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Today’s 1990s Music Video of the Day is:
How Am I Supposed to Live Without You by Michael Bolton, 1990

Blink Of An Eye

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Angst

Word Count: 1062

Author’s Note: I’d recommend listening to Blink of an Eye by Tori Kelly while reading, since this one shot is inspired by that song. Let me know what you think about it~ <3

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Originally posted by jjkook


“Y-Y/N, he is.. I.. I think the time has come, Y/N..“

Hearing those words, you stopped breathing and your grip around your phone tightened. You never believed that you would hear those words coming out of your best friend’s mouth. Not now. Not so soon..

Now was not the right time, he knew that. He promised you. He promised you that he would fight a little bit more. He knew that he wasn’t allowed to go so soon. 

Not if you weren’t there..


With every step you took, you felt like you were being dragged away from your destination by someone. It felt like someone was holding onto your body, preventing you from moving forward while you were trying so hard to reach your destination, reach him.

No matter how much you quickened your pace, the corridor seemed like it was never going to end, your blurry eyes making it even harder for you to see your way to him.

‘Everything is okay, he is going to be okay‘ were the words you were mumbling to yourself as you turned the last corner, which felt like a big obstacle separating you from the love of your life.

The moment you lifted your head up, you were met with six pair of eyes, each of them reflecting sadness and sorrow, some of them even looking hollow, their bodies frozen, helplessly sitting on the ground.

When the realization finally decided to knock on your door, your whole body started shaking, your weak legs giving up on you, making you collapse on the ground as you shook your head from side to side. “N-No.. No, no no, please don’t! No, it can’t be! No!“

Only when someone wrapped their fingers around your hands did you realize that you were harshly tucking on your hair, your sobs echoing through the whole corridor of the hospital. “I-I’m sorry, Y/N.. I am so, so sorry..“

When you heard his voice, you immediately leaned back and looked at your best friend’s bloodshot eyes. “He can’t, Taehyung.. Not now.. He.. He promised me! He said he would fight! He promised me that he wouldn’t leave me alone..“

Leaning his forehead on yours, he stoke your cheeks as he whispered. “He did.. I know he did but not everyone can keep their promise, Y/N-ah..“

Sobbing even harder, you tried to stand up, locking your eyes on the door of his hospital room. With wobbly legs, you took hesitant steps towards the door, your shaky hand reaching out for the door handle. “ Are you.. Are you sure you want to go in?“

Slowly nodding at the question coming form Yoongi, you took a deep breath before you opened the door, stepping in with closed eyes since you were scared to face the heartbreaking reality.

Closing the door, you hesitantly but slowly turned around, your breath hitching in your throat when you opened your teary eyes.

There he was, the love of your life, lying lifelessly in his hospital bed.

Was this the way how a heartbreak was supposed to feel? Feeling it shatter into million pieces, each piece feeling like a stab into the chest, was this the way? Because if so, you weren’t sure if you would be able to handle it, let alone survive the hurting feeling.

You tried to cover your sobs with your hands as you took tiny steps towards his lifeless body, sitting on his bed as you reached out for his now cold hands with your shaky ones.

Without saying anything, you rested your head on top of his chest, biting your lip when you became fully aware that his once rhythmically beating heart wasn’t beating anymore.

“Jungkook-ah.. I’m here, I came..“

Nuzzling your head further into his chest, you whispered as you let your tears roll down your face and on his chest. “I’m sorry that it took me so long to come.. I never thought you would leave so… so soon..“

Chuckling lightly, you asked.“Isn’t it strange? I’m currently resting my head on your lifeless body but for some reason, I still can’t believe that you’re gone.. It feels like you’ll wake up in a few minutes, your sleepy voice filling the room while you’ll wrap your arms around my body..“

Closing your eyes, you continued talking. “What about your promise, Jungkook? You promised me that you’d stay by my side no matter what, that you would never leave me alone.. How could you leave me like this, hm? I don’t even know what your last word was..Everything happened so fast.. How can you leave right when I wasn’t beside you?“

Intertwining your fingers with his, you placed a long kiss on his knuckles. “The world is cruel, Junkook-ah.. You left but the clocks upon the wall keep ticking on and the world keeps spinning on.. You should have taken me with you.. How am I supposed to live without you? What about your Hyungs? Your family? Your fans?“

Lifting your head, you started stoking his soft hair. “You still have so many songs left to sing, so many things to learn and experience, Jungkook.. Its too early for you to leave this world..“

“How could you? How could you leave me in a blink of an eye and expect me to learn saying goodbye to you while heaven already holds you in its arms?..“

You leaned your forehead against his, your lips only a few inches away from his and thought about your conversation you had with him a few months ago. 

