how my heart feels

taureanprincess  asked:

hi I read your post about walking around a year ago and everything feeling blurry and scary and it touched my heart a lot because that is how I feel now. I am 19 and feeling very lost and scared and like life has no direction. any dreams I had are kind of thrown away because of heartbreak or fear or confusion. Seeing you doing better and being happier and moving forward from a scary time in a year gives me hope. I hope I am in a better place in a year, the last two have been hard

don’t get me wrong i think last year i was in a much more optimistic (even naive) place, and while i’m still hopeful, right now is tough. and that’s the point, i might feel worse but despite that i’m just appreciative to have found a home in a place that used to feel distant and strange. i’m grateful to have grown. mostly it’s reflection on a year ago: what it felt like to move; and now: what it feels like to have lived. i feel like when shit is hard like this it’s helpful maybe to find the kernels we appreciate

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-The Secret History

Reminder. If you’re rping a canon character and feeling insecure about your writing, or fearing replacement, simply remember that your muse is not just a duplicate. No one else will be able to breathe life into that character the way you do. No one else will feel the exact way you feel about your muse. There will be people who value your muse and never stop writing with you no matter what. There will be people who appreciate your portrayal, no matter how many other versions are out there. Always remember why you made your blog. Never let anyone or anything cast your passion out of your heart !!

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best surprise ever: a happy Mark popping on the screen throwing confetti 🎉🎁

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Listen to me. I’ve seen ‘em all, and I’m telling you - and this is the honest-to-Zeus truth - you got somethin’ I’ve never seen before. I feel it right down to these stubby bowlegs of mine. There is nothing you can’t do, kid.

Let me make one thing perfectly clear; If you decide to love me and you want us to be together I have to be your number one priority.
If I feel like I can’t rely on you, or if I think other people are more important to you than I am - I’m gone.
I’m not being a ‘princess’… I’m not demanding to be doted on and fussed over - all I’m asking for is the same level of love and commitment that I’d give to you.
Because when I love - I love hard. With me it’s 100% all the way…. You’re my one, my everything, my be-all and end-all… If you’re lucky enough to be the guy I love the sun pretty much rises and sets because of you.
But I’m not putting my heart on the line if you’re not going to give me everything you’ve got…. it’s as simple as that.
I promise you I’m worth it - but you have to choose me and only me…. Otherwise, you’ll lose me.
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*Xuezhang = Upperclassman/senpai

**These characters are from ‘Their Story’

Second year Xuezhang meets first year Qin Xiong aahhh!

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You were the first to ask me if I’m okay. It’s not even a big deal, but those words…strangely comforted me.