how much it MEANS to me

Just because you were mean, doesn’t mean I will speak ill of you

Just because you ignored me, doesn’t mean I won’t smile as you walk by on the street.

Just because you didn’t understand my heart, or me doesn’t make me creepy or weird.

Just because you can’t fathom that the world is made of people who care of others, doesn’t mean I’ll stop caring.

Just because you broke my heart, doesn’t mean I won’t love again.

Just because you don’t understand how much I’ve hurt doesn’t mean I won’t heal.

Just because you have Ms. Right Now, doesn’t mean Ms. Right will be waiting.

Just because we can’t be together, doesn’t mean I won’t love you.

Just because I love you,

doesn’t mean I want you.

—  Demetra Demi 

Taylor!! So it’s been eleven months since you followed me (!!) and I just wanted to take that opportunity to say thank you:) If someone had told me this time a year ago that you would even ever know my name, I would have bet them a million dollars they were wrong. You have gone above and beyond and exceeded my wildest dreams (haha) and I just wanted to let you know how grateful I am for all of it - for you following me, for the Swiftmas presents, for Valentine’s Day, for hanging out with me at 3am when I’m doing homework or having a hard time falling asleep, and for being such an outstanding friend, role model, and human being. I cannot even put into words how much it means to me. I’d like to say that next month is our one year friendaversary, but honestly, you’ve been a friend to me since I was eight years old, so I guess we’re nearing nine years? Thank you for always being there for me, I hope you know I’ll always be here for you. I love you so much and I’ll stand by you forever and always. Thank you for everything. Thank you thank you thank you thank you. Miss you, Soph <3


Roman Holiday

We’ll be looking for sunlight

Or the headlights

Till our wide eyes burn blind


Pairing: Y/N/Luke

Rating: NC-17 (pls don’t be a child)

Words: 10k

Description: You and Luke are poor, reckless, but pretty much crazy in love. That’s pretty much it. 

A/N: This is just something I wrote in honor of me seeing my favorite person ever perform two nights ago, and Halsey’s incredible album coming out last week. This is one of my favorite songs on the album, and I don’t claim to know the meaning of every Halsey song. So please don’t come into my askbox with a lengthy explanation about how I butchered the “true meaning” of the song because I just went with what I felt was right. Alright, hope you enjoy and tell me what you think!



The soft purr of the beaten down Toyota rumbled through the inside of the vehicle enough to make goosebumps rise on your skin. The vibrations rolled through you so naturally that you forgot for a moment what normal, well maintenanced cars probably felt like. The seats weren’t butter smooth leather or imported from Italy, but it was the nicest texture you’ve ever felt across your bare skin at nights when none of you could afford a night at a cheap motel.

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I can’t believe that I hit 400 followers. I am but a smol meme child who posts mostly on queue through my phone. But hey, I guess 400+ people enjoy it! I still feel like a #n00b but it works.

You guys all mean so much to me, and I cant believe there are that many people who give enough of a crap about me to click follow. Just that much puts me in awe. I’ve gotten so many laughs and comfort from everyone, I wouldnt be the same tbh. I really cant express how much this means to me. Thank you all so much. Really. From the bottom of my heart.

Bolded are my close friends/IRL friends

Bolded and Italicized are my very best friends


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If I missed anyone please let me know!

I’d say it’s not bad for my first follow forever~!

here’s to many more friends and good times on this website!


my friend went to Ariana’s concert this summer and i didn’t get to go bc the day she played was during the only ten days i was away… i was devastated…… and she bought my a tshirt and a bracelet, and she gave them to me today at school… i wanted to cry so much

I can’t.

Why not? 

Because right now I’m really hoping that this means you’re going to change. You kiss me and it – it cracks me open and all of my stupid, messy hopes come tumbling out in “maybes” and “somedays” and how is that fair? 

Well who the hell cares about fair? 

I do. 


Omg. This is Laura saying that she doesn’t want to hero worship Carmilla anymore, that she doesn’t want to hope that Carmilla will change when she has told her time and again that she can never be anything more than she is. This is Laura acknowledging how much Carmilla affects her, how much she needs her, but she won’t do that to Carm again. She won’t make her out to be the heroic vampire again. 