“Beautiful?“

“Hm?“

“Can you promise me one thing?“

“Depends..“

“Y/N, please, only one thing, hm?“

“Okay..“

“If something should ever happen to me, don’t cry and don’t be sad, okay? Just move on..“

“Yah! Why are you saying things like that?! Stop it, Jungkook!“

“No, first, promise me..“

“No!“

“Y/N, please..“

“Okay, then promise me that you’ll never leave me, that we’ll live together forever.“

“I promise..“

“I promise..“

Placing a long, last kiss on his lips, you whispered in between your sobs.

“I’m sorry, Jungkook, but I can’t keep my promise. I’m really sorry.. I love you..“

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JAMES CORDEN (AS MICHAEL BOLTON) + DANNY MCBRIDE (AS KENNY G) : HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU (LIVE ON THE LATE LATE SHOW WITH JAMES CORDEN)

‘  all around the world girls will be girls  ’
‘  all i need is someone to love  &  tonight it’s you  ’
‘  all i wanna do is make love to you  ’
‘  and baby, talk dirty to me  ’
‘  can you, my darling, can you picture this?  ’
‘  dig if you will a picture of you  &  me engaged in a kiss  ’
‘  don’t come around here no more  ’
‘  don’t dream it’s over  ’
‘  don’t forget it’s me who put you where you are now  &  i could put you back there too  ’
‘  don’t give me no lines  &  keep your hands to yourself  ’
‘  don’t go away mad, just go away  ’
‘  don’t wish it away, don’t look at it like it’s forever  ’
‘  don’t you forget about me  ’
‘  don’t you want me, baby?  ’
‘  even then i knew i’d find a much better place, either with or without you  ’
‘  every now  &  then i fall apart  ’
‘  every now  &  then i get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears  ’
‘  everybody dreams of angels  ’
‘  girls just wanna have fun  ’
‘  heaven isn’t too far away, closer to it every day  ’
‘  hey, little sister, what have you done?  ’
‘  he’s been knocking, he won’t leave me alone ’
‘  hold me now ’
‘  how am i supposed to live without you?  ’
‘  how could our love be so blind?  ’
‘  how do i get you alone?  ’
‘  how i love the way you move  &  the sparkle in your eyes ’
‘  i can’t believe you’re gone  ’
‘  i could never steal you from another  ’
‘  i didn’t want to see you go  ’
‘  i don’t belong to you  &  you don’t belong to me  ’
‘  i don’t know why i did the things i did  ’
‘  i don’t know why i said the things i said  ’
‘  i don’t wanna lose your love tonight  ’
‘  i don’t worry about nothing, no, cause worry’s a waste of my time  ’
‘  i guess it would be nice if i could touch your body  ’
‘  i guess that’s why they call it the blues ’
‘  i haven’t been there for the longest time  ’
‘  i just wanna use your love tonight  ’
‘  i know this much is true  ’
‘  i met her in a hotel lobby masturbating with a magazine  ’
‘  i need you more than ever  ’
‘  i never really cared until i met you  ’
‘  i never wanted to be your weekend lover  ’
‘  i only want to be some kind of friend  ’
‘  i pretend you still hold me  ’
‘  i really didn’t mean to hurt you  ’
‘  i remember you  ’
‘  i see your true colors shining through, i see your true colors  &  that’s why i love you  ’
‘  i still love you  ’
‘  i think we’re alone now  ’
‘  i wanna new drug  ’
‘  i want your sex  ’
‘  i won’t forget you, baby  ’
‘  if i could turn back time, if i could find a way, i’d take back those words that hurt you  &  you’d stay  ’
‘  if this ain’t love, you better let me know  ’
‘  if this is it, please let me know  ’
‘  if we blame it on anything, let’s blame it on the rain  ’
‘  if you fall i will catch you, i’ll be waiting time after time  ’
‘  if you want my love, you’ve got it  ’
‘  if you’re lost you can look  &  you will find me time after time  ’
‘  it’s a nice day to start again  ’
‘  it’s such a shame our friendship had to end  ’
‘  it’s the same ol’ ball  &  chain  ’
‘  it’s the same ol’ situation  ’
‘  i’ll be gone in a day or two  ’
‘  i’ll take my chances, i forgot how nice romance is  ’
‘  i’m going crazy, i’m losing sleep  ’
‘  i’m gonna keep on loving you  ’
‘  just one more night  &  i’m coming off this long  &  winding road  ’
‘  maybe i’ll be sorry when you’re gone  ’
‘  maybe i’m just like my father, too bold  ’
‘  maybe i’m just too demanding  ’
‘  maybe i’ve been hoping too hard  ’
‘  maybe you’re just like my mother, she’s never satisfied  ’
‘  my future’s so bright i gotta wear shades  ’
‘  no one will ever know how much i loved you so  ’
‘  once i ran to you, now i run from you  ’
‘  perhaps i should leave her, go far away ’
‘  she will play around  &  leave you  ’
‘  she’s got the looks that kill ’
‘  she’s the kind of girl you dream of  ’
‘  sometimes i want to give up,  want to give in,  i want to quit the fight  ’
‘  stay with me  ’
‘  tell her about it, tell her everything you feel  ’
‘  tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice  ’
‘  tell me what it takes to let you go  ’
‘  tell me why can’t this be love?  ’
‘  tell me your troubles  &  doubts  ’
‘  the power of love is a curious thing  ’
‘  then i see you  &  everything’s alright  ’
‘  they could never tear us apart  ’
‘  things ain’t always what they seem  ’
‘  think of good tender things that we were working on  ’
‘  till now, i always got by on my own  ’
‘  too young to fall in love, guess we knew it all along  ’
‘  we are the youth gone wild  ’
‘  whatever you want, i’ll give it to you  ’
‘  what’s love got to do with it?  ’
‘  when i said that i love you i meant that i’ll love you forever  ’
‘  when i see you smile, i can face the world  ’
‘  where do we go now?  ’
‘  wherever you go, i’ll be with you  ’
‘  who knows how much further we’ll go on  ’
‘  why do we scream at each other?  ’
‘  words are like weapons, they wound sometimes  ’
‘  you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone  ’
‘  you feel so right  &  i could be wrong  ’
‘  you know i like my girls a little bit older  ’
‘  you know i’m a dreamer  ’
‘  you know there’s nowhere that i’d rather be than with you here today  ’
‘  you say i’m a dreamer, we’re two of a kind  ’
‘  you were the first to be the last  ’
‘  your love made me a prisoner, my heart’s been doing time  ’
‘  you’re all i need  ’

