how did i not know something like this existed

Where does love go when it goes?
Explain it to me… because I don’t understand. How can I be the same person I’ve always been – the same person you fell in love with… but suddenly there’s no love there anymore?
If I didn’t do anything wrong, if there’s nothing ‘wrong’ with me then why did you stop loving me? There’s never an answer for it… there’s no explanation… no reasoning… just ‘everything’ one day and ‘nothing’ the next. Don’t you know that’s what hurts so much…. to be someone’s everything and suddenly mean nothing to them… To feel like you have everything one moment; love, happiness, purpose… and then have nothing left in what feels like the blink of an eye.
Where did your love go?
If something exists it can’t just disappear – so where did it go? Where can I find it?
…And how can I get it back?
Meditate your ass off

What is meditation basically? Lots of people will tell you that meditation is supposed to calm your mind. 

But what will really meditation do to you is that you’ll be able to CONTROL your mind. Or at least you’ll be better at it, which is something huge, believe me. And controlled mind is a big tool in magic work.

There are 3 basic types of meditation.

1. Just observe your mind. This is something that you can do when you have time. Sit on your couch, lie on your bed - whatever feels good for you - that’s the key. Close your eyes and just try to observe what’s your mind up to. The important thing is - don’t try to think. Just let your mind exist. It almost feels like falling asleep, actually. Once you try it you can feel how freeing that moment is. 

2. Be aware. Yes, awareness of your body and later, of what is happening around you. For example, try to be aware of your breathing. Focus on how you breathe. Just feel how your nostrils feel the air coming in and out. Tap on your forehead with your finger and feel the spot. Be aware of the sensation. Focus on it like nothing else exist. Just the sensation you feel on your skin. 

3. Focus on one thing and one thing only with your mind. As I always say, start with something easy like an orange. Orange is easy to imagine in your mind. Picture its structure. Picture its taste on your tongue. Picture how it feels when you touch it. Basically, put together a picture of everything you know about the orange and keep mind picturing it. Feel the orange for as long as possible. If you lose your concentration, it’s alright and you did nothing wrong - we’re humans, not robots. Just try again :)

Questions you may ask:

Q: What if I don’t have time for meditation? I’m busy with school and work! 

A: Well, of course we live in a world that needs our presence. And number 2 and 3 can be done while you wait for the bus, while you’re stuck in traffic jam, and so on. Don’t lose hope, just because you’re busy :)

Q: Is it really necessary to meditate? 

A: Nothing is necessary, it’s your choice. But the truth is, if you choose to meditate, you’ll be able to control your mind better and it’s not only helpful in magic work. It can help you if you have trouble sleeping and so on. Helps with anxiety, too, btw. 

Q: How does meditation help control mind?

A: Number 1 can teach you: 

- how to be aware of what’s going on in your mind on the level you can’t reach yet. Later, you can use this new entry to your mind and analyze your psyche better. 

- how to not fall asleep when you try astral traveling before going to bed.

- lucid dreaming :)

  Number 2 can teach you:

- how to be aware of what your body wants and needs even though it can’t speak.

- how to be aware of what is happening around you in a crowd - kind of good skill to have these days, sadly.

- how to feel if something paranormal is happening around you.

  Number 3 can teach you:

- how to use your willpower as a tool for your magic work.

- power of good imagination raises IQ and plain common sense. 


Remember that if something isn’t going well for the first time you try, it doesn’t mean it’ll be like this forever. Things can better with practice. So don’t worry. We were all lame shits when we started. 

Enjoy :)

Show Me That You Love Me

(ao3, buzzfeed article that inspired this nonsense)

(Monday, Feb 6)

Clarke: FYI, I’m telling my coworkers that we’re dating so this creep will stop hitting on me
AT WORK

Bellamy: You can’t just leave it at that.
How creepy are we talking?  
You know if I don’t get specifics my mind jumps straight to the worst-case scenario.

Clarke: It’s not that big a deal? Mostly just annoying
But he won’t take no for an answer so I told him I had a boyfriend

Bellamy: Not a girlfriend?

Clarke: They know I’m bi already because I ranted about gross stereotypes at the Christmas party
It’s why they instituted a two-drink limit
And if he doesn’t respect my hard “no” I doubt he’ll respect my girlfriend’s so
Boyfriend

Bellamy: You sure you don’t want to date him? He sounds like a charmer.

Clarke: I was sure the first fifteen times he asked and my decision hasn’t wavered.
I wouldn’t have even mentioned it to you except I know Anya comes to the bar sometimes and I didn’t want you to blow my cover

Bellamy: Consider your cover secure.

Clarke: Thanks. I owe you one.

Bellamy: What are fake boyfriends for?

* * *

(Wednesday, Feb 8)

Clarke: WTF???

Bellamy: I see you got my flowers.

Clarke: They’re hard to miss seeing as they take up MY WHOLE CUBICLE
It smells like a rainforest
My allergies are killing me
Seriously. Why.

Bellamy: Can’t I just show my fake girlfriend that I appreciate her?
Why must you always assume I have ulterior motives?

Clarke: Because I know how expensive flowers can be and you’re the biggest coupon-clipping Scrooge I know

Bellamy: I’m helping!
I’m just trying to back up your story, Princess.

Clarke: You’re just trying to embarrass me in front of my coworkers is what you’re doing

Bellamy: Remember that time you made me do karaoke with you?
Some might consider us even now.

Clarke: You know Valentine’s Day is next week right? If you do something like this on a random Wednesday, you’re going to have to do something for that too or else Cage will think we’ve broken up

Bellamy: So I’m going to have to top myself is what you’re saying.

Clarke: I don’t think that’s what I said at all

Bellamy: If you insist, Princess.

