how to make this thing

i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later. 

Tomorrow I am actually going to set an alarm and get up earlier in order to sort out my eating. I will not keep pushing meals and snacks later and later in the day out of fear and I will not deny my body the food that is needs. Waking up earlier and eating breakfast will not make me ‘lose control’; nothing bad will happen. I am not an ‘exception’ to the ‘rules’ of recovery/life; I need to treat myself like I would any other person. It’s time to stop talking and start acting. Nothing will ever change if my actions do not follow the words. Tomorrow I will keep my distractions close, and I will keep reminding myself of why I need to do this NOW; not ‘tomorrow’ or ‘next week’ or ‘next month’. There really is no such thing as the ‘perfect’ time to change; anorexia will never want me to recover, it will never want to let me go; the only time is NOW. I need to do this.

  • Me, 7 weeks ago: Ah, I really hope the fanservice isn't too invasive and fetish-y. I mean they look good together but it's sort of tiring to see queerbait and absolutely no pay-off...
  • Me, now: Ah, I really hope Victor and Yuuri choose a nice location for their wedding and honeymoon, I mean there are so many beautiful places in the world to choose from...

My baby boy Takashi Shirogane (*´◡`) I’ll draw the others soon | Redbubble 
(Keith, Hunk)

College!AU in which Dean and Cas play for rival baseball teams

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happy birthday to.. me! haha uh its kind of a birthday tradition of mine to draw whatever i feel like no matter how little sense it makes lmao anyway here are yuuri and victor in kinda matchy KotOR star wars robes!! its very late!!! this is not an au dont @ me victor would never work for the jedi he is good and i trust him okay im leaving now bed time

the monday morning clip in episode 4 s3 was so wild like isak and even were trying to have a casual conversation “are you going to party?” “lol no… I MEAN maybe are you   going  to party?” “yeah i thought    yeah wanna pre drink together?” “sure sure sure coolcoolcoolcool” as if they didn’t almost kiss three days earlier

i mean look at them. these nerds are terrible at playing cool