FicRequest: The plan

FicRequest: The Plan
Pairing: Father!Tony x Daughter!Reader, Bucky x Reader
Word count: 814
For @chrixa
Warnings: Nothing much, this might turn into something more though.


Originally posted by thealextheshipper

“I will not!” Y/N yelled across the full common room.

“You absolutely will or there will be consequences!” Tony replied, losing the battle he was fighting to keep his cool.

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1004 (Angel)
B.A.P
1004 (Angel)

[SONG] Lyric ENG-SPA | B.A.P - ANGEL 1004

Album: 1st Album First Sensibility / Artist: B.A.P
Release: 140203

[Lyric ENG]

You’re like an angel, who has left me and gone somewhere
I need you

I don’t know how I’m living
After you left me, I’m going crazy
Every day, every night
I can’t even sleep
I’m all alone, drinking away, cry

So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day)
I can still hear your voice
Come back to me (I don’t have anyone) Come back to my side (but you)
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

Look at me now
Come to me now
(Come back to me, how am I supposed to live?)
Look at me now
Come to me now
(How am I supposed to live without you every day?)

I didn’t know you would really leave me
You were like an angel
Why am I such a good-for-nothing?

Oh no, you have turned away from me
I’m a fool who has lost you
I’m like a beggar
I can’t do anything without you

So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day)
My wasted self is so pitiful
Hug me (I don’t have anyone) Embrace me (but you)
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

It’s like I’m so out of it
I’m so blank every day
After you left, I’ve become ruined
Come back to me, I only had you

Hurry and save me
Stop, please don’t go far from me (don’t leave)
Never let you go

I want to find you
Where, where, where am I going?
To the place where you are
A better day, a better day, a better day
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

Look at me now
Come to me now
(Come back to me, how am I supposed to live?)
Look at me now
Come to me now
(How am I supposed to live without you every day?)

[Lyric SPA]

Eres como un ángel que me ha abandonado en algún lugar. 
Te necesito. 

