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anonymous asked:

Hello! I really like your blog. Can I ask to write about how RFA + Saeran forgot about MC's birthday and missed it? If it's possible from their viewpoint.

Oh boy, that got so long, these are basically mini-fics, I’m just too lazy to take it out of the topics lolol. Hope you enjoy it! ^^

   RFA + Saeran forgetting MC’s birthday


  • His new musical debuted that night, after it was over, he ran to the dressing room looking for you, but… you weren’t there?
  • He asked the staff if you were still in your seat, they said they didn’t even see you that night.
  • “Oh, she must be with Jaehee.” He texted both of you, none of you texted back. Weird…
  • He called you, nothing. He called Jaehee, she answered, but there was some loud music playing. “Jaehee, is MC with you?”
  • “WHAT??? ZEN, WHERE ARE YOU??? ARE YOU OUTSIDE???” she was yelling
  • Then it hit him… SHIT! It was today! Your birthday!!! How could he forget that?
  • He saw you in the morning, you sounded so excited, but you were always so bubbly, he didn’t even notice you were especially excited that day. Oh god… just remembering your beautiful smile made his heart sink in guilty. Why didn’t you say anything?
  • “Wake up, Zen! She’s not like you to be bragging about her own  birthday!” he thought. Yes, you were nothing like him at all, you were so sweet, so selfless… he was a selfish workaholic who abandoned her girlfriend in her first birthday with you! Ugh… he was the worst boyfriend ever!
  • His colleagues invited him to an after party, he declined. He needed to know where your party was happening… Calling you would be the most embarrassing and hurtful thing he could ever do!
  • Calling Jaehee seemed hopeless. Yoosung? Yeah, obviously not!  Seven would tease him for not knowing where the party was. There was only one person discreet enough he could call… but it was Jumin fucking Han! God… asking that jerk a favor made him feel sick, but it was for MC… he would do anything for his precious girlfriend.
  •  Jumin answered quickly, the music wasn’t too loud, he was probably a little away from the crowd, that antisocial freak! No…  he needed to ask him a favor, it wasn’t the time to cuss him out. “Where are you? MC is concerned” he said in a monotone tone.
  •  “I need to ask you something, but you have to promise me you won’t say anything! If you say something, I swear I’ll…” “You’re about to ask me a favor, yet you’re threatening me? How bold…” “LISTEN, YOU JERK! I get it, I’m an asshole, ok? I screwed up her birthday! You have no idea how much I regret it… I…” no, he could not do that talking with Jumin, pull yourself together! “I need to know the address of the party…”
  •  “Are you serious? You really don’t know?” “Don’t make me feel worse, dude! I can do that by myself!” “I’m not doing it on purpose, I’m just reminding you of your irresponsibility… did you even get her a present?” “DUUUUUUDE! I TOLD YOU I COULD MAKE MYSELF FEEL WORSE! OH GOD!”
  •  “Zen, pull yourself together, please. This is quite embarrassing for me too… think objectively, what can you do right now? There must be something…” Zen thought for a few seconds… there was something he could do!
  • “Hey, jerk! I thought of something! Tell me the address and I’ll take care of everything else! I just need a prop I saw backstage and…” “What do I get in return?” “DUDE, ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?”
  •  “I’m a business man, I need to know what will be my gain on this.” He could almost see the smirk on that son of a bitch’s face. “Fine! There’s something I can do along with my… surprise for MC. Give me the address and see for yourself.” “But…” “Just trust me on this one, ok? Now here’s what you need to do…”
  • You were dancing with Seven, he was making silly moves to make you laugh and distract you from your concern about your boyfriend.
  • Were you mad? Nah, why would you? It was his career after all… I mean, should you be mad about your boyfriend forgetting your birthday? The first one with you as a couple? Even if he couldn’t ditch work, he saw you in the morning, he should had said something! A day has fucking 24 hours, Zen! Calling you wouldn’t take more than a few minutes, for fuck’s sake. Yep, you were mad.
  • Seven stepped away from you a little, you looked like you were gonna punch someone. Then, he stared at the little stage on the nightclub, you followed his gaze and… what was Jumin doing up there?
  • “Is this thing on? Is it? Okay…” he said in the microphone, then he cleared his throat and took a piece of paper from his pocket “Yes, good evening, ladies and gentlemen. We gathered here today to celebrate our dear friend, MC’s birthday tonight.” A blue light showed up to your face as people applauded you, what was Jumin doing? This was so embarrassing…
  • “I sincerely hope it was a day of joy for you, MC, that you received all the love and affection from your friends and family. And… I hope you’re prepared right now… for the ultimate demonstration of love from your boyfriend.” You could hear people making “uuuhh…” sounds. “He made me say this tacky speech and, to quote him, ‘I apologize for being late, I’m selfish and I care too much about my image, that’s why I didn’t even consider not doing that musical today. However… to show you how much I love you and how sorry I am, I’m letting go of my image today, I’m even letting go of my pride and letting a jerk read my apologize for you.’ Oh… I’m, I’m the jerk right now. Interesting… anyway, enjoy your boyfriend’s gift, MC!” he got off the stage still muttering “How ungrateful…”
  •  The nightclub staff carried a huge cake to the stage. Oh god… you knew where this was going, oh no… Yep. Your boyfriend came out of the cake wearing only underwear with a decorative bow on it and… freaking cat ears on his head.
  • Seven was laughing hard, Jaehee was feeling bold after a couple of drinks and took a lot of pictures, Yoosung was passed out on the corner and didn’t see anything, Jumin kept his head low trying not to let everybody see him chuckling, and you… were still a little mad, but it was impossible not to feel happy to see him (and maybe a little turned on)
  • So you just went up on that stage and gave him a quick kiss on the lips, he whispered “happy birthday” and you smiled softly, it was impossible not to smile right now.


  •  “Yoosung, I let your green shirt on the hanger, oh, and be careful when you go to the bathroom, I think there’s something wrong with the lock… The roast beef is on the oven, don’t touch it! I’ll just go to the convenience store and see if they have that sauce we liked the other day, ok?”
  • “Mmmmhmm” he mumbled, staring at his laptop’s screen. You couldn’t bother wondering if he was really listening, you were in such a hurry to get everything done.
  • He didn’t know why you were running everywhere, it was just dinner! What was so special about this one?
  •  He was just worried about this quest, there were so many rare items available right then.
  • He was done a few minutes later, he stretched his arms and let out a yawn. “MC?” you didn’t answer. “MC? Are you in the bathroom? I’m coming in…” he entered and the door closed behind him.
  • He yelped, scared. He tried to open the door a few times and got more and more tense as he realized he was really trapped inside the bathroom. His phone was on his bedroom. Shit…
  • He heard the living room’s door being open.  “MC? MC, is that you?”
  • “Yoosung? Where are you?” “I’m trapped in the bathroom, I think there’s something wrong with the lock” “Yes, I know” “You knew? Why didn’t you tell me?”
  • “ I told you, Yoosung! You didn’t hear anything I said before I left?” “Where were you, anyways?” You sighed deeply. “Nevermind, Yoosung, let me call a locksmith and try to get you out of here before the night is completely ruined!”
  • Wow, you really sounded frustrated, this dinner was that important to you? Why?
  • “Oh, don’t worry, MC!  I can always cook some fried rice really quick like I normally do.” “Well, isn’t that the point? Doing something different because tonight is special?”
  • “Oh, sure…” Why is tonight special? Think, Yoosung, think! “Yes, tonight is a very special day…for… us?”
  • You glared at the door as you could actually see him. “Yoosung? What day is today?” “Today? T-Today? Hum… Friday?”
  • “I knew it! I knew you weren’t listening to me earlier, I knew you didn’t know what day is today! Gosh, I’m so stupid! My friends tried to drag me to this bar, but no, I insisted on spending my birthday with my boyfriend!” OH FUCK!
  • M-MC! It’s today! Yeah!” “Yes, you could at least notice the presents that came, but you were too busy with that fucking game all day, right?” You were freaking terrifying when you swore, he was shivering
  • “MC, I don’t even know how to proper apologize right now, I’m so sorry! I… bought your present months ago and I guess I just… forgot?”
  • “Yes, Yoosung, you forget everything around you when you play that game! Seriously… I… I can’t believe the only way to make you listen to me is with  you locked up like this… this is so… fucked up!” Another swear, another shiver! But what you said gave him an idea. “So… keep me like this…” “What?”
  •  “Seriously, keep me like this! We can call the locksmith tomorrow morning. I don’t have my phone or computer with me, so all I can focus is your voice now. Tell me everything and I’ll listen.” “What are you saying? This is weird!”
  • “So let’s do it as a game! How about that: for every year of your life, you tell me something I should know about you? Silly things or meaningful things, you tell me everything and I’ll listen!” You were still hesitating, but… your boyfriend listening to you all night long? That was… sort of fun… you took a deep breath and sat in front of the bathroom door. You could not see each other, but that was better, so you wouldn’t feel embarrassed telling him… very intimate things. “Okay… fact number one about me…”
  • It was morning when you finished, you both were laughing because you told him funny things about you in high school. “Hey, MC?” “Yes, Yoosung?”  “I know I’m late, but… happy birthday!” “Thank you, Yoosung… now let’s get you out of there” your voice got back to the sweet tone he loved so much, he knew he had to do a lot to make it up to you, but now… he was just relieved you didn’t sound mad, and he learned so much about you, this would be really useful later…
  • As soon as he was released, he rushed over you and planted a firm and passionate kiss in your lips, you’ve never seen him like this! “Thanks for your services, sir. Now if you’ll excuse us, I have to make my girlfriend’s dream number 18 come true!” he paid the guy, took your hand and leaded you to the bedroom.


