how can people hate this character after everything she's been through i cannot understand

And I know that my poetry usually makes no sense, it’s a thing called love that compels us to keep reading. Would you care to know why my favorite color is red? I used to have a friend named Kevin and it was his favorite color. He was the flamboyant and most colorful of us in the group. Popular with the ladies and loyal to his friends. I was the one in the backseat laughing to their thoughts when I really had none of my own. Maybe that’s why I enjoy writing so much. Maybe that’s why I love the color red. He painted his room red once, I remember things changing right around then. The drugs were getting a little heavier even with his teenage youth, the drugs will rip right through you. Painkillers will kill your emotions, you don’t want to feel a thing. I can relate to Kevin, I fucking love painkillers too. I shut myself off from everyone, but occasionally I enjoy the company. I’m awkward and my thoughts are kinda dim, so I always liked being around him. Are you familiar with the literary term foil? A foil is a character who contrasts with another character in order to highlight particular qualities of the other character. I feel like he was like that for me. I always saw myself as a little too blue, I wanted to be something worth loving, I wanted to be a little more like him, I want to kiss life into everything, I wanted to live, I wanted to be more than a shadow of a group of peers that did drugs and listened to melancholy and nostalgic techno after school hours. I don’t know how he’s doing or what he’s up to. The last thing I heard was he’s into needles now. Rumors plague this tiny town, we were raised from imperfections and we grew up to taste cigarettes that numb our gums. He had the kind of laugh that made you want to be his friend. It’s funny though, none of my friends initially liked me. Until they got to know me, empty and hollow, a sponge– the one who listened to the problems, never really any of my own. I get lost in my thoughts, I know. My poetry is scattered, I know. I don’t convey structure or rhymes, I don’t hide in between the rules. My words are more scribbles than they are truly masterpieces. Would you like to know why I write? I used to know someone that said the shoreline was like a bed and naps were always possible– she waited there everyday for inspiration. She would tell me the tiny stories inside of her head that had nowhere to go, it’s funny. I never really listened to her, I just enjoyed the company of love and to be loved. Love, what is it? When I wrote my first poem for her, I didn’t know where it came from or why I wanted to write it. I just knew that I had to write it. It had to be done. I had to read it to her. Let me tell you, if your first poem was a love poem, it was probably the most cringe thing you’ve ever created. Ever. Period. But still, I loved it. It was bad, but it had feelings. You always miss the feeling more than you do the person and that’s the saddest thing I’ve ever had to realize. It really shouldn’t be, but it is. You never really understand your mistakes until it’s just you. You only want them back when you’re alone. It’s been so long, I don’t keep track of the days anymore. Hell, she’s married now. I shouldn’t be writing this. She’s going to read it anyway. It doesn’t matter at this point. I guess she left poetry inside of these palms for good measure, she loved attention. A lot of it. The more, the better. Maybe I stopped paying attention. Maybe I got too comfortable. Maybe that’s why I love writing poetry, in a way it just means that I still love her. Lost kids who didn’t know how to love, another foil. You know, I never really liked to read books until I met her. She had a smile made from your doggy eared books, you know, your favorite line you always had to reread or quote during a conversation. She had the kind of laugh that made you want to get in on the joke even though you were the one telling it. I loved that laugh almost as much as I loved Kevin’s. I don’t talk to these two anymore, I don’t remember much about the memories, only the feelings that they left. You can’t find loyalty amongst pill users, they always use. Trust me, I know. I’ve been swearing off painkillers for months. You won’t find a love like that again because every relationship is unique in its own way. You can’t recreate the old flames with your new ones. You need to move on. I haven’t really lived life. Maybe you’re just like me. Maybe you’re stuck at a job that you don’t like and maybe life just doesn’t make much sense. So you blackhole more drugs to ease the disaster that is you. Nothing hurts, you just don’t want to remember anything that might hurt– right? It really shouldn’t be, but it is. I listen to music more often than I converse with people. Music influences my soul in a way that people cannot. I just turned 24, but I’m still a little confused about who I am. Does any 24 year old have their shit figured out? Do you ever feel like your dreams and aspirations are slowly dying? I’ve always felt like an old man. I’m boring and I don’t dance too much, the only thing good about me is my writing. It’s the only thing I’m half decent at, but I hate that too. I don’t answer anonymous questions anymore because I feel like my thoughts aren’t good enough. How can I help you if I can’t even help myself? Red rose petal poetry pressed onto the stove kind of writing– it really shouldn’t hurt, but it does. I’ll always miss the days when things were simpler. I didn’t care as much. I didn’t smoke as much. I didn’t think as much. It was just simple. No hard facts, just some stupid kids getting high behind a dark house and running into ghosts in every room. No broken hearts, just some teenagers who wanted to figure love out with a knife in hand waiting to hug each other. I’ll pry the knife real slow and we’ll call it love kind of love, ain’t it love? I love you doesn’t even sound right anymore, so I’ll say nothing. I miss my old friends, but we’ve changed so much– I wonder if they’ll even recognize me. My life is insignificant and minuscule, but we must all seek to find our purpose, to bring meaning to the clutter, and to add more fire to the chaos that is life. I don’t want to die angry, I want to die with a smile. You don’t get to do anything twice, you don’t get to correct your mistakes– so make enough for your self-reflection drunk nights. You don’t get to unlove people, so pick the right ones to fall in love with– don’t worry, you won’t need to remember all of their names, just the feelings. You don’t get to unfriend people, they’ll always be a part of you. A part of who you are. A part of who you will come to be. I keep slipping into the darkest parts of my mind and call it a life. I’ve been reading this book and it told me to dig deep. Why do I write? Why do I enjoy the burn of love? Over a few thousand poems, but 99.9 percent are indeed about love. Why do you want this kind of life? Well, darling– These words are as much yours as they are mine.
—  zero point one

anonymous asked:

kylo killed his father in cold blood, how do you see him realistically making reparations for that in the film?

Well, I think you’re looking at a fictional story too literally if you believe these actions are one-to-one related to the real world. They are terrible - for SURE! Kylo Ren, as he is now, is a dumbass and a jerk. No arguments there. But those of us who like his character see a potential for masterful storytelling here. Obviously if this were the real world… I’d be terrified of someone like Kylo. But we are talking about a SPACE OPERA here… not your next-door neighbor.

I think one thing anti-Kylo people do is look at these stories through a real world lens… but that’ just bad story and character analysis. You’re not looking at his characterization as a DEVICE for the plot - and ultimately for the core morals and lessons involved in that overarching plot.

Fairy tales and particularly Star Wars are not tales about perfect people who make all the right choices. It’s about people making mistakes, and learning from those mistakes, to ultimately do the right thing IN THE END. It’s about the central messages and themes we take away from it all. Characters serve a specific purpose - to make us learn things and see things anew. You better bet Kylo has that purpose.

And of course, there is even precedent in the Star Wars universe teaches us that anyone can be saved. Just look at the actions of Darth Vader. His actions were at least - and not limited to -

-turning on the Jedi Order and becoming a literal Sith Lord

-killing dozens and dozens of children in cold blood (far more chilling than two old dudes if you ask me)

-accusing his pregnant wife of cheating with his best friend

-accusing his pregnant wife of being a traitor and committing treason

-Force choking his pregnant wife

-killing his pregnant wife

-trying to kill his best friend, who was his father figure

-mass genocide on a grand, galaxy-wide scale

-kidnapping and torturing his daughter

-killing his own father figure and former best friend - Obi-wan

-kidnapping and torturing his daughter’s boyfriend

-freezing his daughter’s boyfriend in carbonite

-kidnapping and cutting off his son’s hand

-trying to manipulate his son to join the Dark Side

-kidnapping his son and taking him to the most evil man to have ever lived in the galaxy - the Emperor

That’s not even everything but I’m tired already. Vader was busy y’all. Yet Vader was redeemed in the end - through the love of his son.

But beyond that, in the context of Star Wars, Kylo Ren’s actions are bad - but they’re not irredeemable bad. I’m not excusing anything he’s done, and I think his character HAS to suffer dearly for it. And I think he will, in many intimate and personal ways.

But, I gotta say, you’re looking at his action out of context. We have seen much more vicious, unrepenting characters in SW, and that Kylo is already showing guilt and shame is a pretty big tip off he’s headed for redemption. And, also, I think this action - being dramatic and horrific as it was - has to MEAN something, in the greater story. More than just, “KYLO IS EEEEEVIIIIL MWAHAHAHA!!!”

First, if you’re a Han Solo fan, you should want his death to mean something - and that’s was Harrison Ford wanted all along too.

But Han’s death is meaningless if he couldn’t actually save his son - like he went there to do. If Ben Solo doesn’t come back, Han died for nothing.

I think Ben Solo - for the sake of the story - had to kill his father to realize that Snoke is lying to him and manipulating him. JJ himself has confirmed that Kylo didn’t want to kill his father but thought he had to. We don’t know why that is yet… but, he thought it was the only way to further whatever cause (which we the audience have not entirely been made aware of yet - keep that in mind) he is trying to accomplish.

The thing is: JJ confirms it didn’t actually help him get further to the Dark Side. Can you imagine how that’s going to play out in his character?? How his trust with Snoke will be shaken? How his interactions with Rey will inform his character arc from here on out?

Why y’all think he failed his fight so poorly against Rey? You think he’s that bad of a Force user that he can lose to a total n00b?? Nah, he was grief-stricken and horrified at what he’d done - Adam’s excellent acting skills should tell that story, even without JJ’s commentary.

NOT SAYING that makes it ok - but in the CONTEXT of a fictional universe, showing your bad guy grief stricken over a terrible act he’s just committed is a huge sign he is not a big bad. It’s a huge sign he’s going to change.

Kylo realized he fucked up, and Snoke is a liar. Now, he will probably stay in denial for a little bit, but eventually he’ll have to come to terms with this. And I think he’s probably going to want to go after Snoke with a passionate vengence - and ultimately help Rey do that.

And that brings me to the next point. SPOILERS FOR AFTERMATH AND BLOODLINE BELOW.

We know from the Aftermath series that Ben Solo had been manipulated, groomed, and preyed upon by Snoke since he was a FETUS. Now, I want you to imagine that. A FETUS is being touched by the Dark Side IN THE WOMB from this terrible dark energy - which Leia confirms is Snoke in TFA. Again, Kylo is responsible for his decisions, but to say that he cannot learn and grow past a lifetime of abuse and manipulation, that he cannot escape that no matter what he tries to do if he learns his lesson… y’all that is some fucked up thinking, not gonna lie.

Finally, and this is the most important part:



We are led to believe he thinks what he is doing is ultimately RIGHT and GOOD.

Again - not excusing his behavior - but if we are to understand Ben Solo, I think we have to understand that he thinks his actions are necessary to save the galaxy. Something has happened to convince him that what he’s doing is the only way.

If you thought killing your father would save the galaxy… wouldn’t you do it? I’m sorry, but I probably would if I thought it would save BILLIONS OR TRILLIONS of people. I would hate myself - as Kylo Ren presumably does. But I would probably do it.

Remember, it’s a war, and even in the real world, family on opposite sides of war kill each other. It’s sad and tragic… but it is even a part of our world. There’s no excuse that can make up for what Kylo did… but I do hope it forces him to stop doing the wrong things and realize his way is NOT going to save people, like he may think he is doing.

And, not only that, but

Han himself knew the sacrifice he was potentially making.

As a father, he wanted to make that sacrifice, no matter the risks. I, for one, don’t want to see his sacrifice go in vain. I’d like to see it be Ben’s turning point back toward the light.

Also, we know from Bloodline that when the New Republic learned of  Leia and Luke being Vader’s children, they went after Leia. She even faced an assassination attempt and openly worries what could happen to Luke and Ben - that someone might go after them.

We don’t know what happened to turn Ben Solo to the Dark Side. We are all assuming he found out about Vader and went batshit crazy and killed a bunch of younglings a la Anakin 2.0.

But we don’t actually KNOW that. Wait for the story! Until we know everything, we are shooting in the dark to assassinate a character we know nothing about!

We also know Rian Johnson helped Claudia Gray write certain aspects of Bloodline - that he gave suggestions to plot points to help inform the audience in preparation for TLJ!

My speculation, based on what I read in Bloodline,  is that someone in the New Republic didn’t like that Vader’s son and grandson were playing around with the Force and targeted them - possibly trying to destroy anything and everything Jedi-related, including people.

A betrayal like this from the New Republic to Ben would be everything - it means his home, his family who lied to him for years, his justice system - ALL OF IT - cannot be trusted.

It would explain why Luke went into hiding, too. Luke is a pacifist who would rather walk away than confront an entire government. Even if the government as a whole didn’t do anything, it’s possible individuals in the New Republic would based on such shocking news. I imagine a significant amount of people would be terrified of Vader’s offspring and descendants furthering their legacy in the Force.

Regardless of speculation, we don’t know Ben Solo’s story yet. Wait for the story, see what happens. And, sure, if by the end of it, Kylo Ren is still running around with clenched fists and ramming his sword into every old man and console that comes along his path…

Sure, then we can say, “that guy is an irredeemable asshole!!!”

But, I for one, think they’re going to build a pretty epic story and the big “twist” for TLJ will be something that changes our opinion of Ben and his actions entirely - to the point that he will be redeemable and sympathetic.

The fact is, I think even most anti-Kylo people will be able to accept his character if he starts making good decisions and gets a well told back story. Let’s trust the almighty Lucasfilm gods to give us a great story that challenges our expectations and assumptions - which THEY ALWAYS do! And I also think Rey is going to be integral to that change and they will NEED each other to figure it all out.

Matching Marks Part 1

Pairing: Sam x Reader

Words: 1985

Prompts: Soulmate AU, and  “I’ve never talked to you before but the teacher just used us as an example for a scenario where we are married.”

This is my entry’s for @jared-padaloveme‘s Fluff Birthday Challenge!! :) This is only Part 1 of 2, so look for the next part soon! ;) Enjoy! 

