how perfect is this cast that after two years that the show ended they still hang out and are friends


pairing: jimin / foreign ♀ reader
word count: 2.8 k
genre: angst, romance
warnings: portraying the characters the way i need them to act for the fanfic, please don’t think it’s how they really are

i would really appreciate feedback! feedback is always great to get back on something you worked hard on! thank you for reading!


part two: values 

Originally posted by jikookdetails

Jimin sees her as he’s getting his makeup done. She’s talking to his manager, a bag is swung over her shoulder and he wonders if it’s heavy. It looks heavy. He doesn’t usually pay attention to the staff, but something about her makes him pause and direct his eyes at her. Perhaps it’s because she’s foreign, or maybe it’s because he’s never seen anyone carry themselves with an aura like hers. She seems confident with herself, standing tall and proud. He’s seen many foreigners carry themselves with lack of confidence, but he doesn’t blame them. They’re often oppressed in the society he grew up with. He shifts his eyes to her face and wonders how somebody could be gifted such a smile.

“Jimin, can you look at me for a second?” Jimin is pulled from his trance and looks at his makeup artist. He knows his cheeks are dusted with pink, but he plays it off. He sits still as the makeup artist blends the eyeshadow into the creases of his eyes, the eyes that society often looks down on. He can still see her in the corner of his eyes. She’s still talking to his manager, her mouth twisting into a smile as his manager says something and makes some hand motions towards him and the rest of the members. Jimin finally looks at her again at the same time her eyes direct themselves at him. They make eye contact for a second or two, small smiles are exchanged, and then she directs her attention to the others. She bows slightly as she introduces herself to the boys. Her Korean is fluent and Jimin wonders if his mother language has ever sounded as beautiful as it did coming out her mouth. She looks him in the eye again as she stands back up. He catches a glimpse of her ears before she pulls the hair that was put behind her ears back to frame her face. They’re tinted red.

He’s about to say turn red himself, wondering if it’s because of him but he can’t seem to catch her eyes again,. Jimin isn’t sure why, but his mouth goes dry.

Her name is y/n and she’s his age. She takes breathtaking pictures that land her a job with the famous and well-known BTS. Jimin can’t help but stare at her when she’s behind the camera and taking his picture. The way her hands curl around the camera has him thinking thoughts he shouldn’t be. The way her mouth moves and forms his name before giving him instructions on what to do make his toes curl. When she’s finished and bites her lip in concentration as she goes over the pictures she’s taken he wants to capture the moment and engraved it into his mind forever. It takes her a while to glance back at him again, and he almost stutters when she tells him it was nice working with him. Jimin ignores Namjoon snicker as Jimin returns the words. Y/n doesn’t say anything about his nervousness,  she just smiles at him and continues to look through her work.

It takes Jimin a lot of nerve to try to have a conversation with her, in fact, it’s Taehyung who has to invites her to watch them during practice one day so he can actually talk to her. She’s running late at first, and Jimin feels the disappointment pool in his chest at the thought that she wouldn’t show up. Taehyung is about to tell him that she probably ran into some last minute job, when she stumbled in, apologizing because she got lost on the way to their dorm. It takes all of Jimin’s willpower to not trip over his own two feet as he’s running through their choreography and she’s staring at him so intently.

After they’re done with practice he gets a chance to talk to her alone. The others members practically run out the room and Jimin takes the hint and sits next to her on the floor. “That was really amazing, Jimin.” She tells him, and it’s the first time that his name has come out of her mouth and it drives him completely insane. He feels his mouth go dry and can only manage to smile, a shaky smile, and he bring his water bottle to his mouth so his mouth doesn’t feel like the Sahara desert. They sit in an awkward silence for a couple of seconds and Jimin is hating himself for it before she opens her mouth again and makes a joke. It catches him off guard at first, but then it processes in his head that an angel is actually joking with him and the next thing he knows he’s laughing and she’s laughing, and it feels so natural to just sit there and talk to her.

By the end of the day Jimin scores her phone number. He stumbles into bed that day, exhausted from practice, but he has a smile on his face because one of the contacts in his phone reads her name.

The next month is spent texting her back and forth. Sometimes they’re short and simple, asking her how she’s doing and if she already ate but it feels like winning the lottery to him. They’re about to hit two months of texting when Jimin sees something overseas that reminds her of him. He’s about to text her when he accidentally calls her. He goes to hang up the phone, but hesitates. He wonders what her voice would sound like on the phone. He’s pondering the thought for too long because suddenly he hears a quiet “hello, Jimin?” and he’s suddenly stumbling to put the phone to his ear. She giggles when he says he accidentally called her, but he finds himself talking to her for the next hour. He has to hang up too soon for his taste, and he’s wondering how to ask if they can talk on the phone later, when she takes the step for him. “Call me later-when you can- okay, Jimin?” He promises he will, face flushed and thankful that she can’t see his nervous state.

Jimin is certain that he wants to be more than friends with her. It doesn’t take long before Jimin realizes that maybe she doesn’t want to be just friends either. She gives him affectionate nicknames and he catches her staring at him when he’s not staring at her directly. One time he even held her hand to help her with something and even when he was done helping her, her fingers were still laced with his.

When he finally works up the nerve to ask her out secretly and she says yes he can’t help but feel like everything is coming into place. After dating for a few months, he’s already meeting her parents when they come and visit her in Korea. Everything is going amazing, but that night where he kisses her goodbye at her apartment and she pulls back she asks him a question that he had been avoiding for months.

“When will I get to meet your family?”

Jimin was raised in a society that’s like any society- it has expectations and has a definition for the perfect citizen. He was raised in that society and was raised under a conservative household. He grew up having an imagine implanted in his head by society on what was beautiful and who was beautiful. He’d have his fair moments of feeling society weigh on him, but he noted that there were people who got a cold shoulder. Foreigners or anyone mixed always got a hard time. Jimin wasn’t as aware of the issue as he expanded his mindset and started visiting different countries and noted the beauty within everyone - no wonder what their race or ethnicity was.

But when he started dating y/n he acted like he didn’t know what he’s parents would say. He’d ignore the issue and act like he didn’t know the judgment that was going to be casted. He knew if they went public it would result in the same fashion.

When y/n would bring up the topic Jimin would just pretend he didn’t hear anything or just tell her “soon”. Y/n didn’t expect to go public, she respected Jimin and his career. She knew it would bring him problems and his company finally allowed him to date someone on the low, so who was she to complain, knowing who she was going to be dating since the start? But being introduced to his family was different. She didn’t need approval of her family to date Jimin, but she wanted him to meet them because she could picture her test of her life with Jimin. As months passed and they hit their one year anniversary she was starting to become insecure. Did he not love her? Did he think his parents wouldn’t like her?

Y/n had experienced a lot of oppression throughout her life, and it was no different in Korea. She knew her beauty wasn’t standard beauty in Korea and encountered plenty of ignorance. It never crossed her mind that Jimin might be one of those ignorant people. He treated everyone with respect. She didn’t think he was raised by ignorance either, because often ignorance raised ignorance. Sometimes though, people didn’t reflect the ignorance they were raised to believe.

The night Jimin’s mother surprised him at the dorms and she was there it was like she was finally getting what she wanted. She shot up from her seat on the couch, ignoring the pounding of her heart and her sweaty hands. She shook his mothers hand, who looked at her confused, but still introduced her herself. Y/n heart sank when she asked Jimin who she was, but shook it off, thinking that she probably didn’t recognize her. She was about to tell her what she was to her son, when Jimin, who had been quiet throughout their whole exchange, spoke up. “She’s no one, just one of the staff members.”

Y/n only had one second to react, before Hobi shot up from his seat and asked her if she could help him in the kitchen. He noted the way her lip started quivering. She was only in the kitchen for a minute. Hobi tried cheering her up, making up excuses, but she knew now. Knew that Jimin was ashamed of their relationship.

“I think I’m going to head home.” She finally spoke, running her shaky hand through her hair. Hoseok looked at her, pity evident in his expression, before nodding. “You want me to say something to Jimin?” Y/n shook her head.

The ride back to her apartment was quiet and she wondered why she turned off the radio when one of her boyfriends songs came on.

