honestly i don't know what i do with my time

story time: presidential edition
  • so you know how everyone has a story
  • you know
  • like the story
  • like if you’re at a party and someone turns to you and says, tell the story
  • and you know exactly what they mean
  • the story
  • well 
  • i have a story
  • and not unlike most good stories, it involves three key components:
  • barack obama
  • pre-2008 reebok sneakers 
  • and the absolute earth-shattering horror you can only feel after making the worst mistake of your life

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So there are definitely more serious things but this is really important to me…anything helps I don’t even wanna have to make this but 10 yrs ago I made my mom adopt a cat and I named her hope because she gave me hope. Unfortunately when my mom moved us to Texas to continue her education we couldn’t keep her because we we’re moving in with her brother, so we gave her to my moms foster sister and we never knew what happened after that. This morning the ASPCA in Virginia called and said they found our cat she’s been living outside without care for probably 7 years the average life span for an outdoor cat is 2 to 3 years she is again continuing to give me hope. She’s obviously very old and very sick so I don’t know how long she’ll live but I just want her to live here with me in comfort loved and cared for. But in order for that to happen we have to fly her here and that’s like extra 200 we don’t have… I don’t expect to get the full amount but we could really use the help. I honestly don’t understand how she’s survived this long but I can’t help but feel like it’s a sign after all this time I can’t just let her die now that she’s found us and as her owner I feel responsible and guilty for the life she had to live. I know everyone is struggling so If you can help thank you from the bottom of my heart if you can’t I completely understand and thank you anyway. cash.me/$Veronicahill

Once, someone told me that my art looks like painted with wind and I never stop thinking about this comment since then. It made me smile, because my art reflected - at least for someone - the way I behave when I paint. I never realised that on my own. My brain accelerates and I hear all kinds of noises except my own thoughts. I paint fast, but it’s not like I want to win a race. Painting fast doesn’t leave time to think or hesitate.  Thinking avoid accidents. My art is made of accidents.

If I stop, for any reason, there is silence and my inspiration to paint that particular piece simply disappears. it’s like my painting or drawing is something brief. Like. not exactly a feeling, but a sensation that I translate into the canvas and it only last in that particular moment.

As a Digital Artist, I started to ask myself if I would be able to surprise myself again. Nothing I was doing now seemed to be enough in Photoshop or any other software. I tried to find solutions without knowing the solution was out of the computer this time. I got out of my comfort zone a lot of time, but when do I got out of a one called technology? Rarely - and this was making me doubt about my hability as a visual artist.

Watercolor is exactly what I need at this moment of my life. Every bushstroke is a surprise for me. It’s more about my feelings and sensation than technique and execution itself. There are no ctrl+z this time. It is what it is and I love this, because it shows more of my identity than any other media. I trully believe I’m doing something weird with watercolor, technically. I should spend more time mixing colors - but that would break my concentration and it just doesn’t work for me to spend 5 minutes mixing colors in the palette. And, honestly, I don’t want to be technical. I just want to feel good. And it’s working :)

(more watercolor sketches at instagram @blvnk.art!)

So, Prison Break will be back in a matter of hours.

And to a lot of you, that may mean nothing. 

But it means a hell of a lot to me.

Prison Break first aired when I was fourteen. I don’t remember much about the night itself, but what I do remember is kicking up a real fuss when my brothers outvoted me on the choice of programming, the two of them commandeering the TV remote and forcing me to watch the pilot of this new prison show instead of the episode of House that I had apparently very much wanted to watch at the time. After that night, though, House certainly never took precedence in my schedule ever again, because I had fallen hard for Prison Break in a way that I never had with a show before (or since), my soul already eagerly sold to it before the credits were even rolling on the first episode. 

For the next four years of my life, it was my obsession, my joy, my greatest love, the one thing I could talk endlessly about (particularly any part related to MiSa, my OTP of all OTPs), and the mere thought of which would always make me happy. It led me to my first fan forum, to amazing friends (who I am still in touch with to this day), and also brought me into the world of fanfiction, which in itself became (and remains) a hugely important part of my life. 

As it went on, the show not only taught me life lessons like sacrifice and making difficult decisions and taking responsibility for your actions; it also taught me about myself, and what I wanted and valued and believed. And, as with any show that truly pulls you in, the characters were always far more than just actors spouting lines– they were like family to me, and I celebrated and struggled and grieved with them through four incredible and traumatising seasons. I genuinely cried more tears for them and their pain than I ever did over anything else in my own (obviously very fortunate and privileged) life. 

