how can an 8 year old and a 5 year old look more grown up than me

My SteveTony Fic Rec List

So I made a list of all my fave SteveTony fanfictions that are:

  • 10k+ (except for a few ones that are to good to not include)
  • have nothing to do with MCU Civil War

Its super long that’s why its under the cut.
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anonymous asked:

Hey so I'm not looking for a specific fic but I kinda wanna read something where younger season 1-3 Sam and Dean take care of older world weary later seasons Sam and Dean so if u know any fics like that I would really appreciate it.

Well to answer your question…


Originally posted by coffeespooks

Ones that kinda…sorta…not really but…fit your ask….

Originally posted by cliffordsgal

The 10 Year Wait   by razielimSam travels back in time and learns something new about his brother.

A man with his insides out and his outsides off by: britomart_is They say there are only two stories in the world: man goes on a journey, and stranger comes to town.

No Time by  AmyPond45As soon as he caught the eye of the most gorgeous man in the room – hell, the most gorgeous man in any room – right there in the mirror over the bar, the look of loss and longing in his eyes should have tipped Dean off. Should have sent him running for the hills.        

You Can’t Go Home Again by AmyPond45 Sam and Dean discover evidence that they time-traveled to 1983 to help their Dad and their younger selves right after their mother died. Then things get complicated.      

Barely if at all fit…..

Originally posted by sabishiishoujo

A Brief Moment in Time by   Annie46fic   Dean’s death was caused by the Mark of Cain.  Sam decides to go back to a time before all of this started.  After finding a suitable spell he finds himself back in Truman High, and goes hunting for Dean who is now the younger brother.  Posing as a janitor Sam finds Dean, but can he change things for good this time?  Or will everything go to hell?        

Dream a Little Dream by tir_synniThe last thing Dean remembered was Bobby’s yard. The next thing he knew, his dad and brother were there, and he was screaming.

These are the Places I’ve Been By: goodnight-sammy Waking up on a motel floor with a gun to your head is not particularly comforting, let me tell you. Especially when that gun belongs to your dead father, and you somehow made your way to 1993 overnight. OR In which Sam wakes up in 1993 and decides that Time Travel sucks. Set in early season 8 (after Southern Comfort), back when the brothers were still fighting. Rated T for language

To End Your SufferingBy: MissAnnThropic The forest was bombarded with a blinding light. When it faded, Dean stared down at the body before him. It was Sam, Dean knew, but only because Dean remembered what Sam had looked like at four years old.

Time Travel’s a Bitch  by wilddragonflyingSo a fifteen-year-old Sammy shows up in the bunker. That’s not exactly a good thing; it brings back memories for both Dean and Sam. So, of course it’s all Gabriel’s fault.              

To the Moon and Back By: Scarlett7   Seeking some relief from Season 9? Here you go. Angst, brotherly love and even some Weechesters! Set right after “The Purge”. Sam’s anger towards Dean has been lingering for days. But when a 5 year old version of Sam shows up at their door, both boys will learn a lesson about what it means to be a Winchester brother.

Under a Haystack by Janissa11 A curse leaves Sam with a very different version of Dean.

You Can’t Go Home Again by AmyPond45 Sam and Dean discover evidence that they time-traveled to 1983 to help their Dad and their younger selves right after their mother died. Then things get complicated.

Doesn’t fit but are Time Travel Fics

Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

Come to Leave Me  by raziella He just wanted to change some things - go back and redo the parts that lead to this. He didn’t expect to end up here.        

Future Tense by selecasharpWhile on a case, Sam and Dean are given a vision of the future - a future in which they’ve stopped the apocalypse and are now, apparently, involved. Dean’s convinced that it’s another trick and insists that they forget it, but Sam can’t let it - any of it - go.

He is the Wind in the Door by rivers_bend   sequel to TJTBATW John has dumped Dean and Sam in Georgia for the summer while he goes to Louisiana. Meanwhile, fourteen years in the future, Sam is searching an old hotel. He gets sucked back in time and lands at his brother’s feet.

It’s the Blueprint of Your Life by queenkluSam jerks awake in the middle of the night and everything goes to hell. Well, not literally, though Dean is staring down the barrel of less than a year before his deal comes due. In the midst of dealing (or not dealing) with his impending death, a killer ghost ship, and Bela showing up out of the blue, Dean also has to figure out what’s going on in Sam’s head to make him so twitchy, why he’s suddenly breezing through this case while writing endless notes in a notebook he won’t let Dean see. Damn it, Dean thinks, This is gonna take a lot of chickflick moments.

The Jerk, the Bitch, and the Wardrobe by rivers_bend   While searching an old hotel, Sam gets sucked back in time and lands at his brother’s feet.

Jump to the Left by insomnia_geekTakes place immediately at the end of 5x14 My Bloody Valentine. Help comes in many forms. Dean should’ve been more specific what he was asking for.