And this is Carmilla saying, well who the hell cares? In an incredibly heartbreaking fashion saying, I don’t care whats fair or not. I don’t care if it hurts me or not. I just want you. 

And Laura saying, I do. I care if its fair to you. I can’t love you like this, always hoping that you can be something that you’re not. I love you too much to do that to you. 

Breaks my heart. 

anonymous asked:

Hi Sunmin, I am a great fan of your art! I'm studying concept art. I just wonder how you study digital painting.I think you have an amazing sense of color and light. The way of using lighting (shadows and highlights in right place) and choosing colors are very hard for me. I want to educate myself about digital painting and found it quite difficult. I wonder how a beginner like me start to study painting in effective ways. Thanks!

Its you again Anon! 

First of all thank you so much for the kind words. It really means a lot to me to know people enjoy my work. I get discouraged all the time working around a lot of talented people haha. ANYWAY lets get to your main question!

Originally posted by jaimelagrenadine

I have to tell you though, I still think of myself of more of a draftsman than a painter. During my years in art school, I avoided color like the plague until I realized that there was no way I could survive working in the real world with just drawing. So this means, I’m still struggling with making decisions on color and light and it takes me some time to come to a finish.

BUT maybe it was a good thing that I avoided color so, so much because that meant that I focused on value all the time! I would always make sure my value grouping is simple and easy to read in a glance. 

Originally posted by thelucidnation

When I started pushing myself into color, I started panicking and lost my sense of value. Because of this, my first paintings turned out absolutely horrible. I actually have them with me, but they are deadly to the human eye so I will never show them to you haha. I occasionally look at them either when I’m really bored and I want to make my eyes feel like I dropped lemon juice on them, or to feel how much I improved since then. The two kinda go hand in hand.

Quickly I realized, if the value isn’t right, then the whole image isn’t going to work anyway. Make sure you have a value grouping in mind and keep that until the very finish of your painting.

When it comes to color, I’m just going to have to tell you that its going to take practice. I personally have a secret stash tumblr of my color inspirations. I usually just scroll through and look at them just to be inspired. Sometimes I’ll come across color combos that I would have never thought of myself and memorize them to use later. Usually the more you paint, the more you’ll understand what kinds of combos work well. 

Originally posted by animeismywhore

When it comes to lighting, I’d say to observe the things around you. Usually i’d be walking around maybe on the way to work, or going to get lunch looking around for cool lighting. I think the more you literally see and observe things, the better you will get at it. A lot of the times when i’m painting lighting situations, Id think about the story first and think ‘Oh hey! That lighting I saw that one time would totally emphasize the story point of this piece’ and try to emulate it as much as I can.

You can watch movies, but theres something about seeing certain lighting with your own eyes, feeling the warmth or the coolness of the air. You get this magical feeling that adds that extra umph to when you paint it into a piece.

Its a bit hypocritical for me to give this kind of advice since I’m pretty much working all day and then some more that I never really get to see the outside world, but you have to go out and experience whats out there. 

I… really should do that more.

Originally posted by fuckyesdamejulieandrews

The last thing i’m going to say is a bit hippie-ish, but this is what i rely on the most.

When I’m painting in color and light, I put myself inside my painting. I think of the smell, the air, the vibe of the situaiton. I really try to think of what it FEELS like. I try to put myself in this emotion so that when people see it, they will feel it too.

You always see so many paintings that are extremely well painted that its pretty much flawless, but it sparks no emotion, and there are also paintings that may look like they lack in foundation, but makes you feel so many feels. 

Originally posted by olivia-the-jock

Anywho, I hope that was helpful.

Hopefully i’ll talk to you again soon Anon!

