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Yesterday my dad told me something that I think maybe more people need to hear.

You’re allowed to just do things for fun.

He told me that in this modern society, especially the United States, we seem to have this attitude that we shouldn’t do something unless we’re aiming to be the best at it. If we can’t sing like Beyonce or Frank Sinatra or something there’s no point to singing. If we can’t make the next big breakthrough there’s no point in looking into mechanics and engineering.

But, he tells me, it took him a long time to figure out that life doesn’t have to be a race. If you want to take up the piano when you’re a teenager or later you’re not going to master it. You’re not going to be able to play to huge concert halls, but that also shouldn’t stop you. You can study a language out of curiosity and then drop the ball if you want. You can just get okay at something or even be terrible at it. You can drop it for days or years and then pick it up again and it doesn’t have to be a shameful thing.

I’m really glad he told me that because today I opened my sketchpad for the first time in months and just started drawing. And it looks terrible. But I don’t care. I don’t have the talent or patience or spacial awareness to get anywhere near good at drawing, but it’s fun. It helps me focus my mind and nobody has to see it.

And because of what he told me, I’m thinking maybe someday soon I will take up the bass guitar. And I won’t worry about how well I do, or how fast I learn, or that I haven’t played an instrument since sixth grade, or that I don’t have that much time to practice. I’m just gonna enjoy the experience. Maybe I’ll try swing dancing again and take a class because I’m not the best dancer but damn if it isn’t fun.

Yeah, you don’t have to be good at things. It’s not a requirement. Maybe that seems obvious but it had never occurred to me before. You’re allowed to just enjoy what you’re doing. For me, that feels like a life changing revelation. I don’t have to be good at something to like it. I don’t have to put 100% effort into everything I do. It’s kind of amazing.

BTS Explain Concepts Behind ‘Love Yourself: Her’ Album: 'This Is the Beginning of Our Chapter Two’

Mere hours before the release of BTS'Love Yourself: Her, the album’s significance wasn’t lost on the group’s leader, Rap Monster.

“It’s really a huge, big step for us,” the 23-year-old rapper/songwriter/producer told Billboard during a phone call from Seoul. “Of course, every member is so excited about the album. We’ve been just practicing until now, day and night, to show these new songs and perfected performances. I left a message on our fan cafe, the other day, after we finished that 'this EP will mark the turning point of BTS’ and even though the wait felt really long with this album – I think it was the huge event, the BBMAs, were in May – so much has happened.”

The wait has been particularly anticipated for for the band’s famously passionate fan base, known as Army, who have been waiting for new tracks from Rap Monster, Jimin, Suga, J-Hope, Jin, V and Jungkook band after voting them Top Social Artist at the 2017 Billboard Music Awards over fellow pop juggernauts Justin Bieber, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez and Shawn Mendes.

Since then, the BTS guys have landed distribution deals with Amazon and U.S.-based The Orchard (“We believe the physical album, still, really counts and it’s really important to connect with our fans around the world,” Rap Monster said) and hung out with worldwide chart-toppers like Major Lazer, Halsey, Charli XCX(“Maybe it’s just my sixth sense, but I think maybe we will be collaborating with even more interesting artists,” he added); even snagging The Chainsmokers to produce a beat for Love Yourself: Her.

One listen to the tightly produced record – which looks likely to make a big splash on the Billboard 200 next week – and the passion is palpable from the intense lead single “DNA,” the societal commentary in “Go Go,” among multiple lyrics and moments that feel ripped from the members’ personal journals. There’s also loads of passion in Rap Monster’s voice talking about these new songs as he sees and envisions the larger picture and message for his band’s latest batch of forward-thinking EDM, hip-hop and pop tracks. Read on for Billboard’s deeper analysis of Love Yourself: Her with Rap Monster.

Let’s start right from the beginning with “Serendipity.” Why was this the right song to choose as the intro and kick off the era?

When I wrote the lyrics, melodies and the first themes of “Serendipity,” I tried to come up with some rare things you find in life, something very special, like the calico, three-striped cat; things that have extraordinary meanings in people’s lives. I wanted to share this moment.

I was reading the lyrics are gender neutral, which I think is really powerful. Was that a conscious decision?

The lyrics were based on rare and special things in life. So, I thought, those feelings transcend genders, cultures and barriers between people.

We always put out the “Intro” just before releasing our single, so the intro is taking the role of telling the concept of this album. But “Serendipity” was actually the right song to share the feelings of our single, “DNA.” The title is about how our DNA is connected in the universe, I think that was the right feel for this album.

Let’s talk about “DNA.” How does this single continue and progress the story of BTS?

When we’re talking about our title tracks, “DNA” is about the expression of a young, passionate love. The lyrics are like, “The two of us our connected fatefully from the start, our DNA was just the one thing.” At the same time, “DNA” is taking BTS to new ground. We tried to apply new grammar and perspectives – if you listen to the song, you’ll understand what I’m trying to say – it’s very different from our previous music, technically and musically. I believe it’s going to be the starting point of a second chapter of our career; the beginning of our Chapter Two.

