how to want someone you can't have

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camisado // panic! at the disco

me, disconsolately, with tears welling up: they DID do shit for you, scanlan, the moment you were like “I’m outie, y’all, I have to find my daughter” they were like “shit, of course, how can we help??” and vax went with you in the sewers to try and find her, and the moment you were like “I’m going to Kymal to find my daughter” they were like “shit, of course, do you want us to come with??” and pike did. you can only ask someone “are you okay?” so many times before you know the answer is going to be “I’m fine, don’t worry about me” and all those kids are kids, not much older than your actual kid (except maybe Pike) and they LOVE you and you are TOO GOOD at lying and what happened the one time someone did saw through your bullshit?? It was Vex and she was kind and understanding and loving and she swore to never tell and she didn’t, scanlan, she never told. I’m not saying you have to be happy and hunky-dory but once you’ve leveled out and had a moment to breathe you’ll understand this and come back, right?

-2 INSIGHT MODIFIER I HATE THE WORLD

…and you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
—  Warsan Shire, “For Women Who Are Difficult to Love”

 y’all i hate when (privileged) people try to justify votes for tr*mp by being like “people are tired of politicians’, “the middle class whites are sad about their shitty racist town disappearing” or “rednecks are scared”

like yo how am i supposed to have sympathy when you’re totally either 100% okay with hating or you just DON’T caRE about the lives of people who are different than you? i understand how fucked the political system is here but shIT we gotta stand together and you decide to only care about yourself?? SCARY AS HELL MAN 

So checking on my dash, let me see if I can get this right.

Louis under the contractual control of Syco/Simon Cowell: Elenouis was fake, Briana (and Babygate is fake).

Harry under contractual control of Syco/Simon Cowell: Haylor was fake. Kendall is for mutual PR and fake.

Liam under contractual control of Syco/Simon Cowell: Sophiam was fake. Chiam is fake.

Niall under contractual control of Syco/Simon Cowell: is teflon and no romance seeding seems to have ever stuck.

However

Zayn under contractual control of Syco/Simon Cowell. Zerrie was real and he cheated on her many times. Zigi is for mutual PR promo and Zayn fully agrees with it for the benefits to his career.

Imagine Jesus and Daryl having a deal. Jesus would teach Daryl how to cook if Daryl brings him the ingredients for what he wants to prepare. The group thinks they are in a relationship but they just spent hours arguing in a Kitchen because “No Daryl, you can’t fry squirrels. It’s gross.”

When someone teases or asks about their relationship they deny it. But no one believes them.

some people ask what i mean when i say i’m just a statler looking for his waldorf, and i just kinda glare at them as if to say “my relationship goals are quite simple. i want to have a partner in crime i can grow old and throw snark at the world with. how hard is this to understand; as a sidebar, how dare you not know the muppets?”.

i’m a simple man, is all.

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Do you know what DYAD’s done to her? What she’s become?
                                                       Back on your feet again thanks to Ira’s help.

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she’s thunderstorms / waterfall

Concept

What if, at Leaver’s Ball, when Simon and Baz have their whole kissy cute moment Dev just charges onto the dance floor and throws an Actual Temper Tantrum because FUCK YOU BASILTON I WASTED MY  ENTIRE CHILDHOOD PLOTTING AGAINST HIM AND NOW YOU’RE SNOGGING HIM IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE BLOODY SCHOOL
“Dev–”
WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO TAKE HIM OUT I THOUGHT YOU MEANT TAKE. HIM. OUT. NOT TAKE HIM OUT!”
Bonus: he has to be carried off the patio by the Minotaur, kicking and screaming

When you realise you’re no longer an important part of someone’s life and you feel everything shatter.
And you want to claw into yourself and get to the root of the problem that is your fucking existence and know just what you did wrong and why you’re never good enough for anyone.

~☼~☼~☼~☼~Hi there ~☼~☼~☼~☼~

My name is Celeste Magenta MoonRaven and I’m a 4th level wicca and also a godkin! I’m the incarnation of Loki but I also godphone satan and my three totem animals- wolf, crow, and cat! They all speak through me and always tell me the truth! 

I run a coven with me and four of my friends and we are the best coven in town. We get together every saturday and watch American Horror Story and Practical magic and Charmed, and then we do witchcraft and use my sisters ouija board to talk to James, my dead boyfriend. He’s really nice once you start talking to him! I even went to his grave and we made out once.

And dont tell me I’m uneducated because I read all of Silver Ravenwolfs books and I’ve done blood rituals and even killed a person with my MAGICK

Love and blessings!

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I’m so tired you guys how many times am I going to reread TAU fics late at night help. 
Would this be possible? Technically no I doubt Dipper would allow someone to sneak up on him like that. Is this amusing anyway? Well, it was to me.
My hand is on fire please kill me :’)

Based on the fabulous Bentley and Torako fics of storiewriterkalyn

  • Me: I don't really have the patience for dating sims.
  • Me two hours later: WHY CAN'T I GET ANY ADRIEN POINTS ALL I'M GETTING ARE CAT NOIR POINTS GDI WHY IS THIS HARD??? I don't want to do his route TWICE IN A ROW, especially since I ALREADY MESSED IT UP
  • Me two hours and 6+ save slots after that: WOO MIRACULOUS ADRIEN ENDING oh shoot it's 2am

Just a notice: if you think I’m ignoring you if you’ve messaged me or sent me an ask, I promise I’m not doing it on purpose. I try to answer as much as I can in a day when I have a lot on my plate right now. If it seems like I’m intentionally not talking with you, I’m most likely not doing it on purpose (unless you’ve done something that makes me want to not talk). So please, take the initiative to message me again.

❦ I҉͓̼͓ͅf̡̟̺͚͖ͅ ̡͚Í͎̯̼͓ ̠̺̙͜H̛̪̼̣̪a̺̠͉̞̤̳ͅd̮͓̞̖̪͢ ̣͇̖̺̣a̠̗̰͖ ͚̬̯͢He̵̲a̳̙r̛̬̫t̢̝ ❦

“How would it be.. if all my hate disappeared like my youth, if after all this time his very hatred of me turned out to be something gentle, some kind of love.”

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