No sé cómo estoy viviendo, 
después de que te fuiste. Me estoy volviendo loco. 
Todos los días, todas las noches. 
No puedo dormir. 
Estoy solo con mi alcohol …. * Llora * 

Te echo de menos (pienso en ti) y te necesito (Todos los días). 
Todavía oigo tu voz. 
Vuelve a mí (Sólo tú a mí) que junto a mí (Te tengo). 
Eres como un ángel

La razón por la que sigo viviendo es por tí. 
Yo no creo que pueda verte nunca más, me siento morir. 
La persona que me puede amar esa eres tú. 
Brillas sobre mí en esta oscuridad. 

Mírame ahora 
Has venido a mí ahora 
(Regresa de nuevo a mí, ¿cómo puedo vivir?) 
Mírame ahora 
Has venido a mí ahora 
(¿cómo puedo vivir sin ti todos los días?) 

No sabía que tú realmente me dejarías, 
tú eras como un ángel. 
¿por qué estoy tan mal? 

Oh no ahora me estás haciendo caso omiso 
Soy un tonto que usted perdió. 
Me veo como un mendigo. 
Yo no puedo hacer nada sin ti .

Siento que estoy perdiendo la razón,
después de que me dejaste, estoy arruinado. 
- Vuelve, tan solo te tuviera -

Date prisa y salvame
Detente, por favor, quédate a mi lado, 
no vayas muy lejos,
nunca te dejare ir. 

Quiero encontrarte 
hacia donde donde donde donde debo ir 
en donde está ese lugar… 
Un mejor día ….
Eres como un ángel. 

| Eng: kpoplyrics Spa: lisjiyong


Deals With the Devil (Lin x Reader) Part 1

Pairings: Lin x Reader

Warnings: Swearing… Angst, sorry.

Word Count: 1,529 Words

AN: So this is the beginning of that Supernatural-based fic I was talking about. The idea made me cry, so I hope you enjoy my weird supernatural/hamilcast crossover fic.

Tags: @the-and-peggy @hamiltrashtothemax @plamspringsdancingontables @piercethemarti @fandomsinabookshelf @beautifulfound @hamil-tonn-of-trash @sasstran @hamlltvn


He raced through the halls of the hospital, frantically searching for the room number the lady at the front desk had given him when he had barged through the doors. Almost running into a nurse, and dodging a gurney, he found himself in front of your hospital room.

Taking a deep breath to collect himself, his heartbeat thundering in his ears, he pulled open the door to a flurry of activity. Almost wishing that he had stayed out in the hallway, he found himself pushed up against the wall, watching in horror as a team of doctors and nurses attempted to restart your heart.

He couldn’t do this, couldn’t lose you. The thought scared him, and his knees buckled, his back sliding against the wall until he came to rest, sitting on the floor.  

When he had gotten the call during rehearsal, he almost hadn’t answered it, too angry at the fact that someone was calling him when he had explicitly told everyone he knew not to call him during rehearsal. God if he hadn’t answered, he’d still be in rehearsal. He wouldn’t know that you were- that you were-. He choked on a sob as the doctor called the time of your death. “2:15 pm, Monday, February 22, 2016.”

“I’m so sorry for your loss,” one of the nurses came over to where he was a huddled mess against the wall and gently led him to the chair beside the bed. “You take however long you need honey, we understand,” she said sympathetically, leaving him alone in the room.

The overwhelming silence caused him to cry harder at the realization that he’d never hear your voice again. He’d never be able to sing a duet with you while attempting to clean the living room. He’d never be able to sing you awake in the mornings or ever because you’d never wake up again. You were gone, and he didn’t know if he’d be able to live without you there.

He tentatively reached for your hand, afraid it would be cold and lifeless. He didn’t think he could handle it if it were. Shocked out of his thoughts by his phone vibrating, he reached into his pocket to find that his phone had been going off for what must have been hours from the amount of missed calls, texts, and voicemails.

It was only after he saw the number of people trying to get in contact with him that he realized how worried his friends must be after he had run out of rehearsal without explanation or goodbye. They were your friends too, and they had no idea what had happened to you.

He couldn’t speak to them, couldn’t admit to them that the love of his life had died before he had been able to say goodbye. That all he could do was watch as the doctors attempted to resurrect you but failed, couldn’t tell them that the hand he used to hold every day on the way into the city was growing cold and stiff in his.

