taught that I had basic rights as a human being. I was taught that I was someone. I knew we had no money, still I was taught that I was someone. We had no electricity and no running water, still I was taught that I was someone. I had very little education. A year and a half, in fact, was all of the schooling that I was exposed to. Still I knew that I was someone.”

When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.
—  Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart

I’ve watched a lot of Vampire tv shows in my life from bits of Dark Shadows reruns as a kid to Buffy to True Blood and the Vampire Diaries. It’s a guilty pleasure but I’ve got to say that Being Human(UK) was probably one of the best. None of the others really addressed that vampires are monsters, or at least not in the same way. By the end of that show or at least the end of the first couple seasons it makes clear that the only truly good thing Mitchell (the vampire) can do for the world is end his life. It doesn’t play around and it has one of the best episodes stating that no matter how much good the penitent vampire does he’ll never be able to make up for the evil he’s done. Now the show broke my heart and Mitchell’s end wrecked me but it was so well done. The show made a point to show that it wasn’t just the people he killed that were hurt, it was their friends and families and that by killing one he hurt countless others. It did such a good job of deconstructing the repentant vampire. (I know they kind of took a different direction with the last two seasons but still the whole thing with Lia was so well done!)


Somewhere along the way we grew up. And the idea of what was home changed. It wasn’t what our parents built for us. It was what we made for ourselves. Those small moments of who buys the milk and who gets the mail. Who makes you smile on a terrible day.

Where we were.

                            That was home.

                                                     That was f a m i l y .



“Any job that I care about when I first start it is just a tremendous amount of stress. Because you’re not sure you can do it. If it’s a job that I’m like "oh yeah, I would totally rock that”, I don’t really want it. I have to be afraid that I’m gonna mess it up. If you’re not challenged. If you’re not afraid to fail, then you’re not really pushing yourself.“

What if...?

the Supernatural series ended with Cas being a human forever, and he’s kneeling besides Dean’s headstone. He just talks to his grave and hopes that somewhere, in some way, Dean is listening to him like the way he listened to his prayers.

“Dean, I met someone today. She’s really nice and pretty, smart as well. I’ve been planning to move in with her… but I hope I’m not going too fast in this.”
“I saw Sam today. He’s doing good; he really likes being a lawyer, even though he says it’s hard. He’s taking great care of the Impala. Sometimes he even lets me drive it.”
“Dean, are you doing well there?”
“Dean, can you hear me?”
“Have you found your heaven?”
“I’m sorry I couldn’t save you.”


it is very messy but god do i love how this turned out

the best time to draw is at 5am ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