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Missy/Master and the Doctor - The whole bloody mess

(spoilers for season 10 finale)

Many people have argued quite differently about the Master, Missy and the Doctor and their motives and relationships. I have discussed it with a tumblr user in two threads (x and x) so for convenience, I collected the arguments here in one thread because I do have a few things to add.

The Master is an awful person, to the point of almost being a one-dimensional caricature of evil.

This is your conclusion so let me start here. The Master, in all the years he has appeared on Doctor Who is a lot of things but never one-dimensional. I’m not sure how familiar you are with his background so let me fill you in quickly. Mind you, I will of course only canon:

1. During their childhood the Doctor and the Master were bullied by a boy named Torvic. To save his friend’s life the Doctor had to eventually kill that boy. Later a personification of death asked the Doctor to be her champion. He refuses and suggests she takes the Master instead as her disciple. She agrees and the Doctor forgets about the whole encounter. In canon it is the Doctor who becomes a killer first and then conveniently escapes responsibility for it by making the Master bear the consequences.

2. At the age of eight the drums were implanted into the Master’s head and always seen as a sign of madness. The drums worsened over time. It was only when the Master forced the Doctor to actually listen to them, that the Doctor believed. So we have a little boy thinking he is not worthy being a Timelord (because why else would he “turn mad” when he looked?) and not even his very best friend even so much as entertains the idea that it could be something else.

3. Koschei (as the Master preferred to be called for a while) was on an academic research mission when the Doctor was expelled from the academy, forcing him into a conflict of loyalty. Again, it is the Doctor who is kicked out first. The Master follows on his own accord because after all they made a pact to see all the stars together.

4. Koschei was obsessed with order to the point that the Timelords planted a spy to monitor him. That spy, a Timelady posing as a human, became his companion. When he eventually found out about her true identity he lost a good part of the ability to trust anyone. Isn’t it beautiful that the Master wanted companions, too? Companions, not servants, not “disposables”. And is it really so wrong that he would despise the Doctor’s companions and insist that they themselves are the only real companions for each other?

5. Later the Doctor made a deal with Death to grant the Master ten years of peace and sanity. At the end of those years the Doctor was supposed to kill him. During those ten years the Master forgot about his true identity, took the name of John Smith, became a doctor and even had a stable relationship. If this is the Doctor’s attempt to take responsibility, it really is rather poorly executed. He never asked the Master if he wanted that kind of “saving”. What are ten years in the life of a Timelord after all? Is the Doctor portrayed here as agreeing to a mercy killing? Possible. But completely without any consent from the Master. Also, isn’t it ironic that of all things the Master, free from the drums and his past, chooses to be a doctor? That “good” is obviously in him.

6. The Master met Sato Katsura, a samurai who was accidentally made immortal as a result of his involvement with the Doctor. It had left him so bitter, he began to follow the Master. This is probably the most obvious moment of the Master picking up after the Doctor. The Doctor has always liked to use people however he sees fit, often not caring much about the consequences. An example from New Who would be the 12th Doctor making Ashildr use a device that kills her instead of trying a little harder to eliminate that possibility.

7. The Master was continually used by the Timelords and other entities to fight for them. He was deliberately turned into a weapon. The latest example of that is his resurrection to fight in the Time War but what he saw scared him so much that he turned himself into Professor YANA and ran away to the end of the universe. The Doctor however stayed and fought. Sometimes I wonder if this is cowardly running away as opposed to courageously doing what is right. Sometimes I wonder if the Doctor’s tolerance for bloodshed, war and violence is higher than the Master’s.

8. At some point he posed as the Doctor and began to work for UNIT were he helped them to fight off several alien attacks on Earth. Does it really matter that he posed as the Doctor? Does doing good only count when it is done in the “right” way?

There are many more examples but these should make it very clear that the Master is anything but one-dimensionally evil.

Let’s look at some of your arguments about Simm!Master’s character:

He told Ten to “get out of the way” because Rassilon was right there, in front of him - the one responsible for his ‘condition’. The intended catharsis of that scene was about the Master getting revenge on Rassilon. (…) It was something that happened in the moment and the status quo of his existence was restored by the Time Lords. (…) People don’t just change in a moment.

So even although the Master had tried to kill the Doctor before time and time again he doesn’t do it when he can because shooting at the Doctor first and then at Rassilion is somehow not cathartic enough? Killing them both, the two people he considers responsible for all that went wrong in his life, wouldn’t be the ultimate revenge? No, the Doctor spared him and so the Master spares him in return because in that moment the Master understands that his friend still loves him, that there is still hope for a future for them together, seeing the stars.
Maybe it is not the huge change in character some people want to see. But it is a redeeming quality. The Master doing “what is right”. All by himself.

Likewise, time has passed since then. The Master went back through the gate with Rassilon to Gallifrey, the Time Lords made a mutual bargain to remove the drums from his head and fix his botched regeneration (…) He just continued with his old ways because that’s what the Time Lords enabled him to do, it was convenient for them to do that in order to get rid of him.

Sometimes I wonder what the other end of that bargain was. What did the Timelords do to him, or make him do for them to remove the drums? After all, they have used him all his life. Why change so suddenly. I think it is very plausible that the Master ran away again and hid on that spaceship (a “mutual kicking out” can mean many many things). Also, despite everything he has done, the Timelords still keep him around. Later, Missy isn’t executed as ordered by the Timelords. They still need the Master for whatever future war they need a monster for. I can’t even imagine what that does to a man. Going back to his “old ways” after once more being confirmed by the Timelords that that is all he is and all he can do is really not that surprising. After all, if they fixed the drums they could have fixed so much more. They could have helped him. Truly helped. With all their knowledge and wisdom. Instead they try to keep him as a convenient weapon.

The premise of the argument “the Master is not self-destructive” kinda falls apart because he literally chose to die at the end of The Last of the Time Lords instead of being at the Doctor’s side. The last two of their kind and he chose to die, not knowing that his ring would be picked up by Miss Trefusis and he’d later return.

Two things:
1. He chooses to die because the idea that the Doctor would imprison him and just “keep him” was so incredibly appalling to him that he couldn’t bear it. It’s not just for his own good or the good of the universe. The Doctor sees the Master as his responsibility, his burden. Considering that the Doctor played a considerable role in the Master becoming the Master, that is incredibly arrogant and self-righteous.
2. The Master has “died” so many times before seemingly without the ability to to come back. His mind has been in other people and objects before. Even if he wasn’t entirely sure about the ring, he must have known (and said so to the Doctor before) that he is pretty much indestructible.

He sees Missy as such a fundamental violation of who he is with regards to her perspective on the Doctor that he chooses to kill his future self. That is who he is in extremis.

Exactly. He simply cannot agree with the fact the Missy has been changed so much that she would forget who she is and how she came to be. He hates that she basically turned into one of the Doctor’s fangirls. He can’t understand why she would regress so much in her development that she is barely more than the child they used to be, looking up at the Doctor hoping for guidance. Let’s remember here that yes, the Doctor saved their life as a child by killing someone. And he put the blame on the Master. The Master simply cannot allow Missy to forget that the Doctor is not morally pure and superior. He cannot allow that standing with the Doctor on the Doctor’s terms leads to their death. He’d rather do it himself. If anything, this was a mercy killing, just like the Doctor agreed to do with the Master many years before. Considering that the Master has survived many of his “final deaths” we can be sure that they will return. When they do it will most likely not be pretty because right now, she thinks that the Doctor believes that she has betrayed him and that he lost his hope for her and does not come after her once more. She might also believe that he is dead and blame herself. The Master’s next regeneration could be the most messed up yet.

And there really was nothing at all self-righteous, self-victimising, or egotistic about the Doctor’s speech. It was about self-sacrifice, out of kindness. (…) the message was simply to just be kind.

The Doctor tries continuously to sacrifice himself. The 9th legion, the cybermen, … It’s a compulsion. Makes me wonder why? Is it because he is so incredibly good (then why does he never die, only regenerate, when he does? Why is his sacrifice never real?) or is it because he needs redemption and forgiveness just as much as the Master does? The Doctor is consumed by guilt and tries to get rid of it by offering himself up again and again. That is not without reward and therefore not entirely and purely good. There is always an agenda behind what the Doctor does, especially when it’s self-sacrifice or kindness. He always goes to extremes to prove that he truly is “good” even although it is only his definition of “good” that counts here. Good is only good in extremis. Only in self-denial and self-sacrifice.

I mean… the Master is a sadistic murderer. (…) The Doctor didn’t “force” anything on her, and, to be honest, what you want when you’re somebody who commits the kind of atrocities that the Master does on a regular basis really doesn’t matter all that much. (…) Your “leave their names out” argument doesn’t really work because that’s just removing the context from the situation. The Doctor has always been a flawed hero, but the whole thing with Missy’s arc is really not an instance of that.

It is exactly here that the greatest flaw of your perception of both Doctor and Master becomes obvious. We are talking about fiction so for a moment let’s talk about real life. Operation Neptune Spear as sanctioned by then-President of the USA Obama was a capture or kill mission directed at Osama bin Laden. US-offficals have also simply called it a kill mission. The mission was accomplished in May 2011 resulting in the death of Osama bin Laden. Criticized as a “revenge mission” by foreign governments and organizations like Amnesty International, this mission remains controversial until today. The reason is simply that a criminal, no matter how bad, does have rights, that human rights are non-negotiable, that the crimes of a person do not make them less human. At the same time, acting as if a criminal has lost his human rights because of (past or future) crimes is morally incredibly flawed and honestly, simply plain wrong. It’s not hard to see the parallels to the Doctor and Missy here. It does matter if there was consent or not and if there continued to be consent because Missy is still a sentient being with rights and the Doctor (with Gallifrey being back) has no authority whatsoever to decide otherwise. By locking Missy up and isolating her the way he did he violated her. He of all people who always thinks he is morally superior. He messed up epically here. Leaving the names out returns them to what they both are: sentient beings with rights.

She said to the Doctor that she’d be good, asking him to teach her how to be, and consented to being imprisoned for rehabilitation. Whether that was what she actually wanted at the start or if she was saying that to get out of being executed, that was something she made good on. She says as much that she could have escaped the Vault if she’d wanted to, but she’s chosen to stay and engage in the process.

Again, it is highly questionable if it was continued consent, or even just consent born out of an honest desire to change and not just desperate words uttered to save her life.  And yes, continued consent is a thing and it is necessary. Ask anybody who agreed to anything and then changed their mind mid-way through. It’s one of the very obvious symptoms of rape culture to think that continued consent is not a thing. Besides, the difference in power between them was so huge by then that in order to keep at least some kind of dignity Missy would have probably said anything, including suggesting that she could have escaped the vault, something the Doctor clearly disagreed with.

It’s not just that Missy decided to stand with the Doctor… It’s that the reason WHY she decided to do that was because her whole perspective and understanding of him has changed. (…) she says to her former self “he’s right”. It’s not just about standing with her friend because she wants to, it’s that she actually has come to understand and empathise with his philosophy.

I stand by what I said in the first place. Isolating a prisoner and depriving them of stimuli is torture. And no, a few books and a piano are not enough to keep someone like the Master sane. Time and time again it was shown in studies and experiments that sentient beings, from monkey to human to most likely Timelord are social animals and lose their minds if isolated for too long. That alone, that isolation over decades must have worn her out so much that the Doctor could have planted any kind of philosophy into her head. He chose the only one he knew of course. Self-denial through self-sacrifice. Let’s remember here that his self-sacrifice has always been fake. Doctors 10 and 11 regenerated after acts of self-sacrifice but it is just never real because he never dies. He always knows that he has a way out. Regeneration. And so his sacrifice doesn’t mean all that much. He of course cannot see that and so he believes his way to be the “most good”, the only right way. And that is the way he tries to make Missy understand.

And she kills her former self, not just to get him out of the way, but to ensure, in that moment, that he will regenerate into her so everything will come back around to this moment - to make it happen. Without hope. Without witness. Without reward.

There is literally no reason to get the Master out of the way at this point. She doesn’t know that he would shoot her should she try to go back to the Doctor. She could have literally shoved him into the elevator, sealed the door and send him back down. There was no reason whatsoever to kill him. Especially because she utters remorse about having lost herself, about not being how he is. She is not burning anymore and she knows it. Mind you, we do not know if she refers to her whole existence as Missy or just her time as the Doctor’s prisoner.
But even if she does kill him to ensure that she comes around to this point, isn’t that a reward all in itself?
Let’s also not forget that the Master concludes from Missy not being able to remember her “birth” that he will regenerate in the very near future. He knew it and simply wasn’t ready for it. Another reason why he wouldn’t stand with the Doctor.


1. The Master has never been one-dimensionally evil. If anything the Doctor and the Master are more ying and yang than black and white.

2. The Master and Missy never lost hope that they could be reunited with their childhood friend but they always wanted it to be a mutually benefiting reunion. A reunion that happened on both their terms. The Doctor continually insisting on it to be one-sided was too much for the Master.

3. The Doctor mistreated and violated Missy greatly and the Master could not accept that. And honestly, who would?

4. The Doctor doesn’t understand that his so-called self-denial that does work quite well for him, just isn’t the go-to-thing for everybody and so he screws Missy up and blows his reunion with the Master.

In the end Missy was right, she has always been on the Doctor’s side. All her faces, all her regenerations. They were always his friend. He just always insisted that they be that on his terms and his terms alone.

HOLY SHIT I HIT 1,000!!!

Originally posted by parrilla-collins

1,000 Follower Celebration Challenge!!!

First of all, I want to thank each and every one of ya’ll for taking a chance on me and reading my fics. This blog used to be my personal, and I understand that some of my old followers may have stuck around, but I literally cannot believe how quickly my little squad has grown!!!

Thank you for being patient with me, thank you for reading the things I post, thank you for being supportive and lovely and making my days better.