She wouldn’t make eye contact with him when he showed up to her apartment the next morning. He had called her before she slipped into bed, chest feeling heavy and foggy, but she had ignored his call. He had messaged her after that, but she didn’t bother checking to see what it was. She looked the bedroom door in case he used his spare key to come in at night. Around midnight she was woken up by the door jiggling. She heard him softly curse. She saw the shadow of his feet in the crack underneath the door, but she still didn’t say anything. She just rolled over and continued to sleep.

He eventually left and came back the next morning. He didn’t bring up anything, just continued to act like nothing had happened. She couldn’t bring herself to say anything either, only nodded and responded to his questions with one word. Jimin knew she was upset, but he still didn’t say anything. He continues to fill the silence with small talk that seemed to get more desperate. Y/n would just nod, curling herself on the other end of the couch, arms hugged to her side. Jimin hesitated, but knew he had to do something. He inched closer and moved to touch her arm, but stopped when he saw her wince when his hand came in contact with her skin. He pulled back his hand and finally couldn’t bring himself to say anything else.

His throat burned with the need to belt out something. The ache in his chest was getting stronger and all he wanted to do was make things better. But he knew she wasn’t stupid. His parents knew that he was dating someone. But he had always avoiding showing them a picture of who and gave them them y/n’s nickname. That night when his mom showed up, y/n had stated her name, and he felt ashamed to feel relieved when his mother didn’t recognize her by her name. And he had blurred out those words before he could even think. He knew he had screwed up when he noticed the slight quiver of y/n’s mouth. But he didn’t say anything.

He didn’t say anything for weeks to come. He tried distancing himself from y/n for a bit to clear his head and decide how he could possibly explain himself, but when he finally realized that he was with y/n because he was the one that loved her, it was too late.

She had been waiting for him when he texted her that he was coming over. He knew instantly what was going to happen when she looked up at him and her expression was bare.

“I can’t be with someone who’s ashamed of me.”

He didn’t have time to think, she was telling him to leave her apartment within a couple seconds before she said the sentence that burned itself into his head for the following weeks. Jimin still didn’t say anything as the door slammed on his face and he was thrown into the complete silence y/n had experience those weeks ago when she was driving back home from his dorms.

Jimin doesn’t see her for weeks. He calls and texts her for the first week, but then tells himself to give her space. She has the right to be upset, after all. But when more than three weeks pass and she isn’t answering the messages or calls from their mutual friends who he starts getting worried. He uses his connections and finds out she hasn’t been able to work for the past two days.

He can’t but think something is wrong and ends up at her apartment. He still has the spare key to her apartment, and he’s surprised to see that it still works with her lock. He wonders if that means he still has a chance, but it dwindles when he goes in and her apartment is empty.

His chest is burning when he gets back into his dorm. He reaches for his phone and calls the only person he can now and can’t help but let out a sob he has been holding in since the moment he realized he had lost her.

‘Mom, I messed up.”

Y/n was moving into her new apartment when she heard a knock on her door. She was expecting a friend, so she opened the door before even checking to see who it was. Her eyes fell when she caught the sight of Jimin’s mom standing in her doorway. She was carrying some type of food in a plastic bag. Her eyes were red and puffy and y/n felt a pang of panic hit her.

“Is Jimin okay?” She instantly asked. Jimin’s mom looked at her, really looked at her. Y/n’s heart fell, expecting bad news, but instead her name left Jimin’s moms mouth. She went in without an invitation and sat in her couch nervously.

“I should have known it was you. When I came in that day, he was looking at you like you gave him a reason to live. I feel so stupid. My child has been suffering because he thought I’d disapprove. But I don’t. I would never disapprove of the woman my son chooses to love.” She goes to grab y/n’s hand and squeezes it.

“I’m sorry about this. I never realized that the way I let society and our beliefs impact him this way, I-” her eyes began to mist over and she was crying again.

“Please. Just talk to him. He wouldn’t say anything but your name. I just knew what had occurred, but he just couldn’t stop crying.”

Jimin’s mom didn’t say much after that. She simply wiped her eyes, handed her the bag of food, and told her that she was welcomed to her home anytime.

Y/n’a eyes drifted to the bag in her hand and when she opened it she was hit with the orama of her favorite dish. It was a traditional dish in her native country. Her mouth fell open slightly and she couldn’t help but blink rapidly, trying to avoid crying.

She didn’t know what to think anymore, but she knew she had to talk to him.


Pairing: Matt Cohen x Reader


Warnings: none

A/N: Whoooo! First Matt Cohen x Reader request EVER, I feel awesome! The R2M questions you guys asked but were not included in the fic will be answered soon! ALSO, those fanfic writers I referenced (From Con to Con is by @nerdyforyourbooks, Aria being one of the most PHENOMENAL smut writer EVER, you can find her on ao3) are AMAZING so do me a favour and go check out their stuff!

(the guy who deserves more fanfiction written about him)

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SVTFOE Season 2 Finale Recap: “Wandside Attraction” and “Star and Marco vs The Future”


I knew this season finale was gonna kill us all, but I was SO off on how it was gonna turn out.

And by the way, if you’re waiting to watch these episode at 8 PM tonight… turn back now. I just saw ‘em at 7 in the morning, and as I said in my last post, there WILL be huge spoilers here. It’s not too late to look at another post until tonight, but if you’re willing to take the chance or have already seen it…

…then here we go.


Song Day is upon us, and Queen Moon Butterfly sends the new songstrel Ruberiot (voiced by Patrick Stump) to the Diaz household to write a song about Princess Star. Star, who is absolutely NOT a fan of these princess songs, tries to avoid hanging with Ruberiot until he realizes he hates those same songs, too, and they team up to write a song that really shows people who Star is. Meanwhile, Moon heads to the Forest of Certain Death trying to get some answers on where Ludo’s whereabouts might be. And who better for her to go to than his father Lord Brudo, his mother Lady Avarius, and his little brother Dennis? However, when she finds Ludo’s new lair and discovers what he’s wielding, she realizes the situation is much more serious than she could’ve imagined.

Before she can proceed with her mission, though, she, her husband King River, and the Magic High Commission along with Star and Marco attend the Song Day event, where it starts off great with Ruberiot subverting the kingdom’s expections and bringing them a rock ballad about Star being the Rebel Princess of Mewni… but then the songs gets to the part where Ludo shows up and takes Glossaryck and the Book of Spells, and the King and Queen proceed to keep retrieving the book and Glossaryck back a low-key effort, which horrifies both the Magic High Commission AND the entire Mewman audience.

But that’s not what the fandom’s gonna be talking about when they bring up the song. No, when they bring up the song, what they’re gonna really talk about– Aside from how awesome and catchy it is. –is that it straight up reveals that Star is in fact in love with Marco Diaz, a point Ruberiot glorifies for the finale, and one that he didn’t even talk to Star about to begin with. This all leads up to the following 22-minute episode…


And if you thought Storm the Castle or Bon Bon the Birthday Clown were the darkest this show could get, this is here to prove you completely wrong.

At the Diaz Family’s end-of-the-school-year party, Marco is still in shock as to Star’s true feelings for him, and things hadn’t really been so normal since Song Day. Of course, Star isn’t handling it much better, either. So, to avoid having an awkward conversation with him, Star calls an emergency friend meeting with Pony Head, Janna, Kelly and StarFan13 (who was there the whole time!), and they try to get Star to forget about his straining relationship with Marco by bringing her to a more dangerous bash on a rooftop, where Star finally hangs out with her other crush, Oskar Greason.

But meanwhile, on Mewni, Queen Moon and the MHC bust into Ludo’s ancient temple lair, easily dealing with the rat army, Eagle and Spider before contending with Ludo himself, who tells them that Glossaryck showed him a page of the Book of Spells (which, of course, was Queen Eclipsa’s chapter), and then suddenly he was gone. As the others leave to search for Glossaryck and the Book, Moon tells Ludo that she saw his family before coming there and pleads with him to let her help him. And as soon as you think Ludo’s gonna accept her help and listen…

…Toffee completely hijacks his body and steals her magic off-screen, turns the wand into a new, giant right hand with the crystal embedded within the palm, and easily curbstomps the others and steals THEIR magic. After being revived by Lekmet, who dies immediately after, Moon goes full-on Mewberty mode and battles Toffee, who this time around comes up the victor as the temple crumbles and Moon retreats, getting the fainted MHC to safety, but not before Toffee warns Moon that he’s coming for Star and seeking to reclaim his severed finger.

