time to take a shower and think about fluffy things
did Grantaire see Enjolras' smile? did he see it? did he realise that he was making Enjolras smile? that he, R, was making Enjolras SMILE? did he died with that idea in mind and that happiness in heart?
but what if he didn't? what if he was convinced that Enjolras took his hand with pity, just because he couldn't reject him? what if he was convinced that he was spoiling Enjolras' death? did he feel that he hadn't the right to die with the sun, him, the shadow? what if he was regretting his actions, not because he was going to die but because he suddenly thought that Enjolras didn't want to get shot with him, the drunkard, the useless one?