how do you handle these feels because i cant

99 Problems (9/10)

Summary : You are an agent that worked alongside the Avengers , with an unusually close friendship with Captain Rogers. What happened when he reveals his true feelings for you before you leave on an undercover mission?  By the time you return from the mission, you’ve missed the events of Civil War.  What happens when you come home and most of your friends are gone? And when they return?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader, Avengers x Reader.

Warnings: Swearing, flirting, angst, fluff,  

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                                                       Chapter 9

    You’ve been back at the tower for a week, and  Bucky has barely spoken to you since the night he told you he didn’t want you . The avoiding eachother game has been two way street though , you’ve managed to dodge him every chance you could. Seeing him only makes his rejection hurt more . He never explained himself, just walked away after dropping that massive decision on you . To say you’re heartbroken is underplaying it, you managed to lose Bucky as a friend too and it makes this 100 times worse.  You haven’t thought about that night since you returned home, you’ve done everything you could to distract yourself.

   " Do you want me to talk to him ? Maybe hell tell me-“

” No Johnny . He made up his mind. “ you sigh , continueing to flip through the channels on your TV.

” It just doesn’t make sense ! What could of happened in that short of a time slot?!“ Johnny asks, he was just as confused as you .

” And who wouldn’t want to go back to a bed with a hot naked chick in it ! NOTHING HE DOES MAKES SENSE!“  he booms, you snort at his statement, gently patting his shoulder.

"Some people have more control when it comes to naked women babe.”

He sticks his tongue out at you ,making both of you laugh .  He does have a point though , that was an awfully short time frame , what could of possibly happened ? That’s when it hits you , he went to speak with Tony.

You shoot up from the couch so fast it makes Johnny flinch.

“ You’ve got to be kidding me. ” you start storming to the elevators, Johnny right behind you . 

Originally posted by blairsfelicity

    You burst into Tony lab,   your eyes lock on his as soon as you enter .

“ Y/n whats wrong?"  Bruce asks, dropping his pencil onto the table.

” Bruce, can  you give me and Tony a minute please?“ you try to calmly say .You could never be mean to Bruce, hes the most harmless person , well when hes not a giant green smashing machine. 

 Bruce nods, pulling johnny out with him, you can hear Johnny whine behind you but your eyes don’t leave Tonys.

” What up buttercup?“ he asks as he tinkers with something infront of him

” What did you say to him ? “ you question ,

” I don’t know what you’re-“

” Cut the shit Tony, you know exactly what I’m talking about.“ you bark .

He sighs, setting down his screwdriver. ” Y/n, you know I love you . But Robocop -“

” Don’t call him that Tony. “ you growl at his nickname for Bucky. He puts his hands up in surrender.

” Alright alright, calm down. I may have pointed of the danger he could put you in by pursuing  whatever you two had going on .“

 If there wasn’t a lab table between the two of you , you would already be launching yourself at him .

” Who made you the boss of me ? The last time I checked, you weren’t my father Tony. You don’t have the right to decide whats safe for me or what isn’t!“

"You don't know all the things hes capable of , the things hes done. He could hurt you y/n! What if he switches back into the soldier huh? Or has a nightmare and hurts you on accident ? OR what if hydra-”

Originally posted by schedulingemotions

“ You son of a bitch . How dare you  .  Do you know how he sees himself? You had the nerve to point out irrelevant things that probably made him feel worse ! I was helping him Tony!  You hate when people use your past against you , and you just did it to him! I can handle anything that would of happened . Do you know he wont even talk to me now? Not only did I lose the man I love, but I lost my best fucking friend because you cant mind your own damn business Stark!” you shout , tears of frustration spilling from your eyes.

“ I did it for you .”

 At his words you lose control  , before you can bolt towards him an arm wraps around your waist.

“ What the hell is going on!” Steve Shouts , he tightens his grip on you as you struggle against his arm.

“ Tell him Tony, Tell him what you fucking did !” you yell through the tears. Your frustration turned into pure sadness now. You’re hurt beyond belief at what Tony has done, and at Bucky for not fighting for you . He gave right into Tonys words.  You stop fighting against Steve as Tony tells him what was said, you melt into his arms as you sob into his chest.

“ Y/n I-”

“ Don’t.  I think you’ve done enough.” Steve says , tugging you  with him out of the lab.

