how could i leave him


I Never Stopped Loving You - Part 2

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Request//  Your blog is awesome I love your fics. One question: Are you goin to continue ‘I Never Stopped Loving You’?? I want to know what will happen!!! Please can you continue it??

A/N// Thank You To Everyone That Requested For A Part 2. Glad You Liked Part 1 And Hope You Like Part 2!

Part 1

The thought of telling Derek made me cry. When he pulled me into his embrace, I let it all out. How could I leave him? Derek hugged me tighter. How could I live without this? He’s the only person who cared about. the only person I could talk to. Now my world has come crumbling down.

“Baby, what do you need to tell me?” Derek asked, not letting me go.

“I’m…I’m leaving,” I told him, saying the words made everything seem to real. More tears fell from my eyes. My heart broke. I know Derek’s did too.

“What?” Derek asked shocked.

“My alpha told me that we’re leaving and if I don’t go he will kill me.Which means I have to go” I didn’t know it was possible to feel this broken. When I looked up at Derek, I saw the tears forming in his eyes.

“Why?” Derek asked again.

“I don’t know, he just want’s power. He got 4 new betas. Now I guess he is bored and he has seen me truly happy and he wants me to be miserable. Like him” I told him. Hugging Derek tighter.

“I can’t lose you. Y/N. What am I going to do without you?” Derek let the tears go. We stood in his room both crying. Both not wanting to believe that this is happening.

“When…when do you leave?” Derek asked kissing my forehead.

“7 days” I told him. 

“Well for them 7 days, we are staying together. We will spend every moment possible together” Derek told me.

“I think we should get this movie night started then,” I told him. He looked down a smiled. He wiped away my tears and placed a kiss onto lips. We climbed into bed and snuggled up together. Derek wrapped his arms around me. I soon fell asleep in his arms.

I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. Derek was still fast asleep. I just lay there enjoying being cuddled up to Derek. Why did I have to have the worst Alpha ever? He always knew how to spoil my happiness. I could feel tears forming in my eyes again. “Pull yourself together Y/N these few days with Derek will be filled with happiness and memories. We couldn’t spend them crying” I said to myself.

“Good morning beautiful,” Derek said kissing my temple. I snuggled into him more and we wrapped his arms around me tighter. Both of us didn’t really know what to say. We both just wanted the same thing.

“So what do you want to do today then,” Derek asked me, as he let go of me and turned on his side so we were laying face to face.

“Stay in bed all day, with snacks and movies,” I said as I couldn’t be bothered to even move.

“Sounds like a plan”. 

The days we spent together were amazing. But sadly they were coming to an end. 3 days left. We were currently at School in math’s class. I was helping Derek work out a question,

“I’m terrible at this, who’s going help me when your gone” Derek asked.

“I’ll find away,” I told him , but when he looked up at me his eyes were filling up with tears.

“I don’t want you to leave me,” He said. I got up out of my seat and grabbed him by the hand and lead him out of the class. 

“Where do you two think you’re going?” The teacher asked.

“Somewhere better than here,” I said. I took Derek outside. He broke down. The tears flooded out of him. I pulled him into my embrace running my fingers through his hair. How could I do this to him?  I could fell the sadness, but it suddenly changed into anger. When he looked at me his eyes his eyes were glowing blue. 

“Derek?” I said, knowing this wasn’t going to end well. Derek got out of my grip and ran. I followed after him but he was too fast. He was headed straight for my Alpha. When I arrived at the building I heard Derek shouting.

“HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!” Derek caught my alpha of guard and pinned him against the wall. But it didn’t take much for him to through him to the ground.

“I see Y/N told you” My alpha just laughed. I ran over to Derek, who was now back onto his feet.

“You’re so power thirsty, you don’t care who’s life you ruin” Derek was getting more angrier. His fists were clenched and he had fully shifted. 

“Baby just calm down”I said grabbing hold of his hand. 

“Why don’t you just go back crying to you mommy” My Alpha laughed.

“YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TRUE POWER!” Derek shouted. I pulled Derek away before things got out of hand. 

“Derek he’s not worth it, come on,” I said pulling him out of the building, but the betas blocked us. Fangs showing, growling at us. They really think they scare me. I flashed my eyes and growled louder, they soon moved out the way.

