how will i know if you've found me at last

Arctic Monkeys Lyric Starter Sentences
  • "Baby, I was made to break your heart."
  • "I wish you'd stop ignoring me."
  • "Oh I'm in trouble again, aren't I?"
  • "I thought as much."
  • "Can't we just laugh and joke around?"
  • "I'm sorry I was late."
  • "I missed the train and then the traffic was a state."
  • "You say I don't care but of course I do."
  • "Who's that girl there?"
  • "What a scummy man."
  • "I'm sorry, love, but I'll have to turn you down."
  • "What are the chances?"
  • "I've got a feeling in my stomach."
  • "She must be fucking freezing."
  • "I hope you're not involved at all."
  • "Sorry, sunshine, it doesn't exist."
  • "Whatever that means."
  • "Who'd want to be men of the people when there's people like you?"
  • "Landed in a very common crisis."
  • "Where did you go?"
  • "You're not coming back again."
  • "You've had enough."
  • "If I'd have known then I wouldn't have said it."
  • "If I predicted tears then I wouldn't have said it."
  • "I don't know what it is that they want."
  • "I haven't got it to give."
  • "When you look at me like that, my darling, what did you expect?"
  • "I probably still adore you with your hands around my neck."
  • "I did last time I checked."
  • "I crumble completely when you cry."
  • "Have you no idea that you're in deep?"
  • "I dreamt about you nearly every night this week."
  • "How many secrets can you keep?"
  • "There's this tune I found that makes me think of you."
  • "Was sort of hoping that you'd stay..."
  • "The nights were mainly made for saying thats that you can't say tomorrow day."
  • "Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?"
  • "Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new..."
  • "I've thought it through."
  • "I'm sorry to interrupt."
  • "I don't know if you feel the same as I do."
  • "We could be together if you wanted to."
  • "Ever thought of calling darling?"
  • "Do you want me crawling back to you?"
  • "Here isn't where I wanna be."
  • "All I wanna hear her say is "Are you mine?""
  • "Are you mine?"
  • "Satisfaction feels like a distant memory."
  • "Are you mine tonight?"
  • "I saw this coming from the start."
  • "There's no need to show me 'round."
  • "Will you pour me one for the road?"
  • "Don't get that sinking feeling."
  • "Don't fall apart."
  • "Soundtrack to disaster."
  • "The horizon tries but it's just not as kind on the eyes."
  • "You can't be sure."
  • "She's a modern lover."
  • "Her lips are like the galaxy's edge."
  • "I want it all."
  • "Ain't it just like you to kiss me and then hit the road."
  • "Come on, come on, come on."
  • "It's not like I'm falling in love."
  • "I just want you to do me no good."
  • "You look like you could."
  • "She's with me."
  • "I can't explain."
  • "It's kinda strange now that you're gone."
  • "There's all these secrets that I can't keep."
  • "Has it gone for good?"
  • "Isn't it hard to make up your mind?"
  • "I suspect you already know?"
  • "I thought I was yours forever?"
  • "Maybe i was mistaken."
  • "I cannot manage to make it through the day without thinking of you."
  • "But I'm not finished."
  • "I thought I saw you leaving, carrying your shoes."
  • "I'm trying to change your mind."
  • "Left you multiple missed calls."
  • "Why'd you only call me when you're high?"
  • "I need a partner."
  • "It's harder and harder to get you to listen."
  • "Sort of feels like I'm running out of time."
  • "I haven't found what I was hoping to find."
  • "You gotta be up in the morning."
  • "You're starting to bore me, baby."
  • "What have you been up to?"
  • "I heard that you fell in love."
  • "I gotta tell you the truth..."
  • "Snap out of it."
  • "I'll be here, waiting ever so patiently."
  • "Forever isn't for everyone."
  • "Darling, how could you be so blind?"
  • "You made it all alright."
  • "I had nothing to lose."
  • "You call the shots babe."
  • "I just wanna be yours."
  • My therapist: Do you think you're doing well?
  • Me: What's the definition of that anyway?
  • My therapist: I'm not sure. But here you have a girl whose prime coping mechanism had been cutting for so long and who has now not cut for pretty much two years. I'm not saying things have been perfect for the last two years. You've dealt with some seriously overwhelming things. You've discovered things about yourself. You've been sad and stressed and really down. Yet you have found other ways to cope. You have learned how to sit with your emotions. And if that's not progress then I don't know what is.

