hope for better live

Aquarius seems to be everywhere at once. Living the past, present and future all at the same time, as they look back on who they were, change who they are in hopes of a better tomorrow, and live in the moment when at all possible.
Perhaps that is why they’re so elusive.

don’t tell me I’m overreacting.

My family fled eastern Europe over a hundred years ago, fleeing brutal pogroms and forced conversion, fleeing restrictions on what we could do, where we could live, and even what we could wear.  But we were the fortunate ones, the luckier ones.  We escaped. There’s an entire branch of my family that’s gone. Wiped from the earth as though they never existed.

My brother-in-law’s father and his sisters came to the UK via the kindertransport, in 1940.  They were lucky too, in a bitter-as-fuck kind of way.

Do you know what the kindertransport was?  It was a train to a foreign country, on which parents put their children, their babies - and some of them were babies - on, alone, in the hope that they would live.

Not “have a better life,” but live.  Because the British government would (reluctantly, under immense pressure) take children under 17 as refugees, but not adults.

The adults had to stay in Germany, and Austria, Czechoslovakia, and Poland .  And they died.  Most of the children never saw their parents again.

So don’t you dare tell me I don’t know the risk of men like Donald Trump and Stephen Bannon, and their bigoted ilk.  I know them.  And I know that it ends in brimstone and ash.

#neveragain  Not for us.  Not for anyoneNot in my country.


Maybe they were discussing the merits of leaving a successful, championship-winning, blue-clad team that you started your career and won your titles with, and moving to a historic, supposedly-making-a-comeback, red-wearing Italian team (thereby allowing a young hotshot to take over your spot in the blue team and very possibly become a threat and/or a thorn in your side in the future)…


Lily, take harry and go! It’s him! Go! Run! I’ll hold him off!’

  • Lily Potter took one last look at those hazel eyes and crooked glasses. And then she ran.
  • Holding her child in her arms she ran.
  • And she heard a thump behind her, like a bag of rocks being dropped onto the floor.
  • But she knew it wasn’t rocks.
  • Still she ran, clutching her child in her arms. 
  • ‘Harry you are so loved.’ ‘Harry dada loves you, mumma loves you.’ ‘Harry be safe. Be strong.’
  • She knew she wasn’t meant to survive, she could live with that. But she would be damned if they would get her baby. His baby.
  • And she got to the stairs. She should go up, go high to get away.
  • ‘No Lils.’
  • It was like a voice in her head. His voice. And she stopped.
  • ‘Keep going. Get out. Go far. Apparate.’
  • Lily Potter never listened to her husbands advice.
  • Except once.
  • So she kept running.
  • ‘Avada kedavr-’
  • ‘No!’
  • She wrapped herself tighter around Harry. No. he couldn’t have him. Not Harry.
  • She felt like she had been punched. She stumbled. But that was it. 
  • Then she heard a bang. Like an explosion behind her.
  • Lily didn’t remember much after that. In fact for a few minutes she didn’t remember anything. She just saw that smile and she kept going. For him. And for Harry.
  • She turned on the spot. Before she apparated she caught one last glimpse of the life she had lead. Of where they had lived together. Of him. 
  • But there was fire. and dust. And everything was wrong.
  • And then it was gone.
  • And she screamed.
  • because she had loved him more than anything. More than she loved herself. More than she thought a person was capable of loving. She would have done anything for him. Sacrificed anything. 
  • But in the end it was him who had paid the ultimate sacrifice.
  • Days went past.
  • People celebrated and cheered. Finally it was over. The curse had rebounded from the loving mother. People were safe.
  • But Lily Potter had lost her husband.
  • And Remus had lost his best friend.
  • And Sirius had lost his brother.
  • And for those few days they didn’t know what to do.
  • Sirius had tried to go after Peter, but Lily had stopped him. She had shouted and cried. He didn’t deserve it, she said. Let the aurors find him. Sirius needed to be here with Harry.
  • Harry
  • He was what kept them going. Always. His smile. His cry. His tufts of hair that stuck up all the wrong way.
  • It was all him.
  • This is what he died for, Lily would think. This is who it was all for.
  • And she knew it was worth it.
  • Because Harry was everything. He was their child. 
  • He was living proof that James Potter had lived, loved and been loved. 
  • He was all James had and had needed. He was all Lily needed to.
  • Because with Harry she saw James, and the life they had shared and the passion she had loved him with.
  • She saw her husband.
  • And she never forgot how important his sacrifice was.
  • ‘I’ll do it James.’ she whispered. ‘I’ll make it all worth it. I’ll make you proud, just like you did to me every day.’

I really hope this rumoured vampire gamepack isn’t just gonna be about vampires, but also witches, werewolves, fairies and zombies. Knowing the sims 4 team it probably will only be about vampires because i cant ever see them doing a supernatural pack with all the occults that the sims 3 had. I feel like their budget’s ‘too low’ for that, because they always say their budget’s ‘too low’ to add in basic things.
And that also got me thinking about pets, how are they ever gonna make a good pets EP with a create a pet menu like the previous games had, and also have more than just cats and dogs.

