how do i express my feelings for you with words

I know what you’re thinking – “didn’t you make the last one of these like 6 months ago??? it’s taken you this long to do the next one?” Yes. You are correct. I’ve had it sitting in my notebook to post and here we are, finally, posting the next one. My previous one (you can find it here) was a theme of “I appear more masculine” and this one will be the contrary and be based around “I appear more feminine”. (I would also like to thank the group of lovely people I consulted with, ages ago.)

In addition, many of these things are equally helpful for people trying to appear more masculine or dealing with dysphoria.

 So let’s get started! 

“I appear more feminine”

SPELL JAR – by myself 

sea salt - protection
basil - protection, dispels fear, confusion and weakness
black pepper - courage
geranium - overcoming negative thoughts & attitudes, lifting spirits, protection & happiness
jasmine - femininity & softness
rose - femininity & softness
catnip - beauty & happiness  

Focus your intent for each and every layer, say your intent out loud (even over and over) if it helps! Meditate and focus your whole purpose for the jar, cork and seal it (I have a simple tutorial how to do so here). Don’t forget to stick it in the moonlight to charge it if you feel like it needs a kick!


SIGILS

I am confident in my gender
+ This is a trans safe space
+ I am not misgendered

Confidence in your gender expression
Protection for trans and intersex people
“Shapeshift” sigil for trans glamours
I Control My Dysphoria
Dysphoria be gone
Protection from dysphoria and transphobia
My pronouns are respected and used consistently 
Increased Femininity 
I am full of femininity 


GLAMOURS & SPELLS

Confidence Mirror Spell
Protection Spell for Coming Out As Trans
Magic Clothing
Glamour to Prevent Misgendering
Voice Dysphoria Glamour
Dysphoria Bottle
Gender Clarity Spell


ADDITIONAL

A Word of Advice for Transwomen – a helpful post!


I hope this was helpful. Please let me know what else you’d like to see LGBTQ wise for this series. 

You can find my other original posts here if you’re interested. 

I love y’all and I hope you are having a great day! 

700 Puffles

Ok, so, when I was a kid, I used to get up to a lot of dumb shenanigans on Club Penguin. I think this was around third or fourth grade; I did a lot of trolly things then. Some of the bans and glitches they had to fix around that time period were because of me and some of my online friends at the time.

We figured out pretty quickly that most of the like, your base-level curse words, y'know the amateur curse words, they’re all BANNED. So we started coming up with more and more inventive ways to express our feelings to the public, so that’s why every once in a while they would roll out an update, and it’s like, “the term ‘bitchbaby’ is now banned”.

And um, what else did I do?

Oh right, so do you know how they had those expansion areas every once in a while? And there would be those little zones and each zone had the same default shop that they copy-and-pasted over.

But there was this one expansion area… it was a cave or mine shaft or something like that. The default shop that they had there, it was Real Glitchy. So I figured out that if you buy seven puffles it gives you some ridiculous number for the price of TWO. So what I did:

I BOUGHT 700 PUFFLES…. And then I gifted them to the other person in the shop whose name I didn’t know and then I waited. And then I forgot about that for, quite a while, and then some time a week later I got a very angry email from said person, with a screenshot of their home, which was floor-to-ceiling, wall-to-wall, just. Fur. And googly eyes. Like you could see nothing else, it was just puffle everywhere. They were rendering in and out of walls, like some of them were just plain feet, it was – it was an abomination.

And apparently once I read the email their main complaint? Not even the fact that I ruined their fucking household! It was the fact that when they opened the client and saw that, it CRASHED. Their Club Penguin client crashed, and when they opened their house and it loaded and there were seven hundred puffles.

I don’t know if you guys know this but puffles, as cute as they look (at least to some people), the sounds they make are not quite as cute. Especially when there’s seven hundred of them layered on top of each other, rendering in and out of walls emitting a sound collectively scary enough to get Lucifer to piss himself.

And yeah. That’s the story of why there’s a limit of 50 puffles that you can buy.

Forbidden Love | Pt. 12 [Final]

▷ Jimin Angst

❥ “I think about you a little more than I should..”

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Epilogue

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“Hara would never do something like that, Y/N!”

The minute you heard those words coming out of Jimin’s mouth, you snapped your head towards him. He was currently walking from side to side, his hands tucking at his hair as you watched him from your sofa.

Raising your eyebrows, you asked him in disbelief. “What? Do you really think I’m lying?!”

Turning his body towards you, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “Look, Y/N. I know that you don’t like her and I can understand how you feel. But she would never do that. I know her, Y/N, she’s my ex wife. She wouldn’t harm anyone, never! You’re just trying to cover up your mistakes by blaming other people!”

Each one of his words felt like a stab into your heart. He really thought you were lying.

Standing up from the sofa, you pointed towards the door. “Get out.”

