I Tried To Be The Doe But I Am A Lioness-Cersei Lannister~ A New Reign Part One


She was beyond excited for the wedding. Robert Baratheon, First of His Name, would soon belong to Lady-no, Queen-Cersei of House Lannister.

She had been at the table the whole night, sipping her wine, smiling, whilst her husband went to go speak with his friends. Whilst her husband danced with whores. Whilst her husband drank more than any man should have. Still, she was young and she loved him.

Only one man was decent enough to ask about her, whether she was alright and that was Ned Stark. Oh, how she hoped Robert was as good a man as Ned was. She smiled and talked to him and his betrothed, wishing them a happy life as they did her.

No other man did try and talk to her as well as Ned did, except for her brother Tyrion. Though he was drunk, he still somehow cared for his sister. And she was sad, so she let him care. And so they did converse, though the bitterness that Cersei had for him had not fully disappeared, it was only clouded by wine and illusions of a happy marriage.

Before long, the cries of congratulations had become cries of rejoicing at the bedding ceremony. Though Robert looked slightly regretful, looking at his bride’s face, he carried on nonetheless. Her father was a terrifying man, and any man that could order the murder of a woman and her children so brutally was definitely a man to be wary of.

They had been stripped of their clothing and then whispered words, words of how to please a man, words of how to please a woman, words of encouragement and words of sympathy. Then they were brought to their chambers, naked except for a thin cotton gown that modestly covered Cersei.

It was odd, to just do it then and there, so Robert ordered everyone out,“You can see for yourself on the sheets tomorrow, get out!”

Then Cersei had smiled gratefully, a small smile. Robert had suggested that they sit on the bed, quickly taking a sheet to cover his parts then beckoning Cersei to sit with him. She eagerly did, and they started to talk instead of consummate.

Before long though, words had turned to kisses and kisses into moans. Cersei had thought in that moment, that perhaps their life would be a happy one. She could see golden.

But then he had whispered her name, the name of the dead girl, the dead girl who he preferred over the living, breathing one. The golden started to sour, started to turn to green. She had tried to understand, and he had apologised profusely, saying he got caught up in the wrong thoughts, and that she was a beautiful woman, and that he shouldn’t have done what he had. She had smiled and said it was alright, that he was still getting over the war. They had gone to sleep that night, with his arm around her body.

The next morning they had awoken, and called the handmaidens to prepare breakfast in the gardens. He helped her get dressed and she him, then he aided her walking from the “soreness” between her legs. She had to make him believe, after all, who would love a woman that had been with her brother? she had thought. They had breakfast that day, together, and then they walked, and talked, and pretended like the last night had not happened. She was hurt, but tried, for his sake and for her sake. Though he was nothing compared to Rhaegar. No one was.

They had walked till the Godswood, then Robert had smiled at her and presented her with a golden chain. Two pendants hung from it, a golden lion and a golden stag. “To remind you of our union, but to remind you that you are free.” He had said.

She smiled and through her arms around him. That day had been pleasant, she remembered it well. The next day, and the next day, turned into a week of pleasant days and then a year. A year of good, pleasant marriage.

But now she looked back on it, wondering why it had soured. Why he had whispered that stupid dead girl’s name. Now she looked back at her husband’s death, her sons and her daughters. Loras’ and Margaery’s. Kings Landing.

You are free, he had whispered all those years ago. Yet today, she felt truly free.

For so many years, I’ve tried to be a Stag, to be a doe, but I am a Lioness. I am not a toy.

It feels good to watch them burn. I might watch the flames for a while, they are so pretty.

A More Accurate Game of Thrones House Quiz

I didn’t like any of the ones I saw online so I made my own. Because like, really? If I like cold places I must belong to House Stark? Being a Stark is about being brave and honorable, and you can very much be that even if you live right next to the fucking Equator. In the same way, preferring dragons to wolves doesn’t make you a Targaryen. I’m pretty sure almost anyone would prefer a dragon to a wolf because a dragon is magical while a wolf is not. Anyway… feel free to reblog with your own answers. I’d love to know which House you identify with! ;)


[✓] You have beaten up at least one person who tried to bully you in school.
[✓] You have answered back to teachers who were rude to you.
[✓] You fearlessly confront people of authority (your boss, professors, parents) when they are wrong or are being unreasonable.
[✓] You’re confident that at least three of your friends would take a bullet for you.
[✓] You think justice is a hundred times more important than mercy.
[✓] Your acquaintances seem genuinely glad whenever they bump into you.
[✓] You’re not easily depressed. Even when you’re in pain, you have effective ways of dealing with it.
[✓] You believe the end always justifies the means.
[ ] You have a quiet type of confidence. You know you’re beautiful but you never talk about it. It’s only one of your many assets, anyway.
[ ] You think there’s no problem at all with loving your friends more deeply than you love your own family.