anonymous asked:

Could explain what the idkhbtfm 'project' (??) Is? You've reblogged few videos and I'm curious

Sure :)
Okay so I Don’t Know How But They Found Me seems to be the name of the new musical project Dallon started with Ryan Seaman (he plays drums for Falling In Reverse) who he’s been friends with for a long time. 
We got wind of the whole thing when on Dec 6th last year Dallon performed at Emo Nite LA without telling anyone and Breezy snapchatted a little bit of it. She used IDK on the snaps a few time and then various other sources posted about a new project called “I Don’t Know How But They Found Me”. I recently found the official line up for Emo Nite and it has them listed as that as well.
Now, Dallon supposedly asked people to not film and keep the performance a secret but ofc we got wind of it and now whenever someone mentions something about it or hints at the project Dallon either says he didn’t play there or just replies with idk.
If you look for the tag on instagram you’ll find a few of Ryan’s posts where he used it, some dating back to 2014 I believe. So I think it’s pretty safe to say the whole thing has been in the making for quite a while and now they are testing out how it’s received but do so quietly. Playing small shows here and there like at Emo Nite or yesterday at the Sassafras.
That’s basically all we know so far and now we can only hope to actually get to really hear some of it soon.
If you wanna see some of the tweets and stuff you can check my tags. I use ‘dallon tweet’ and then also ‘idkhbtfm’ but i might have missed that tag a few times.

anonymous asked:

Since you've already discussed Cersei's mothering, what about Jamie as a father? He doesn't seem to think all too much about them, but still is the one to stand by Tommen (as you've pointed out). Do you think show!Myrcella's reaction upon learning that he's her real father ("I'm glad you are") is realistic?

To answer the last bit, I don’t think Myrcella’s reaction was realistic. They’re in a war for the throne with them being known as Baratheons but with rumors flying all over the planet that they’re incest kids and have zero claim, yet she’s happy? I don’t know about you, but if I found out my uncle and mom produced me I’d puke, despite how much of a dick my dad was. Meanwhile, the enemies of my House have been proven right all along. I’d be embarrassed, not happy. I understand her immediate internal relief over Robert Baratheon not being her biological father, but I will never understand the overly outward happiness of it being her uncle. Jaime and Myrcella had practically no relationship anyway, so I don’t understand where this happiness of her being a twincest baby comes. It goes against all logic, both in the emotional and practical sense, but that’s just me. I know people disagree and that’s alright. 

About him being a father… 

It’s hard to say whether Jaime would be a good father or not, because he has never really been given that chance. However, from my impressions I don’t believe Jaime would be a neglectful or distant father.

“But what about all of those quotes about his children?! Jaime is horrible!!11!1”

Oh, like when he thinks about how they’re no more than a “seed in Cersei’s cunt” ? Considering that deep down Jaime is a man driven by honor, given how inspired he was by Arthur Dayne and now currently Brienne, it would explain where his attitude is coming from, which is shown in this quote:

“No. Bastards are seldom made upon the belly.” He wondered what his cousin would say if he were to confess his own sins, the three treasons Cersei had named Joffrey, Tommen, and Myrcella - affc JAIME VI

He views them not as their children made out of love, but as treason, and yet we still get a hint of bitterness to his tone when thinking how “Cersei had named” the children, which leads me to believe he resents her from keeping them from him.

“Tommen is no son of mine, no more than Joffrey was.” His voice was hard. “You made them Robert’s too.” affc JAIME I

And then we have this

Jaime had seen him born, that was true, though more for Cersei than the child. But he had never held him. “How would it look?” his sister warned him when the women finally left them. “Bad enough Joff looks like you without you mooning over him.” Jaime yielded with hardly a fight. The boy had been a squalling pink thing who demanded too much of Cersei’s time, Cersei’s love, and Cersei’s breasts. Robert was welcome to him.- asos JAIME VIII

To a lot of people this quote shows that his heart is only capable of Cersei, and yes at a surface read I agree that the quote above further exposes the toxicity of their relationship, however I also think resentment undertones are heavy in this as well. Cersei asking, “how would it look” implies that he had made a move to hold the child or had been curious enough to ask her. Since her questioning stuck with him enough for him to still be recalling it, the next bit reads, imo, as him suppressing his rejection and feelings, making it all about Cersei, by saying that he was just a “squalling pink thing who demanded too much of Cersei’s time” and that “Robert was welcome to have him.” It’s a coping mechanism. 