Ne obliviscaris - Never Forget by wiccaqueen Dean Winchester, whose mother and baby brother died at the hands of a demon over two decades ago, finds himself traveling back in time to 18th century Scotland. There, while trying to navigate the rugged Highlands and foreign customs, Dean meets with a unique group of men - a clan of hunters. But even more intriguing is the young Highlander Samuel Campbell and the role he plays in Dean’s fate.

Quantum Sammy by mari4212 How do you get around an unbreakable deal?

Rewritten   by Fangirl-Jess   Sam was a having a tough day as it is, trying to cure your demon brother while he’s trying to kill you wasn’t enough now he’s in 2006 with his brother just after their father deal and death; before Bobby’s,Jo’s , Ellen’s, Ash’s and many more deaths; before Cas and the angels; before the cage; before the apocalypse; before Dean’s deals. Will Sam and Dean try to change the future ?

The Road Home by sinestrated   When a routine hunt suddenly goes sour, Dean finds himself in an alternate dimension where he and Sam have apparently been involved for some time. Getting back won’t be easy, especially when they discover that doing so will come at a terrifyingly high price.

Seeing Double by butterflywrites After the events of Dark Side of the Moon, Sam and Dean again get drunk, pass out, and wake up to find two people in their motel room. This time, it’s their younger selves, from not long after Christmas 1991, and they have to figure out how to get the kids back to the right time.

Skinning Schrodinger’s Cat  by lyra_wing 23-year-old Sam pays a visit to 22-year-old Dean. Idea came about when I was thinking – older Sam and younger Dean, and CRAP, that’d be way hot. Yes.

The Time Traveler’s Brother by AmyPond45 Dean’s life is turned upside down the night his mother dies. But that’s also the night a mysterious grown-up version of Dean’s brother first appears in his life. While Dean grows up, “Old Sam” is often there, especially when Dean’s father isn’t. As Dean learns what the future holds, he begins to question everything his father has taught him about who he is and what he is supposed to become. Can Dean find a way to save his little brother from his own future?

When You Have To Go There   by ciaan  
Written for the blindfold_spn prompt: “Present Sam time travels and comes face to face with a 15 year old Dean. Toppy!Sam/Needy!Dean.”

your breath on my neck like a music that holds my hands downby locknkey Sometimes the job takes Sam and Dean further than they’d ever planned to go. Time and space are no barriers when Sam is in danger.



In 2013, my friends introduced me to the new hit anime Kill la Kill.

I hated it.  

In 2016, I stuffed a bunch of the 100,000+ words I’d dedicated to writing about the show into a hefty book.

What happened?

Who knows, but you can now read the result! Just over two years of love and enthusiasm fill up these 350-some pages of 80+ essays, all split up into ten sections: Character Relationships, Comparisons to Other Media, Design Choices and Symbolism, English Dub Script, OST, OVA, Ryuko and Senketsu, Specific Moments, Tag Essays and Quick Posts, and The Discourse. As may be obvious from such a list, the heart of much of this writing is—just as the series itself—Ryuko and Senketsu, but I’d hope there’s a little something here for every Kill la Kill fan.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me over the years. I couldn’t have put this together without all the encouragement I’ve received. Everyone who’s sent me asks and inspired me to keep yapping—you’re the reason this book exists! I’ve grown so much as a writer because of this community and through putting together this collection, and I cannot express how grateful I am for that.  

Special thanks too to h0saki, who has provided scans from various Kill la Kill books, and to mikiryuko, who has provided fans with translations of un-localized Kill la Kill material, as well as all the anonymous contributors who have provided similarly. I couldn’t have done many of the essays here without your work!

While essentially a masterpost of the posts I’ve made concerning this series, this book is also a little more than that in that it features revised and updated writing, additional commentary, and, well, it’s all put in one nice, handy, convenient place. However, it’s far from everything, and does not include all the many great conversations I’ve had, so if for some strange reason anyone’s ever thirsting for even more Kill la Kill talk, there are still always the analyses pages on my blogs.

Thank you for taking a look! I hope you enjoy.

Full content list under the cut! These all link back to the original essays (if there is an original essay), but please note that the ones in the book are cleaned up and include additional commentary.

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Shawn Mendes-Trouble In Paradise

Requested: anonymous
Word count: 1325
Warning: angsty
Summary: You and Shawn are famous and have a daughter but dont spend enough time with her which leads to you and Shawn to fight. Thus the thought of divorce is brought into your daughter’s mind and issues arise.

Y/D/N-Your daughter’s name
~ ~ ~
“Shawn and I are totally booked that day, sorry. Is there any other dates available for that?” You say with your cell phone held to your ear with your shoulder as you mix a vegetable stir fry on the stove.

You sigh in annoyance when your manager makes it a big deal that you and your husband Shawn can’t make it to the wanted interview.
“Im sorry but you can’t pin this on me. I have other plans too and you can’t just ring me up a few days before and expect a ‘yes’ for a event” you argue back, being irritable from the past few weeks being non stop jam packed with work and in the community eye. I mean. You and Shawn were famous and world known.
“You knew these circumstances would arise when you signed our contract, y/n” your manager; Claire spoke.
“I did. But know after months without sleep and something close to normality, Claire. Im losing my mind and can’t take on any extra projects. Shawn and I have a daughter for goodness sake. We need to be parents! And it’s especially hard given the situation” you counteract, getting more and more flustered.
“Breathe, y/n. Breathe” Claire told you, hearing your patience diminish over the phone with her.
“No! I’m not going to just 'breathe’! I’m a normal person with the same bills and problems as everyone else! I’m not immune to life’s issues and I’m fed up that everyone thinks so” you carry on.