So enough about me, here’s my two cents on this challenge.
I wanted to do something that wasn’t exhausted already (ie song, drabble, head canon etc), and considering the wild amount of challenges that have been going on since December, I didn’t want to overbear anyone. (Don’t worry, next milestone I’ll be doing something for everyone!) So I’m combining a list of my favourite things to make things a bit easier on ya’ll. Please read carefully all of the rules below. Just send me an ASK if you’re unsure of anything. And of course, there will be a huge celebratory masterlist permanently posted on my blog afterwards!

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Spoilers for Harlots Ep 6

My stray thoughts on this episode:

  • We see Lucy continuing to grapple with all of her deeply negative and traumatic experiences with sex this episode (she’s had only one positive experience with it and seems to have had a number of the worst sort of experiences early on - would she think she was “no good at this” if her entry into this world hadn’t been so rough? probably not, but she thinks her reaction is unnatural and her fault) - it makes her supremely uncomfortable to even hear all the groans and grunts of pleasure in the house of Wells. this of course all comes to a head when she stabs the horrid sir george in self-defense, and it’s far from an act of vengeance or something meant to signify her “descent into darkness” (she even goes back to apologize to him!) or whatever people are saying about the direction of her storyline. it’s a thing that happens that Margaret takes upon herself so that sweet Lucy won’t be damned, in one of the most powerful moments of the episode. more than ever, this episode shows us how even when Margaret does the wrong thing, it’s always out of love. that’s something of a theme in the parent/child relationships this episode including the abusive relationship of lydia/margaret (which I’ll discuss later) as Florence points out, and Florence’s own relationship with her daughter Amelia - and Fanny’s relationship with her unborn child is also explored as another example of the exigencies exacted by motherhood. Despite the hand her mother has had in her situation, Lucy continues to be loyal to her and lashes out at the other girls when she suspects them of speaking ill about her. All the scenes of her and Margaret holding each other - in the wake of Lucy finding out what her mother did for her - caught at my heart and made me cry.
  • Scenes like the one we got between Will and Harriet are so important. Seeing Harriet happy that she finally has some power over her life and the future of her children is a beautiful thing, and seeing Will reach out to her with kindness and empathy from a place of shared understanding was cathartic for her to be sure - and I’ve little doubt he has now somehow gone after her children and will bring them back to her. Then we see Will crack under Benjamin Lennox’s constant racist attacks on him, and Margaret’s interesting response - she is proud of Will for defending himself but as he says, still upset about the practical side of things. Margaret has a clear moral compass but business pretty much always comes first in matters of pride.
  • The irony of Emily’s situation and of Margaret saying to Nancy that “that girl’s not worthy of your care” is that she is a lot like Margaret was once in terms of her circumstances (and I suspect, her personality), as Nancy pointed out last episode and yet Margaret turned her away. She did not “sustain and defend” as Nancy said she ought. This is an indictment of Margaret’s occasional ruthless pragmatism (possibly even an unconscious occasional emulation of Lydia as I’ll discuss later) - it is not a reason to blame Emily for her own situation (and it’s not something the other girls have seen Margaret do before as they’re shocked and it leads Fanny to keep her pregnancy secret). She felt under-appreciated so she left for work elsewhere. She in no way brought her horrible situation upon herself. 
  • oh my god the scene between Florence and Amelia had me in tears. And it really seems to have enabled Florence to look on others in similar situations who haven’t given up the trade more charitably. Amelia is the only source of good in her life, but her goodness is so pervasive and determined and comforting that her mother cannot help but be swayed by it and decides to extend that understanding to others. she sees the hand of God in her child’s understanding, and takes it as a sign that her perspective is the right one. can Amelia just become a midwife or something to help out the other girls? that would be ideal. she’s been a nurse for her mother for years now!
  • Haxby is absolutely DESPERATE to get his job back (and looks like he’s been crying?), as it’s always been obvious it’s his whole life, and clearly believes his own delusions about the sway Charlotte had over him (notwithstanding his parting shot later about how she gave him pleasure - that was clearly a bit of unwitting jealousy) - that the fault lies with her. I’ve seen the next episode and he’s not in it much either and all I can say without spoilers is that I don’t like the direction it takes - it’s not so much character assassination as character oversimplification. It’s possible that more will be done with it in ep 8, but I’m pessimistic about it being resolved to my liking. This is one of only two things about this show that bother me - they just stick out a lot bc everything else is so well done (and I’m talking about episode 7 specifically and not what happens in this episode). Cmon guys you hired Ed Hogg - give him good material like you did in the first half of the season!
  • oh betsey having trouble with drink and Prince trying to help her :( he wants to be friends with the girls but his own survival instincts make it hard for them to trust him.
  • It was great to see more of Kitty this episode - she’s a good leader able to hold down the fort when Margaret’s needed elsewhere, and to manage conflicts and issues among the girls.
  • Nancy served SO MANY LOOKS this episode; I was LIVING. also Lydia’s black lace hat thing was my favorite thing ever - need one of those for myself
  • “How can it be hate that drives you? It is love.” And we see that love, such as it is, come into play in the final devastating scene of this episode. When Lydia comes to the door once more as Nancy is trying to transport Howard from the premisses, Margaret looks absolutely spent. Out of a combination of desperation to distract Lydia, emotional exhaustion, and through the learned behavior of an abused child, she tells Lydia where Emily is. “That’s my good girl,” Lydia says to her, and touches her chin in a way eerily reminiscent of how we’ve sometimes seen Margaret touch Lucy’s. That wraps up an episode on the perils of motherhood for both parties involved, and the lengths to which mothers will go when it’s not hate that drives them, but love.

Perceptive Functions

Extroverted Intuition (Ne)

Ne is about seeing all the possibilities, all the possible endings and directions of a situation. It synthesizes abstract ideas and easily understands connections between everything. People using Ne are able to connect up things, people, cases etc, that you would never imagine they would fit together. What is more, Ne takes one thing and it analyzes into many different things. Extroverted intuition is capable of entertaining multiple contradictory ideas simultaneously as it sees almost every side to every situation. It is predominantly a future-oriented function that examines all the possibilities of what could happen next. Those people are usually excitable (especially by the unknown or the totaly new) and highly creative. Ne people, can change the subject of a conversation so easily that you won’t even notice. They intrinsically enjoy debating ideas, exploring various interests and they view almost everything in life as challenging or fun. They also have vivid imaginations. They are constantly thinking about what to do or experience next, but have a difficult time sticking with just one idea or plan long-term. They get bored easily and they always need something different and new in order to keep up with.

Example: Someone gives to a Ne the word “Life”. Ne will act like: Life. Life is colour. Flowers have many colours so life is flowers. Flowers mean spring. My grandma loves spring. In spring I have my birthday. Spring is my friend’s Zoe (Zoe means Life in Greek) worst season. Birthday? Birthday is the best day in the world for each person. Did you know the world’s population is 6,5.000.000 +…. etc. That’s because Ne loves analyzing things in all possible ways and then connecting those things together.

Introverted Intuition (Ni):

Ni forms a framework of how the world works based on thorough, abstract analysis of past and current events. It aims to identify the “essence” of ideas, theories, people and situations in order to fit them into a larger schema. Introverted intuition is a forward thinking function that seeks to identify the optimal or most likely outcome of future events. People who lead with introverted intuition always try to find the most possible end in situations etc. They are usually intense people, focused and highly perceptive of inconsistencies that arise in their external environment. They enjoy riddles, puzzles and wordplay. When they end up in a conclusion, it’s really hard to make them change their minds because they think that what they guessed it’s the only right thing. They often experience “hunches” or “aha” moments that they may identify as epiphanies. They are excited by the unknown. They usually need time when forming an answer and often, they will return days after your last conversation in order to tell you something they thought or they learned during this period. While Ne is all about seeing all future possibilities (even the wrong ones), Ni is about seeing the one most sure/obvious possibility. Their intense foresight is a product of their future-oriented introverted intuition subtly pairing with their low extroverted sensing.

Example: A Ni is watching a complex movie with friends. One of the characters keeps saying that they feel alone, they don’t know or care about the future, they never smile etc. The Ni user will automatically conclude that this character will die or commit sucide eventually and they will probably be right. That’s because Ni knows to take in information from patterns, symbols, behaviour, unnoticed things etc and then to sum all those things up and find the final result.

Extroverted Sensing (Se):

Se is focused on taking in the world as it exists in the present moment. It is highly in tune with the sights, smells, sounds and general physical stimulus that surrounds it. Extroverted Sensing lives and thrives in the moment, more so than any other function. People who lead with Se are often naturally athletic, highly impulsive, observing and enjoy ever-changing stimuli. They place a high value on aesthetics and lust after the “finer things in life”. Extroverted sensors usually aren’t interested in over-analyzing a situation. They simply see what they want and they go for it. These types tend to exude a natural sense of confidence, as they are usually quite sure of who they are and what they want. If they want to say something, they say it. If they want to hear something in a noisy room, they will tell others to stop talking. They like doing sensory activities (or sports).

Example: When you try to read a book or do your homework or a project and you automatically turn your head and look at a butterfly out of the window, it’s your Se function noticing an external sound, figure etc and it wants you to stop doing what you’re doing and just keep looking at that butterfly. Se users would also want to go outside and touch the butterfly.

Introverted Sensing (Si):

Si is a detail-oriented, information storage function. It takes note of facts, events and occurrences exactly as they happen and categorizes them, somewhat like an internal filing system. This is a past-oriented function that dwells predominantly on what has been and it often gives way to nostalgia. People who lead with Si are organized and structured, as they believe in being prepared for any potential problem. They hold tradition in high esteem and believe that the tried and true method is always the best way of getting things done. Introverted sensors believe that the future will repeat the past, more so than any other type. They hate the unexpected and they always want to feel secure about anything. They hardly ever try new things or different methods of doing something because they see the good - old method as the best one. They also connect things that are happening now, with similar things that happend in the past. They are really good at remembering details such as names, numbers, dates, street names, adresses etc.

Example: A Si person looks at a red dress. The way they react will be like: Wow look at that dress. It reminds me of a longer, red dress my second cousin, Mary, was wearing four years ago in a school party next to that street at 8:30 PM, and she was so beautiful with that dress and I remember a tall, thin boy called Bob telling her… etc.

Decision - Making Functions

Introverted Feeling (Fi):

Fi is about deep analysis of personal emotional processes and morality. It seeks to break down emotions to their core and understand them as wholly as possible. It also develops a strong internal value system of right and wrong, which the Fi user employs to make decisions. Fi searches for the deeper meaning behind everything. Introverted feelers are highly aware of their own emotions, and when they put themselves in the shoes of others, they can often feel their pain or joy on a personal level. That means they cannot feel in the same way what others feel. They are sympathetic (understand the pain/joy), but not empathetic (feel the pain/joy of others). People who lead with Fi are compassionate, analytical and often highly concerned with moral issues. It is very common for them to be self-conscious because they find it hard to understand how others may react to something they do or say. They are usually highly creative or artistic, and may feel as though nobody else truly understands who they are deep down because their feelings are introverted, so they aren’t comfortable expressing how they feel outwardly. They express their passion through art, music, poetry etc. They have a rich inner world that they want to guard. They mainly advocate for staying true to yourself and do what makes you happy.

Example: In a survivor game, there is a Fi user that has to do something they don’t like/want to. Fi users would never do something they’d feel it’s wrong. Let’s suppose that someone tells them to kill an animal (a turtle, a fish etc). The Fi person will probably not do it because this is what their moral/ethic code of right-wrong tell them to do, even if that means they will not eat.

Extroverted Feeling (Fe):

Fe is highly concerned with maintaining social norms and keeping the peace. It is a decision-making function that strives to do what is best for the group and picks up naturally on the emotions of others. It is a mirroring function that may cause the user to have trouble deciphering and understanding their own feelings without the input of others. Extroverted feeling requires social interaction to stay fulfilled, more so than any other function. People who lead with Fe are highly reactive and sensitive to the feelings of others. They seek out social interaction relentlessly, as they feel the happiest and most alive when they are in the company of loved ones. They seek to maintain harmony and keep the peace at all costs – they cannot fully enjoy themselves unless the people around them are healthy, happy and comfortable. Although they do have personal moral standards, they usually try to create harmony and peace, even if that means sacrificing a part of their individuality. Warning! People who use Fe, will not feel healthy and happy, until everyone they care about is happy. If you see someone feeling sad by keeping harmony, it means they are not Fe. Maybe they are Fi. Fe is happy when everyone is happy. Fi wants everyone to be happy, but only if it is happy first.

Example: Five friends plan to go out for food and everyone wants to eat pizza except from a Fe user who wants Italian. The Fe user probably won’t tell what they really want to eat and they will agree with others on pizza, since they don’t want to ruin the atmosphere. This is what makes them happy, so they won’t feel sad for not eating pizza.

Extroverted Thinking (Te):

Te seeks to impose order on the external environment as efficiently and logically as possible. It’s about doing what you know and using your knowledge and information. It values productivity above all else and is a results-based, action-oriented function. Te wants to see results, it doesn’t care about the process or the system behind it. It naturally implements concrete plans for accomplishing goals and is quick to make decisions. People who lead with extroverted thinking are frank, decisive, calm, ambitious and highly productive in every capacity. They are natural leaders, goal-oriented in the workplace as they are quick to take charge and give orders. Extroverted thinkers may come across as bossy, hard, or opinionated to those who lack the function, but in reality they are simply pointing out what they believe to be the most efficient course of action for everyone involved. Te will ask “how the system works and what else can be done?” while Ti will ask “why the system works that way and what else is happening behind it?”. Te will not learn something they think it’s not useful or something that will not help them achieve.

Example: Te is given a program about a project that must be done. The schedule is like: First, we need to do x. After, we should tell y to do z so after these and these courses of action, the result should be like this. Te will probably not care about the process. They will overlook it and they will keep in mind just the result of the project. They will work the way they want in order to logically achieve their final goal, without showing importance on the process and the schedule.