The same year that Prison Break ended, I graduated high school and was accepted into medical school, a career that I had chosen for several very good reasons, not the least of which was because my still-forming teenage self had looked at Dr Sara Tancredi and had seen exactly the kind of woman I wanted to grow up to be. About five years after that, I was freshly graduated as a doctor, and finally got the chance to meet Went, Dom, and Sarah at my first Comic Con, and was able to thank them in person for the beautiful thing that they had helped create, and which– in Sarah’s case in particular, of course– had helped to create me. 

Today, I’m exactly a month shy of my twenty-sixth birthday, and have been a doctor for almost two and a half years, having even worked briefly in the prison system during that time, among many other things. I may not have the posters hanging on my wall anymore, and the cardboard box full of memorabilia and carefully folded cranes might be tucked away in a closet out of sight, but even still, this show has never left me. It’s in the “Be the change you want to see in the world” ring that I’ve worn every day for the last nine years. It’s in the tiny origami flower that has been tattooed on the back of my left ear since I was nineteen. It’s in the crane that was tattooed on my left wrist two years ago in Chicago, with those same old forum friends beside me, all coming together for the first time in our ten-year friendship to visit the city and the prison that had been the setting for the story that had brought us into each other’s lives. But even more than the marks on my skin, its mark is still inside me, a permanent building block in the foundation of who I am. 

In the last eight years, there’s only one thing about this show that I’ve always regretted, one thing that I have literally wished (on shooting stars, four-leaf clovers, birthday cakes, 11:11, dandelions– you name it, I’ve wished on it) that I could change. Of course, I know that happy endings don’t always exist; that reality is hard and cruel and whatever, so supposedly TV should be too. But that never stopped me from wishing that there could have been just one more happy ending out there to give to this story.

Then, about two years ago, something happened. Stars– both astronomical and celebrity– aligned. Whispers like ‘reboot’ and ‘season 5′ floated around, and then suddenly, startlingly, my dream had started looking like a possibility. A possibility that eventually turned into a miraculous definite, the confirmation followed by months of filming and promoting that I promptly did my very best to ignore or hide from, because I was convinced that if I thought about it too much– let myself hope too much– it would somehow all disappear again; would revert to being merely an elaborate fantasy that I’d concocted in my head, a silly fangirl’s headcanon to rectify her OTP’s heartbreak as well as her own.

But tonight, it’s all becoming real. Tonight, for the first time in eight years, I will turn on my TV and see my character-family again; will experience that old feeling afresh. And though there’s certainly always the chance that the new season will somehow be a disappointment, or will only add more pain, it’s a chance I’m so very willing to take.  

A chance that I’m so, so grateful even exists.

So, if you can, tune in tonight (9/8c on Fox). Even if you’ve never watched before, even if you think that frankly I’m probably just overhyping it and it’s actually nowhere near as great as I claim. Do it anyway, and show the network and showrunners that what they have done means something to the viewers out there– to the people like me, who got far more from this show than just a fascinating story, who might have been a very different person today if they’d managed to wrestle the TV remote off of their brothers on that one night a dozen years ago. And who knows; a success for Prison Break now, like with The X-Files and Gilmore Girls before it, could mean reboots– and therefore justice– for even more beloved shows down the line, and even more opportunities for other fans to re-experience the things that helped to shape them into who they are.

And, well, this moment may have been eight long years in the making– but whatever happens, it was worth it.

2017 Phan

I like how the phandom has decided that 2017 is the year Dan and Phil will come out, move and get a dog (also possibly get married but like honestly isn’t that supposed to happen in 2022?). And whenever Dan and Phil say they’ll do anything (upload a video, do a joint lveshow etc) we get really excited and we’re like ‘YES, this is IT, guys. They are coming out as a couple. They are anouncing that they got a puppy, they got engaged and that they will soon move. I know it. I just KNOW it. I CAN FEEL IT!’. And then it ends up being just another pleasant, domestic, funny video and we just stand there like ‘wut’ for a bit and then we find a new thing to scream about (eg THEY WERE NOT WEARING ANY PANTS)

i finished my first full week at my first job EVER (3 of those days were full time)

i just took a shower and now i’m going to go eat, have some of the mochi ice cream i bought to treat myself AND BINGE WATCH HXH UNTIL 3AM IDC 

anonymous asked:

I have characters, a timeline (partly) and a universe where the plot should happen,, all I'm missing is the plot,,, do you have any tips on coming up with a plot?? I also don't know if I should actually do my own comic,,, I'm scared that I won't have enough time,,,

Honestly I have the same problem. Like great characters!! Cool universe!! General Idea of what could happen. Plot? nonexistent. I’m the worst at time management too so I’m like the worst person to ask this type of stuff, sorry!