When Star and her friends come back home, Star decides to suck it up and she and Marco have a chat and agree it’s best the two remain friends. However, upon going to her room upstairs, she finds her mother there, telling her that she’s in danger and has to come back home to Mewni. Star tries to stand up and tell her she’s staying on Earth whether Moon likes it or not… until she’s told that Toffee has returned, bringing Star into a state of shock and disbelief. So she complies with her mother’s wishes, but before leaving, Star heads downstairs and tells Marco, in front of everybody in the house, that she is indeed in love with him, in a moment that every Starco shipper has been waiting the entire series for… which ends up being twisted into the biggest tearjerker in the series yet, as Star runs up to her room with Marco chasing her, but when he gets to her room, Star’s already left and her tower is dissipating from existence.

If there was one thing I was right about in my predictions for this, it was that it was gonna end in the biggest cliffhanger/downer ending yet. This hour starts fun, light and cheerful, like any normal SVTFOE episode, but then it slowly starts getting darker and darker for our cast as things keep taking a turn for the worse, from Star and Ruberiot’s princess song revealing not only Star’s crush on Marco but also the revelations that the Book and Glossaryck have been stolen, to finding out just how diabolical and dangerous Toffee really is. The entire thing is like a perfect mixture between the Holy Shit Quotient-level storytelling in Storm the Castle, where so many things have changed by the end of it all. and the way Bon Bon became increasingly more somber as the episode went on, giving us this gut-punch of a tearjerker ending that’ll have everyone asking themselves what’s next until Season 3 premieres.

Of course, it’s not all tearjerkers and nightmare fuel from beginning to end (at least, Face the Music isn’t); there are several light-hearted moments where we get not only some great laughs, like with the opening Princess Moon number, Janna scarfing down the whole popcorn bowl before zooming over to the Diaz house and the rooftop party (where Oskar somehow managed to park his car on top) but even a good deal of sweetness like Dennis’ concerns for Ludo and the surprisingly well-written conversation between Star and Oskar at said rooftop party, setting up that maybe they’ll be hanging out more when Marco and Jackie are dating. But sadly, the makers of this show don’t go that route… yet, as far as I know.

The route they do take, however, works just perfectly within the context of what this entire season’s given us: A deeper story that’s just starting to get real good, throwing twists and turns at us at every chance it gets and just when you think things are gonna be normal, dynamics change, relationships are affected forever, and we end up being left hanging for our heroes’ adventures to continue. And thankfully, like I said, there’s a Season 3 coming our way soon (albeit not soon enough), so in that upcoming season, we’ll get to see how everyone’s gonna deal with their new situations, and what fate will have in store as the plot continues to develop.

In fact, I have an idea of how Season 3 could start off that I’ll share some point after the season finale re-airs tonight, but for now, it’s time for the hiatus that’s hopefully shorter than the last one we had inbetween seasons. And when SVTFOE3 starts up, oh ho ho, boy, things are gonna get really weird and really wild then!

Rambly thinky thoughts about why GotG2 is one of the best films in the MCU

So yesterday I saw GotG2 a third time (this time in IMAX), and let me tell you I have Realised A Thing.

Guardians of the Galaxy vol. 2 gives me the emotional satisfaction that I expected, wanted, but ultimately did not get from Captain America: Civil War.

After being utterly blown away by CATWS I went into CACW expecting All Of The Feels, but instead I got a bunch of dudes displaying the emotional maturity of concussed teaspoons, the most forced and pointless No Homo “"romance”“ to date, and a dull af colour palette that not even Chris Evans’ glorious biceps could brighten up. Plus a bunch of explosions and snappy oneliners, but that’s a given.

But mostly it was just a bunch of people getting into trouble and falling out because they just Would Not Talk To Each Other. And an ending to the friendship between Steve and Tony that didn’t really have that much of an impact ‘cause while we’ve seen them working together we’ve never really gotten to see them hang out, just the two of them, and actually be friends, so that big, dramatic end fight didn’t have the impact it should’ve had. And poor Bucky, who should’ve been the central character of the film, was barely more than a McGuffin who starts out just wanting to be left alone and ends up just wanting to be left alone to the point where he chooses to get frozen again. Hmph.

GotG2 on the other hand? WHOA.

HERE BE SPOILERS! (And I’m on mobile so no readmore for you)

They talk to each other. The “unspoken thing” between Peter and Gamora is still developing, in a way that feels a lot more natural than the Steve/Sharon thing. And there’s not really any room for superfluous, awkward romance when the film is dedicated to familial relationships, like Gamora and Nebula, who get a really good arc to themselves (Bechdel Test pass! And Mako Mori Test pass, for Nebula).

The whole Peter/Ego/Yondu thing is very well executed, ‘cause you can see how much Peter wants Ego to be the father he always wished for, but as soon as Ego reveals what he did to Meredith he’s dead to Peter. And Yondu won’t ever win any Father of the Year awards, but given his backstory it’s not really a surprise that he isn’t very good at the whole parenting thing, and I’m pretty sure he never expected to love Peter like he did. But he did right by him in the end, and actually told Peter that he thought of him as a son, and now I am verklempt.

The whole bit with Yondu, Rocket, and Groot escaping and taking back the ship? Fucking PERFECT. An excellent balance of humour (the toe!), genuine emotional beats, and 110% sheer, awesome badassery. And I love that they picked a song that on its own is kinda meh, but the way it builds along with the action somehow makes it the perfect choice. (This whole sequence has become my favourite part of all MCU films, can you tell?)

And the upshot of Rocket and Yondu’s bonding? Is that Rocket realises that he actually has a family, who won’t leave him behind no matter how much he tries to push them away. Emotional development for the acerbic asshole, woot!

Basically, GotG2 neatly sidesteps the thing that usually happens to the second film in an ensemble cast franchise. The thing where the first film shows the gang getting together, and the second film drives them apart, without there being any intermediate that shows them actually working together and enjoying each other’s company. GotG1 shows them becoming a crew, GotG2 shows them becoming a family. And I love that it’s Drax, aka the only one who’s actually had a family of his own, who defines their relationship out loud.

Of course, it’s quite probable that the expectations I had before seeing CACW and GotG2 has shaped how I feel about them. With CACW my hype was through the roof, simply because CATWS was so damn good, and CACW is a capably made film considering how much plot they had to cram into it. But beyond my initial squee at how they’d actually pulled it off there was just… Meh. It didn’t feel like it had the depth of CATWS, and thus didn’t invite me to explore it further through reading and writing fanfic.

Going into GotG2 I expected a fun, colourful romp through space, but not much else. And then I saw it and the Feels hit me in the face like a sledgehammer. And after a third viewing it still holds up; even though the ending isn’t exactly happy happy I still come out of the theatre grinning like a loon and feeling awesome. It’s not quite on par with the feeling Mad Max: Fury Road left me with, but of all the MCU films this is the one that comes closest to it.

And that’s just about as high praise that I can give.

SQW Day 1: Confessions

“Exactly how drunk are you, Miss Swan?”

Emma doesn’t think she’s ever seen Regina’s eyebrow quirked quite so high and if it were any other time, she’d probably burst out laughing. As it is, she’s got something on her mind — something that, if she’s being honest with herself, has been on her mind for way too long now — and she’s too busy trying not to vomit to find much funny.

“Pleasantly buzzed,” she deadpans. Or at least she hopes it comes off that suave. “On a scale of one to completely shit-faced, I’d say I’m at about a four point five.” Okay, maybe closer to an eight, but Regina doesn’t need to know that. Emma screws her mouth into a smile she hopes to gods says “endearing and irresistible savior” but is pretty sure translates a little more “struggling to stand up.” Oh well.

“Eloquent as always, I see.” Regina, clad in silk pyjamas and a matching robe, is trying to be the picture of sternness but Emma can’t fight the little somersault her stomach does when she sees her son’s other mother trying to suppress a smile of her own  — rather unsuccessfully, she notes. Nice one, Emma.

