[All of this happened because I wanted to write something about Stiles not being able to sleep without his pillow. Spoiler alert: his pillow is Derek.]
Derek tries not to look too hurt when Stiles says he’s going back to Washington, but when the Sheriff claps his back and Scott offers him a friendly hug, he knows he failed. But after everything, after the other night - it just doesn’t feel fair.
“It was a nice road trip, wasn’t it?” Stiles had said after they’ve won, after everything was done, their friends were alive and fine and Derek finally got his loft back. “I mean, we had some fun, right?”
Derek smiled without looking away from the flowers the Sheriff got him as a housewarming gift. “Yeah.” He answered, finally turning around. “It was nice to spend time with you.” It was more than nice and he cursed himself for not being able to say it, still, after everything, after the nights spent driving and talking and fucking in deserted roads.
“Yeah.” Stiles agreed easily. He was the one who started it after all, always showing up to save Derek - despite Derek saving him back plenty of times - always being there, trusting him, smiling and laughing like Derek makes him happy. “What will you do now that you’re a free man again?”
Derek shrugged. “I always wanted to start a farm, maybe raise some sheep?” When Stiles blinked at him, surprised, Derek let out a snort.
“Fuck you, I almost believed it!” Stiles said, punching his shoulder.
“You’re ridiculous.” Derek shook his head, still smiling.
“You’re ridiculous.” Stiles stressed, his hand still on Derek’s shoulder, touching, teasing. “I’m -“ Derek didn’t let him finish then, turning around and just pressing their lips together.
He didn’t want to listen then - and in hindsight maybe he should’ve - but without the haste, the guilt of having a nice time whilst their friends could be dying, Derek couldn’t wait, he just wanted to worship Stiles’ body, just wanted to kiss all the places he couldn’t reach before when they were squeezed in the backseat of Stiles’ car.
And so he did, he made Stiles moan his name the entire night and he moaned Stiles’ own just as louder. Just to have his heart crushed the morning after.
“I’m gonna miss you.” Stiles says, his Jeep packed and ready to go. To leave everything behind.
It’s unfair, Derek knows. Stiles didn’t make promises and neither did he, but he can’t help how he feels. He understands Stiles doesn’t want to be in Beacon Hills anymore and that’s his choice, but Derek made his own and he’s tired of running away.
He’s never felt closer to his family than when he’s here, he’s already lost enough and he doesn’t want to lose his home. But somehow, as Stiles drives away, he feels like he just did.
I miss you, Derek thinks every day, staring at the black screen of his phone and wondering if he should actually write those words and send them to Stiles. He decides against it and despite the fact he was joking before, on the third day after Stiles left, Derek buys a farm.
He tells Lydia first during lunch at her favorite restaurant - she was adamant they had to become best friends and Derek enjoys her company so he lets it happen easily - and she tells him he’s not allowed to wear plaid around her. Then he tells Scott and two days later, he shows up at Derek’s front door with all kinds of seeds - “We need pumpkins for Halloween, Derek. Make it happen!”.
It’s something to do with his hands, something to work on. Create life, instead of ending them, build things, instead of destroying. He feels good, better and healing. Cora says he’s calmer now and Derek smiles, despite knowing she won’t be able to see him, and tells her he is.
Some days Stiles texts him, others he doesn’t. Derek reads the ones he has every night before going to bed, but he never answers them.
Cartomancy is divining with playing cards. Each card has a meaning and are interpreted by the reader who organizes them into certain spreads. Spreads are the way that the playing cards are set onto the table and I’ll be talking about them more later. Some readers integrate their spirituality into their readings, calling upon deities or spirit guides or connecting with their higher self. Others may use their beliefs to explain how cartomancy works.
Regarding emotions and home
Ace: New friendship or romance
Two: Deepening attractions
Three: Joy in company, friendship, or celebration
Four: Turning inwards, apathy
Five: Despair, loss
Six: Childhood, nostalgia, good memories, old frienship
Seven: Daydreaming, wishful thinking, choices
Eight: Emotional detachment, leaving love behind, making a hard choice
I use the joker to represent unlimited potential but I’ve seen various meanings.
