how hard the past

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On the left is Amber’s most recent post and on the right is the post right before it

Obviously she is going through something right now and feeling who knows what

Please just send her loving messages and give her your support

We love you Amber
We support you Amber
Whatever you’re experiencing right now please stay strong, and know that we’ll be right by your side

Note to the suicidal black men..

It will get better.

It’s doesn’t feel like it will and it’s hard to imagine how. It’s hard to see past right now but I promise it gets better. If I had my way a few months ago I wouldn’t be here now.

It’s hard to keep the pressure and negativity from getting to you…damn near impossible so disconnect if you must but don’t slide into seclusion..don’t trick yourself into thinking that nobody else cares…there’s at least one. And if you really can’t find that one I’m here.
SERIOUSLY.
I don’t care what the issue is…what your orientation is. You are my brother.
“I am my brothers keeper-a fortress to protect you”
With Love,
Your Brother.

compliment people. not in the “fake” way, but in the sense that if you notice how great their hair looks, or how hard they have been working in the past few days, or how cute and inspiring their blog is, tell them. they’ll appreciate it, and maybe blush a little or smile, eyes lightening up, and maybe that little compliment or ask will make their day.

Even literally froze when he saw them, imagine how hard that must have felt for him, all the reminders of his past mistakes but Isak was there to bring him back to the present, he was there to remind him he is worth it and he deserves to be loved and he isn’t alone, that he now not only has him but an amazing and supportive group of friends.

Patronus
  • So the patronus isn’t straight up taught in Hogwarts, as a wise professor once said, it’s a ‘highly advanced spell, well beyond O.W.L level’
  • But you know, this is the marauders, the rebellious little nerds that we all know and love.
  • So James got hold of a book from  the library one day about how to do the patronus and it seemed very cool. Not the whole fighting dementors part, but the distant and simple communication? priceless for a marauder.
  • And so they all stayed up one night trying to learn how to do it.
  • Sirius was actually the first to successfully do the spell. He had spent the last hour lavishly flinging his wand in the air shouting ‘Expecto Patronum!’ to no avail. Them Remus told him he should try to think of a happier memory.
  • He thought of the first time he had called Euphemia Potter ‘mum’. It had been an accident and had really just slipped out. He had been so embarrassed. But none of the Potter’s seemed to have noticed. A few moments later James had turned over to Sirius and said.’Could you pass your brother the salt then?’
  • And Sirius had never felt more part of a family in his life.
  • He was so engrossed in the memory he didn’t even notice the frantic black dog shoot out to his wand and knock Peter onto his backside.
  • Peter was next, he was thinking of the moment when some of the Slytherins had been bullying him earlier one day in first year and he had been crying down by the lake all afternoon, only to have Remus come up and sit behind him, rubbing his back and comforting him. Then Sirius and James had pushed the Slytherins into the Black lake right in front of him. How they had laughed. Real friends.
  • The small rat that scurried out of Peter’s wand that night was the first and last one Peter could ever produce. This was 6th year and soon the war became to much for the young boy.
  • Standing next to a struggling James, Remus was viciously whispering and flicking his wrists over and over again. ‘Expecto Patronum. Expecto Patronum. Expecto f’fucks sake. This is hopeless.’
  • ‘You can do it Moony.’ Sirius smiled.
  • Remus thought about the first time he had kissed the stupid black haired Gryffindor in front of him. Sirius had been stealing something out of one of the cupboards along the school corridors when Remus had caught him on prefect rounds.
  • Looking back on it Remus couldn’t help but laugh at how unsubtle Sirius had been about the whole thing. ‘Oh, we seem to have bumped into each other Moons’ ‘What a coincidence.’ Remus of course had just assumed Sirius was trying to tease him into giving him detention, something Remus would never do, and had ended up getting pretty annoyed and flustered about being this close to Sirius in a small space and omg he could feel the heat of his skin and ah this was too much and he couldn’t stop talking.
  • Until Sirius closed that little gap between them to shut him up.
  • And Remus had never been happier. And he had never looked back.
  • And then a large animal came running out of the end of his wand, and Remus thought to himself.
  • ‘It’s a dog! Sirius and I have the same Patronus!’
  • Only Remus’ was much bigger than Sirius’ dog… and it’s tail was bushier.. and did it just howl?
  • No. This wasn’t fair. Not this. That wasn’t how this was supposed t be. It was meant to be a happy memory. This wasn’t fair, after all this time, the one thing he thought he could share with his boyfriend.. and this was what he gets… another reminder about how imperfect and unworthy and unwanted…
  • And then there was Sirius standing next to him, sliding his arm around his back and kissing him gently on the cheek.
  • ‘I love it.’ He whispered.
  • ‘ ‘s not fair.’ Remus mumbled.
  • ‘Remus look.’ Sirius replied. ‘it’s not that. It’s a wolf. A normal wolf. A loyal and pack having, friendly wolf.’
  • And Sirius was grinning.
  • But Remus just shrugged.
  • James was having the most trouble of them all.
  • Something was wrong, he just couldn’t seem to do it. He kept thinking of happy memories, first time he rode a broom, first time Sirius came to stay, first time he transformed into a stag.
  • And still nothing.
  • Tiny wisps of silver.
  • And then nothing.
  • ‘It’s fine James, we already know what it’s going to be.’
  • ‘I know,’ James replied through gritted teeth. ‘I just want to see it.’
  • And he was so fustrated.
  • And making a crap load of noise about it too.
  • So much noise in fact, that he started to wake the other residents of the Gryffindor tower up from their slumber.
  • And so a very grumpy and tired Lily Evans came storming down the staircase.
  • ‘What in Merlin’s name are you twats doing now!’
  • ‘Ah Evans.’ Sirius grinned. ‘care to join us?’
  • ‘It’s three in the fucking morning Black! I’m supposed to be sleeping, except someone has been screaming for the past half hour about how hard this is and he trying but it’s not working, and I can’t tell if James is finally losing his virginity or doing his homework for once, but what I do know is that it’s stopping me from being able to enjoy the few hours of the day that I don’t have to be around you lot.’
  • A rather deeply embarrassed James pushed past a bent-over-with-laughter Sirius.
  • ‘Actually Lily,’ he said, trying to act suave and like he hand’t just heard the last bit. ‘We are trying to do the patronus charm.’
  • This had peaked Lily’s interest, and although she knew better, she asked. ‘Really? The patronus charm? Wow. A proper one?’
  • ‘Yepp.’ peter chimed in. ‘And we’ve all been able to do it, except for James.’
  • Lily cocked her eyebrow.
  • ‘Oh.’ She smiled. ‘Let me try then.’
  • James, not wanting to be shown up any more by the fiery red head who was hopelessly in love with, quickly butted in. ‘No no. I mean, you can try.. but its really hard and took everyone ages to master and you’ll be up all night trying and-’
  • ‘Potter.’ She replied sternly.
  • It only took her three attempts.
  • And there it was.
  • A beautiful silver shimmering doe burst through the tip of her wand and gracefully ran across the common room, galloping past it occupants before turning and vanishing as Lily dropped her arm. She grinned.
  • ‘See? Not so hard then.’
  • James just stared. Open mouthed. Like the rest of the marauders. Dumb-founded in total and complete shock, until Lily just gave up on them and went back off to bed.
  • James didn’t have any trouble producing a Patronus after that.
4

