how is it that you exist

I was on Tumblr today and I came across this quote that said “I see you in colours that don’t even exist yet”; It reminded me of how passionately in love with her I am. How beautiful she is to me.
Something about it wasn’t right to me though, because before I met her I was color blind. I lived in a world that was only black and white, until the night I saw her came, and even though it was dark, my sensors were reprogrammed.

She painted my world with the colours of her soul.
She taught me the colour Red when I saw her lips, the colour Pink when I saw her cheeks, the colour Blue when I miss her at night, and how colourful the colour of her eyes is that God chose to make it the colour of honey too.

I still don’t know if the colours in the quote will ever be discovered, but I discovered the ones that already exist.

—  arcticmoe 

Depression is a complicated diagnosis that can manifest in a lot of different ways. While this blog largely highlights undereating, people with depression can just as often exhibit overeating or even maintain a healthy diet. What or how you eat is not a reflection on if you’re depressed or to what extent. We are here to share our realities, in whatever form they exist.

anonymous asked:

You do threaten me though. Your existence threatens my world because you exist in a grey area. You dye your hair unnatural colours and stretch out your earlobes to show that you do not conform, but all I feel when I see pictures of you is fear. Because you pretend to be tiny and cute but who you truly are...well, it doesn't exist, so you are not supposed to be who you are, and I am terrified by that. Do you think you are so important that people must pluralize your pronoun?

Okay, I hear you. So I don’t think you have any reason to be afraid of me– you can’t really control how you feel, but you can control how you think, so I’m going to try to reason with you point by point and let you know why I don’t think you should be afraid of me. All that I ask is that you read this with an open mind.

- I don’t dye my hair or stretch my ears as some sort of exercise of non-conformity– I just like the way it looks. It isn’t even really an act of non-conformity because the society, that I live in permits that type of self-expression– it’s allowed. I’m not breaking the law or anything.

- I really don’t know what to make of you suggesting that who I am doesn’t exist, or that I am something that I am not supposed to be. I don’t particularly believe in any sort of creator so I don’t know who exactly would be the authority on what I’m “supposed to be,” but I really don’t think that you’re the authority on who I should or shouldn’t be, because we’ve never met. Also, you claim that what I am doesn’t exist, but I really think you should tell that to all of the terrifying, like-minded people in my inbox that are asking me if it’s okay to express themselves the way that they want to. They’re afraid to act on their feelings, or in other words: they’re afraid to be themselves. I personally don’t think that there’s anything scary about them.

- Self-importance is kind of tough for any individual to avoid, because we can only really experience life in our own shoes. We have to prioritize ourselves to some extent or else we won’t take care of ourselves– which is exactly what I’m trying to do. So yeah, I guess I do think I’m kind of important… at least important enough to try and give myself as good of a life as I can, but I don’t really think that’s abnormal. I like to be referred to a specific way, because that’s what’s most comfortable for me. You wouldn’t want someone to call you the wrong name; I don’t want someone to refer to me using the wrong pronouns (Quick sidenote: when referring to a shadowy figure whose identity is concealed by a cloak and a mask you would describe their actions by saying something like “they reached for the doorknob,” because their gender is indeterminate; therefore, singular they/them pronouns exist).

Look, the main thing to focus on is that I really don’t mean you any harm– I truly don’t! I hope that you can go on to live a happy life. I just couldn’t leave this, because historically, nothing good ever comes from this kind of fear.

Honestly?

You wanna know how I see artists? You really wanna know? Honestly? What I think of artists? Especially fan artists?

They’re gods. Every last one of them. They are untouchable entities that I will never have as much patience or talent as. If you’re an artist, even if you think your work sucks, I’m never gonna think it sucks. I’m so glad you exist.

Even if you don’t do art, gifsets, edit videos and photos, write fanfics, you are important and fandom wouldn’t exist without you.

That also doesn’t mean that you’re not an artistic type of person.

There are two types of artistic personality:

a creator, who writes, paints, draw, do videos etc.

and a consumer.

The person, who sees art, for whom it’s made. Without them it wouldn’t matter, because there would be nobody to see the creation. It’s one of the most important roles, but many people do it badly.

How to be a good recipient?