Here’s an example of a cartomancy spread:
A reader places a card on every rectangle pictured above. They would then apply the meaning of the card to the situation it stands for. A spread sets up the situation you are looking to divine about. Here is a spread focusing on a person’s whole life but a reader could lay out a spread that’s centered on a person’s love, job opportunities, or present struggles.
If doing a face-to-face reading, it’s a good idea to ask the receiver to shuffle the cards. This allows them to connect to the cards and engage in the reading.
When you draw the cards, you can choose from the top of the deck or spread them out and choose whichever call to you.
There is more to consider in cartomancy than the set card meanings. A group of certain colored cards can be significant as can a group of court cards (kings, queens, jacks)
The more you know about the cards, the easier readings become.
Pluto stationed direct on September 28th, after being in retrograde since April 20th of this year. Pluto transits work to transform us by uncovering underlying truths, revealing deceit, and showing us the unhealthy patterns in our behavior need to be addressed… This could have been very uncomfortable for you, or perhaps you have already sensed this transformative energy, and have decided to take back some of your personal power. Either way, Pluto’s retrograde has let us reflect what we need to get rid of, and now it’s time to cleanse ourselves of that energy and experience psychological rebirth. Any power you lost during the retrograde is waiting for you to take it back. Time to get things moving.
The house that contains transiting Pluto can show you the area of your life that has intensified in preparation for psychological growth. Signs most affected by this transit: Aries, Taurus, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn.
Capricorn Rising (1st House):The way you project yourself onto the world and view your personality. You may be experiencing a strong desire to take control of your life, or even the people around you. You may desire to transform your personality in some way in hopes it will help you become stronger. You may have grown tired of certain parts of your persona and feel you’ve outgrown them. Growth in general seems to be quite important to you right now, but if you resist the changes entering your life you will be quite unhappy, as they are working to help you through this.
Sagittarius Rising (2nd House):What you value (psychologically AND materialistically) as well as your self-worth. You may be experiencing changes within yourself in relation to the way you place value on things or what you consider luxurious. The way you make money could have been a serious area of your life these past few months, but right now you have the potential to be very powerful here- as long as you know what you want and go about it without stepping on toes.
Scorpio Rising (3rd House):Your thought process and the method you use to exchange ideas with others. You may have noticed some intense conversations recently and could find yourself more curious than usual. You may have experienced issues with the way you communicate or learn these past few months, and perhaps made, or desired to make, some changes in this area. Right now you have a strong potential to uncover the truth, and sense when you are being lied to. You can grow a lot from learning right now.
Libra Rising (4th House):Your roots and familial relationships. This transit can be rough for a harmony-loving Libra rising, as what brings you stability is surely going to experience transformation. The attitude you have surrounding your roots may have intensified recently, as well as your attitude toward your family members. Attachments to your past may have demanded more of your attention than usual, but this was so you could see them as they are and let go. Anything faulty that you rely on for stability is going to fall apart before Pluto leaves your fourth house, so take caution.
Virgo Rising (5th House):Your romantic relationships and creative self-expression. You’ve grown tired of the emotionally conditioned habits you’ve formed that no longer serve you. For you, this is a great time for reflection and self-analysis. The patterns in your relationships have likely undergone recent change, either the destruction of old habits, or the creation of new ones. If you had trouble expressing yourself, right now is a great time to take back that power and explore your creative self.
Leo Rising (6th House):Your habits/routines and attitude towards your health. Your unhealthy habits have likely been brought to the surface of your life, commanding your attention. You may have realized these no longer serve you and replaced them with new and improved routines, or perhaps you are still looking for a solution. The way you go about your daily routine may be something you’ve reflected on these past few months, and you may be ready to introduce some variety into your normal habits.
Cancer Rising (7th House): Your one-on-one relationships and the way you compromise. You may have experienced power struggles in your relationships, or feel forced to make changes within them in order to keep them alive. You may have been overly hung up on the past or pleasing other people. Right now is a good time to examine your relationships and note the patterns within them that are unhealthy or do not bring you satisfaction. If your relationship fell apart, know it was for the best and use it as a learning experience to help you start with a clean slate.
