Twd rant. Mostly about Caryl, but still.
I wonder if Gimple and Co. ever truly stop to think what this fandom and its ships mean to some of us. About how the terrible writing and character separation affects us.
For some of us, it’s so much more than a tv show.
For some of us, the couples that we ship are about so much more than kissing and sex.
Some of us NEED this fandom. To escape from, to cope with, to shut out the world. We need writers who don’t abandon our characters.
Some of us need our OTP to FINALLY get together after a million seasons of build up because it gives us hope that love can exist and be beautiful even in tragedy and darkness.
I am one of these people.
I suffer from an anxiety disorder and panic disorder. Sometimes it’s hard to leave my apartment or go to the dining hall and get lunch. I’ve been in fandoms before TWD, but this fandom has brought me out of my shell so much. I have related to these characters more than any other tv show. I have related to and learned from Carol and Daryl–my two favorites. Although I am getting better at coping with my anxiety and panic attacks, it’s still hard. But this show, this fandom, have been so helpful to me. I’ve made friends who get me. They get the struggles of this fandom and have similar life struggles as me. This fandom has helped me to embrace myself and my geeky fangirl self. I’ve discovered new hobbies through this fandom. New ways to channel my emotions and thoughts.
Through this fandom, I found my OTP in Caryl. I grew up with parents who have always cared for me and loved me unconditionally, but didn’t really love each other unconditionally. Carol and Daryl have shown me what true, unconditional love and acceptance can and should look like. They’ve fought, been separated, been hurt by each other and by others, and they have never once stopped accepting each other. Finding each other. Loving each other.
Gimple and Co. taking the time to really think about these characters and the fans that love them would do wonders for this show I believe. Trolling, misleading, and teasing fans isn’t funny or cute. Now it’s just frustrating and makes us want to leave the fandom, and that’s heartbreaking for some of us.
As a Caryler, finally having these two characters come together and be open with their love for each other would mean the world to me and more. And I know that I’m not alone in that.
I know this is technically “just a show”. And the characters are fictional. But for me, it’s been so much more. It’s changed my life.
And that’s my rant.