I was not expecting NU’EST W to break down and cry the way they did

Everything seemed fine, then as soon as they were about to sing Hello 2017 ver, Baekho mentioned their hardships and all the “incidents” (for him of course, the rumours about him, and the tragic sudden passing of his father, Rest in Peace), and this is when the other members lost it seeing Baekho cry, and they started crying themselves.

I thought they were just nervous because they haven’t done a proper performance in over a year and were scared to cover Minhyun’s parts. But it seems they were holding a lot more inside, a lot of pain, and suddenly let it all out in the end.

Jonghyun said how hard the past almost 6 years have been, they all did. They thanked their fans over and over again, they still think they are living in a dream. Ren even posted in the fan cafe today saying that at times all the members wanted to quit and run away, but Loves made them fight through it.

I really wasn’t prepared for them to cry like this, I haven’t seen all of them (Minus Minhyun) cry like this since JR’s letter in 2014 to the members. Baekho’s pain was enough to make the other members unable to control themselves, they are so deeply close it’s like their reactions are connected.

JR and Ren crying I wasn’t as shocked about, but to see Aron as well as Baekho… I’m still in shock. 

When they performed Hello 2017, they did so while crying, JR’s rap and Baekho’s vocals gave me chills. He put his whole body and soul into his rap, I felt all four of their emotions so deeply- this was the most emotional performance they have EVER done

I felt their pain of being apart from Minhyun, Baekho’s personal struggles and everything they have been through for so many years, all compiled into one hell of an emotionally overbearing performance.

