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So this happened today.

Oh my god, guys! This is just crazy. 1000 of you! 1000. That is just insane! I’m still trying to wrap my head around this. I never in my wildest dreams thought this blog would even have 100 followers, let alone 1000! I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve all of you but I thank you so very much for being here.

Thank you to everyone for your continued love, support, kind words, and friendship. Honestly, I’ve never met a better group of people than the group that we have here. You all are truly and utterly amazing.

To the new and old friendships, to the casual acquaintances, to the silent likers/rebloggers: I love each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart.

Thank you so very much to the previous 900 for sticking with me and welcome to the new 100! Welcome to the crazy train ladies and gents!

dating Chanyeol would include~

Originally posted by yeolhighness

  • he’s probably the person who convinces you that true love really exists 
  • actual softest bean
  • was rlly shy at first but warmed up to you
  • asked you to come over to the studio one day and that became your date
  • pretty cool to see the legend himself at work imo 
  • but realised that he kinda rlly rlly liked you when you were over one day and fell asleep on his shoulder
  • believes to this day you’re the cutest thing ever
  • asked you to be his girlfriend with a video of him holding up cards 
  • alongside a freshly composed song to go with it 😩😩😩😩😩
  • (dont ask why I used the adverb freshly?????)
  • will you be mine ft. chanyeol who can’t stop smiling bc you said yes
  • never quiet; a blessing or a curse
  • ‘chan pls it’s past four am can you sleep’
  • ‘babe the snow leopards are taking to each other how can I sleep’
  • probably the type to hang around the kitchen when you cooking
  • enjoys watching you do things and seeing how concentrated you get
  • also enjoys distracting you and making you pay attention to him
  • also keeps his arms around you and rests his head on your shoulder
  • 'can I try some?’
  • 'that’s raw chanyeol, you’ll get food poisoning’
  • 'I am not bound by mundane rules’
  • will not under any circumstances let you leave the bed you are sharing bc youre warm
  • big spoon 1000%, unless he’s sad and needs to be held
  • when he does eventually let you go he follows you around and whines about having to leave bed
  • 'babe, I have an idea. let’s hibernate’
  • SKI TRIPS CAN U HEAR ME CRY
  • will assist you in anyway he can if you can’t actually ski but will take you to the highest mountain on your first go
  • The type to fall if you fall so you don’t feel as embarrassed
  • Also kisses you in the snow bc omo cute~
  • weird dates with no theme, no set time and place 
  • one night you’ll be watching a movie in bed or watching Japanese Food on YouTube 
  • the next you’ll be watching stormzy and drake live because why not,,
  • and on the last day of the week you take a three am trip to the store and buy ramen and milk
  • (milk to keep the tol boy strong)
  • skypes you whilst on tour but also adds another member to the conversation to make them feel awkward
  • 'so like I was thinking about the leeks you put in that stew right—’
  • '—why am I in this chat Chanyeol?’
  • 'sh jongdae I must ask about the leeks’
  • offers to teach you guitar but forgets halfway through and makes out with you instead
  • something tells me he’s like number 4 in best kissers in the world
  • a touch clingy, will ask you if you like him still but only in his sleep
  • but likes to hold your hand a lot in public 
  • definitely won’t let you go if there’s fans around or like a big group of people or even one person
  • doesn’t like being away from you for too long
  • 'Just because I have your snapchat and instagram and Twitter and [other sns] doesn’t mean I can’t miss you!’
  • probably pretty vanilla if anything, not overly into weird stuff 
  • will try something but make it clear if he doesn’t like it
  • could have a submissive side if you wanted, or dominant he don’t mind 
  • just likes to please you and is very happy to show you just how much he loves you
  • BY HUGging you so tight at the airport and picking you up to kiss you when he sees you of course!!!
  • and also by pushing your hips down and telling you not to cum
  • or letting you tie him down and telling him not to cum 🤔🤔🤔
  • 'did you think min yoongi is the only rapper that can send you to Hong Kong?’
  • probably into sexting though and occasional snapchats to remind him what he’s coming home to!!
  • down to make a tumblr with you for some of the pics you’ve got of the two of you
  • because he thinks you’re both pretty hot and can survive the tumblr sex fandom
  • but still an actual sweetheart that would give you the world if you asked for it
  • slightly whipped but not really
  • will argue back sometimes esp if it’s something he believes in
  • therefore if there is a fight it will be pretty big and you won’t talk for days
  • and you keep giving each other dirty looks from across the room until one of you finally gives on
  • (usually chanyeol, he misses you)
  • and you wake up one morning to a neighbour knocking on your door to inform you that Chanyeol is in fact sleeping on your doorstep
  • Confesses to you in such an awkward moment but it’s also perfect too
  • like you’re in the middle of a crowd of people and he hugs you from behind and tells you that he loves you really quietly 
  • and squeezes you when he feels you freeze, repeating it again until he’s sure you heard him
  • probably the best boyfriend youll ever get tbh
  • 'i didn’t believe baek when he said soulmates exist but now I do’
  • 'why’s that chan?’
  • 'cause i met you’

S.o. to the people who validate me. You guys make me feel like im more than a speck of dust in the universe and that im actually inpacting someones life.