Introverted Thinking (Ti):

Ti is an information-gathering function that seeks to form a framework for how and why the world works on a concrete, tangible level. It is adept at understanding systems and naturally notices inconsistencies within them. Ti seeks a thorough understanding of how things work as a whole. It wants to deconstruct things to look at the individual parts and see how things function together. Ti will also ask why, when etc. It cares about the process of things and not so much about the result. They cannot be satisfied with just a small answer or just what the goal is. They want to know everything about the process, about the idea behind it. They are logical, systematic and objective to a fault. Introverted thinkers will learn something for knowledge’s sake. It doesn’t matter if they will never use the information. They just want to know. Even if it’s useless. They ask a lot of questions about everything they think it’s questionable. They enjoy finding “short-cuts” that increase efficiency within a given system. Ti users are often heavily introverted, as they take a great deal of time to understand how things work before they feel comfortable sharing or acting on their knowledge. They prefer not talking about what they have in mind and they hate it when others think out loud.

Example: Ti is given a mathematical exercise which goes like: A=E. Ti will be annoyed by the exercise and the person that created it. That’s because Ti wants to see all the process. It doesn’t care that A equals E. They want to know the whole action. So they correct the exercise and they make it look like: A=B, B=C, C=D, D=E, so A=E.

Hope this helps ☺

Harry Potter and the Cursed Child Recap: Part Two -- 25/05/17

Note: In case anyone’s interested, just this part alone is my longest ever recap. In total, both parts of this recap reach almost 21,000 words. I hope this is enough detail for you all! 

I’m not going to lie. After Wednesday night I felt really weird. Not unhappy, just odd. On Wednesday it felt like I was going to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child, but then it was just so different on Wednesday night, and there were so many things that I was apprehensive about for Part Two, that I simply didn’t know what to expect yesterday.

It’s weird sitting in a familiar theatre, about to watch a play with a script you know back to front, and characters you know inside out, and feel that you have no idea what is about to happen, or what to expect. I was nervous, a little apprehensive, and desperately in need of a hug, which @aberorca kindly provided.

But then it began, and all my fears and worries were allayed. I feel so full of joy and excitement right now. That was really great, and some of the scenes are already my favourite versions of those scenes.

If this is what an ass kicking from John Tiffany does for people, then maybe we all need one of those in our lives. It seems to inspire great things.

I’m going to start by reassessing some of the characters, and giving some impression of the characters we only saw in Part Two. Then we’ll get down to the detail (of which I’m not sure how much there’ll be, because my brain spent most of the show screaming with euphoric relief).


David is quite literally everything you want in a Snape. He was quiet in a menacing way, full of suppressed emotion, with just the right touch of humour. I enjoyed everything about his performance.


James Phoon’s Craig might be the most adorable thing I’ve ever seen. He sounds terrifyingly similar to Jeremy in some scenes (which I don’t think is deliberate), and he was just pretty great.


Rupert looks so young as Cedric, but he still exudes the same heroic goodness that Milligan always did. He really blew me away in the few seconds he had. It was such a touching scene.


You think you’ve seen all there is to Annabel’s Delphi, but then she captures the boys and attains her full power, and she reaches maximum creep mode. This Delphi is Bellatrix all over: laughing hysterically at the boys’ pain, revelling in mayhem, actually licking her lips when she sees she’s causing fear, like she loves the taste of it. She’s brutal and awful and gross.


This Draco is impressive and powerful, but so broken and afraid. He does things and hates himself for them. He’s terrified of the possibility of sending himself, and more importantly his son, back to Voldemort’s world. His grief seems to ache. He’s become such a good man. And as well as the weight of the serious moments, he’s incredibly funny too.


Sweet, funny, full of pain just like his father, but somehow still in love the world around him. He absolutely adores his dad, and he loves his best friend. He wouldn’t hurt a fly and he’s disgusted by the idea that any version of himself could cause pain.


Harry is so open to Albus, so warm towards him, so intent to listen. When he’s told to ‘be honest to those you love, show them your pain’ he really takes it to heart. He’s heartbroken with guilt over the people who’ve died on his behalf. I loved the tone that Jamie brought to him in this act.


I’m going to be honest, I’m still not entirely sure who Albus is, but in a really exciting way. In Part Two there were flashes of a genuinely funny, awkward, ridiculous Albus. An Albus who desperately cares about the people around him. An Albus who adores his best friend and his father. An Albus who could be so many things. Losing the establishing half of Albus’s character makes it difficult to assess, but I’m so excited by the possibility of Theo’s Albus, and I’m jealous of anyone who gets to see him do a really good Part One in the next month, cause I think that’s where you’ll find the heart of him.

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anythingbutregular2  asked:

I really like your rants! They point out things I either missed and/or it's been so long that I don't remember it accurately. While I love your art, reading your ideas is just as refreshing! On that note, what is your opinion of spottedleaf (I haven't read spottedleafs wish but apparently it was really really bad)?

Thank you, I’m really happy to hear that. ^^ I admit, I do get nervous, like sometimes after making a rant I’m so “now I’m going to get hate, now I’m going to get hate” I’m just a little paranoid like that, I’ve always hated the thought of saddening anyone, hehe. So getting this sort of feedback is like a gift. 

As for Spottedleaf… oh dear. I have a lot of opinions on Spotty, and not all very good. I have -not- read Spottedleaf’s Heart, and I have no plans of ever touching it either, first of all because I want to spare myself the pain, and because I do not wish to read such a mangled piece of canon. Secondly, as an adult I am astonished the book was even published, given that its plot was very much not child-friendly, and should never have been accepted by HarperCollins in the first place. I could go on but this deserves its own rant so I’ll lay off for a moment. 

But ahem, I digress. Back to Spottedleaf herself. My opinion on her is about as parted as it is with Ashfur’s. 

… I’m gonna add a keeping reading link here cuz this turned into a real sermon. uwu;

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So Shinra talks in volume 13 about how Izaya’s heart is more fragile than anybody else’s and how he is actually more human than anybody else. By the anime appearance, I could say, “he is just a cold-hearted manipulative monster”, and that that is all there is to it. But, in volume 9, he actually punches a telephone pole to the point of it swelling up at thought of his “only ‘friend’ by normal human standards(Shinra)” being mad at him.

Which means it’s probably subconscious, what Izaya does and the way he lives.

Furthermore, Izaya actually isn’t a sadist. He just thoroughly enjoys being a part of both the good and bad actions of humanity.

By definition, he is an anti-hero and just happens to support all humans in their (with reason) decisions. My therapist says that Izaya could be diagnosed as having Schizoid Personality disorder after I explained his character.

The fact is, unlike the anime, the novel’ narrator(AKA the creater himself) confirms that Shinra is Izaya’s only friend and also the first one to see through him to his true nature(just as he saw through Celty, Aoba, Shizuo, and many others, (and Izaya even says himself, “Damn him” when Manami tells him that she had talked to Shinra instead of teasing her or averting the conversation as you would expect him to do)).

People say that there is nothing to like about Izaya, but the fact is… If you truly go to him as a friend with no other alternative manipulative motives, and you accept him, not to change him, you’ll be surprised by the length he’ll actually go. Two quotes about Izaya that are proven to be a fact in the novels are by Shinra and Kadota.

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Why implementing Berseria in ToZX was a bad decision

When I first saw the opening of Tales of Zestiria the X, the first question I asked was: “Who the heck is she?!”

Some time after that, I learned that the mysterious woman who appeared in the opening was Velvet Crowe, the protagonist of the next Tales of game “Tales of Berseria”, which took place before the events of Zestiria.

But wait, you may ask, why was she in the opening of Zestiria anime? She hadn’t appeared in the game!

And that’s a good question. A question that even the creators of ToZX may not know the answer for, because as for now this whole situation is an absolute mess.

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An Even Season WOULD NOT be a repeat of season 3 and heres why

Okay so I don’t know, some of you guys who have been following my blog for a while now, might have picked up that I’m just ??? not an angry person. I like naming every single fly I see and leaving messages like “be happy” and “What’s a pigs favourite pizza? MUDLOVERS!” on the fogged up mirror after having a shower… but like recently my sister told me something that made me 


I was telling her for the millionth time how much I love Even and I couldn’t deal with how much I wanted and needed an Even season and get this, 

THIS is what she said to me: (note: please read the following in a very high pitched annoying voice that you would give someone you dislike when retelling stories)  “ew omg noooo i would hate that! omg that would suck so much and make me so annoyed.” 

Me, getting super confused and just feeling so attacked: “um what? why? what?” 

Little smelly sister: “Because omg we’ve already had evaks story! That would be so silly to do it again! it will just be season 3 all over again. Would be SO BORING”

Okay I know, I was so angry I just….couldn’t think straight and then it made me think: Did other people feel this way? Do people actually think an Even season would be an “evak” season and not a god damn Even season???? 

Because listen, that is bullshit and heres why:

1. Last season was not about Evak. 

Sure it was part of the storyline, Isak falling in love with a boy that made him see the world differently and face all of the insecurities and issues he has been repressing since season 1.

- Religion, 

- Mental illness, 

- Knowing that it’s okay to ask for help, 

- Being true to yourself, 

- Learning to accept yourself and 

- To not let fear of an uncertain future stop you from truly living life. 

Those were all of the things season 3 was about and I think it is an insult to Julie and Isak, to say that his story was just about his relationship? No. Season 3 was so much more and it was about Isak

2. Even is more than a love interest. 

oh my gosh, Even, Even, Even. This character proved to be so much more than I initially thought, the first time I laid eyes on him. This boy is amazing. He is 19 years old yet he has been through so much more than we can even imagine. He is kind, charismatic, creative, he draws silly pictures, makes movies that no one but Even himself could think of. He loves so much and smiles so bright, yet at the same time he is dealing with a serious illness that could easily control his entire life, yet ??? he is at school, trying to take charge and give himself a fulfilling happy life despite the illness that hangs over his head and tells him that he doesn’t deserve that, that he isn’t worth it. There is so much essence and potential to his character that, I just cannot see him as being just a love interest. he truly deserves to have his story told but it’s more than that…

3. His story NEEDS to be told. 

Most of my life I have spent so much time feeling things that i don’t understand and that i’m even ashamed of for feeling. How many times have you thought to yourself “no one understands me” “I am alone” How many times have you felt like no one in the entire world could possibly feel or make sense of the things you feel? 

The thing is we all have “the brain is alone” feelings but the worse part is feeling too ashamed to talk about it and believing that you are alone in how you feel. Having an Even season not only means that we have someone to represent everything that we feel and can’t put into words, someone who we can relate to and show us that if they can live a life with an illness and not let it take control, then, maybe we can too…

But it also gives a chance for people who don’t quite understand mental illness, to literally be put into the mind of someone who does and live the life of a person with bipolar. 

I can’t even fathom how brilliant that would be. Not just for people who need someone to show them they aren’t alone and how they too can fight back and be worthy of a happy life despite the illness that tells them they aren’t, but also for the people who are confused about mental illness and would like to learn more. Even can both educate, and relate to us all. 

and oh my gosh can you just imagine how brilliant that would be? Not only will we all be brought together but for once, we can talk about the things we feel and go through, without feeling ashamed and silly for feeling it. 

Because if Even Bech Næsheim, the most beautiful, sweet and charismatic guy on earth feels like this, then what is there to be ashamed of? What is there to hide? Maybe Even’s season can finally make us feel safe enough to talk about it, safe enough to not be alone. 

I’m leaving the BBC Sherlock fandom

(Please read this while listening to Eurus’s theme for emotional effect)

Don’t get me wrong. I LOVE BBC SHERLOCK. I admired the clever writing, the dry humor, the way I saw how Sherlock thinks, the time when I felt intelligent, and last, but not the least, especially, the subtext Yes, the TJLC subtext gets me back all the time. All those Johnlock videos on youtube, Rebs TJLC explained series, TJLC on tumblr, on instagram, and pinterest. All were believers.

However, I just can’ deal with this bullshit anymore. Not even after I gave 1/29 a chance and put a deerstalker-shaped tinfoil hat on and donned it for two weeks. Most especially, after the TFP put up their middle fingers to our faces and made up a parody of their own show. A rip off. A James Bond/Shutter Island/Saw/The Ring show. And REALLY, REALLY AFTER THIS WHOLE BBC COMPLAINTS TEAM WAS BEING RUDE. I had hopes, excitement, and motivation to keep me going for 5 years after first seeing Sherlock. I am not part of the LGBT+ community, but I identified myself through Sherlock, I saw who I was, I found resemblance in my being/personality through him. Not wholly, but there 90% of the circumstances/things he did were the things/tasks/attitutde/personality I actually sported in real life. Believe me or not, this is not the time to debate. 

After TFP, I was so hopeful of coming fourth episode. It was just too fucky, too shitty, to be the last episode. However, after Moftiss mentioning the “This was never a love story” thing, and “Perhaps we took the joke too far”, I knew this show is already toxic for me. But no, I pushed. and pushed for a fourth episode. I made a complaint to the BBC one after Jan 15, TFP. It was about queerbaiting, about the plot holes, about the rape, about the weapons used in TFP, about the representation of “gay baddies” on the show. And all I got was the template answer of BBC. If you haven’t seen it, it’s here. 

Then, I saw Sue’s tweet, saying that there was no fourth episode, and Gatiss’s tweet saying “RIP” to a fan who said that she/he would die if there was no canon johnlock. There, I did not believe that yet. But now, one day before 1/29, I lost all my hope. All my hope for Martin’s statement “This is the gayest show”, Benedict’s statement on “Love conquers all”, BBC Three’s tweet on “Sherlock back and he’s in love. But with who”, Luke’s (The Sherlock reacts guy on youtube) statement on “The greatest love story never told” and “a fourth episode? That’s silly”, Moftiss’s statement on “This is the story we want to tell”. BBC’s statement on “Groundbreaking and making television history”. I’m all done with that. These were all lies. They feed on false hopes. Tomorrow is already 1/29, the johnlock anniversary. And we’re getting nothing. All those metas, speculations, analyses, they were really great. And I really appreciate all of those because they made me have hope, and made me believe in johnlock, once more. I want to thank all the meta - writers and those who made predictions based on the subtext and clues in the show. I CANNOT EXPRESS MY GRATITUDE ENOUGH FOR ALL OF YOU. You made me realize that there was still hope for the PLOT, and hope for the show to be saved. Because TFP just really killed the whole series. All that build-up, for SEVEN FRICKING YEARS, just to have an ugly, blown-up, messed, fucked-up ending.