“Best of Me” is really impressive. It sounds like The Chainsmokers, but it also sounds like BTS. You didn’t lose yourself which isn’t easy when collaborating with new artists. What was that process like?

I love that track! We met them at BBMAs, we were so lucky. Actually, they invited us to their concert just the other day – they had a huge concert in Korea and we sang “Closer” together. For “Best of Me,” they gave us several tracks and samples months ago, we and our producers picked one sample, like, “Okay, this is fit for our next album.” So we worked on it, we sent it to them, we asked them what they think of the track we developed and got their opinions. And we made it! I’m so excited for it. [Laughs]

Your albums always have deeper social and society commentaries. Let’s talk about some of the topics with this release. “Go Go” instantly comes to mind.

“Go Go” is a trendy song, but it’s about how our young generation are living their lives with low expectations and standards so people are upset with reality; they have little hope and there’s so much economic hardship. We wanted to say something about it and emphasize to the world that it’s not their choice, but brutal reality that forces people to live and spend as if there’s no future.

But in Korea, “YOLO” has become a big key word for young people because we don’t have money and it’s really hard to get a chance to earn a lot of money. I think society has a lot of problems for young people. Young people spend their money on claw crane machines at arcades and they spend like $30 on trying to win these dolls. And then it’s like, “Oh! I spent all my money…shit. But I don’t regret.” That’s the biggest luxury for Korea’s young people: collecting accessories, cosmetics, that’s what they think is a luxury. It’s “YOLO” because it’s like, “I’m gonna buy all this! I’m gonna buy all this food and I’m going to eat it! I’m going to do it!” I think it’s sad because it’s all we can. “Go Go” is just saying, “Okay, just do it, we won’t regret it. Just spend several bucks on the machine and eat the food!” But at the same time, the song is very easily to sing along to so I think many people will like that song, especially if they find the deeper meaning.

Of course, I have to ask about making a skit interlude out of your BBMAs acceptance speech.

You need to hear “Mic Drop” because the skit was my speech at BBMAs –  because that was a big moment for our history – and then we put “Mic Drop” next to that because it’s like a flex – like, “Okay, we’re done. We don’t need to give a shit about anything.” That was the right skit and follow-up song for this album.

The last song, “Outro: Her” really spoke to me. It almost reads like a diary.

Ha! [Laughs]

After talking with you, it feels like it recaps the whole album and is really introspective.

I think that was the fastest work I did for this album. I wrote the verse in 20 minutes; it just came, very truthfully, from the bottom of my heart. I thought it was the right outro for this album because it is really a range of emotions – I’m saying I met this person that I really love, this person is the love of my life right now, I’m saying that I was confused and I was looking for love and this world is complex. But I think it’s you so, “I call you 'her,’ 'cause you’re my tear.” “I think you’re the start and the end of me.” That’s what I’m saying: You’re my wonder, but you’re also my answers. You’re my “her,” but you’re still the “tear.”

The hook is saying that love is not all about the happiness, it’s just not just about the joy, it’s not just about delight. If you want to love a person, you should know that there are tears and there can even be hatred inside of it. I think a love really includes all of that. That’s what I was trying to say. It’s complex.

And if fans are so lucky to own the physical album, they’ll hear two hidden tracks at the very. Why keep them secretive?

I think they’re hidden because you have to be a real fan of BTS to understand them. Otherwise, you won’t. Otherwise, you’d like be, “Why are they feeling so confused about things? They’re good?!? They’re No. 1 somewhere, they have so much stuff, why are they worried?” People always talk about that. But if you are true fan of BTS and you buy the album and you listen to the hidden track – if you are an Army and we spent time together from 2013, 2014 – they could understand. It’s kind of more special, more closer, to our true hearts.

© Jeff Benjamin @ Billboard

BTS Explain Concepts Behind 'Love Yourself: Her' Album: 'This Is the Beginning of Our Chapter Two'

From the meaning of “Go Go” to why the band needed to flex their win at BBMAs, BTS’ Rap Monster explains it all.

Mere hours before the release of BTS’ Love Yourself: Her, the album’s significance wasn’t lost on the group’s leader, Rap Monster.“It’s really a huge, big step for us,” the 23-year-old rapper/songwriter/producer told Billboard during a phone call from Seoul. “Of course, every member is so excited about the album. We’ve been just practicing until now, day and night, to show these new songs and perfected performances. I left a message on our fan cafe, the other day, after we finished that ‘this EP will mark the turning point of BTS’ and even though the wait felt really long with this album – I think it was the huge event, the BBMAs, were in May – so much has happened."The wait has been particularly anticipated for for the band’s famously passionate fan base, known as Army, who have been waiting for new tracks from Rap Monster, Jimin, Suga, J-Hope, Jin, V and Jungkook band after voting them Top Social Artist at the 2017 Billboard Music Awards over fellow pop juggernauts Justin Bieber, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez and Shawn Mendes.