However maybe some followers have some suggestions? I know there’s posts all over tumblr to help writers and comic artists too

  • mom: let me know what stresses you out so I can help you with it. even if I'm contributing to it, just let me know.
  • me: okay, well, sometimes you yell at me and it makes me upset, because you always blame me for it and I'm not allowed to disagree with you or else it's all my fault.
  • me: that's not what I'm saying.
  • mom: YES IT IS.
  • me: .....anyway
the mars signs, basically
  • mars in aries: "u know what. FUCk everything. why doesnt life just give me what i want!!! life is so SLOW and BORING and i want ADVENTURE why can't things just HAPPEN MY WAY for ONCE!!!" *someone tells them to chill* "who tf are you??? are you trying to fight me????? ok i dare you FIGHT ME"
  • mars in taurus: *bad stuff happens* "lol im fine" *more bad stuff happens* "@ life are u trying to provoke me...try harder it aint working" *the worst thing that could possibly happen happens* "OK THATS IT IM AT MY LIMIT. THAT WAS NOT NECESSARY. IM SO MAD RIGHT NOW I CANT EVEN THINK WTF WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME. anyways im actually totally chill haha let me just suppress my feelings it'll be ok :)"
  • mars in gemini: "oh, i see! you think i'm wrong. i'm truly sorry to hear that some pitiful creatures like you find my beautiful mind so complex that you can't comprehend anything i'm saying. i'm sure that, for SOME people, it is indeed a bit too complex hahah lmao (:"
  • mars in cancer: "fine, whatever. u may have said something rude but it's ok im just gonna ignore that" *later* "that fUkcin bitch...i'll show them later, trust me. i'll just wait for the right moment and destroy them when they least expect it"
  • mars in leo: "??? did u just insult me or one of my interests ??? lmao first of all, HOW DARE YOU. second of all, YOU ARE WRONG. i am so beautiful and awesome and such a great friend and THIS is how u repay me??? i'm worth so much more than this. you are disgraceful. i am disgusted"
  • mars in virgo: "i hate everything. NOTHING is going right and i am FALLING APART. honestly i don't even remember the last time something good happened in this world. why are people always annoying me? why is school always annoying me??? why is LIFE always annoying me????? can everyone just STOP"
  • mars in libra: *someone points out that they need to get their life together* "bitch...what? i'm fine...what are you talking about.....my life is 100% under control!!!" *procrastinates everything* "wtf why do i have so much work??? i am dying under all the pressure i hate everything NOTHING IS UNDER CONTROL"
  • mars in scorpio: *on the outside* "okay you know what fuck you im so over this it's over" *on the inside* "i know all ur weaknesses, honey...and trust me, you will regret it. you think i'm over this but i'm definitely not lmao watch ur back"
  • mars in sagittarius: "wtf bitch i hate u, what do you think of yourself??? how dare u disagree with me and say rude stuff to me ugh don't talk to me ever again" *after like 8 minutes max* "omfg the other day i was listening to the duck song and i was thinking about how much you'd like it i mean i bet you've already heard it but it's absolutely hilarious u should watch the video it went viral on youtube hahaha" *someone asks if they've gotten over their anger* "what anger? ...oh thAT. lmao whatever who cares about that, have you heard the duck song?"
  • mars in capricorn: "yeah i'm pretty fucking upset right now, things definitely did not go the way i expected them to. anyways that's just life. i'm over it. i'm just gonna...try and distract myself.....and pretend nothing happened...because that'll help me stop thinking about my shitty life...probably"
  • mars in aquarius: *on the outside* "i guess ur right. maybe what ur saying is the right thing to do :) :) :)" *on the inside* "...excuse me hoe.....ur wrong, i'm right. u can't tell me what to do. i'm well-aware of what i'm doing, if u think i'm gonna listen to anything u tell me to do ur 100% wrong bye"
  • mars in pisces: *accidentally offends someone, someone asks why they're mad* "honestly i'm not totally sure why i'm mad. i didn't even know i was mad until you pointed it out. i mean there are the usual reasons for being mad...people are horrible, life just generally sucks. so yeah im probably just generally mad lmao no worries"
  • nureyev: what do you do for fun?
  • juno: what?
  • nureyev: you know, in your spare time? for enjoyment? fun?
  • juno: I don't know what that is.
  • nureyev: ...you don't know what fun is.
  • juno: if this is one of your criminal mastermind tricks,

bitchy-witch-of-wv  asked:

My cat has terrible matts in her fur but she's afraid of the car/travel crates and the closest groomer or vet is a long way away. She won't let me come near her with scissors or a brush, but she gets these same matts every year and I don't know how to help. What should I do?