EDIT! 

OMG thank you all! Wonderful and helpful screenshots and pics from you lovely people! T.T *hugs everyone*


Genji Blackwatch skin..

Does anyone have a Genji Blackwatch skin back view? I need to see the cables and I’m at work, without Overwatch to take a screenshot myself T.T please? And google was of no help..

anonymous asked:

hey.. I'm doing my best to be okay right now, I'm not gonna hurt myself physically.. just.. can you give me a reason not to kill myself right now?

Lots of reasons to live!! Such as: books, movies, nature, hugs from people you love, yummy things, favorite sweaters, being able to live to see the day that Trump gets assassinated, fireflies, learning new things, stars, and cute animals

Ily !! You can talk to me if you need someone :0

anonymous asked:

What kind of PDA do you think the boys would be into?

Thanks for requesting! I hope you like it :3

I think Cory wouldn’t be one to be into heavy public PDA. Around anyone, he might still have an arm around your shoulders, but on a relaxed, laid down way. In private, though, he’d like hugging you all the time. If you happened to be cooking, he’d hug you from behind. If you were watching a movie on the couch, he’d wrap his arms around and let you rest your head on his chest. I also see him doing casual PDA sometimes, like holding your hand while pushing you somewhere just because.

Daeil wouldn’t mind if people were around, he’d love to hug you from behind or have you sitting on his lap. He’d like people to know you were his girlfriend. I don’t think he’d hold your hand though. While walking, he’d either not do anything or put his arm around your waist or shoulder. He wouldn’t be type to cuddle either, because he’d generally be too hyper to stay still for enough time, but when you sleep he’ll use you as a teddy bear.

Kisu wouldn’t be type to engage in a lot of public PDA, except for really soft ones like holding hands or, when you’re sitting down, letting you rest your head on his shoulder. Behind closer door, though, he would love to cuddle you, especially while you read a book or watch movie.

Sungoh would like to casually have his arms around your shoulder all the time. I imagine he’d like to be touching you somehow most of the time, even if just casually. He’d slightly lean on you, or hold your pinkie finger with his. Literally, it could be anything. In private, he’d be annoyingly clingy. Like if you were doing something, he’d just hug you from behind and rest his chin on the top of your head, closing his eyes and smiling while you complain that you have stuff to do (until you give up and lay with him on the couch for a while).

Jeunguk would kind of be a mixture of Daeil and Cory. He’d like people to know you’re his girlfriend, but wouldn’t do any heavy PDA in public. I think he’d most likely casually put an arm around your shoulders than actually hug you, and hold your hand while walking sometimes, but it’d more like a practical thing. Like, if you somewhere crowded and he thought he might lose you on it, he’d hold your hand and guide you (or be guided, depending on who knows the way). Privately, he’d also not be into heavy PDA. Instead of hugging you a lot or being clingy, he’d rather cuddle you when it’s comfortable to, when you’re falling asleep or watching a movie.

Hui seems to be a lot into PDA but also shy about it, which means he’d never do anything in public unless you started it. He’d smile whenever you held his hand or leaned on closer, making sure you know he liked it, but that would be it. In private he might be a little bit more open about it. He’d still prefer if you started it though.

Jinhong would hug you whenever he were happy. His song is in a good place on the charts? He’d hug you. He was playing a game and won? He’d hug you. He just won an award? He’d wrap you on his arms and spin you around. He doesn’t care if he gets teased about it, Jinhong just gets really happy when he sees you and likes to show it. He’d understand if you didn’t like to show much affection, but if you had no problems with it then he would always remind you that he loves you somehow.

