i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later.
As exciting as life can get, and how amazing it feels to get things done, its important to stop and notice the beauty that’s around you every now again. Stop and listen to the chirping of the birds. Feel the breeze against your face. Take moments every now and again.
I spent Friday attending
professional panels for the comics industry, which probably deserves a
post of its own, but I don’t think anyone is interested in me talking
shop. But Saturday was devoted to Agents of SHIELD stuff with
Iain and Liz. I had an amazing time and so many awesome things happened. Truly it was the best con experience I’ve ever had and, as @bigfunnywords (HEY Tumblr finally let me tag you!) said, I lived my best life. I’ll try to do the tl;dr version but this will probably get long.
Putting the rest behind a cut for your scrolling convenience.
Your life will constantly be changing. Always. It will forever be anything but stagnant. However, when you think about it, this makes life so much more exciting. How boring would it be if the exact same thing happened today, tomorrow, and every other day to come? Very. So be thankful for the unexpected and twisted nature of this beautiful thing we call life.
Oh boy, I’m graduating in 11 days! I finally finished my grad cap decoration today, phew. I’ve grown so much as an artist over the past four years, I thought it would be fun to put together something that kinda celebrates that! It’s totally self-indulgent and covered in little silly things that have been important to me throughout high school– characters from plays I’ve written, school mascots, fictional characters who have been important to me, weird props from theater tech stuff… and of course, one of my favorite Night Vale quotes ^u^
I wanted to tell her everything. I wanted to tell her how she made my heart beat so loud like how thunder sounds when it’s storming. I wanted to tell her how she made me feel warm like how the sun feels on your face after a long winter. How she made my life fill with excitement and happiness as if I’ve seen colors for the first time. How her smile is captivating like the bright moon on a starry night. How her laugh is my favorite song and every time I hear it I want to dance with her.
I wanted to tell her all these things before it was too late.
‘Where the Streets Have No Name’ came together in a bit of a rush the evening before we were due to start recording again…I was recording onto a four-track tape machine, working alone, sequencing keyboards to the drum machine. I was starting to get desperate and thinking about the next tour. I imagined being at a U2 show and tried to dream-up what I would want to hear. It was my attempt to conjure up the ultimate U2 live-song. It was a strange feeling when I finished the rough mix, because I thought I had just come up with the most amazing guitar part and song of my life, but I was totally alone in a big house with no one to share it with. I remember listening to the complete silence of the house for a few seconds after the music had stopped and then doing a dance around the room punching the air. Then I went home.
The Edge, U2 by U2
lmao that is the most adorable thing I have ever heard I love Edge so much
he is totally my spirit animal
also did this dude literally just spontaneously decide one evening “I’m going to write the best live song ever, like, THE quintessential song that will define U2 concerts forever henceforth,” and then just like…sat down and…did that??? in one night??? how
like damn son, if Edge had been around Italy in whatever BC, Rome WOULD have been built in a day
You know, life throws these things at us, life makes us wonder if we should be less naive, less childlike, less enthusiastic, less excitable. These things are looked down on when we grow up. And I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that the way you’re dancing tonight; yes, it’s childlike and enthusiastic and excitable and it’s beautiful. That’s how I want you to live your life.
Ever since I was a little kid I was taught that travelling would be my destiny. Then I grew up and started believing that I was destined for a career in the Arts - Music, Theatre, Dance.
I, however, was never properly trained, for numerous reasons, unimportant at this time. Around the age of 14, I began to realise how different I was compared to my classmates, friends, in all the people I was surrounded with. You see, everyone dreams of something and wishes to achieve certain things - whether it is career, family, home, wealth, etc.
I, on the other hand, even though I wanted ( and still do) a career in the Arts, at some point came to the realisation that I had a much bigger purpose. I am not quite ready to share what this would be, but if you stick around you’ll figure it out.
At 15 I moved half way across the world, by myself, with a bag full of dreams and hopes, prepared to begin the chase. By 17 I was completely independent. I am nearly 19 now, I know some of you would say “Oh, you’re young, your life is just beginning!” And, yes, this is true, but how can I say this my life is ahead of me, but I do not in any way feel my age. I have never ever in my life felt this confused or lost.
Furthermore, I am quite aware there are many people, who are wearing similar shoes to mine, and simply because, no one really knows how to help me get out of my “confused state”, I am beginning this blog in order to help YOU. And eventually help myself.
There are many struggles out there, no matter what age you are in, some people go through the things I am going through right now, but they are double my age. Whether it is money, school, work, relationships, family… I want to help. Not all of us can afford expensive counsellors.
Many if not most of the struggles, are extremely hard to deal with, especially if you feel that there is no one that could get you on a 100%. We overthink, take things way too deep, react in the wrong way. I am here to help.
If you are a person who dreams big and does not know what “giving up” is, these are your journals.
I invite all of you reading this, to share with me what is happening in your life, and I will share with you my vision. And if you don’t want to share, well I am going to be posting every day, experiences of mine, struggles I have been through, joys that have helped me get back on my feet.
A wise man once said “You’re going to fall down but the world doesn’t care how many times you fall down, as long as it’s one fewer than the number of times you get back up.”
This is the beginning of this journey, and I am praying that it will go a long way.
Madame Hydra to appear on Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. x
“Since we’re bringing back Hydra in the Framework, we thought we’d bring it back with a force to be reckoned with,” executive producers Jed Whedon and Maurissa Tancharoen tell EW. “Madame Hydra is a villain with the perfect combo of strength, sexy, and scary. We’ve thrown many challenges Mallory’s way and she’s always up for the task. We’re excited for fans to see how she makes Madame Hydra come to life.”
Sometimes the all details of this world overwhelm me…most of the time they excite me and make think wow how beautiful and psychedelic life is but sometimes the amount of possibilities and the amount of particles and little markings everywhere and how big this universe is make me feel like I am maybe missing something or missing out or maybe i am everywhere i should be the best place to be. who knows. too much to process