Shawn was in the next room over; the dining room, working intensely on the finishing songs he had to have written and recorded by the end of the month. He had 1 ½ week to do 5 songs and the pressure was on.
But he broke focus and heard your little meltdown with your manager.
He pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head to himself as he dropped his pen. He knew how much the industry worked you both. You especially because you were so beautiful and talented.
And what made you both feel worse about your careers, was the fact that you both were slacking with your young daughter.
* * *

Shawn still sat at the dinner table as you began to set it, wanting to work every second he could.
And unfortunately, the phone was still glued to your ear.
You balance a stack of 3 plates, cups, and forks to the table, then place them on the table.
“Hold on one second” you tell your daughter’s speech therapist.
You put the speaker of your phone to your chest to muffler your call to your child for dinner.
“Y/D/N! Dinner” you call from in the dining room, hoping your 8 year old can hear you from up in her room.
Instantly, you hear her bedroom door open and her feet rush down the stairs.
You resume talking with the speech pathologist.

“Mommy! Daddy! Mommy! Daddy! Guess what!” Your daughter cheered happily with something within her small little fist.
You continued talking terms with the doctor and Shawn was so engrossed in his writing that he didn’t really hear y/d/n.
“Mommy’s on the phone, y/d/n” Shawn told her.
“Guess what!” Your daughter said even more loudly, capturing a bit more of Shawn’s attention. But missing yours.
“Mommy and Daddy are busy right now, hun” Shawn replied and continued to write.
“Hold on” you tell the pathologist and put the phone back to your chest.
“I lost a tooth today!” She chimed anyways, opening her hand to show you two.
“That’s great. Go put it under the pillow and I’ll put a dollar under there later” he said, not thinking twice of his words.
Y/D/N’s face drops and Shawn just realises what he said.
You immediately stare wide eyed at him. Did he really just say that?!
“There’s no tooth fairy?” She says.
Shawn looks like he was just caught in exposing a big secret and immediately regrets it.
“No, y/d/n-” Shawn tries.
But she’s already gone and upstairs to cry.
“Let me call you back” you say into your phone and end your call quickly.
Immediately you glare into your husband’s eyes.
“What? Im sorry” Shawn apologizes.
“Sorry? You shouldn’t be apologizing to me and that’s certainly not going to cut it Mendes” you huff.
“Hey, dont get all huffy with me. Im not the only one who has poor parenting skills” Shawn argues back.
“Poor parenting skills?” you laugh back, “I didn’t crush a childhood symbol you nimrod!”.
“Names now? Thats real childish of you y/n” Shawn retorts.
“Im not childish, Shawn. I dont let my manager overbook me so Im coming home at 2 in the morning. I make sure I see my daughter everyday. We may not be doing much, but I still see her every freakin day! You on the other hand, want to be your industry and fans’ best friend. You have never grown up and never will grow up!” You argue back.
“So Im childish, will never grow up and love the world more than my child” Shawn asked like it was a stupid question.
“Yeah, that’s exactly it” you agreed.
He shakes his head and places his hands on his hips as he looks away, “You’re unbelievable. You dont see the whole the whole picture”.
“What can’t I see Shawn?!” You respond.
“Mommy…daddy” a small voice says from around the corner of the wall.
You and Shawn turn your head to see y/d/n slightly hiding.
“Come on out, y/d/n. You’re okay” you tell your little girl.
She slowly steps out from behind the corner.
“Are you and daddy going to get a divorce?” She asks softly, hugging her stuffed bear to her chest.
“Mommy and I are not going to get a divorce, honey” Shawn says as he goes and crouches to her height and holds her small hand in his big one.
“Then why were you fighting?” She asks.
“Mommy’s and daddy’s sometimes dont always get along and disagree on things. But that doesn’t mean we’re going to split up because of it” Shawn tries to explain to the 8 year old.
Shawn turns his head and looks to you seriously, “I want us to break from our career for a bit. Our attention needs to be elsewhere and we should have realised that sooner”.
You nodded in agreement.
Y/D/N cracks a slight smile.
“I love you mommy and daddy” she tells you both.
“We love you too” you both respond.

Shawn reaches into his back pocket and pulls out his walls as he tells his girl, “Daddy is sorry about earlier. I was just so excited about you losing you’re tooth that I forgot to mention that I wanted to give you a dollar on top of what the tooth fairy was going to give you”.
He pulls out a loonie and places the cool coin in his daughter’s small palm.
Her smile gets bigger and she jumps to give him a hug.
“Thanks daddy!” She grins.
“You’re welcome sweetheart” He replies and rubs her back.
You lean into Shawn’s ear and whisper, “nice save”.
He smiles.