This time it was Jimin’s head which snapped up towards you with a shocked expression plastered on his face. “W-What?”

“I said get out.”

You watched how Jimin’s shocked expression turned into a desperate one, his body moving toward you with big steps. “N-No, no no, wait, Y/N! I didn’t mean it like that! Please listen to me! I’m-”

You felt your blood boiling with each of his words. Just before he could end his sentence, you slapped his cheek, the fresh tears you were trying to hold back already rolling down your face. “You didn’t mean it?! Do you know what I went through for the past three years, Jimin?! Do you know how hard it was for me to handle your ex wife and her threads every single day?!”

Reaching out for your phone, you opened the conversation with Hara and slammed your phone against his chest. “Here! Read it! This is what I’ve been going through for the past 3 years!”

Jimin scrolled through the messages with a shocked expression on his face. Closing his eyes tightly, he mumbled a curse before he reached forward, trying to hold you in his arms. “Y/N, I’m really sorry-”

When he saw how you stepped back from him, he stopped talking and looked at you with his watery eyes.

“No Jimin. An apology is not going to bring back those three years. Your apology won’t be able to bring back those three years my son lived without a father! Just because of your ex wife’s selfishness, my son had to live those three years by asking for his father every single day! Do you know how hard it was?! Do you know how it broke my heart every single time when I saw his sad eyes whenever I told him that you couldn’t be with us!”

“What about you?! You replaced me, Y/N! Do you know how much it broke my heart when I saw you in someone else’s arms?! Must have been easy for you to find a boyfriend as soon as I wasn’t there for you-”

“He isn’t my boyfriend!”

Jimin opened his eyes widely, his breath hitching in his throat. “W-What do you mean?”

“He’s my doctor, Jimin. He’s my best friend. He was always there for me when I needed someone. He reached out for me and offered help. He let me live in his house, he helped me through my pregnancy. He took the role of a father for your own son, Jimin.”

Confused, Jimin looked at you. “S-So, he’s your docto- but.. I-I..”

“Mommy.”

When you heard the voice of your son, you turned around immediately. He was running toward you as he was rubbing his sleepy eyes, his bare feet making cute little sounds as he approached you.

You lifted him up as soon as he opened his little arms for you, his head already lying in the crook of your neck as he hugged you tightly. “Baby, what’s wrong?”

He nuzzled his head even further into your neck and mumbled with a shaky voice. “I saw monsters. They were trying to eat me, Mommy. I’m scared.”

Smiling softly, you stroke his hair and placed a kiss on top of his head. “It was just a nightmare, Hyun-ie. I’m here now, you don’t need to be scared.”

You lifted your head and connected your eyes with Jimin’s sad ones, his tears already rolling down his face. He turned around, crouched down and started sobbing, the sound making Jihyun lift up his head and look at his father with curious eyes.

He wiggled in your arms, telling you that he wanted to be placed down and walked towards Jimin, standing in front of him with sad eyes.

Lifting his tiny hands slowly, he grabbed Jimin’s hands and removed them from his face, making Jimin look up to see his little boy standing in front of him with a frown plastered on his face.

Without saying anything, Jihyun wrapped his arms around his father’s neck, his tiny hands stroking his back softly. “Mommy told me that the sadness will go away when you hug someone. You can hug me as long as you want, Daddy.”

Your eyes opened widely when you heard what your son said. He really was aware that Jimin was his father..

Jimin wrapped his arms tightly around his son’s body as he sobbed harder. Seeing them in that position, your eyes started watering again and you too, started crying.

You watched how Jimin lifted Jihyun up as he held him tightly. Walking towards you, he looked at you with pleading eyes. “Please don’t take him away from me, Y/N.. Please.. I don’t think I can live without him. Please, I’m begging you.. I’m really sorry..”

Averting your eyes from Jimin, you looked at your son. His eyes were closed, his arms tightly wrapped around his father’s neck and a soft smile plastered on his face.

Taking a deep breath, you turned your attention back to Jimin and smiled at him. “I won’t..”

Just before you could realize what was happening, Jimin reached out for your wrist and yanked you to his body. When you felt his lips on yours, your body froze immediately, the feeling sending different emotions through your body.

Just before you could respond to his kiss, you heard a little squeaky voice beside your ear. “Ew, gross!”

Leaning back a little bit, you both turned your heads towards your son who was covering his eyes with his tiny hands.

Removing his hands from his eyes, you looked at him slightly angrily. “Yah, Jihyun-ah, who do you learn those words from?”

Smiling sheepishly, he whispered. “Hoseok Hyung.”

When you heard Jimin laugh, you slapped his arm. “Yah, don’t laugh! He shouldn’t be learning such words at his age!”

Placing a soft kiss on his son’s head, Jimin shrugged as he continued laughing. “Ah, I think I already like that dude named Hoseok. Good job, Jihyun-ie.”