~~Admin Marie

reasons to be happy

pens that work- paintings- good paintings- atmosphere pandora- asparagus- new paintbrushes- ice skating- holding hands- turquoise- minty gum- tranquility- filled sketchbooks- seeing people you love- chapstick- camelbak’s- comfy sweaters- photos taped on a wall- soft hair- new paint- watching shadows move moving from day to night- the change from night to day- knowing what to do- being alone, but not feeling alone- memories- introspecting other people’s sketchbooks- found sketchbooks- when wind feels good- having tape when you need it- having ibuprofen- not needing ibuprofen- new books- old, warn books- feeling the warmth of the sun- freckles- blankets- laughing- mashed potatoes- letters in the mail- warm skin- pajama pants- ice water- naps- baths- understanding colors- seeing new colors- rain- bike rides- quick-dry nail polish- moment of lift-off- new socks- blue light- listening to music in a dark room- unexpected friendships- having someone to turn to- feeling cared about- caring for someone- naps in the woods- laying in the grass- cold grass- warm grass- walking barefoot- clean hair- cold hair- falling asleep in the sun- feeling understood- being understood- paintbrush cleaner- light dancing through grass- circle leaves- painting on the floor- falling asleep on the couch- mixing a really great color- warm pavement- pasta- perforated paper- hotel pans- tall grass- making progress- maroon bells reflections- my blue snow boots- disposable cameras- purple mountains- tall aspen trees- green/yellow grass- mountain flowers- endorphins- music- listening to music in the dark- full emotions- gooey cookies- happy music- making a good dinner board- quinoa + asparagus- old songs that bring you back- memories- beautiful memories- helpful reflection- my aluminum ring- my bike to work- rollerblading to work- sitting in the dark- turquoise earrings my grandma gave me- having work in shows- painting dreams- writing forever- artist lectures- first friday- aspen thrift store- barry x ball melting wax- tapestries- comfy pillows- feeling good about yourself- watching keenan + kel- the nanny- investigation discovery- listening to people speak- listening to people’s life stories- appreciating- gaining greater understanding- the lady with the dog that came up to me while I was rollerblading- the people at work- having friends that are there for you- seeing someone’s name + being filled with happiness- sharpie in paintings- ann gale- aspen snow mass village- lunch at peach’s- driving- music while driving- writing notes- little paintings- harry stooshinoff- monkeys- finding inspiration- finding desire- filled with something to create- painting over old paintings- gesso-ing over old things- painting with gesso- t-shirts- sewing scissors- late night talks- late night phone calls- crescent moon- full moon- full moon bike rides- shrimp tempura- the chinese restaurant by my house- chinese with samantha- the goodwill by mama’s- staying with sam @ cu- 95 inca- the smell of rain- the smell of air after rain- forgetting everything- feeling okay- the desire to find a place to be one’s self- least likely of friendships- the desire to hear from someone- something simple filling you with happiness- light moving- gummy bears- ice trays- tall socks- my pizza earring- the colbert report- watching a dad hold hands with his son across the street- fried rice from thayer- chinese take-out- warm hands- holding hands- the backpack I got in the mountains- being- having headphones when you want them- my long black + white patterned dress- providence walks- walks with people you love- seeing people you love happy- hugs from people you love- calm tea- refresh tea- sun falling across skin- isolated warmth from sun- lucian freud- harry potter- harry potter computer game- pickles- good slide lectures- my flowered mug- tea before bed- having tacks- painting/drawing for yourself- not caring what others think- allowing freedom- finding freedom- finding content- flat patterns on 3-d things- allowing yourself to get close to people- hugging people- making effort to see people- my new bike- convenience of the trolley- heightened memories- new gloves- new underwear- pickle juice- thrifting- pb & j sandwiches- finished drawing hw- line drawings- minty breath- writing in this book- baby blanket- mailroom packages- care packages- letters- writing letters- warmth- spanish classical music- being happy for you- understanding- being okay- smile lines- finding happiness in painting- breathing in deeply while smiling with your mouth open- smiling at strangers- scarves- handmade scarves- printed photos- black and white photos- 

i’ve dealt with being sad for a long time.  this is a list i started once of reasons to be happy.

by s.m. barela

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Originally posted by hiddlescheekbatch

(GIF not mine)

Loki x reader 

W.C:1638

A.n: I really hope you enjoy this, to how ever requested this and to everyone. Sorry I took forever to up date this.

-

“C’mon darling is that all you’ve got?” Loki yelled as he pressed the ‘A’ button faster as if that would help.

“Shut up, I’m right behind you.” Pressing the ‘L’ button on the control so you could throw a red shell at him.

“What is the matter with you!” Loki stood up from the couch “I was just about to cross the finish line!”

Which only caused you to let out a laugh “Ha-ha, in your face!” You threw the control in the couch and got in his face “I won, I won.” You jumped up with excitement and then into the couch and into his back, which Loki didn’t hesitate to place his hands on your thighs to help you out. “You get to be my bitch for a whole month.” You yelled.

“Stop yelling in my ear, you unworthy peasan-”

“I would watch my mouth if I were you.” You smiled at him and rested your chin on his shoulders.

“Were you this mean to your actual servants in Realm?” He turned his head to ask you.

“No, I actually like them.” You smiled at him.

“Would you two shut up, it’s four in the morning.” Sam walked into the room rubbing his eye.