Take your cat to a groomer or vet even though she hates it, honestly. This is one of those times where to solve the immediate problem for the animal’s long-term welfare, you have to make them do a thing they really hate. You might be able to ask your vet for a sedative to give her for the trip. 

Once the mats are out, note where they form, and then condition her to allow you near her with a brush. (It’ll take a little while, so start immediately - she’s likely got a pretty bad association with them because of the pain of attempting to brush with mats). Then brush the areas that mat regularly so they don’t re-form. 

  • Scully: Do you have the time?
  • Mulder: For you, Scully? Scully, are you joking? Are you joshin' me? Scully, I would always make time for you. My time is precious but you are more so. Scully, you are... a shining pearl in the sea of mediocrity. I would do anything for you. *wipes tear*
  • Scully: ... No, like what time is it.

anonymous asked:

Honestly im growing old waiting for u to update your fics. Whats the point of calling urself a writer if u dont write? Haha I don't mean any disrespect but Im just wonderig what your waiting for lol. Give us the next chapter!

Hi honey :) Thank you for reading my work, and I’m glad you enjoyed it so much that you want more. I plan to deliver, believe me. 

That being said, what exactly do you think I’m doing when I’m not writing? Staring at a wall? Just for the sake of your edification, please know that I’m a full-time student in college, studying pre-med/public health and business. On top of these heavy majors, I also work, tutor, and lead a few clubs at my school, plus I start interning next semester for my practicum. Then throw in grocery shopping, cooking, having a social life, and sleep…it’s a lot. But I love it, and I love writing too - I just have to make sure I don’t throw away my career while I’m writing fics. I’m sure you can understand. 

I wouldn’t have even responded, but this is like the fifth message of this nature that I’ve gotten recently so just thought I’d clarify a few things. 

ams477  asked:

I was scrolling through your blog a bit (I love your art btw~) and I came across a post about how $100 isn't unreasonable for a page of art. I definitely agree with all of the points made, but it got me thinking, how should one go about deciding how much to charge for their art? I actually plan to do commissions when my art skills improve, but I don't want to charge too much or too little. I know it's a very broad topic to cover, but do you have any tips?

Honestly I’m learning every time. The way I started out was selling my art at public conventions.. the prices were a factor of: my skill, how much time/effort/supplies I put into each piece, and the prices of the vendors around me, and how their skill compared. When I sell prints they’re usually like, $12 each (for a 11X17 poster size) or two for $20, because that’s what most vendors sold theirs at as well. Also at a weekend-long event I got a sense of how well things sold - I would increase the price of items that sold well, and vice versa. As I improve and my clientele increases, I increase the price of commissions and finished products, because 1) my skill level entitles me to; and 2) I don’t have time to fulfill all the orders I get (in busy seasons). 

So - it’s a judgement call of 1) the market; 2) your skill level and how much time it takes to complete a piece; and 3) what kind of supplies you’re using - i.e an acrylic painting on canvas might cost you like, $20 just to start, so you should charge a higher price for that one, versus a watercolour on paper. 

I hope that helps a bit!

anonymous asked:

I've been following for for so long, and yes, all your legacies have broken me to pieces, and I've loved them all. But I will never love a couple like I loved Caleb, and Melody. The heart ache that I feel for them is so real. Every time I saw Caleb without Melody I got extremely emotional. They are definitely my OTP of your legacies, and I honestly don't think that will change (But maybe it will because you're so good at what you do) Please keep up the good work!!

oh my god, I don’t even know what to say, this just makes me so happy that you love them like I love them. omg. thank you so so much ❤️!!

anonymous asked:

....Actors supported and actively promoted the crap. Abbington was the most vocal of them all. I find it disgusting. A 'fix-it' would've been relevant if it was released shortly after the fuckup, but it's not happening. If season 5 is going to happen (how many years people are going to wait for this time?) there will be no point in watching it, at least for me as I don't tend to 'come back for more'. Sorry for the anon, but my blog was Sherlock-related so I deleted it.

While I don’t actively follow Amanda, I do know she has both “promoted” and then shot from the hip and denied. In fact, from what I’ve seen on here she shoots from the hip on a lot of stuff, and I don’t really feel anything about her either way so I honestly don’t pay attention to her. Aside from her, I can’t really think of anything? Martin’s “I don’t know I’m just in it” and Ben rambling like a five year old about who knows what? So I’m not exactly sure what you’re trying to say here. David Nellist? Maybe he knows more that we do?