Clarke: I don’t insist. I STRONGLY DO NOT INSIST.

Bellamy: Unrelated question: what song would you most like to have serenaded to you?

Clarke: If that’s how it’s gonna be then start preparing yourself
Cause it’s on, Blake

Bellamy: Dammit, I did not think this through.

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Tom Holland Imagine: City of Stars

Summary: You complain to Tom about how people don’t really go dancing anymore and how planetariums are your favorite place in the world. Tom decides to plan a perfect date for your anniversary.

A/N: I saw La La Land last night and it was incredible and while I was watching it I got really angry about how people don’t go like dancing anymore the way the used to its always grinding and twerking now and I hate it and it also reminded me about how much I love planetariums and that’s how this was born okay bye

Warnings: Cussing

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“No, you don’t get it, Tom! I know people go dancing still but it’s like ‘oh you’re hot so I’m gonna rub my ass on your crotch and then we’ll go and fuck.’ And its stupid. Completely stupid and I hate it! Why can’t people still go dancing like the did in the '40s or something.”

“Because it’s 2017, that’s why.”

“Fine. Then we’ll build a space ship and fly far away.”

“And how do you plan on doing that?”

“I don’t know. Maybe I’ll just go to the planetarium and pretend that one of those tiny stars is a planet where there’s a girl just like me going dancing with her famous boyfriend who plays Bee-Man and is having the time of her life!”

“Bee-Man? Really?”

“Well I was gonna say Ant-Man but he actually exists so I had to think fast!”

Tom chuckled and pulled me into his chest. One of his hands ran through my hair while the other was being held by my two smaller ones.

“Can you believe it’s almost Valentine’s Day?”

“Yeah… that’d make it, what? 3 years? Cause you’re a cheeseball and made me wait 3 months before you made it official on Valentine’s Day?”

“Hey! I was trying to be romantic!”

“If we had started seeing each other in late January, then yes, it would have been reasonable to wait till Valentine’s Day but we started dating in November, honey. You were lucky you’re cute or else I would’ve been long gone.”

Tom laughed and kissed the top of my head.

“At one point I thought about asking you at 11:59 on February 13th as a joke but then Harrison informed that that would result in me with an ice cream in my face.”

“Yeah, you got that right.”

Tom and I turned our attention back to the TV that was playing Endless Love. We both disliked this movie but it was the one he had taken me to see when he asked me to be his girlfriend so we made an exception to watch it only when it was on TV… until Harrison thought that we actually liked it and bought it for us. Now we watch it on February 4th. Exactly 10 days before our anniversary because 10 is Tom’s lucky number.

I snuggled into his chest and closed me eyes, drifting off into a peaceful sleep.

—Tom’s POV—

“So do you know what you’re gonna do for her on Valentine’s Day?” Zendaya asked over brunch with her, Jacob, Harrison and Laura.

“Yeah, I think I do…”

“Well, spill!”

“Okay, she kinda spilled a lot to me while we were cuddling the other night and I kinda wanna do it all for her but I don’t exactly know how…”

“Well, what did she say?”

“That she misses dancing… like, not clubbing, but actual dancing the way the did in the '40s and '50s. And she also said that she loves planetariums because she likes to look at the stars and imagine what’s going on over there.”

“So, take her to the planetarium and then take her dancing!” Harrison suggested.

“No, this needs to be more magical. I mean it is their 3 year anniversary.” Laura said.

“Yeah… OH! I’ve got it! So, I’m really good friends with the owner of the planetarium in LA! He’s an old family friend! I’ll call him up! He’s usually closed on Valentine’s Day to spend time with his wife and so maybe I can get him to let you and Y/N use it for the night! You can take her dancing IN the stars!” Zendaya yelled.

“Oh my god, that’s perfect! Please call him!”

“Doing it right now!”

—Your POV—

I was humming while dancing around in the kitchen of Tom and I’s apartment. I jumped when I felt a pair of arms slide around my waist and lift me up.

“Good morning, beautiful.” Tom whispered in my ear.

“Good morning to you, too, sleepy head.”

Tom smiled before he leaned down and kissed me.

“Go pack a bag for 1 day and 2 nights. We leave in a few hours.”

“What? What do you mean? Our anniversary is tomorrow we can’t be leaving town! What about our reservations!?”

“Yes we can. I already cancelled them. This is your present. Now run along and get packed.”

“Where are we going?”

“It’s a surprise. Pack stuff to sleep in, clothes for warm weather and a nice dress.”

“Okay…”

—Time Skip—

“LA, Tom?! You’ve taken me to LA!?”

“Yes… is that okay?”

“More than okay! The cold weather was driving me insane! Now come on, we have to get to our hotel!”

Tom had called an Uber to pick us up from the airport and it drove us to a beautiful hotel.

“Oh, Tom! This is amazing!”

“Thank you, beautiful. Now let’s go inside, order room service and then cuddle for the rest of the night. Tomorrow is a big day!”

Tom and I spent the night shoving our faces with pizza and watching Friends on TV. I eventually fell sleep while laying in his lap. I was briefly brought back into consciousness when I felt arms pick me up and place me onto our bed. I felt Tom slide in next to me and press a kiss to my temple.

“I do hope tomorrow goes as planned.” I hear him whisper before he snuggles his face in the crook of my neck and falls asleep.

—Time Skip—

“Tom, this food is delicious! How did you even get reservations to this place on Valentine’s Day!? And so quickly!?”

“Uh, hello? I’m Spider-Man. Far better and superior to Bee-Man.”

I laughed and felt Tom grab my hand across the table.

“We better hurry up and finish. I still have one surprise left for you.”