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Since then, the BTS guys have landed distribution deals with Amazon and U.S.-based The Orchard ("We believe the physical album, still, really counts and it’s really important to connect with our fans around the world,” Rap Monster said) and hung out with worldwide chart-toppers like Major Lazer, Halsey, Charli XCX(“Maybe it’s just my sixth sense, but I think maybe we will be collaborating with even more interesting artists,” he added); even snagging The Chainsmokers to produce a beat for Love Yourself: Her.One listen to the tightly produced record – which looks likely to make a big splash on the Billboard 200 next week – and the passion is palpable from the intense lead single “DNA,” the societal commentary in “Go Go,” among multiple lyrics and moments that feel ripped from the members’ personal journals. There’s also loads of passion in Rap Monster’s voice talking about these new songs as he sees and envisions the larger picture and message for his band’s latest batch of forward-thinking EDM, hip-hop and pop tracks. Read on for Billboard’s deeper analysis of Love Yourself: Her with Rap Monster.

Q: Let’s start right from the beginning with “Serendipity.” Why was this the right song to choose as the intro and kick off the era?

When I wrote the lyrics, melodies and the first themes of “Serendipity,” I tried to come up with some rare things you find in life, something very special, like the calico, three-striped cat; things that have extraordinary meanings in people’s lives. I wanted to share this moment.

Q: I was reading the lyrics are gender neutral, which I think is really powerful. Was that a conscious decision?

The lyrics were based on rare and special things in life. So, I thought, those feelings transcend genders, cultures and barriers between people.We always put out the “Intro” just before releasing our single, so the intro is taking the role of telling the concept of this album. But “Serendipity” was actually the right song to share the feelings of our single, “DNA.” The title is about how our DNA is connected in the universe, I think that was the right feel for this album.

Q: Let’s talk about “DNA.” How does this single continue and progress the story of BTS?

When we’re talking about our title tracks, “DNA” is about the expression of a young, passionate love. The lyrics are like, “The two of us our connected fatefully from the start, our DNA was just the one thing.” At the same time, “DNA” is taking BTS to new ground. We tried to apply new grammar and perspectives – if you listen to the song, you’ll understand what I’m trying to say – it’s very different from our previous music, technically and musically. I believe it’s going to be the starting point of a second chapter of our career; the beginning of our Chapter Two.

Q: “Best of Me” is really impressive. It sounds like The Chainsmokers, but it also sounds like BTS. You didn’t lose yourself which isn’t easy when collaborating with new artists. What was that process like?

I love that track! We met them at BBMAs, we were so lucky. Actually, they invited us to their concert just the other day – they had a huge concert in Korea and we sang “Closer” together. For “Best of Me,” they gave us several tracks and samples months ago, we and our producers picked one sample, like, “Okay, this is fit for our next album.” So we worked on it, we sent it to them, we asked them what they think of the track we developed and got their opinions. And we made it! I’m so excited for it. [Laughs]

Q: Your albums always have deeper social and society commentaries. Let’s talk about some of the topics with this release. “Go Go” instantly comes to mind.

“Go Go” is a trendy song, but it’s about how our young generation are living their lives with low expectations and standards so people are upset with reality; they have little hope and there’s so much economic hardship. We wanted to say something about it and emphasize to the world that it’s not their choice, but brutal reality that forces people to live and spend as if there’s no future. But in Korea, “YOLO” has become a big key word for young people because we don’t have money and it’s really hard to get a chance to earn a lot of money. I think society has a lot of problems for young people. Young people spend their money on claw crane machines at arcades and they spend like $30 on trying to win these dolls. And then it’s like, “Oh! I spent all my money…shit. But I don’t regret.” That’s the biggest luxury for Korea’s young people: collecting accessories, cosmetics, that’s what they think is a luxury. It’s “YOLO” because it’s like, “I’m gonna buy allthis! I’m gonna buy all this food and I’m going to eat it! I’m going to do it!” I think it’s sad because it’s all we can. “Go Go” is just saying, “Okay, just do it, we won’t regret it. Just spend several bucks on the machine and eat the food!” But at the same time, the song is very easily to sing along to so I think many people will like that song, especially if they find the deeper meaning.

Q: Of course, I have to ask about making a skit interlude out of your BBMAs acceptance speech.

You need to hear “Mic Drop” because the skit was my speech at BBMAs –  because that was a big moment for our history – and then we put “Mic Drop” next to that because it’s like a flex – like, “Okay, we’re done. We don’t need to give a shit about anything.” That was the right skit and follow-up song for this album.

The last song, “Outro: Her” really spoke to me. It almost reads like a diary.

Ha! [Laughs]

Q: After talking with you, it feels like it recaps the whole album and is really introspective.