The articles posted by the independent, vox, nerdist, I agree with them. All those gaping plotholes, and why the story is not good. It is better compared with other TV Series, but for character development, NAH. Then considering how rude some of those who comprise of the Sherlock team in answering the fans’ questions on twitter, it made me question this show. Yes, what would you do with a show which teaches you important values such as humanity, family, trust, bonds, friendship, valuing of life, when they won’t even demonstrate it to us? The fans were asking questions because they were searching for answers. They were curious. We were. We wanted a closure. Something that would say that this is really the END. No series 5, no loose threads, no cliffhangers, no possibility of episode 4. So we turned to them for answers for the questions we had regarding the show. I’m not one of those who tweeted/messaged them on twitter, but I saw how they reacted to the fans. That was just rude. Well, I’m sorry we tried fixing the mess you made in series 4??!?!!? I never asked/wondered why this show got the lowest ratings in rotten tomatoes compared to the past 3 seasons. We’re all about the cases, not the relationships. The relationships/character development will work out in the background (TJLC included of course, Molly’s becoming stronger character, esp). But season 4 was just all over the place. I thought then, that all these were illogical if it would not lead us to another episode to answer for all of these. We only got logic to help us. So far, nothing’s been confirmed. I’m losing hope. I lost hope. All we got is that stupid email. 

We were just seeking for closure, for understanding, for someone to comfort us during these difficult times, for someone to take our side from the BBC Sherlock team. No one dared to take our side. The show’s MOST LOYAL FANS were hurt, the LGBT fans community were hurt, and they would not even just say that they apologize. “I like to play with the homoeroticity between Holmes and Watson” just kept replaying in my mind. THAT’S STRAIGHT UP QUEERBAITING. “Who you really are doesn’t matter” THIS IS THE MOST HURTFUL THING EVER. What was the point of the whole TFP if it was about Sherlock discovering about his identity, his best friend, and his sister? What was the point of TAB, if it was not for equality? I’m sorry for all those who were offended, including me. I took the bait, I was definitely sure of it. I was friends with many people who are fans of the show. And hurt? No one can tell you when, how, or why you got hurt. It is a feeling. Every one can say that they are hurt, and they are allowed to express that. Hate comes after the hurt. It’s the anger inside that drives you towards hate. I love this show, indeed, but I had hated this season for many reasons. 

I’m not going to discuss the reasons here, instead, I’m just going to put my feelings through gifs (disclaimer: i don’t own the gifs) while I have been in this journey with you, fellow Sherlockians. 

Me while watching Series 4:

My family members and friends to me after watching TFP:

One-two days after Jan.15. I thought that was really it. No means of saving TFP and the mess that was eps 1 -2 of Series 4

Then I saw the TFHC (tinfoil hat club/tinfoil hat conspiracy) on tumblr and started to believe again:

Yes, that must be it. Apple Tree Yard is fricking fake!!!! I outsmarted this strategy of Moftiss!! HAH! Now give me the fourth episode!!!! “THE LOST SPECIAL”, YES, THAT ONE! 

And that Apple Tree Yard is definitely a FAKE SHOW. I waited for ATY like this: 

I was looking for answers. What made Sherlock so groundbreaking then? Making history? Amanda’s answer: Sian Brooke’s acting of different characters. Surely, this was done in other films/shows. So… now what if this ATY was a real show?

EVERYTHING JUST MADE PERFECT SENSE!!!!1/22 or 1/29 FIT THE PUZZLE! JOHN’S DREAM. CHEKHOV’S GUN, 3 GARRIDEB-CLIFFHANGERS, EVERYTHING! We were trying to make sense of everything that was nonsensical in TFP. It was clever, good. It was what we made of TFP.

But at least we still got 1/29, right? After 1/22 was a failed attempt of Moriarty hacking into the BBC? (because he has been hacking Picadilly circus, right?)

The bomb being the heart, and the analyses on TEH connections and all…

But then. One day before 1/29, everything just fell apart. I just couldn’t believe that BBC’s PR was not so …. good at doing their job??? PR? I mean…. 

That’s when I thought that this is ACTUALLY THE SHOW’S REICHENBACH. Probably, some higher ups in the Beebs requested this? Forced Moftiss to write something else? Make a parody? Cause they built this on something, definitely. 

Me right now:

I mean, why would they do something like this? They were award-winning writers, actors, production team, for fucking Pete’s sakes. Why won’t they just do it?? ??? Somebody will do a johnlock adaptation in the future (and you might just be one of them)

I wish I hadn’t believed in all their lies. Hadn’t read much into subtext. Hadn’t invested ALL MY FEELINGS, AND EMOTIONS INTO THIS SHOW. JUST TO BE THROWN AWAY. 

Yes, they told us all the fucking time. But still, the show speaks for itself. I don’t need anyone telling me that it’s not a love story when clearly, the show says it is!!!!! I wish I did not love this show. This show disgusts me. It disappoints me. I cared so much.

I think I’m going crazy. I dream about the show because of how often I spend my waking hours reading fanfics, metas, viewing drawings, art, rewatching and rewatching and rewatching and  rewatching and  rewatching and rewatching and  rewatching and rewatching this HELLA SHOW. 


Now, I only have my own to save. Not even BBC would take action and look into the mess they have made. Stop looking for closures, people. Stop looking for answers. You’ll never get one. 



So here I am now, please help me.

Just. I dont know what i even want. 

I once thought that you were the best, most clever show I have watched. I was wrong. I was played for a fool. Trick. I gave you everything, BBC SHERLOCK, my time, talent, treasure, EVERY FUCKING THING, YOU TOOK ME FOR GRANTED.

SO, I’M SORRY SHERLOCK FANDOM. I’M JUST DONE. SORRY I LEFT YOU ALL. it was for my mental well-being. i’m sorry i had to leave you during this crisis. during these unfortunate times. I just can’t take it anymore.

I’m not leaving Sherlock. The story is still in my heart. I have read the original books, watched too many adaptations of Holmes and Watson for it not be part of me. It is part of me now. I’m just leaving BBC shithole Sherlock. And this will be me reading and telling the story to my grandchildren in the future. 


anonymous asked:

could you compile a guide to the smiths, please?

The Band

Johnny Marr

  • John Martin Maher, aka the Angel of Radness
  • guitarist
  • legally changed his birth name to Johnny Marr so it would be a pun on the French phrase j’en ai marre (i’m fed up)
  • the most precious, the most pure, the most rad of all the cinnamon rolls that ever have been or ever will be, the most unproblematic of all faves
  • im not even kidding he has never done anything terrible in his life you will find no reciepts, everyone loves him, no one has ever said a bad word about him 
  • the greatest guitarist of his generation, quite literally changed the face of british pop and rock, entirely possible that without him there would be no such thing as indie or alternative music today
  • married to the wondrous Angie (they left school together when they were 15 and have been together ever since). they have two grown up kids and a dog called Riff
  • hes super healthy he doesnt do drugs or smoke or drink AND he’s a vegan and runs like five miles a day
  • he’s fifty one and wears eyeliner and silver nail varnish what does one even say to that
  • the B) emoji is based on johnny marr
  • has an honourary doctorate from salford university so technically he’s Dr. Marr
  • you would think that he is too indie pop 4 u but he has a secret life as a FUNK MASTER, his first band was named FREAK PARTY and he’s bffs with The Nile Rogers and named his son after him (exhibit a: johnny gets down and funky with chic)
  • oh ye i made eye contact with him at a gig and he winked at me
  • sorry this is long and personal but i love my Guitar Dad


  • Stephen Patrick Morrissey, known commonly as just Morrissey, but also as Moz, Mozzer, Misery Mozzery, and Steve
  • a twat
  • the word ‘problematic’ was invented specifically for morrissey
  • im just gonna get the bad stuff out the way to start with: has said a bunch of awful racist/misogynistic things, yes he gets taken out of context, no they cannot be justified or excused, he shouldnt say them and it pains my heart to think of it bc everything else he says is so good and wonderful how are they the same man
  • moving on
  • likes: manchester, tea, cats, oscar wilde, sixties girl groups, james dean, bikes, flowers, the new york dolls, animals, johnny marr, being alone
  • dislikes: manchester, margaret thatcher, robert smith, the monarchy, the meat industry, people who eat meat, people in general, being alive
  • has very few friendships or relationships and just sort of lives alone with his cats
  • a fan once wrote to him and told him she felt self concious wearing her hearing aid to a gig and after that he used to wear hearing aids onstage :)
  • other things he liked to do onstage: swing around large bunches of flowers and stuff them in his arse pocket, lie on the floor, hug fans (it became a problem), write things on his chest and rip off his shirt to reveal the message, yodel
  • “I have always personally been starved of romance. However, in 1982 someone stepped on my foot in Woolworths. That’s about the closest I’ve got.”
  • he used to say he was asexual in the eighties and then said he wasnt and was only celibate and most recently said he was “humansexual” (”attracted to human beings - but not many”) but im woefully uninformed on this topic someone else can help you perhaps before i put my foot in it and say the wrong thing
  • always really really sweet to his fans he used to always respond to fanmail in the eighties and its just? really sweet? i mean he also hates all humanity so its a weird dichotomy but
  • when he published his biography in 2013 is was entitled “Autobiography” and published on release by penguin classics
  • honestly its a real/love hate thing? either you despise every hair in his quiff or you would die for him theres no inbetween

Andy Rourke

  • Andrew Rourke
  • bassist
  • oh andy
  • sweet sweet precious andy
  • childhood friend of johnny marr, left school with johnny and angie, was in Freak Party with johnny
  • honestly just! the most beautiful
  • oh yeah he had a daughter at nineteen so all those photos of andy in the smiths are photos of an Actual Father, a bona fide Hot Dad
  • what else is there to say i love andy

Mike Joyce

  • drummer
  • aka “””Milk Juice””” (thats a tumblr fandom thing tho dont take that into the real world)
  • oh wait someone already did
  • there’s a bit of bitterness here bc he sued moz and marr in 1996 for a 25% share of the smiths royalties (expect lots of 25% jokes)
  • please dont hate him tho hes a good man and an excellent drummer
  • morrissey wishes him “the very worst for the rest of his life”
  • he used to be in a punk band its very  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Craig Gannon

  • the hidden fifth smith not so many people know about him
  • in 1986 andy was fired from the smiths (for his drug use i think), legend says that he woke up one morning to find a postcard from morrissey on the windscreen of his car which said “You have left The Smiths” (morrissey denies this but andy doesnt and honestly i believe andy over moz) (also im very sketchy on the details so dont eat me)
  • he was gone for two weeks and in the meantime craig gannon took over on bass, but when andy came back he stayed on as rythym guitarist and played on a few tracks and toured with them
  • a good and beautiful guy honestly (tho i think he also sued for royalties so :/)
  • here he is (to the left of morrissey)

sorry abt the pic they just look really good here and i want to cry

  • the smiths formed in manchester in 1982 when johnny marr knocked on morrisseys front door and pressed his face to the glass. please read this article abt the whole thing i cry
  • morrissey descibes their meeting. im fine :) (thats me screamin with my mouth closed)
  • what can i say? johnny and moz were phenomenal together they wrote so many good songs (they wrote ‘half a person’ in four and a half minutes! FOUR AND A HALF MINUTES!)
  • He was different with me than he was with everybody else. I couldn’t have given my music to anybody - anybody else, and he appreciated it more, because he just fell in love with it, and that went on all the way through the band. In many ways he was my biggest fan really.” - Johnny Marr
  • but they were only together for five years :( johnny and morrissey fell out and everything got really stressful and. yeah ill just give some quotes bc im sad
  • “One night we had a conversation and he said “ I think it’s about time and I’ve had enough” and I was saying “Yes I understand” but I really didn’t mean it I really didn’t think he’d completely pull the plug.” - Morrissey
  • “Morrissey asked me to do a farewell gig at one point, but I said no. It just seemed like a bad idea… We actually got together a few times [afterwards]. We went for a walk in the country, we went out to dinner one night, and later we just went for a long drive. It was really good to see each other away from any scenes. Like everyone, in private we’re quite different characters. I know the real Morrissey and he knows the real me.” - Johnny Marr
  • “I think Johnny understood Morrissey more than anyone else in the world… It was almost illogical, the gulf that was coming between Johnny and Morrissey, and you couldn’t put it down to any one thing. Again, it was almost like Morrissey living out his doomed fantasies. I think at some point one of them thought, “I can’t do this. You’re saying you want to be on in this stuff but when I move towards you, you move away. Or vice versa. There’s no rhythm between us.” Whereas before, they were finishing each other’s sentences.” - Grant Showbiz (sound engineer)
  • and then johnny wrote moz this letter which he kept and kept and printed in his autobio in 2013 more than 25 years later :) :)) :))))))

The Albums

The Smiths

  • their first album and one dear to my heart
  • recieves a lot of criticism from fans and the band bc of the mess surrounding production and the poor sound quality but! who cares its beautiful
  • caused quite a stir when it came out bc it was so subversive and unapologetically Not About Hetero Romance so the press were scratching their heads a lot
  • the first single had this cover and andy talks about the mortification he felt trying to show his dad his bands first single can u imagine
  • tbh the subject matter is very weird and ambiguous and a bit morbid (theres a song about the moors murders for example) but its also very sweet and funny. typical smiths tbh
  • the cover is a still from an Andy Warhol film called ‘Flesh’ but morrissey wrote the album notes as CULLED FROM ANDY WARHOLS FLESH which sounds a lot more ominous