I smiled over at Tom as he pointed to his watch that I had given him this morning. He had been wanting it for a while. His parents told me they were getting it for him for Christmas so I didn’t buy it for him but then they accidentally ordered the wrong one. So, I bought him the right one for our anniversary.

Tom paid the bill and grabbed my hand. He drug me out the door and down the street.

“Where are we going!?”

“You’ll see!”

After about 20 minutes of walking, we were met with a cab at the bottom of a giant hill. Tom opened the door for me and I got inside. Tom came in next to me and the cab began to drive. The drive up the hill was beautiful.

When we reached the top, I was met with a beautiful white building.

“Tom, what is this place?”

“You ask too many questions. Just follow me.”

Tom held my hand as he walked up to the door.

“And this is where I blindfold you.”

“Wha-”

I was cut off by Tom shushing me and placing a piece of cloth over my eyes and tying it. Tom grabbed my hand and led me inside. He guided me through the building very well but still managed to bump into a few things causing both of us to laugh. Finally, I heard a door open and close.

“You can take it off, now.”

I slid the blindfold off my eyes and gasped at what I saw.

Tom and I were standing in a giant black room, surrounded by stars and tiny planets.

“Welcome to the City of Stars.” Tom whispered in my ear before a soft piano sound started playing. Tom circled around me and held his hand out.

As soon as I took it, he pulled me into his chest and placed my hand on his shoulder before he placed his on my lower back.

Tom began to lead me around the the floor, spinning me, dipping me, and lifting me to the sound of the music.

As we danced, I looked around at all the stars and planets that seemed to be dancing with us. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn’t even noticed that Tom had stopped dancing.

“Which one do you think Bee-Man and his slightly less beautiful version of you live on?”

I smiled at Tom and left his side to walk around the planetarium. I scanned over every star before one in particular stood out.

“That one.” I said, as I pointed to it.

I felt Tom slide his arms around my waist from behind as we looked at the star.

“Well, then that one’s yours.” Tom said as he held a certificate out to me.

“What?”

“Yup. All we have to do is right down its location, give it a name and sign this document and then it’s yours. So, what do you want to name this shinning star in the Pegasus constellation?”

“The City of Stars.”

Tom smiled and pulled me into a passionate kiss as the piano music came to and end around us.

“I think I want it to stay…”

anonymous asked:

I swear it looked like he rolled his eyes at the label and girlband bit, though I know it wasn't that just the way he shifted his eyes haha! Though he did look down after that, there's definitely something there he isn't comfortable with.

lol yes the way he shifted his eyes to the side did kinda make it look like that. i definitely wouldn’t say he was convincing about his so-called excitement for the girl band. it’s also funny that he mentioned them in ONE interview out of the tons of interviews he did in the last month. and how nice that this one interview happens to be released a couple of days after louis remembered the girl band existed and posted them to his instagram.

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The Sims 4 World customization Project (WCP)

Using S4S I’ve managed to remove all the background buildings/props in Willow Creek. Because I’m sick of the shotgun houses and the plantation homes and they limit what I can do with my neighborhood. This is a blank canvas of sorts.

I didn’t remove the buildings in the commercial district though, because the blank space looked way too weird there.

I will share the package file later on, when I’m finished testing, in case someone is interested but the thing is my modding skills are non-existent, so this is about as far as I can get (for now).

So I was thinking…with all the talented modders out there, I’m sure we should be able to tweak existing worlds and create our own custom worlds.

Does anybody know how to…

- Replace existing buildings (as opposed to just deleting them like I did) with other models? It would come in handy, e.g. in Willow Creek commercial district, so we can change the buildings on the other side of the street.

- Change road and world textures?

I think we could manage to do something great if we put our heads together!

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I don’t want to add my opinion into this massive shitstorm because all of this is becoming a little too much for me and I can’t take it…..

But I at least have to say this. 

Sean did not backstab Felix. 

If acknowledging the fact that your friend messed up, while still being there for them, is backstabbing, then….you may need to look up what a friend is. 

Now if Sean just straight up denounced Felix and completed separated himself from him, then that’s a whole other story, but that’s not what happened. Sean stood by his word that Felix was a decent person who messed up and now has to face the consequences, whatever they are. He even said that he was still there for him. I can see how some might see that as him “throwing Felix under the bus”, but…..if your friend messes up, you can’t ignore it like that. You just can’t. It’s a tough situation to be in. 

Yes, I understand that he didn’t go enough into the media side of it in the video, but enough people have covered that topic pretty well, and he wasn’t defending what they did exactly. He was saying that the media could do what they did, which doesn’t mean he agrees with it (and he doesn’t). You can understand something but not agree with it. For some reason, that’s hard for people to understand….

Could he have elaborated more and been clearer on that? Yes, of course, that would have helped a lot, but making a perfect video that perfectly explains everything you want to say is damn near impossible. If you’re someone who hasn’t watched a lot of his videos, or you already don’t like him, it’s easy for you to misinterpret this as him being “too lenient” on the media. And I get that, because he focused more on Felix than the media, it looks like he’s taking sides. The “wrong” side. 

You don’t always have to take a side. Not every “fight” requires you to take a side. And if you don’t choose, it doesn’t mean you’re abandoning someone or you’re too afraid. Being able to see and understand both sides, and acknowledge the faults in both without needing to declare one a “winner”, is not a bad thing. And it doesn’t mean that you can’t still be there for one of the sides. 

And before you say it, I have watched Sean for a while and it is possible I’m biased because of it. But if I see someone mess up no matter who it is, I will speak up about it. Sean has made mistakes in the past, I know he has, but sharing your balanced opinion is not a mistake. So I’m going to defend him. 