I think that was the fastest work I did for this album. I wrote the verse in 20 minutes; it just came, very truthfully, from the bottom of my heart. I thought it was the right outro for this album because it is really a range of emotions – I’m saying I met this person that I really love, this person is the love of my life right now, I’m saying that I was confused and I was looking for love and this world is complex. But I think it’s you so, “I call you 'her,’ 'cause you’re my tear.” “I think you’re the start and the end of me.” That’s what I’m saying: You’re my wonder, but you’re also my answers. You’re my “her,” but you’re still the “tear.”

The hook is saying that love is not all about the happiness, it’s just not just about the joy, it’s not just about delight. If you want to love a person, you should know that there are tears and there can even be hatred inside of it. I think a love really includes all of that. That’s what I was trying to say. It’s complex.

Q: And if fans are so lucky to own the physical album, they’ll hear two hidden tracks at the very. Why keep them secretive?

I think they’re hidden because you have to be a real fan of BTS to understand them. Otherwise, you won’t. Otherwise, you’d like be, “Why are they feeling so confused about things? They’re good?!? They’re No. 1 somewhere, they have so much stuff, why are they worried?” People always talk about that. But if you are true fan of BTS and you buy the album and you listen to the hidden track – if you are an Army and we spent time together from 2013, 2014 – they could understand. It’s kind of more special, more closer, to our true hearts.

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BTS Explain Concepts Behind 'Love Yourself: Her' Album: 'This Is the Beginning of Our Chapter Two'

From the meaning of “Go Go” to why the band needed to flex their win at BBMAs, BTS’ Rap Monster explains it all.

Mere hours before the release of BTS’ Love Yourself: Her, the album’s significance wasn’t lost on the group’s leader, Rap Monster.

“It’s really a huge, big step for us,” the 23-year-old rapper/songwriter/producer told Billboard during a phone call from Seoul. “Of course, every member is so excited about the album. We’ve been just practicing until now, day and night, to show these new songs and perfected performances. I left a message on our fan cafe, the other day, after we finished that ‘this EP will mark the turning point of BTS’ and even though the wait felt really long with this album – I think it was the huge event, the BBMAs, were in May – so much has happened.”

The wait has been particularly anticipated for the band’s famously passionate fan base, known as Army, who have been waiting for new tracks from Rap Monster, Jimin, Suga, J-Hope, Jin, V and Jungkook band after voting them Top Social Artist at the 2017 Billboard Music Awards over fellow pop juggernauts Justin Bieber, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez and Shawn Mendes.

Since then, the BTS guys have landed distribution deals with Amazon and U.S.-based The Orchard (“We believe the physical album, still, really counts and it’s really important to connect with our fans around the world,” Rap Monster said) and hung out with worldwide chart-toppers like Major Lazer, Halsey, Charli XCX(“Maybe it’s just my sixth sense, but I think maybe we will be collaborating with even more interesting artists,” he added); even snagging The Chainsmokers to produce a beat for Love Yourself: Her.

One listen to the tightly produced record – which looks likely to make a big splash on the Billboard 200 next week – and the passion is palpable from the intense lead single “DNA,” the societal commentary in “Go Go,” among multiple lyrics and moments that feel ripped from the members’ personal journals. There’s also loads of passion in Rap Monster’s voice talking about these new songs as he sees and envisions the larger picture and message for his band’s latest batch of forward-thinking EDM, hip-hop and pop tracks. Read on for Billboard’s deeper analysis of Love Yourself: Her with Rap Monster.

Let’s start right from the beginning with “Serendipity.” Why was this the right song to choose as the intro and kick off the era?

When I wrote the lyrics, melodies and the first themes of “Serendipity,” I tried to come up with some rare things you find in life, something very special, like the calico, three-striped cat; things that have extraordinary meanings in people’s lives. I wanted to share this moment.

I was reading the lyrics are gender neutral, which I think is really powerful. Was that a conscious decision?

The lyrics were based on rare and special things in life. So, I thought, those feelings transcend genders, cultures, and barriers between people.

We always put out the “Intro” just before releasing our single, so the intro is taking the role of telling the concept of this album. But “Serendipity” was actually the right song to share the feelings of our single, “DNA.” The title is about how our DNA is connected in the universe, I think that was the right feel for this album.

Let’s talk about “DNA.” How does this single continue and progress the story of BTS?

When we’re talking about our title tracks, “DNA” is about the expression of a young, passionate love. The lyrics are like, “The two of us our connected fatefully from the start, our DNA was just the one thing.” At the same time, “DNA” is taking BTS to new ground. We tried to apply new grammar and perspectives – if you listen to the song, you’ll understand what I’m trying to say – it’s very different from our previous music, technically and musically. I believe it’s going to be the starting point of a second chapter of our career; the beginning of our Chapter Two.

“Best of Me” is really impressive. It sounds like The Chainsmokers, but it also sounds like BTS. You didn’t lose yourself which isn’t easy when collaborating with new artists. What was that process like?