First of all, you need to give feedback. Every time you take time to see/read something. And it can’t be any feedback. It must be good.

Doesn’t matter if it’s a fanart, fic, video, poem or something else. Give kudos. Comment it. Even if you didn’t like it. Especially, if you didn’t like it. It takes only 30 seconds to write something and it shows the author that you saw their work and took time to think about it. It really motivates them.

What you should write?

Well, anything you want. “Great job, keep going!”, “I love the way you did it!”, “Wow, amazing work, I’d love to see more!” is enough. Really.

 Of course, if you decide to say something more it’s great! Authors love to read your thoughts about their work. Tell them about the colours they used, how they match the scene and character, how they build the atmosphere with words, how you love the character development, the typhography they made. Tell them about everything that made you “wow, this is amazing”, about the piece that made you smile or cry or laugh or any reaction you had.

Tell them that you are waiting for sequel for this fic. That you can’t wait for the next fanart of this pairing. That you love seeing their work.

Thank them for it. I know that you know that they do it as a hobby, but thank them for spending their time anyway.

Reading this makes their day. And they’ll tell you that.

Okay, but what if you didn’t like it?

Then you have to write a comment anyway. Criticism is the most important for artist. Without it they can’t make progress.

Writing critique is harder than writing a positive feedback. You have to be precise here. The most important rule is:

DO NOT WRITE “I DON’T LIKE IT”

like really

if you want to write something like that, then better don’t write anything.

You must add what you didn’t like, why, and how they can change that. Constructive criticism is the only one which matters. Otherwise you’ll make them not want to create anymore.

So how good criticism looks like?

“The colours you used don’t fit together. If you used warmer shade of red it would look better!”

“The main character of the story is too perfect, you should add them some flaws to make them more real. Perhaps something with their looks - too thin mouth or some scar? Their personality is also too mary sue. Try to give them some bad traits, maybe they can be blunt or a bit ignorant and listen to nobody’s advice?”

“The person you drew has anatomically incorrect legs - it looks like they don’t have knees. Try to work on it looking at some photos.”

The problem with criticism is that inexperienced artists often take it too personally, like an attack. Good solution is to tell them something nice.

“The scenere is beautiful, but…”
“I love how you write descriptions, but there’s something you need to work on…”

When you write comments it’s also important NOT TO DEMAND ANOTHER PIECE OF ART/CHAPTER/SEQUEL/WHATEVER

It makes them not wanting to contiune their work. So, yeah, encourage them, but not demand. “Is there any chance you’ll do it?”, “I can’t wait for more!”, “Please, continue this, I really want to know what happens next!”

What else you can do as a recipient?

Reblog. Not only like, but also reblog, so more people can see it. Don’t repost and if you have to ALWAYS GIVE CREDITS. And no, “source: tumblr” is not a credit (I feel like I should do another post about it)

Buy. I know all of us are broke, but many artists are really cheap (and that makes me sad). Just ask them to do something customized for you, like keychains or something like that. And pay them for it. Or just donate.

And remember

EVEN IF YOU DON’T CREATE YOU ARE IMPORTANT IN FANDOM AND IT WOULDN’T BE THERE WITHOUT YOU

YOU ARE IMPORTANT

YOU MATTER

(feel free to add some things that I forgot and tell me all mistakes I made, it’s late and my brain is tired so I could use some wrong words but I tried)

I had this crazy realization about Captain Underpants yesterday that made the character more epic– he’s the living embodiment/personification of George and Harold’s friendship. If you’ve seen Frozen and you can see how Olaf is the living embodiment/personification of the sisterly love between Anna and Elsa, then you know where I’m going with this.

… Well, I mean its probably a ‘duh, the two collaborated on his comics together’ but its so awesome when you look really into it. He’s a character George and Harold created that was able to come into existence and he does have a naive, almost child like view on things, but he also has that silliness and fun about him that is part of their creativity. I also noticed in books 3 and 4 just how super protective he really is towards them (I haven’t properly sat down to read all the books but I’ve skimmed though everything beyond book 5 recently). Then I saw the little moment in one of the recent tv spots where he’s messing their hair up in an affectionate manner, but judging from how it was played out before he does the action, I think he was complimenting both of them for their talents/showing appreciation towards them. As much as a handful he can be for those two boys, he also represents an ideal adult figure to a child- someone who doesn’t have to be perfect, but is supportive, is able to be there for you, and is willing to embrace being silly and provide fun.