 " Where is he?“ you ask once youre out of the lab.

"gym.” steve answers .  Huh, I thought hed put up more of a fight . 

You go directly to the gym, angrily ripping open the doors. Bucky grabs onto the swinging punching bag, stilling it as his eyes lock on yours.  He doesn’t say a word as he goes back to his workout .

“ Oh no you don’t. "  you stomp towards him, putting yourself between him and the bag.

” Are you out of your damn mind! What if I accidentally hit you! “ he yells .

” You let Tony get into your fucking head !? I thought you were smarter than that!“ your voice echoes through the gym .

” He was right though! There’s too many ways you could get hurt with me Y/n, I was too blinded to even consider the risks. “

” You are one stupid bitch, you know that Barnes?“

” Did you just call me a bitch?“

"  I was so worried about making a decision for you , but you had no fucking problem making mine for me.  I knew the risks of being with you , but they weren’t enough to push  me away .  You did that all by your self by deciding for me.” you growl

He stays silent as the realization of your words sink in .

Originally posted by dailybuckybarnes

“ You aren’t a puppet anymore , others words shouldn’t interfere with your wants .  You wanted me before Tony opened his damn mouth , but as soon as he made you feel like you were doing something wrong, you completely flipped your view. You’re your own person now , the sooner you fucking realize it the better. ”

You leave the gym, letting the tears you managed to hold in loose.


  Two days later

“ Miss Y/n, your presence is required in the common room.” FRIDAYs voice booms.

You groan while rolling yourself out of your bed.  You’ve spent the last two days locked on your floor by yourself, mainly sleeping or binging on Netflix. You haven’t forgiven Tony or Bucky . You know you shouldn’t really be as mad at Bucky, it just hurt that you thought you meant enough to him that hed tell Tony to shove it up his ass. But apparently not. 

 You stretch your arms as you ride on the elevator, when you arrive on the communal floor you let out a loud yawn  .

 " You’ve been sleeping for like two days, there is no way youre tired. “ Tony says from his seat at the kitchen table. Upon seeing him , you swirl yourself around heading back to the elevators. Nope, not today Satan. 

When you turn you walk into a solid wall of muscle.

” What the -“

” I don’t think so Doll.“ Bucky says, his hands holding on to your arms to balance you . You tug out of his hold, sending him your classic bitch face .

” Do you guys have daily meetings now to make my decisions for me ? “ you snap , watching both of them look anything but happy.

Originally posted by direwolfees

” Listen , we were both wrong. I shouldn’t of stuck my nose in your business. You’re a big girl , I thought I was looking out for you  . “ Tony says quietly . You know how hard it is for him to admit he was wrong. You’ve only actually seen him acknowledge his mistakes like twice ; after all, he’s still Tony Stark .

” I understand that Tony, and I love you for looking out for me. Maybe next time do it a little less fatherly. “ you suggest with a sympathetic smile. You know he didn’t mean any harm . 

You move to him, kissing his cheek to show you really aren’t mad .He hugs you to him , then dismisses himself ; leaving just you & Bucky alone.

” I never want to you hurt, physically or emotionally. “ he starts, you send him a ‘too late’ kinda glare . He sighs, running his hand through his hair as he adds, ” I love you, and it scares me . Everything ive ever cared for has been torn away from me before. I couldn’t stand the thought of that happening with you , so when Tony pointed out all the risks , I panicked. I thought it’d be easier if  I ended it ,before it was done for me .“ 

 You can hear the pain and hints of regret in his voice, breaking your heart when you realize how this hurt him as much as it did you.

” No one will take me away from you Bucky .  you cant let the 'what ifs’ stop you from doing things. Everytime we have a mission, there is always that 'what if we die?’ but we go anyway , don’t we ?“ you ask  , tilting his face so hes looking at you instead of his feet. He leans into your hand, the warmth from his cheek sending shivers down your arm.

Originally posted by yespleasedanielgillies

"I love you .” your voice is barely above a whisper. He steps forward , leaning down to press his lips to yours. The kiss was sweet but quick,

“ I love you doll."  His lips brush against yours as he speaks. When the last word leaves his lips you crash your lips back against his  in a fiery kiss. He doesn’t break the kiss as bends a bit to lift you , placing you on the counter top near the two of you .