“Sir?” A nurse poked her head in then quickly left at the anguished glance that Lin sent her way.

“I can’t do this. How am I supposed to live without you?” A heartbroken sob left his mouth, and he collapsed on the hospital bed. “We had our whole life planned out.”

“Lin,” Your voice seemed to whisper drifting through the window the nurse had opened before she left and appeared to hover in a cloud over his head. He couldn’t take it anymore, your body, the hospital room, the nosy nurses who just wouldn’t leave him alone. Grabbing his jacket off of the chair, wiping the tear stains off his cheeks, he left the room.

It seemed like hours later, but it must have just been minutes that he found himself in front of a bar attempting to drink away his sorrows, but only succeeding in getting more drunk than he’d ever been in his entire life. It was only right, he supposed after the love of his life died right in front of his eyes.

If anyone should have died, it should’ve been him. He’d accomplished everything he’d ever wanted to do. Teach. Be on Broadway. Win a Tony or 3. You had your whole life ahead of you, so many things you still could have done.

He reached for another drink, but before his fingers made contact with the cold glass a hand moved it out of the way. Looking behind him, Lin found a man around the same height that he was, dressed in a suit and holding his glass away from him.

“I’m sorry darling, but I need you as sober as possible for what I’m trying to do.” The man spoke with a thick British accent that even Lin in an entirely sober state would have had trouble understanding. It certainly didn’t help that he had been crying so hard earlier that it felt like his head had been stuffed with cotton.

“What do you want? I just want to be left alone,” he mumbled reaching for the glass that was being held away from him.

“The names Crowley, and I have a proposition that I know you would not in good conscience, refuse.” The older man advised, taking a sip from the glass he had stolen from Lin. “Your drink isn’t very good, by the way.”

The look that Lin gave him could have frozen molten lava, and yet it did nothing to the man standing in front of him.

“I was very upset to hear about the death of your fiancee,” The man- Crowley, he’d said his name was said as if the information was boring to him. Like the information was a useful tidbit he had gleaned somewhere that he thought might come in handy.

Lin almost did a double-take. “Who the hell are you and how the fuck do you know what happened?”

“All in good time,” Crowley answered his, hand on Lin’s back guiding him out of the bar and deeper into the heart of New York City.

“Where are we going?” Lin asked attempting to move away from the arm on his back.

“Somewhere we can have a more… private conversation.” Crowley led him through a door into what looked to be a warehouse. “I have a proposition for you that has to do with the death of your darling y/n if you’d give me the pleasure of listening to me.”

“Who do you think you are? Why do you care? I have nothing to lose anymore, and the only thing I wish I could gain is impossible.”

“What if I could tell you that what you could gain whatever you wanted and the only cost would be the small small price of your soul.”

“My soul, you’ve got to be kidding me, but you said anything I wanted does that include-”

“You better believe it, if what you truly want Y/N, I can make her alive and well like she wasn’t hit by a taxi cab crossing 5th avenue.”

Lin, understandably, looked skeptical, but also if this was true, he’d be the happiest man in the world. He would be because you would be there. God, he would have died for you, still, would die for you. “Why are you saying this to me? There are people that die every day who have people that would die for them. Why me? Why her?”

“Your soul is unique Mr. Miranda, and it’s been awhile since I’ve had the honor of making a deal with someone so talented, I believe the last one was the man everyone now reveres as Shakespeare.”

“Is that all? My soul? Nothing else?”

“Nothing else. Your soul’s all I need, and you get a year with them. A year to get your affairs in order.”

“A year? Them?”

“Until I come to claim what’s mine, but let’s not ruin the surprise darling. You didn’t know? Your darling Y/N was pregnant, but of course, to compensate for the fact that I would be technically bringing back two people, I had to adjust the time. Do we have a deal?”

“I think we do.” If you were pregnant and this worked, he wouldn’t have lost his whole reason for living. Reasons, he reminded himself.

Suddenly Lin’s mouth was on the portly British man’s, and he pulled away sputtering. “What the hell was that?” He hissed,  wiping his mouth with the sleeve of his favorite gray sweater.

“My apologies, but the deal must be sealed with a kiss,” he smirked, “I believe what you wanted has happened. A team of doctors and nurses are by her bedside attempting to come up with a reason for her sudden revival.”

Suddenly the man disappeared, and Lin was alone in the warehouse, the sun coming from one of the large grime-covered windows illuminating where he had been standing.