“Sorry Sam.” You gave him an apologetic smile.

“Whatever.” He plopped himself into the couch and got himself comfortable.

“Go on take me to my room.” You order.

“I don’t see why I have to do this.” Loki mumbled.

“It was your brilliant idea, I told you a week. But no you thought that you would be able to beat me so suck it.” You patted his pecks “Onward.”

-

“Hey Nat come look at this.” Stark yelled from one of his office.

“What is it?” She came walking in.

“Look.” Tony pointed to the screen.

“Is that Y/n and Loki?”

“Yeah, they had a night all form them self, it’s actually kinda cute.” Tony leaned back on his chair with his arms crossed over his chest.

“It’s cute because you guys didn’t hear the in the middle of the night screaming and laughing.”Sam came wandering in.

“They’re still adorable,shut up.” Nat gave Sam a little shove.

“Hey man I’m just saying.” Sam raised his hands in defence.

“Why is Loki doing everything Y/n is telling him to do?” Steve and Bucky entered the office.

“Loki lost a bet so he gets to be Y/n’s bitch for a month.” Sam informed him.

“He was doing her laundry, wich it’s quite entertaining to watch.” Bucky chuckled as he saw Loki just a few minutes ago trying to figure out how to work the washing machine “Man he’s going to ruin her cloth.”

“Or she can just tell him to go buy her new cloth.”Tony shrugged.”You know what we should do?”

“Oh no Stark’s got a plan, everyone watch out.” Steve joked which only earned him a glare from Tony.

“Very funny capstical. But no really, the two of them have been getting closer  if you know what I mean. So why not just get them together already?”

-

“Oh Loki.” You sang out for him.

“What do you want?” He whined as he entered your room.

“Hey watch the attitude.” You warned him.”Plus I didn’t call you to do something, I just wanted to ask you if this looked good.” You stepped out of your closet and in front of him.

You were wearing a burgundy dress that stopped just below your knees which was also off the shoulder, along with a pair of nude pointed-toe T-strap.

“Uh, yeah yeah.” Loki stumbled over his words “You look amazing.” You had taken his breath away.

“Thanks you.” You smiles at him. “Hey can you help me out with the strap?I want them tighter”

“Yeah,sure.”He took a seat on the bed and patted his knee for you to place your foot.

MWhich you didn’t want to ruin his nice pants suit so you opens up his legs and placed your foot on the bed, just below the crotch of the suit ended.

“All set love.” Loki patted your thigh “Are you wearing a holster?”

“Just because I’m a angel doesn’t mean I don’t want extra protection.” You smiled at him ”Cmon handsome, were going to be late.” You grabbed him by the hand.

“You always so cease to amazing.” He smile down at you.

“Is that good or bad?”

“Oh that’s definitely good love.”

“Wait.” You stopped right on track.

“What? What is it?”

“I forgot my clutch, can you go get it for me?” You smiled sweetly at him.

“I would love to.” He smiled and walked back into your room and came right back.

“Thank you.” You kissed his cheek.

“Alright let’s head out to this party or Fury is going to kill us.”

-

“How about me and you head out?” A rather drunk man asked you as he placed his hand on your waist.

“How about you get your hands off me?”

“C’mon don’t be such a bitch.”

“Excuse me?”

“You heard me, why do girls have to be such a bitches.” The man’s breath reeked of alcohol.

Before you could even say anything Loki had stepped between the two.

“Mate for your sakes I would leave.” He grabbed him by the collar and whispered in his ear.

“What are you going to do mate?” The drunken man provoked Loki.

Which did work since it only took one swing for everything to break loose, soon there was a mob forming between the three of you, two of the man’s friends had now joined, while you tried to help but just kept getting shoved back.

“Loki stop!” You tried to pull on his shoulder.

But he didn’t listen it was like he was in some sort of zone.

“Damn it Rogers, Wilson, can you at least try to help!” You yelled when you finally saw them in the crowd.

And just like that they threw two of the men of while the one that started it was already knocked out on the floor.

“Thank you.” You sighed as you helped Loki up “Are you alright?” You asked as you tried to take a look at his face.

“Just peachy.” He mumbled and pushed passed you.

“What the hell.”You thought to yourself.

“Guys I think I’m just going to call it a night, plase tell the rest that I left already.” You told both Steve and Sam while giving them both a peck on the cheek.

“Alright, be safe.” Steve smiled at you.

“Goodnight, don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” Sam told you, which earned him a nudge on the ribs.

“Loki!” You yelled after im “Loki, slow down.” But he only kept going “What’s the matter with?” You finally caught up to him.

“What do you want?” He barked.

“I came to look after you, you big baboon.” You grabbed his hand and whistled at a cab to stop.