Originally posted by brokenheartstrings16

You lock your  legs around him, dragging his body closer to yours as the kiss gets hotter. Bucky nips at your lip, then continues nipping down your neck. You moan as he lifts your shirt over your head, his mouth immediately wrapping around your bare nipple, sucking it harshly. He goes to do the same to the other when you stop him .

” You’re not going to leave me after this again ,are you?“ you ask, there was more fear in your voice than youd like to admit.

” Absolutely not , I’m so sorry Y/n.“ he says. You nod, tugging him by his shirt into another kiss. 

” As happy as I am that this is fixed, can you not do this where we all eat?“ Steve says from the doorway . You quickly press your naked chest against Bucky to cover yourself. You hear Johnny and Sam cracking  up from beside Steve.

Originally posted by dailyteamcap

” Too late babe, I already saved that picture up here .“ he says, tapping his temple. ” By the way , you have amazing-“

” Finish that sentence and I can guarantee youll wake up with no eyebrows Storm.“ Bucky says over his shoulder.  You hear sam snicker ,

” Ill do it to you just for fun birdboy.“ he threatens Sam . Now it was Steve that was laughing, he tossed your shirt at you from where Buck tossed It .

 After youre covered Bucky takes your hand ,leading you out of the kitchen . As you pass him , you punch Johnny in the shoulder and mouth ” dick “ to him . He winks at you with a smile.  What a dweeb .

Originally posted by grounderbellamy-archive

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I hate masculine culture. I hate that as boys, we’re raised to be without emotions. I hate how we’re supposed to be “strong” and “fearless” and not give a fuck. I hate it because i feel guilty when I’m emotional. I feel like a pussy when i cry because i cant handle the intensity of my emotions, when i shouldn’t feel like that at all. I hate people who push us men to be ignorant towards our feelings. I hate that crying is shown as a sign of weakness when its not. Crying is the strongest thing you can do because in that moment, you’re feeling everything, and you’re accepting it. Im not soft. Im a fucking human just like everyone else who cant handle things that well thats all, and i shouldn’t be looked down on for doing so.

anonymous asked:

Hey this is more of a serious question but im really curious what you think about this:D I love anime but no one in my group of friends does I cant really talk about anime or even metion it because people associate anime with weeaboos. Do you think anime has a bad reputation and how do you handle people who look down on you just because you watch anime?

I do think anime has a bad rep, and honestly feel I’ve fared better in life by being low key about it. It does suck when you really enjoy something and don’t have anyone to share it with. I’m lucky I have close friends who are also into it or very accepting. Tumblr and other online sites are great outlets where I can freely discuss and enjoy anime/manga. 

If you’re friends know you well enough they shouldn’t judge you for your hobbies. It’d be kind of shitty of them if they do. I can see them getting annoyed about you talking about anime because they look down on it, which sucks. If ppl look down on you for it I guess you can only just be confident in your hobby and that you’re not a weeb. I find ppl tend to feed off what you project so if you don’t see a problem with it, hopefully they won’t either. 

I FOUND LEAKED PHOTOS. Ok so from what i see, Z’s character is the “oh i dont care about anything but love me” type and shes vying for Peter’s affection but from what ive heard her describe her character like i assume shes keeping her feelings to herself. In the last photo Peter is obviously talking to Liz and you can see Michelle visibly upset. Im interested to see how this goes because Z is supposed to have a bigger role in the future films. What if they like make Michelle and Peter have a platonic relationship in the beginning but slowly start getting feelings and omg i cant handle but theyre probably not gonna do that but a girl can dream

anonymous asked:

How normal is it to feel attraction and affection and a spark with other people while in a serious, content, committed relationship? I think its alright, because you cant help it, but what do you do about it, how do you handle it ?

People are made to love. We are social creatures who love to love each other. Being in a committed, satisfying relationship gives us a great outlet for our loving nature and helps us be open to love. Our loving skills get better as we practice them, so being in a serious, contented, committed relationship may even make it more likely that you feel sparks of attraction and affection with others.

The way to deal with those unwanted or confusing feelings of attraction is to acknowledge them, let them be and let them go. If you feel guilty for feeling those feelings you may try to shut them down or ignore them and they can end up nagging at you. When you acknowledge them and accept them they come and go without becoming problematic.