“Can daddy and I tuck you in?” You ask y/d/n and extend your hand down to the short little one, as does Shawn.
“Yes” she smiled and took both your hands, leading the way.
Your husband looks to you with a smile, showing that this is what he was wanting to do in life with you. To have a family and be happy.

Who wants some dumb “The past Sportaci/future Sportarobbie″ headcanons????

No one? Well too bad, you’re getting them anyway!

- Sportacus isn’t so much a name as it is a title, passed down from one person to the next

- Each Sportacus chooses a child to mentor in their ways of eating sportscandy and staying active, so that when they retire they have someone to fill the position for them

- #9 was Sportacus’ mentor (whether number 9 was Sport’s father or not is up to you), and he looked very much like #10 Sportacus, except his outfit was yellow and red (like in the stage musical)

- The crystal is also handed down, and it has been the same crystal that all the Sportaci have used since #1

- Each Sportacus has their own unique attribute. Where #10 is extremely gifted at acrobatics, #9 was the fastest out of any of them

- #8 was the toughest (almost no one/nothing could injure them)

- #7 was the most flexible

- #6 was the kindest (yes, somehow a person existed that was kinder than #10; they never got upset and they believed in giving everyone a second, and even third, chance)

- #5 was the wisest (they knew everything having to do with physical activity, such as how the circulatory and respiratory systems worked; some believed that before #5 became Sportacus they were studying to become a doctor)

- #4 was the best at actual sports (they’d never lose a game, and could make any goal/basket with their eyes blindfolded)

- #3 was the healthiest (unlike #10 they made sure to eat food other than sportscandy, such as vegetables and meats, so that they had a well-balanced diet. They also understood that exercise is important, but that it’s also important to take a break and relax a bit so that you maintain your mental health as well. It is said that #3 lived to be over 100 years old)

- #2 was the happiest (NOTHING could upset them, and in turn they never wanted anyone around them to be upset either. Legend says that when #2 died they wrote in their will that instead of a funeral they wanted everyone to throw a “They Lived a Full Life” party, where they could only talk about the happy memories and everyone in attendance had to wear bright colors instead of black)

- #1 was the strongest, but only when it came to objects they created themselves, specifically mallets. #1 could lift and swing around a mallet that was the same size and weight of a person without breaking a sweat. However #1 was also the most short-lived Sportacus. They retired extremely early and simply vanished. No one knows what happened to them. Most believe #1 died a long time ago, others believe that they still live, hiding somewhere.

- Robbie is #1, hence his song “We are Number One”

- He’s managed to live for so long because he’s a freaking genius, and has invented gadgets to keep him young. It’s estimated that Robbie is almost 900 years old

- Robbie HATES the fact that he was once Sportacus. It wasn’t his intention to discover a crystal that went off whenever someone in the immediate vicinity was in trouble, or then proceed to save said person, or then be declared a “hero” by the townspeople and given the name “Sportacus” (or “Íþróttaálfurinn”, as he was called back then)

- So he went underground in an attempt to escape his past, which is why he so adamantly despises the other Sportaci, and why he tries to run them out of town. He hates the fact that it’s because of HIM that this permanent nuisance exists, encouraging everyone to be active and healthy.

- #2 wasn’t really Robbie’s pupil. #2 started the whole “mentor/student” tradition when it comes to Sportaci, but they actually became Sportacus when they discovered the crystal that Robbie had thrown out (the damn thing kept beeping and it was driving Robbie crazy)

- #10 discovered that Robbie was #1 when he was returning an unconcious Robbie (who had knocked himself out cold while attempting to pull off his latest scheme) back to his lair and saw in one of the costume tubes #1′s original outfit

- Sportacus was in total awe and disbelief and waited until Robbie came to before asking him, in his polite fashion, “WHAT THE HELL WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE #1 WE ALL THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!?”

- Robbie explains that he never wanted to be Sportacus and how he’s been using technology to keep himself alive so that he can try and eventually rid the world of Sportacus once and for all

- Sport then asks “Well, why don’t you get rid of me now?”

- Robbie has to face the fact that he’s grown fond of this current Sportacus and actually wants to be with him (whether in a platonic or romantic sense is up to you, but come on, I think we all know that those two are hella gay for each other)

- Sportcus reveals that he wants to be with Robbie as well

- After this things don’t really change that much, except that Robbie’s “evil plans” become much more tame and are more of a minor nuisance than an actual threat to the townspeople, since he’s not really trying to get rid of Sportacus anymore (however he can’t give up his evil schemes all together because he’s a villain, after all; what else is he suppose to do????)