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Musical Theatre!Rocky

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A/N: Please forgive me please!! You have a long-ass bullet scenario ahead of you if you choose to proceed because yo girl doesn’t know how to condense rip This is dedicated to an awesome friend, @sanhatation! The feelings might be long past but I promised to write this for you. A short part 2 will be coming to describe the life under the stage lights. Happy Reading! - Rhin

  • Rocky originally wanted to go to school for dance
  • Why wouldn’t he? He knows he’s stellar
  • But, he also wanted to sing
  • Unfortunately, it wouldn’t be possible for him to get a minor in vocal
  • Dance takes a lot of effort and practice hours
  • So he worried and thought about it a lot over his senior year of high school
  • One day, Sanha approached him with a poster

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John Mulaney and Nick Kroll talk 'Oh, Hello' and almost killing Chris Pratt with tuna

If you missed Oh, Hello’s Broadway run last winter, you’re in luck: A filmed version of John Mulaney and Nick Kroll’s geriatric stage show is now streaming on Netflix.

It’s been about a decade since the two comedians and longtime friends started performing as the elderly New Yorkers George St. Geegland (Mulaney) and Gil Faizon (Kroll), and after years of pranking guests with too much tuna on Kroll Show, George and Gil made their Broadway debut at the Lyceum Theater in September. Oh, Hello ran through January, earning rave reviews and attracting an enviable list of celebrity guests — Steve Martin, who appears in the Netflix special, included.

“Being on Broadway and doing our particular show, to me, was what I’d always dreamed show business would be,” Kroll says. “We had tech rehearsals and vocal training and proper wardrobe — costumes, hair, and makeup. Just everybody at the top of their game. And then you do the show every night, and then people started coming to the show who are people you respect, and then because of the format of the show, they would do it. And everything about it was truly what I had dreamed of when I was a kid and was like, ‘I want to be in show business.’”

Plus, doing a Broadway show has its perks. As Mulaney puts it: “You don’t have to get up early, and you go to a place at night, and it’s a couple hours.”

With Oh, Hello on Broadway hitting Netflix today, EW sat down with Mulaney and Kroll to reflect on some of the most memorable moments from their Broadway run and to speculate about what future projects George and Gil might have on the horizon. (Here’s a hint: Newt Gingrich may or may not be involved.)

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: So six months after closing night, do you still find yourself slipping into the George and Gil voices?

JOHN MULANEY: We always do the voices and have for 10 years.

NICK KROLL: Offstage. Completely unrelated to the show. I think it’s how couples have some weird baby talk or something. Ours is two old men babies, talking to each other. Truly, we’ll be like, “Can you pass the sugie?”

MULANEY: It’s the most fun way to talk. [Laughs]

So how do you get the perfect George and Gil voice? You drop the vowels…

KROLL: Drop the vowels, like “Br’dway.” Drop a vowel, shorten a consonant.

MULANEY: Stress the wrong syllable.

KROLL: It’s the best.

Over the course of the Broadway run, you guys accumulated a really impressive list of guest stars. What is the actual process of booking some of these people?

MULANEY: We did 138 shows. I think there were four or five nights where we would pull a guest from the audience because we didn’t have somebody booked. Which was also incredibly fun. Ourselves, our assistant, our producers, managers we work with, everyone really went out and we just cast a wide net. And after the show got some momentum and it started going and we were getting a little press, then a lot of people wanted to do it. And then we had months of great guests.

KROLL: And we had different versions of it. Alan Alda, from the moment we started doing the characters a decade ago, the way we described them were Upper West Side, quote-unquote “legendary bachelors” who were obsessed with Alan Alda. Because it’s a very specific kind of guy, where you think of the era of Hannah and Her Sisters and stuff like that. That kind of guy. And Alan Alda just typified it beautifully.

We’d been trying to get him to be on Kroll Show to no avail, and then we got him for opening night of the show. And it was the most exciting thing. We had a good half hour in our dressing room with Alan before the show, just talking. He started in the theater. He started as an improviser. I think he started to get a sense of what our process was, and it was just the most exciting thing. And then he did it, had a blast, and then was like, “I want to come back and do it again.” And that, to me, was the coolest thing, that our hero wanted to come back and play more.

And then I don’t think we reached out to Tony Danza. I think Tony Danza’s people reached out and said he had heard about the show and wanted to come do it. And he was the best.

MULANEY: And Paul Shaffer did the show, and afterward he was like, “This is great. It’s like the new Soupy Sales Show. It’s a hang, and everyone wants to do it.” Which is the best Paul Shaffer comment ever, to say that this is the new Soupy Sales Show. Which I guess was like a show people would just go hang out at. But that was very cool to hear that from one of the hepcats of the world. [Laughs]

KROLL: Letterman did our final show, and for us, knowing a guy who basically seems like he doesn’t want to do anything, that he was willing to do our show was really cool.

MULANEY: And we’re Tom Snyder guys, so it was tough. [Laughs] But it was really fun when we had people outside of entertainment, like Congressman Barney Frank, or when Marcia Clark did the show. It was amazing to talk to anyone about anything.

So top three guests, if you had to pick?

KROLL: Oh, I don’t know!

MULANEY: It’s not being diplomatic. It’s really hard. I’d say top three moments, maybe. I danced with F. Murray Abraham.

KROLL: Chris Pratt ate huge amounts of tuna fish, and the tuna was up in the rafters right below the lights for like three hours before the show, and it gets lowered down. And there was definitely a moment where Chris ate a ton of tuna.

MULANEY: Warm tuna!

KROLL: He was on like a press tour, and we were like, we’re gonna kill Chris Pratt with food poisoning, and we’re going to bury three franchises. But we also would have friends of ours, like Amy Schumer, Aziz Ansari, Jason Mantzoukas, Hannibal Buress, all the people that we started with. So you’re now on a Broadway stage doing bits with people.

MULANEY: And I hadn’t seen Hannibal in a while, and he was telling us how he’s now a landlord in Chicago. It was great to catch up with Hannibal while also being like, “What the hell are you talking about, Hannibal?”

KROLL: And we had Reggie Watts on, and Reggie told a joke that Gil found very funny, and so he slid back in his chair and fell off his chair. He then rolled his way to what he thought was back to the table, but it ended up being off of the stage.

MULANEY: He fell off the stage, kind of onto the legs of someone in the front row.

KROLL: And the rest of that show, I thought I had broken my wrist.

MULANEY: It’s a steep drop!

KROLL: And we had Itzhak Perlman! Itzhak Perlman.

MULANEY: T.J. Miller at length described a tragedy in his early life, and so he’s slowly describing it, and Gil chimed in, “Do you do a lot of improvising on Silicon Valley?” And that was maybe the hardest I ever laughed.

KROLL: T.J. stuck around. He was the matinee of our last show, and he stuck around and just hung out backstage and had our prop master make him a tuna sandwich.

So you mentioned T.J. Miller and Chris Pratt, but who had the weirdest reaction to the tuna?

KROLL: Well, there was one day where John got food poisoning.

MULANEY: Oh, yeah. We were deep into the run, and I woke up at about 5 a.m. and just started throwing up. And we called this guy who’s known as the Broadway doctor. My wife called him, and he said, “There’s no way he’s performing today.” And she’s like, “There’s no understudy.” And he was like, “Oh, okay, then he has to perform.”

KROLL: What’s funny is that our understudies were Jon Hamm and John Slattery. John Slattery was doing another Broadway play at that moment.

MULANEY: And we had to get a waiver from Playbill and Equity saying that we are aware and they are aware that they’re not our actual understudies and can never be held accountable. So my wife got me this pill you take if you have food poisoning and you have to stand and speak without vomiting. Matthew Broderick was the guest that night, and I’m such a huge fan of his, and I was so excited to meet him that I was able to put the food poisoning out of my mind for some of the show. And when the tuna came down after being under those lights, I was like, this is the grossest thing I’ve ever seen in my life. I was like, this is not a funny prank.

It was probably pretty fragrant at that point.

MULANEY: It was very fragrant.

KROLL: Who else did we have? Did we have someone who was pregnant who got the tuna? Or was that on the road, maybe? Yeah, we picked a random Australian journalist out of the crowd in D.C. She was pregnant and got on stage, and the tuna came out and she was like, “Get this away from me.” She wanted no part of it. Was it Olivia Wilde?