Like, isn’t the newer game supossed to have more features and not less..
A Summary of the GPF 2016 Men's SP

Overall thoughts/reactions:

Javi is a #ninja and can defy the laws of physics

Patrick’s SP was cleaner than Mr. Clean’s Dry Eraser

Shoma my precious son :’(

I hope Shoma isn’t hurt or disappointed I just want my smol son to be happy

Nathan…just…let’s hope for a better FS????

Adam deserved better™


Yuzuru thoughts/reactions:



Forgetting how to breathe for his entire SP

I’ve ascended


Yuzu is #unimpressed by his score

That quad loop™

Yuzu and Pooh interactions :))))))))

Brian being Brian

Best part:
The B. Esp commentators

Final thoughts:
In Jin Boyang we trust

Do not ever wait around for someone to stop being toxic. Do not spend your time believing they just need enough time to change. Do not give them more chances in hope they’ll turn for the better. Do not hope they will one day live up to their true potential that you can see in them. Do not let them hurt you because it “helps them”. Do not think “if only this one thing changed, they would become better”. Do not work on their trauma so they would eventually treat you better.

Sticking around with someone with a core belief that they have the right to hurt you for their purposes, who believes that you are worthless and pathetic and to be lied to, controlled and used by them, will hurt you, a lot, more than it could ever help them. And no matter what you do, their core belief will not change. No matter in what ways they heal they will not one day wake up and realize you’re a human being. They’ve already proved to feel entitled to hurt you, they’re not going to give up that entitlement, they’re not going to change in a way that would make up for what they did to you. Run. Do not let anyone dehumanize and abuse you, even if they’re traumatized, even if they’re promising they wont do it again, even if they’re feeling justified in doing it, even if they “can’t help it”. It wont be worth it. Waiting around for a toxic person to change is never worth it. 

Today was tough for a lot of us and sometimes there aren’t easy solutions to the struggles we face. Keeping our heads up and trying to stay positive only goes so far in the face of abuse and violence. While I was growing up my home life was often scary and damaging. Holidays were some of the hardest times of the year.

For anyone else who is facing similar struggles or even who may be experiencing other forms of abuse or violence, I want you to know that you will not always be in the position you are today. Even if you’ve been stuck for a while, time will keep moving and you will move with it. The only sure thing about the world is that it keeps changing and growing and something new is always around the corner.

I know living with the hope that things will get better can be draining and exhausting in itself, but it’s a worthwhile investment into your life. Sometimes holding on a little longer is all it takes for something to significantly change.

The violence you may face is not okay nor is it something you should be forced to overcome. You deserve kindness, safety, comfort, and security. And because you deserve those things it’s essential that you continue to reach for them. There is a place in the future awaiting you that has all of these things and all you have to do is keep going a little longer and sometimes a little longer after that.

I am wishing you all joy, hope, and resilience in the new year.

Dear Former-self,
Step down from this pedestal that has been built around you, for you are not nearly as mature as you believe yourself to be. Do not mistake your purity for righteousness. Your prolonged innocence is not a product of moral strength but rather the result of fortunate inexperiences. Understand that the pain you are in now is only a fraction of the torment you will endure later. When the waves of heartache hit, do not surrender, for the days you spend in agony have no resonance when your life is filled with beauty. Make your life beautiful. Do not relinquish yourself to the will of The Way, determine your own fate. Embrace the milestones you face today, the others will come soon enough. Act your own age, adolescent is crucial in development, do not sacrifice your future livelihood by trying to be older. Question the world. Do not play victim or point fingers, we are all responsible one way or another. Learn to accept blame without burdening yourself with guilt. Take my advice, for I have been here before, and I promise you, you will be better.
Yours Truly,

I called both my senators last week and left voicemails telling them that I knew they didn’t care whether I lived or died, but they’d better hope I die soon, because until the day I’m too sick to get out of bed, I’m showing up at every event to publicly shame them. So here I am in Greensboro.

To those that broke in to our house

I wasn’t going to write - not here
not anymore…

What did you find?
some old photographs
an heirloom

some money - held for Christmas presents for the sick children at the Cancer hospital

Did you find the medication? Because we can’t!

Zestril - yes, that’s heart medication
Flexeril - yes, that’s pain medication
IV needles - yes, that’s for cancer medication

Did you find it all? Because we can’t!

The clean-up will happen. The money will be earnt back.

But, what of the children, with limited time, that have seen me every year for eight years?

What of the medication I need? To live another day?

I hope you have a better Christmas and you save someone’s life with that you have taken.

I will survive!

well america has really done it this time huh? let’s just try our best to continue to live and prosper. For those who believe in God and even those who don’t, God is with you every step in the way. In two years, let’s get out there and break the votes and get a Dem Senate! and two years after that? a new president. Let’s just keep fighting and hoping for a new and better world. For the older dems, you guys lived through Bush, so we all will be able to live throughout this. Keep your chins up!