- *this is for the Sportarobbie route, and pretty much the rest of the bullet points are going to be Sportarobbie from this point on* Also Robbie and Sportacus officially become a couple, to the surprise of no one

- Robbie stops using his tech to keep him young, since he now has plans to become an old man with Sportacus

- Sportacus pushes his bedtime from 8:08 to 9:00 so that he and Robbie can go on dates after everyone else is asleep, so that way his crystal won’t interrupt them during their movie/dinner/make out session

- Robbie buys a larger bed so that he and Sportacus can sleep in the same bed together and cuddle. Sport has offered to do the same thing for his airship but Robbie shoots the idea down immediately, saying that his phobia of heights will keep him from getting a good night’s sleep up in Sportacus’ airship

- Sportacus doesn’t really understand Robbie’s fear of being high up because it seems to come and go, but he doesn’t question it. He’s fine with doing whatever makes Robbie comfortable, and if that means sleeping over in his lair then so be it (he really doesn’t mind though; the kids may find the underground hideout creepy, but Sport thinks it’s kind of cozy, especially with Robbie there by his side)

- Robbie also pushes aside his workbench to make room for an area where Sportacus can keep his sport/exercise equipment

- They basically make a home for themselves in Robbie’s lair, which comes to be known as “Robbie’s (and Sportacus’) home”

- The two also start sneaking kisses from each other when the kids aren’t looking and holding hands while walking around town and celebrating Valentines Day together by giving one another gifts (A bouquet of sportscandy and a loving letter for Sportacus, and a box of chocolates and a teddy bear dressed in a miniature version of Robbie’s suit for Robbie) and dressing in couples costumes for Halloween and kissing under the miseltoe/at the stroke of midnight during Christmas/New Years and basically just being all cute and couple-y and junk <3

- It’s about a year after they start dating that Sportacus and Robbie decide to get married

- Miss Busybody plans and decorates for the wedding; Mayor Meanswell officiates; Ziggy is the ring-bearer (and yes, he’s allowed to wear his superhero costume); Stephanie is the flower girl; Stingy has his dad rent out a hotel ballroom for the reception (I’m willing to bet there’s at least one hotel in Lazy Town, even though no one ever seems to come to visit); Trixie DJs at the reception; Pixel works the lights and puts together a video montage of all the cute Sportacus/Robbie moments that were captured throughout the past few years (A majority of the photos/videos of are Sportacus saving Robbie, at which point while viewing it everyone lovingly laughs and Robbie buries his quickly reddening face in to the crook of Sportacus’ neck as Sport turns his head and kisses Robbie’s forehead, reminding him that he’ll always be there to save him)

- Robbie and Sportacus remain in Lazy Town as husband and husband for about 10 years. By this point the kids are grown up and new people haved moved in to the town with children of their own

- It is at this point that Sportacus announces to the town that he and Robbie are leaving, with plans to travel the world until their old age

- Naturally everyone is sad to hear that they’re leaving, but they respect their decision and wish them the best; both Robbie and Sportacus promise to come back and visit every now and again

- It is at this time that Sportacus goes up to Stephanie specifically and hands her a small, wrapped package

- Stephanie opens it to find that it’s Sportacus’ crystal, but now with the number 11 on it instead of 10

- “Sportacus, what-” “You are Sportacus now, Stephanie”

- Robbie gives her his lair to use as her “base of operations”, since he and Sportacus are going to be using the airship to travel the globe. She may do whatever she wishes with it, but under no circumstances is she allowed to paint it pink

- (Oh, and for those of you who may be concerned that this upsets Ziggy, don’t be; he grew out of his superhero admiration phase a while ago and now has plans to open up a candy shop that sells healthy candy made using honey and reduced sugar and no artificial colors/flavors)

- Robbie and Sportacus say one last goodbye to the residents before leaving Lazy Town in the capable hands of #11

the space between us (chapter 14)

chapter title: so baby, why don’t we go   
words: 2.8k
story summary: What’s a ladybug to do when her kitten becomes a cat?
chapter summary: In which Adrien and Marinette visit Master Fu and get some unexpected advice on how to deal with their unexpected publicity.

previous chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13

a/n: Hi friends!! I know it’s been ages since I updated- thanks so much for sticking with me! I haven’t had mojo to update this story in ages, but it suddenly came back today…so I’m running with it! Let’s enjoy the ride together :)

AO3 | FF

When Master Fu invites Adrien and Marinette over for a cup of tea, they’re hesitant at first. Though both of them enjoy spending time with their mentor, neither of them are sure how their mentor will react to learning that they are dating. Despite the obvious fact that being in a relationship has made them more in sync than ever before, they still haven’t told him about the change in their relationship— nor have they visited him since the beginning of the summer.

And unfortunately now that the press believes Adrien is dating Ladybug, there are twice as many paparazzi trying to track all of his movements, which makes it twice as difficult to plan any outings with any sort of privacy.

Still, with the help of Gerard and Nathalie, the two of them manage to find a way to get to Master Fu’s neighborhood unnoticed, though they still walk as quickly as possible down the side streets; it’s too risky to walk slowly.  

“Do you think he’ll be angry?” asks Adrien, sweating and pale as they approach the door to his apartment. “We’ve been dating for a while now and haven’t said anything to him.”

Marinette shakes her head. “I’m sure he’ll understand. And if not, we can explain that we know it’s risky, but it’s worth it. I believe in us.”