The reason why I’m lead to interpret his thoughts in this way is because then throughout ASoS and AFfC we have this off and on battle where he references Joffrey as “son” or them as his children, and then goes back to saying they’re seeds or purely Cersei’s.

Jaime sat silent through it all, letting the words wash over him, a horn of ale forgotten in his one good hand. Joffrey. My blood. My firstborn. My son. He tried to bring the boy’s face to mind, but his features kept turning into Cersei’s. -asos JAIME VII

He was curiously calm. Men were supposed to go mad with grief when their children died, he knew. They were supposed to tear their hair out by the roots, to curse the gods and swear red vengeance. So why was it that he felt so little? The boy lived and died believing Robert Baratheon his sire. -asos JAIME VII

(And ends with resentment again). He tries so hard to have a connection to “his son” but can only come up with Cersei. The fact that he tries to feel something tells me he wishes, and has always wished, he could have experienced that bond. He also cares about and is conscious of what they think of him:

“No,” said Jaime. “Tommen has lost a brother, and the man he thought of as his father. If I were to kill his mother, he would hate me for it … - affc JAIME VII

And then there’s this beauty:

He had a second son, after all, and seed enough for many more. If Cersei wants another child I’ll give her one … and this time I’ll hold him, and the Others take those who do not like it. Robert was rotting in his grave, and Jaime was sick of lies.

He turned abruptly and galloped back to find Brienne. Gods know why I bother.

- asos JAIME VIII

This quote gives me life on so many levels, mainly because of the foreshadowing bit when GRRM transitions into the next paragraph with him turning around to find Brienne after saying he was sick of lies and wanting to be a father, but anyway off topic (I would gladly welcome an anon to stumble into my ask with this, just sayin ;P )

To keep it simple, the Tommen AFfC books scene in my last post shows he has parental traits, and this quote above tells us that he is even willing to have more children and wants to father them. He has always wanted to be a father because “this time” he will hold it. This time he won’t let others stop him. And yes, he wants to be a caring father because:

Once he found the Blackfish, he would be free to return to King’s Landing, where he belonged. My place is with my king. With my son. Would Tommen want to know that? The truth could cost the boy his throne. Would you sooner have a father or a chair, lad? Jaime wished he knew the answer. He does like stamping papers with his seal. The boy might not even believe him, to be sure. Cersei would say it was a lie. My sweet sister, the deceiver. He would need to find some way to winkle Tommen from her clutches before the boy became another Joffrey. And whilst at that, he should find the lad a new small council too. If Cersei can be put aside, Ser Kevan may agree to serve as Tommen’s Hand. - affc JAIME VII

Not only in that bit does does he desire to be his father, but he also makes it clear how he wants to care for him in the sense that he wants him to be surrounded by people that are smart political choices and have good influences, whereas Cersei surrounds him with people who best serve her own needs, for her council (and just to prevent people from accusing me of inventing shit, not reading, and being a hater:) 

I want none of Lord Tyrell’s creatures on my council.“

Tommen’s council, you mean.

“You know what I mean.”

Too well.

- affc JAIME II

If desiring to be a father - a good one - wasn’t important to his arc, GRRM wouldn’t be putting any of this in, and Jaime’s narrative would continue to read as him only viewing Tommen as a cockblock and someone who is stealing Cersei’s attention.

But does the resentment layer and him wanting to father excuse the fact he hasn’t been more emotionally invested in his children’s lives? No, he chose that. He let it happen. Even though Cersei and society pushed him away from them he still chose to emotionally distance himself.  However, his situation is a lot more complicated on the parental end than Cersei’s considering a) he serves the King… his brother in-law… in the KG b) his sister physically wouldn’t let him near them enough to bond and c) the added dishonorable act layer of treason. I’m thinking a part of his parental attitude was born from self loathing. Do I think it’s in his nature is to be neglectful, unloving, and a terrible father? No, but we will never know until it happens, but I believe if he were to have future children -cough-Brienne-cough- his involvement would be entirely different.

You've Always Been With Me (Luke Hemmimgs soulmate au)

“I mean, I was pretty sure it was him when I saw his wrist, but I didn’t know for sure until I touched him. There was this warm sensation in my wrist, where his name is, and I knew.” Your best friend’s face was glowing as she talked about how she finally found her soulmate the week before. You smiled encouragingly, as if she hasn’t already told you this story several times.