MULANEY: No, she had just had her baby. Also, no one wants that tuna.

Pregnant or otherwise. So who did you not get who would be your dream guest, dead or alive?

KROLL: We never got Bernie Sanders. I’d say every week we went to try to get to Bernie Sanders.

MULANEY: Yeah. For most of the fall, he was running for president, and then he was not anymore. But he still didn’t want to do “Too Much Tuna.” But Bernie Sanders and RuPaul Charles were my top two. But also I think RuPaul was in L.A., and we weren’t going to give anyone any money. We asked for money from people.

KROLL: We had Bob the Drag Queen, who won Drag Race, who was great and really funny. But yeah, RuPaul and Bernie Sanders.

MULANEY: The two elusive socialists.

Obviously, George and Gil have very eclectic pop culture tastes and they have a lot of opinions on things. So if you guys are game, we want to know what George and Gil would think of a few current hot topics. For example, the Katy Perry and Taylor Swift feud.

KROLL: The truth is that George and Gil would identify with that because they both have bad blood.

MULANEY: Literally. Not feuds with people. They’re Type-N blood. It’s really rare, and you’re a universal hemorrhager.

KROLL: I guess certain people’s blood when it’s in their body, it’s blue until it’s oxidized, and then it turns red. Gil’s blood is brown like his bar mitzvah theme.

MULANEY: And George’s blood is clear. His favorite color is clear.

How about Wonder Woman?

MULANEY: They would be thrilled that [star Gal Gadot] was Israeli and that she did her service in Israel. Unlike that Natalie Portman, who left when she was young.

KROLL: Who’s not a patriot and does not support Israel.

What about George and Amal Clooney’s twin babies?

MULANEY: Well, they would say…

KROLL: One for each.

MULANEY: Name them George and Gil. And not George Junior. Not George Clooney Junior. George St. Geegland Clooney. And Gil Faizon Clooney.

KROLL: I think it would give George and Gil each hope that even though Clooney isn’t as old as these guys, they’d think he’s their contemporary. They’d think that it’s not too late for them to marry human rights lawyers who are unbelievably beautiful and have twins.

MULANEY: George is making a hard play for Linda Sarsour.

KROLL: And Gil’s making a big play for Linda Tripp.

So what’s next for George and Gil?

MULANEY: They’re going to do The Amazing Race as a four-person group with Newt Gingrich and his wife, Calista. Who I think is the ambassador to the Vatican.

I think they would win.

KROLL: I think they’d be great.

MULANEY: They’re also getting involved with Gene Simmons for merchandising.

KROLL: But it’s all KISS stuff.

MULANEY: They’re selling like KISS goblets and stuff.

KROLL: They’re really just vendors.

MULANEY: And they both tested positive for Zima. Not Zika. They have Zima. The drink from the past.

KROLL: And they say this is the year they’re going to get on Facebook. If they can sign in through their AOL account, that’s the question.

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Drunk(er) Riley;

Word count: 4,000 

Riley loves dances, at least she did.. Now in her junior year of high school Riley contemplates skipping the winter formal all together. It’s her nagging best friend in the bay window that convinces her to go and no it’s not the petite blonde with the feisty personality you may be thinking of, that would be Maya, a girl Riley hasn’t spoken too in almost two years. 

Instead it’s her 6 foot something best friend Simon who lounges amongst her throw cushions pleading with her for what felt like the hundredth time to reconsider her stance on skipping the formal. 

“Ri,” He lets out an exasperated sigh. 

“Si,” Riley mimics his tone. 

“You are coming to the dance, end of story,” He sits up and literally puts his foot down. 

“Mom and Dad are taking Auggie to Philly for the weekend so I thought I might stay home and enjoy the quiet,” Riley tries to talk it up. 

“Not a chance,” Simon shakes his head. 

“Who cares about a stupid dance, anyway?” Riley - whom is sat on her bed - folds her arms. 

“You do,” Simon points a knowing finger her way. 

“Maybe back in middle school,” Riley rolls her eyes, “It was about the perfect dress and the perfect date,” she curls her nose up in disgust. 

“Is that what this is about?” Simon raises a brow, “Because I know at least twelve guys that would kill to take you to the dance and most of them are straight.” 

Riley lets out a quiet laugh, “I don’t care about not having a date.” 

“Fine, but Noah and I leave our offer on the table, you’re welcome to come with us,” Simon moves to Riley’s side on the bed, “I can have my man on one arm and my woman on the other.” 

“That’s really nice b-” 

“So it’s settled!” Simon claps his hands excitedly. 

Riley has no choice but to give in to him, she knew there was no way Simon would let her stay home alone. 

Riley met Simon in the drama club, originally she joined just so she had an excuse to not hang out with her friends, at the time Abigail Adams High was putting on their production of Shakespears A Midsummers Night’s Dream. Riley thought the theme of everyone falling in love with the wrong person was ironic given her current predicament at the time but shortly after being cast as Helena she grew to love the performing arts and all it had to offer.

Simon is head of the drama club and the most theatrical person you will ever meet. He instantly took Riley in like a little bird with a broken wing and they became fast friends. Even with his excessiveness Riley adored him, he made her feel important and she hadn’t felt that way in a long time.

Noah is a senior on the football team and he practically stalked Simon until he agreed to go out with him but now they’re very loved up and practically inseparable.

Riley schedules last minute dress shopping with her another of her drama class pals Ella. Ella’s like Maya in a lot of ways but also different in so many more. Ella is Riley’s new girl best friend and her not attending the dance due to a family wedding was just another reason Riley didn’t want to attend herself. 

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Musical Neighbors, A Lin x Reader.  Part 5: Party at my place?

A/N: hooollllyyyy shiitttt it’s finally here. Sorry it took so long. bleh. My exams start Thursday and school has been shit, I apologize. :(

Warnings: A bit of drinking.

Summary: Anthony decides to have a little after-party hosted at their place after the success of the first show. 

I have never worked on Broadway, and I have never met the actual Hamilcast unfortunately. I apologize if any of my work is inaccurate, all experiences in this fic on based merely on judgement online.


Backstage, you were still chatting with Pippa and Renée, when Anthony had waltzed in all excited, with Daveed with him.

“Okay, so, in honor of Hamilton being so successful the first day, y’all should come down to place to you know, hang out and such. Drink a few.” He had the goofiest grin on his face. 

“Sounds like a plan.” Jasmine nodded.

Everyone agreed, and got up to go.

“Have fun guys.” You smiled, not expecting to go. 

“Whoa there missy, you’re going.” Daveed glared at you.

“I’m not even apart of the cast, why should I go?” You asked him.

He rolled his eyes. “Lin practically begged us to invite you. You’re going, young lady.”

“Oooh.” Renée, Jasmine, and Pippa all echoed.

You rolled your eyes at their comments. “If you insist, and Diggs, I’m only a year younger than you, don’t push it.”

You grabbed your coat, phone, and keys and went with the cast to Anthony’s. It wasn’t a rowdy party or anything, just some music and champagne. Lin was already there in the kitchen, pouring everyone a drink.

“Alright, good, you didn’t burn the place down.” Anthony teased.

Lin rolled his eyes.

“Maybe everyone will get champagne except for you, Ramos.” He shot back.

Anthony laughed, and started handing everyone drinks. Lin slugged his arm around you, and Pippa did the same.

“To Hamilton! May it become well-known to those, who, well, care to listen to it.” Lin announced. Everyone chuckled, and raised their glasses.

“To Hamilton!” Every shouted, and chugged their drink.

The little party went well, you chatted with the cast.

You were talking to Jasmine, when Pippa and Renée slid over.

“So, I heard you have a thing for Lin, eh?” She smirked.

Jasmine gasped.

“Pippa!” You groaned. “You promised you wouldn’t tell!” 

“I’m sorry! It just, slipped out!” She defended.

“It’s fine, just please don’t-”

“You have a crush on who?” Daveed interrupted, who was standing behind you the whole time.

“Can it, we’re not discussing it.” You grumbled.

“Aw, but (Y/N)! It’s so cute! You and Lin are like, the perfect match!” Renee gushed.