  • She would never! I mean, NEVER EVER forget your birthday! As soon as you started dating, she marked the date on her calendar, she was prepared for this day months ago!
  • You probably knew she was planning everything, so it hit her. You KNEW, it would be no surprise for you at all! She never saw your surprised face before, she would love to see your eyes widening, your mouth opening in a gasp and then turning into a smile for her… oh… it must be so adorable!
  • You always complimented her diligence, her ability to plan something at every detail, but now… she just wanted not to be like that, at least for one day, your day… she had to surprise you somehow!
  • So she thought… what if she pretended to forget your birthday? And when the day was almost ending, she would surprise you with something very romantic and special? It would be so bold and unexpected of her, she couldn’t wait to show you this side of her!
  • It was harder than she thought. When the day came, she kept holding back all the hugs she wanted to give you, the urge to say “Happy Birthday! I love you!”. God… you were looking at her as if you were expecting something! Those puppy eyes, ugh… somebody save her!
  • But she kept going through, it would all be worthy for both of you at the end of the day.   “Jaehee, is there something you wanna say to me?” “Hum… you’re doing a good work today, MC!” “Jaehee, you have nothing to give me today?” “Oh yeah, I have you to give this receipt from the milk distributor, you forgot to sign here.” This was fucking torture!
  • You two closed the cafe in complete silence, she noticed you weren’t as excited as you were that morning. Your smile disappeared from your face as soon as the last customer left.     
  • “So,MC, ready to head home?” “Oh, I… already have plans for tonight.” WHAT? “Oh… you do?” “Yeah, I’m gonna get some drinks with some friends.” “N-No! You can’t!” she said in a high and surprised tone. “Why not?”
  • “W-Well, because you… didn’t you say you were trying to quit drinking?” “I think you’re mistaking me with Zen, Jaehee…” SHIT!
  • “I’ll be back soon, you don’t have to wait me awake if you don’t want to.” Oh… your passive-aggressive tone, it gave her the creeps everytime you acted like that.
  • “Well, can I… can I go with you?” “Oh, it’s just a silly thing with some girls from college, I don’t think you would enjoy that much…  but you’re more than welcome to come.” Yeah, you definitely didn’t want her to join you, you were PISSED
  • “So… I’ll go home just to take a shower and change, ok?” Oh no, the surprise! Time to move, Jaehee! “MC, YOU CAN’T GO!” you looked at her, surprised. Noticing you got a little scared, she lowered her voice “P-Please… don’t go…”
  • “Why not?” Think of something! Quick! “W-well, b-be-e-cause… I… I…  I don’t like your friends, MC!” “What?” “Yes, you… act different after you see them, you get… immature and… annoying!” you could not believe this! Neither could she, what was she doing? When did everything get so out of control?
  • “Annoying?” you scoffed “Wow, okay… thanks for the note, Jaehee! I’ll… well, sorry to disappoint you, but I’ll go get annoying and immature with my friends  tonight, at least they don’t forget my fucking birthday!” and you stormed out of the cafe. She was just… speechless, she could not think of a reaction right now.
  • She thanked God for the fact that the house you shared was not far from the cafe, she could reach you without a problem.
  •  And she got home just in time to see the face she was craving so much to see, but… the tears weren’t a part of her fantasy. “MC? I… I’m so sorry. I… tried to make you a surprise, I thought it would be even surprising  if I pretended I forgot your birthday, but now I see it was so childish of me. I’m really sorry, MC! I don’t hate your friends, I just said that to keep you away from the house, I think they’re great just like you, they’re funny and creative and… bold, like you! And… definitely not like me… I’m-”
  • You interrupted her with a intense yet sweet kiss, she was took by surprise, but quickly catched up with you. “Don’t talk about yourself like this, especially on my birthday…” “Yes, of course, MC, I’ll just say sweet things from now on…”
  • “You should start with a ‘Happy Birthday!’” you both laughed through your tears, you two looked so dork, it was so cute…


  • He didn’t really forgot, he just… miscalculated how long that business trip would last.
  • At least that’s what he told Zen over the phone when he called very angry and judgemental about missing his “so called precious girlfriend”. Jumin didn’t want to hear anything of this, mainly because he knew Zen was… ugh… right…
  • He wanted to call you, but was he really ready to listen your sad voice? Would he be able to handle it? His emotions were still a mysterious field, even if you were helping him through. But the things you said and did affected him on a very unpredictable way, so… calling you seemed reckless right now.
  • He would miss it, it was already set. He wouldn’t make in time. All that was left was trying to get you the most thoughtful and amazing gift and take some days off from work to make it up to you. Would it be enough?
  • But then… he saw the photos in the chatroom. MC and the other RFA members at a bar, it would be a cute friend’s photo if Zen WEREN’T THAT CLOSE TO YOU, WITH HIS ARM AROUND YOUR SHOULDER!!!
  • Jumin let out a low groan… this wasn’t right! It was supposed to be his arm around your shoulder… and probably not in that commoner’s bar. You deserved so much better on your birthday! You deserved… a better boyfriend…
  • He caught himself on his private jet, telling the pilot to get there asap. It was a good weather, this wouldn’t take long.
  • And it really didn’t, but now there was another problem… Driver Kim was not picking up his calls! What was he doing? Oh right… Jumin gave him some days off since he was on this business trip, only because MC insisted he needed some rest… he would feel aroused about all this irony if this wasn’t gettin in the way of something so important.
  • He took a cab, this driver didn’t feel reliable, but he was desperate. And the guy guaranteed he could get him to his destination in the shortest amount of time.
  • He just saw the light and heard a loud bang on the side of the cab… then everything got dark.
  • Zen gave you a ride to the hospital on his bike. He was mad, but tried to stay collected to not make you feel more nervous. Jaehee, Seven and Yoosung were already there. Zen and Jaehee wanted to go with you, you insisted on going alone and Seven convinced everybody this was the best right then.   
  • “Don’t talk! Don’t even try using your smothering words to make me forget what you did, Jumin Han! What were you thinking? Are you insane?” Silence… “ANSWER ME!”
  • “You… said you didn’t want me to talk…” he said with his usual calm tone, but in the inside he was terrified, you seemed… not like yourself at all. “Jumin, I swear to God I’ll slap this handsome face of yours and give this hospital a reason to keep you here for a while, don’t test me right now!” you were so scary! And sexy… no, FOCUS, JUMIN!
  •  “I didn’t want to miss your birthday, it didn’t seem right…” “So what? How getting on an unlicensed cab fit into this? Oh my god… do you have any idea how panicked I got when the hospital called me?” you were trying to compose yourself “Why did you get back? I was ok with your business trip getting longer than planned…” “I… saw the photo in the chatroom, you and… Zen…” oh, he should not have mentioned that, you were losing it again.
  • “Zen? You were worried about Zen? Oh my god, Jumin! What the fuck is wrong with you? What were you thinking? Seriously, I want to know how your brain works! Did you really think I was cheating on you?”
  • “I WASN’T THINKING, MC! I was… I don’t know what’s gotten into me, I saw the photo and I just knew I had to be there with you. That’s what happens, I don’t… think when it’s about you, I just… feel.”
  • “Jumin, I made myself very clear about using sweet talk right now…” “But it’s the truth, I swear! MC, I love you, I want to be with you at every special moment of your life.” “And do you think this is a special moment? You in a hospital bed making me feel so terrified of losing you? On my fucking birthday, Jumin?” your voice was breaking, and then came the tears.
  •  “I’m sorry for making you worry, MC. I was childish and imprudent, and I should do better when it concerns you, us… I’m… really sorry… and this feels completely inappropriate, but… happy birthday…” you sighed heavily and gave up, being angry wouldn’t take you anywhere. Your boyfriend was alive, just a few scratches here and there, and you were together! You curled up to him on the bed, then you just… talked.
  • “Did you really came here on Zen’s bike? Did you wear a helmet? Did you… put your arms around him?” “Jumin, Zen is the least of your problems right now, just wait till we get home.” again… so terrifyingly sexy… it felt strange hearing these things instead of saying it for once.