“Me too.”

“You ready?”

Adrien nods. “Yeah. I think I am.”

“Okay,” says Marinette, squeezing his hand. “Let’s go.”

But Master Fu opens the door before she even has a chance to knock on it.  

“Well, it’s about time,” he says, with a satisfied smile. “I’ve been waiting for this day for far too long.”

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I think I figured out the DHMIS story

I think. After watching the final video (DHMIS 6), and reading some comments I think I figured out the story. Maybe this is correct, maybe it isn’t, maybe I’m not reading into it enough, but this is what makes sense to me.

Just a heads up, this is gonna be a long post so be prepared.


In DHMIS, the three main characters, Harry, Manny, and Robin, are all children who are growing up. All of the episodes revolve around their childish innocence and imagination, hence why objects such as globes, lamps, bugs and notepads can come to life. That’s also why the videos themselves look like a children’s show; you’re looking at the world through the eyes of three children and seeing what would be appealing to them.

The oldest child is Harry, the middle child is Robin and the youngest is Manny. Harry seems to be the most mature out of all of them, and he’s the one with the most logic. Robin also displays some logic and maturity, but not as much as Harry. Manny, on the other hand, reminds me of a small child. By the last few episodes, he begins to display some sense of maturity and logic, but during most of the episodes, he’s carefree and doesn’t really consider the consequences. If I had guess ages, I’d say Harry would probably be about 14-12, Robin would probably be about 9-11 years old, and Manny would probably be about 4-8 years old, just passed off how they act in DHMIS.

Throughout DHMIS, the three kids are growing up and learning the realities of growing up. In DHMIS 1, they learn that you have to be how others want you to be/You have to fit in. (”Green is not a creative color.”). 

For DHMIS 2,  they realize that you don’t have a lot of time/that time is running out for all of them (the decay that begins to happen to them at the end; “I’m sure you’ll be fine, but eventually, everyone runs out of time.”) I also believe that this episode somehow relates to Robin’s fate later on, but I’ll explain that when I get there. 

In DHMIS 3, little Manny learns about hatred and prejudice in the world and he also learns about cults and the evils of cults. Harry and Robin aren’t actually involved in this episode. They’re there, but they don’t learn about this with Manny, possibly because they’re old enough to have already known about these subjects and don’t need to be taught, but because Manny is so young, he needs to be taught. 

In DHMIS 4, they learn that the things they see on the computer aren’t necessarily real. ( “You’re not you; you’re your digital you, virtually real, but controlled by real you.” ; Harry finding out the truth behind the video by finding the filming crew.). This lesson could also be turned into a ‘stranger danger; not everyone you met on the internet is real’ kind of lesson. Both would make sense if Harry, Robin and Manny are children. 

DHMIS 5 gets a bit complicated so just stay with me here.

In DHMIS 5, Robin and Manny learn about the body/healthy eating/ how to keep yourself healthy. That’s actually all they do. However, this lesson has an underlying story to go with it, and this is the episode that introduces Robin’s fate. When Robin first picks up the phone in DHMIS 5, we see him lying on what seems to be a table in an operating room or lying in a bed in the hospital. While the foods talk to Manny, we see Robin on bed/table again, now being eaten alive by multiple cans of food. We see Robin’s face on the can in the microwave and we see his head with crossed out eyes. Knowing this, I believe that since DHMIS 2, hints have been dropped that Robin must be ill and possibly dying. In DHMIS 2, the lesson that everyone will run out of time is introduced to the three kids and we see Robin decaying the most out of all of them. We see Robin decaying again in DHMIS 4 while learning about what you can do in the virtual world (if you look closely enough, you’ll see his head decaying.) Therefore, I believe that Robin has been ill and dying since DHMIS 2, and Harry and Manny are aware of it (Harry more so than Manny). In DHMIS 5, Robin is sent to the hospital and dies while in the hospital. It’s possible that the whole ‘healthy foods’ lesson is being taught because Manny is trying to stay healthy so that he won’t die like Robin.

TDLR; In DHMIS 5, Robin and Manny learn about healthy eating/taking care of your body/how to stay healthy. I believe that since DHMIS 2, hints have been dropped suggesting that Robin is sick and dying, and he finally dies in DHMIS 5. Manny is trying to learn how to stay healthy in order to keep himself from dying so soon like Robin.

Also, in this episode, Harry is only shown towards the end. He’s next to a red payphone and walking in the rain with a briefcase. Seeing this, it’s extremely likely that the reason Harry’s missing throughout this episode is because he’s grown-up, moved out and left to start his own adult life. He’s probably calling to see how Manny and Robin are (especially Robin), and the final call is probably to check up on Manny to see how he is after the death of Robin.