“Yeah, you both are very talented, and love the theatre!” Pippa added.

“Trust me guys, he deserves better than this.” You gestured to yourself.

Jasmine rolled her eyes.

“Honey, trust me, you’re perfect for him.”

“I doubt he’d like someone like me, though.” You argued.

“He talks about you non-stop. ‘Guys! She’s the best neighbor ever! She helped me write the songs, blah blah (Y/N), blah blah,’” Daveed mocked.

You felt yourself getting hot. 

“I don’t know guys. I mean, I don’t want to start dating him yet, I mean, we’re only just friends-”

“(Y/N), you’ve known him for the longest time. I think you two would be ready.” Jasmine commented.

“I’m…I don’t know, I’m just..not ready. Excuse me.”
You excused yourself from the room, stepping outside.

You took out your phone and scrolled through Twitter.

You liked him too much, and you didn’t know how to deal with it.

“Hey, you alright?” A voice said from behind you.

You turned around, seeing Lin standing there, two glasses full of champagne in his hand.

“Oh, Lin. Hey.” You forced a smile as he handed you a glass.

“Beautiful night, isn’t it?” He commented.

You nodded, taking a sip of the alcohol in your hand. 

“Congratulations, by the way. It was a brilliant show. People are already talking about it on Twitter.” You scrolled through your Twitter feed.

He laughed. “Thank you! And it doesn’t surprise me, honestly. Things get out on social media faster than anything.” He took a sip of his champagne, making a face.

“God, Ant has terrible taste.” 

You chuckled.

“It’s not that bad.”

You two talked and joked for awhile, before coming back into the house.

“Finally, I thought you two were like, doing it.” Daveed commented, causing both of you to blush.

“We were chatting outside, what a lot of sexual tension.” You rolled your eyes.
“Grow up, Diggs.”

“Yeah, grow up Diggs.” Lin echoed.

“Ooh, becoming defensive, are we?” Anthony teased, causing everyone to laugh.

You rolled your eyes.
“Can it, Ramos.”

You sat next to Leslie and Renée, and for the rest of the night you all chatted and joked about the show.

You ended up falling asleep on the couch when everyone was still eating and chatting in the kitchen.

You woke up about an hour later, and stretched.

Someone draped their sweater on you while you were asleep.

It was Lin’s. 

You walked into the kitchen, handing Lin his sweater back and thanking him.

“Ah, the sleeping beauty has awoken.” Anthony smiled.

You rolled your eyes.

“Well, it’s almost twelve o’clock, so I’m going to head home.” You went to grab your coat and things.

“I might go as well.” Lin put down his glass, and grabbed his things as well.

“Aw, walking your girlfriend home.” Jonathan teased.

“Shush up Groff.” Lin warned him, and the cast laughed.

Sooner or later, everyone left slowly after you both left.

You and Lin walked through the city, looking at the sky before you finally got to your apartment.

“So, tonight was fun. Congratulations on your show, again.” You smiled.

 “Thank you, (Y/N).” He grinned, kissing you on your temple before returning to his room.

You walked back into your room, and change into comfier clothes, and collasping on the couch.

You weren’t going to get any sleep, since you napped at Anthony’s.

You spent the rest of the night thinking about what everyone had said.

“He talks about you non-stop.”

“You two are perfect for each other.”

“Lin practically begged me to invite you.”

Does he actually like you back?


Alright! Part 5! Hope you guys enjoy, and I will get to requests this weekend hopefully. Love you all! <3

In My Way - Chapter 5

AO3 link, First Chapter

Genre: Chaptered. Actor!Dan AU, fluff, bit of angst, slow burn, getting together (eventually)

Summary: Fiction. Daniel Howell is 21 and Britain’s newest star. He’s just been cast in the much-anticipated film adaption of Last Man Standing, the popular teen fantasy novel with a huge fanbase hanging off his every tweet. In other words, Dan has made it big.

Phil Lester couldn’t care less. He’s a stressed out PHD student working part time at a bookshop while he struggles to get into post-production. He’s 26 and still lives in a tiny flat on the fifth floor of a building with a lift more broken than it is in use. He loves books, but he thinks big film adaptions screw with the plot too much.

Needless to say, Phil is less than impressed when Last Man Standing is getting filmed in his hometown. And he certainly doesn’t want anything to do with obnoxious, arrogant, so irritatingly perfect leading actor Daniel Howell.

Warnings: Swearing, Ace!Phil, Bi!Dan,

Word Count: 3000-5000 per chapter (ish)

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Slow Burn (2) Masterlist

part one

Anyone But You (ao3) - StarlightRaine

Summary: Although Dan and Phil don’t exactly start off on the right foot, they become fast friends and the most important parts of each other’s lives. However, over the years of knowing each other, Dan’s feelings for Phil morphs into something else. But what will Dan do when he finds out that Phil also has these exact same strange fluttery feelings – feelings that Phil doesn’t feel for Dan but for someone else?

A Wizard’s Misgivings - jilliancares

Summary: Dan Howell’s entire family has been in Slytherin, and there’s no doubt he’d supposed to end up there too. Phil Lester does’t exactly know what to do when he finds himself liking boys, so he’s usually just horrendously mean to them. Oh, and they happen to get cursed and can’t touch!

Colour-Smears Nursery (ao3) - gerardopoly

Summary: After a rough divorce, Dan Howell is left with full custody of his son Dil. For a while, life at home was calm between their little family, and Dan had started to notice that things for them were starting to look up. Except, Dil is going to begin his first year of nursery school, which puts Dan’s mind in a whirlwind of anxiety. With the help of loving friends and one quirky nursery school teacher, perhaps Dan will learn to let things go. And maybe his little family will grow.

First Impressions (Perhaps I Was Wrong) (ao3) - Ablissa

Summary: Phil Lester goes back to university for his third year, expecting to live in the dorms with his childhood best friend PJ. That’s how it’s been for the past years, after all. However, due to a mistake of some sort, he finds himself with a new roommate to spend the semester with. Daniel Howell, three years his junior, has rich brown eyes, a laptop to hide them behind, and not more than two words to spare in Phil’s direction. Phil is no fortune teller, but he foresees the upcoming months will be filled with a whole lot of awkward silence.

In My Way - ineverhadmyinternetphase

Summary: Daniel Howell is 21 and Britain’s newest star. He’s just been cast in the much-anticipated film adaption of Last Man Standing, the popular teen fantasy novel with a huge fanbase hanging off his every tweet. In other words, Dan has made it big. Phil Lester couldn’t care less. He’s a stressed out PHD student working part time at a bookshop while he struggles to get into post-production. He’s 26 and still lives in a tiny flat on the fifth floor of a building with a lift more broken than it is in use. He loves books, but he thinks big film adaptions screw with the plot too much. Needless to say, Phil is less than impressed when Last Man Standing is getting filmed in his hometown. And he certainly doesn’t want anything to do with obnoxious, arrogant, so irritatingly perfect leading actor Daniel Howell.

In The End, I’d Do It All Again (And Again, And Again) (ao3) - thesleepdeprived

Summary: Dan and Phil are in a car accident and Dan is killed with Phil left in a coma, Phil is offered a choice- live through thousands of alternate universes fighting for his and Dan’s one in a million chance at life, or walk away unharmed.

Irresistible (ao3) - silentwriterx

Summary: Dan Howell and his boyfriend, Grayson, had been together for 3 years, and had known each other since their childhood. They helped one another discover themselves, and were there for the other when no one else was. Dan put all of his trust, all of himself, into their relationship, and he was convinced they would be together forever. He never thought that one day, his heart would be torn into shreds, and when that day came, it ruined him. He felt so betrayed, and even more so when he found out how long it had been since his relationship was true.

Rebellion (ao3) - VegaPancakes

Summary: After the Queen died, her son took over. He grew hungry with power. Under hushed words, people would call him The Tyrant. If you talked of such things and got caught, you’d be jailed for life, no matter what age. However, masked groups of people are rebelling against the new King’s system, starting riots, slowly breaking apart the government. The hostages never spoke, even at the brink of death. Now people are talking about teens, as young as fourteen, joining the ranks. Other rumors say that their leader is a teenager himself. Phil Lester has known Dan for a while now. About three years, in fact. They are fantastic friends, maybe even best friends, and they would always tell each other everything. Right? Dan Howell is a secret leader of the Rebels. He doesn’t want Phil to know. Because if Phil find out, he might want to join. And that will get his best friend killed. So once Daniel leaves the gates of Manchester’s Hall for ages 11-18, he puts on his mask and enters a new personality.