When we got back to Derek’s we went straight to his room. I sat him on his bed and pulled him into a hug. And he began crying again. 

“I’m sorry” He told me between sobs.

“Shh Derek, I don’t care what you did. You told the truth. You braver than me. I wish I never had to leave, but if don’t you know what will happen. But I will do anything I can to come and see you. I’m not giving up. I love you Derek Hale. I love you so much and nothing will ever change that. Even if I am 1000 miles away, I will love you!” I said kissing his forehead and hugging him tight.

The last day//

Today is the day I was leaving. I couldn’t believe the week went so fast. I can’t believe that this will be the last day I see Derek. We woke friday morning cuddled up.

“Were not going school. I have a surprise for you” Derek told me placing a kiss on o my lips.

“What is it?” I asked

“You got to wait and see” Derek teased. “The sooner you get up and ready, the sooner we can go” He told me.

It was around 11:30 when we left Derek’s house. We walked to the destination hand in hand. Derek lead me in the forest.

“Were are you taking me?” I asked.

“Were nearly there” He told me. That’s when we turned the corner to see a beautiful waterfall. With roses all around and a picnic basket on the rock.

“Derek when did you do this? It’s beautiful” I said hugging so tight.

“I sneaked out last night when you were asleep. I thought it was our last day together, so why not make it special” Derek said kissing me. We sat on the rock next to the waterfall, eating and laughing. We then lay on the rock cuddled up. Until my phone buzzed.

We’re leaving. Get here now!

“Baby it’s time” I said my eyes welling up with tears. Derek and I walked back, to whereI had to meet my Alpha. When we got there he was stood with his arms folded leaning against the car. The rest of the betas were ready to leave.

“How long do you need to take” My Alpha said. I totally ignored him, I turned to Derek and wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms around my waist. He placed a passionate kiss on my lips and leant his forehead on mine. 

“I guess this is goodbye” I said tears rolling to down my face.

“Just for now, and remember, I will never stop loving you” Derek said kissing me again.


I kissed Derek and hugged him tight. Then I let go of him. Then I remembered something. I went in my bag and took out a notebook. I handed it to Derek and kissed his cheek and got in the car. Tears rolled down my face seeing Derek stood there. He had tears rolling down his face to. He opened up the notebook. It has all the math notes he would ever need. Then on the last page I wrote.

“I will never stop loving you”

Part 3?


If You Only Knew - Live From Houston (x)

About Anakin’s prosthetics

Like, I get it okay? I understand the desire to make Anakin “young” again by using technology or the Force to “make him whole.” I get it.

But I still really don’t like it.

Anakin isn’t “whole” because he needs to really on technology to function?

Anakin isn’t “fully Human” because his limbs are robotic and needs a machine to breathe for him?

Anakin being “more machine now than man” is a driving force that makes him “twisted and evil”??

Yeah, how about, no. 

Anakin is still fully Human even if his limbs are not organic. Anakin isn’t twisted and evil in part because of his non-organic body parts. 

Sure, it can be said that Obi-Wan didn’t mean those two things are connected, but this is coming from the man who says “it’s only a droid” when Anakin told him he wanted to go look for R2 when there was a really chance that R2 was dead. Who only wanted Anakin to look for R2 when he revealed that he never wiped R2′s memory. Of course, it makes sense to Obi-Wan to wipe the droid’s memory, it’s only a droid after all. It doesn’t matter, it can be replaced. 

Anyway, I bring this up because I’m reading a fic where Anakin was “restored” with all his limbs, the ability to breath, and the appearance of someone in their twenties. And, instead of Obi-Wan being all “you must kill your father, Luke, you can not save him” he was open to the idea that Anakin could be saved, or, at least, not go back to Palpatine. 

Yeah, it’s a fanfic, it isn’t canon. But I’m not convinced that canon!Obi-Wan wouldn’t have taken this attitude in such a situation.

Obi-Wan dissociated Darth Vader from Anakin Skywalker. Darth Vader = evil half machine. Anakin Skywalker = good old friend. If Vader was made to look like his old self, I think Obi-Wan might have been more open to his potential redemption. After all, the suit only made things easier for Obi-Wan to separate Anakin and Vader; if Vader looked like Anakin then Obi-Wan would be confronted with the truth that Anakin Skywalker = Darth Vader. 