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And I’m Here

Summary: No matter what, you know he’ll always be there.

Pairing: Wonho x reader 

Word count: 1,321

A/N: Not sure if this one is good, wasn’t a request just my own thing. Listen to this (And I’m Here - Kim Kyunghee, Goblin OST)


It was quiet in your apartment, save for the pitter-patter of rain on the windows. You lay curled up on the edge of your bed, knees tucked loosely up against your chest. It was only 8:30pm, and you had wanted an early night, but now you couldn’t sleep. Every so often the rain would lull you into a daze, but the sudden beeping of car horns outside would wake you back up again.

Rolling onto your back, you picked up your phone and held it out in front of you. Your alarm for the next day had already been set, your goodnight message to your boyfriend Hoseok already sent, leaving nothing for you to do but scroll through your apps, looking through Facebook and Instagram, giving a like here and there. Looking at your own photos, you smiled at the all the ones of you and Hoseok. You had been together for so long, but every time you saw that smile of his you would find yourself unable to breathe for just a moment, and your heart would beat twice as fast. It was a feeling you could never shake, but then it wasn’t like you wanted to either.

Setting the phone down on your chest, you sighed gently. How lucky you were to have him. Someone who was always there when you needed him, no matter what the situation. He always made you feel special, like you were the only person that mattered in the moments you shared together. It was something nobody had ever made you feel before, and for that you were always going to be grateful to him. Suddenly, you were drawn from your thoughts by a knock at your door. You weren’t sure who it might be. Though your mind jumped immediately to Hoseok, you were sure he was busy tonight. Getting up quickly, you put on your slippers and headed for the door. You reached for the handle, and upon opening it, you were shocked to see Hoseok, who was a little damp from the drizzling rain.

“Hey Y/N…” He looked at you with wide, innocent eyes. He wasn’t smiling; instead he remained straight-faced as he stared at you.

“Hoseok? What are you doing here?” Whilst you weren’t unhappy that he was there, you were unsure about why that was. You pulled him inside anyway, waiting for an answer.

“I was on my way to see my friends but… something came up so I decided to see you. I hope I didn’t wake you.” Now he smiled. It was slight, but warm and comforting. Forgetting about your questions, you smiled back at him, and shook your head.

“No, I couldn’t sleep. I guess I was just busy thinking about you.” You looked down at the floor, feeling your face heating up. It surprised you how shy you still could be after all this time. You heard him laugh softly, before he pulled you over to sit on the couch.

“Listen Y/N… There’s something I need to say. You probably already know it but… I have to say it myself.” You looked at him curiously as he took a deep breath. “I love you, so much more than you know. You are the best thing that ever happened to me, and I don’t know what I ever would have done without you. You made me so happy over the years, and just need you to know how much I love you.” You felt butterflies in your stomach, and tears in your eyes. Moving closer, you placed your hand on the side of his face. He felt so cold, and you assumed it was from the rain. Smiling, you nodded.

“I’ve always known. And I always will.” He smiled back at you, and you noticed that he looked like he was going to cry too. “Hoseok… What’s going on?” As he had spoken, you initially thought that he might propose, but looking at him in that moment, you realised that was not the case. It worried you. If it wasn’t that, then why would he suddenly be professing his love in such a serious way?

“Y/N…” He brought his hand to yours as you held it against his face, eyes closing as he took in your warmth. His eyes opened again, and he looked you in the eyes. “I’m sorry… I’m so sorry…” You felt a cold chill. Why was he apologising after saying such sweet things?

Suddenly, you heard sirens outside your window. You let go of Hoseok and moved to see what was happening. They were ambulances and police cars, all speeding past your window like bullets straight out of a barrel. At that moment, your phone buzzed. It was a text from your friend. Y/N, there was an accident right outside my building! One of the cars looks like Hoseok’s… Your blood ran cold, and the phone slipped from your grasp. You couldn’t even finish the full message; those few words were enough to break you. You turned back, barely able to see Hoseok through the tears.

“Please…” Your voice was shaky as you tried to keep composed. “Tell me it’s not true… Hoseok please…” Unable to keep it up, your voice cracked, and you broke out into sobs of desperation, falling at Hoseok’s side. “How… I don’t understand…” He smiled sadly, brushing the hair out of your face.

“I don’t know what happened… drunk driver I suppose.” He sighed. “But I guess I got a chance to say goodbye to you. At least we have that.” You could hear in his voice that he was trying not to cry. He was trying even harder than you were.