Season Seventeen (ao3) - donttouchmeimdangerous

Summary: Dan “perpetually single” Howell is pressured by his friends and family to audition for the TV show The Bachelor. What happens next is a whirlwind of drama and excitement, kisses and betrayal that leave Dan gasping for air. What will happen on set and off stage to help Dan find what he was looking for, even maybe if it’s where he least expected it?

Someplace to Call Home (ao3) - insert_aesthetic_url

Summary: Phil is somewhat reluctant when he is forced to do a project with the lonely, quiet kid. But soon enough, he realises that Dan is so much more than that. He has so much potential but unfortunately, there is something about his past that stops him. Phil promises to help Dan.

About Luhan

Originally posted by Luhan Movie Bar with permission from the movie staff.

On July 24th, 2014, Luhan completed his filming task in the movie “Back to 20” as a rookie actor. From June 18 to July 24, a month filled with joy, bitterness, both sweet and sour feelings, he was humble, hard working, serious, sincere, and as an actor, he’s drawn a perfect period to his first journey as an actor. 

In this one month, Luhan fans continuously communicated with the cast and crew, and surprisingly got to hear a story about him from behind the scenes. This story holds endless warmth as well as bitterness, and the main character of the story is gentle yet resilient. The first time we heard it, we thought that, no matter what, we want more people to know of it.  

After some hard work, finally, today we received permission from the staff to tell you guys this story. 

The beginning of the story is not an ideal one.

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it was rare (I was there)  ◇ based on all too well by taylor swift  

(Her relationship with Bellamy begins and ends with a scarf…)

Notes: Thank you to my wonderful beta-reader Lana ( @marauders-groupie​ ) AO3

warning: smut (mature) and cancer in family

“I have to tell you about him. The guy I drew.”

Her relationship with Bellamy begins and ends with a scarf; the one her grandmother so kindly knitted for her when she was seven, a child busily complaining about how cold it was in North Carolina compared to California. Frankly, Clarke had lost all hope of ever getting it back, because she’d never felt brave enough to contact him - but here she is, returning from the post office carrying a small package in which she knows it is. She’d been able to tell as soon as it was handed to her, the brown wrapping paper crackling at her touch, yet the expected relief was forgotten in the heavy mist of disappointment - Why? Exhaling into the freezing November air, Clarke frantically attempts to replace the only answer to that question she can think of, with something else. However, much to her dismay, she quickly comes to realize that it would not be possible, not if her life depended on it, because the far too vivid memories that are embedded into her brain have her wondering whether it will smell like him; the spicy cologne which clung to his clothes, his favorite dark blue sweater, or even cigarette smoke, if the idiot hasn’t finally made the decision to quit.

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This Is Not Fiction

I was in Los Angeles, the city that is a woman. 

It was one hell of a trip. So much happened. First we had an hour, a little more, all we would have for the trip because timing is everything and this time, timing was our enemy. We had an hour and the world fell away, our hands clasped together, words falling out of our mouths and then an unexpected but lovely moment hurtling us forward. We had an hour and we tried so hard to make that hour last forever and it was enough and it was not nearly enough. 

That night I had a reading at The Last Bookstore in downtown Los Angeles. I wasn’t expecting many people to be there because it was Friday night and the bookstore is downtown and that’s just how I roll, always thinking the least of myself. I was lucky to read with seven amazing women—Kima Jones, Antonia Crane, Pamela Ribon, Nina Bargiel, Mallory Ellis, Kate Spencer, and Karolina Waclawiak. Our host for the evening was the always soulful and generous Zoe Ruiz. Something special happened that night. Every reader was fierce and electric. There were hundreds of people crammed on two levels, standing, sitting, crouching, several deep in all the balconies.

It was a hell of a thing, being in that store that night. 

The room was unbearably hot but miraculously, people stayed. I read last and when I was done, I got a standing ovation, the crowd rising to their feet in this gorgeous wave of energy. It was, by far, a Moment, one of the biggest moments of my life. I stood there and I felt this rush of everything. I felt how far I have come. The signing line lasted ninety minutes and it was still hot and people stood and waited just to talk to me. Words cannot express anything about how overwhelming, unexpected, and gratifying that night was so I can only offer up these meager paragraphs. I will never forget that night. My god. I cannot believe what is happening with my writing. 

I had a bunch of media interviews on Saturday morning, one after the other and by the end, I was absolutely over myself. I am grateful for the press but so interviewed out.

L.A. and I talked on the phone for a while and then I had lunch with Mallory in my hotel room and we talked and talked. Mallory has perfect skin and perfect teeth and gorgeous eyes and she can wear the hell out of a dress. Just know that. We have a delightful time when we hang out. Our Twitter followers ship us and it’s adorable. I get it. We’re pretty interesting ladies. Twitter keeps saying we are OTP. While we were hanging out, I said, “Mallory, what is OTP?” She laughed but she also explained the lingo and then I laughed. I am SO OLD. 

Which reminds me. At the reading, Mallory’s grandmother was in the front row and she simply beamed with pride as her granddaughter read about how to deal with criticism and also male novelist literary jokes. It was so cool to see that. You couldn’t tell grandmother a damn thing that night. She knew, and rightly so, that her grandaughter is the shit. 

There was also, during the Q & A, a woman who wondered why all the readers talked about sexuality (not so accurate), because she was deeply concerned with global economic inequality. I answered her question and I’m still pleased with my answer. 

Saturday evening, I saw my friend Amber in Neil LaBute’s Reasons to Be Pretty which is showing at The Geffen Playhouse. Amber is an actress but I actually know her as a writer. I published a poem of hers at PANK and we’ve done literary events together and so on. Anyway, it was really cool to see her doing her thing on stage. The show is interesting. I am not a fan of LaBute but there’s a lot to chew on about gender and beauty and relationships–a very dense script. GO SEE IT. The cast is stellar, the set is basically a Transformer, and the theatre seating is comfortable. I went with my friends Zoe, Casey and Josh. Casey and Josh were also in LA for my reading and having them there throughout the weekend was the loveliest. 

After the play, we went for a drink with Amber and her friends, one of whom is a TV show creator and we then proceeded to have a peak Los Angeles experience that I am still giggling about. That city is ridiculous in the best possible way. 

I was riding on the high of being in my favorite city but the weekend was also laced with melancholy. I felt every emotion ever. I was hurting. We both were. I was a little angry at circumstance. I was frustrated at things I don’t understand and things that are out of my control. 

I had a meeting Sunday afternoon with an amazing woman writer/director/producer where we talked about Things and Possibilities.

It was a weekend of events where I kept thinking, “I wish you were here.”

Sunday evening, I went to dinner with Casey and Josh and we had amazing Chinese food and drinks and conversation and they were really good to me. We also beheld an amazing view of the city at night, all glitter and glam. 

The next morning, there was so much traffic but I did something impulsive, found us one last moment.

Later, on the drive home, I offered a way out, as I have done probably too many times. I was crisply told to make that the last time. 


I do not particularly enjoy feeling things. I shut myself off for many years so this allowing myself my emotions thing is kind of new and kind of a pain in the ass. For the past several days, I have been drilling into myself, “See the world as it is. See the world as it is. See the world as it is.” I want to write these words one hundred eleven times. Or is it a hundred and thirty three times? I want to burn these words into my skin and tattoo them on the insides of my lips and eyelids. 

Or I remind myself  I need to be patient,  I need to be patient, I need to accept that I do not get to shape the world as I want. That sort of thing only happens in fiction and this is not fiction. This is a huge, messy, exhilarating life.

I would not choose anything but this. I’m probably not supposed to say that but while we may not get to shape the world as we want, we do get to feel what we feel. 