And this is where it gets more ironic when I saw how most of the adults in the books are the exact opposite towards children. One in particular, of course.

Captain Underpants was ‘born’ just for laughs for those two in the original books, but it looks like he was ‘born’ in the film out of a desperate attempt to save their friendship. The person who represents complete order, no nonsense/no fun, is not supportive of the boys’ creativity, enjoys making their lives hell, and who wants to separate them in the film and ends up causing the ‘birth’ is Mr. Krupp, who is the real/true identity of CU. One persona wants to keep the two apart and prevents them from fulfilling their potential because of his views on life/education, while the other is able to bring them together and never seems to object to their assistance nor does he ever look down on them.

And it makes the thing tragic in a way. After reading Pilkey’s reflection on why mean adults tend to be the way they are without being able to change, plus Ed Helm’s view’s on the characters, we see what COULD have been with Krupp through the Captain Underpants persona. Try as he might, he can never destroy the friendship between George and Harold, nor get rid of their creativity, and instead he only strengthened both when that potential for good came out and became the literal representation of that.

fate-plays-chess-with-two-queens  asked:

Because you like to talk and I'm curious: what is Cosmere about? The fanart looks really cool but I'm hesitant to commit to the book because I have 101 things I really should prioritise :)

Cosmere is a collection of books (Mistborn series, Stormlight Archive series, Elantris, Warbreaker series (hopefully), White Sand series, and Arcanum Unbounded (a collection of short stories)) that exist within the same universe in which once upon a time a God was destroyed and broken into 16 pieces (aka shards). It’s currently unknown as to exactly how this shattering occurred, or what the entire compilation is leading up to (but I’m assuming some sort of apocalypse). 

In this series you have characters such as: Sociopath Jesus, Better-than-Loki, Hat-Thief, Queen of Awesome, Depression, Cinnamon Roll 1 and 2, Judas-but-Suave, Braniac-Badass, Zombie-Prince, and many, many more. 

You should get started on it. It’s awesome and will probably take up your life for at least the next 6 months. 

Can you dislike a show (or the folks behind it) and do it as a good fan?

And more importantly: how?

The  Sherlocked con has me seeing several people vocally, publicly express their frustrations both with the event and also the folks putting it on, how they’re doing that. And it’s not that I always disagree. It’s more that the best parts of fandom (the parts I’m most at home with) tend to take a live-and-let-live approach. If pro-Mofftiss and anti-Mofftiss were ships, this behavior would have me feeling more than a bit …. ehhhh?

Only they’re not ships, they’re existing people who have taken specific actions that has RL consequences, so I’m not sure the standards are quite the same.

Still, I do worry we’re keeping people from enjoying a show they can like in a way we once did. Which still leaves me feeling more than a bit uncomfortable.

So: any thoughts? How can you dislike a show (passionately!), even hate the creators, and still be respectful while doing it?

anonymous asked:

i might have missed it but why aren't we talking about that one line in john's song 'how do you sleep' (which was obviously about paul) that goes "You live with straights who tell you, you was king"??? like i just realized this line exists and i'm shook this is so obvious and also petty and like???? wow. he's so mad about paul 'living with straights' / pretending to be straight instead of coming out together and being a couple aka 'living together'. what do you think?

I think it was John’s way to yell WHY YOU PRETEND YOU’RE A STRAIGHT WITH WIFE AND KIDS LIVING WITH PEOPLE WHO CALL YOU KING WHEN PEOPLE USED TO CALL YOU JOHN’S PRINCESS WHEN YOU WERE WITH ME??

Regarding Wonder Woman, I’ve received a few questions and some folks asked how tied up to the DC Cinematic Universe Wonder Woman is.

The answer is ALMOST zero. You won’t see anything related to the League, neither The Man of Steel nor BvS. Literally nothing besides a very small nod to Bv (like a Wayne truck delivering something or an email reply). No post- credit scenes here (obviously, because DC and Marvel are two different things). Plus: no sex scenes, yay

Also, pay attention to the opening credits. Finally DC is saying something like: “We’re here!! Our cinematic universe exists and it’s time to meet all of our superheroes!”  TBH I’ve got chils with this opening just like I did ages ago with the first official Marvel opening!