Of course, I’m just a person on the internet, so what do I really know about the situation, but I could say the same to you: You can’t tell someone how they should react to something. Felix hasn’t said anything on the matter yet, if at all, so we don’t know how he reacted to this. From Sean’s tumblr post last night, I would like to think that Felix didn’t react as harshly as some other people did. 

And to those people, I say: Back. Off. 

Opinions exist for a reason, so allow people to share theirs and don’t try to force them to change it.

I’m not trying to start something, but I woke up this morning to Sean’s tweets saying that he regretted his video, and it broke my heart. I was so proud of Sean for saying what he did– for proving that you can be a good friend while also saying that your friend made a mistake– but then everyone took it way too far and started oversimplifying things and making generalizations. That’s not okay, and I won’t stand for that.

You can’t bully someone into retracting an opinion that they believe in. 

Just stop it.

Think. 

And Sean (@therealjacksepticeye), I’m sure I’m not the only one who is here for you if you need it. Your opinion is not wrong, and people can’t pressure you to change it like this. 

We’re here. 

(I know I didn’t address everything, but I don’t feel like writing a novel. I’m also so tired of this, and I want it all to end.)

captainkaltar  asked:

Sheith, questions 1 through 18!

bro. so many. okay. sooooooo some of these I already did, so I’ll just copypasta my responses. 

1. Who is the most affectionate?

  • they both are, just in different ways. this kind of goes with one of my later answers about initiating kisses, but it used to be that Shiro was the more affectionate of the two with Keith kind of holding himself back, but over time Keith realized that he didn’t actually have to hold himself back anymore with Shiro. he realized that he was entirely free to love Shiro, express that love, and be affectionate with him. so now, Shiro is probably still the most verbally affectionate (he lives to be able to tell Keith how much he values him, how important he is, how much he cares for him), but Keith is the most physically affectionate (Keith may not always speak his feelings, but he loves to show them. he loves to touch Shiro, to kiss him, to stand near him, hold him). 

2. Big spoon/Little spoon?

  • they definitely trade off. (of course, when Keith’s the big spoon, it’s really more like JetPacking ^ω^.) but yeah, Shiro really loves to hold Keith close but at the same time, he finds so much comfort when Keith holds him. when Keith drapes an arm over his waist, tugs him back, presses his chest against Shiro’s back, Shiro feels safe. Keith holding onto him like that makes him feel safe in a way he rarely gets to. so yeah. they trade. 

3. Most common argument?

  • which one of them is the most wonderful. Keith absolutely insists that Shiro is the most wonderful. and Shiro is just SO TIRED OF THAT CRAP because Keith is CLEARLY the most wonderful, perfect being alive. It’s a very loving argument. 

4. Favorite non-sexual activity?

  • their favorite physical non-sexual activity is probably back/muscle rubs. Shiro and Keith both like to take care of each other, and after all the physical shit they go through, there’s nothing that really helps them heal and makes them feel connected to each other like massaging each other, rubbing each other’s aching muscles, and helping each other feel better. it isn’t sexual, but it’s still intimate and caring, and they love the moments when they can just be together and tend to each other like that.
  • their favorite non-physical and non-sexual activity? they like to play games together. they aren’t really picky about what kind of games; it could be card games, or board games, or guessing games, or even mindless time-wasting games like I Spy. but they like it because it gives them time to relax, to let go, and to instead just focus on something they enjoy together. after they went into space, their options for games dwindled, so one night, after everyone had gone to bed, Keith hand-made a makeshift deck of cards (it was a little ugly, but it served its purpose). he made it as a reminder of who they used to be, who they always were, and who they still are. he made it so they could relax and unwind together when they had time, just like they always used to.

5. Who is most likely to carry the other?

  • Practically speaking, Shiro is usually the one who carries Keith (plus, come on, Keith is all about hopping on Shiro’s back and having him charge at the other paladins like a mighty steed while Keith shouts “RAMMING SPEED!”), but don’t for an instant think that Keith won’t deadlift Shiro up any time he feels like it (or when Shiro’s had too much nunvill - he’s a bit of a lightweight sometimes) 

6. What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?

  • Keith’s favorite physical feature(s) of Shiro’s (now) are his scars. he knows how insecure Shiro gets about them, he knows how unsure Shiro feels about the way these scars make him look. Keith knows that Shiro feels like every scar makes him a little less human than he was before. but Keith loves them for how human they show that Shiro truly is. Keith hates, hates how Shiro has suffered… Keith hates that Shiro ever had to go through all the awful, horrible things he endured. but those horrible things are done now, and there’s no way that they go back and change them (and if Keith could, he would). the scars are there now whether they like it or not… but rather than hate them, Keith wants Shiro to see his scars for what they are: they’re reminders to Keith of just how strong, how resilient, how breathtakingly human Shiro really is. Keith knows these scars are Shiro’s least favorite things about himself… but Keith wants Shiro to see their beauty. to see that they are a sign that Shiro made it despite every horrible thing he went through. they’re the marks of Shiro’s survival.
  • Shiro’s favorite feature of Keith’s is his willpower and strength. Shiro often sees himself as weak…fragile…fatalistic, whereas to him, Keith is resilient and determined. in Shiro’s eyes, Keith is the one who never gives up. and Shiro truly admires every ounce of drive, determination, and fight that Keith has inside him. Keith inspires him - Keith is often the one who reminds him that Shiro is stronger than he thinks he is. it’s Keith’s drive and reassurance that ultimately reminds Shiro that they’re in this fight together, and that they’ll come out of it together.

7. What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

  • their physical boundaries change once they realize they have feelings for each other. they touch more - small, quiet touches - they stand closer together, they look at each other more, seek each other out more. they’re more willing now to embrace all those feelings that had hung between them that had been previously unrecognized or unacknowledged. after they realize how they feel for each other, there’s a sudden need to seek out all the contact they’d refused to share before.

8. Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

  • ya know, they don’t really have that many nicknames for each other. I mean, naturally they have the usual ones - “baby”, and the likes. and occasionally, Keith’s southern charm will slip out and he’ll call Shiro “sugar” or “darlin’”. but mostly they prefer to call each other by their names - there’s something so intimate about they way they say each others’ names. (although there was that one time when Keith dead lifted Shiro off a couch just to prove he could, and afterwards Shiro called him “Keithcake the Beefcake” for like two months). 

9. Who worries the most?

  • have you seen these two? they exist in a constant state of worrying about each other and each other’s wellbeing. but all in all, Keith tends to worry a little more, just because he’s lost Shiro before and doesn’t want to lose him again. 

10. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

  • Keith does - but he mostly just does it because it’s amusing to throw Shiro for a loop sometimes. Keith tends to be the more reserved one of the two, and Shiro sometimes wonders if he’s just zoning out or if he’s actually listening. So every now and then, Keith will pull a “I know your order inside and out” move because “just cause I’m quiet doesn’t mean I wasn’t paying attention biotch (•̀ᴗ•́)و ̑̑ “ 

11. Who tops?

  • they switch because they both love bottoming and they both love topping

12. Who initiates kisses?

  • It used to be Shiro when they first got together - because Shiro has never really shied away from expressing how he feels. But after a while, once Keith grew more comfortable with himself and came to understand his desire for physical contact, once he realized that he didn’t have to be so touch-starved (especially when it comes to Shiro) he ached for every single touch he could get. eventually, Keith was the one to initiate their kisses, their touches, ultimately because he realized that he could.

13. Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

  • Keith does. He has a lot of things he wants… he’s been so starved for contact with Shiro for so long that he aches to be able to touch him and feel Shiro next to him. but even though he’s the first to reach out for Shiro’s hand, he’s usually the first one to hesitate and stop himself from taking it. Shiro usually always notices, and silently reaches out so Keith can take his hand like he wants to. 

14. Who kisses the hardest?

  • Shiro, definitely. He’s a very physical man. Like I said before, he’s never shied away from expressing how he feels. When they kiss, that expression is breathtakingly physical. Shiro kisses hard and deep - tongue eager to touch and taste. His fingers are quick to cup and cradle and caress. When they kiss, his arms are always around Keith, always pulling him in close, urging their bodies more tightly together. He’s learned to kiss this way because he’s never sure how long he’s going to have it - their lives are always hanging by a thread, and Shiro never knows if this is the last kiss they’ll share, the last taste he’ll ever have, the last time he’ll ever feel the cambre of Keith’s body against his own. He kisses hard because he never wants to forget it.

15. Who wakes up first?

  • Shiro is undoubtedly the early bird of the two. Shiro is the one who’s bright eyed and bushy tailed before the sun is even up, ready to go for a jog, while Keith leers at him from where he’s buried in the covers still. the only time Keith is ever okay with how early Shiro wakes up is when Shiro wakes him up with soft, gentle kisses on the back of his neck, and a warm hand palming suggestively at his hip and ass. morning sex is about as physical as Keith wants to be before the sun is up. 

16. Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

  • like I said in #15, Keith is the one who groans and glares at Shiro when he gets up too early and wants to do stuff. however, when woken up with lazy, morning sex, Keith can pretty easily get Shiro to want to linger in bed.  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

17. Who says I love you first?

  • Shiro does, but it’s completely unplanned. It’s said in the moment. they’ve been dancing around their feelings for so long now, everything obvious and yet so very unspoken, and he doesn’t mean to say it, but it just kind of slips out. they’d been sparring together, a long night of practice and friendly competition, and it’s late, they’re tired, and Keith finally has beaten him. Keith has him pinned to the mat, their chests are heaving, and Shiro is just smiling as he stares up at Keith’s look of proud determination. he doesn’t mean for it to slip out, but on the tail of one of his breathless pants, Shiro mumbles a soft “god, I love you”. Keith kisses him before he can really even process what he’d just said. 

18. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

  • holy god this is 100% Shiro, and it started back when they’d first become friends in the Garrison. Keith was always a bit of a loner, and once they became friends, Shiro could tell that Keith was the type to appreciate little bits of thoughtful encouragement. he’d sneak little notes into Keith’s bags or books or with his lunch/snacks - just simple things like “good luck on your exam, you’ll crush it!”. after they got together, they stayed about the same, but the notes got more frequent and just a little bit more saccharine. “good luck on your pilot sim, i love you!” or “i’m proud of you, babe”.
    ….the last note Shiro ever left him was just before he left for Kerberos… Keith didn’t find it until after Shiro was declared dead. 

send me some OTP questions

After Maven branded Mare in GLASS SWORD and even after all kinds of torture in KING’S CAGE, there are still some who ship the two romantically. There are some who are plainly ridiculous and want Mare to have Stockholm Syndrome and fall for Maven. And then, there are a few who are shameless enough that they even asked the author why Maven did not rape Mare, demanding that he should have just done that. Like, wtf?! On the other hand, after Mare and Cal had consensual sex and Evangeline and Elane were revealed to have a romantic relationship, there are people who are actually complaining and questioning it. This kind of reaction is very alarming, not only to KING’S CAGE or other YA books, but also to other similar cases―real life cases.

I personally think it was excellent that Victoria didn’t censor those details. They were important and necessary for the advancement of the storyline. The sex scenes were there, though not explicitly erotic. In my opinion, the sex scene (the first one) was very beautifully written. It was full of passion and love between two young adults who were bound together by a night of fateful meeting in a tavern. It was realistic. Victoria also did very well by not leaving the contraception unsaid when most YA authors don’t include contraception at all. I consider it brave for a YA book. The LGBT characters made the story more interesting. Evangeline and Elane were a breath of fresh air; I loved the ladies. Even Maven and Thomas’ backstory was something I was glad to know and would like to know more about.

