how-am-i-supposed-to-live-without-you

It’s Wednesday

I’m so excited!!! But at the same time …

only 3 more episodes left (2 after tonight gasp!)?!?!?

Tell me how am supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin ‘for is gone …

*cries* 

aah, and while we’re at it - can you please check out this friggin’ beautiful art, because it deserves way more than the 90 notes (10 reblogs!!!) it got … thank you!!!

Scarlet Heart: Ryeo Sentence Starters

“I will not leave you.”

“You are my eternal companion.”

“It’s not a crime to want to live.”

“What am I supposed to do with my life?”

“Your life will not change simply because you want it to.”

“I received all her love. Why did I just realize now?”

“Whenever I come to you, all of my problems seem to become lighter.”

“How can I live without seeing you?”

“I wish I had not loved you.”

“Then tell me why you killed them.”

“I’m her/his awesome person now.”

“I’m sorry for leaving you alone.”

“They all get burned with the passing of time and leaving without a trace.”

“If we had met in another world and another time, I was thinking of how great that would have been.”

“You became someone I could never forget in my life.”

“I will become the only thing you see.”

“I came to realize that the opposite of love is not hating- but leaving.”

“I will forget everything.”

“I’ll be waiting for you.”

“If we are not from the same world, I will find you.”

“He/she is mine.”

“Did you miss me?”

“Did you ever miss me? Even once.”

“I longed for you every moment.”

“I will become a god above kings.”

“I’m not alone, so I’ll be fine.”

“The higher up you are, the more you should care about justice.”

“I can’t see the sky from my room.”

“Now that I’m here, there are so many stars.”

“You are lying.”

“We promised not to lie to each other.”

“Just lie to me instead.”

“Tell me it’s a misunderstanding.”

“It was always me that was cast aside.”

“I think you understand me.”

“He/She should come beg to me.”

“You should have said you understood me.”

“I am afraid every time we meet.”

“My heart belongs to someone else.”

“You have been my only friend.”

“Whether there is value in doing something or not, that is something you can only answer for yourself.”

“Do you want to borrow it?”

“I thought I had lost you.”

“I thought I wouldn’t be able to see you again.”

“I was scared.”

“I did not throw him/her away.”

“Do you still love me?”

“I love you.”

“You are my only king/queen.”

“I will be King/Queen.”

“Should I call you my person?”

“You are my person.”

“We were never close.”

“I may have failed once- but I never lose twice.”

“Marry me.”

“Are you here to see me?”

“Is it food?”

“Are these written characters or is it a drawing?”

“Does it change anything to get drunk?”

“You do not know how I feel.”

“I will only be good to you.”

“It would have been nice to live like this from the beginning.”

“I cannot live that way.”

“I have always been stupid.”

“I was happiest while I was with you.”

“I do not want that kind of consolation.”

“You would never become mine.”

“If I said I was sorry, that would be truly mean, right?”

“It’s a gift only you can give me…”

“If you do this, I will really die.”

“I cannot let him/her go alone.”

“I do not want to.”

“Let him/her go.”

“I am not going to apologize.”

“Did you ever even like me?”

“I like you even now.”

“Did you draw this yourself?”

“I’m sure we will get another chance.”

“Can I do whatever I want?”

“I was scared to come to you.”

“You came because of my music, right?”

“Let me see you dance.”

“I don’t dance for strange men.”

“If you are a prince, I’m one of your attendants.”

“You don’t have any honesty in you at all.”

“I really am _____.”

“If you are willing to wait, I can wait.”

“How many times is that now?”

“When it snows again, let’s walk here.”

“What happened? I shouldn’t ask, right?”

“Can I hold you?”

“When you went through a hard time, I’m sorry I wasn’t there with you.”

“I only want good things to happen for you, and to make you happy now.”

“Trust in me.”

“Who are you to be able to do that?”

“I still have more to confess to you.”

“You ruined everything.”

“You’re so foolish.”

“I forgot what I wanted to tell you.”

“How could you hurt me like this?”

“Can I kiss you?”

“You belong to me.”

“I told you I would get you permission.”

“Let me help you.”

“Will kissing make me pregnant?”

“I have come back from war.”

“All I could think about was that I wanted to drink your tea.”

“I can’t even help you, so what am I to say?”

“I will take care of everything, so wait.”

“What are you wishing so hard for?”

“I feel very betrayed.”

“Do not misdirect your anger.”