Holding their hands up, they both gave each other a high five which was followed by their heartwarming laughter. You, on the other hand, facepalmed and shook your head from side to side.

Looks like your son has already replaced you for his father.


A/N: And here I am with the final part of Forbidden Love.. Thank you all sooo much for all the love and support you have shown for this series. I really enjoyed writing it thanks to y'all! Also thank you all for the nice messages and asks! I really appreciate them! ♥♥

Hell of A First Time

Pairing: Castiel x Sam x Dean x Virgin!Reader (no destiel, sastiel,or wincest–sorry!)

Word Count: 4.3k words of SIN

Warnings: it’s a threesome with dean as a voyeur. and the reader’s a virgin. lots of orgasms. and there’s oral. tada!

A/N: this is my first time writing a threesome, so be kind, friends!! feedback is so greatly appreciated!

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You, Sam, Dean and Cas sat around the map table sharing a bottle of whiskey, celebrating another successful hunt. It was nights like these—full of laughter, jokes and telling stories—that you treasured most. Being a hunter pretty much ensured a short-lived life, so you always treasured the small moments of joy spent with your best friends.

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a letter to everyone who’s ever hurt me;

i am so god damn tired of hearing “you did nothing wrong, you deserve better, you deserve so much love, i don’t deserve you.” it is engraved in my fucking head. i want to rip out my teeth and slam them into your heart so you know how it feels to cough up broken pieces of a person you once loved. because you shoved all of these words down my throat and i was convinced, maybe for once, someone felt it too. it’s like putting money in a machine, fuel me and make me work and I’ll confine to your needs. give me happiness and I’ll give you all my love. with one smile i will give you my ribs, with one touch, one call, i will personally rip my heart out with my bare hands and place it right into yours and I’ll do you a favor and ignore your trembling hands and instead, I’ll shoot you with a, “hey, how ya doing? haven’t talked to you in a while!” text cause i have never been one for subtlety or expressing how i feel. “im sorry. you deserve more, you don’t deserve that, you deserve so much love!” then why does this keep happening to me? if i deserve more, why is all of my love one sided? unrequited? why is my heart layered in stitches and still im the one who always gives. if you are so sorry why in the fuck do you keep letting me crash and burn? why in the fuck did you think it was okay to tell me you loved me and then not speak a word to me for three fucking months? i have always been one to remember everything and i remember the way your lips felt on mine for the very first time and how i was so in shock i couldn’t even kiss back but i swear to fucking god i felt my veins turn into fireworks and my body into a land mine and with one more touch i thought that i just mightve exploded and jesus fuck i don’t even know how you feel and i have destroyed myself pondering over it and they tell you that their touch means forever but all i can think about is you telling me i deserve better but if i deserve so much more why will no one reach out and give it to me? i am choking on water and drowning in my own house because i gave you the key and i trusted you with all i had but when you walked away you left the faucets on and i wondered why i just couldn’t stop crying. i think you slammed the door too hard, i think my water bill is too high, i don’t even bother to wipe my eyes because all i can think about is your smile and how it made me feel like i was finally safe but all i ever am is somewhere for people to go when they need to take refuge, and i am never a permanent home, just a quick little stop, a let’s take a break, unwind and ruin the foundation kind of stop. an “oh its okay it’ll only hurt a bit” kind of stop, an “i love you.” kind of stop but i always love more, so can you stop? i can’t stop bleeding, i can’t stop scratching myself raw, i can’t stop screaming because all i am good for is always loving more and i am so beyond tired of hearing how i deserve better, maybe i don’t want better, maybe i am ready for a fight, maybe i am fragile and gentle and cry all the time over the smallest thing because one bad thing just sends my heart crumbling but i want a love that rips me apart and maybe im already in pieces but i really wouldn’t mind if you turned me black and blue because i swear to god, no matter what, im always going to love more so i might as well just see how much i can take before i collapse on the floor and i am so tired of always being the one with the brave face and im tired of forgiving without even a slight trace of an apology and i don’t even give a shit that you don’t talk to me anymore because maybe i did deserve more and maybe i finally found it but im afraid this fire is unrequited too and i am so tired of burning one second and being ice cold the next and all i need is consistency but i get summer days filled with winter nights and i am sorry for always loving more. I’ll make sure it doesn’t happen but we all know that is a god damn lie because my hearts already prepped and ready for the next gaping chest i see. // i think that’s my problem, im always one to give without them even asking for anything but i cannot stop stitching up soldiers in a war i wasn’t even drafted in.

I dont think i have ever seen a character with such expressive eyes. Fenris speaks a whole lot louder with his expressions than his words. I understand everything he is feeling just from a look so its strange to me that other characters find him hard to read. People dont know how to listen unless you yell.

anonymous asked:

Hi! First of all, I love your blog x How do you study all your languages? Do you have a specific way of learning a language?