Hatful of Hollow

  • a compilation album
  • unhappy with the quality of The Smiths the band decided to put out a compilation early on
  • essential listening tbh - u will learn soon enough that all smiths compilations are necessary
  • oh yeah some smiths records had a secret etched message from morrissey. on this album: THE IMPOTENCE OF ERNEST/IAN (ian was johnnys brother)

Meat Is Murder

  • the album that inspired a generation of vegetarians
  • ITS SO GOOD i cant ever stop listening to it tbh
  • so so many classic tracks
  • a bit more stridently political (vegetarianism, jabs at the monarchy and english school system, railing against the injustices of corporal punishment)

The Queen Is Dead

  • considered by many to be their finest album (not by the band tho they think strangeways is the best)
  • every single track on here is so sublimley good how do you even articulate your feelings towards i know its over or frankly mr shankly or some girls are bigger than others WHAT DO I SAY

The World Won’t Listen

  • personally this is my favourite smiths compilation altho its often overlooked bc most of the tracks appear elsewhere
  • HOWEVER it contains stretch out and wait and money changes everything so its like. objectively the best (fight me irl)

Louder Than Bombs

  • the better known american compilation album
  • REALLY REALLY ESSENTIAL SONGS its so good i love it

Strangeways, Here We Come

  • the last studio album :(
  • technically and musically their best its really ~experimental~ and different (for them)
  • Morrissey -  “We say [that it’s our best album] quite often. At the same time. In our sleep. But in different beds.”
  • features moz on piano in death of a disco dancer
  • title refers to strangeways prison in manchester
  • im gona weep if ur gonna go this is the way to do it
  • secret etching: GUY FAWKES WAS A GENIUS


  • the posthumous live album
  • released as a contractual obligation so mozzer had to pick all the tracks by himself after they’d broken up :(
  • he wanted to call it The Smiths In Heat but the label wouldn’t let him
  • contains the instrumental track The Draize Train and a really neat Marie’s The Name (Of His Latest Flame)/Rusholme Ruffians mashup
  • feat. craig gannon on guitar
  • anyway its really good
  • secret etching: PEEPHOLISM

Other Projects

Morrissey’s Solo Career

  • moz went solo after the smiths broke up and hes been massivley successful
  • the sideburns got more intense and he gradually got grumpier and grumpier
  • idk this is just my opinion but i feel that solo moz is a very different creature to smiths moz? sort of. less tender and gentle? there’s a line from i know its over that says “its so easy to laugh/its so easy to hate/it takes strength to be gentle and kind” and i feel maybe solo moz stopped caring about that so much. not that he was incapable of it -theres a lot of heartbreakingly good stuff he wrote as a solo artist- but i feel he tends more towards sarcasm and polemic than the dry humor he had in the smiths
  • THAT BEING SAID i love solo moz’s stuff there’s some glorious stuff in here so to all the angry asks im gonna recieve i say its just my opinion please dont eat me alive
  • hes released 10 studio albums as a solo artist; Viva Hate, Kill Uncle, Your Arsenal, Vauxhall And I, Southpaw Grammar, Maladjusted, You Are The Quarry, Ringleader Of The Tormentors, Years Of Refusal, and World Peace Is None Of Your Business
  • hours of entertainment can be gleaned from merely perusing the titles of solo morrissey tracks, do yourself a favour and have a look


  • after he left the smiths johnny formed an ALTERNATIVE DANCE SUPERGROUP with New Order frontman Bernard Sumner and occasionally with Neil Tennant of the Pet Shop Boys
  • its pretty much the greatest thing that ever happened to me its the perfect intesection of every one of my interests
  • three albums; Electronic, Raise The Pressure, Twisted Tenderness
  • they never officially dissolved things but they havent really been active since 1999 so

Johnny’s Other Projects

johnny is a massively prolific musician and has collaborated with almost everyone on the planet, including but not limited to:

  • paul mc cartney
  • the pretenders
  • the the
  • bryan ferry
  • billy bragg
  • kirsty mccoll
  • talking heads
  • beck
  • oasis
  • then he had a sort of band called Johnny Marr + The Healers and they had one album (Boomslang)
  • and then he was the guitarist for Modest Mouse for three years
  • and then he was The Cribs guitarist
  • helped hans zimmer with the soundtrack for inception and amazing spider-man 2, is working on something else with him atm i think
  • then in 2013 he went solo! he sang on his own album! everyone died bc who knew that Guitar Dad had such a beautiful voice!
  • his two solo albums are The Messenger and Playland
  • and then he played on Noel Gallagher’s Ballad Of The Mighty I and we all died a bit more

More Fun Smiths Facts

Oh boy…

By the looks of it, people tend to get offended on the characters’ behalf. People don’t believe that characters would do a certain action, or react a certain way.

The question that I’m going to at least try to answer, is “Why?”

Why do we want these characters treated a certain way?

Replace “people” with “the rwde tag and it’s detractors” then you’d be right. And we already know why you get offended on people’s behalf: In the case of Yang, you get angry because you project your family problems onto Taiyang despite the fact that multiple people have attested that’s not what you say. For Sun, it’s because you think he’s being abusive and yet ignore Adam’s abuse. And for Jaune….bias and to bash the writers.

Whether it be because the fans share the same experiences as them, or personalities, or simply because we think they’re ‘cool,’ - We relate to them.

This is why I think that people get so passionate about how these characters are being treated. If we were in their shoes, we would want the same level of respect.

Here’s the thing: you AREN’T them! As much as you relate to characters, that doesn’t make you them at all. You don’t have their experiences, personality, family and expectations. You aren’t them so what is offensive to you may not be to them, as shown by the numerous people who have told you that their families operate in the same way Yang and Taiyang does.

If this is why I have a beef with Tai, I’d like to share my reasons:

We already know why you have a beef with him: He doesn’t operate how you wanted him to, you project problems he cannot control onto him and you get encouragement to do so. No matter what you say, this is the truth built through observation and evidence such as admitting that Taiyang might not be offensive but refusing to take that route despite all the evidence says you should or that you directly compare your mom to him, who you hate, or that your stance on him was neutral at first but has degraded as more and more people egg you on.

For starters, we (as the audience) never really knew anything about Taiyang Xiao Long. The only things that we knew about him were the fact that he shut down after Summer’s death, and that he has a tendency to send dogs through the mail.

- (incidentally, I believe that Zwei started as a therapy dog.)

Those were the only things we knew about Tai. So, having him say such things like “You lost some brain cells with that arm of yours.” Comes out of nowhere for us (or at least, me.) Again, Port and Oobleck wereshocked by this, and rightfully so. Had Yang not laughed, the professor and doctor would have been scaredSHITLESS about Yang’s mental health.

Okay, first off:

A. The argument that Yang’s laugh can’t be taken into account about Taiyang being offensive is akin to saying that Yang was a terrible sister in Volume 1 if you exclude that time she was running to save Ruby’s life: it’s cruical and important and taking it out just makes you wrong and not the writers.

B. You act as though Taiyang did nothing from the moment we saw him in Volume 3 to Volume 4, Episode 4 whereas we see on at least four different occasions he’s a kind and caring father and thus that is established. Just as well, you can draw conclusions on a person by who their friends and family are. Port is not above insulting his students to teach them a lesson and Oobleck can be harsh as well. And then we have Qrow and Yang herself. Qrow is Taiyang’s long time teammate, brother in law and probable partner and he himself has insulted and criticized his nieces before as well and Yang herself has ditched Ruby to be on her own the moment they got to Beacon. These four examples show that Taiyang keeps the company of harsh but well meaning individuals. And then there’s the fact that Rooster Teeth VA’s share quite a few aspects of their personality with their characters, especially RWBY characters as Monty outright designed quite a few of them around the VAs. And Taiyang’s voice is provided by Burnie Burns, a fatherly member of RT…and one of the biggest snarkers in history, to the point the Lenoard Church isn’t that far off. All of these things point to the fact that what taiyang did wasn’t OOC but actually expanding on his character, his company clues us in that he’s like that and his VA supports that.

So you don’t have a point to stand upon here.

Now, I’m not trying to demonize Tai here (though I know that Kob will try to find a way to make it sound like I did), but this means that the writers don’t exactly understand how PTSD works, or at least, they don’t know how to present it.

A. You aren’t trying to demonize Taiyang here, you’re trying to demeonize the writers. 

B. Tv Tropes disagrees as U have shown that in the meta folder of the Awesome tag for RWBY, an actual Amputee praised Rooster Teeth for their work. So, as a person without an amputated arm, you have less of a reason to find it offensive.

They skipped over many things. Like Yang’s reaction to having to take off the arm, or how to emphasize that it was her decision alone and not because she overheard Tai’s conversation with her teachers, or what events led her to trying to go out on her own.

So? I can’t think of anything to cut out of Volume 4 as everything was so abre bones due to the fact that RT can’t make any more episodes or longer episodes of RWBY without losing money. RWBY’s primary focus is to make money, that’s how companies work.And what you are demanding would lose them money. Not to mention the fact that they have to work with 3D animation which is harder than 2D and have a very limited amount of time, espeically when you take RWBY chibi into account,

Boiling it down to the little that we see comes off as the writers only fulfilling the barest minimum requirement of what to represent. At this point, I don’t care about the prosthetic (so don’t even bother with that tvtropes entry) what I care about, is how PTSD was represented.

Probably because that’s all they can do and afford in that time span. RWBY isn’t on a major network nor is it backed by a huge company nor is it the sole project of Rt nor does it even make money to watch it. \

And once again, people in the group you are being offended for are fine with it. Maybe not everyone but unless it’s a majority, that’s just human subjectivity.

Also: You said you’d be talking about Taiyang and now you’re ranting about teh writing. Not a great omen.

Again, there have been other shows that have handled PTSD with more respect than RWBY. If Legend of Korra can do it, then I’d expect that RWBY, a show that one of the writers seems to believe is better than LoK (if his comments are to be believed), should have no problem.

A. Legend Of Korra had a previously established background and basis, ahd more eperience behind it, more money behind it and more time behind it.

And B. Miles just said he personally didn’t like it. Not professionally, personally. Of course, I doubt you know the difference.

Who is at fault here?

Nobody wants to see their favorite character being mistreated by canon. It simply implies that the writers hate them. But, I do think that we shouldn’t blame the characters for how they treat other characters.

We should blame the writers.

No, you are to blame for expecting something when the signs say something else, for not accommodating to what the creator wants to do and not you, for expecting to judge RWBY by standards it can’t possibly meet and for ignoring facts just to bash the writers. 

PS: Then why did you make several posts bashing characters and not writers? This whole thing is just an excuse to bash what you want isn’t it?

So, this is me saying it right now: I blame miles and Kerry for how Yang’s PTSD was misrepresented.

No, you are to blame for not comprehending that what you expected out of Yang’s PTSD wasn’t exactly what you got and taking that personally.

They used the lowest common denominator (Giving her only one on-screen nightmare, and only one on-screen panic attack) to ‘represent’ what Yang is dealing with.

That or teh bare bones is all they can manage: not like Maya is expensive or that Rooster Teeth isn’t a major studio or anything.

Her nightmares are never brought up again. Her panic attack is never mentioned after she had it. Those symptoms just… disappear. Never to be seen or heard from again.

As is a lot of stuff in RWBY, even before Volume 4.

Also, Charon’s chairman wasn’t heard from again after Season 8, guess we’ll never see him aga-He’s the main antagonist for Seasons 11 - 13. Well now I feel foolish.

I mean, Armed and Ready pretty much left no doubt that Yang is fully recovered, and I don’t want that yet. I want to see her overcome her fears and trauma. I want to see her confront people who have abandoned her (both physically and emotionally (which means that Tai will also be called out here)). And I just want to see her being allowed to resent the people who basically left her.

And yet when someone points out the fact that Yang has left people and hurt people as well, you get defensive and said she’s allowed to do that stuff. You don’t want Yang to get angry, you want her to get angry on your behalf even if it doesn’t make sense for her.

We also have the problem of the disconnect between the writers, and the actors

*Narrows eyes* You asshole, you better not!

- This means that if they have any objections to what is being said and/or done, they don’t have any say in it. They can’t object because, they’ve already written it, and have likely already animated it.

Ad libbing or on teh spot editing, such as the Maidens.

And you can’t animate something before doing voice work: It never works. That’s just stupid and shows how little you know about Rt’s production.

Like I said before, only jaune gets that kind of interaction with the writers. If (for example) Kerry were to write a scene that makes jaune look OoC, miles would object to it. But if they were to do the same with Sun, then Michael has no time to object because they’ve already written it.

Or maybe the OOC moment was used to make the character look vunerable or emphasize an emotion, like Blake Slapping Sun like Arryn said. But she was forced into that by Miles right? Not like you have used it to defend yourself from criticism, thus showing you only want stuff to apply to others, not you.

If an actor/actress has a problem with how something is done, they would object to it, and the writer would adjust accordingly. But the RWBY actors/actresses don’t get that kind of treatment. Because miles, Kerry, and Grey are too arrogant about their writing abilities.

Or you have a massive hate goner for the writers as well as a bias against males so you inject flaws into stuff to bitch about. Considering Miles has publicly put himself down numerous times, the latter is probably correct.

People would give them less heat if they were to get a woman to help them write. Or perhaps even a Black person, so they could write the White Fang better.

@tumblezwei @ula-star and @rainbowloliofjustice are all females and they have no problem with the writing if female characters.

Liekwise, @rainbowloliofjustice and @mageknight14 are members of racial minorities and they find nothing offensive with the White Fang.

Meanwhile, you a White male is being offended. Says a lot.

Huh. Maybe that’s why everyone hates the male characters so much. There’s only one gender writing the show into the ground.

The uh higher ratings, better reviews, more positive feedback and actual women disagreeing with you says otherwise.

Between how jaune kept harassing Weiss in Volume 2, and how Pyrrha was only written in to basically be a martyr and jaune’s love interest, there seems to be a disconnect between how the show was marketed (Being a show that focuses on four independent female characters who kick some ass) and what we have been presented with (Jaune & RWBY)

If Jaune harrassed Weiss then Pyrrha harrassed Jaune so that argument is mute.