When you notice that spark of attraction crossing your attention recognize that as you large loving nature. The large loving nature is not grasping, so you don’t have to nurture it into something more. You can also practice gratitude for your satisfying relationship which gives you an outlet for all that love you feel.

anonymous asked:

any of the mods can answer, i don't really care, i just really need advice. my partner keeps talking abt really triggering shit and it makes me really upset and i want to tell them to stop because i can't really handle any of that right now but i don't want to seem disrespectful or for them to think i don't care bc i do care, i just can't handle a lot right now

Tell them that! “I care a lot but i just cant handle hearing about that right now im sorry”, its not disrepectful and how you feel matters
-mod g

anonymous asked:

the only thing wrong about crushing on a straight girl is that im going to die because i cant handle unrequited feelings, theyre going to kill me, and i have to see her every day and her smile is so magical and all i want to do is have the chance to know her and feel her skin and watch her move and fuck i sound like a creep shes my supervisor and i cant do anything about it cos shes straight like please someone, anyone teach me how to use the power of my closeted homosexuality to seduce her

How do you know that she is straight?

i feel like every syndisparklez interaction is an attack on my life honestly

whenever tom is around jordan i just see him rubbing his conniving little hands together like “hmm how can i fuck with the fandom this time? oh i know! ill kiss jordan! except fully. on the mouth. with my arm around him. while staring at him like i love him because i do. yeah thatll do it. see you all at your fucking funerals”

gee thanks tom

EXO Reaction when you accidentally text them “wait a sex” instead of “wait a sec”

Requested by @unicorngzb​ I missed you bby! Thank you for requesting! I remember when you texted me this, I laughed so much.

Admin A~

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Chanyeol:

“Oh jagi.. are you insinuating we have sexy time right now? Because I won’t complain at all if you do!”

Kris:

“And how long is that?? Wait…. oh I know how long” *Naughty thoughts here*

Sehun:

*Cant stop laughing about it* “Wait… a sex… oh god…” *It’s his new ‘yehet’*

Tao:

“Yeah I’ll… just wait… is she turning me down?” *Confused af*

Kai:

“Can it be two? I mean waiting… you know what I mean…” *Needy boy*

Xiumin:

“I can wait…  but can you handle the ‘wait’?” *Rude unbuttoned shirt*

Baekhyun:

“Wait a sex? Say no more…” *Someone is going down tonight*

Luhan:

*Feels like the man of the year* “She finally… mentioned it… I coming babe… I’m coming”

Chen:

*Not sure what’s going on* “What does this mean? She wants to wait to have… “or she wants to do it… maybe she doesn’t even know what she is saying. I need to teach her Korean again”

Kyungsoo:

*Existential crisis* “What do I do now? I don’t know how… I need to buy con… wait I need help… maybe Kai knows what to do.. he’s seen his puppies.. bet it’s the same… yes..”

Lay:

*Someone is satisfied… or will be* “Yes girl… that’s exactly what I want”

Suho:

*Daddy mode on* “I’m waiting in my room… if you know what I mean…”

[Masterlist] [Guideline]

I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO KISS YOU AND CUDDLE YOU AND I WANT TO TAKE EVERYTHING BAD AWAY AND GIVE YOU PURE HAPPINESS BUT THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO DO THAT IS TO DISAPPEAR BECAUSE I AM BAD FOR YOU BUT I NEED YOU SO DESPERATELY ALL THE TIME YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE I WILL WANT YOU FOREVER

I WANT NOTHING ELSE BUT YOU I DREAM OF YOU AND KISSING YOU AND HEARING YOU TALK TO ME LOVINGLY I MISS HOLDING YOUR HAND AND STROKING YOUR FACE I CANT HANDLE NOT HAVING YOU CLOSE TO ME I FEEL NUMB WITHOUT YOUR PRESCENCE WITHOUT YOU I HAVE NO MEANING I AM AN EMPTY SHELL BECAUSE YOU MADE ME SO MUCH BETTER SO MUCH MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT YOU AMPLIFIED EVERY INCH OF MY BEING AND MADE ME FEEL IMPORTANT YOU ARE THE REASON I AM THE PERSON I AM TODAY