Hey there! Thank you! Okay so I know that a lot of people have difficulties when starting a new language on your own and have trouble at how to proceed, especially when there’s no Duolingo to guide you, so I will tell you how I personally* begin and study my languages. 

*this how I personally study languages. This is what I found most comfortable doing. It’s best if you find your own way of learning but I’m happy if I can give you tips on what you can do to help you guys.

How I take notes and write everything down

A lot of people prefer to get notebooks or journals and write whatever they learn down. Now, I do that for the purpose of memory (because writing things down will help you remember them more), but I write and make all of my language notes on my phone. I use my notes app on my iPhone and construct my little language course on it. For me this is helpful because I can revise/check something at any time because my phone is always with me and I found that this is the best way I study languages. I’ll show you an example:

as you can see this is my Polish folder where I have different notes on different themes. I categorize vocab notes by themes and verb notes by number so that I won’t have an excessive amount of verbs in one note. But obviously you can do whatever you like!

Where I start

Obviously after having learned the alphabet and how pronunciation works I always start with greetings and introductions. Learning simple words and beginner expressions is always helpful and will give you a feel of the language itself. Usually I learn the following:

  • yes and no
  • hello, good morning, goodbye, welcome etc.
  • please, thank you, excuse me, sorry
  • nice to meet you
  • what’s your name? how are you? where are you from? how old are you? and their replies.

Try not to worry and get in detail of how some words, verbs are formed. Just try to memorize the phrases for now and they’ll make sense eventually.

After that I learn the basics. What are the basics? For me that’s grammar. I start with learning the Personal Pronouns in Subject Form and the To Be verb and how they interact together. Learn also how to negate sentences by learning any negation grammar and how so say, for example, I am not.

Next step ultimately depends on what kind of language you’re learning. If you’re learning a language that uses articles such as indefinite or definite than learn how to use them and the grammar (if any) behind them. Also if your target language has some kind of feature that is important to your grammar, like for example Vowel Harmony or Consonant Mutation or how to tell which type of gender nouns are and then try to learn how those work. I know that to some people grammar is very boring but I try to get the basics out of the way from the beginning so I don’t have to worry about it later.

I proceed on learning the Object Form of the Personal Pronouns and then also the Possessive forms such as my, your, his, her etc. Again, it depends on the language, so if there are other forms of these pronouns I try to get them out of the way as well. After that, I tackle Interrogative Pronouns which usually consist of:

  • who? what? where? why? when? how? which? whose? (how much? from where? what kind of? whom+ any forms that might change depending on language

and after those, I learn how to use the Demonstrative Pronouns which are:

  • this, that, these, those + any forms that might change depending on language

For some reason I enjoy learning numbers so those are usually next for me. Okay so now that the most important parts are learned and finished I begin to build up my vocabulary. I usually start with the simple nouns that Duolingo starts you off with like:

  • man, woman, boy, girl, child, water, apple, milk, bread etc. + plural forms

And also the most important verbs for beginners:

  • to want, to have, to do, to go, to know, to see, to speak, to eat, to drink, to write, to hear, to read, to like, to love, to think, to need, to sleep, to cook, to buy, to come, can, must, will etc.

For me I prefer if I learn how to use verbs in all tenses or moods (if any) from the beginning. This way I get familiar with the grammar of verbs and I would be able to convey past, present, future or others early on in my studies. I list down all possibly conjugations in my notes and also imperative form (commands)

So by the time I finish these I already can say a few simple sentences or hold a very basic conversation with someone. From now on I continue learning other vocabulary by themes such:

  • dates & time
  • family & relatives
  • clothes
  • animals
  • food
  • body parts
  • occupations
  • etc.

After these or during some of these I start learning how to work case declension out (if any), adjectives + Comparative & Superlative, adverbs, prepositions, conjunctions, and any other aspects that will solidify your sentences.

Okay so this is roughly how I personally study languages, I’m sorry for the long ass post and I hope I could be helpful to someone who’s struggling to know where to begin in learning a language by yourself. Good luck!

I do not learn other languages so I can talk to more people or tell that I know the language. I learn so i can understand how other nations express themselves. Their feelings, their love, their ways of thinking. I don’t only get the chance to know words I didn’t know existed but I can discover feelings, noone understands in my native language. I feel like one can’t see the entire world unless they tried to learn a foreign language. The more you learn the clearer your vision gets.

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What They like to call you - Avengers

NOTE: You can call this a starter for my non-ending fic list that I’ll be uploading today.

ps: I know this sounds like a huge lie since I’m the one saying it but I promise I promise I promise I’ll be posting around 3 fics today to kinda make up for the mini hiatus I went on. I was sick forgive me but I’m feeling much better now.  I'm rambling at this point…. btw Gifs arent mine.