I’ll never understand how some people condone physical, emotional, and psychological abuse and encourage rape but comment negatively on consensual sex between two characters who clearly love each other and the existence of LGBT characters. This is totally absurd and should be stopped.

When She Was Mine

Part 1: The Meeting

Tyler Joseph X Reader

A/N: okay so this was not a requested thing, but i had this (hopefully) brilliant idea to combine two of my favorite things which is a tv show and a movie…. This will be a fluffy/angsty fic. It will have several parts, given that each part reaches at least 100 notes (bc I’ve been feeling discouraged about my writing lately). So reblog this and let me know if you would like me to continue and spread it around for all the people to see!!!

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Grey's Anatomy's Sarah Drew Talks [Spoiler] as Jackson's Father and That Big, Non-'Super-Romanticized' Twist | TVLine
By Charlie Mason

It turned out that Grey’s Anatomy didn’t just reunite Jackson with his long-lost father in “Who Is He (And What Is He to You)?” While in Montana with April to perform a throat transplant on a young patient, he not only confronted his dad (Eric Roberts — surprise!), he also hit the sheets with his former wife. Here, Sarah Drew, who plays Kepner, reflects on the ABC drama’s atypical handling of the hookup — and what it could mean going forward — and marvels at Roberts’ ability to play “kind of a jerk but not a jerk at the same time.”

TVLINE | Were you surprised that Jackson and April slept together?
[Laughs] Yes! But not totally surprised. They’re still so connected to one another, especially now that they have a child together and are roommates. And she really showed up for him in this episode in a way that I don’t thinks she has in their entire relationship so far. I really love that their dynamic in this episode is that she sort of walks beside him and gives him space while he’s wrestling with all of this. She doesn’t need anything from him, she’s not asking anything of him, she’s literally just being present, listening to him, letting him hash this thing out in a way that he needs to.

TVLINE | Which says a lot about how well she knows him.
Right. That can only be earned through people who are each other’s person. That’s really satisfying. You get to see how much love there still is there, you get to see how deep their friendship is and honestly, how much they need each other. And I like that it’s done in a way that isn’t typical. It isn’t super-romanticized. It’s just her really showing up for him, and that closeness, him being supported in such a profound way in such a profound moment, walks them straight into the bedroom together! There are still issues, of course, but in this moment away from their normal lives, she shows up for him, they want to connect, and they let themselves do that.

TVLINE | What does it mean for them going forward? Are Japril Japril again?
There are so many different ways that it could go — confusion and anxiety about what it means for them… or just a deepening of the friendship and a return to best-friendship. It could lead to a rekindling of the marriage. There are so many different places for it to go that would make sense.

TVLINE | Was it hard to keep the secret that Eric Roberts was playing Jackson’s father?
[Laughs] Yes! And he was so phenomenal! Both he and Jesse [Williams] did really, really exceptional work in this episode.

TVLINE | Was he what you imagined when you pictured Jackson’s dad?
I guess I didn’t know what to expect, but once I saw him in action, I was like, “This guy is so perfect!” There’s a charm to him, and you understand why he wound up where he wound up — in this bar having abandoned his family. But you don’t detest him. Eric Roberts did a really great job of sort of walking that fine line. You basically witness a man who is super-likable but didn’t have the balls to own up to his responsibility. And you know, those people exist in this world.

TVLINE | How does it affect Jackson, having finally gotten to speak his piece with him?
I think it’s like an opening of a door and then a closing of it. It seemed to me that he’d had this curiosity his whole life. He thought he needed his father, and then he realized that he doesn’t. There’s something deeply empowering about that that I think is pretty beautiful. There’s a strength that is kind of unleashed as a result of this journey for him.

anonymous asked:

I did wondering this for a while.. now after bambam interview i am feeling really sad.. do you know how it is in Korea then a idiol (someone famous) is walking on the streets? Are there many paparazis (like typical in America following them) with bunch of fans? I always thought they have more freedom to walk.. because they living there and it's like normal to see someone famous .. but I guess I was wrong :/ hope now after the new rules for their privacy will help them.. sorry for my bad English

Paparazzi don’t exist in Korea. Journalists don’t follow idols unless they broke the law / did something bad. When they’re in front of JYPE / near JYPE fans follow them (which isn’t allowed), take photos of them and film them. 

Shy: Part Two

Originally posted by stephen-amell


“Hey, can I ask you something personal?” You asked the dark haired boy across from you. A month had passed since Jughead first sat across from you at Pop Tate’s chocklit shoppe. Since then many more meals and awkward conversations were shared. So much so you were beginning to see the aloof boy as a friend.    

  “If you want.” Jughead replied, catching a grape with his mouth.  

 You bit back your smile. As cheesy as it sounded ever since Jughead came into your life, it was a little more bearable. No longer did you feel so invisible- so non-existent, you know had someone who acknowledge your presence. Which is why you felt so unsure about prying into his personal life like this. “How come you don’t hangout with Archie anymore?” You asked.     

A dark look passed on his face, and immediately you regret saying. “I mean- not that I know. For all I know the two of you hang out everyday, or something. I just… you know what? Forget I even asked.” You stuttered.    

   How could you be so stupid? The two of you barely knew each other, and here were poking into his business. He probably now thought you were a some desperate pyscho freak- “We’re not friends anymore.” Jughead revealed.