“You can’t… please… please don’t leave me like this…” The tears fell and you could see him clearly again. His expression was so pained, and you found yourself unable to look at him. You could only stare at your hands as the tears rolled off your face, the droplets hitting your bare skin one by one. He placed his hands on your face, and brought your gaze back up to his. Wiping away the tears, he gave you another sad smile. Once again, you couldn’t breathe. But unlike those moments, this wasn’t going away. It was like you had forgotten how to breathe at all. You felt a lump in your throat, and more tears forcing their way out of you.

“I would never leave you…” He spoke quietly, as his own tears fell. “I’ll always be here. Even if it’s not in person… even if you can’t see me…” He took your hands in his, and placed one of them over your heart. “I’ll be right here…” It only made you cry more, but still he continued. “You won’t be alone, Y/N… I promise you…”

“How am I supposed to live without you?” You cried with a broken voice. “I can’t…”

“You can…” Hoseok smiled gently, leaning his forehead against yours. In that moment, you couldn’t take any more. You wrapped yourself around him, burying your face into his chest as you cried. You felt his arms around you, but his hands were still so cold. Sooner or later, you knew you were going to have to let him go. You were grateful you had a chance to say your last goodbye, no matter how badly it hurt. As you pulled away, you held his face in your hands, and kissed him one last time.

“I love you…”

“I love you too… Always.” You let him go, and he gave you one last smile. Then, just like that, he was gone. You felt your heart shatter, and you hugged the couch pillow tightly, burying your face deep into it as you let out the cries of an aching heart. After some time, you sat back upright and wiped away the tears.

“I’ll be okay…” You mumbled softly, and looked up. “… You’ll always be here.”

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All Out of Love - Air Supply (1980) / Don’t You Want Me - The Human League (1981) / Tainted Love - Soft Cell (1981) / Africa - Toto (1982) / Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper (1983) / Total Eclipse of the Heart - Bonnie Tyler (1983) / Careless Whisper - George Michael (1984) / I Want To Know What Love Is - Foreigner (1984) / Take On Me - a-ha (1985) / Don’t You (Forget About Me) - Simple Minds (1985) / Head Over Heels - Tears For Fears (1985) / The Power of Love - Huey Lewis & The News (1986) / The Promise - When In Rome (1988) / I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles) - The Proclaimers (1988) / How Am I Supposed to Live Without You - Michael Bolton (1989)

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Requested by Anon #297

Jesse: Y/N! *runs to you and grabs you*
Y/N: J..Jesse…*winces*
Jesse: Don’t move, it’s going to be okay.
Y/N: Jess no offence but where am I going to go? *laughs weakly*
Jesse: You’re really making jokes right now?
Y/N: When is the right time to make jokes if not when you’re dyi…
Jesse: Don’t say that! Don’t say that word. Please: You’re not going to die, you’re going to be okay.
Y/N: No I’m not. We need to be..realistic. I’m not going to make it.
Jesse: No, no, you won’t die Y/N. I won’t let you!
Y/N: Don’t blame yourself for this okay? Because I know you will. Don’t let this take over your life. Live.
Jesse: How am I supposed to live without you?
Y/N: Live for me. Save the day. Be the hero you were born to be Jesse. I love you.
Jesse: I love you too Y/N.
Y/N: Thank you for everything. Don’t forget me.
Jesse: How can I ever forget you? *kisses you*
Y/N: Goodbye Jesse Quick.
Jesse: Goodbye Y/N Y/L/N. *hugs you tight and cries*

Eu mal pude acreditar quando ouvi as notícias hoje. Eu tive que vim e ouvir diretamente de você, disseram que você estava partindo, que alguém arrebatou seu coração. Pelo seu olhar, eu vejo que é verdade. Então me fale, me fale sobre os planos que você está fazendo, e me diga só mais uma coisa antes de eu ir… Diga-me como é que eu vou viver sem você. Agora que eu te amo há tanto tempo, como é que eu vou viver sem você? Como é que eu vou seguir em frente, quando tudo pelo que estou vivendo se foi? Não vim aqui para chorar, nem vim aqui para me acabar em lágrimas, eu só queria deixar claro que é só um sonho meu chegando ao fim. E como é que vou culpar você, quando construí meu mundo ao redor da esperança de um dia sermos muito mais do que amigos. Apenas diga-me como é que eu vou viver sem você.
—  How Am I Supposed To Live Without You?