                                     These Are Alphabetically Aligned.

Bruce Banner:

Mon amour, my love in French. he loved you so much even words couldn’t express how much he did. he never thought he’d find someone that would be willing to put up with him or his burden that he was cursed with. it felt like a miracle to him.

Bucky Barnes:

bear that was his nickname for you, he loved hugging you he basically felt safe and accepted by you like you could never do him wrong, he found you so cuddly, some times he’d call you baby bear when you were acting cute around him it would make him smile.

Clint Barton:

I think he’ll call you dove just my dove every time because of your white innocent soul you remind him of a white dove. but seriously he is bird man what do you expect.

Doctor Strange:

Dimpleface he thought it was the cutest feature in you, he loved how they complimented your smile. you were always so humble and playful around him you just never stopped smiling.

Loki Laufeyson:

he’d call you darling as the world rolled gracefully off his tongue every time he sees or in need of you. you were so dear to him you were the only one that seemed to care about him after all he has done.

Natasha Romanoff:

She would call you kitten. she wasn’t all cuddly and stuff, but seeing you always reminded her of a cute, adorable kitten that she would always love to snuggle with.

Nick Fury:

he wasn’t very sentimental, but let say he’d call you a few names here and there, but his most favorite to call you would be Sunshine since you’re always so happy you’d brighten up his mood.

Odin (bet you didn’t expect that):

Go away, you dead oaf it’s the wrong place mate!

Peter Maximoff:

Peter always thought you were so cute, so he just stuck to calling you cuteness with his sweet sweet accent.

Peter Parker:

Peter would call you Bubbles because you were always bright and in happy mood around him cheering up his whole day you were so bubbly in his eyes and he adored it.

Sam Wilson:

Boo, he always called you boo you were always sexy in his eyes so he just never stopped using it and just stuck to it.

Scott Lang:

Muffins he loved calling you muffins. you reminded him of a blueberry muffin for some reason so he just kept using it.

Steve Rogers:

Doll you were perfect as a porcelain doll in his eyes, you never made mistakes or had flaws in his eyes you are the literal meaning of a complete human being.

Thor Odinson:

Thor always calls you Queen you were a Queen in his eyes, everything you did every move you took, you were still going to be his Queen.

Tony Stark:

Stark would call you every name he could think of Going on from Babygirl, Doll face, Sweetheart, gorgeous even going crazier with names as Hot Mami, the names never stopped with him and they don’t seem to be going to an end any time soon.

T’challa:

Angel, That’s what he’d call you. you were so pure always making him as if you were his angel that he got sent to him from the sky, he loved you so much he would never risk losing you.

Vision:

Sweetheart, it was classic a name you could never go wrong with he adored you for accepting him. he found you a really sweet and you had such a big pure heart that he loved.

Wanda Maximoff:

Giggles you always giggled, making her giggle too, even though you hate the way you always giggle like a school girl around her but she loved it.

Drunken Mistakes [Jason Todd x Reader]

A/N: I’m sorry but no fluff here. There’s been too much fluff lol

Warning: Angst, Swearing

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Your friends and family always told you to leave him. That you were just a current attraction, that it would never last. How he had you wrapped around his finger and constantly walks all over you.

You never thought about it that way. You always thought it was being flexible. They don’t know his past the way you do. They don’t know that he’s out cleaning up Gotham’s streets every night. Yes, you often bend to his needs more than he does yours.

You’re the one who keeps the apartment clean, cooks dinner, does the laundry, goes grocery shopping, all while attending school and keeping a steady job. Jason would help you if he had the time right? But he doesn’t every day its a new mission with Bats or the Outlaws.

Basically Jason said ‘jump’ and you ask ‘how high?’ But you were used to it. You love him and would do anything for him. And he loves you. One thing you pride your relationship on is that he never even glances the way of another girl.

Well at least that’s what you thought and what his friend would tell you, though you never asked to be told.

Jason had been gone with the Outlaws for a four day mission, but was getting home a day late tonight. It was often the Outlaws would get hung up and ended up getting home later than supposed too. One of them always texted or called if that was the case.

You always stay up and wait for when he gets home from long missions.

Sitting on your couch you skimmed through a book waiting for him to walk through the door, and it didn’t take too long for that happen.

Hearing the noise of keys in the lock, you pulled the book from your face and glanced at the hallway. When the sound of the door opening reached your ears. 

Setting the book aside when he came into view. “Welcome home Jay” standing to meet him halfway.

“Hey babe” He replied, but there was something off about his tone and demeanor. “What’s wrong?” asking, a confused expression making it’s way to your face.

He shifted uncomfortable, “[F/n] I did something, something bad” not meeting your eyes. Tilting your head to meet his eyes, asking “What? You can tell me”

“I-I got really drunk last night. Roy, Kori, and I all went out to celebrate the success and we all got super drunk and I honestly didn’t mean of any of this to happen it was all a mistake” his eyes bore into yours with regret.