  • You two were not on speaking terms right now, it was a pretty bad fight, although now he didn’t really remember how and why it started. It was something about one of his pranks? About him going too far? Yes, it was something like this…
  • Anyways, he didn’t feel like apologizing, you were probably overreacting, soon you would come to your senses and talk to him again.
  • But this was taking too long, he haven’t heard from you for almost a week, were you that mad? The RFA members were refusing to talk about this, this was between you two, he should solve this if it was bothering him so much.
  • He got out of his office for the first time in three days and heard someone in the living room. It was you? Were you finally back? Hum, no… it was Saeran. And he was… wrapping this box on a shiny red wrapper?
  • “Hey bro, whachu doing?” “What do you think I’m doing? Wrapping this gift, you fool! MC’s favorite color is red, right?” “Yes, it is… is this for MC?” “No, is for the pope… of course it is for her!”
  • “Why?” “Quit shitting around and go get ready, we’re gonna be late!” “Late for what, Saeran? What’s going on?” “MC’s party! Seriously, did you bang your head or something?” “Party, why is she having a party?” he felt a little hurt you were throwing parties while you two were fighting like that.
  • “Wait… did you really forget?”  “What? What did I forget?” “Holy fuck! You really forgot your girlfriend’s birthday!” “What? No, I didn’t! Her birthday is in a few months, bro!” “Hum, no ‘bro’, it’s today!”. Saeyoung scoffed: “No, it isn’t! Come on… I checked every information about her when we met, there’s no way I would forget the day she was born!” “Well, check again, you probably messed up the informations in your stupid brain.” He was starting to get mad at Saeran for doubting him, he was the one messing it up! So he went to check your background history  and yes, your birthday was… your birthday was… shit! TODAY!
  • “Oh Lord! Oh Lord! Oh Lord!” he started panicking and running in the house. How could he forget? He was so adamant about you apologizing he didn’t even notice that day was coming? What a selfish asshole he was! “Oh my God, Saeran! I’m so screwed!” “Yep…”
  • “Don’t ‘yep’ me! Help me! I need to do something!” “Exactly, YOU need to, don’t get me involved in this, you were the one who screwed up, just apologize to her already!” “This isn’t enough! I, Saeyoung Choi, need to come up with something as special and amazing as my lady. And you were gonna help me! This is a mission for the Choi boys!” “I asked you a million times not to call us that…”
  • He came with a plan and headed with his brother to your place. When he got there, he noticed it wasn’t a big party, it was more like an intimate reunion with RFA and your closest friends. Hum… he was expecting something big as his surprise, but this would do, anyways.
  • Saeran cleared his throat and gathered everybody’s attention. “MC, my brother is an asshole and he wants to ‘apologize’. Enjoy this freak show and happy birthday!” he said in a monotone tone as turning the music on.
  • And then Saeyoung came out of your bedroom lip syncing “Birthday” by Katy Perry in a full cosplay of her. Nobody was in shock because, well… they already knew your boyfriend, you got embarrassed when you looked at your parents watching that. When he finished, people weren’t sure if they should clap or not.
  • “I’m so sorry, MC! I’m such a prick for not talking to you and there’s nothing I could say right now to make it up to you, so I did this. If I can’t be mature enough, at least I can make you laugh, and… I believe it was the great american artist Katy Perry who said ‘So make a wish! I’ll make it like your birthday every day!’. Happy birthday, MC! I love you!”
  • “Oh, Saeyoung…” you were crying and leaned to him, he was waiting for a kiss, but you went to his ear and whispered: “Got you!” He looked at you puzzled as Zen and Yoosung unrolled a banner where it could read “You got pranked, brah!”
  • “MC, what’s happening?” “I was mad at you because of that bad prank you pulled on me last week, so I decided to take some revenge. I told everybody to come here today to pretend it was my birthday, so it would look like you forgot it.” “But your background history…  the date…” “Saeran took care of this for me. You’re not the only hacker in the family, right?” he looked at Saeran, he just raised his glass with a smirk. “Oh, and putting Katy Perry as one of my interests was his idea too. I had no idea you were going to show up like this… guess he knows you a little better than I do”
  • “Oh… my… God! I… I… ” he looked shocked, almost hurt, now you were wondering if you went too far… but the truth was… he was so happy you and his brother were getting along, even teaming up to make something for him, even if it was to make him look like a fool, he didn’t mind, he was just… really happy “I LOVE YOU TWO SO MUCH!” and he pulled you and Saeran in a tight hug.