“What are all of these for, anyway?”

anonymous asked:

so many people must ask you this question + its probably all anyone asks you tubers, but how do you make money? do you do anything outside of youtube? your films are gorgeous and I'm just wondering from a personal perspective if it's possible to make living making things that are purely beautiful and artistic without having to sponsor brands, etc. xx

It really does fluctuate how much money people make. I literally make no money off adsense so I do branded work from time to time to keep it all moving. I suppose like anything you find a way to keep practicing and make the money to support yourself. I am so fortunate because YouTube allows me to do both. Ultimately money can come in so many different ways if you’re on YouTube, it doesn’t just have to be adsense. I think regardless YouTube serves as a great platform to practice your skills, gain feedback and then push that into the ‘bigger’ idea you want to create.

I lost my passion for blogging in 2016. It’s partly because I work for the platform, and that makes it so much harder to be vulnerable and confused and honest. The best of blogging comes from being vulnerable and confused. Even when you bust out some post about an amazing night, or an amazing man, or something beautiful and not at all mysterious, that too is coming from a place of being lost, right? You write it because for a moment you found yourself. Mark it down, file it away for the future. That was a pin point in that conspiracy theory string chart you’ve been making of your life since the day you started living consciously. 

Am I going to try harder to blog in 2017? Maybe. I don’t know. I need to write more. I need to write like I used to, without a goddamned care about how much sense it made, who was reading it, how many typos it had. God fucking dammit, your blog is supposed to have so many typos and lost commas and if your post has a fucking well-rounded thesis, then we’re not from the same time and…that’s okay, but I don’t want to be part of it. I need to write more like I used to, and that’s what this post is. It is not something I need to get off my chest, it’s not something I’ve been ruminating about for hours, it is kind of forced, but maybe that’s what I need to do now.

I’m snoozily walking towards 2017 alone tonight. I made chili for the first time in my life and I’m going to eat it when I’m done with this. I was invited to parties and bars, and I didn’t want to go to a single one. NYE in NYC is something I’ve explicitly not enjoyed since I first experienced it. It’s miserable getting home no matter where you are, the drinks are expensive, the apartments oppressive. 

I’ve been hanging out with a guy. I hung out with him blindly, casually, for awhile this summer and then we stopped and now we’re doing it again, but this time…more. Our second date of the second season, he invited me to a party being held tonight. I said yes, and then a few days later I said no. 

I have one very consistent issue with men and it’s this: everything is fine until they start expressing direct and vocal interest in me (not that this happens with an incredible frequency or anything). And then I go deaf and blind as to how I feel about them. All I feel is their interest in me, and I wonder if I like them at all or only like that they like me. I start to keep mental tabs on their bar tabs; is he drinking too much? is he drunk all the time? Does he smoke too much pot for a 30-something? Does he still love his ex? Does he need a relationship? Does he have drive? Does he lie? What is wrong with him? Why would he want me?

This one I chose to be honest with instead of shutting down. I told him maybe he wasn’t going too fast, but it was too fast for me. Please don’t joke about kids and the future and travels, because I’ve been deaf since the moment you told me you thought I was someone special. I’m terrified of being manipulated again, and so often that sentiment from men has only been a form of manipulation. 

He texted me later on to tell me that I’m stronger than I realized, that I’m not damaged, that I’m rebuilding a stronger me and he’s glad he’s here to watch it happen. 

I raged privately, but responded with a smiley face and that I did not think I was damaged, not more than anyone else, but I appreciate his patience with how fast or slow I want to take things.

I raged privately, because how dare anyone assume I’m damaged…How dare a kind man who has done nothing wrong to me take the stories I gave him, stories he evidently really listened to, and try and connect with me later on in the night after we parted…?

I don’t feel like an asshole, but I now think I was wrong for immediately feeling offended. I still can’t hear myself when I think about him, but do you know what will end that? Only when he fucks up. Only when he starts to ignore me. Only when, after another 6 weeks of me barely paying attention to him, he stops thinking that maybe I’m someone special. 

So, fuck it. This might all end in a couple of short weeks, with tears and anger, or maybe just another quiet floating apart. It might be nothing special at all. I don’t know. I’m still deaf about it. But he’s able to hear, he’s able to see, and so I think I’m just going to blindly trust he knows what’s up. I’m not not damaged. 

He has a Christmas gift waiting for me at his apartment. I’m stopping by to get it tomorrow. 

Speaking about military service


others: How am I supposed to live two years without Choi Seunghyun ?
me: *grin*

A video posted by Ruby 권 지 용 (@jiyongie.trash) on Jan 8, 2017 at 12:19am PST

follow him , you won’t regret it.