Score: 8


[✓] If you could have one superpower, you’d like it to be the ability to turn back time.
[ ] You badly crave the approval of your parents, but only because they’re awesome and you wish to be worthy of them.
[✓] You tend to hate authority because you think you can do better than whoever’s in charge.
[ ] You have bullied at least three people in high school.
[✓] You don’t like befriending people with a weak personality. They’re boring.
[✓] You think you are emotionally stronger than most people, but only because you know you’ve survived more terrible things than they have.
[ ] You have stolen something on a dare or to show someone you’re a badass.
[ ] You used to hurt your baby brother or sister when you were kids. You now wish you hadn’t.
[ ] Your biggest regret in your life so far is being loyal to the wrong people.
[ ] You are confident you can live through a zombie apocalypse ‘cause you’ve got skills.

Score: 4

[✓] You are kinda doubtful of people, even friends. You’re always wondering if they have an ulterior motive.
[✓] You have failed an exam before because you were confident you remembered everything so you didn’t review your notes.
[✓] Everywhere you go, you have an almost equal amount of haters and admirers.
[ ] You’re not the only ambitious member of your family. Almost all of you are accomplished in your chosen fields.
[ ] Well, you do have one underachiever cousin, but you don’t remember his name.
[✓] You prefer hanging out with people who are as beautiful, hot and fashionable as you. The photos will look better that way.
[✓] Still, you are not half as shallow as people assume. You’re vain, yes. But heartless? Far from it.
[ ] You have experienced something similar to this: You stole someone’s boyfriend because that someone called you a slut and you’d have hated it if people called her a liar. ;)
[ ] Eight out of every ten selfies you take are uploadable.
[✓] You naturally emerge as the leader of every group in your every class.

Score: 6


[ ] You’ve never—even as a kid— looked down on gay people, much less made fun of them.
[ ] You’re pretty sure your tolerance for alcohol is higher than 90% of the world’s population.
[✓] You tend to be attracted to men and/or women with strong facial features as opposed to baby-faced, angelic-looking people.
[✓] You believe that having too much patience makes one weak.
[✓] You are very protective of children, even those you don’t know.
[ ] You have never in your life been a pushover.
[✓] You think that contrary to what people like to believe, vengeance is a pursuit just as noble as love and peace.
[✓] You support the use of marijuana as a recreational drug. What’s wrong with getting high, as long as you’re not hurting anyone, right?
[✓] You believe that rape is a crime worse than murder.
[✓] You believe that only a good guy with a gun can stop a bad guy with a gun.

Score: 7


[✓] You have never, at least in the past three years, revealed a secret that you swore to keep.
[✓] You value your white-collar, blue-collar and unemployed friends equally.
[✓] You have sacrificed your own happiness to protect or take care of a loved one.
[✓] You enjoy eating KFC’s iconic chicken just as much as you enjoy eating a world-class steak at a fancy restaurant.
[ ] Unlike most people, you don’t dread spending time with your extended family and distant relatives. In fact you love some of your uncles, aunts and cousins just as deeply as you love your parents and siblings.
[✓] Despite having a strong sense of right and wrong, you tend to be judgmental of others, almost never giving “people with a bad rep” the benefit of the doubt.
[ ] You know you’re very talented, but you never like to brag, even in the subtlest ways.
[ ] You revere the law and you value tradition.
[✓] But you think it’s okay to break the law and forsake tradition if doing so will bring happiness to the majority.
[ ] You can recall an instance where your sympathy for others has gotten in the way of your success.