He’s not going to say what you think he’s going to say is he?

“Jay you’re scaring me” taking a small step back.

“I’m so sorry [F/n], I cheated on you” you could feel your breath stop as tears came to your eyes. “What?”

“It was all a mistake, I didn’t want any of it to happen. It meant nothing to me, I barley even remember last night” not realizing that those words made it worse.

“Obviously it meant something if it’s one of the few things you remember!” yelling through your tears.

“NO! That’s not what I meant” He said before you turned your back. Not able to look at him. Arms crossed over your stomach as tears streamed down your cheeks. 

He reached out, when his fingers barley grazed your skin you turned and stepped away from him. “Don’t touch me!” growling shortly. Your tone was a mixture of sadness, anger, confusion, and most importantly betrayal.

“God I was so fucking stupid! I should’ve listened to them, my friends, my family. They were so damn right! What even am I Jason? Other than your goddamn door mat!” screaming at him. You’d never yelled at him like this before.

“You’re not my doormat! I love you [F/n]! You’re the love of my life!” he yelled back. Desperation filling his expression, tone, his whole being completely.

“Then why do I feel so unloved huh? Why do I feel like I’m just something you come back too? Like I’m some goddamn collectable!” You had no idea you felt like this until the words were spilling out of your mouth. He’s been using you this whole time, how can you trust what he’s saying now?

When he didn’t answer, you just shook your head. A scoff escaping your lips, “I’m fucking done” turning your back to get a jacket from the coat rack.

“[F/n] please” he tried to stop you. “I can’t loose you, it won’t ever happen again”

“Well I can’t fucking take this anymore Jason! It shouldn’t have happened in the first place. I can’t come back to a empty apartment for the rest of my life. I’m so–” You stopped realizing something, “No, I’m not sorry. I have nothing to be sorry for” Turning your back to him for the last time and putting a hand on the door knob.

“Goodbye Jason, I hope your fling was worth it” Opening the door before stepping out. Not having noticed his attempt to stop the door before you slammed it shut. You stayed leaning against the door, finally letting out a strained sob while covering your mouth.

Jason was leaning on the door by his forearms. His head hanging between his arms. Tears stinging at his own eyes. ‘How could I be so stupid? I’m such a fucking idiot’ he thought before pushing himself up.

Turning around, in a moment of rage he punched a whole straight through the wall. Before finally breaking down.

How could he hurt you like that?

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**I might do a part two, but who knows at this point in life. (If anyone wants to see that send me a request or message or some sort of communication thing lol)

***I have one more open spot in my requests if anyone is interested ;)

“I love you” seem to never really be enough. Because I’m afraid, that you do not understand what I really mean when I say it. Because, how can so much love, emotions and so damn much happiness possibly fit into those three little words? But until I find a other way to express and say how I feel, so will “I love you” be enough until then. So no matter how many times I say it, It will never really express my love for you enough.
—  Melwowz

to the boy i will marry someday,

thank you for your patience & endless amount of support. thank you for being around as i go through the journey that is self love. no amount of words could ever do you justice. what i feel for you is so much more than that; it’s strong, it’s empowering, it’s real. i don’t think i’ll ever be able to express it the way that i want to, but maybe that’s the magic of it all. i think i find comfort in knowing that i have something that cannot even be put down on paper perfectly accurate. thank you for helping me learn how to help myself. thank you for all the nights you’ve stayed up comforting me when the thoughts running through my mind weren’t so pretty. i cannot even fathom how amazing you are and how lucky i am to have such an incredible life partner. you are the one i want to spend all of my days with - and even that alone excites me, i never thought i would be able to say that about anyone. thank you for your constant reassurance and being one hell of a listener. there’s nothing sweeter than consistency. i can assure you there’s no one else i’d rather share every detail of my life with. all of my favorite things become so much more enthralling once shared with you. i have never felt more safe and at peace in my entire life than i have with you. your words are gentle enough to stick with me. when i lack the motivation to get up some mornings, i think of the way you would encourage me. i think of the way you would kiss my forehead and smile at me and tell me how you’re proud that i’m still here. you would tell me that my feelings are valid & how you’ll be around no matter what. those words alone would be more than enough to make all the pessimism fade away. i’ve never really felt emotionally stable - it’s always been something i’ve had to work on, but that’s definitely improved since you’ve been around. thank you for loving me enough to allow me to embrace my independence yet love you more than anything at the same time. you have impacted my life in more ways than you’ll ever realize and i am endlessly grateful. i have learned so much from you in what seems like such a short period of time and i am so eager to continue. sometimes i struggle with writers block but you’re always right there to inspire me and get me back on my feet. thank you for being you. i am so lucky to love you and have the opportunity to grow with you. there’s not a day that goes by where i don’t recognize all the wonders that you are. i cannot wait for everything that life has in store for us. i love you.

anonymous asked:

Hi, how are you? I really love your blog Can i have a scenario where the s/o misses her family and the M and S brothers try to comfort her? Thank you! Ps. sorry for my english

SAKAMAKI

Shu: He would tell his s/o to stop crying because she wouldn’t make anything happen through tears. Nevertheless, Shu would calm her down with music from his earbud and if that didn’t work, he would gather her in his arms and murmur how she doesn’t need to cry anymore because he is at her side. He’ll do his best to persuade her to stay with him because she is his most precious treasure now.