  • “Shit! Shit! Shit!” he was cursing and pacing back and forth ever since he saw the calendar, it was today! How could he forget?
  • Truth be told, he had one of his episodes last night, when that happened, he would lost his sense of time and place. This would be even worse when you weren’t around to calm him down, and why weren’t you around? Oh yeah, you were planning your birthday party, yeah, that one he refused to help with because ‘it was lame’ as he told you over the phone. Oh god…He was the worst, wasn’t he?
  • He got out of his bedroom and went looking for Saeyoung, but all he found was a note. “Helping MC, party starts at 9 pm at her place, don’t be late! P.S.: Call her, bro. Love, Saeyoung” he rolled his eyes, but this was kind of useful. Except for that piece of advice about calling you. How could he? He didn’t talk to you all day and you would notice right away the reason the disappeared, and you would be worried, his brother would hear about this and they both would feel guilty for leaving him alone and… he hated to see your concerned expression, it was too much painful.
  • At least he bought a nice gift, it was a simple bracelet, but he knew you should have it when he saw you looking at it that day you two went to shopping. Now he just needed to take a quick shower and find some decent clothes. He still had time, right? WRONG!
  • It was already 10 pm! How could he lost notion of time  that much? He felt like shit! Your place was pretty far from Saeyoung’s bunker, it would take at least a half hour to get there by train. What about by car?
  • He went to the garage and took one of his brother’s car, Saeyoung woudn’t like this, but he didn’t give a shit right now. It was all about you!
  • He was a little rusty from driving, but still knew the basics, like… stopping and… most important, accelerating! And boy, did he speed it up
  • He muttered a “fuck! What now?” when he saw the police car reflected on the rearview mirror. Yeah, he knew he had to stop, this guy wouldn’t get off his back.  
  • “Documents, sir?” “Shit! I don’t… I don’t have it right now!” “Sir, are you aware that you were much faster than the speed limit?” “Yeah, look… I’m just trying to make it to my girlfriend’s party, I’m pretty late and…” “Sir, I’m gonna have to ask you to get out of the car…” “What? Fuck! No!” “Sir, please… I don’t want to use force!” “Well, I don’t want to use force either, so just get the fuck away!” “Sir, calm down a little and…” “No! Don’t tell me what to do, your asshole! I know my rights!” “So you know you have the right to remain silent, you are arrested for contempt of authority, just come with me calmly or I’ll charge you for resisting to prison too.” FUCK! He didn’t even mind about this, all he could think of was you… and how disappointed you would be right now
  • You and Saeyoung came to the police station, neither of you said anything, you two were too scared. Saeran could not have a criminal record, nobody should know about this, what if his father found out? That’s what you two were thinking, but were too scared to say it out loud. “Me and Jumin are taking care of this, don’t worry, nobody will know a thing. At least I managed to not let him get locked up, so he’s in the interrogation room. Go talk to him but make it quick, okay?” you nodded, you didn’t know what to say
  • He took a quick glance at you and lowered his head, he could not look you in the eye right now. “I… I know you’re mad, ok? I’m sorry! I was just… trying to get to your place, I didn’t know I was so late, you know what happen when I have… those panic attacks, and… I should’ve called you, my stupid brother was fucking right, I can’t believe it! I feel so shitty right now, MC! I can’t believe I’m putting you to this on your own birthday, I’m such a piece of shit! I… I… don’t deserve you at all. I’m…”
  • You interrupted him with a hug. He was handcuffed, but oh did he want to hug you back… even if he knew he didn’t deserve it… “I was so worried about you…” were you… crying? Oh no… “You can’t do this to me, Saeran! That cop had a gun! What if he… oh, I don’t even want to say it!” Wait! Weren’t you mad? You were… worried…? For him?
  • “A – Aren’t you… mad?” “Of course I’m mad! But I’m more relieved to see you’re ok, I love you so much! You know that?”
  • “Yes, of course I know, MC. And I hate to see you like this because of me, you should be smiling today, no, not just today, everyday!” “So don’t get into trouble because of me, you dork!” oh, you called him dork, you were calming down… “I won’t, I swear! Me being safe will be your birthday gift! This and… this.” He pointed to the little box in his pocket. “They took everything from me, but I woudn’t let they take this… Happy Birthday, MC! I mean… as happy as can be…”
  • You laughed and took the box out of his pocket, you opened, looked at him and kissed him in a sloppy and desperate way. “Okay, break it off you two! This isn’t a motel room!” The cop interrupted getting in the room. “You must know some important people, fella. You’re getting away with a clean file.” “So I’m free to go?” “Yep, let me just get you out of these handcuffs and you can escort your lady.”
  • “Oh, he better do much more than escort me when we’re out of here. Oh, and don’t feel too comfortable about getting rid of these handcuffs, you’ll be back to them as soon as we get home, maybe I have a pair that matches my new bracelet?” the look in your eyes… he could tell you weren’t kidding. This was a huge turn on, but he wasn’t really used to you playing this role, so he wasn’t sure what to expect… “Can you keep me arrested here for tonight, officer? I feel I’ll be safer around here.

anonymous asked:

Hi. I noticed harry hasn't been on tumblr today. is she okay? hope it's just lack of free time that's keeping her away

omg I…. don’t know what to make of this. @squaddreamcourt

She is fine. I just got off three hours of skype with her (2 hours podcasting and then 1 hour shooting the shit and talking about very inappropriate things) and so…. I promise I will release her from her brotp duties to me soon. Never fear.

But legit I think it’s so cute that you know to come to me, and also I…. still don’t know what to make of that. LOL

I love the reversal AU so I decided to do my own little design qwq
I just really love these bots ok
Their visors can lift up into like headbands for better robosmooches

Smooth - Johnny [1]

•Hello ^_^ Can I request a Johnny virgin (the girl is virgin) SMUT? Like they are in highschool or smth. Or like he is a BadBoy and she is innocent? What ever you like.But can you make it into actual smut pls. K love ya ️️️

A/N: Well, I decided to turn your request into a short series. Hope you don’t mind! I went with him being kind of more like a playboy I guess rather than the whole high school bad boy thing just to make the story more on the mature side. I apologize for the angsty beginning, I promise it will get fluffier as it goes along! Especially when it gets to the smut part. ;)

-Admin Kay

Pt 2   Pt 3   Pt 4   Pt 5   Pt 6

Part 1 - Alone

Genre: Angst

Rating PG-13

(language, minor sexual content, slight violence)

Word Count: 1,577

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You are not stupid (Peter Parker x Reader) (Requested)

Request: Could do a Peter Parker imagine where the reader has dyslexia and is insecure about it due to her best friend/crush Peter is extremely smart. Thank you!:)

A/N: I’m not really proud at this one, but I tried my best. I also wrote that they were studying Literature, because in Spain we have a different learning method and I have never studied physics or chemistry because I chose humanities, so I don’t really know much about that. Hope you like it! 

Trying to focus on the words in front of you, you couldn’t help but feel stupid. You were at your best friend’s house studying for finals, and while he was already on the last page of the unit, you were still at the beginning of the first one. He was so intelligent. It was not that you were not clever, it was that you were dyslexic, and it took you too long to concentrate and make out what the words said.
‘I’m done. When you finish, we can watch a movie’ Peter said, staring at you. You looked straight at his eyes -a beautiful shade of brown, so similar to dark chocolate, and you closed your book, trying to smile.
‘I’m done as well. You choose the movie.’
‘Are you serious? If you haven’t finished, I don’t mind waiting’ he knew it usually took you longer than him to study, and normally you would have told him to wait twenty minutes for you to finish, but it was starting to feel embarrassing for you to always be the last one.
‘Yeah, I’m serious. I’ll revise a little at home’ you said, a small smile on your lips. You were tired, and you just wanted to lay on Peter’s bed and watch a movie. Maybe even cuddle if the opportunity came around.
‘Which is Jean-Paul Sartre most famous play?’ Peter asked, suspiciously looking at you.
‘Uh… Six Characters In Search Of An Author?’ you answered, knowing you were wrong. Peter had caught you, and you knew he would make you study.
‘Come on, [Y/N], I know you can do it. Just study for a little longer.’
‘You don’t understand, Pete. I-I feel so stupid. You are so intelligent. You get straight As in the morning and you fight crime at night. I can’t even get a B. I am so, so stupid. I just want school to be over’ you said, feeling the tears on your eyes. Your disability always made you feel less than everyone else, and there was nothing you could do to feel better.
‘You are not stupid, you hear me? You are probably the most intelligent person I’ve ever met. You are calling me intelligent? I swing around the city in a onesie every night looking for someone to punch me. I am the stupid one here. And you-you may have dyslexia, but that doesn’t mean you are not clever. It just takes you longer to study. But you are not stupid, okay? Now we are gonna revise together and you’ll ace this exam, okay?’ Peter said, a serious gaze on his eyes. You loved him so much. You had fallen in love with him that year, after 7 years of friendship, and you had been too scared to tell him before. But then, gathering up all your courage, you kissed him right on the lips, and expecting him to be mad, you tried to pull apart, but couldn’t, since he held your neck with his hand. He applied more pressure onto the kiss, and breaking apart to breathe, he whispered, ‘oh my, how much do I regret not doing this before’. You smiled, eyes still closed, and he brought you closer to him for another kiss, forgetting your Literature exam. Who cared about that, anyway?

Will You? pt. 2 [Jimin Angst/Fluff]

Pt 1. Pt. 2

Playlist to listen to this chapter

Originally posted by the-rap-man

“That feeling of regret when time passes and you realize you’ve let the wrong person go.”

Who had thought that the happy boy would turn into a broken hearted boy with nothing but you in his mind. He often questioned himself why he did what did. He couldn’t blame it on the alcohol because he knew more than well that it wasn’t the alcohol that got him like that.

Why did he do it? Why did he let you go and lie about that you were the biggest mistake in his life when you were his world? His whole world who shone up his dark days. You were the only light he needed in this life, the only light that could bring happiness to his life.  

It has now been 2 long months without you and he still remembered the feeling he got when he woke up that morning, with your ring in his hand. Regret, regret, regret, pain, regret, regret and regret were what he felt.

That day, he did nothing but drink. Drinking away the pain and the regret. Drinking away thoughts about you. Drinking away the emptiness without you near.

What more could he do? Losing you was like losing his hope about the future. Losing the light that helped him through his darkest days. Losing the love of his life. All because of one stupid mistake.

Did he regret it? Yes.

Did he miss you? Hell yes.

Did he stop loving you? Absolutely not.