Score: 6


[ ] More often than not, it is emotion and not reason that influences your decisions.
[✓] You still hold a grudge against that kid who called you fat in kindergarten.
[✓] You believe that sometimes, in order to attain true peace, violence is definitely required.
[✓] You would enjoy slapping anyone who talks shit about someone you love… even if that person is only telling the truth.
[✓] You would do cruel things to get what you want… except hurt babies and puppies.
[ ] You don’t believe in giving second chances.
[ ] You have cheated on someone before, and you don’t regret it.
[✓] If you could have impunity from the law for one day, you would murder at least five people. Criminals who got away, mostly.
[ ] You are always very confident when making decisions, and it always surprises you that 50% of the time, your decisions turn out to be tragic!
[ ] You are ambitious and determined. But now that you think about it, your short-term goals do not at all match your long-term ones.

Score: 5


[ ] When you and your friends get into a sticky situation, you are always the one who saves the day.
[ ] You are friends with all the influential people within your school, office or community.
[✓] You have tricked a teacher into giving you a grade that’s higher than you deserved.
[✓] You believe in yourself. You are completely confident that you will achieve your dreams.
[✓] You have never in the past year judged anyone negatively for his or her fashion choices.
[✓] You regularly give old clothes, accessories, books or gadgets to neighbors, friends or relatives who are a bit less fortunate than you.
[ ] You are very much aware of your flaws. In fact, you always joke about them… without secretly crying inside.
[✓] You’re good at reading people. Somehow you can accurately guess their desires and intentions.
[ ] Haters honestly never bother you. Not even a little bit. You know that for every person who wants you to fail, there are ten who want you to succeed.
[ ] You are never the source of discouragement or depression to people. You’re a positive energy from inside out.

Score: 5

How vain is it that I think my results yielded by my own test are accurate. haha I’ve always thought I was a Baratheon at heart, and I’ve always aspired to be as badass as the Martells. ^_^ What about you, which House do you belong to?


Are you ashamed of me, father?
When you were an infant, there was once a trader that landed on Dragonstone. His goods were junk except for one wooden doll. He’d even sewn a dress on it in the colors of our house. No doubt he’d heard of your birth and assumed new fathers were easy targets. I remember how you smiled when we put that doll on your cradle. How you pressed it to your cheek. By the time we burnt the doll, it was too late. I was told you would die or worse the greyscale would go slow, let you grow just enough to know the world before taking it from you. Everyone advised me to send you to the ruins of Valyria to live out your short life with the stone men before the sickness spread through the castle. I told them all to go to hell. I called every master, every healer, every apothecary, they stopped the disease and saved your life. Because you did not belong across the world with the bloody stone men. You are the princess Shireen of the House Baratheon and you are my daughter…


Even as a boy, Renly had loved bright colors and rich fabrics, and he had loved his games as well. “Look at me!” he would shout as he ran laughing through the halls of Storm’s End. “Look at me, I’m a dragon,” or “Look at me, I’m a wizard,” or “Look at me, look at me, I’m the rain god.”
The bold little boy with wild black hair and laughing eyes was a man grown now, one-and-twenty, and still he played his games. “Look at me, I’m a king”, Cressen thought sadly. Oh, Renly, Renly, dear sweet child, do you know what you are doing? And would you care if you did? Is there anyone who cares for him but me?


———— “It may be that we shall lose this battle,” the king said grimly. “In Braavos you may hear that I am dead. It may even be true. You shall find my sellswords nonetheless.”
The knight hesitated. “Your Grace, if you are dead — ”
“ — you will avenge my death, and seat my daughter on the Iron Throne. Or die in the attempt.

  • <p><b>what she says:</b> i'm fine<p/><b>what she means:</b> don't you DARE make fun of tommen he was too gentle a soul for this terrible world and went through TOO MUCH in his precious short life okay FIRST he grew up being tormented by joffrey AND STILL turned out decent and SAW THE BEST in people EVEN THE ONES WHO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HIM AND he was the most decent person in the whole lannister clan THEN he watched his family fall apart and everyone he cared about die ONE BY ONE whilst he was powerless to do anything about it and then he had to do the hardest job IN THE SEVEN KINGDOMS EVEN THOUGH HE'S 12 and tried to make things right and it LITERALLY BLEW UP IN HIS FACE so if i hear ONE MORE fuckin king's landing pun SO HELP ME he's not a lil bitch YOU'RE A LIL BITCH<p/></p>