“You already belong to me, you know. I won’t let you go back to your family anymore.”

Reiji: Dismissing her feelings, Reiji would inform her that she should not shed tears for people that she will never see again. But despite his cold exterior though, Reiji is a little fearful that his s/o will leave him one day to go back home. He will sit her down and make tea for her, stating that she isn’t allowed to ever leave him. In other words, he needs her more than her family.

“You are my possession and you will do what I say. Stay with me for an eternity…”

Ayato: How could she miss her family when she has the great Ore-sama at her side? Ayato finds it hard to empathize with her, and he isn’t sure what to say to make her feel better either. Pinning her to the bed, Ayato would express how he will never find sweet blood like hers centuries from now. He refuses to let her leave his side, and he wants her to know that she only needs him.

“I want your blood, Chichinashi. I’ll never quench my thirst without you. Don’t leave me, alright?”

Kanato: Kanato would not want his lover to miss her family. Her new life was with him, and he didn’t want her to misunderstand this fact. Glaring at her crying face, Kanato would say that she is stupid for thinking about her family and he threatens to burn her eyes out if she doesn’t stop. Afterwards, Kanato would caress her face and remark how she only needs him and no one else.

“You only need me. No one else matters to you but me. Isn’t that right, Teddy?”

Laito: Laito would chuckle and gently bring his lover in his arms, holding her tightly as he wiped away her tears with his slender finger. Using sweet words and some lip service, Laito would manipulate his s/o into thinking that her family really wasn’t important and that all she needed to worry about was him. His kisses and promises to keep her happy would be enough to keep her at his side.

“Bitch-chan, I’ll make love to you every day if you remain at my side. We’ll make our own family.”

Subaru: Conflicted by his lover’s sadness, Subaru might feel that his lover would be better off without him. If she misses her family that much, he’d angrily tell her to leave him while she can. Otherwise he might change his mind and kill her. But Subaru only says this to further encourage her to leave. He thinks they were not meant to be in this lifetime under their current circumstances.

“Tch…just leave already. I knew you would leave me one day for something else…”

Kino: He was abandoned before and left to be with the ghouls, so he did not want his one and only lover to leave him for her family. He doesn’t understand what is so important about family and would most likely imprison his s/o if she continues to bug him about seeing her family. Piercing his fangs into her, Kino would remind his s/o that a kiss goodbye will never occur between them.

“You exist for me. We’re match made in hell thanks to that man, don’t you think?”

MUKAMI

Ruki: Seeing his lover cry at her desk, Ruki would quietly approach her with a frown and place his hands on her shoulders, massaging them to grab her attention. When she confesses how much she misses her family, Ruki would tell her that it would be best to forget them. After all, she was his lover now, and she wouldn’t be allowed to leave under his watch.

“Forget about them, Livestock. I can give you everything you need, including myself.”

Kou: Kou would sweep his crying s/o off her feet and carry away to their bedroom, where they can privately discuss what has been bothering her. When she reveals her hidden sadness, Kou would just pat her head and tell her that she shouldn’t feel this way. She’s married to a famous idol, what more could she ask for? In essence, Kou guilt trips her enough to make her stay with him in the end.

“M Neko-chan, I’m enough for you, aren’t I? If you love me, you would stay and not complain.”

Yuma: As rough as he appears, Yuma would actually remain calm in this situation and ruffle his s/o’s hair, emphasizing that it’s annoying to see her in this awful state. If he’s feeling generous. Yuma might allow her to go and visit her family once in a blue moon, but he sends out a familiar with her every time. Possessive as always, he wants her home before the sun sets.

“Can’t ya be quicker gettin’ home, Sow? I hate not being around ya for this long.”

Azusa: Azusa isn’t sure how to quite respond to his s/o, but he would comfort her with hugs and reassuring words. He doesn’t like the idea of his s/o leaving him or being miserable, so he will allow her to visit home as often as she likes. His s/o can’t forget him back in the Mukami mansion, and she always finds herself coming back to him. It works out for the both of them in the end.

“Eve…be safe…on your trip home…see you…soon.”

 -Admin Yuuzuki

It’s possible to ship without forcing your ship on others.