Did he get you back? No…

Did he make you his again? No, he didn’t.


Because he was afraid, afraid of things that could happen if he said one more wrong word. Afraid of getting rejected. Afraid of you moving on. Afraid of you not loving him anymore. Afraid of you hating him for what he did. Afraid of breaking promises he couldn’t even keep, again.

Afraid. That was what he was. He always asked himself why he couldn’t grow some balls and just call you. Just to hear your voice even if it was in the middle of the night. Or just let you know that he missed you more than anything else.

“I don’t think Y/N hates you. She loved you very much and did almost everything for you. You should at least call her to let her know that you’re sorry. You guys might get back together and if not, at least she knows that you regret saying those awful words to her” Namjoon said and crossed his arms over his chest.

The boys had been mad at first, blaming Jimin for letting such a good girl go. They blamed him for being too jealous and that the jealousy made him blind. But they were also supportive, they tried to help him. Even though it wasn’t easy when all Jimin did was thinking about all the negative things that could happen.

“Hyung, you don’t understand. I told her she was the biggest mistake in my life, I broke her heart. I still remember the look on her face when I said those awful words. Even if she’s going to forgive me, I’ll never be able to forgive myself and forget about it. That day will always be there no matter what” Jimin answered and buried his face in his hands.

“Look at us, Jimin. You’re not going anywhere if you don’t make a move. Start today, take her back. Make her come back to you if you love her. 2 months is not enough for her to forget you and moving on. She’s still waiting” Jin said and placed a hand on Jimin’s right shoulder, giving it a light squeeze.

Jimin looked up at them, letting a single tear leaving his eye, slowly rolling down his right cheek. He was going to do whatever it took to have you back in his arms again.

But the only question was, will you take him back?

“You sure about this?” your friend asked and let out a heavy sigh, sitting down next to you and helping you pack down your clothes.

You gave her a thumb up and gave her a weak smile. Now that your life have turned upside down, why not take another way and start a new life, on the other side?

“You don’t want to wait for him anymore?” she asked and gave you a sad smile. You bit your lip and looked down to your ring finger that still felt empty without the ring.

“I’ve waited 2 months, Y/F/N-ah. If he really wanted me back, he would call me since day one. I haven’t even changed my number. But 61 days and still nothing. I can’t wait forever you know”

“I don’t mean that you should wait for him more than this, but… you sure about leaving your biggest dream and just move to America?” she asked, making you look up at her.

“Actually, my biggest dream was to get married, but now that this happened, I don’t think I’m ready for that. I just want a new, fresh start somewhere I’ve never been to before” you answered and closed your suitcase.

The sound of the door bell made both of you raise your eyebrows.
“I’ll get it” you said and stood up and made your way to the door and opened it.

Not expecting the person who stood right in front of you at all, you slammed the door in his face and locked it. Placing a hand on your pounding heart, you closed your eyes and took a deep breathe to calm down your nerves.

“Y/N-ah! Who was it?” your friend asked from the livingroom.

“Just someone” you answered before counting to five and opened the door again.

Hey” he was the first one to talk. The first one to make the first move. Because the next thing you knew, Jimin had his arms around you.

You were stunned by the sudden hug and couldn’t do anything but let him hug you. Leaving your arms by your sides, you tried hard to not think too much about how his heart was beating faster than ever against your chest.

After a while, you tried carefully to push him away. He must have noticed it because he let you go and looked down, ashamed.

“What are you doing here?” you asked and closed the door behind yourself, leaving Y/F/N inside the house.

“Can we talk?” Jimin asked and his eyes started to get teary.

“That’s what we’re doing right now” You tried so hard to not give up and just grab him by his shirt and kiss him, show him how much you’ve missed him.

“I mean, do you have time? Can we go to the park or something? I really need to talk to you, about us

Park Jimin. Firstly, there’s no us. Secondly, no I don’t have time and thirdly, if you have anything to say, please just say it here” you answered and crossed your arms over your chest.

He let out a heavy sigh and grabbed your hand and dragged you to the nearest bench. Jimin let you sit down while he stood infront of you. Making it impossible for you to look anywhere but him.

“I’m sorry” you rolled your eyes, still crossing your arms over you chest. After 2 months and the only thing he could say was sorry? Why didn’t he just shut up and stay where he was.

“Jagi, look at me. Don’t think that you were the only one who got your heart broken. Look at me, these past months has been hell for me too”

“Yeah, like I care” you lied and looked at him. He really did look terrible. Dark circles, red, puffy eyes, much paler and he had lost much weight. His hair needed to be cut, because it almost covered his eyes.

After hearing you say that, Jimin’s eyes changed, his eyes showed pain, a lot of pain. Like those words you just said stabbed him right in his heart.

“You don’t care..?” he whispered, almost painfully. His jaw was clenched and so were his fists.

“I-I don’t know” you answered and looked down. Why did you feel like an idiot for hurting him like that when he just said that he felt like shit?

Kneeling down in front of you, he grabbed your hands in his and placed it on your bare legs, both of your hands. Jimin looked right into your eyes and before you knew it, you felt a pair of warm, soft lips against your own.

“Don’t say things like that. Please. It feels like my heart just broke into thousand pieces once again. I can’t handle the pain anymore” he said after the short kiss. Jimin lifted your hand to his lips and gave it a light kiss, leaving all sorts of feelings.

Do you know how much I regret saying those words that night? Do you know how much I missed you? Do you know how bad I’ve been these past 2 months, without you, Y/N? Do you know how much I love you?”

You gulped and looked at him with tears in your eyes. Why did he have to come here and say all these things when you were going to leave tomorrow?


No, listen to me. I know I was wrong. I know what I did to you was wrong. Accusing you for cheating when you did literally everything for me. Accusing such an amaxing girlfriend for cheating, several times was stupid. Because the sober me knew that you would never do that.

But I’m sorry, I lost control, I lost everything and I’m sorry that I accused you for something I really regret accusing you for. I also regret saying that you were the biggest mistake in my life when you’re my world. I’m sorry, Y/N” Jimin was now crying, his warm tears landed one by one on your thigh.

“I never blamed you for saying those words. I just… I knew you were drunk. But I’m more hurt that you didn’t try to call me or contact me at all. It made me think that maybe you weren’t that drunk and that you meant all those words. But I can’t lie and say that hearing those words leave your mouth that night like you’ve prepared to say them for a long time didn’t hurt because it really did.”

Give me one chance. One chance to show you how much you mean to me. One chance, that’s all I need. I just need one chance to prove my love to you. Because, Y/N, I really can’t live without you. Will you give me one more chance. Let me make it up to you. Let me love you. Let me show you that you’re my world. Will you?” he said and opened a small box making you gasp.

It wasn’t one ring, but two. One ring that you recognized but the other one was new, diamonds shining and just like the one you’ve always wanted as your wedding ring.

Give me one chance. Let’s live together until the day we die. Let’s spend the rest of our lives together. Let’s make a family. Let’s love each other endlessly. Will you? Because I’m one hundred percent ready for a future with you.” Jimin said and wiped away your tears that were running down both of your cheeks.

“Y/N Y/L/N, will you marry me?”


How are my butterflies doing? Everything’s good? I’m ok, but could be better if school wasn’t such a cow :c

Soooo, what did you think of this? Did you like it? Yay or Nay? I hope you enjoyed it as much as me and I hope you listened to my playlist too. Because I promise, with the right music to whatever you read, you’ll cry your eys out.

That’s my life in a sentence ^

It’s 00.42 here where I live and I have to get some sleep because I’m exhausted. 

It’s coming one or two more scenarios next week because I’m test-freeeeee!!

I’ll see you soon, oki? 

Oki, byee, mwah ~

Request: Make things right

Request: One shot where I’m jax daughter and he like thew me out and one year I become successful with singing and they come see me in my singing and listen to the song I sing you don’t own me by grace and colors by halesy and the WHOLE (i.e.) like tara and gemma is there club is shocked and they try to talk to me but security doesn’t let them so they follow me into my Manson and they are shocked I have a huge house and a baby girl but they tell me they need help with money and I help them and happy ending BTW the baby girl is happy’s 

Song reader is singing, HERE

It was hard to write this one. I’m writing the request, but I don’t believe Jax would not want a child, it doesn’t matter who is the mother, but I wrote it and I’m sorry if this offend anyone, somehow. 