Sometimes, emotion is too much. I wish myself to be a robot. I wish to break myself of hope, the allure of possibility, needing reassurance, the foolishness of fairy tales, of hearing words and hoping the truth behind those words will be enough to overcome. I want to break myself of everything that makes me human but then, what would I be?

No. I don’t want to break myself of these things. I want to allow myself these things while also seeing the world as it is. 

In truth, my ability to hope is such an indelible part of who I am. No matter what has happened, I have always held on to hope, even when it was the frailest glimmer of a thing. I wrote a whole novel about it, in fact. 

That hour and some was everything. And enough. I will always want more. We, I think, will always want more. May we be so lucky as to get that more someday. This is not fiction. 


Rita Volk talks, Season Two Faking it and Karmy with Starry Mags

Q) Do you think there is a lot of pressure knowing so many LGBT youths look up to you and Amy as a role model, and were you happy to take this on?

A) There definitely was a pressure at first because you never know how people are going to react to something, especially a concept like this. But once the show unfolfed I think people started to see that it was coming from a relatable and heartfelt place and we somehow over just eight weeks got this amazing fandom. This group of young fans who are going through their own self-discovery and are so devoted to these characters because they see them as this outlet. So, yes, knowing that my character is beloved and is put on a certain plane – I don’t want to screw this up. That scares me to think I can do that because, given the concept, we have such a vulnerable fanbase that needs to be protected. There is definitely the pressure on all of us to be a good influence, to give these kids a resource in whatever way. But at the same time, seeing the reception so far and getting a chance to talk to some of these fans, you realize they’re so invested in this story and they’re so loyal. So, it’s not as scary or overwhelming as it seemed in the beginning. As long as you have good intentions behind what you are doing, that pressure sort of wears off. I feel like I’m literally part of this new group now, all of those LGBT kids who have essentially invited me in and I couldn’t be more honored about it.

Q) Were you nervous at all about fans reaction to the finale and what was your own when you read the script?

A) Well, I think we all pretty much expected that people were going to freak out. And for good reason. Amy made a huge mistake. When I read it, I was like, “What the hell are you doing?!” And I’m the character, I’m supposed to know this girl. But when you start analyzing it, you realize that she was drunk, pissed off and she is in high school. That’s not a recipe for good decisions. I get it though. As a viewer myself of my favorite shows, I’m the one sitting in front of the TV going like, “They did what?!” Because we all got invested in these shows and characters and we feel like we know what should happen. But the reality is that people are stupid and we all screw up. Nothing would be interesting  if we didn’t. So, at that point, you have to trust that the writers know what they are doing and that no matter how much the characters screw up it serves a greater end. And we have some amazing writers. I just really hope the fans that may have been offended by it know that there are individual reasons that drive these characters and these reasons will become more clear as the story goes.

Q) Does Amy remind you of yourself in any ways?

A) Yes, she definitely does. I relate to her in so many ways, it’s kind of eerie. Katie (Stevens) and I always talk about how oddly perfect the casting turned out because we relate to our characters so much. I don’t have a lot of friends, but the friends I do have are genuine. I grew up very insulated and I think being from an immigrant background had a lot to do with it. It’s you and yours against the world and you keep those people close. So, I never understood having fifty “friends” at any given time. I just didn’t grow up that way. But  I think that gives you a better perspective on what is real and what is important. It is easier to filter out the stuff that doesn’t mater. And I think this mindset kind of drives Amy. She is loyal to the friends she does have and she has this foresight to realize that a lot of the things her peers care about isn’t going to matter in four years. A lot of it is BS and we put too much pressure on ourselves to be cool, be social or be whatever we think we have to be. What I love about Amy is that she realizes the importance of having real friends and she doesn’t give a shit what other people think about her. I definitely wish I had more of her sense of self when I was sixteen.

Q) How do you think Amy will process her decision at the end of the finale?

A) I think she will regret it. Big time. She’ll be distraught over it. I’m going to want to give her a big hug. For like five hours.

Q) What consequences do you think Amy’s decision will have on Amy’s conception of her sexuality and identity?

A) Amy isn’t going to wake up wondering if she likes boys. Boy or girl, it makes sense to me why Amy slept with Liam (Greg Sulkin). They connect through their mutual love, and then hate, for Karma. At first, it seems that Amy and Liam belong on the opposite poles of the universe because they represent totally different things, but in the last few episodes it is clear that both of their lives revolve around Karma and that becomes their bond. And in a weird way, it makes sense. It’s a strong bond. Taking sexuality and gender out of it, it becomes two people who in this weird way bond over their mutual obsession over someone else. It makes sense to me. It wasn’t the right decision, but it is understandable. It doesn’t mean that Amy likes boys. Or that Liam likes Amy. I don’t think people are black and white like that.

Q) Fans have enjoyed the push and pull between Amy and Karma all season and the finale left them in pieces. What would you say to fans about Season Two?

A) Take a breather and be patient with us. Don’t give up hope just yet! Hopefully, we’ll be around for long enough to tell this full story, with all the layers that come with it. I kind of have to ask…if Karma and Amy wound up happily together by Season One, where would the story go? It wouldn’t be very interesting and, more importantly, very genuine. It isn’t just about throwing stuff in to prolong the show and keep everyone guessing. I mean, that’s part of it, because that’s what makes for good, suspenseful storytelling. But it is also about showing how things are in real life. And in real life, it takes a little longer to get to that happy ending. It’s a struggle and we mess up and we have to pick up the pieces. And that’s what will happen in Season Two.

Q) In Season Two, would you like to explore more of the common ground between Amy and Lauren that was presented in the finale?

A) Yes!! I love Bailey [Buntain]! I think she is so incredibly talented. And I can’t think of one person who doesn’t love Lauren. She is a complete bitch, but we love watching her and that says something about the actress playing her. My scene with her at the end was one of my favorites to shoot. We see this human side to her as a character and as an actress she is just awesome to work off of. I’ll coerce the writers to write up like an Amy and Lauren day where they try to hang out and be sisters. They might wind up killing each other, but I have hope!

Q) Assuming Karma does eventually find out about Amy and Liam, do you think she and Amy can get past such a huge betrayal?

A) I really hope so. I think it would take a lot of time, but I think they can.

Q) There is a lot of ambiguity about if it was Amy’s first time when she slept with Liam. What can you share?

A) It would be a shock to me if it wasn’t because she is so young and still not in tune with her sexuality. I think it is, yes. And I know that’s why the fans got so upset. Maybe the scene wouldn’t have been a big deal if she wasn’t a virgin, but I think she is. We all make mistakes and this one will cost her a lot, unfortunately.

Q) Was there anything you added to your role as Amy that wasn’t originally scripted for you?

A) One of the things Carter [Covington] said to me when we first started shooting a year ago was that in television, you have to find as much truth in the character you are playing as possible. When you are shooting a movie, you might have a while to transform yourself into someone totally different only to finish the role after a few months. But on a show, each week is different and you don’t know what will happen in the span of a season. You might be that character for years to come and that characters starts growing with you. That’s what I love about television, you find as much common ground with your character as possible and your idiosyncrasies start coming out. I don’t know exactly what I’m adding to her. I don’t know if it is possible to verbalize, but I guess its just that…those little things that make me – me. I’m starting to really know her and think I am morphing into her more comfortable now.

Q) Is there anything else about Season One you would like to share or say to fans for their support?

A) I really just truly want to thank them. A year ago, I was hustling and auditioning and this was just another audition. I can’t even believe what it has led to in the span of eight twenty-two minute episodes. I can’t imagine where it is going to go, but seeing these young fans and how they love this show, I can’t even explain it. It’s so f***ing cool!

Once Upon A Kiss - A Steroline Fanfic

Once Upon A Kiss

It had been six months since Elena had been locked in the Salvatore crypt cursed to sleep until Bonnie died and she awakened. Six months since Stefan told Caroline that he would wait for her to be ready for him. Six months since Lily and her creepy family of heretics had made a home in Mystic Falls. And six months of Damon spiralling, with only Stefan and Bonnie being able to pull him away from the edge.

Six months of waiting, healing, and putting herself back together and she was finally ready. She was ready to love Stefan and to have him love her in return. She was ready to be happy, to move on and live her life with Stefan.

Caroline was on her way to the boarding house to tell Stefan when suddenly her world went dark.

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