I love that track! We met them at BBMAs, we were so lucky. Actually, they invited us to their concert just the other day – they had a huge concert in Korea and we sang “Closer” together. For “Best of Me,” they gave us several tracks and samples months ago, we and our producers picked one sample, like, “Okay, this is fit for our next album.” So we worked on it, we sent it to them, we asked them what they think of the track we developed and got their opinions. And we made it! I’m so excited for it. [Laughs]

Your albums always have deeper social and society commentaries. Let’s talk about some of the topics with this release. “Go Go” instantly comes to mind.

“Go Go” is a trendy song, but it’s about how our young generation are living their lives with low expectations and standards so people are upset with reality; they have little hope and there’s so much economic hardship. We wanted to say something about it and emphasize to the world that it’s not their choice, but brutal reality that forces people to live and spend as if there’s no future.

But in Korea, “YOLO” has become a big key word for young people because we don’t have money and it’s really hard to get a chance to earn a lot of money. I think society has a lot of problems for young people. Young people spend their money on claw crane machines at arcades and they spend like $30 on trying to win these dolls. And then it’s like, “Oh! I spent all my money…shit. But I don’t regret.” That’s the biggest luxury for Korea’s young people: collecting accessories, cosmetics, that’s what they think is a luxury. It’s “YOLO” because it’s like, “I’m gonna buy all this! I’m gonna buy all this food and I’m going to eat it! I’m going to do it!” I think it’s sad because it’s all we can. “Go Go” is just saying, “Okay, just do it, we won’t regret it. Just spend several bucks on the machine and eat the food!” But at the same time, the song is very easily to sing along to so I think many people will like that song, especially if they find the deeper meaning.

Of course, I have to ask about making a skit interlude out of your BBMAs acceptance speech.

You need to hear “Mic Drop” because the skit was my speech at BBMAs –  because that was a big moment for our history – and then we put “Mic Drop” next to that because it’s like a flex – like, “Okay, we’re done. We don’t need to give a shit about anything.” That was the right skit and follow-up song for this album.

The last song, “Outro: Her” really spoke to me. It almost reads like a diary.

Ha! [Laughs]

After talking with you, it feels like it recaps the whole album and is really introspective.

I think that was the fastest work I did for this album. I wrote the verse in 20 minutes; it just came, very truthfully, from the bottom of my heart. I thought it was the right outro for this album because it is really a range of emotions – I’m saying I met this person that I really love, this person is the love of my life right now, I’m saying that I was confused and I was looking for love and this world is complex. But I think it’s you so, “I call you 'her,’ 'cause you’re my tear.” “I think you’re the start and the end of me.” That’s what I’m saying: You’re my wonder, but you’re also my answers. You’re my “her,” but you’re still the “tear.”

The hook is saying that love is not all about the happiness, it’s just not just about the joy, it’s not just about delight. If you want to love a person, you should know that there are tears and there can even be hatred inside of it. I think a love really includes all of that. That’s what I was trying to say. It’s complex.

And if fans are so lucky to own the physical album, they’ll hear two hidden tracks at the very. Why keep them secretive?

I think they’re hidden because you have to be a real fan of BTS to understand them. Otherwise, you won’t. Otherwise, you’d like be, “Why are they feeling so confused about things? They’re good?!? They’re No. 1 somewhere, they have so much stuff, why are they worried?” People always talk about that. But if you are true fan of BTS and you buy the album and you listen to the hidden track – if you are an Army and we spent time together from 2013, 2014 – they could understand. It’s kind of more special, more closer, to our true hearts.

9/20/2017 by Jeff Benjamin - Billboard

STAN SHINEE - A MASTERPOST

HELLO! i’ve met some people who have wanted to stan shinee, and asked for information on them, so i decided to make this huge post for anyone who wants to know more about shinee and/or potentially stan!!! all are welcome!!!

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Beautiful in NY Highlights

So even tho there was a huge delay causing the concert to start late and the boys had to cut some songs to fit in the time frame, the concert was amazing and I would go again anytime. These were just some of the best moments (might be out of order tho lol)