YOU ARE SO SPECIAL I DONT KNOW HOW ITS POSSIBLE SOMEONE LIKE YOU EXISTS AND EVEN THOUGH YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT JUST KNOWING YOURE ALIVE MAKES ME SMILE AND KNOWING YOURE THERE COMFORTS ME I JUST WISH YOU NEEDED ME AS MUCH AS I NEED YOU I WISH YOU LOVED ME ENOUGH TO HATE ME BECAUSE YOU CAN ONLY REALLY HATE THOSE WHO YOU LOVE BECAUSE ITS SUCH A STRONG EMOTION IT ISNT WORTHWHILE ON JUST ANYONE

I WANT YOU I NEED YOU I LOVE YOU AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL BUT ITS WORTH EVERY SECOND BECAUSE I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE MET YOU AND TO HAVE HAD THE CHANCE TO BE LOVED BY YOU BECAUSE BEING LOVED BY YOU IS BETTER THAN NEVER BEING LOVED BY YOU

YOU ARE ALWAYS AND WILL ALWAYS BE WORTH THE PAIN BABY I’D FUCKING RIP OUT MY HEART AND GIVE IT TO YOU IF IT MADE YOU REALISE HOW FUCKING MUCH I CARE AND HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE

EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT YOU MAKES MY HEART RACE YOU MAKE ME FEEL SAFE AND YOURE THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOES THAT

YOURE A FUCKING WORK OF ART

—  Late night texts I sent you
Super-long SPECTRE review

(take a sit ´cause this is long)

“The death are alive”

The whole Mexico scene mother of god 

The song/tentacle thing we are not gonna comment on

Bond being a little shit to M

M doesn´t get paid enough for this

Wild Moriarty appears and apparently wants to start a lets-talk-shit street fight!

Eve Monneypenny.

Tanner you gorgeous baby

Q OMG Q I HAVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH IN THIS THREE YEARS AND ALSO THIS 20 MINUTES OF MOVIE LOOK AT YOU PRECIOUS THING

The gun thing. You know what im talking about.

Q laughing at his own joke oh my

that whole scene in the lab

Bond doing whatever he wants and leaving champagne as an apology

Monica Belluci

Stereotypical “one guy rules the world and is the reason everything ever happened” excitement

CARS RACE

Q lying to M to protect 007

AUSTRIA = ACCION

Bond and Dr. Swan being some sort of Bond/Vesper parallel 

More Q and Bond sharing screen time like 

Q escaping those baddies like a total champ

Oh C, look like your “lets vote so i win” plan didn’t turned out so well huh

So Bond is getting serious with blondie because… she… asks him if he doesn’t like his work?

More general ass-kicking

The bad guy is bad because he didn’t get enough hughs when he was a kid, so now dear step brother is time for death.

me:

Director:

“He won’t remember who you are” “Oh my god don’t do this”

Bond: “I would never forget you, not you”

Literally everyone in the audience:

MI6 Squad:

More Bond/Blod-

MI6 BEING LITERAL SQUAD GOALS

M getting out of the car bc hello: awesome

C takes out a gun because he thinks he can impress M or anyone at this point

Bond is just generally awesome again 

When you think Bond/Dr.Sawn is finally over 

when she literally comes back from nowhere because plot device 

Q IS GENIUS YASS

Bond in the bridge looking at Blondie

hoe don´t do it

Bond *does it*

Q´s lab and you can feel how this is going to end

Q´s face OMG

Bond and Blondie drive straight to the sunset cause Bond does´t give a fuck anymore or something

I commit mistakes. Lots of them. I sometimes curse my parents for blaming me things I don’t have any idea about. I killed people, in my mind. I shot them, bleeding down the floor. I watched the clock go ticking whenever i’m all alone in my room and think of the people who once hurt me but then again I already killed them in my head. I hit my siblings so hard when they pissed me off. I shout bad words when I feel like telling them into the whole world. I blame and hate all the people around me when I feel like they’re all against me. I give them my highest regards with two words, one finger.
Yes, i’m a bad ass. I know its not kindly. I don’t consider myself bad. I don’t feel so bad. Why? Because I cant hurt people just by that. For me, those words, those actions are my only way to tell them how bad I was hurt. I’m too weak to defend myself that’s why i’m hiding. Hiding using those seemingly bad actions. You cant judge me just because I do and say things that are not acceptable to people. We all have different ways of dealing things and this is how I’ll handle mine. My life’s messy and I have already accepted that. Things were too complicated that’s why I always think of ways to handle them in a way many would think its just too easy for me. I’m not that tough but i’m pretending to be.
—  this is me and my shits (xx)

anonymous asked:

OMG that hunter x hunter moment when Killua is sitting at gon's bedside callin him ~the light~ OMG I friggin died. I FREAKING DIED!!!!!!! My heart was shot by a deadly arrow of feels DO YOU KNOW MY PAIN YOU DO RIGHT??? That scene shouldn't be allowed THAT SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED, I read shoujo for these feels but this is FRIENDSHIP TO THE MAX I CANT HANDLE IT HELP ME

I SO GET THIS FEELING I FEEL LIKE I DON’T (OR BARELY) EVEN CARE ABOUT ROMANCES AT ALL LATELY BUT GIVE ME FRIENDSHIPS AND BROMANCES I WILL GO ON THE ROOF AND CRY ABOUT HOW MUCH MY CHEST HURTS BECAUSE OF IT

*also yes, I so understand your point about this moment. my heart made that flip to my stomach or something and I emotionally died idk*

anonymous asked:

My mom and i had a talk about how this generations school system is different than before , and i told her its concerning because there are kids who stay up until 1 am studying and i feel like even tho its not that big of a dealit shouldnt get to that point where you have to lose sleep in order to "succeed" and there are people who cant handle it they get anxiety and thats understandable but of course my mom doesnt agree she thinks "well ur kids u have the energy to do that, youre not gonna die"

“I just think its cruel i dont know. No ones gonna listen to me tho theyre just gonna think im a typical whiny teenager who doesnt wanna do their work”

You have a point and it sucks because no one takes teenagers seriously

It hurts that you think this is okay. So stop. Stop. Just stop. Okay boys? Not a question a demand. The other night I learned of a very terrible thing. On my very own birthday I learned my ex boyfriend was actually sharing with all his friends laughing and making fun of their ex girlfriends. Not only is that cruel but they were doing so by sharing secrets of intimacy. That’s why I was being made fun of. Because of things that were completely private. I then learned that a group of graduated boys from the last senior class has in fact had a group chat in which they shared nudes they got from other girls. Now let me just say. How incredibly wrong that is and messed up. Do not shame people because they are comfortable with their body. Do not show people intimate things that were sent to YOU. You and your friends are not as a whole one person. When things like that happen its not the idea of what’s mine is yours. It’s a private life. Otherwise FaceBook would be a WHOLE lot different. Now to the fact hat my ex boyfriend decided to share my virgin diary with his whole friend group to get a good laugh is extremely unkind considering it was his first time doing these things as well. not only that but I wasn’t entirely ready/comfortable with these things anyway but I said “its high school it’s supposed to happen” no. its not. But no matter what the fact that I trusted this slimy person with something very intimate makes me sick. People who do this make me sick. You cant expect a girl to feel comfortable with doing things with you if she knows that once its over that mason and Jeff and Kyle and john are all gonna know the juicy details. How many times do you hear of a girl leaking boy’s nudes? Yeah it happens but not as often as boys. Maybe im wrong I hardly did any research (none at all besides personal experience) but the fact is at my school it’s happened 0 times. Like how could you take that privacy away from them? How can you not feel any remorse? When im with my friends we as girls talk collectively about our sexual experience. For advice. Not to laugh. Or make fun of. Or mention how freaking disgusting giving a blow job actually is. Yeah I said it. no. so you boys can deal with it. Because girls go down on you way more then you go down on us. If you don’t learn to respect women in this sense then how can you ever get married? Have kids? Have a god damn life? what if your friends were talking about your daughter? You know your lucky that girl even did anything to remotely pleasure you. because I know right now sex and everything about it seems so freaking important. Well its not. Feelings are important. Someone’s privacy is important. being a decent human being is important. not that something is gross or someone missed up so it’s so freaking hilarious. If you boys cant even handle PDA in the hallways. Then you don’t even deserve to have a girl doing anything to you. let alone talk about it to others.

never yours boys

chloe.