It’s possible for non-shippers to respectfully interact with shippers.

It’s possible to love all the characters and actors.

It’s possible to respect when others don’t love a character/actor for whatever reason.

It’s possible to just pass by an opinion/post you don’t like on someone else’s blog without giving them shit for it.

It’s possible to stop making assumptions about everyone who loves a certain ship just because there are a few that have left a bad taste in your mouth.

It’s possible to accept that your ship isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay.

It’s possible to show support and love for your friends without pitting blogs against each other.

I’m sure that I have unintentionally hurt someone at some point while running this blog, and I’m sorry for that. But I do try to think about my words and actions beforehand. I’ll never be completely successful, because I’m only human, but I do my best to understand and respect people, even when (especially when) we don’t have the same opinions. Telling someone how they get to enjoy the show or express their feelings about the show is bullshit. I like to think there’s room for everyone.

And here’s the hard part: It starts with you. Get out of the mindset of “As long as they respect me, I’ll respect them.” Be the one who initiates it. Give your respect until they lose it. Don’t withhold it until they earn it.

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My Everything

So for some reason, my cold dead heart felt kind of sappy tonight and this little valentines piece was born. Always use a condom when thinking of your OTP, or smushy crap like this happens.

SUMMARY: Killian is surprised at what awaits him when he gets home. Set during S6.


Killian made his way across the darkening front lawn of their home and jogged up the steps, tucking the large bouquet of roses into his left elbow so he could fish his key from out of his pocket.

Emma had insisted he not make a fuss today; she was adamant she didn’t want any surprises or grand gestures. It had him feeling slightly disheartened that she wouldn’t want him to shower her with affection on a day made for love, but he’d kept to his promise… well, almost. He’d still bought the finest roses Mo had to offer, and had a velvet box containing a pair of silver and opal earrings. He’d spotted Emma glancing at them as they walked around town one day and knew he wanted to get them for her. He couldn’t let the day go by without giving her anything.

He wasn’t that type of man.

He found it odd that there was barely any light coming from inside. The sun had only just set and it was far too early for Emma to be in bed already.

He got the front door opened and stepped inside cautiously, wondering why it was so dark.

The first thing he saw was the scattered rose petals that decorated the floor and the stairs. The second thing he became aware of was the warm orange glow radiating from various candles from within the living area.

The third and final sight he glanced upon was Emma, standing by the roaring fireplace, wringing her hands together as she smiled at him nervously.

“Emma? What’s all this?” He asked, surprised at the set up before him.

She smiled and held her hand out, gesturing for him to join her.

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With You Tonight - Thomas Imagine (SMUT)

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A/N: Okay so I haven’t written any Thomas imagines for so long or any at all since my fic so I decided to write a little something. Haha I don’t know where I was trying to go with this one… so my bad if it’s bad. Hopefully it isn’t too bad. And sorry in advance for any spelling/grammar mistakes etc. Also for any autocorrect mistakes since I wrote this one on my phone.

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Pairing: Thomas x Reader
Warning: Smut!
Word count: 1675


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Don’t deprive me.

Authors Note: I am not going to lie, writing has been the biggest struggle so this is short. But here is a little fluff. Xx
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He had slept all day, nestled admirably between the comfort of the warm bed, entirely oblivious to the snow continuing to pile up outside, absent to the world to be quite frank. You don’t mind, though, you considerably like when he’s snuggled up under the oversized bedspread, his curly hair messily falling in whichever position it desires, his whole body tangled up within the sheets—it’s a precious sight to witness every once in a while. 

He had promised to run errands with you today, insisting that after travelling across nine different time zones, that the jet lag wouldn’t concern him too much; Shawn just wanted to spend time with you, even if it meant running errands. Of course, though, you left him in the comfort of the bed, having no desire to wake him up from his slumberous state, there was no need, he needed his sleep more than he needed to spend today with you. After all, he has the next two months to spend with you and family, there’s no rush. 

It’s when the time reaches seven at night that you creep back into the shared bedroom, Shawn still fast asleep, cuddled up to the warmth of the comforter, his arm now nestled under his pillow. 

You smile to yourself, your boyfriend managing to look excessively attractive while lying in bed and doing a simple task; sleeping. 

You considerately rest down beside him on the bed, your hand delicately running your fingers through the softness of his curls, whispering sweet nothings until his drowsy eyes gradually open. He lets out a small moan before licking his dry lips, taking in a deep breath before focusing his eyes undividedly on you.

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Actual SINnamon Roll Prompto

Me upon finding out Prompto is a Scorpio:

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In all seriousness this was a ton of fun for me to write especially considering that out of all the Chocobros, Prompto’s the one I’d be more likely to call a muse. He has so much potential… So here’s some Prompto sex headcanons?? I take requests, so if you like what you see drop me a line!

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