  • When they came out started singing Empire State of mind 
  • In honestly they started talking to the stand because it wouldn’t move and just left it they just sat on it. Even called it baby.
  • Who is the most romantic member? Kihyun sang flower cafe and even tho Minghyuk and Changkyun kept telling him to stop he just continued and they ended up making him shut up
  • Minhyuk picked Jooheon as the most romantic and he started singing untitled 2014 he also made the cutest expression beforehand cause the cheering
  • Changkyun trying to sing. So cute he sang like one line and you tried baby
  • Shownu and Wonho come onto stage and the 4 go off. They continue the conversation but they are just complimenting each other
  • They started chanting New York and then we did, but Wonho was like NO NO and started making us chant wonho instead and we did and he was so happy the memebers were like no
  • Minhyuk saying jooheon should freestyle rap
  • YOO KIHYUN CAN BEATBOX HE STARTED BEATBOXING FOR JOOHOEN WOW. But Jooheon was like I’m not good at this. BUT MINHYUK IS
  • Chanting for minhyuk to rap and him saying be quiet and starts singing be quiet
  • Minhyuk imitating Jooheon’s rap in Mirror as he and Kihyun are changing
  • Changkyun saying monbebes are the most beautiful 
  • Changkyun saying I love you when saying what was best about New York (lots of butter changkyun)
  • Wonho wiping a towel on his stomach and giving it to the crowd at the encore (FANSERVICE KING WOW)
  • They throw chocolates like softballs. I swear someone probably got hit on the head
  • Wonho and all his hearts like lots of hearts. Just in the background you can see him making hearts
  • Crowd chanting for Hyungwon. And everytime Hyungwon’s part came on we cheered like a lot
  • Wonho following kihyun like a duck in fighter (maybe to fight him?). And I think Minhyuk pushed him too lol
  • Wonho giving Minhyuk a choker made of confetti
  • Jooheon fake crying on Shownu who was also fake crying and Changkyun crying alone when they said they only have a few more songs
  • “This is not beautiful in New York it’s beautiful because of New York” - Changkyun
  • Yoo Kihyun has the cutest smile

Today’s an important personal day. I know you really like seeing updates, so here’s a important one for me.

Today, I’ve been diagnosed with “Dysthymia”. What’s this ? It’s a chronic depression close to bipolar disorder but the mood swims between “normal” and “not okay” (sometimes not okay at all).

All my life, whatever I did, my mood wanted me to sink and be trapped in bed crying. That’s mega frustrating when I achieve something and I can’t really be happy. Because of dysthymia. After I saw my dream band, I depressed for days. Like my life had no longer a purpose. I couldn’t fucking believe I saw them live. I wasn’t happy for it but was sad it was over. I saw them 5 more times, hoping I could feel the bliss. But I didn’t, even if that remains incredibly positive memories with my friends. My mood was in the “normal” at this time, and I’ve always done the best I could to keep my mood in the normal without even knowing I was fighting a mental illness by doing so. I played music, launched my online shop, drew a lot, had amazing time with my friends, went to tons of huge concerts, won prizes with my Forsaken Star project, worked with a band I love, talked about my work at the senate in Paris, even apparently saved lives with my drawings, and so much more. My psy was amazed to see all the things I was doing to fight. That seemed like normal things to me.
All that is helping me to feel normal before my mood makes me sink. Then I go normal again, and sink again, and again.

It’s incredibly comforting to have a name to put on the madness in my head. That proves it’s real. That I am not crazy.

You are also helping a lot with all your beautiful messages, comments and likes.

And to finish, if you’re not okay, do not stay alone. Talk about it. I waited years to start reaching for help and even if the “mental ghost” is my life partner, knowing he has a name and that I’m not alone against it is maybe the best thing I could expect about my future.

There won’t be a stream on the night of Friday June 2nd because I’M GOING TO SEE RISE AGAINST LIVE IN CONCERT AAAAAAAAAAAAA

Originally posted by geekylaugifs

Soulmates AU (12)

Links Last Checked: September 6th, 2017

part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part six, part seven, part eight, part nine, part ten, part eleven

a truth so loud you can’t ignore (ao3) - snsk

Summary:  day three: soulmates

A World in Colour (Soulmate AU - Phan) (ao3) - thegingercowphan

Summary:  The world is monochrome- black, white and gray, boring and awfully frustrating. Until you meet your soulmate, that is.

Blue and Black - Local_Queer

Summary: Dan Howell has finally found his soulmate after six years of searching for them. Over the course of roughly sixty years, Dan and his soul mate, Phil, live happily.Idk. I suck at summaries.

Colour Blind (ao3) - Kylo_Rens_9_Pack

Summary:  You are colour blind, a world of greys. Until you meet your soulmate. Colour is suddenly introduced to your world, and hopefully theirs.

Genuinely Happy (ao3) - phantastictronner

Summary:  In a world where everyone is obsessed with soulmates and love, Dan finds himself unable to find his. He grows tired of looking and gives up. Until he turns 25, and he’s the only one his age left that hasn’t met their soulmate.
Phil, on the other hand, is the opposite. He doesn’t really care about the whole ‘soulmate’ thing and he would rather just spend his time watching anime than walking around questioning people about their love lives.
When they run into each other and both of their worlds change, Phil seems to finally see the true beauty behind this system of soulmates.

Grey (ao3) - MEOW_I_am_a_cat

Summary:  This black and white world with its black and white days is all Dan Howell has known. He resents it.
Soulmates AU

I’ll Find You Again In Another Time (ao3) - Malteaser24

Summary:  'I never believed in fate, or destiny. If something was supposed to happen, you had to work for it. If you met someone you liked, if you fell in love with them; that’s just chance, coincidence. If only I knew how wrong I was…’

It’s written in the stars of our skin (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary:  they may write your future but you still get to live it. [soulmate au where the letters of your soulmate’s name appear gradually, burned into the skin on random parts of your body]

In Color (ao3) - brerediddy

Summary:  The world is in black and white until you meet your soulmate, and Phil is surprised when he finds that his in hospital with an ED.

in this reverie (ao3) - fssociety

Summary:  dan doesn’t know why he keeps running into phil but he wants to blame it on the universe.