In DHMIS 6, everything comes together and suddenly makes sense. Harry is older now, he’s working in an office. The adult life is extremely boring for him, so he tries to cling to the bits of childlike innocence and imagination he has left. He’s shunned for this by other adults because he’s not fitting in with them. Manny is left alone after the death of Robin and after Harry leaves. He’s scared, sad and lonely. He realizes now that he doesn’t have as much time as he thought he did, and is having nightmares about death (drowning in oil). He’s realizing too much at once for his age and it’s overwhelming him (the visions of things he’s seen prior to this episode such as the clock and the meat). Harry realizes that  Manny is upset and overwhelmed after the death and him moving out. Harry seeing Roy (Manny’s father) then pulling the plug is most likely Harry helping Manny cope in some way. It might even symbolize Manny growing up and coming to terms with everything.

At the end of DHMIS 6, we see three new characters who I’m going to name ‘Blue’, ‘Yod’ and ‘Birb’ (stupid names, I know but it’s only for now) and then DHMIS 1 begins again. Originally, I theorized that these new characters might be children of Harry, Robin and Manny, but seeing as Robin died and there’s no proof that Harry and Manny even decided to have kids, I have a new idea. These new characters are simply a new generation of children. They’re new children who have the same amount of innocence, imagination, and same ideas as Harry, Robin and Manny, hence why they look like them. The June 19th on the calendar becoming June 20th could symbolize a new generation (the new three) hence why it changed. They’re the new generation who has to go through similar hardships as Harry, Robin and Manny.

To address character Roy: Roy is Manny’s dad. That’s really it. I know there are theories where Roy is controlling the boys and possibly kidnapped them but I don’t think that’s true. He’s just the dad of Manny and oversees the boys when they’re at his house (where most of the episodes take place). After the death of Robin and seeing how it’s hurting Manny, he contacts Harry in hopes that he’ll be able to help his son.

SO in summary;

DHMIS 1-6 revolves around three children, Harry, Robin and Manny, growing up and trying to keep their childish innocence and imagination while Robin is ill and dying. By DHMIS 5, Harry has become an adult and moved out. In DHMIS 5, Robin dies in the hospital and leaves Manny completely alone. In DHMIS, he spirals out of control while trying to grieve, so his father contacts Harry in hopes that Harry will help Manny. In later months/years, three new children are introduced and they will go through the same adventures that Harry, Robin and Manny did. Basically DHMIS is about being a child and growing up.