Shiny Hunting: Generation 1

Alright, so while I work on a complete Shiny Guide for all the Generations, I’m gonna be posting each one one at a time.

Today, we’ll be discussing Shiny Hunting in Generation 1: Red, Blue, Yellow, and Green for both VC and the physical game.

First off, you will need to understand how this is even possible.

Despite the concept of Shiny Pokemon not existing until GSC, it is possible that if you trade a Pokemon with a certain stat spread to GCS, it can end up Shiny. Like in all Generations, IVs existed in Gen 1, but were referred to as DVs, or Detrimental Values, instead.

In the GSC, shininess is determined by the following:

  1. HP must be equal to 0 or 8
  2. Attack must be equal to 2/3/6/7/10/11/14/15
  3. Defense must be equal to 10
  4. Special must be equal to 10
  5. Speed must be equal to 10

However, when transferring them from VC RBGY to Sun and Moon, they are determined by these instead:

  1. HP must be equal to 0 or 4
  2. Attack must be equal to 10
  3. Defense must be equal to 2/3/6/7/10/11/14/15
  4. Special must be equal to 10
  5. Speed must be equal to 10

See the difference? Pokebank attempts to take in account, but ends up getting the Attack and Defense stats backwards, hence the effed up stats. And why HP is different as well, I have no idea.

There are only 4 Pokemon in RBGY that have stats high enough to where you can successfully shiny hunt for, and that is the Legendary Birds and Mewtwo. However, technically, all Pokemon in RBGY can be shiny hunted for, but they’ll have to be over Level 30, and gaining any EVs from battles can completely fuck this up too, so if you wanna Shiny Hunt for anything other than the Legendaries, I highly recommend you do the Old Man Glitch (Missingno Glitch) to dupe some Rare Candies. 

Anyways, onto the stats for the Legends!

For Shiny Hunters who have physical copies of RBGY, GSC, and a Link Cable, the stats to get the Shiny Legends are the following. (NOTE: You CANNOT give them any EVs, or else it messes with their Shininess, so don’t use them to fight wild Pokemon or Trainer Battles!!)

MEWTWO (Cerulean Cave)
HP: 228 or 239
Attack: 161, 163, 167, 168, 173, 174, 178, or
180
Defense: 145
Speed: 201
Special: 234

ARTICUNO (Seafoam Islands)
HP: 150 or 158
Attack: 92, 93, 96, 97, 100, 101, 104, or 105
Defense: 115
Speed: 100
Special: 140

ZAPDOS (Power Plant)
HP: 150 or 158
Attack: 97, 98, 101, 102, 105, 106, 109, or 110
Defense: 100
Speed: 115
Special: 140

MOLTRES (Victory Road)
HP: 150 or 158
Attack: 107, 108, 111, 112, 115, 116, 119, or 120
Defense: 105
Speed: 105
Special: 140

For Shiny Hunters who have the Virtual Console Copies, Poke Transfer, Pokebank, and SuMo, The stats to get the Shiny Legends are the following. (NOTE: Same as the above, don’t use them in any wild encounters or Trainer Battles!!)

MEWTWO (Cerulean Cave)
HP: 228 or 234
Attack: 173
Defense: 133, 135, 139, 140, 145, 146, 150, 152
Speed: 201
Special: 234

ARTICUNO (Seafoam Islands)
Hp: 150 or 154
Attack: 100
Defense: 107, 108, 111,112, 115, 116, 119, 120
Speed: 100
Special: 140

ZAPDOS (Power Plant)
Hp: 150 or 154
Attack: 105
Defense: 92, 93, 96, 97, 100, 101, 104, 105
Speed: 115
Special: 140

MOLTRES (Victory Road)
HP: 150 or 154
Attack: 115
Defense: 97, 98, 101, 102, 105, 106, 109, 110
Speed: 105
Special: 140

With all that said, if they have the above correct stats EXACTLY, they will be shiny upon transfer to GSC or SuMo!