Life Would Be Funny (If It Weren’t So Damn Tragic) (ao3) - lucipherer

Summary: Demons and Angels being soulmates is unheard of; blasphemous even.In which Dan just wants to love and be loved, and Phil supposes it was never going to work out for them in the first place anyway; You can’t stay warm forever.

Orange (ao3) - MEOW_I_am_a_cat

Summaray:  Sequel to Grey

Love isn’t always perfect. Sometimes it is, but sometimes it’s not. Sometimes it’s messy, sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes it’s… orange.

“Let’s go color the world together.”

Red String of Fate (ao3) - phanxfob

Summary: “There’s an old story in Chinese folklore about a magical connection between two people that are destined to be soul mates, called ‘the red string of fate,” In which Dan doesn’t really believe that he has a soulmate and people get a tatto of a red string on their hand when they meet their soul mate.(Written for Phan Week 2015)

Scribbles (ao3) - PansexualPhancakes

Summary: “Yeah.” Dan nods, but inside he’s choking because he’s just found his soulmate, but thanks to his crappy handwriting, his soulmate doesn’t know.(Aka a soulmate au fic where when you turn 18, the first words your soulmate will say to you in their handwriting are tattooed on your body)

the phantom menace (ao3) - clxude 

Summary:  “He couldn’t remember who the party was for, or how the night breeze felt as it caressed his cheek; he could only remember how his skin heated up and the room brightened the first time he saw his smile.”

The Window To His Soul (ao3) - ctrlphan

Summary: Phil’s hope has always rested in a soulmate he’s never met, but when he moves to a new town and his eyes change from black to blue, he embarks on a mission to find his soulmate with the help of of his new friend, Dan, that has him questioning everything he’s ever wanted.

Three Strikes, You’re Out (ao3) - DarkEyedDreamer

Summary:  Dan doesn’t believe in love. Never did. Love was a gamble and he didn’t want to be left with nothing but a scar. When he met his college roommate, Phil Lester, things change. Phil Lester, the boy with two marks against him. The one who falls fast and hard. The one who Dan is sure this new tally mark is for… (AU where whenever you fall in love you get a tally mark on your wrist)

We’re Far Too Young To Die (ao3) - Ashytn Wolfe

Summary:  Dan really needs to wake up and get out of bed. After all people don’t wait forever.

You Caused It (ao3) - jeonjvngkook

Summary:  Based off this prompt by punkpixel on tumblr that I couldn’t stop thinking about: 'soulmate au where you see in black and white until you touch your sm, and Dan starts seeing in color the morning after a huge concert and he’s freaking out because he touched his fave band members hand.’

You Were Always Mine, Even If I Didn’t Realize It (ao3) - SnorlaxToTheMax

Summary:  “Au where you have a stripe of your soulmates haircolor on your skin and if they dye their hair your stripe changes color”- A prompt from tumblr which inspired me

Shoutout to all the people with a bunch of talents, but isn’t the Beethoven of any of them. To the people who love to to what they do but don’t make it their lives.

To the kids in band that don’t play huge concerts, or march, or practice every day.

To the kids who can knit scarves but not sweaters, or only know one pattern.

To the kids who love to draw or paint but can’t draw realistic people, or cars, or can’t shade or draw backgrounds

To the kids who can sew but can’t make a prom dress, or complicated stuffed animals, or embroider masterpieces

To the kids who don’t dedicate their lives to writing with deadlines and 50k stories

To the kids who sing but don’t take lessons or preform in bands or concert halls

To everyone who loves their talents, but don’t master them

just a daily reminder that wherever bangtan goes please, respect their privacy. some ppl are always talking about how much they want the boys to rest and all that, and yet, ppl insist in crowding all the places they visit when they go to a country. let them rest, eat in peace, enjoy the country they are visiting, roam around the city, take pictures, treat them just like you would treat someone having a vacation, they want to not only go to a country to do a concert but to get to know more about its culture, just like anyone else would do! they are not animals nor objects to be treated like this, let them rest! if it’s a day before a huge concert, mental and physical preparation are both needed. they don’t owe fans anything when the fans are the ones stalking them, they are in another country to enjoy and have a great time so they can make nice memories when they do a concert. it’s not about “the fans made who they are today” oh yes we did, but that doesn’t give us the right to stalk them when they have at least a little bit of free time. don’t disturb their privacy because guess what, they are human beings just like us, they don’t like being treated like this, we are not close to them and we are not their friends, we gotta know our boundaries. and most important, don’t encourage those armys behaviour.