Of course, you were happy for her. But she was the last of your friends to find her soulmate, which meant that you were officially the odd one out in the group. You tugged down the sleeves of your sweater, effectively hiding the elegant script that had magically appeared on your wrist the day you turned sixteen. ‘Luke’ was such a popular name; you had met a dozen or more Lukes in your lifetime, but none of them bore your name on their skin. You were starting to wonder if maybe your particular Luke had died or something. It would explain why you remained alone after all of your friends had found their other halves.

You and your friend were out for a night on the town to celebrate the discovery of her soulmate. You were seated at the bar in a crowded club, watching the scene as people danced and talked and flirted all around you. You wondered vaguely how many of them had already found their soulmates. Were you the only person in the room without a partner?

You were just beginning to consider calling a cab to take you home when someone tapped your shoulder. You looked up, meeting a pair of cautious blue eyes. “Uh, hey. Is it okay if I sit here while I wait for my friend?”

You nodded, mustering up a polite smile. “Sure, go ahead. I don’t mind.”

Even sitting down, the boy’s broad frame towered over you. He seemed aware of, and perhaps self conscious about, the difference, slumping a bit so he was more or less eye-level with you. “Hi, my name’s Luke.”

As always, your heart fluttered at the sound of the oh-so-familiar name. You reminded yourself that there was no reason to think this was your Luke. He had probably already found his soulmate.

You smiled politely, holding out your hand to shake. “It’s nice to meet you, Luke. I’m (y/n).”

His reaction was anything but expected. Rather than gripping your hand, his fingers curled around your wrist, shaking as he pushed your sleeve up with the other hand. His breath hitched as he trailed his fingertips over the inked letters. He raised his head, eyes scanning your face as his lips lifted in an ecstatic grin. “I found you. I finally found you.”

“You mean…?” Your breath caught in your throat as he hastily shucked off his jacket, revealing your name on his wrist. You could hardly breathe as you reached to touch the black ink, not daring to believe that you had finally found him. “I didn’t think I would ever find you.”

“I’m here now.” He slid his fingers over your wrist, lacing his fingers through yours. You blushed at the casual display of affection, unable to deny that his hand fit yours perfectly. “Do you want to get out of here? We could get coffee or something.”

You smiled. “Yeah, Luke. I’d like that.”

anonymous asked:

My dad passed away this morning and i don't know what to do, its like it hasn't hit my yet that he's not here anymore, im only 17 he'll never get to walk me down the aisle or see me graduate. On top of that i feel like a piece of shit cause my last words to him ever was "you're an ass" and then i didnt see him for 3 days and my mom called and told me to come home and then i found out. Do you have any advice with losing a parent? How you've learned to get rid of the empty sick feeling inside

Everyone handles grief and loss differently. There is no “right” or “wrong” way to feel. Sometimes it hits people right away, sometimes it takes months to sink in. I can only speak from my perspective when my mom passed away during my senior year in high school. For me it hit me in waves, for my dad and my sister it was within seconds. 

I too had all of those thoughts you did. You realize your parent won’t physically be with you at those milestones in your life like you have always imagined. I think it’s sometimes much harder on the loved ones when someone passes unexpectedly, because you didn’t have the time to even brace yourself for those thoughts and realizations. 

I too have had so many regrets. I can assure you that your father knew that those last words did not define your entire relationship. Parents are so much wiser than we give them credit for. They understand when we say things we don’t mean, they understand to look at the big picture, they remember when they were in our shoes and have said stupid, hurtful things. I can assure you that he passed knowing you loved him. I can assure you he knew you loved him even as you said those words you regret. 

My best advice is to let yourself heal at your own pace. Don’t try to find answers, don’t be upset with yourself if you are mourning in a way you didn’t want to. Be open, let it hit you, even the hard parts. I will tell you what I tell everyone who has ever come to me seeking advice about losing a parent. The honest truth is that it never gets better, but it does get easier. I like to think of it as having a rock in your pocket. When it’s first there you feel it all the time, but eventually it becomes common to you, and although that weight is still there you don’t always focus on it, you don’t always feel it, and sometimes you’ll forget it’s even there. It will stay, some days it will feel heavier than others, but you’ll always be strong enough to carry it. 

I’m sending you all my love. You will get through this. Life’s hardest battles are given to the strongest warriors.