~*Happy Hunting!*~

Not much tops my fear of the ocean:

-floating with literal miles of water underneath you
-zero advantage over other things in the water physically
-essentially zero visibility
-the fact that you could just die if u stop moving :///
-that at a certain depth your body would be crushed
-there are things in the ocean that defy how we think life can exist
-DARK AS SHIT
-sharks,.,
-we ain’t got no business being in the ocean everything is designed to kill us and it has the right to,

0/10 hate thinking about it

Dear straight people,

I understand that you mean well, and I appreciate the attitude you’re showing. But after finding out my orientation(s), repeatedly enthusing about how tolerant and accepting you are, and how everyone should just be allowed to be themselves and isn’t it great that there’s diversity in the world…

Look, we don’t need your permission to be ourselves. We don’t need your permission to be queer, gay, bi, pan, poly, ace, aro, trans, whatever. I appreciate what you’re trying to say. But what you’re really saying is that we are only allowed to exist in (semi) peace because it is being generously allowed.

Better? Just say “oh, cool” and move on. Or “oh, do you have a girlfriend?” Something benign and quick - don’t make a big deal out of it! Part of what makes us cringe to come out to even friendly people, is the knowledge that we’ll probably have to navigate a whole long conversation about ourselves, and it’s tiring.

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The lighting is terrible, but I wanted to show you all the custom Gameboy Advance my bf made me for my birthday! It has a backlit screen and everything! It’s hard to tell in the horrible lighting, but it’s yellow with pink paint splatters! I can finally live out my childhood dreams of playing my Gameboy Advance in bed in the dark with no horrible Gameboy light attachment (yes I know SPs and DS exist, but GBAs have a special place in my heart)! I love my boyfriend!!! He is so sweet to me 💖I can’t tell you how happy this little gift makes me! It’s so special to me, and of course has all the little details that make it very “me!”

I warned you. I told you how the blood thickening in your veins would slither around my torso and snap my spine. I told you how much I needed your laughter to open up my windpipe in this city where even the air is laden with despair. What have you done? You have stirred up a poisonous potion of agony, desperation and guilt within me. I feel like surrending myself to death. I wish you had let me save you. I have borne the weight of a million “if onlys” till it finally broke my back, till I finally couldn’t handle the fact that you weren’t there anymore. I could have changed that.
And when this suffocation became too much , I ceased to exist. How do I ever forgive myself, because we were the summer, the spring and the winter going hand in hand. The one ray of sunshine I had is now gone without you. I burn away like cigarettes on cold, bitter nights. Every time I walk past our favourite restaurant I’m taken back to the days where you left your hand in mine. I wish I could forgive myself for not doing more to keep you here. But, here I am now, throbbing in pain, willing my blood to stop. Stop, and let me die.


This was made together with such a bright, young, talented poet for the @writerscreed challenge. @mymellowcupcakestudent Stay awesome M.

anonymous asked:

speaking of romanticizing a mediocre marriage, did you see the burning pile of trash that is the book alex and eliza by melissa de la cruz? its a ya fiction book trying to cash in on the fame of the musical and it looks so bad lol i wanna hate-read it. tagline is "their romance shaped a nation"

I’ve heard of it. I’ve seen it in book stores. I don’t care to look at it. I think you’re probably right that it’s trying to capitalize off the musical’s already romanticized portrayal of their marriage, and while I have to respect that economic initiative seeing as how I’ve similarly been using the musical’s popularity to try and drag people into studying the Revolutionary War, I’m frankly disgusted that it doesn’t seem to even be remotely accurate- which means it exists only for a profit and for fame rather than actually educating the ya fiction audience…

so I’ll encourage you. don’t even hate read it. don’t give it any of the attention it doesn’t deserve unless you can do so for free or by buying it used.

anonymous asked:

hey just so you know, most western magic built its foundations on stealing from indigenous people of north and south america, as well

That’s a much more recent trend.  Here’s how I know: they were stealing from us before they knew the Americas existed.  But yeah, they do steal from indigenous people in the Americas.  I’ll disagree with “most” here, though, absolutely.  The fundamental CORE is built on stealing from Jews, and some aspects, particularly in American colonial states (such as the USA) steal from indigenous Americans, but it’s not the foundation of it and is just shoehorned in awkwardly.