Gemini Rising (8th House):Your shared resources and desires. This retrograde actually hasn’t been too bad for you, Gemini. You may have been a bit reflective and introspective, contemplating your unsatisfied desires, and making time for yourself. You’ve probably been curious and contemplative of Plutonian topics like sexuality or spirituality. You may have been devoting more time to yourself and felt more motivated to take the time to be alone, as Pluto transiting the 8th can be a very reflective transit in general.
Taurus Rising (9th House):Your morals and spiritual/philosophical beliefs. You may have experienced some uncomfortable developments regarding any beliefs you’ve held onto blindly, or beliefs that are built upon faulty morals or logic during the past few months. No worries! It’s simply time to learn from experience and form your own beliefs for yourself. Or perhaps simply examining beliefs with an objective eye, and noting flaws you may not have recognized before. On a side note, you may feel less restricted in your sexuality and feel more willing to explore your desires.
Aries Rising (10th House):Your desire to succeed and make a name for yourself. You may have experienced some shifts regarding your career path, either success or completely unexpected changes, as is expected during a retrograde. If you were unsure of what career path you should be pursuing when Pluto went retrograde, it’s likely that by now you’ve experienced total change in your plans. Watch out for being overly domineering right now as you take back control of your ambitious drive.
Pisces Rising (11th House): Your humanitarian beliefs and connection to a group. Your desire to help others may have recently intensified and you may have felt more drawn to the feeling of being part of a group of likeminded people. You may have been a bit drained these past few months which has pushed you to reflect and contemplate. Anything that has acted as an obstacle between you and your desire to connect with others or work for the greater good of society is ready to be conquered now. Are you ready?
Aquarius Rising (12th House):Your subconscious and emotional attachments. How fun! It’s time for you to release yourself of your old psychological patterns and behaviors, the ones that you’re seeing are no longer functional. You’ve more than likely been quite introspective these last few months, and others have seen you be even more emotionally distant than usual. It’s okay, Aquarius. It’s a great time for you to reflect on your emotional tendencies and judge them based on their healthiness/functionality. Focus on yourself for a little bit, but it doesn’t hurt to softly remind others that you still care.
This whole designing adventure first started from close friends seeing what I did with Laili’s house and wanting me to help with their own Shirogane properties, and resulted with me working on a couple of houses at the same time. I’ve grown a bit of a clientele from there, and my fc leader even decided it was time for change after two years and tasked me with the remodeling! I can’t take 100% credit for everything I do, as I find designs I think would work well in a space and modify it with my own personal twists to make it fit the owners and the themes I feel would work best.
So with that said, here is the first of the two houses to be completed. I’m super proud and happy with the way it came out. Sango, the owner, gave me complete creative freedom and loved the ideas I presented from the get-go!
The house is shared by 4 people, so I thought the upstairs would be best suited as a hangout/lounge/bar area for them to share.
There was a TON of improvisation with this space due to the inspired
design coming from a medium house. It took a lot of adjusting and
editing to get the feeling in a drastically smaller space.
Ultimately we went with an aquatic theme with blue lighting, and I think it came out fantastic~
Also its a super long post so added a cut. Click “keep reading” to see the rest of the property!
Is there a way (from reading a chart) to determine what someone's ideal mate may be like or how they would like them to be?
Aha sweet heart there’s sooo many intervals that go into that. I feel like as complex of humans as we are it’s so intricate knowing what it is that people desire or want a lot of the time some of the people we do fall for or desire are something entirely reminiscent of the shadow side of ourselves that we don’t even resonate with.
But astrology wise?
Your moon sign alone is the type of lover you crave on an emotional level. It’s the lover and or people you may cling too out of being reminded of the feeling of home and instinctual pleasure they bring. This is your raw and more heart felt needs and desires and you may prefer a lover with this qualities in the long term.
Moon signs aspects: go a little deeper on the little small nuances they’d prefer from their lover and qualities they might be naturally drawn to and accustomed too because they express these same emotional values.
House the moon is falling in-this shows the unconsciously desired mate. This is the mate you unknowingly cling or attach to. For example a moon in Aries wants a masculine and or direct and honest partner but if it falls in the 10th house they also find them selves unknowingly drawn and in need of more cautious and aloof/mature partners who may be dynamic and intense but have a level of reliability and a protective and ambitious aspect about them.
Venus sign alone: what brings out the romance in you-how you are in romance and also how you go about expressing your desires. The sign it’s in really explains your style and desires when an intimate relationship and the relationships you may crave.