My heart just kinda hurts and I’m not okay. It’s a bit more than love, love will always be painful, but the anger… I came up with cute techniques to counter it, but will it work? I’ll let you know if I ever succeed in saving my left hand. My heart just kinda hurts and I won’t lie to you. Not you. Never you. I don’t feel okay. I’m exhausted. My initial thoughts to a normal day involves faking all of these damn smiles and I cannot, not any longer. Your words have kept my armor shiny, but I still fail to grip the sword. I can’t slay my fucking demons, but can anyone really do such a feat? My demons are tigers, they know where to hunt. They know where I lay my head. They know where I sleep. They know that I still look for love, but with this guilt, I’ve considered being alone forever. And it sucks, because I crave relationships, but can’t even open my mouth to say hello. I’m torn between myself and who I want to be, is that perfectly normal? Are people like me? Or am I really one of a kind? Father is a crackhead and mother is frail and empty because life gave her addictions and she gave it her veins and then she gave me her veins and I inject it with needles signed by the devil himself and I can’t help that I’ve been thinking about kinda saying sorry to everyone I still love because my smile was never enough and I hate that I get this way and I’ve been trying so fucking hard to be better, but at the end of the night when everyone sleeps with a smile, it’s just me and it’s just you and I can’t help, but not feel a bit better. To not be as alone. You are my together. Together with my hands, you’d say I got this. My heart, sister, my heart it fucking hurts. Is that normal? Is it normal to be hurting every day? I want to jump off a cliff and ask the fall, how have you been? I’ve been falling all of my life. I’ve been failing all of my life. It seems this poetry, my poetry, it’s the only thing I’ve kept alive through miracles of running into you and I like where I’m at, but it can be much better and I seem to be stricken with a strain of depression– I’ve been throwing up words and coughing up ink. I seem to want affection, but can’t find any. I want to be held, but I also want to let go. I want to be needed, but even if you say that everyday that I’m alive… Is a day you could smile for… And I can’t help it. Sometimes, I don’t think being alive is worth it. I’ve been thinking a whole lot lately about myself and you wanna know why I fucking hate myself? Because I’m 23 and life was never beautiful to me. Because I’m 23, but I’ve taken more drugs than I’ve remember being held, even as a newborn, even as a new boyfriend and even as a soul. Because I’m 23, but I still miss someone who has already forgotten me. Because I’m 23, and I chose to be a poet out of all things. Because I’m 23 and they said, you were born with a gift, the gift of words. Because I’m 23 and I still miss that 22 year old who almost gave up, who cut himself, because I’m 23 and I still miss that 21 year old boy who never became a man and he worked as a server and hated seeing the gluttony, but he still smiled even if he was a slave, they say that small beginnings lead to big bangs and you know what? I can’t see it. I fucking hated it. I hated myself for seeing this way, why can’t I be a sheep? Because I’m 23, and I still miss that 20 year old kid who got to know that his father was never going to properly love him because he’d much rather spend his money on finding his dealer instead of finding his son. Because I’m 23, and I still miss that 19 year old smile, I had more innocence inside of my toe then than the entirety of this current broken body and I still try everyday, but everyday is a reminder that I’m constantly changing and I’ll never being able to keep all the pieces of me. Because I’m 23, and I still miss being 18, because when I was 18, I saw my heart break, truly break, for the very first time. I guess I never forgave her. Maybe it was 17. Maybe. Because I’m 23, and I fell in love at 17 and I still write about someone who doesn’t care. Someone who has moved on. And maybe she does care, but she’s not here. It’s just me. I’ve been doing a whole lot of thinking and I seem to forget about my family, but lately, I’ve been trying so hard to not. Because I’m 23… But I still remember when I was 16 and how that was my favorite high school year, I was finally single for a whole year and able to focus on school, why didn’t I just listen carefully? Don’t break those hearts, boy. Don’t fall in love. Just go to school and do good. Become something. Instead… I became this. Because I’m 23 years too far gone and I still remember 15, I remember when he hit my mom and I didn’t do a fucking thing, you want to know what I said? She’s a grown woman, that’s her lover. Let her decide. When did I become so heartless? Because I’m 23 years too lost inside of my own eyes, but I still cry about 14, I remember when my father watched us for a month… I was with some friends and came home high. I talked back because I don’t respect anyone or give way to anything. So he threw a thick & glassy ash tray near my head, he missed. But sometimes… I wish that he had not. I wish he would’ve cracked my skull and just let me forget everything. I wish he would have killed me for me. I can’t. Because I’m 23 years too hateful for anyone, I still dream about 13 because I lost my virginity to a girl who said that regrets meant we had to strip ourselves of ourselves and that has changed everything. Because I’m 23 years too weak to hold anything, I still believe in 12, the first time I stopped my mother from physically abusing me. I said you’ve got to stop. I’m growing up a bit. Now I remember when I became cold. Because I’m 23 years too deep in my own depression so I still give my 11 year old self a good night kiss and a sweet ‘I love you’ poem for bed. Because I’m 23 years old and I still say that love is a super hero with a cape and I’m the sun giving it powers unimaginable by man… Because that 10 year old’s smile was so fucking pure to me. When did I lose that piece of me? Because I’m 23 and I still cry about me. I remember now. I lost it when I saw those fishes die. You know, the ones from 3 am fights. You know, the ones from hammers. You know, the ones from my mother’s tears. You know, the ones from her agony. You know, the ones from her ocean of pain. My mother’s ex boyfriend broke many fish tanks. So…when he hit my mom, he hit all of my siblings. When he hit her skull, I can still hear her scream. I was so young, maybe, 9. I didn’t do a thing. Stay upstairs, she whispered. Because… because I’m 23.. And when I was 8, I remember my grandmother’s smile. She loved to smile. She also loved to drink. Idk how she did it, but she’ll always be my happiness. Because being 23 meant that I had to be a man and provide for my family, I’m ready, but when I think about 7 and how I made those shitty eggs for my little brothers– I was a bigger man then than I am now and I still cry about that. Because I’m 23 and I’m unlucky. When I was 6, I used to have a golden retriever. Want to know his name? His name was Lucky. My mother was fucking cruel. She gave him away every time. The first time, he escaped and made his way home. The second time, he escaped and came home next to me. The third time, he got hit by a car and he still made it home. The fourth time… oh, the fourth time…yeah, now you know why I’m unlucky. Because I’m 23 and I can’t recall past 5, so I’ll make up some common knowledge thrown around by my step grandmother and half aunties and half uncles. They said, my grandfather loved me the most. I was spoiled. I was adored. I was beloved. I was cute. I was so young and I held onto him. And then he got cancer like every sad story. And then we had to cremate him, and then I wasn’t. And then I’m here again. I can’t help to think… When my grandmother stares into my eyes… When my aunts and uncles look at me… When my mother does… Do they see my grandfather? Maybe that’s why they ridicule me because I could never be like him. When I was 4, I was probably crying because I lost my best friend. He chose someone better, someone cooler. When I was 3, it was just me, my mother and two brothers. We didn’t need my fucking father. When I was 2, I probably got my first memory, I’d like to think… It was my mother’s first real laugh. When I was 1, I laughed for the first time, I wonder if my father laughed the same way when he was 1. When I was a day old, I saw my first love, my first heart– my mother. When I was in the womb, I felt a thump, my father kicked my mother out of a car and I can still feel his feet near my cheekbones. When I was non existent, I was already consumed by hate– so it’s no wonder… It’s no wonder that I hate myself. Now you know a little bit about me and why it hurts. We all get to complain, but everyday… You still say… You still claim…

That I’m nothing less than beautiful.
And Alexandria, my heart hurts,
but it’s okay. My heart hurts,
but I’ll heal. My heart hurts–

But I still have you.
And well…

I’m 23 and I think it’s time to grow up.

I love you.

—  My heart just kinda hurts and that’s okay
// kiet chung