“That was really stupid of you.” The two of you had made it back to the tower and Loki was now sitting in the kitchen counter while you stood between his legs helping him get cleaned up.

“I was helping you.” He winced as you cleaned the final blood from his lip.

“I can take care of myself.” You told him and got a new cloth.

“And I don’t care.”

“Your real stupid, I can’t get hurt,you can.” You stated.

“I don’t give a damn Y/n.”Loki groaned “I don’t care if you can’t get hurt, either way I’m going to step in and help you, you’re my team, my family. Damn it Y/n why can’t you just see that I like you and I will protect you, weather if it’s from that dutch at the party or from aliens I will protect you.”

You didn’t know how to react to what you just heard so you just ended up staring at him.

“Are you going to say anything, you’re always talking and when you’re asked to talk you’re  just sil-”

But you cut him off by placing your lips against his, his sweet and soft lips molded against yours. It was a short and simple kiss, that really last for a long time, but after staring into eachothers eyes that quickly changed. Grabbing you by the back of the neck he pulled you in, but this time it was a different feeling, a whole different atmosphere, it was hot and steamy everything you wished for, everything you wanted at the moment. Your lips felt like they were on fire but neither of you stopped, it only kept you going. That was only until you heard claps.

“About damn time.”

“We eat here so can you, hop off the counter.”

“Please tell me that is the only thing that you’ve done in my kitchen.”

“So did our plan work?”

“What plan?” You rested between Loki’s leg.

“Well  we sent someone to hit on you.” Sam stated.

“The only person that actually flirted with me and didn’t eye fuck me was this drunk idiot.”

Tony,Steve,Nat,Sam and Bucky steared at each other in confusion.

“What about Andrew?” Bucky asked.

“Who’s Andrew?” Loki beat you to the question.

“He was supposed to flirt with you.” Nat looked over at you .

“Well your plan failed miserably.” Loki kissed your temple “I ended up with a black eye, I mean not that it wasn’t worth it.”

“I better be.” You turned to him and hugged him.

“Guys please stop.” Tony begged.

“Please don’t, the two of you will be my joy for a while.” Nat went and joined the hug.

“Wait I want a hug.” Bucky joined in as well.

“A hug from the people I love, what’s not to love?” You took it all in.

hypem.com
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Direction, a song by Hugh on Hype Machine

“Do you believe in all kinds of love or just the ones you understand?” http://hypem.com/track/2f3h4/Hugh+-+Direction 

 💖🌈💖

Happy Valentine’s Day to all my bbs! 

So I’ve been having a lot of thoughts and feels lately. And I’m writing my second book (don’t tell my publicist that I said this, but I just need to talk about it) and a lot of it involves drudging up all the complicated feelz about life. So that’s just how I’ve been lately. 

AND NOW it’s Valentine’s Day.

Now I know this is a super happy-dappy-lovey-dovey-timey-wimey time or it’s an indulgent-emo-why-am-i-single-fuck-valentine’s-etc-blah-blah time too. But ya know. YA KNOW. I just can’t help but think love is all a little more complicated than just our relationships with a S.O. There is so much MORE LOVE (familial, platonic, self, etc.) that is just as deserving of your attention and concern. 

Anyway, I just needed to vent and be a little frustrated by the current realities that face myself and some of my friends during the dawn/dusk of 29:

1) I spoke with my Dad the other day (first time in a very long while*) and explained to him that we weren’t close because if/when I get married, his anti-gay belief system wouldn’t allow him to attend my wedding or acknowledge my children as his grandchildren. Not because I’m gay. (QUIZ: Which one of these people is making a “choice”?)

2) My best friends are in an interracial couple (black/asian) and have been together for almost 7 years. Now that marriage is becoming a serious topic tensions about race within each of their families is getting out in the open. Especially regarding the realities for their children**. It’s all very messy and blindsiding and we hug and cry about it. 

3) My sister is getting married again. I have feelz. 

4) A couple I know recently broke up over the topic of having children in the unknown future: one of them wants kids, the other doesn’t. They knew this at the onset of their dating, but now years later it’s a make or break issue. I’m so emotionally stunted that I’m like “They never should have dated! Better to have never loved than to ever open yourself to the possibility of being hurt! All decisions are black and white! Let’s all operate in extremes!”

- … and more!

Anyway, there are a lot of realities of love and life and blah blah blah that I’m trying to sort through in my head/heart. And I guess when I look at this list, I can see each argument through the lens of fear or the lens of faith.

1) Fear that without a primal understanding of unconditional love and trust, I’ll never learn how to do it. / Faith that I definitely totally can it just takes time and work. 

2) Fear that the world is stupid and fuckedd!!!!! / Faith that we can make it better. 