Originally posted by timetravlin13

i love owl city because when i was only 12 years old, depression hit me hard and everything was boring, almost meaningless. searching owl city on youtube and bringing up fireflies gave me a hit of nostalgia that promised me everything would be okay. song after song i decided to click on made me see the world through new eyes, how lying on my bed listening to maybe i’m dreaming allowed me to bring back the color i was missing. listening to an owl city song made the small things feel more than magical. when i was 14, i fell out with a girl who used to mean a lot to me. i was completely alone. beautiful times came out that week and quite possibly saved me. adam young is a remarkable musician who holds so much talent. in this moment i often overlook the things owl city has given me, but he has given me so much, like endless creativity, excitement over the music and concerts, and the ability to see things in a new light. thank you adam, i appreciate you in every way. God bless you. ♡ -ally


#HappyJungkookDay 2015 // my favourite sides of jk // x

keep shining bright, kookie! you’re gold and you should know that, but keep that fire, keep that passion, because your drive is one of the best things about you. happy birthday!

you know when you see a guy and you’re like daaang he gon’ grow up fine as like the bottomless void at the end of hell but you know he’s already fine as perhaps the first level of hell but he’s kinda quiet kinda mysterious so you’re like i’ll see how this pans out bc i am WILLING to take on this much mystery i am WILLING to get to know him and grow with him and peel this MAJESTIC ONION LAYER BY LAYER EVEN IF IT MEANS CRYING ALONG THE WAY?

yeah that’s me with jeon jungkook. now he’s a grownass man; i am so proud of everything that he’s become, and excited to see everything that he will become.

I’ve never really expressed my opinion on this but it’s been bothering me lately so I guess now is the time. I’ve never had a big issue with helping people who are trying to get noticed by Taylor, especially if they are accounts I’ve talked to on here before and have built a relationship with. It’s sad to me that I used to message with a lot of people, but now that I’ve got a lot of followers and met Taylor, my inbox is just flooded with constant messages of people asking me to reblog things. I try to help as many people as I can, just because I know how much it means to have Taylor like something, but I really wish that everyone would just blog what they want to blog and try and build friendships on here rather than just use others to try and get attention. OF COURSE we all want Taylor to like and reblog our posts, but we shouldn’t obsess over it. If I have helped you in the past and I recognize your URL and know your story, then absolutely I am beyond ecstatic to help you because you WANTED to get to know me. If you’ve never talked to me before and just message me constantly asking for help and constant reblogs, why don’t you try having a real conversation with me first because that is what this website is about.

anonymous asked:

You make me really happy and your art inspires me so much and i can relate to your characters so much and im not good with words but i wish i could tell you how much it all means to me

im v glad to hear that!! thank you!

Hey guys. Don’t mean to be a Debby downer but my grandma just passed away, so I’m going to be on hiatus for a while. I don’t know for how long but it will be a couple days. I’m so sorry. Thank you all so much for 30k, you have no idea how much your suupport means to me. I’ll still be active on my main blog, but I don’t really want to have to worry about making sure the queue is filled for this page on top of everything else I have going on right now. I hope you all can understand -Catt

anonymous asked:

#38 and calum


You were now pressed against the wall of his hotel room, while Calum’s lips were inches away from yours.

“I’m involved with someone Cal.” You warned him.

“That guy doesn’t love you the way that I can Y/N. You just met him ! I can take of you better, I can treat you better.” He said, coming closer to you.

“I can love you better… but only if you let me.” He added.

“You’re gone so much, how can you say all those things when you’re barely in town? I don’t mean to be selfish Calum but those are lies and you know it.” You cried.

Your words were like pouring salt on his open wounds. 

“I-I can’t afford to love you Calum.” You stammered.

His expression turned cold and he slowly backed away from you.

“Fine. I won’t press the issue anymore.” He said, picking up his suitcases.

“W-where are you going?” You asked, your eyes threatening to let the tears fall.

“I don’t know. Somewhere else. I don’t want to stay where I’m not wanted.” He told you.

Calum reached the door and as he turned the doorknob, your whole friendship flashed before your eyes. You couldn’t let him leave and possibly never seeing him again when you knew you felt the same as he did.

“WAIT!” You yelled, running to Calum.

“I love you too.” You said, wiping your tears away.

“Really?” He asked.