And this is part of the reason it is so important that fanfic writers, in my opinion, not make Anakin into his younger self (physically) in order to redeem him. (This can also be said as an award for his redemption, but that one is more complicated.) 

Not having all your limbs does not make you less. Having to rely on technology to help you through everyday bodily functions does not make you less. Needing life support does not make you less.

So, on my “Fight until you’re hollow” run, Friede is the one to finally break Roan, Elite Knight Errant of Astora. And I really don’t think he can even defeat her, lol. I needed Rosalind to help Magnolia and she was level 60. Roan’s level 78 and once he’s at phase 3, he’s just unable to keep up with Friede… who spends more time making him waste stamina than actually attacking him directly.

Honestly, in terms of RP, Friede breaking Roan is probably the most fitting and saddest end for him. Because not only did he go astray on his quest to defeat Lords of Cinder to bring Fire to another world, but Friede’s defeated him with mostly indirect attacks. In the end, he just could not hit her and then got killed with that grab attack of her’s in Phase 3.

I might write up a series of drabbles based off of each of his 15 deaths.

1. Knight Tsorig killed him as a phantom
2. Got impaled by a bolt from the Giant Avelyn and then blasted by a Carthus Sandworm.
3. While evading an Aldrich Faithful, a stray arrow from a Silver Knight caught him in the back and killed him. 
4. In a last ditch effort to defeat Aldrich, Roan rushed him before he could fire his arrow attack. Just as the final strike landed, the arrow was loosed and a volley rained upon him as Aldrich took his last breath (it counted as a victory too).
5. Jailers caught him while trying to clear the area and free Karla. Got knocked to the ground and branded by about 5 of them.
6. Yhorm killed him when he could not dodge properly due to the weight of Storm Ruler.
7. Slipped off the roof of Lothric Castle after killing a hollow.
8. Killed by Followers of the Legion in the forest beyond the Library.
9. Believed a message that if you walked off the ledge where you fight Dunnel, you’d survive, even with the Silvercat Ring. 
10-15. Friede

Also, as a side note, related to this DLC: 

@fricde , I made sure to take note of Vilhelm’s entrance when you fight him. There are no colors beneath him when he rises up, but you do hear the sound one makes when they invade another world. 

Steal Your Heart (Part II of II)

A/N: Thank you so much for all the love for Part I!

Pairing: You x Luhan

Summary: When he spends more and more time with another girl

Warnings: Angst 

Days turned into weeks, and weeks into months.

I called Luhan’s friend and colleague, Yifan, to make sure that he was at work before heading up to our former shared apartment and collecting the rest of my things. I packed lightly, taking only the necessities and leaving the place as quickly as I could. It held too many memories, too many reminders of what we once had.

I had spent almost two months living at a cheap motel. I had gone to all sorts of lengths to make sure Luhan couldn’t find or contact me, from blocking his number to quitting my job. Jongdae had been furious, calling me up to yell at me over the phone, asking how I could leave my job without even telling him. 

I couldn’t muster the energy to apologize to him properly, and after five minutes of solid shouting, Jongdae realized that he wasn’t helping. It turned out Luhan had called him before to ask about my whereabouts, so Jongdae had an idea of the state of our ruined relationship. 

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Bloody Mary - Part 3

Word Count: 2380

Pairing: Eventual Dean x Reader

Warnings: Blood, language. 

Tagging: @letsgetoutalive @aprofoundbondwithdean @spnfanficpond @pb-5minutefanfiction @desiringspnimagines @blacktithe7

Series Rewrite Masterlist

“I had this boyfriend…” Charlie started. You motioned for her to go on. “I loved him. But he kind of scared me too, ya know? One night, at his house, we got in a fight. Then…I broke up with him and he got upset. He said he needed me and he loved me. Then he said ‘Charlie, if you walk out that door right now I’m gonna kill myself.’ And you know what I said?” 

“What did you say?” Sam asked. 

“I said ‘Go ahead.’ And I left. How could I say that? How could I leave him like that? I just didn’t believe him, and I should have.” She finished, as she started crying again and tucked her head into her knees. 

“Charlie…it’s not your fault.” You said. She didn’t look up at you. 

“We’ll be back soon. Just…don’t look at anything reflective.” Dean said, as the three of you went to go find the mirror.

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