     “Oh.” You couldn’t imagine what that felt like. Never having friends, made you clueless to what it felt like to lose one. It was undoubtedly painful though. “I’m so sorry Jughead.”  

   He shrugged. “People change. Not like you had anything to do with it.”     

 "Still… it must suck. I wish I had some advice or words of comfort, but I don’t have any friends to begin with- not that I’m trying to make this about me!“    

Jughead snorted shaking his head. Humor danced behind his eyes as he looked at you. And for a second you thought you saw fondness in them as well. "You know… we have been eating together for the last month and a half. I think that would constitute us as friends.”

     Your eyes lit up at the statement, causing him to snicker. Never had he seen anyone so excited to be friends before. It was kinda adorable. “Really? You think so? Cause I don’t want to pressure you or anything." 

    A small smile spread out on his lips-the first in months. "I’m pretty positive.”  

   “Cool, cool.” You bit your lip trying to withhold your excitement. Desperately your mind raced to come up with a normal response. “So…. You wanna meet up at Pop’s later on. We can exchange each other’s writing… if you want that his." 

    His smile spread into a grin. "I don’t see why not.”     

 You smiled. Normal response: nailed it.

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Slavery on Daxam

*Trigger warning: Controversial subject, requires a bit maturity*

I came across a lot of interesting questions about it which motivated me to belt out a meta. The Daxam storyline could have completely left slavery out and pretended that it never happened like most TV shows do but the writers decided to get their hands dirty with this highly challenging and one of the biggest mistakes in human history and I respect them for not pretending like it never existed.

Why most shows get it wrong?

Game of Thrones is one great example because they atleast make fun of that simple approach. A lot of fictional content showcases one hero or rebel who wages a war, frees the slaves and everyone lives happily ever after. But anyone who has studied history knows that if it was that simple and easy, it wouldn’t have taken so long. 

The real world!

Even after modern civilisation, end of feudalism and establishment of democracy, it took a lot of known heroes and the heroes we will never know, who dedicated their entire lives and careers towards solving that problem. And after all of that the problem wasn’t truly solved. Even in 2017, ‘Black Lives Matter’ is something that has to be told to people and an openly racist man is the President of the most powerful country in the world. There are people in our world who still don’t understand how wrong slavery was!

The other side of things is, there are people who can’t really grasp historically what a complex and mammoth task it was and still is in many parts of the world. There are 46 million enslaved people in the world, 18 million in my country alone and a good part of the world doesn’t even acknowledge it and pretends like slavery is a problem of the past! 

Why is it a complex problem?

A lot of people look at it is a black vs white problem because they look at just the American part of the puzzle and simplify it as much as they possibly can but slavery predates America and it still exists in parts of the world where race is not even the issue. I can’t stress this enough, in no way am I discounting the issues many Americans face due to the country’s history with slavery. I am merely adding to the picture. 

It’s a sick human tendency to look at people like resources they can make profit off with minimum investment. They use a lot of prejudices and discriminatory factors to dehumanise people to look at them as mere resources and tell themselves things that help them sleep at night. Much like Mon-El’s mother mentions how they have actually “liberated the slaves” or given them a “better life”. 

Throughout history, people from both the oppressed and the privileged groups stood on both sides of the issue, keeping it alive and working towards curbing it. It is complex because it was never an us vs them problem. There were people who belonged to oppressed groups who found ways to make money off the oppression and there were people who were born into privileged groups who worked towards eradicating slavery.

Mon-El ‘s place in it..

Mon-El showcases the impotence of people like us who know slavery is wrong and don’t agree with it but comfortably live in a world where it still exists or is haunted by it’s after effects. And a lot of us benefit from it, how sure are you that all the products you use and clothes you wear weren’t made by an enslaved person working under cruel conditions against their will? When was the last time any of us did something about it let alone acknowledge it? Leave that, most people don’t even take a stand against racism.. 

I am not trying to justify his lack of action here, I’m just pointing out that at monarchy like Daxam would have required centuries of very active work from a lot of people to fix it problems and to get it to a place where our world is at this point in time (which still isn’t perfect BTW) and even though he had the illusion of power, his parents called the shots and we have seen their opinions on slavery and we have seen that Mon-El disagreed with them.

Which gives us all the POVs: Privileged oppressors(parents), outsider who can point out how wrong the system is (Kara), a passive privileged person deciding to put their foot down and disagree with the system (Flashback Mon-El and new Mon-El). All they need now is oppressed who agrees with the system & oppressed who disagrees. If they can pull that off, I’ll respect the writers more. 

Future?

Looking at the current state of the Daxamite royal family’s politics, it’s actually better for it’s citizens to stay refugees in other worlds than work towards rebuilding Daxam because if history has taught us anything, it will fall back into old ways very quickly. 

I really hope that they go deeper into the subject now that they have referenced Slaver’s Moon & Daxam, like they delved with the issue of prejudice against refugees the whole season and not just drop it without exploring it properly. I would hate for it to be one those fictional tropes where a saviour broke the chains and suddenly slavery just disappeared. 

Hate for characters:

I normally try enjoying storylines or stay neutral about them because when you get consumed by hate for characters it really skews your perspective of the story and blinded by the hate you end up missing out the entire point of why the story was written in the first place. So if you hate on this storyline irrationally because it talks about a horrible part of our history, try distancing yourself emotionally from the characters and you might be able to see the big picture about monarchy, slavery, treatment of refugees, prejudice & fear of the different. Supergirl does a great job with political storylines. 

Stories about the darkest elements of humanity cannot be told without mentioning things that make people uncomfortable but they need to be heard. Now more than ever!

A Favor Part 5

Characters: eventual Reader x Sam

Words: 1016

Summary: Sam and Dean are gone on a hunt, and the Reader discovers something in the bunker.