3) … I have so many fear/faith/feelz! But this is my sister so I just send her a daily barrage of my thought spirals! Whoops! Sorry, Nomes! Love ya! 

4) Fear that loving equals hurting. / Faith that loving equals healing. 

Anyway, this has been a presentation of my Valentine’s Day Feelz for Realz. I love you guys, and I hope you pay attention to the love in your heart for the things and people that matter (yourself being #1!). 

Love love love looove,
Me

*Because now I’m adult-ing and have done a lot of processing and ya know I think I can talk to him without it sending me on a self-destructive spiral. If you have a parent who you love deeply who doesn’t acknowledge your sexuality as a viable genetic truth, then don’t worry about them until you’re ready to. And by “don’t worry about them” I mean go to therapy and get lots of hugs from the people that love you for you. 

**Beautiful Blasian Baby! The BBB!

There are a lot of things in life we should be happy about but we don’t appreciate them because we just take them for granted.

That’s why I decided to make a list of 100 things everyone should start appreciating more!

1. a compliment from a stranger
2. fresh cut fruit
3. opening a brand new book
4. classic disney movies
5. friendly cashiers
6. fuzzy socks
7. making someone else smile
8. a clean public restroom
9. being the only one to know a secret
10. old couple that are holding hands
11. being able to finally understand something
12. getting enough sleep
13. when strangers thank you after you held the door for them
14. making a perfect signature
15. having a blank to-do list
16. looking through old photos
17. finding a username that isn’t taken
18. a hot shower on a cold day
19. a cold shower on a hot day
20. getting positive feedback on something you worked hard on
21. when someone remembers something you said a long time ago
22. people who accept your and don’t care about your flaws
23. being with the person you love
24. those friends that are always there for you
25. spending time with your family
26. the smell after the rain
27. looking through schoolwork from when you were young
28. fresh-baked bread
29. sleeping on freshly washed sheets
30. seeing someone’s face light up when you give them a present
31. holding hands
32. not having a bad hair day
33. driving down an empty road
34. putting in the last piece of a puzzle
35. when a baby holds your finger
36. people who accept your weirdness
37. songs that bring back memories
38. the sound of uncontrollable laughter
39. finally finding that missing sock
40. hugs from behind
41. texts from your loved one
42. when people remember you after only having met you once
43. doing well on a test you didn’t study for
44. looking at raindrops that are rolling down your car’s windows
45. when you go to your favorite band’s concert and they finally come on stage
46. the smell of breakfast in the morning
47. kisses on the forehead
48. making a baby laugh
49. watching shows from your childhood
50. being wrapped in a blanket on a rainy/snowy day
51. being loved
52. being liked by the family of your significant other
53. stargazing
54. long, tight hugs
55. kept promises
56. getting mail
57. putting on warm clothes that come right out of the dryer
58. getting new clothes
59. wearing your favorite piece of clothing and feeling beautiful in it
60. inside jokes
61. a smile from a stranger
62. getting lost in a really good book
63. making your parents proud
64. the smell of freshly cut grass
65. the cool side of the pillow
66. when someone tells you that they missed you
67. not having any work to do over the weekend
68. hot chocolate on cold days
69. popping bubble wrap
70. dimples
71. silence that isn’t awkward
72. cuddling
73. finding money in the laundry
74. unexpected presents
75. when someone defends you in an argument
76. the first rain after a long draught
77. having time for yourself
78. continuous green lights when you’re driving somewhere
79. the smell of a new book
80. friendly anons on tumblr
81. the sound of a cat purring
82. listening to a song from your childhood and still knowing the lyrics
83. good morning texts
84. a pen that works really well
85. taking a nap
86. singing in the shower
87. never ending conversations
88. Finding something you lost a long time ago
89. jeans that fit perfectly
90. deep conversations with your best friend
91. finally eating the food you’ve been craving
92. songs that make you want to dance
93. being in a great mood for no particular reason
94. waking up and realizing you have more time to sleep
95. when the team you’re rooting for wins
96. hearing that you were part of someone’s dream
97. when a little kid draws you a picture
98. realizing your period is finally over
99. correct grammar
100. finishing a final exam

Things Life Has Taught Me

1) Pretend to know what you’re doing, you’ll eventually figure it out and it’ll be a lot easier than if you confuse yourself and panic.

2) Love heals all hurting.

3) Knowledge is very important, educate yourself and others but take an open minded, non-biased approach to start off with until you learn the least harmful and most effective routes for both yourself and the people around you. 

4) Remember that with something that you regret, you did the best with the knowledge that you had at the time and you have learnt. Stop beating yourself up.

5) Life is far too short to deny yourself simple pleasures, take a sick day every now and then when the stress is a bit too much, go shopping in your pyjamas, look after yourself mentally and physically.

