how you exist

happy birthday YN

you will always blow my mind at how you just


Possessing a dark atmosphere, this game allows you to explore the world inside a dream (thus its setting). There is no particular story or purpose. It is simply an exploring game.

like you came out in like 2004, like 18 months after RPG Maker 2003 was a thing. Kikiyama spent at least 3 years working on this game afterwards, then in June 2008 just.. disappears. We know nothing about Kikiyama other than they made this game. There are no other traces of them on the internet that I know of, at most we have to go by words of “yeah Kikiyama said it was cool to make merch” or “yeah Kikiyama emailed me and said they’re alright” with nothing to back it up. We don’t even know what Kikiyama is- a group, an individual, a machine…

It’s been just shy of ten years since the game updated to 0.10, and I still love to fantasize about the website updating with anything- even just a single character of text added or removed. Heck, what I want to know is the art behind this game. This was made by someone or someones experienced in game making- the code is just so organized and so efficient. There’s just so much made of this game, and at least two illustrations (the Mono girls), and it’s like, someone made this.

one reason I want to learn Japanese is to just explore Japanese internet and see how far back I can go in YN’s history. I found the game randomly in 2008/2009, just randomly in association with SZS, and it was such an experience.

Imagine living in a city where there are no monuments, no buildings from before 1970, no proof that you had grandparents or parents, no history at all. Wouldn’t that make you feel like you were just a passing fad, that you could be blown away like leaves?… for any community to feel substantial and able to change without losing themselves, a history is absolutely crucial.
—  Emma Donoghue, talking about LGBT history and LGBT historical fiction

White filmmakers/whiteness in Hollywood is so funnyyyy. They love inserting themselves into stories that have absolutely nothing to do with them and I bet that’s why whitewashing of all these roles happen. And why are they so intent on whitewashing Asian roles?? Like why did we need an American version of Death Note starring white people??? Who asked for Scarlett Eyebrow Raise Johansson to be the Major in Ghost in the Shell? Why are they so selfish??????


suddenly, hogwarts AU and everyone is babies??! idk it’s out of my system now don’t tell me to draw anyone else or argue with me about house choices it’s done i’m going to bed now!!!!

The perpetually-offended on tumblr are complaining about people drawing NSFW fan art of the Wendy’s mascot...

And I’m just sitting here thinking, “You must be new to the internet".

Like…it’s been this way for at least 15 years now.  You came here late.  This is something you’re just going to have to deal with, because complaining ain’t gonna do shit

Sometimes I think of the pioneers of the Trek fandom, painstakingly putting together zines, copying their fanfiction over and over and over again on unforgiving typewriters and spreading their love for this show and these characters through secret clubs, through the mail, distributing their books and artwork by hand to people they knew they could trust. 

Whenever I think things are hard as a content creator now, I remember them and just thank every star in the sky that they were willing to put in the hard work so that the passion they felt for this show would carry on. Without them, we wouldn’t have a fandom. We wouldn’t have spaces like this where we can share our fanworks with thousands of people. Instantly. Where we can openly and proudly talk about the things we love with those same thousands of people. Without leaving our couches.

So, thanks Trek parents, for all your hard work. <3

Me: Anti-straight and the constant hatred of straight people often hurts other members of the lgbt community because it throws any of them who are “viewed” as straight under the bus and it’s also harmful to straight trans peope–



1/2  ↳ 05.22.17: I’ve always been jealous of the people who get to be around you every single day. I’ve always wonder how is it like to be with you, hear your voice, and see how you paint a ray of sunshine through your smile. I’ve always been curious what your day was like every time. But then despite the things I am not favored of, I always  and forever be thanking God to have met you in this lifetime. Until now, it still leaves me in wonderment every time I think of you. All those precious years, thank you for sharing with us a part of you and showing us love. Let’s make more of those for the next 10, 15, 20, 50, 100 years, even forever. Thank you for your existence. I love you. Happy birthday, my one and only! ♡

A mix of things I love: summer, beaches and Lance ☆

family gatherings


Ragnar recounting his wedding night dream to Aslaug ✦ dialogue adapted from The Fostering of Aslaug by William Morris