He’s one of the best T.O.P cosplayer. In the video all those fans thought for a moment that he was the real Seunghyun and followed him lol

|| on instagram: fai32 

so imagine years in the future, neil and andrew aren’t married, and one of them gets hurt on the court. badly. (lets go with neil) they’re rushed to the hospital but they’re technically not family so andrew gets stopped outside the door

now imagine andrew barely to speak, because these two don’t even say “I love you” to each other so how is he supposed to explain to a complete stranger that “that is my other half in there” and “you cannot stop me from being with him” and “not married doesn’t mean not family” and “how am I supposed to live without him?”

imagine andrew silently regretting every time he didn’t say those words - he said them with a car, with a key, with every shot blocked - but he never said them out loud, so he just hopes it was enough

imagine neil finally opening his eyes to see andrew, who snuck around the nurses to sit as the most indifferent looking guardian angel ever seen

“200%” he says, but andrew has never sounded so relieved 

concept: Hamilton is professionally filmed and released as a movie, allowing fans all over the country and world to see their favorite musical no matter where they live or their financial situation. Lin-Manuel Miranda make a shitton of money off of the sales from the movie. Bootlegs are no longer wanted because people can see Hamilton without coming to Broadway. Everyone is happy. The world is a better place.  

Favorite texts from aphtextsfromnordics

“did it hurt when you broke through the earth’s crust ascending from hell”

- Norway

“yer like an evil little Icelandic troll. That lives deep in the misty mountains. All alone. That comes out only to scare others and wreak havoc.”

- Sweden

“I have a fanfiction account its mr-fluffy bunny”

- Sweden

“how do you confess your love to someone without getting a restraining order”

- Sweden

“I LOVE YOU DAMMIT”

- Sweden

“Yer the icelandic troll”

- Sweden

“your alien fairy godmother”

- Norway

“my alien fairy godmother told me”

- Sweden

“HELP HELEPELE BELP NORWAY”

- Finland

“Sweden, you have five minutes to go home and comfort a traumatized finn that is rambling about a divorced, xenophobic ghost in finnish”

- Norway

“geez what am I supposed to do about your unsatisfied tiny dick”

- Norway

“It’s THORSday, I’m LOKI to be alive :DDDDDD”

- Finland

“ARE YOU A BRONY TOO”

- Norway

“it was love at first chair”

- Sweden

“do not question my ikeasexuality”

- Sweden

“Get in loser, we’re going to Ikea”

- Sweden

“we were flirting. i compared you to vacuum cleaners. i thought this was a sign of our relationship blossoming”

- Sweden

“so you wann a get hoRNy w me sweden? SWEERDEN ANSWER”

- drunk!Finland

“wow that is some kickass teletubby fighting skills”

- Norway

“open up to me like you opened your legs to the person who got you pregnant”

- Norway

“IM THE ONE GIVING BIRTH DIPSHIT”

- Norway

“surprise bitch. Bet u thought you’d seen the last of me”

- Sealand

“hello norway. such nor. much way.”

- Sealand

“such eyebrows. much ugly. very mean”

- Sealand

“SVE I FOUND THIS PENIS CHART ACROSS EUROPE LETS CHECK IT OUT”

Dickmark Denmark

“if I throw a stick will u leave”

- Iceland

“ICE IDE LAND IXELNAX ICE LAND HALP IXE HELP ME”

- Finland

“I DON’T NEED A FUCKING MAGIC BOOK I AM NORWAY BITCH I RULE”

- Norway

“so far I’m carrying a purse and pony dolls around the store getting weird looks from ppl. pLEASE tell me you need something reasonable”

- Denmark

“denmark is bragging about his boobs. Finland is freaking out and I can’t find iceland.”

- Sweden

“LOL DOUBLE DS BABY”

- Dickmark Denmark

“GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE. WAKE THE FUCK UP”

- Dickmark Denmark

“ps ur ugly”

- Finland

“get your party hat woot woot”

- Sweden

“LOOK AT THIS ROOM TREASURES UNTOLD. HOW MUCH SHIT CAN ONE BATHROOM HOLD”

- Dickmark Denmark

“what is love baby don’t hurt me”

- Sweden

“When you see an angry Norwegian with magical powers running towards your windshield, you’ll panic a little”

- Iceland

“ICE ICE BABY NOOO”

- Hong Kong

“weaboos unite”

- Sweden

“fee fi fo fum. Here comes the swedish scum”