Read Part 1 here, Part 2 here, Part 3 here, and Part 4 here.

Favor is back! I hope you’re all ready ;) Enjoy!

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Drag queens are the truest artists of all time. The way they transform themselves into a whole different person is just phenomenal. The effort that goes into their make-up, hair, costume and persona must be exhausting but they will never let you see that. I am in awe of these icons, in fact, I am obsessed with them!

The first club I ever went to was a gay club that had queens outside entertaining the queue and inside entertaining the crowd. I had some of the best nights I have ever had inside that club, to me the queens were celebrities.

I am currently on a major Drag Race binge, I have watched a season a day for the past three days with no chance of slowing down. Like I said earlier, I am just obsessed! I wish I had the talent of these queens… in fact I wish I could be one.

I had a go the other night at attempting drag make up, let me tell you, it was not good at all. My lips were the worst part, how on earth do you make your lips look bigger without looking like a sad clown?! You could clearly see the outline of my natural lips and it did not look pretty. 

I would absolutely love to become a queen but I also I do not want to upset or offend any existing queens, as obviously I would be a faux queen. Just the idea of being able to be somebody else, somebody a lot more confident then I am even for a night would be amazing. Drag is something I would really love to get in to but I don’t even know where to start. So if there are any drag mums out there looking for a faux daughter, hit me up.

GEMINI HATE

Okay, I am usually pretty much ignorant about stuff like hate on anything, because you know, you can’t change the entire planet’s mind about something they’ve got deep cores about.

But you know what? There’s actually something that’s about to piss me freaking off and that pretty cutie little thingie is the hate people throw at the Gemini sign in this site and EVEN in my daily life. Guys, what the actual fuck? It’s probably the zodiac sign you’ll never get the truth about because all you know is that it’s so easy to call someone or something “two-faced”, “childish”, “flirty”, “overly-excited” and so on. That’s bullshit and you know also what? Now I’m gonna clear this for you.

Geminian unnoted traits, pluses and minuses, related to Greek mythology as its finest:

Gemini is operated by the planet Mercury and in Greek mythology Hermes (or Mercury, related to Roman mythology) is the messenger between the celestial skies and Earth. He is usually portrayed with winged shoes and cap, which makes him the fastest of them all and here we got something - what’s faster than the human thought? Hermes was gifted to be the only god who could speak with both the mortals and gods, who could live on the Earth and Olympus at the same time, so he had the ability to understand them both, but here’s the price: he'd be unable to have conversations and stay for long at one point and place - he has his work to do and information to carry and for this, his brain must be the very best of all - and here we got another point:

Traits:

  • Sharp and open-minded 
  • Curious about new information 
  • Logical way of thinking
  • Quick witted 

But when you take these traits and add a dash of human nature, human body and processes, we have more:

  • Can get nervous very fast
  • Thought outstrips tongue 
  • Anxiety
  • Extremely sensitive (do I need to explain this?)

So here we have two alleys - Mercury’s The Great Teacher of the Zodiac and The Eternal Student and you, of course, could be both - you can chose if you want to learn, to get higher and higher, to get beyond humanity with the information you’re capable to collect and the other path - you can give yourself up on your thoughts and that is very, very common with young Geminis and of course they can “grow” as that (-):

  • Fake attitude (because the reality hurts so much and we don’t need to try)
  • Childish (because at that point the Gemini refuses to grow up and see)
  • Rude (”Who cares what you’ve gotta say, I don’t want to listen, I want to be thoughtless, I am thoughtless, so let me act as that”)
  • Gossip (”I know something you don’t and I know how to use it for my favor or in your damage.”
  • Copy-cat (don’t make me explain this)
  • Impulsiveness
  • Negative extroverts

Or, as I previously mentioned, when a Gemini wants to succeed and is aware of its capacity, trust me, he knows it and if you try to stop a Gemini of getting hire, he is going to put you on your place, because we are very observational and we saw what you did there and why did you do it. We absorb every single thing that exists, like a sponge. It’s all logic!

  • Have a hidden talent in science
  • Very fast learners
  • Good actors 
  • Perfect in convincing people
  • Sarcastic
  • Serious
  • Not too serious so we can throw black humor 
  • Always know what to say, because we were prepared for all that questions you are already and about to ask
  • OPEN-MINDED
  • Know how to use their charms

Basically we are the most human of all and at the same time - the least. If you make sure a Gemini is fulfilled with your love, if you’re ready to see through the eyes of the infinite child, to look at the world from a different angle, then trust me - you’ve already caught us. If you feel something, we feel it 10x stronger because of our brain and because we are all humans - we deeply believe it’s all there, in the brain. And our thoughts hurt. We are too sensitive to take, just like a little pure child. Don’t stop us from growing, help us and trust me, the very best teacher you can get in your life is a Gemini. Yes, we will always overthink but as a Gemini individual, I personally learned that because it’s all in the brain, then my brain decides to believe it’s all in the mind, then in the soul and then I am infinite. I am air - shape my relationship with you. I can fly - don’t cut my wings and I’ll make sure you’ll only receive the pure truth, because…we can’t get why someone we get along with would lie to us? Even if we do, there’s another thing we hardly get, just because for your reason we have 10 more that we can’t just “shoo”out of our mind and we are very, very hard to get. We are the most complicated sign. And then…

think about our Rising sign

Moon

Mercury

Venus

Mars

and all the other planets, houses, aspects that you’re missing and how they’re standing and confronting each other and with the signs. Mash this up. Make it a mess. Here you have a HUMAN

I’m an intercepted Gemini with Leo rising, Pisces Moon. Stop shitting on my sign

REBLOG THIS! It’s very important, really. We need this.

You go, Gems.