How are you doing? You getting sleep? Eating your vegetables? I can send you some vitamins if you’d like. Would you like that? Would you like me to make a dark pact with the underworld on your behalf? I’m sure I can talk to some witches; they are historically pro-choice.
I’m thinking of sending over a gift card for a fish supplier. Are you getting your fatty omega-3′s? Just don’t eat anything undercooked, okay.
two years ago today i decided i was sick and tired of looking and feeling like a giant bloated walrus so i decided i had to change. i was just shy of 300 pounds. i couldn’t walk up the stairs without getting out of breath. the thought of exercising made me want to cry. i would eat 2-3 large plates of just pasta in one sitting and had zero idea about nutrition or anything. i’d constantly be made fun of, none of my clothes fit, i couldn’t dress the way i wanted to, and i just really really hated the way i looked and felt.
since then, i joined the gym, and learned to love it. the gym is now what i’d consider my happy place. i love exercising. i love lifting weights, i love doing blogilates videos, i love swimming, hell, i’ve even learned to love cardio. i’ve learned what foods make my body feel good, and how to eat so i can still have treats and yummy things as well as healthy foods that make me feel great inside and out! i’ve lost 60+ pounds (it’s probably more around 70 lbs now, but i can never remember to weigh myself), lost 10+ inches all around, i can wear a size 14-16 now instead of an 18 (at one point i even had to wear a size 20 pair of jeans). i can wear the clothes i want to. i can lift things that weigh more than 2 pounds and i actually enjoy it!!!
even though i still have “fat” moments and feel gross about myself, and moments where i still think i’m the size of the first picture, i think about how far i’ve truly come in only 2 years, and i realize that i’ve never felt so good about myself??? i still have a long ways to go to reach all my end goals, but i’m actually excited and hopeful about that now rather than feeling like i was going to be a 300 pound lardo for the rest of my life!!!
if you’ve been thinking about taking the first steps to change your life and get healthier, whether it be losing weight, gaining weight, gaining muscle, or eating healthier, take this as a sign!!! start now!! JUST DO IT! your body will thank you, YOU will thank you.
“How long have you still got?” “What are you in here for?” “Do you have a family, outside?” “How did I let this happen to myself? How did I end up in here?!” “I’m out of toothpaste, can I borrow some of yours just this once?” “How can anyone eat this food?” “You’re new here, aren’t you?” “Why is everyone in here so nasty?” “I have no idea how I’m going to survive in here without going insane.” “Where are you from?” “I just got here… One of the guards told me I could ask you to show me around.” “I didn’t even do anything wrong. I just did what I thought was right.” “Don’t worry about it, everyone cries themselves to sleep the first night.” “I’ve been in here for so long.” “Keeping us like this shouldn’t be allowed. We’re still people.” “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be in here anymore!” “I’m losing myself in here.” “Whenever I wake up I keep my eyes closed for just a few moments, so I can pretend I’m home, in my own bed.” “I can’t remember what it feels like to get hugged.” “What do you miss the most?” “You get used to the place, eventually…” — “I can’t keep visiting you. It breaks my heart to see you like this.” “So, how’s prison?” “Do they watch you while you shower?” “This is the last time I’m visiting you.” “Are you managing in here? You look really tired.” “You look cleaner than I expected.” “I don’t care what you get up to in there. Just know that I’ll be waiting for you when you get out.” “Are you allowed to go outside?” “I don’t recognise you anymore.” “I won’t ever stop visiting you.” “You’re so stupid, getting yourself locked up!” “It’s over. I can’t sit around waiting for you to get out. I have to move on.”