6) Treat your body often but make sure you put beneficial substances into yourself, your body has fought to keep you alive from the moment you were conceived to right this second, that is all it wants to do. Treat it well, as it asks for nothing in return but to be fuelled with things that make it smile from the inside. 

7) Always carry a fiver, a lighter and maybe a pair of tweezers.

8) Your teachers had a shitty day too, when they ask you to do your homework it’s not because the love marking it, it’s their job and unless they’re naturally assholes then they honestly do want the best for you.

9) Stay hydrated.

10) Cuddle with the people you love, hug friendly acquaintances, draw energy from other people’s positivity and warmth.

11) Smile at strangers, it may be the only friendly face they get to see that day.

12) Don’t sacrifice your comfort in the name of fashion, I know those jeans make your butt look cute but they also leave an imprint covering the entire inside of their make. There have been times when I have feared that the next time I see that cute pair of underwear it will be in one of my X-rays.

13) Allow yourself to buy good quality tea or coffee, after all it’s probably going to be fuelling that 5,000 word essay that you have due on Tuesday.

14) You do not have to identify as either gender or a certain sexuality, the only thing you identify as is yourself.

15) You do not owe shitty people anthing, just because he drove you home it does not mean that he is entitled to fuck you, you’re not a bitch for telling a boy that you only want to be friends - even if he is nice to you.

16) You can cut someone out of your life without explanation, if it is better for yourself. Do it without guilt.

17) If you don’t ask for things then you’ll never get them.

18) Your heart will break, and someone will obliterate you emotionally. Allow yourself to cry, allow it to hurt but remember that the pain is only temporary. You lived without them before, you can do it again. 

18) Feel sexy, love yourself naked and clothed, remember that all of these little blemishes are scars from your growth physically and as a person. They’re battle wounds that have healed, you are living evidence of survival.

19) Seek mental help, you are normal and you are worth loving. Tell your kids about mental health issues and reassure them that there is help available, reassure them that you will not be angry but supportive and that their feelings are never ‘silly’ or 'stupid’.

20) Brush your teeth, as silly as that sounds, your mouth is a key indicator to your health. People with healthier mouths are usually healthier overall. 

21) Learn to not take yourself too seriously all the time. 

22) Don’t use racist or offensive terms ever, not in the name of a laugh or a joke, and not to inflict pain on someone. It’s not that hard to not be colossal prick.

23) This list will never stop growing because you never stop learning, add to it yourself ever day of your life. Make a mental note.

anonymous asked:

hey how come you don't requests? A lot of other artists do it and you know you can get more followers that way. Also, take commissions why don't you? you should really consider that. Your potentials are wasted if you don't try to see what others like or want from you.

Excuse me.

EXCUSE ME?!

I’m sorry but… I don’t get offended by things like this but this just draws the line. I was staring at this message, reading it to make sure it isn’t downright horrible. Please, I hope that’s wrongly worded or you didn’t mean to sound so… Hateful.

I don’t even know where to begin. Oh my god. What did I ever do? I’m sorry. Did I offend anyone by not taking requests? I’m really sorry if I sounded rude or if I sounded like I rejected you in any form.
I’m sorry… But I promised myself that I will NEVER take requests. I’ve always kept it all in but it had to be brought up.
Forgive me… I just want to let this out of my chest.

I DON’T EVER want to take requests because I DON’T WANT TO. SIMPLE AS THAT. People have taken advantage of me! I used to be so naive, I wanted others to be happy but I didn’t enjoy it. I LIED TO MYSELF that maybe I will. I tried. I DIDN’T.
I remember a long time ago, people kept sending me requests of things I didn’t even like to draw. Guess I was too nice but now that you mentioned it, I realized that that was very dumb of me. I got over it… Also because I didn’t have enough time to draw that much for others. I had to attend to school. Things got more difficult as time passed by. As much as I LOVE drawing, I had to prioritize high school and all that. Now that I look at it, THANK YOU, SCHOOL for giving me better things to do!

Along with requests are ART TRADES. I thought it was nice, it was fun, it was a great way to make friends! BUT I learned the HARD way. Again, I was taken advantage of. I always ALWAYS did my side of the trade with so much effort because I WANTED to make my trade partner happy. I apologize for not doing it quickly some times or I get delayed with it BUT I STILL MADE IT.
But what do I get? People make half-assed things. I’M SORRY. Call me ungrateful but it just hurts me. It makes me so upset. I hate pretending that I like it. I hate seeing how my trade partner was lazy because I KNOW THEY CAN DO SO MUCH MORE. It makes me sad to think that just because we’re “friends” you can just be half-assed about it? Oh my gosh. I’m really sorry. 