Hey uh Dudeblade, Kamina from tengen toppa Gurren Lagann’s on the phone. He said that all mentor characters are like that and that he got less character development than Pyrrha. He also said that he was based off a woman, is replaced by a woman and is succedded by a woman so sexism is mute here too,

Jaune and his 5:52 minutes of screentime and Yang’s 16:32 minutes.

Now, I am a straight male myself, so I don’t know what they’re going through exactly.

And yet you will claim to speak for them here. Meanwhile, the three bisexuals I work with have made a post detailing why 90% of what you are about to say is bullshit. (

Even I have more of a right to be offended since I’m some weird demi-heterosexual hybrid.

So… Anyone want to defend RT on how they made Weiss the “Morally Grey” character despite her being a blatant racist?

@mageknight14 and @rainbowloliofjustice , two African Americans, will as will I since Weiss had very good reason to think that way seeing as the only Fanaus she ever knew where the terrorists going around making her life hell. 

Seriously. Weiss being a racist is not a morally grey thing. The Schnee Dust Company using unfair faunus labor is not a “Morally Grey“ area.

And once again, you miss the point of teh character. Weiss dDOESN’T approve of this and she doesn’t like ebing associated with that because she disagrees with it. The only thing black and white here is your morality,

The writer’s attempts to actually write racism was pretty much racist. The only benefit I’m giving them is that they’re too incompetent to actually write it in the first place. - That’s it.

Considering the fact that you made an innocent implication that every single Fanaus was a member of the White Fang and thought like the White Fang, you are not one to talk.

Yeah, I have a bias towards the female characters, but the show was advertised as one that would be about four kickass female characters fighting monsters, and having an adventure.

And that excuses your bias how exactly? All this tells me that no matter what you say, you will always demand that the females get special treatment and shaft the males.

So why are they constantly getting the shaft?

Volume 4 was the first time that the collective male lines were larger than the first, and it was the second time that jaune had a spot in the top 3.

Okay, let’s modify the line post shall we?

Take away 75% of Jaune’s lines and give them to Ruby because tehy were all spent developing Ruby and making Ruby look better.

Erase Sun and Taiyang entirely and give their lines to Blake and Yang

Erase Ghira’s lines outside of the White Fang alone (no Blake) and he’ll have three or four.

Form where I am standing, the only male character who isn’t being used as a tool to build up a female character is Qrow and Iroonwood….Two males. Women aren’t getting the shaft and the previously mentioned ladies agree with me.

didn’t sign in to watch jaune talk to Ruby, I signed on to see Ruby get development.

Those two things go hand in hand: Most of Jaune’s talking is to develop Ruby. You got what you wnated, it just wasn’t exactly what you wanted so you’re bitching.

The girls shouldn’t need a male character to express for them. They should be strong, independent women.

Even if it’s in character for them? Like say, the character refuses to process things themselves so another character has to help them out. You essentially want the sexes to be completely separate from each other. 

Or you want them to essentially be islands of people. … You know, they use to tell me that too. It’s now called Toxic Masculinity. Guess Men and Women are completely and totally different huh? (Sarcasm)

But if you absolutely need to have a male character help out one of the leading female characters, Blake could have had that lesson that Sun gave her given to her from her father, and there would be no problem. - Mostly because Ghira didn’t abandon his team.

Except Ghira doesn’t know what Blake is doing, doesn’t know the circumstances and isn’t one of ehr friends so the sentiment is meaningless.

Also: Ghira abandoned the White Fang by your logic and let them become terrorists by your thought process so it still doesn’t work.

I was only annoyed by Sun in Volume 4. But Sun wandered into hate territory for me when Blake was about to open up to her father about what happened. It wasn’t even a good joke. It was the media equivalent to showing a starving man a sandwich, then throwing it out. It was just cruel. Who asked for that to happen? - Which fan actively wanted that to happen?

And who said she was going to open up so easily considering teh fact she had been running away each time? Who is to say that Ghira would have gotten through huh?

Also: I guess you wanted Illa to film the Belladonnas, go to Adam and have Adam come in and kill everyone jsut so you can shove Sun out of a scene huh?

Now, you may be wondering why I dislike the writers so much.

Because they aren’t catering to your every whim and they aren’t doing what you want exactly.

Well, it’s because they’re shit at taking criticism. But, also because their cultish defenders are constantly making excuses for them.

The only cult i see is the one that suicide baits people,manipulates the facts, sets unrealistic standards, attacks anyone who criticizes them and thinks they’re radical ideals are always right,

If these guys want to be considered a “Professional production company,” then they should also have to take the criticisms that come along with it.

That’s like judging a newly created video game studio to the standards set by Nintendo: You ask a much smaller,much elss experienced company to meet standards created by decades of experience. I don’t judge RWBY as I would Kill La Kill: Studio Trigger have far more advantages. I judge RWBY as I would TFS, even harsher considering RWBY is an original IP: As a well known, respectable but ultimately small project. And if things don’t go my way: tough, that’s who art works. And I’ll enjoy it regardless instead of drowning in my own bile.

If they’re an “Ammeter production company,” then they should need all the help that they can ge

But you’re noyt helping: You just want things to go your way so you try to bully people using mob mentality and big buzz words and use people’s prejuice against them. You are just being petty and hateful.

Point being, is that while I’m not going to pretend that the entirety of the rwde tag is constructive, criticism is criticism. Doesn’t matter how it’s put.

Okay then, i guess it’s perfectly right for me to say:

“You’re a piece of shit and everything you do is shit now either do exactly as I say or else”(Don’t actually endorse this)

I guess from now on I’ll keep you to the same standard I do RWBY…or you could push it and I’ll expect Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann levels of writing.

I can prove it, too. There was once a guy named Semmelweis. This guy was one of the leading pioneers in sanitation techniques. Even before Louie Pasteur. But, you may be thinking, “Why haven’t I heard of this guy before?”

- Because he was a dick. He was still right, but he was a dick who was rude to others.

And if Semmelweis was just trying to make people do as he told without any regard for what was right, only what HE thought was right then he deserved to be forgotten and he deserved to be wrong and ignored because he was just bending people to his will, just like you do.

Rwde tag is Semmelweis, or at least, some of it is. Rwde may be dicks, but rwde tag still has a point.

Said point is to terrorize, bully and manipulate people to get what they want through logical fallacies, mob mentality and slander.

Fuck the people who think that the rwde tag is full of hate.

The people in the rwde tag are just sick and tired of the mistakes that the writers could easily avoid by having more writers, or having an editor who isn’t afraid and is willing to be rough with them.

And yet you yourself will brush off any criticism towards you as blind devoution or blind hate or whatever, thus showing taht you just want things to go your way.

Well then, things are gonna go your way. *A sleek, metallic humanoid robot appears behind him, gear-like eyes glowing meancingly* Consider me your editor.

anonymous asked:

How do you feel about Nesta? There are a ton of posts saying how great she is, but I'm really conflicted about her, because I think we're all forgetting how she let her fourteen year old little sister go into a dangerous forest to provide for them. I mean, if a half starved fourteen year could learn how to hunt, whose to say Nesta couldn't try? On top of that, at the beginning of ACOTAR, it describes how Nesta was more of a burden anything.

I adore Nesta’s character I think she’s completely and utterly fascinating, complicated, contradictory and allowed. I already went on an emotional Nesta rant over here that touches on some of this and makes a good explanation of Nesta (well at least for me) so we’ll not repeat that but to address your questions (which are important and interesting) I will expand on them here okay: 

The hunting thing is interesting and I’d have an issue with it (and an issue with Nesta perhaps) if it was never addressed or mentioned again. But it is. And I think it’s tied into your second point about Nesta being a burden so I’m going to talk about these together. 

All of these characters have certain trigger points that make them angry or upset. For Feyre it’s her insecurity and her worth - she wants to matter, she wants to mean something to someone and this plays absolutely hugely into her falling for Tamlin, the way that relationship becomes abusive and then her recovery and why her relationship with Rhys. 

Feyre and Nesta are mentioned a few times as being quite similar. Feyre describes them as being two sides of the same coin and I think that’s true. And I think that one of the things that upsets Nesta is similar to the thing that upsets Feyre: “You’re a burden.” Feyre says that to her and that’s what makes her completely snap at her. I think Nesta hates that. 

I think Nesta is fiercely independent and it’s both a positive thing but it also has negative outcomes for her. I don’t think she likes having to rely on anyone else; I don’t think she likes feeling that she’s a burden; I think she wants to be self-sustaining; she doesn’t want to have to let anyone in, she doesn’t want to have to depend on anyone else for anything and Feyre makes her in a way?

 She depends on Feyre in the biggest way possible: for her very survival. And that makes her vulnerable. It gives her a weakness of sorts; she can’t look after herself and I think that she resents Feyre for that reason, for looking after her, for showing that she’s only human, that she has flaws and faults; that she can’t do everything herself; that you can’t go through life alone and treat everything like a battlefield - there are some wars you can’t win on your own. Feyre reminds her of that, of her humanity, of her weaknesses, of her inability to protect and care for those she loves. 

 “There are days,” Nesta said as she paused in front of the door to her room, across from mine, “when I want to ask him if he remembers the years he almost let us starve to death.”
“You spent every copper I could get, too,” I reminded her.
“I knew you could always get more. And if you couldn’t, then I wanted to see if he would ever try to do it himself, instead of carving those bits of wood. If he would actually go out and fight for us. I couldn’t take care of us, not the way you did. I hated you for that. But I hated him more. I still do.”

Not everyone is cut out to make it the way Feyre is. Feyre and Nesta are both fighters; they’re both survivors; they’ll both do whatever it takes to save the ones they love; that’s how they’re the same coin. But they’re two different sides of it. They have different strengths and different abilities. 

Nesta as the eldest was trained much more for a life at court for example. She was taught to read and write and look and listen, to calculate, to play people,to manipulate, to work situations to her advantage. But she wasn’t made to hunt and stalk through the woods; to teach herself how to do the things that Feyre did. Feyre has a wildness to her, a stubborn spirit; Nesta is calculating and cunning and clever. They have the same drives and the same desires but not the same skillsets.  

Elain, who Nesta would have killed and whored and stolen for.

Feyre is aware (and this is something she thinks in ACOTAR too; the lengths Nesta will go to to save Elain) of the things that Nesta will do. Feyre is aware; as Nesta herself is aware; that she doesn’t have the ability to go into the woods and hunt the way that Feyre did. She would have found other ways to keep Elain alive; she would have sold herself and destroyed herself for Elain but she couldn’t support her the way that Feyre did. And I don’t think anyone hates that fact more than Nesta herself does. 

 “What happened to Tomas Mandray?” I asked, the words strangled.
“I realized he wouldn’t have gone with me to save you from Prythian.”
And for her, with that raging, unrelenting heart, it would have been a line in the sand.

For Nesta I don’t think there’s anything more important to her than protecting those she cares about. She despises her father because he never did that; he never fought; he let her mother die and he would have let all of them die too without lifting a finger and Nesta couldn’t stand that. 

She didn’t fight for Feyre and didn’t stop her going into those woods because not only did she need it but Elain needed it. “I knew you could always get more” is actually quite an interesting line with regards to Feyre, who thought she was irrelevant and unimportant, who thought the others didn’t notice what she did for them and the role she played for them. 

Nesta did. Nesta saw and Nesta resented and she wasn’t fully capable of putting her feelings about it all into words but they were there. She saw Feyre’s value and her abilities and she didn’t try and coddle or mother her. Nesta is very direct, very blunt: there was no point in trying to stop Feyre hunting. They needed it. Nesta knew they needed it. Feyre knew they needed it. Nesta knew she couldn’t do it and had no choice but to let Feyre do it. So she did. 

Nesta would buy Elain time to run. Not my father, whom she resented with her entire steely heart. Not me, because Nesta had always known and hated that she and I were two sides of the same coin, and that I could fight my own battles. But Elain, the flower-grower, the gentle heart … Nesta would go down swinging for her.

Nesta will fight for Elain because Elain is the gentle heart, the one who she believes cannot fight the way that Feyre and Nesta do. Nesta and Feyre both fight for those who cannot fight for themselves and the people that they love. That’s what drove Feyre into that forest every day; it’s what would have driven Nesta to sell herself and it’s what would have stopped either of them from preventing the other if there was no other way. 

I think these sisters have an understanding of one another. I think they get each other. I think they’re actually very similar in a lot of ways and I think that’s why Feyre doesn’t hold this against Nesta. Especially not after that moment when she learns that Nesta hired a mercenary to take her to Prythian; Prythian, the land she hates and fears and resents; to the door of a beast who broke down her door and attempted to enslave her mind; through wolf territory she’d never set foot in in order to save Feyre. 

Nesta never stopped Feyre going into those woods when she was a child and Nesta never tried to do anything about it because Nesta knew she couldn’t. She couldn’t take over from Feyre and hunt the way she did (but if Feyre hadn’t been there I feel absolutely sure that Nesta would have found a way to help Elain; it’s just not one I particularly want to consider; she would have wrecked herself for Elain but only if they were that desperate) So she let Feyre go. Because she knew Feyre could take care of herself; could fight her own battles; and because she knew there was no choice. 

Does that make her a bad person or just a desperate pragmatist? I don’t know. All I know about Nesta is that she absolutely fascinates me and I utterly adore her character. And this is a point that the narrative brings up; we never forget how this began and what sparked off the chain of events that led us here. Cassian in particular reminds Nesta of this fact, he throws it in her face incredibly starkly in ACOMAF. 

Elain sums it up quite neatly I think 

Elain sat a little higher as she said to Cassian, “And as for Feyre’s hunting during those years, it was not Nesta’s neglect alone that is to blame. We were scared, and had received no training, and everything had been taken, and we failed her. Both of us.