“You’re not just saying that because I d-” He started, but you cut him off with a kiss.

Calum dropped his bags and leaned down, picking you up and wrapping your legs around him. He smiled against the kiss and you tangled your fingers in his thick, coarse hair.

When he removed his lips from yours, he seemed confused.

“I thought you said you co-’” He started.

“I know what I said and I meant it. I am scared of being with you…but my love for you trumps any fear I’ve ever had.” You smiled, and he kissed your forehead.


Goodbye. I’ll see you all in therapy.

Send me a number + a boy !



2 years in the making. Thank you @bobbysimmons for all the help and keeping me focused on this stupid purple thing, I love you man! If you know me then you know how big of a deal this is. I literally had a nervous breakdown while building this bike. It’s been the best and worst experience of my life thus far building this bike. Thank you so fucking much for the support Bobby it means the fucking world to me. 😢😎♋️💕 #momcam #akronhottboyz #ahbffahb

I Guess It’s Time for a Break

Thank you to everyone that sent me such nice messages. Y’all have no idea how much it means to me. My confidence in what I’m doing just isn’t there right now. Every time I start working, I end up frustrated and it makes working even more difficult. I feel like there is a lot going on around me right now. School workload is starting to pick up, I’m worried about my future as an artist, I’m worried about money, etc, etc. I’ve been having trouble keeping my thoughts in order. I think the pressure and stress is starting to get to me, so I think this break is probably necessary.

I don’t know how long it will be. For those that have commissioned me, I’m sorry about the wait. I will try to get things done as soon as I can. I don’t want to end up giving you a bad product because of my issues. Your patience is greatly appreciated.

To everyone, thank you for the support and patience. It means so much to me. I just don’t want to let anyone down and I always feel like I’m doing that some how.

Thank you.

Hopefully I’ll feel better soon.

shadowclam101 asked:

What inspired you to write each of your songs? They're pretty awesome btw And I hope you keep rising up.

Thank you so much!!!
Well, I’ll go down the list.

Lock It Up:
I was/have been in a situation(s) where I know me and a guy would work out if we were both staying in the same place. It’s happened before, and I realize how attached I get to the idea, and I have to tell myself to lock these feeling away and move on.

It’s how I want everyone to live. This could mean a variety of things, living unmasked could mean accepting your sexuality, accepting the fact you fucking LOVE dungeons and dragons, accepting a problem you have and working to fix it, owning what you consider your flaws and everything that makes you you.

Can’t Stop Thinking: 
Many many many many times I’ve been infatuated with a straight man. I’ve seen them get hurt by women and I know I could treat them so much better. I know that it would never work out and I accept it, but this song is written from the perspective of when I’m just starting to become infatuated, and realizing that the boy is still infatuated with his ex girlfriend. 

The Goodbye Song:
I talked to my first boyfriend on and off for about 5 years. He was my first infatuation, he was what made me realize I was gay. I loved him very much, and in some ways I’ll always have a love for him, but, it got super toxic. It got to the point that I had to make a decision to stop talking to him, and essentially reduce his presence in my life a lot because I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. It took me 5 years. The Goodbye Song is my goodbye to him, the idea of us, and the love we once had. 

anonymous asked:

The last time I was at a Brestyans Invitational the JO girls were a lot better than Aly and Alicia on bars? Weird?

Part of that is probably because the requirements aren’t as much so they have more time to focus on cleaning up and technique instead of worrying about catching skills they’re not naturally good at to build a high enough d-score to make them competitive in the all-around. I know when Talia and April were there, they would always complain about bars and being terrible at them, even with L10 routines? Which reminds me of Talia’s elite bars…my fave. Her Gienger LOL gurl…and a double pike. BLESS. But I mean, Brestyan’s must have SOME girls who are naturally good there, kinda like how WOGA had Sam Ogden as the opposite of the ‘WOGA type’ and didn’t really know wtf to do with her, I’m sure Brestyan has some little Madison Kocians running around and he just is terrified of them and hides in his office with his vacuum while she teaches herself Onos and Nabievas.