Today marks a special day in history for NU’EST, not only a complete music chart reversal. But today feel’s like closure. It feels like they let all their pain and emotion out today, in order to be stronger tomorrow. They reminded us they are 5 members today as well. 

I think I am finally able to accept Minhyun is in Wanna One because the NU’EST W members have accepted it.

I cried a lot today. From now on together with NU’EST, we can be stronger tomorrow, and fight even harder for their dreams to come true.

Some fun questions for the Supergirl Comic-Con panel (mainly for the producers / writers)
  1. Why did you replace James, a kind and respectful black man, with Mon-El, a white slave-owner, as a love interest, especially after spending the entire first season building up the relationship between Kara and James?
  2. The relationship between Kara and Mon-El has shown obvious signs of abuse with Mon-El exhibiting extreme jealousy, yelling at and humiliating Kara at the DEO, undermining her constantly and attempting to guilt-trip her when she broke up with him. Why do you continue to promote this relationship as healthy and romantic?
  3. Supergirl is supposedly a feminist show centered around female empowerment, so why was Kara’s entire arc in Season 2 centered entirely around her male love interest instead, with her career, her development as a superhero and her previously highly important relationships (with Alex, James, J’onn) sidelined completely?
  4. Why did you promote episode 2x13 as Sanvers-centric when in reality the relationship between Alex and Maggie barely got 5 or 6 minutes of screentime? Why was Maggie’s traumatic coming out experience never addressed properly, let alone respected by the other characters?
  5. What was the point of turning Maggie into a cheater? Why did she receive more backlash for it in-universe than Mon-El had for being a slave-owner and lying about his past to Kara and admitting to never actually intending to come clean about his past?
  6. Season 2 has prided itself on its great work for LGBT representation, but why was Sanvers only given the bare minimum of screentime and never allowed the same amount of both casual and overt intimacy on screen as the straight couples (even the rather irrelevant Winn/Lyra pair)? 
  7. Why do you keep portraying Kara’s work as a superhero as brawn over brains, when she was shown a great number of times in Season 1 to be highly empathetic, trying to talk down her adversaries before engaging in combat?
  8. The bond between Kara and Alex has been established to be the strongest relationship on the show in Season 1, so why did you keep undermining it in Season 2, having their romantic interests replace them in each other’s lives? In what world would Alex be content to sit in yoga class while there was a bounty on her sister’s head, or let Kara’s ex-boyfriend accompany her comatose sister to an another dimension instead of her?
  9. Why are J’onn’s extensive abilities never used in investigations or in combat, having him dumbed down and sidelined instead?
  10. Lena Luthor has been very clearly shown to be a survivor of emotional abuse, going so far as to have her acknowledge it and confront Lillian about it in the Season 2 finale. She has also been shown to consistently strive to do good and distance herself from her family, and yet the producers have kept teasing that she might turn evil. Don’t you think it’s a disservice to abuse survivors to suggest that no matter how hard they try, they will never be able to overcome their past trauma? 
  11. Season 1 has shown CatCo to be massively influential in shaping the public’s opinion, and yet we have seen little to nothing of it in Season 2 and it’s supposed focus on pro and anti alien sentiments. Will CatCo and Kara’s dayjob regain its significance for the plot in Season 3?
  12. When will we start seeing more of James Olsen again? Why did he have less than a minute of screentime in the finale, never even getting to talk to his old friend Clark? Will we ever see Clark and James discussing James’s decision to take up the Guardian’s mantle?
I always wait for you to open your eyes in the morning and see the sun rises in the sky. The way the darkest of the night melts and replaces by soft pastel lights. I always wait for your hand to move towards mine and hold it tight for the rest of our train ride—for the moment when I can rest my head on your shoulder and nap for awhile. I always wait for you to smile whenever I say something that made your heart thumps twice than normal. I always wait for the moon to show up while we kiss under the stars. I always wait for you to caress my hair while you say all the words that describe your feelings about me. And now I always wait for 11:11 to come before I write something about us. Something about the most precious—yet hurtful things that happened in the past. Yet sometimes no matter how hard I hurry, I ended up writing on the other time of the day. I always wait for something good to happen, but I never waited for the bad ones to come. I always wait for the moment when our hearts beat as one, but I never waited for the time when—yours will leave mine. I never waited for your feelings to fade faster than mine. I never waited for it, because I never wanted to see it coming.
—  ma.c.a // I never waited for you to fall out of love with me

Hey real quick bitty was never just scared of checks they were a trigger. In this last comic he pushed through a debilitating trigger. Please recognize what he really did, how far he’s come, and how hard he’s worked at pushing past his trauma so he can do something he loves.