- Dickmark Denmark

“paint me like one of your french toast girls”

- Denmark

“THIS PENIS IS ON FIYAHHHHHH”

- Dickmark Denmark

“i told you no dating until you’re 50”

- Sweden

“what does it mean for one’s ovaries to explode”

- Sweden

“you people need to calm the fuck down”

- Japan

“dont put your peeing problems on me”

- Norway

“DID YOU KNOW ABOUT YOUR BOOBLESS IMPOSTER GIRLFRIEND”

- Norway

“omg poor grape!! D:”

- Finland

“I was going to think of a gay pun butt fuck it”

- Dickmark Denmark

“NORWAY TOLD ME YOU SHOVED YOUR HEAD IN THE TURKEYS ASS”

- Iceland

“kajsvsjahkj macerna”

- Sweden

“yah evil turkey bastard”

- Sweden

“YOU FUCKING DEMENTED MUSHROOM YOU SCARED ME”

- Norway

“BABAYY UNICORRN”

- Dickmark Denmark

“germbooger”

- Sweden

“Way to hit your low point”

- Iceland

“I HAVE STRINGY SHIT IN MY BEAUTIFUL MANE JUST TELL ME”

- Denmark

“I’m using your wand to unclog the toilet again”

- Dickmark Denmark

“Your skills are too suave for us suppress them”

- Norway

“what the hell I thought you were gay. you don’t belong in this group”

- Sweden

“fee fo fum bitch”

- Sweden

“prove your gay lord powers in battle then”

- Iceland

“If you’re asking about what shampoo I use for my eyebrows again, I’m not answering.”

- England

“LIKE IF YOU SAID OH IT’S A BLENDER. I’D TAP THAT. I’D TAP THAT TO THE HIGHEST SETTING I’D STILL BE COOL”

- Finland

“LEAVE ME AND CHAIR CHAN ALONE”

- Sweden

“YAH JUST FUCKING POUR HOT WATER ON THE FUCKING POWDER AND DRINK IT WITH YOUR FUGLY MOUTH”

- Denmark

“NUH UH YOU CAN’T DENY THE FULL HOMO WITH SWISSAUS”

- Iceland

“QUICK WHO DO YOU WANT UP YOUR ASS PRUSSIA OR SWITZERLAND ITS AN EMERGENCY”

- Iceland

“get in the ikea drawer if you want to live”

- Sweden

“I DRINK TWO FISH SHITS PER DAY SO I WONT GET FUNNY IN THE HEAD”

- Iceland

“weener what”

- Norway

“tally ho”

- Norway

“Dude if we let you join, Russia will come after us. He’d be like standing in our backyard at 2am with his pipe saying ‘where’s mah bitch’ ya followin me”

- Dickmark Denmark

“NO NO NO I WAS BORN TO BE A SPARKLY DANE”

- Dickmark Denmark

“SHINE BRIGHT LIKE A DENMARK”

- Dickmark Denmark

“NORGE TINKER BELL IS ATTACKING ME”

- Dickmark Denmark

“NO FINLAND DONT DRINK FROM THEIR GOBLET”

- Norway

“THESE THREE FATASS TROLLS YELLING IN NORWEGIAN”

- Iceland

“they do but I told them to fe fi fo fuck off”

- Sweden

“I DONT NEED YOUR TACKY ANIME REFERENCES RIGHT NOW”

- Finland

“your distressed sassiness is showing again”

- Iceland

“looks like santa had a little too much to drink ehehehehe”

- Norway

“and y'all call me the grinch of christmas”

- Iceland

“AHEM. I don’t sing. My vocal chords just make sounds that make it seem as if I were singing.”

- Sweden

“You have a pretty voice, Sve :3”

- Finland

“one point for papa woot woot”

- Sweden

“IM SO GAY NORGE HELP ME”

- Norgay Dickmark Denbutt Denmark

“Spain’s got the booty pass it on”

- Iceland

“hot damn”

- Sweden

“OY YOU NORDICS FOCUS ON YOUR OWN CHAPPED ASSES SPAIN’S AINT AN INVITATION”

- Romano

“why is Denmark screaming and running into the bathroom with an extra pair of pants”

- Norway

“IT DOESN’T MATTER I FOUND HIM THE LITTLE SHIT IS ON THE ROOF”

- Norway

“A massager? oH NAW”

- Dickmark Denmark

“IM A GOOD NOODLE”

- Dickmark Denmark

“can you feel the ikea tonight”

- Sweden