Tig Trager Warns You, This Imagine Contains: mentions of sex, rejection, depression

Originally posted by sonsofanarchyfans


The leather kutte was missing, but I could easily see him as a Son. I was finishing my beer when he entered the bar. Nobody else paid attention to him, but I couldn’t look away. He noticed, locking his brown eyes with mine and licking his lips. He got closer and we started to talk as we drank. I had stopped in that place, on Charming’s city limits, just for a beer before hit the road, but there I was, spending hours with that mysterious man. Booze made me bold and next thing I knew we were in the back of my car, having sex. I scratched his tattooed scalp and moaned as we both came. I sat next to him, trying to catch my breath. He put his jeans on again and hopped off the car, just like that, no names asked, no cuddles after the sex.

I sighed and jumped to the driver’s seat, pulling my skirt down my thighs again. He leaned on my window and I glared at him.

“New in town?”, he motioned to my suitcase on the passenger’s seat.

“No”, I hissed and started the car, “I’m leaving”


3 years later…

I closed the blinds when we got closer to Charming. We wouldn’t stop, just pass through the little town, but I didn’t want to see it. I had left a while ago, but it still hurt to think about my life there.

I had avoided SAMCRO, the famous motorcycle club, my entire life, but it was kinda hard to do it when my father was the VP. My mother had been one of his one-night-stands and he didn’t want to be father, not when he was so young. Jackson Teller, my father, was trying to forget his girlfriend, who had left him, so he was drinking and having sex with random girls. We didn’t have a good relationship, actually he practically ignored me, unless club was going through a lockdown because one of his enemies. Then he would send someone to pick me up and I would hide somewhere at the clubhouse and wait for the lockdown to be over. I was invisible.

One day, someone finally noticed me and I had the chance to leave that place and I did it. I hadn’t been close to Charming in years, I thought in gave it just a quick look, but before I could open the blinds a child crying got my attention. She was more important than Charming and its people.

Happy’s POV

Jax had been acting strange all day, nervous and smoking one cigarette after another. Club wasn’t going through any trouble as far as Happy knew, so it must be personal. Gemma arrived at TM, mother and son had been locked inside her office since then. When SAMCRO’s president finally entered the clubhouse again, he looked at his brothers and announced they would go for a ride that night. He thought it would be some club business, but Happy found himself in a concert, looking at the stage, waiting for the singer.

“How you never told me you had a daughter man?”, Happy inquired, turning to at Jax, who was standing next to him. Tara, Jax’s old lady, and Gemma were there too.

“We never had a good relationship”, his brother sighed, pinching his nose, “I was lost, it was just one night, but… I couldn’t be a father, I was too young and I hated that child and her mother for awhile… I was wrong, I should have been a better father. You have no idea how much I regret this. I don’t know what I am doing here, but maybe I get the chance to make things right”

He didn’t know how Jax would do that, but Happy would be there for his friend. He never had thought about being father, he didn’t do relationships, but Happy would never give up on his child, he would want to be the father he never had.

The lights and a man announcing the singer caught his attention. Happy turned his look to the stage again and there she was, Jax’s daughter…And the girl he had sex with on his first night visiting Charming.


Happy felt a lump on his throat. How that had happened? He had had sex with his president’s daughter, a girl that should be completely off limits for him. However, they had met each other in a bar, he didn’t know who she was, they hadn’t said their names. It had been a random, half naked, quick and incredible hot fuck in the back of her car.

Y/N was singing and she was good. The lyrics said “You don’t own me, don’t try to change me in any way” and Y/N was pouring her heart out, he could see it. SAMCRO family was watching the show in awe, people singing Y/N’s songs with her; in a short time, she had conquered fame and it would only grows.

“Come on”, Jax called his brothers as soon as the show ended. They tried to get close to the stage, but security wouldn’t let them pass. Happy saw Y/N from afar and she turned her head in their direction when Jax yelled her name. She got pale and someone pushed her inside a car.

“Let’s go brother”, Happy pushed Jax back to where their bikes were, “We can think about this at the clubhouse”


“Are you sure?”, Jax asked as they parked the bikes in front of a house in Los Angeles.

“Yep”, Juice nodded, admiring the place too, “What’s the plan?”

All the Sons looked at their president. Jax took a deep breath and just walked to the gate. They waited as he talked on the intercom; it took a while but someone was finally coming from the house. Happy put his sunglasses up and saw Y/N there. She didn’t look pleased to see them.

“What are you doing here?”, she barked, “How did you find me?”

“Y/N please”, Jax begged to his daughter, “We need to talk”

“I don’t think so”, Y/N shook her head and turned her back on them. Jax was about to yell, call her back when a little girl came running, a woman chasing her.

“Mommy!”, the girl giggled and Y/N glanced at the bikers outside her gate. She lifted the little girl on her arms and walked away, but not before Happy could notice the girl’s big brown eyes, just like his.


A couple of days had passed and the atmosphere around the clubhouse couldn’t be worse. Jax was disappointed his daughter didn’t want to see or listen him; and now the club was going through financial problems. Happy couldn’t bear that situation anymore, so he hopped onto his bike and drove to Los Angeles, only stopping at Y/N’s gate. He asked to talk with her on behalf of Jackson Teller.

“Could you please tell my father I don’t want to speak with him?”, Y/N barked on the intercom, “If he insists, I will call the police”

“I need to talk to you Y/N. This is Happy Lowman, the guy you fucked on the back of your car years ago”, he blurted and she gasped on the other side.

“I don’t wanna talk to you or any Son. Leave me alone”, she said after a minute of silence.

“No”, Happy clenched his jaw, leaning closer to the microphone, “I saw your little girl. How old is she? Two years old maybe? Who is her father?”

“It’s not your business”, Y/N hissed.

“Yes, it is, because I think she is mine!”, Happy heard her gasp again, “I won’t hurt you or my daughter. I won’t take her from you, but I want her to know me, I want to be a part of her life… Listen, I know you don’t want to know about us, but… Your father is really sorry, he wants to apologize and… This is too much, but we could use your help, financial problems… Think about it. You know where to find us”

Days later…

SAMCRO had done some business in the last few days, but it wasn’t enough, they were barely keeping their heads above water. They needed a big deal soon. Happy was outside the clubhouse, trying to think and come up with a plan, when a car entered the parking lot. Y/N hopped off the car, surprising him. She looked at Happy and opened the back door, lifting her little girl from the car seat. He walked toward them, looking at the girl on Y/N arms. She looked up at him and he could see the resemblance.

“Do you wanna hold her?”, Y/N whispered. He raised an eyebrow, not sure if he had the right to do it. She smiled and nodded, “She is your daughter”

“Y/N?”, they both turned around at the sound of Jax’s voice.

“Hi father”, Y/N started to tear up and grabbed an envelope from her purse, handing it to Jax, “I heard you guys needed help with money”

“Darling…”, Jax sighed and pulled his daughter to his arms, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I should have tried harder, I should have… I don’t have to help us, especially after everything I put you through”

“I won’t lie to you father, it still hurts, but…”, she pulled back and wiped the tears, “We should try it and… Maybe she is our second chance”

Y/N looked to her daughter and Happy walked closer to them. Jax looked from the little girl to Y/N, “Is…Is she my granddaughter?”, he was crying too, “Jesus!”

“Yes, she is”, Y/N answered, looking at Happy, who nodded, “She is your granddaughter and Happy’s child”

“What?”, Jax asked as Happy let him hold the little girl.

“Long story”, Y/N grimaced, “We should go inside to talk about this”

As everybody walked back inside the clubhouse, Y/N stayed behind with Happy. “Thank you”, she whispered.

“No”, he held her arm, making Y/N look at him, “Thank YOU, for helping us and let me see my daughter”

“This won’t be easy Happy”, she sighed, “And after my own experience, I expect you to be a great father”

Happy Lowman had never imagined he would be a father someday, but was sure he would do his best to be a good one, “Yes, I will”

I’m Sorry (Chanyeol) here’s your scenario! Thanks for requesting. :D


2 hours…It’s been 2 whole flipping hours and I’m still standing in front of this restaurant waiting for Park Chanyeol to pick me up.