*slams head into a pillow*

Gosh - OK - first sorry for the random absence! Just suddenly got busy within life o-o

And not just that… but I got a question on my Wall on UT Amino about if there was a Fell!PJ, and if PJ is a jerk - is Fell!PJ more of a jerk?

And while I know there are Fell!PJ’s out there already that answer this as a ‘yes’ - I just… I suddenly thought how he WOULDN’T be a bigger jerk and in fact… would be TERRIFIED constantly. 

Just first - I never really think that Fell versions of out code characters can exist. Just due to how the multiverse is. 

But IF there was a Fell!Error and Fell!Ink - THIS is what Fell!PJ would be like:

Gosh - not much difference at first glance - but:

  • He is on edge all the time - Scared constantly. Always in fear. Hence why his left eye default is a circle - not a diamond like the original.
  • Instead of marching off angerly at 15 like his main counterpart - he runs away in a panic at 10. 
  • His fell parents? Both took him under their watch - altering between one, the other, or both. They saw PJ as an opportunity to craft him into what they needed - and used different tactics to do it. 
    (Again - honestly I doubt Error and Ink could have a Fell version anyway so I was just going on a huge idea burst with that one)
  • Fell!PJ moves from AU to AU - not to judge, but to hide. He feels more comfort in a solid world than the white void. Still - can’t stay for too long - he knows he leaves tracks behind. 
  • When and if he gets to know someone kind and is able to calm down - he will be more like original PJ - except he will catch himself on what he said and will apologize for it over and over. He doesn’t want to be anything like his parents - yet he still got that sarcastic yet straight forward attitude one of them has…
  • His splat mark on his cheek spreads out like a slap mark. It’s due to having been hit on that side too many times that the colored marks is just his way of ‘bandaging it up’

And well - his face colors look like this:

His hoodie is magenta/black, with the long sleeves below being purple/blue like his side pack. He would have orange and blue specks on his shorts and no ‘leggings’ like the original. 

As you can see - I thought WAY TOO MUCH INTO THIS GOODNESS.
(yet still don’t know what the parents would have done to make him that scared all the time… heh… hard for me to think of how a fell Ink and Error would be like I guess…)

Power Rangers Playing Mario Kart Headcanon

This was requested by @seriouslyslippingoutofcontrol

  •  They play every Saturday in Billy’s basement. His mom makes like a full seven layer dip and everything.
  • They order a pizza each and billy’s mom doesn’t even bat an eye.
  • Jason never gets to play the first round. So he makes it a point to lay across the whole couch. The group just sits on top of him. Except Jasons head will be in Billy’s lap…… with his permission of course  
  • Trini no matter how hard she tries can never break past 5th place, except for once on a rare occasion. She doesn’t like to talk about it. 
  • Zack always comes in last Place and blames Trini for it. This usually ends in a wrestling match on the floor. Trini usually coming out on top until Kim joins the mess and wins the battle.
  • Billy almost always wins. He studied the game far too much to lose to these simpletons.
  • Kim plays to screw up other peoples games. She is the one to consistently  send out the blue shell on Billy. “I can’t even be mad cause thats my color”
  • One time Trini was actually in first place then Kim kissed her as a distraction. it was a simple peck, but she was a mess. Billy won the match not understanding why his fellow rangers roared with laughter as Trini sat there in shock.
  • Jason got so into the game once that he knocked the 7 layer dip clear across the room. it took them hours to clean it up “how did this shit end up OUTSIDE of the window?!?!?”
  • Whenever Jason gets close to winning zack is there to slap his remote out of his hand, resulting in another wrestling match.
  • The night usually ends with them in a pile sleeping on the floor with the game menu playing on loop, Until Billy’s mom comes downstairs Turns off the television then lays blankets over the bunch of them

Damian Wayne problem 8,783: Your best friend and girlfriend hate each other and are jealous of the time you spend with the other. She also ships you with your best friend and is responsible for approximately 47.4% of the current slash fiction about you two, and has been since you were Robin and squeaky voiced.

Damian Wayne problem 2,445: SuperBat fan fiction is the most popular pairing in the universe and has been since before you were born. You hadn’t even met the new Superboy and there was already slash fiction about the two of you. You want to blame Drake for this, but know it’s your father’s fault.