I don’t think either of them will do so again. I don’t think Nesta will ever apologise for that; I don’t think Feyre will ever expect her to and I don’t think she’d know what to do with it if she did. But I think Nesta and Feyre both do what they can for each other and I think they both love each other very deeply. And I think when it comes down to it, in ACOTAR 3, no matter how she resents it and how it came about, Nesta will use whatever gifts the Cauldron gave her and fight for her sisters. For both of them. Because she can now. And she won’t fail her sisters again. Neither of them will. 

Nesta I think is who she is. And she’s utterly unapologetic about that fact. She has strengths and they’re not exaggerated or idealised and she has flaws that are not completely forgiven but neither are they unduly condemned. She’s a very grey character (as most are in this series) she has good and bad in; she’s made good and bad choices; done good and bad things. Which I think makes her an excellent character and one of the reasons people like her so much. 

I also think it’s also incredibly rare to find a female character like Nesta. Who is allowed to not only have flaws but who is allowed to own them and refuse to apologise for them. Nesta is cold and pragmatic and calculating and Nesta will not change for anyone or anything. Whether or not that’s entirely right or wrong is a matter of personal judgement but I think it makes her intriguing. Too often we see characters like Nesta broken or completely change to try and ‘correct’ those flaws. Here she lives with them, she works around them, she does the best she can with them and that makes her realistic and relatable and makes for a fascinating character study. 

So yes, the bottom line is: I love Nesta Archeron’s character. I think it’s something to be celebrated. I think her development and the understanding you gain as the books progress are important to note as well. And I can’t wait to see what’s in store for her in ACOTAR 3. 

The Emperor's New Clothes (The Myth of Moffat's Scriptwriting 'Genius') by Claudia Boleyn

Today I read an article about Steven Moffat’s Doctor Who in the Arts and Books section of the Independent on Sunday. In this article, by Stephen Kelly, Moffat is criticised for his inability to write women, to complete his plots, to write the Doctor as a likeable and trustworthy figure, and to keep his audience entertained. Yet one line in this frankly scathing (and almost painfully truthful) review reads: ‘When on form, Steven Moffat is the best writer working in television today’.

Having read said article, and written rather a lot of Moffat critique myself, the statement baffled me. Kelly’s entire article is lamenting the current state of Doctor Who at the hands of this man, and yet Moffat is still gifted with glowing praise.

It’s a common theme. I see it often when people are asked to review Moffat’s work. It seems people are almost afraid of criticising him, seeing as he has been lauded one of Britain’s most brilliant television writers.

It’s like the Emperor’s New Clothes. The Myth of Moffat’s Scriptwriting ‘Genius’. It’s a lie we’ve all absorbed and now just assume to be true. Sherlock himself would be frankly appalled by the entire thing. We are seeing, but we apparently do not observe.

Fellow Sherlock watchers will know what I mean (although many will probably not agree) when I equate Moffat’s writing to the empty houses of Leinster Gardens. An empty façade. It looks great from the outside, but when you step closer, you realise it’s just a whopping great train station with some drugged up self-proclaimed sociopath lurking in it.

 Let’s examine this case a little closer, shall we?

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Wang So & His Brothers: Throw me to the wolves

“So throw me to the wolves
Tomorrow I will come back
Leader of the whole pack.” 
Bring Me the Horizon, “Throne” 

(Honestly, while it’s not my favourite song, the lyrics are quite fitting for So.) 

My, there’s a lot of say about Wang So this week, and in relation to his brothers. Parallels! Foreshadowing! Tragedy! Rivalry! The list goes on and on and on… 

But one of the key themes in Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo is survival. It all circles back to what Hae Soo said: “It’s not a crime to want to live.” And everyone is doing their best to survive, by whatever means necessary, and sometimes it gets ugly. But we want to live. And on the path to survival, we often let our instincts take over and we’ve seen over and over how with the key players in the palace in the fight for the throne how the lines between animal/beast and human blur. Are we truly better than beasts? Or are we nothing more than animals, masquerading as humans? 

Where to begin? 

Let’s start somewhere easy.

Wang Won & Chaeryung 

Won falls into the same category as Wook, being the snake that it is. He’s not exactly the smartest of the princes, but he’s known for being very materialistic, and being attracted to money and other goods. So it’s not a surprise that he follows whomever he thinks is the strongest–Wang Yo–and by doing that, he ensures that he survives and can live comfortably in luxury. 

Unlike Wang So or Hae Soo, his means of survival isn’t determined by morals. It doesn’t matter if what he does is “right” or “wrong,” he’s doing whatever he can to survive.  And while we may judge him for surviving by doing all the wrong actions, who are we to blame him? Growing up in an environment where you can trust no one and die at any given moment, what wouldn’t you do to survive? Wook, Yo, and Yeonhwa have shown that they will do whatever they can to survive, even if it means manipulating others (something that So and Soo, even Eun or Baek Ah may shy away from, even if it meant their survival). 

The same goes for Chaeryung. I know her betrayal hurts, and it sucks. But I don’t think we should be quick to judge either because we don’t really know how she ended up how she is in the first place–she’s practically a spy for the ninth prince, but how? And why? 

She’s an interesting figure. She’s loyal to Soo, and clearly loves Soo, to the point where she begs Wook to save her life. But then, why does Chaeryung do what she does? There were already the seeds that were planted when Chaeryung and Won shared a look back in episode 4. Is Chaeryung doing this out love for the ninth prince? Because, sweetheart, he is SO not worth it. Nor is any man, really. But… there’s also the possibility that a) Chaeryung is being forced into it or b) I think it says in her character profile somewhere that she has to take care of her family, and it would make sense that she would do whatever it takes to make sure they survive. If it’s any of the last two, how can we blame her? Chaeryung is trying to survive too.

They are all trying to survive. 

“And I Darken”: Wang Wook & transformation 

Wook: “I have done nothing wrong.” 

I know many of you hate Wang Wook. I don’t think I’ve ever hated Wook, mostly because I understand him, but I don’t appreciate the way he always seems to be defending his actions through Hae Soo (he always claims that it’s about her–and yes, part of that is true, but his ambition is clearly bigger). Him saying that he “had no other choice” is a lie. There is always a choice. He could have actually done many things with his brilliant head of his, but he has chosen the path that he’s currently walking. I don’t have any pity for him, but I do understand him… if that makes any sense. 

Wook: Why is it that I’m so lonely? 

yeah i’ll admit this scene kinda made me feel sorry for him BUT you’re still a snake!! 

I’d like to give an applause for Kang Ha Neul. The physical transformation of Wang Wook is jarring–he goes from being soft, to all hard angles and lines. He wears darker colours, his cheeks are gaunt and hollow, his eyes are dark. (Wang So is the opposite–goes from the dark and severe edges, to the soft). There are also hints of madness in Wook. Does madness run in this family? Is that the fate of those who become king, and those who wish to becoming king?

This scene is deeply unsettling for me–mostly because he seems to be on the brinks of madness, or at least, brushing quite close to it. He can’t get the words out of his head: Be careful of Wang So… 

And it makes him wonder what he should do about him. 

We cannot discuss Wook without discussing So. They’re paralleled, and I think they’re meant to be sort of foils to one another. They’re brothers who were born in the same year, and are now planting the same goal in mind. But we know how this story ends: one brother becomes the king, and the other will spent forever earnestly wishing and pining after that very seat. 

It’s been a long time since So has thought of Wook kindly. He cannot forgive Wook for turning away from Soo, and he cannot forgive the way that Wook abandoned his brother, Mu, and turned to Yo and essentially became a traitor. Like I said, everyone is trying to survive–So is trying to survive in the “right” way, the best he can, while Wook is willing to walk any path that gets him to where he wants. 

So has always been smart. The fact that he was called a “wolf-dog” and many nasty rumours were spread about him, to the point where everyone feared him, So is not only talented in martial arts and fighting, but he is also showing potential in politics. He wasn’t born with the star of emperor for no reason, you know. 

Like Hae Soo, Wang So is a product of the outside world. Yeonhwa, Wook, and everyone else is a product of the palace. Therefore, like Soo, So had to learn how to play the games, and educate himself on how to deal with the other clans. He had to learn how to talk to people. He’s still green in some areas, but he’s proven himself to be able to stand his own ground. And So will continue to grow–and if he has any weak spots, Yeonhwa can fill in for him, when he becomes king (their predicted future relationship will be really interesting, in terms of who will have the upper hand). 

Here is an important scene:

So: “Did you really make Mu pass away?” 
Wook: “And what about you? Are you really going to become a dog and kill Eun?” 

Wook: “You and I are struggling to survive. This is the fate of princes who could not become emperors. If you want to protect it, then you must obey. I… did not poison the late king.” 

So, both of them want to become king. What’s new? 

But their motivations are different. 

Wook wants the throne for power and love. He wants to have both. He wants to protect both. Soo is the one thing that he wanted, but he failed to protect her. He wants the throne for power, so he can then be able to have what he loves. Or at least this is how he justifies it. On the other hand, So will step into his desire to become king because he wants freedom, and to protect what he loves. I don’t think it’s ever quite about power for So–he’s never really been interested in the throne because of power, but he curiously wonders why everyone is grappling for the seat. I can bring Yeonhwa into this discussion because she wants power so she can protect herself and her own (her family). For both of them, Yeonhwa and Wook, it’s about power more than it is about love, which is where we see a divide between them and So. 

Goryeo’s New Owner

Yo: “It’s fun to tame him.” 

I don’t think it’s a surprise that So held back when he was fighting Yo. He never meant to kill Yo, he just wanted to take him down. And he still cared about Yo, despite everything, or else he wouldn’t have been so devastated over Yo’s “death.” What a big heart our wolf puppy prince has 

And in order for So (and Hae Soo) to survive they must submit to the new king, no matter how they hate it. And again, Wang So has to become a dog, leashed to his owner. But no matter how loyal dogs are, even they get fed up. A dog can bite his master. 

I think the way that Yo sits on his throne is interesting. Compared to the serious way that his father and his elder brother sat on the throne… 

Look at the way he props his elbow on his knee. He doesn’t sit properly on the throne. He’s arrogant, he’s cocky, he likes to toy with people. The position of “Goryeo’s owner” and to be king is nothing but a prize to him. Yo is smart, he won’t be a stupid king. But he also takes the throne without the sense of heavy responsibility compared to his predecessors. The throne is a heavy burden. It is not to be taken lightly. Jeongjong had a strong backing, historically, because of his mother and the Yoo clan. But Gwangjong’s power  was stronger because in addition to the Yoo clan, he also had the Hwangbo clan, thanks to his queen (Yeonhwa). 

Going back to the madness we see in Wook, we also saw it in Mu and we will see Yo become more paranoid about this throne. 

Yo: “Does Jung want the throne?” 

Queen Yoo is clearly taken aback. Mothers look to sons who will make them shine. One will go mad and die, one will never become the king and leave her, and one will rise above and never look back to her again. Without her sons, without her husband, what is she? It is a sad reality of women during this era. She will become jaded, and die lonely. 

Off with his head!  

Let’s take a look at our youngest princes. If you cannot become a king, you must submit to the king. If you are a threat to the new king, then you will be hunted down like an animal. 

That’s exactly what happens to Eun. His family was already perceived to be dangerous when Mu took the throne, but Mu had no plans to get rid of his brothers and Eun’s wife, Soon Deok, made sure that they weren’t seen as threats. Again, with Soon Deok, we see how women in this drama are the ones who get shit done. 

The scene where Eun asks Soo about his mother and aunt is important. It shows how even though how much time has passed, and Eun has matured enough to marry, he still doesn’t really understand the severity of the situation. His family is essentially being hunted down, and he still thinks there’s a possibility that they’ll be okay. 

But the women know. Hae Soo and Soon Deok don’t tell him in order to protect him. Again, women doing stuff for men, because they can’t really seem to do anything. Men are the ones with most autonomy and power so to speak, and yet, women are making things happen with the limited power and restrained positions they have. 

The question looms as to whether or not this couple will survive. 

Which raises the question as to why General Park would stand with So if something happened to them. 

So there are a few possibilities: a) Eun and Sook Duk don’t die, and escape; b) General Park realizes and understands that even though So killed them (if So is the one to do it), that So was faced with terrible choices, and did what he had to do; or c) thinks So will become a better king than Yo. 

We cannot remain neutral forever 

Jung already knows that his brothers will begin to rip each other’s throats out–it’s already begun, and it was predicted to happen since their father died. Like he tells Hae Soo, they cannot remain neutral forever and must choose a side. What side will Jung choose? He’s never been So’s person. 

But he cannot stand to be with Yo, or his mother anymore. Originally, before the drama started, Jung was said to be to be on Wook’s side (same with Won and Eun). And this has proven true. When Yo was no longer the brother he looked up to, Jung went to Wook. But had he traded another evil brother for another? 

Jung: “I’m going to kill him.” 

So where will Jung stand? How will he survive? 

All eyes turn to Wang So, the wolf who will become the sun

So: There’s something I can’t ever seem to solve. Being lead by a leash, I wonder if I’m going to again become the dog that protects Mu. Is this my fate? I don’t want live by always turning away from the things I love–I’m sick and tired of that. Things always go awry. So, tell me. How can I free myself from this leash?” 
Ji Mong: “The majority of people in these kinds of situations want to become the dog that bites their owner and makes the owner’s house his own.”
So: “Are you telling me to rebel?” 
Ji Mong: “Not at all. Thank you for protecting Mu. He won’t hang onto to you for long.” 


But So was born with the star of the emperor, and we finally, finally see So desire the throne. He means it. And it’s not about power. It’s about putting an end to things that he cannot stand–brothers and sisters fighting for power–and to put an end to him being controlled. All ever So wants is freedom. The throne will grant him that. 

Ji Mong: “It’s time.”

So: I started this so I could finally put an end to princes killing one another.” 

“내가 말이야, 목줄을 끊는 개가 되어야겠어. 이 고려의 황제가 되어 주마.”

So: “I must become the dog that bites off its own collar. I will become Goryeo’s emperor.” 

Everyone threw So to the wolves, but he came back. And he’s going to devour them all of them–as well as the throne.