As for “shortly” after, it’s been a month. Like…in tv time, that’s not long. Winter hiatuses are longer. In Sherlock time that’s a second. I don’t think we have a decent rubric for “shortly after.” Shit, we haven’t even hit the date that was highlighted in TLD. How long did ACD wait?

Truthfully, S4 was SO FUCKED I’d wait until S5, which besides all the “we don’t know,” is happening. They do that every time a new series airs, then everybody freaks out and they get attention. Ben and Martin are contracted through S5, S5 is already mapped out, and didn’t we see something last year that it was already commissioned? You gotta do what you gotta do, and I’m not about convincing anyone. And, remember, we are not the people they are trying to really trick. The larger audience will watch. I have many casual friends who hated S4, think something is up, and will watch S5. I have casual friends who hated S4, think it was a bad season, but will still watch S5.

But even if we assume they were terrible writers who thought they were better, there are SO MANY OTHER THINGS that are inconsistent (there was a fucking camera in a shot!) that I just can’t believe it. Everyone would have had to suck consistently. And to me it’s a cliffhanger despite that shitty freeze frame because of all those shitty things that just don’t make sense. I’ve said a million times that if we are wrong I’ll be throwing rocks alongside everyone else, but the only way ANYTHING makes sense—both in the show and in my real successful adult life where I know what it’s like building a professional legacy people want to put their sticky hands all over—is that the series doesn’t make sense purposefully. There are many, many theories, all of which are beautiful readings and make sense with the narrative that WE DID SEE throughout the rest of the series. Things like this really don’t all of a sudden do 180s. I mean, I’m sure there has been SOMETHING, but it’s much, much harder for me to believe 1) they just really did suck and were faking it, 2) it was all a joke and that yes without johnlock the show doesn’t make sense and also means there are cameras in shots and iconic set pieces change and John’s feet are still in the well, or 3) they got so mad at everyone engaging in a level that was higher than they expected so they smashed it to get back at everyone.

You do you, especially with what you need to do for your health. But whenever start to doubt, I remember I literally predicted the end of TAB on 7/10/2015 (http://whimsicalethnographies.tumblr.com/post/123726639695/i-want-the-last-scene-of-the-special-to-be-john). I’m gonna trust my instincts on this one.

anonymous asked:

So i need some advice, my daddy has cheated on me three times. Twice over text and he kissed another girl. Ik it's silly but I don't know what to do. I love him, and I can't bring myself to leave someone I love. So, what do I do mister?

Silly? You dont know what to do?

are you even serious?

Is this like a serious question? you honestly dont know what to do?

Heres a scenario for you:

You get a puppy! yayyyyy a puppy!!!! its cute and cuddly and its all sunshine and rainbowwws!! ahhhhh!!! puppppyyyy!!!!!

Now that puppy grows a little.. and guess what, it doesnt exactly care about being cuddled or thrown the ball anymore. In fact, its gone to the dog park and seen that theres others it could get that from.

So what does it do?

it bites off your arm.

OUCHY RIGHT? I MEAN CHEESE AND CRACKERS PUPPY… i raised you and loved you and fed you and cuddled you and gave you my everything and you bite off my arm?! well… i loves you though sooo… im gonna keeps you because youre my puppy and OBVVVVVIOUSLY theres no other puppies out there.

anyways…. you can get by with one arm right? I mean.. washing your other armpit with the leftover arm might be hard, but thats ok. you love your puppy… the one who just took a dump in the living room and knocked its water bowl over… the one who keeps doing this little things that are making your life extremely stressful and difficult….but oh right,… you love puppy…. 

but time goes on.. and… cuddling puppy with one arm kinda makes you think about when it bit you. but then whats it do? turns around and bites off your other arm. DANG PUPPY… FUH REAL DOH??? BUT I LOVE YOU… WHY YOU DO DIS TO ME?!

puppy dont care…. puppy is gonna do and get what puppy wants. so for good measure, now that you cant defend yourself because puppy realizes you will just take the punishment.. then puppy gets wise and bites off your leg.

that way youre now trapped.

because without any arms and no ability to get out of the situation youre in.. puppy has turned into a rabies infected, slobbering, evil…  junkyard dog, and hes going to keep eating you.. and eating you… until one day… youre going to wake up and have nothing but a blank grey face with a pair of sunglasses on.

ohhhh puppy love. how grand it is……