You know want to know what happened? Today’s our 5 year anniversary. We planned to meet at this restaurant at 7. I waited in there starving and I could tell the waiters were getting irritated because I wasn’t ordering anything. After an hour of waiting, they kicked me out because they had other customers to tend to.

Now, I’m standing in front of the restaurant at 10 p.m, waiting for him to pick me up because I had text him. That was two hours ago. Oh, did I mention it was pouring? The bottom of my dress was soaked because the covering of the roof was too small.

I was beyond livid. Not only did he forget his girlfriend at a restaurant for 3 hours, he didn’t even say, ‘Happy Anniversary’ once today. A text would’ve been nice.

“Excuse me ma'am. We’re about to close right now. I don’t mean to sound rude, but please leave.” the manager of the restaurant tapped my shoulder. I gave an embarrassed grin.

“I’m sorry. I’ll go now.” I replied before starting to walk out into the rain. My phone vibrated in my hand. I took one look at the ID before deciding not to answer. It rang 3 more times before he gave up and sent texts.

Babe, where are you? -Chan
Jagi! I’ve been calling you, pick up the phone. -Chan
Seriously, where are you?-Chan
Answer me, Jagi! -Chan

If I could wait 3 hours for him, he could wait a few minutes for me. My perfectly hairdo was now dripping with water. My dress was sticking to me like a second skin. It’s starting to get uncomfortable walking in these wet heels.

When I arrived home, I told myself that I’d just ignore him. So, the moment I walked through the door, he leaped off the couch.

“WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?! I’VE BEEN CALLING AND TEXTING and why are you soaking wet?” he panicked.

“Have you been walking in the rain?!” he asked, walking up to me. I rolled my eyes and walked past him to grab a towel because I’m shivering my ass off like a chihuahua. He grabbed my wrist before I could make it any further.

“Hey, I’m talking to you.” he said. I ignored him.
“What’s wrong? Why are you ignoring me?” he asked, turning me around.
“Let me ask you, what’s today’s date?” my arms were crossed, trying to calm down my shivers.

“Thursday, the 29th, why?” he asked, confusion clearly written on his face. I continued to stare at him. The confusion slowly dispersed and complete horror replaced it.

“Oh my god.” he whispered.
“Baby, I’m so sorry. I forgot.”
“Really?! I didn’t notice.” was my sarcastic reply.
“Babe, I’m really sorry. It’s just we had a busy schedule today. I had to appear on Sukira, then a performance on Music Bank and Manager Hyung kept us late for practice.” he excused.

“Chanyeol, that’s not the point. The point is that you forgot our anniversary.” I told him.

“I know you’re forever busy. But it doesn’t hurt to call me sometimes, ask me how my day was or what I did.”

“So it’s my fault? I know I forgot today was our anniversary and I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I forgot to go to our dinner. I’m sorry I forgot to pick you up. Isn’t that enough?” he snapped.

“The term 'sorry’ doesn’t magically fix things, Park Chanyeol. 'Sorry’ does not change the fact that you still forgot. 'Sorry’ does not mean that I didn’t just walk home in the rain after 3 hours because you failed to remember our anniversary. You use 'sorry’ all the damn time. Yeah, surprise, this isn’t the first time you forgot an important date.” I pointed a finger at his chest.

“So now I’m the bad guy? What part of me being an idol did you not understand? You knew I’d be busy 24/7. You knew you’d be lonely because I get home late. You told me you knew exactly what you were getting yourself into, and that you’re fine with it. Why are you complaining now?” he retorted. My eyes were getting blurry.

“Do not try to pin this on me. I know you’re busy, but sometimes it seems like you forget that you have a girlfriend.” I glared at him.

“What do you want me to do?!” his voice raised.
“A call or text would be nice! 'Hey, babe! How are you? I hope your day went great! I have to go now but I’ll try to call you later.’ That doesn’t sound difficult, Chanyeol.” I told him, trying to keep my patience and not rip his head off.

“You know, sometimes, I wish I didn’t have a girlfriend.” he admitted. A small gasp emitted from my lips before I backed up a bit. My heart cracked 3 quarters and completely broke when he held his gaze, daring me to say something. I didn’t. I walked past him with a sniffle before making my way upstairs.

Grabbing my clothes, I changed out of my wet dress and into comfortable sweatpants and a tank top before drying my hair. The tears were flowing down like they’re trying to see who hits the floor first. I wiped my eyes and climbed into bed and went to sleep.


My head was spinning when I woke up. The sunlight making it worse and I froze to calm myself down. The first thing that went through my mind was the argument yesterday.

You know, sometimes, I wish I didn’t have a girlfriend.

I didn’t realize it, but I couldn’t move. Chanyeol’s pole-like arms were caging me as if they were determined to not let me go. My small hands grabbed his wrists to pull them away but he only pulled me closer.

I sighed and looked around. My body feels not and my throat was scratchy. My nose was ticklish and I prepared myself for a sneeze. That caused Chanyeol to move.

“You’re sick.” his morning voice stated.
“No, I’m not. Just because I sneezed does not mean I’m sick.” I argued, still pissed off from yesterday. If it was even possible, he pulled me closer and nuzzled himself in my hair.

“I’m really sorry about everything I said yesterday. I know I deserve 'Worst Boyfriend of the Year’ award. I was a total ass yesterday and I’m sorry. I know sorry doesn’t take back what I said. But I just wanted you to know that I treasure you to pieces. Honest to god, my heart stopped after that sentence came out of my mouth. I wasn’t thinking. You do not know how much regret I’m still holding for making you cry. Jagiya, please forgive me. I’ll take you out today, where ever you want. I’ll buy what ever you want.” he confessed. My heart thudded against my ribs.

“Don’t you have a schedule today?” I asked, playing with his fingers.
“No, we have the whole week off.” he chuckled. I smiled a little.
“Can we get a puppy then?” I asked again, struggling to turn to face him.
“Yes! Please? A Chow-Chow and German Shepherd mix! Actually, doesn’t matter, as long as it’s cuter than Kai’s dogs.” his eyes lit up. I let out a laugh.

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As I lay in bed at night, one thought keeps me awake. “Why didn’t The Beatles go through with voicing the vultures in The Jungle Book?”

I make no apologies for the music I like, and I don’t regret either my Puff Daddy phase nor my GD phase. The only thing I do kinda regret is how much money I spent going to see bands called String Cheese Incident. 

This was 100% my sister’s idea I swear.

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A year ago today, I was in an accident that changed my life.

Getting hit by a truck was a wake up call for me. It made me realize just how easily everything can disappear, and how much I would regret not doing if I were to die tomorrow. My recovery was hard, and I faced so many unknowns.

Very shortly after my accident I started getting into Drarry again. It’s been a pairing close to my heart for half my life so it was a little bit like finding an old friend. During this time I found ‘Turn’ by Sarahs_Girl. It was a fanfic that spoke to me on a visceral level. I related so much to Harry that the timing seemed like fate. Even down to both of us having the same bum leg. Harry’s strength to make hard choices to pursue his own happiness (and admit to himself that he wasn’t happy as he was) gave me hope for my own future.

'Take the Unknown Road Now’ is a phrase that has given me so much strength this year. It gave me the courage to keep my head up even when walking normally again seemed impossible. It gave me the fortitude to face two weeks in another country filled with stairs I didn’t know if I could climb. It gave me the final push to admit to myself I could no longer physically handle my well-paying job I had been at for 7 years, and let me face the terror a new job brought.

My accident made me realize I wasn’t as happy as I wanted to be, and 'Turn’ gave me the courage to change that.

I went on my dream trip to Japan with my best friends and took each step one at a time. I got those new ear piercings I’ve been wanting for years. I put words to something I’ve been feeling my entire life and said them out loud.

And finally, today, I got a tattoo like I’ve wanted since I was 13.

Happiness is a road that I must forge for myself. I have to take the unknown road, no matter how scared of that road I may be, so that I can live a life in which I will have no regrets.

I cannot thank Sarahs_Girl enough for putting pen to these words that have given me so much strength. I will wear it on my skin until the day I die, and every time I look at it I will be reminded that the things I am most scared of can bring about the most rewarding ends.