Aspects further light up how you act in love and some nuances of how your behavioral patterns are aligned with the venus sign itself.
House that venus is in: says a lot. Like a WHOLE lot about what someone wants out of a lover. This is because venus is more of a receptive and u and I planet which means it’s not so much so focused on the “what I want” aspect than it is on the “how I’d like for us to be” the House venus is in projects venus need for the u and I in a more “what I desire and where I desire it” sort of energy. So for houses here’s what I’ll say they’ll give you a lot of insight into what they crave affection and relationship wise. A Venus in Scorpio in the 6th would crave intensity but also more than anything wants stability and consistency-someone serious about the relationship in a palpable way.
Mars: misconception. This is how we go about initiating and or expressing a desire for sex-as well as in a minor way how and what arouses us.
Aspects give future insight on how sex is expressed and how it goes about
The house it falls in goes into the way a person may crave to be sexually desired and what they desire sexually from a partner. A mars in Virgo in the 5th May be shy and nervous when it comes to it but will crave a partner who covers them with affection and makes their desires for them known. And despite their nervous energy sex with them might be intense if mars is square Pluto and so on.
8th house is about intimacy after the relationship has been defined or trust/time has passed and they take you seriously. The sign on someone’s 8th house can show what they desire for true intimacy and on a deep passionate level the type of partner they crave to bare it all too.
Aspects to this show deeper into the sex style after this point.
House placement of the ruler here gives further insight into the projection of this energy and the requirements of earning this trust and what might be a given test before they open up to you in this way.
A sag 8th house with Jupiter in the 11th will probably have to feel like you have their back and are easy to talk to in a supportive and loving way first before they show you that side of themselves. They have to know you want them but more importantly they want to feel at ease and In a way like you’re they’re friend and they’re lover.
5th house and 2nd house deal more with physical desires. So the sign on the cusp is exactly what is sounds like, someone who exudes those qualities we tend to find sexually and sensually alluring. Libra 5th house cups might find the buttocks on someone fascinating. Someone with manners and who is kind and lets them speak and treats them gently might be erotic sexually to them while someone with these qualities might turn on someone with libra on the 2nd in a physical and sensual way.
The houses the house ruler falls in for these two houses is so important because this is the 2nd layer and shows what they desire to take you “seriously” this can change a lot and if someone 2nd house or 5th house ruler touches a lot of your planets they find you deeply physically and sensually arousing in a big way.
Common aspects used constantly in the “desired mate” conversation.
In truth the house they fall in is a lot more important than the sign they fall in mainly because the sign is layer one and the house is layer two and talks more about what they may seek out in a lover rather than what turns them on individually. A sag in psyche wants to be incontrol when in love but if it falls in the 7th house they desire a compassionate and understating partner who doesn’t mind compromises.
Juno is long term love and it’s important to see what house it falls in as this will be what makes people seek out their lover. It’s the qualities we need them to have rather than want them to have. Someone with Juno in the 4th but in libra wants a charming and good looking lover but needs a lover with emotional backing and one who is tender and soft above all else and will often forgo a cutie pie if said cutie doesn’t understand them emotionally-this is soooo important to understand his difference.
Amor and Eros are gratification and adoration so the sign and house relationship here are mainly for knowing what someone craves to be truly adored and loved. The house it falls in can tell you what they crave from a lover in terms of this adoration.
Lilith and Pluto the true sex planets and sexual compatibility.
Where Pluto and Lilith fall and their houses is what someone might seek in a partner on a deeper more “I’m scared but I’m drawn to you” type of way. Something intense and unconscious. Where these planets fall can say a lot.
Someone with Pluto in the 7th crave a deep and intimate sexual union and may look for someone who is gorgeous physically as well as someone who is charming and a tad mysterious someone who isn’t overbearing but someone who has a perceptive and warm nature about them. (They’ll still be Plutonian but a more libra meets Scorpio taint)
While someone with Pluto in the 9th or Lilith in the 9th want someone who’s passionate and mischievous and a bit daring. Someone with a free yet dark edge about them.(they’ll have a sagittarian meets Scorpio flare)
Jupiter and it’s house-what mate inspires you and what qualities you look for in someone you want to admire
Neptune-what qualities you look for in someone to let your guard down with and be deeply sensitive with. Someone with the qualities of the house your Neptune falls in will be extremely magnetic and irresistible to you.