AND NOW YOU’RE TELLING ME I WOULD GET MORE FOLLOWERS THAT WAY?!? What sort of thinking is that?!

I’ve been told and warned again and again that it’s true that there really are just some people out there who follow/watch you because THEY HOPE they can get something FREE from you. THERE. I SAID IT. I tried denying it. I didn’t want to think that. I told myself that people really do love my works and I know they stay because I know they’ll see that I’ll improve and my works make them happy.
But I had to be hit on the head THE HARD WAY. Reality bites. It’s the truth. And it just hurts.

Look at me… Who am I talking about such drama. I heard of what I was told that people really use people and when your purpose is fulfilled, they’ll just leave you and come back once they need you again. I HEARD BUT DIDN’T LISTEN. Now, thanks to this… I feel like I’m slapped with a dictionary sized book to the face which says: “THIS IS REALITY, LITTLE GIRL. WAKE. UP!!!”

And now the commission part…

People have always asked me why… I kept giving excuses. There. I admit. It is true though that I don’t know how to receive modes of online payment and it’s complicated. But I tell others, I don’t have the time and all that. Truth is, I don’t want to. I don’t like being tied down not because I like doing WHAT I WANT but I was just so traumatized by some commissioners. I felt like I was not given artistic freedom. I tried giving my thoughts, my suggestions, but the commissioner kept telling me “No. You do this and that.” But the suggestions LOOK SO AWFUL. I dislike having BAD ANATOMY. I hate it when characters are not in character. I hate it when I don’t get to have a say at least.

I AM NOT A MACHINE. You cannot just input commands and expect me to follow them! I know you’re exerting your rights as commissioner and I was paid to do so but you forgot that I also have ideas, thoughts, and I also want to make it a COLLABORATIVE EFFORT. 

I couldn’t be teary eyed or angry at this. I’m just really really really confused.

I’m sorry but why… Just WHY would you tell me that my potentials are WASTED? I don’t understand. Why?

Is drawing what I love and want to share with others wasting? Is not following what everyone asks of me wasting?

I love drawing whatever I want. I love it when others love the fact that I draw what I love. I love drawing because I get to express myself more and it’s the best way I can. I get inspired from so many amazing artists. I like to hear what others love about my works so much I try my best in applying them in any way. I am also very unsure how you define “listening or seeing” what others want from me… I don’t want to dictate it for you but to me it looks like I have to take requests.

I DRAW NEVER BECAUSE OF ATTENTION. BUT I DRAW BECAUSE I JUST LOVE IT. I love hearing how my works put a smile on others’ faces. I love hearing that they’re inspired or they laughed because of what I made. I LOVE drawing for my friends because it’s the best way for me to show that I love and care for them and I also understand how much they love certain things… But if those are things THAT WOULD WASTE MY POTENTIALS. Then I don’t know anymore.

I’m sorry.

No one has ever told me this before. But friends over at FB told me that maybe it really is just the way it was said. You can’t really tell what the other is saying through the internet because you can’t hear or see how they said it. And I agree with what they said about… “The more you’re told, the more you’ll be uninclined to do things.”

I’m sorry. I’ve been keeping this all in for years.

This will be the LAST TIME I will EVER react like this.

Thank you for listening and I’m sorry if I sounded so bad. I don’t mean to offend anyone. 

Thank you for those who stuck with me…

(til the end of the line. EHE. *SHOT* )

Now… My reaction in gif form.

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I had plenty enough social interaction these past couple of weeks to keep me well-balanced, but I hadn’t managed to find time with any of my favorites. It’s always an odd feeling when you find yourself surrounded by people, and yet you’re simultaneously incredibly lonely.

Friday night, I plopped myself on my bed at 7pm and just stayed there for two hours in the dark, not doing anything other than staring at the wall. When I realized what I [wasn’t] doing, I texted Jess and made plans for Saturday. I ended up working most of the day, but there was also some sunset sauntering and peanut butter swirl ice cream and just sitting with each other at the most adorable coffee shop.

Today I drove a bunch and hiked a bit. I made a new friend, and together we ganged up on The Prince of Norway, and it was perfection. I was fashionably late for an [adopted] family event I didn’t know was even happening, and since everyone else had already gone home, I got them all to myself. I came home to find a card addressed to Brennanator, and the words were kind and loving and formed the best possible compliment you can give someone you cherish.

It’s amazing how a few hugs and smiles  and scribbled xoxoxos from people that know and love you can fill you up so quickly.

anonymous asked:

How to un-love someone?

If you are asking me this question, you must be hurting so here is a hug from me. You can’t just un-love people. You have to let it be and allow time to do its job - not forcing, not pressuring, and just let it be. Give yourself the luxury of having time to be at peace with it all. Always remember to be kind to yourself.

xo