how mad am i at myself for not posting this before

okay I wasn’t gonna make a post about this but I am just so mad right now. “because it was cool??” because it was fucking “cool” MBC thought it was THEIR right to take what rightfully belongs to monsta x and just give it to other groups??? this isn’t just fucking plagiarism it’s RUDE AND DOWNRIGHT DISRESPECTFUL to monsta x. what, they’re not “cool” enough to perform their own choreo?? how dare MBC think that they can just TAKE monsta x’s hard work and pass it along like a FUCKING GAME OF PASS THE PARCEL. istg I have never been this mad before monsta x are already underrated even though they work so hard and MBC adds to it by not even giving them credit for their hard work. I am so angry honestly. monsta x deserves better than this, they really do.

You have no right to be mad at me” he said.
“I have no right?” She asked.
“No.” He replied.
She paused. Then proceeded: “I don’t have a right to get mad that the only boy I’ve ever loved tore me apart and made me watch him fall in love with another girl? That he basically told me he was in love with me the week before and then went for someone completely different? Tell me how I don’t have a right to be mad. Please tell me. Because I am sick and tired of constantly apologizing for things I didn’t do. I didn’t ask for you to come back into my life but I am mad at myself for taking you in after I know how you operate. So please, don’t tell me I don’t have a right to be mad when I could have easily cut you off just as easily as you cut me off.
—  @paxadisee

I wanted to take a moment to thank those who’ve been helping me by helping me with reblogs of posts that I’m trying to keep circulating. In the next couple days (Probly tomorrow) my internet will shut off for a couple weeks and I will not be able to reblog from myself (because I’ll be on mobile… Ugh) 

As thanks to them (Not sure how many will see this) and to anyone else who gives me a hand with this I am going a little giveaway during the month of June. 

I will be giving away some of the above games on Steam as thanks for help with promotion and helping me self promote. 


You do not need to follow (I’m not looking for more followers, just reblogs)

Reblogging this post will enter you in the contest

Reblogging these posts means more winners: 

Promoting my Alice: Madness Returns Lets Play

Promoting my Patreon

Promoting my Spreadshirt

Help me find Ella a Home

At then end of the month I will count up ALL reblogs of those four posts (including the ones from before I posted this) and enter them in a RNG list to decide on winners. The total number of notes from these posts decides how many winners there are. 

250 notes: 2 winners

500 notes: 3 winners

1000: 4 winners

1500: 5 winners

2500: 6 winners

4000: all seven games

Games will be first come first serve to the winners, if more than one winner wants the same game I’ll RNG it. 

Thank you for reading, and thank you for the help. 


I binged last night. For the first time in a looooong time. I am kind of in awe. I don’t know what happened, but just all of the sudden I decided to eat EVERYTHING. Doritos,m&m’s,peachy ring candy, Milano cookies, and a whoooole lot of other stuff. I’m mad. I’m sad. I feel guilty. I wish I could turn back the clock 12 hours and fix it.

I woke up feeling terrible. Stomach was upset from all of it. I can see it. I picked myself apart before work. I was so terrible to myself. Said terrible things to my body. But you know what? That’s not okay.

My body is incredible. It’s strong. It’s beautiful. I treated my body like crap last night by filling it with garbage. I treated it like crap this morning by saying nasty things and critiquing everything about it. But that’s not how to be.

It happened. It’s over. I can’t change that. But I can go forward today and eat mindfully. Fill my body with nutrients. Drink water, stay hydrated. I can have positive self talk. I can do my best to live today as best I can, and not wallow in misery and guilt from last night.

I can go to bed satisfied tonight, and wake up and do it again tomorrow.

“Bad days build better days”