Saturn-someone you can build with and see a future with. The house your Saturn falls in will give you insight of what qualities you need this person to have.
Saturn in the 11th-someone whoes realistic yet honest and a bit of a loner. Someone who has a way of separating themselves from a crowd and being naturally confident and self assured. Someone who’s strong alone with out others. May be who you want to see a future with.
While Saturn in the 12th would crave a elusive and deeply sensitive partner. Someone who is mysterious yet complex and deep. Someone who sees through your facade and someone who isn’t afraid to express themselves to you.
Lastly 12th house/4th house cusp and rulers give insight into the qualities unconsciously sought after In others and the houses of the house ruler give insight into the types of qualities you crave expressed in a partner.
This is all I can think of for now!!! I would say sun and mercury but I would think the more feminine and generational planets play a deeper role in that unless mercury or sun are your dominate planets.
Venus in the 12th: I fear love and will hide it from others, but I absolutely admire the idea of it, of all forms of love, Divine love. I want to serve and heal the world with my love. I want to dissolve into love. Constantly generating fictional romances in my head, I dream of Love. I just want to melt into someone and them into me
Pluto in the 5th: I want my romantic relationships to go beyond the material realm. I want it to penetrate my soul, to kill me and revive me. I wanna know all the mysteries of love.
Neptune in the 7th: I want to save someone and I want someone to save me. Astrologer Isabel Hickey describes this position as “Gives a constant yearning for perfection.” The 7th house is what we project because it’s what we wish to find in ourselves through others. I seek perfection of myself through finding the “perfect” and ideal partner. I seek completion and redemption through love, a celestial Union
Libra moon: I am a lonely person ok?? Nothing wrong with that! I daydream of love. Diurnal Venus, the part of Venus focused on connectivity, relationship and Union works through me so it’s a concept I find very important. The moon=emotional needs & Venus=affection/love; I genuinely feel like I need love. I want to experience joining into One with someone, sounds magical. I want to find someone who will complete my emotional hollowness
Gemini venus: I’m indecisive about love, but curious about it. I talk about it, I think about it, and I want to learn more about it!! The butterfly fitting from one flower to the next, tasting all the sweet nectar. What is love? Why is it like that? So many questions about it
Venus conjunct mercury: Love is always on my mind!!! I sing and speak the love principles!! I want to learn more about love
Venus conjunct mars: sooo passionate about love, I’ll fight for it. I value and appreciate Love as a whole. My adrenaline senses are stimulated by love, sparks that birth a flame in my heart
Venus sextile Saturn: I respect the love principle. I want partners who will bring Order to my relationships, elevated and dignified love.
Venus trine moon: Love is internalized, it’s embedded into my soul. I’m emotional about love, it’s a beautiful thing. Love becomes an emotional need. I want love that brings me comfort and safety. I have midnight dreams about love
Venus trine Uranus: I want to spread love universally. I want electrifying and shocking romances. I want to innovate love in the world, to show that love comes in many forms and not only through conventional configurations
One of the largest bamboo bridges in Asia, the Millennium Bridge extends 75 feet (23 meters) from one side of the Ayung River to the other. It is connected to the Green School, an ecologically sustainable complex that’s also made out of bamboo, as well as mud and local grasses. Nearby, there is a community of bamboo houses. These projects were all started by the team at IBUKU, an organization dedicated to beautiful and natural building, to demonstrate how bamboo can be used as a renewable alternative to concrete or steel. 📸: Photo by IBUKU
YOU GUYSSSSSSS @plastic-pipes illustrated the most darling likeness of me in my Project KR / Superboy costume! I could cry it’s so incredible and I feel beautiful just looking at how gorgeous she drew me <3
Superboy New 52 / MOS inspired suit designed by House of J Customs
note: decided to make a masterlist for my story psycho, this is always going to be updated with the latest chapter. i added some summary’s to certain chapter’s not all because it would spoil the story. hope you like this and have fun reading!
(also i’ll be adding in when I’ll be updating the story &
i don’t really have a overall summary of this story)