Happy New Year! Batarou Fanfiction

((I suck at titles, sorry. T.T Anyways, I normally write something tonight and try to finish it before the new year begins. This year’s was Batarou themed surprisingly. I hope you like it. They’re probably OOC since I’m not familiar with writing them. I also switch between Metal Bat and Badd… I couldn’t decide which to use so I used both. Happy New Year ya’ll. May it treat you well.))

((Btw, when I say the ball drops there’s a giant ball that drops in New York City, NY at midnight. Just for anyone who is confused.))

It was New Year’s Eve after the fight between Metal Bat and Garou months before. The two teens had become friends through Metal Bat’s little sister Zenko and her efforts to get her older brother more friends. Now she (and Badd) were having a party for the New Year. Garou had of course been invited.

There weren’t many people at the party, just close friends of Zenko’s with the oldest people there being Metal Bat and Garou with a few adults around somewhere. The kids were having fun while Badd and Garou were sitting around bored out of their minds.

“What the hell, this is so boring.” Garou grumbled watching Metal Bat out of the corner of his eye. All night the two of them had been dancing around each other. Garou didn’t understand why and Metal Bat refused to explain.

“Shut it, it s’not tha’ bad.” Metal Bat retorted. He was keeping an eye on his sister and blatantly not looking at Garou. It was frustrating.

Garou snorted and threw his arms onto the back of the couch, one going behind Metal Bat’s head. His arm was spared a glance before the hero looked away once more. Although, Garou could’ve sworn he saw a hint of a blush. ‘The hell is that about?’

“Oi, are you going to look at me tonight or what?” Garou demanded turning to look at the younger teen. Said teen flinched slightly before looking at Garou and then away again. It made Garou’s blood boil. ‘The hell won’t he look at me for!?’ Removing his arms from the back of the couch the Hero Hunter shifted positions on the couch until he had his legs crossed beneath him as he stared at Metal Bat.

He stared at the kid for a few minutes and could practically see the annoyance on Badd’s face. Garou put his chin in his hand as he continued to stare. Eyebrows raised as Metal Bat finally turned to look at him.

“The hel-heck ye doin’ Garou?” Metal Bat demanded. He scowled at the other teen while Garou smirked.

“Sitting.” That deepened the scowl on Metal Bat’s face. He abruptly turned back around to leave Garou once again staring at his back. Garou’s smirk dropped. Kids ran past the two teens as the TV blared in the background. Out of the corner of his eye Zenko appeared with a confused frown on her face.

“Big brother, what are you doing?” She asked tugging on Metal Bat’s arm.

“Wha’? Nuthin’ sis, why? Somethin’ wrong?” His response made her puff her cheeks out in annoyance.

“Why are you ignoring Garou?” ‘Yeah Badd, why are you ignoring me?’ There was that hint of a blush again! Garou grinned in amusement at Metal Bat’s discomfort. It was obvious something was bothering him, or more like someone.

“I’m no’ ignorin’ him.” Metal Bat grumbled glancing at Garou who winked back at him. The younger teen went bright red and turned away quickly. Zenko looked between the two with another confused look. ‘Ah, so he’s embarrassed about something to do with me.’ The thought almost made Garou smile.

“Then why don’t you face each other?” Before Metal Bat had to answer one of Zenko’s friends called for her and affectively bought her brother a break from her. However, there was still Garou to deal with.

The Hero Hunter stared at Metal Bat for another couple seconds to see if he would react before poking the teen in the shoulder. No reaction. Garou poked him in the middle of his back. Badd arched his back to get away from the finger. Garou took the opportunity to pull Metal Bat towards him and wound up with the hero sprawled across his lap.

Metal Bat’s entire face was bright red. It was amusing to say the least. Garou looked down on him with a shit-eating grin as the hero struggled to sit back up. However, Garou wasn’t going to let him up.

“Well look what I have here, S-class hero Metal Bat at my mercy.” Garou teased poking Metal Bat in the cheek. The teen scowled back at him.

“I’m no’ at yer mercy.” He spat trying to get Garou to release him. Instead all he got was a hand on his chest keeping him in place. Garou let his face slip into a serious one as he looked down at Metal Bat. This kid had been avoiding him and he wanted to know why.


“Explain wha’?!” Metal Bat shout/whispered back. After all, Zenko did not need to see them like this.

“Explain why you’re blushing.” That made Badd’s face go even redder.

“I’m no’ blushin’!” He denied even with the red face. Garou raised an eyebrow before pinching Metal Bat’s nose. He was swatted at for it too. Snickering, Garou instead squeezed the younger teen’s cheeks making him try to scowl and bat at his hands. “Stup dat.”

“Make me s-class.” Garou replied still squeezing. Metal Bat grabbed his wrists and pulled. Garou went tumbling forward. He barely managed to stop himself before their faces collided. They stared at each other, nose to nose, eyes to eyes and lips to lips. Badd’s eyes were wide open. Both of their faces were now red from the intimacy.

“Big brother?” Both teens looked over to see Zenko standing there with a half hidden smile. Metal Bat tried to jerk away from Garou who slowly sat back up but didn’t allow Metal Bat to move off his lap. Instead he wrapped his arms around the hero’s waist and rested his chin on the other’s shoulder. Metal Bat squirmed before facing his sister.

“Zenko… Somethin’ wrong?” Badd asked trying to ignore how Garou’s fingers were tracing circles into his sides. Garou was smirking as he watched Metal Bat squirm from his antics.

“The countdown starts soon big bro, are you and Garou joining us?” Garou’s fingers stilled as he thought over the question. ‘Another opportunity to embarrass Metal Bat?’ Zenko smiled up at both teens waiting for their answer. ‘Perfect.’

“Of course.” Garou responded with the biggest smirk on his face. He could feel Metal Bat gulp against him. Zenko grinned as Garou released her older brother. She pulled Badd away towards the TV with Garou following behind the pair. All of the kids and other adults were gathered around the TV waiting for the ball to drop and signal the New Year. There were only a few minutes left until the countdown would begin.

“Garou?” He looked down to see Zenko staring back at him. He raised in eyebrow in response. “Will you keep big brother company again?” He smirked at her and crouched down to be at her level.

“Yes I will, so you go countdown with your friends and I’ll make sure he has company.” They stared at each other for a moment before she nodded.

“Good, make sure he kisses someone when the ball drops. He always forgets.” And with that she left. Garou stood back up and looked for Metal Bat. He wasn’t too far away.  Smirking the hero hunter walked over to the other teen who, unfortunately for Badd, wasn’t paying Garou any attention. A glance at the clock showed just under two minutes left until midnight. The countdown would begin soon.

Wrapping an arm around Metal Bat’s waist Garou pulled the other towards him. Badd put a hand on Garou’s chest and looked up at him with a scowl. Their faces were close, the height difference showing itself as Garou bent down slightly to nearly touch noses with the hero.

“The hell ye doin’!?” Badd exclaimed pushing against Garou who smirked.

“What do you think I’m doing?” Garou replied just as the countdown started.


“Ge’ offa me!”






“I told your sister that I would make sure-“


“That you got your new year’s kiss.”


Sh-she wha?”


Garou laughed as he pulled the other closer with another arm around his waist.


Badd’s face was turning redder by the millisecond. But he did move a hand up to Garou’s shoulder.


The two teens stared at each other with soft eyes and red faces. Garou was still smirking although it was almost a smile while Badd was also almost smiling.


“Happy New Year.” They said at the same time. Not a second later their lips finally met.


Garou happily kept his lips pressed to Badd’s as kids celebrated around them. He moved one hand up to the back of Badd’s head as the other teen returned his kiss. One of Badd’s arms wrapped around Garou’s neck while the other stayed on his chest. The kiss was warm. It filed Garou’s chest with a fluttery feeling that he did not yet understand. What he did know was that it only happened when he was with Badd. He was surprisingly okay with that.

A moment later they broke apart to cheers from Zenko who looked happier than ever. She jumped up and into Metal Bat’s arms (and by default Garou’s). Metal Bat smiled at her along with Garou. Zenko smiled at them both and kissed each one on the cheek.

“Happy New Year Big Brother Badd! Big Brother Garou!”

((Happy New Year.))