ABOUT WINTER DREAM ERA

I know both new and old AROHA are frustrated and sad that ASTRO are not promoting “Again” (unofficially called should’ve held on to you by fans) on any music shows. You’re disappointment is valid. But the longer we are sad about it the more disappointed we will feel. We need to look to the positive side ! (focusing on the sad only makes you sadder !!! life lessons from ani)

1) The reason ASTRO are not promoting on music shows. 

ASTRO didn’t perform on music shows because they were busy performing overseas concerts. That’s huge. It’s amazing that they are only about a year old and already holding several showcases overseas! 

Some people make the point that they could’ve just waited to release the album later and promote after the overseas concerts. They probably had lots of discussions over what to do about it. I think wanting to release the album before their anniversary along with wanting to perform the song at the 1st ASTRO AROHA Festival were the reasons they released it when they did. 

2) ASTRO not promoting on music shows still has positive sides

I understand that lots of you see “again” and the song itself in combination with the choreography had potential to gather new fans and possibly win on music shows, and I agree. It’s disappointing that they will not be promoting on music shows, but there’s still positive sides to this. 

It isn’t like ASTRO was a declining group and this was their last comeback to try and gather new fans, and they needed to win on music shows. ASTRO has time. They have yet to come out with a full album. There’s so much more ASTRO is going to bring us, this isn’t going to be the only song with potential to win. They are only going to come back with more than before and we’ll all be surprised again. 

Performing on music shows aren’t just a 15 minute show up perform and leave kind of deal, idols spend a long time waiting around when they film for music shows. ASTRO are able to rest right now instead of spending every day going to perform on music shows. 

3) School !! 

Rocky and Sanha are still in high school! The new term just started for them, so they can actually go to school right now instead of doing the promotions. (They recently posted a few selfies on them in their uniforms). Rocky even had enough free time to go bowling with his friends (Saeron(actress), Suhyun(Akmu), and Seungkwan(Seventeen))

4) Future concepts.

Think of this era as a “sneak preview” of what to expect from ASTRO in the future. ASTRO have clearly shown their growth from hide and seek to breathless, from breathless to confession, and from confession to again. “Again” is not ASTRO’s peak. It isn’t like this song is ASTRO’s only chance to become known. Their growth has proven that they keep working harder to improve for the next comeback, and that we can expect them to grow even more between now and the next comeback. 

People who don’t know about Again will have “Confession” ASTRO as the last thing they came out with. People who didn’t see Confession as something worth getting into ASTRO for yet don’t know about Again. You could take this in a negative way and think they are missing out (which they are) and that ASTRO are not able to promote and get as many as fans using this song. 

However, this just means that when ASTRO does come out with their next album, people will see an evolution from confession to next comeback, rather than how we see an evolution from again to next comeback. They’ll be double shook. 

5) The “Lost” Era

When future AROHA get into ASTRO, because there is no music video for this song, it’ll just add to the mysteries of ASTRO. The fan song on Winter Dream, the dance practice without an MV, the Confession MV that doesn’t have a dance practice. ASTRO is so capable and they are showing it to us. 

Winter Dream will by no means be a forgotten era: the seasons concept ensures that. The seasons concept is really hard to miss: Spring Up, Summer Vibes, Autumn Story - just because they did not promote Again on music shows doesn’t mean people won’t search for the Winter album. 

6) Allowing them to build on their skills

I’ve talked about this before, but ASTRO showed from their Rising Star stages that they are fully capable of “darker” concepts. They even said themselves they were shocked that they debuted with such a fresh concept. The entire seasons concept has allowed them to build their experience with performing in the music industry, connecting with audiences, appearing on variety shows, lyric writing, and choreography making. ASTRO have shown intent and desire to write their own music, their own choreographies, etc. The seasons concept is over - and it is only uphill from here. 

Yes it is disappointing that ASTRO are not performing “Again” on music shows, but let’s focus on the happy parts!

Osomatsu-San Extra Stories Translation ‘Karamatsu of Dreams” Part One

Another translation from the Extra Stories (Bangaihen) novel. This time about Karamatsu and his dreams of putting on a live concert. Quite a lot of painfullness, as you would expect. Doing it in two parts this time.

Cultural note: The Nippon Budokan is a big indoor arena in Tokyo that was originally built to host martial arts contests. It’s also a well known concert venue, and it’s considered very prestigious to play here. An artist or group playing here is a sign that their career is on the up.

Karamatsu of Dreams - Part One

Beneath the blue sky –

Karamatsu was sitting on the roof of the house clutching his guitar.

“Heh… the Goddess of Music is fickle.”

He wasn’t playing the guitar, and he certainly wasn’t singing. From the outside, he didn’t look like he was doing anything other than basking in the sun.

His whole body was bathed in sunlight. He felt as if he were shining like the sun itself.

“Oh, Sunshine! What are you trying to do by heating me up even more? After you’ve lit my heart on fire, you’ll only end up burning yourself, aha?”

He faced the sun and put on his sunglasses.

“I’m dazzling, aren’t I? You can use me, Sunshine!” 

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